Nikki Posted October 2, 2013 Share Posted October 2, 2013 (edited) PLEASE SEE: this post about benefits of journalling and links to some helpful sites Journaling has always been a good tool for me. This morning in one of my daily readers it said 'no matter how preposterous you think a fear might be write it down on paper. Look at it, dissect it and journal towards a possible solution. So I made a list. Fortunately I did have the time to journal and read. It helped a great deal. I get stuck inside my own head. Why I don't know. Is it how I am wired, does it stem from medications, is it an anxiety symptom, is it on-going stress???? I am suggesting this as a way to turn things around in the morning or anytime. Or at least that is how it works for me. I pray for the day when I won't need this tool on a daily basis..... Journaling is a way for me to put things down in an uncensored manner. Problem and then the Solution. Sometimes I make a Gratitude list. Hugs Edited October 27, 2020 by ChessieCat added PLEASE SEE 1 Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1902-nikki-hi-my-rundown-with-ads/ Paxil 1997-2004 Crossed over to Lexapro Paxil not available at Pharmacies GSK halted deliveries Lexapro 40mgs Lexapro taper (2years) Imipramine Imipramine and Celexa Now Nefazadone/Imipramine 50mgs. each 45mgs. Serzone 50mgs. Imipramine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MaryKA Posted October 9, 2013 Share Posted October 9, 2013 I get stuck inside my own head. Why I don't know. Is it how I am wired, does it stem from medications, is it an anxiety symptom, is it on-going stress???? Hi Nikki, saw on one of your threads that you have others and saw this, which made me think of generalised anxiety disorder, to which I think I have a tendency at times (curiously not at the moment in a time of stress, probably cos I've done something about it...). Journalilng is probably a good idea. BUT I realised my GAD and got some info and tools through eCouch in Australia (start at https://ecouch.anu.edu.au/new_users/mhl_portal/info/depression/dep_treatments_info/cbt). It is CBT based. Started citalopram May 12, from 10 to 40 mg/d over 2 months Wanted to come off in May 13 and did it too quickly: decrease from 40 to 0 mg/d over 2 weeks; WD from then onwards, increasing in intensity to be unbearable at 4 weeks later; reinstated 10 mg/d for 2 days (WD severity halved); reinstated 20 mg/d (initial WD symptoms decreased but not gone entirely until after 8 weeks) Started 5--7% taper: Aug 13: 19 mg/d, mild WD on day 3; thereafter none notable; Nov 13: 18 mg/d, no WD; Dec 13: 17 mg/day, no WD for 3 weeks, then (at Christmas) tearfulness; Jan 14: 16.7 mg/d, Apr 14: 15.7 mg/d, Jun 14: 14.5 mg/d; Jul 14: 13.5 mg/d (6.9% reduction), Aug 14: 12.5 mg/d (7.4% reduction) Sharing experience makes a difference Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted December 1, 2014 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 1, 2014 I came across this site today and it is very interesting. How writing about feelings is as good as talking. People who talk about traumas and grief recover faster than those who keep it inside, and writing can be a good outlet too. http://www.bakadesuyo.com/2014/11/how-to-deal-with-anxiety/?utm_source=%22Barking+Up+The+Wrong+Tree **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted March 15, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 15, 2015 I came across this site today and it is very interesting. How writing about feelings is as good as talking. People who talk about traumas and grief recover faster than those who keep it inside, and writing can be a good outlet too. http://www.bakadesuyo.com/2014/11/how-to-deal-with-anxiety/?utm_source="Barking+Up+The+Wrong+Tree I wonder if posting on sites like this one is considered talking, or writing? Seems like a hybrid. I think writing on here has helped me lots. I don't really think it matters where you write personally but it's the engagement that is good. It helps to put things into perspective. I kept diaries sporadically and let everything out onto the pages. I wrote letters too, to people who had hurt me but never posted them, just wrote them then burned them. I remember one to my dad, the feeling of the flames eating it up were liberating. That was when I let the abuse go. Didn't forget, you never forget, but writing that letter and burning it let it all go. I keep buying notebooks to write in but since the internet and especially since this forum I don't write on paper any more but still get it out onto the screen. As for getting off the couch, I have used a timer for years! Watching tv I get up when the ads come on, and do something. Anything as long as I am moving. I use the timer for cleaning, it is overwhelming when there is so much to do and zero energy or motivation but setting the timer for just 5 minutes means something gets done, and often it is just what is needed to get going and the 5 minutes turns to 10 , 15 etc. I don't stop until the timer goes off but allow myself to stop once the time is up. If I'm up to it I do 5 minutes in each room, if I didn't do it this way nothing would ever get done! **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted October 9, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 9, 2016 (edited) . Journalling can be therapeutic and also an excellent way of getting your thoughts out of your head. Sometimes our thoughts just seem to go around like a merry-go-round and we can't seem to stop them. At other times we are trying to make sense of something and have many different thoughts/memories in our mind but can't make any connection between them or put the pieces together. When we struggle to collect our thoughts in our head it can be very difficult especially if we need to make a decision about something. This is where private or therapy journalling can be helpful. You can write your thoughts on paper, type them into a document on a computer (this has the added security of being able to password protect the document), or if you use a smart phone, a journalling diary app. Journalling can also be used in addition to therapy, or combined with face to face therapy. On the web: http://www.mytherapy...com/whyjournal/ “Why Journaling Works The benefits of journaling have been scientifically proven to: Improve physical health and mental well-being Diminish symptoms of depression, anxiety, panic, substance abuse, PTSD, asthma, arthritis, and many other health conditions and disorders Improve cognitive functioning Make therapy more effective Strengthen the immune system, preventing a host of illnesses Counteract many of the negative effects of stress Finally, journaling is for everyone. It just 'feels good' to write” Includes: Explanation of the science. https://en.wikipedia...Journal_therapy “Journal therapy is a type of writing therapy that focuses on the writer’s internal experiences, thoughts and feelings. Journal therapy uses reflective writing so that the writer can receive mental and emotional clarity, validate experiences and come to a deeper understanding of him or herself. Journal therapy can also be used to express difficult material or access previously inaccessible material. Like other forms of therapy, journal therapy can be used to heal a writer’s emotional or physical problems or work through a trauma, such as illness, addiction, relationship problems etc.[1] Journal therapy can be added to therapy, or can take place in group therapy or self-directed therapy. History Effects Practice Techniques Setting” https://www.quora.co...s-of-journaling “What are the therapeutic benefits of journaling?” See: Excellent response part way down the page by Forbes Thelma (after Related Questions links) https://www.psycholo...ling-in-therapy “Therapy is more than attending a weekly appointment. It's entering into a period of introspection that can last weeks or years. The session is a time where many of the insights and observations happen, but it need not be limited to that hour. In fact, for the best results, it shouldn't (research validating this here). Clients are allowed introspect all they want between sessions, and writing is a great way to focus and articulate their thoughts and feelings.” http://www.goodthera...journal-therapy “Journal therapy, also referred to as journal writing therapy or simply writing therapy, involves the therapeutic use of journaling exercises and prompts to bring about awareness and improve mental health conditions as a result of inner and outer conflicts. According to the Center for Journal Therapy, it is the “the purposeful and intentional use of reflective writing to further mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual health and wellness.” Though there are few professionals who specialize solely in journal therapy, many psychotherapists incorporate therapeutic journal writing into their treatment.” Includes: What Is the Difference between Journal Therapy and Keeping a Journal? How Does Journal Therapy Work? Journal Therapy Exercises and Prompts Tips for Therapeutic Journal Writing Limitations of Journal Therapy Research and Studies Related to Journal Therapy https://www.urmc.roc...&ContentID=4552 Includes: Journaling for Mental Health Journaling Benefits Journaling How-To http://lifehacker.co...ours-1547057185 “Some of the most influential people in history kept detailed journals of their lives. Those journals served two purposes: a permanent record for posterity, and cathartic release for the people writing them. Even if you don't think you need either, keeping a journal has great benefits you can enjoy immediately. Here's why you might want to sit down regularly to jot down your thoughts. Even if you don't think there'll ever be a documentary that uses your journal for flavor commentary, there are plenty of reasons to keep one for yourself. Maybe you want to leave something behind for your children that tells your story and what you accomplished. Maybe you're more practical, and want a way to harness your creativity. Maybe you just want the cathartic release that comes with regular writing. Whatever it is, these are all great reasons. Let's look at each one, and why they matter so much.” Includes: Regular Writing has Mental Health Benefits (includes links within to other information) Keeping a Journal Helps Harness Your Creativity Even If You Don't Do Creative Work, Regular Writing Has Practical Benefits Which Medium You Should Choose, and Why (includes Journaling and Diary Apps; Blogging) The Health Benefits of Journaling - Psych Central Edited October 27, 2020 by ChessieCat Additonal link added/removed obsolete note * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Daisy Posted October 9, 2016 Share Posted October 9, 2016 I agree! Thank you for your thoughtfulness and hard work. Daisy Effexor XL 2009-2012. CT 150mg Effexor XR 2012, Effexor XR 75mg 2012 then rapid taper to 0, Reinstated Effexor XR 13mg then updosed to 20mg, Tapered to 18mg Effexor XR 4/9/12, Off Effexor XL ?Reinstated Effexor XL 150 mgs August 2012, Crashed in November 2012, Prozac 40 mgs 2012 to Feb 2018, Buspar 60 mgs 2012-stopped 2015, Remeron 7.5 mgs as needed for sleep-stopped Feb 2017, Prozac 50 mgs Feb 2018 to March 2018, Lexapro 5 mgs March 18 2018 to May 17th 2018, Lexapro 2.5 mgs May 18th to May 26th 2018, Prozac 10 mgs May 15th 2018, Prozac 5 mgs May 19th 2018 to current day May 28th 2018, Xanax 0.25 mgs to 0.5 mgs daily for over 15 years. Increased Xanax to 1.5 mgs Sept 2012, Tapered Xanax to 0 mgs May 2013.Reinstated Xanax Feb 2017 at 0.125 mgs as needed, Gradual increase of Xanax to 1.5 mgs daily till May 22nd 2018, Xanax 1.25 mgs daily. Holding Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted October 10, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 10, 2016 (edited) Thanks Daisy. Much appreciated. Edited October 15, 2016 by ChessieCat Link removed & added to Post #1 * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus JanCarol Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 20, 2016 (edited) I'm going to add to this, because journalling is not always about writing, it's about expression, about gaining access to those parts of yourself that you cannot get to in ordinary reality - of finding those places which are blocked off. I am willing to share the journals of my "spiritual emergency" to give you a feel for what they can do, what they can be. I am no artist, but I am an explorer. I believe that it is as important to have paint and pencils and crayons and pens and magazines for collages - as it is to use words. A journal is a total expression of your interior, and it may not have anything to do with words. Over the next hour, I will post some beautiful pages from my "Black book." (Jung had a Red one). I don't know that there is any magical insight or answers here - or even that there is anything incriminating or revealing here. It is a display of process. So with that said - welcome to my "Breakdown 1995" - Edited September 20, 2017 by JanCarol update photos "Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again. My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices. A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made. The tedious thread (my intro): JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium The happy thread (my success story): JanCarol - Undiagnosed Off all bipolar drugs My own blog: https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/ I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus JanCarol Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 20, 2016 (edited) Open to Beauty 1994 Time for me to Fly - song lyrics, watercolour, collage - and prescription! Time To Fly - going deeper with collage and watercolour: Edited September 20, 2017 by JanCarol update photos "Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again. My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices. A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made. The tedious thread (my intro): JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium The happy thread (my success story): JanCarol - Undiagnosed Off all bipolar drugs My own blog: https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/ I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus JanCarol Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 20, 2016 (edited) Blue thoughts on Thanksgiving 1994: Storytelling: 1994 Baby Dream (2 pages, the 2nd page is entirely red) Edited September 20, 2017 by JanCarol update photos "Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again. My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices. A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made. The tedious thread (my intro): JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium The happy thread (my success story): JanCarol - Undiagnosed Off all bipolar drugs My own blog: https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/ I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus JanCarol Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 20, 2016 (edited) 1994 Chamomile in Snow (was I trying to bloom in an unforgiving clime?) 1995 - Separation from Husband, alone again: 1995 - Explosions - stretched, burdened - intense: Edited September 20, 2017 by JanCarol "Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again. My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices. A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made. The tedious thread (my intro): JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium The happy thread (my success story): JanCarol - Undiagnosed Off all bipolar drugs My own blog: https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/ I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus JanCarol Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 20, 2016 (edited) Darker times, as I lose friends, lose my personality, lose myself. Undeserving: Emerging (but this is a conflict) Emergence into full blown crisis: Edited September 20, 2017 by JanCarol Update photos "Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again. My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices. A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made. The tedious thread (my intro): JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium The happy thread (my success story): JanCarol - Undiagnosed Off all bipolar drugs My own blog: https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/ I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus JanCarol Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 20, 2016 (edited) OK just 3 more. There were pages of these colours in various arrangements - writings - divinations - trying to figure it out - still working full time, but crazy and wild in all my spare time. I finally organized it into a tree, which I call (from reading the writings around it): 1995 Sick: I did a drawing of how my body felt - looking at the colours, I can see that I felt awfully good - TOO good for all the stuff that was going on around and within me. So I call this one: 1995 How I Feel - "Mania" (Notice my crown, my connection to God is grey = blind = agnosia, separation) It got a lot worse after this, this was one of the last coherent entries in the journal - the next book got bizarre. I journaled like this for 5 years, and I credit this work for helping with my current sense of integration, of acceptance of all the myriad forms of myself. In this one, I worked really hard on the colour. I was obsessed with the colour. It took me days and days of blending to get exactly this colour (as I remember). I'll call this "I want to heal, I want to hope, I want to believe." So - there is a cursory glance at a breakdown in a journal. It was fascinating for me to look at that - I've actually been afraid to look at it for many years, but now, older, hopefully more settled and wiser, I find it is not so dangerous, not so scary. I can see where I was losing everything I thought I was, everyone I knew was angry with me for what was happening. It was NOT socially acceptable. I was struggling. This condition was eventually drugged, but for the most part, I was coherent enough and able to maintain my crazy side apart from my work. Though I lost friends, I alienated potential friends, and did manage to come out on the other side. I was 33 years old. By 34 I "looked" sane, but did not truly emerge from this until around 1999, when I accepted the "bipolar diagnosis." By then, I needed the drugs to look normal. So really, this is the seed of what I am coming out of now, as I come back to feelings, to being undrugged. My hope to heal, is coming true. Edited September 20, 2017 by JanCarol update photos "Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again. My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices. A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made. The tedious thread (my intro): JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium The happy thread (my success story): JanCarol - Undiagnosed Off all bipolar drugs My own blog: https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/ I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Frogie Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Share Posted October 20, 2016 (edited) You were so brave to share this. Mine is soooooooo ugly, words, that I wouldn't want anyone to see it! Edited October 20, 2016 by JanCarol deleted quote of above post, for clean scrolling PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. Last dose June 24, 2024 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus JanCarol Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 20, 2016 You were so brave to share this. Mine is soooooooo ugly, words, that I wouldn't want anyone to see it! Not so brave Frogie. It was 20 years ago now. I didn't share all my ugly obsessions over men (does he love me? Will he come to see me?) and interpreting signs (what could be called "delusions") and not sleeping and losing 40 pounds. This is just a taste of a journey over a few months - a sliver of the "prettier bits" of a very tumultuous time. And again, it got worse, after the redbud tree. Then I surrendered to an abusive controlling relationship that I thought was spiritual but ended up stripping me of all meaning and purpose. What I've come to, is a place of forgiveness. I was doing the best I could, and failing miserably - but I forgive myself because I believe I have learned more about being warm, caring, listening, compassionate - characteristics that I failed at then. I have 2 letters in that journal - one from the ex, one from a best friend - telling me how cold and judgemental and selfish I was, and that they were considering having nothing more to do with me. That was just before the "Undeserving" picture. This is just a sample of different ways to express extreme emotional states, to work it through, using a journal. Sadly, after about 1998, the computer came, and I was torn - it's easier to write on a computer - but some things fit better in a notebook (like pictures and collages and concert tickets). So my journal got splintered into a few different places - and much of it ended up as content on forums, or letters to people. Like all of the things I post here on SA - would normally, rightfully, go in a journal. But I just don't have the strength to post it twice. So a lot of what I write these days is set free, like a bird, to fly where it will. "Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again. My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices. A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made. The tedious thread (my intro): JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium The happy thread (my success story): JanCarol - Undiagnosed Off all bipolar drugs My own blog: https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/ I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Frogie Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Share Posted October 20, 2016 You were so brave to share this. Mine is soooooooo ugly, words, that I wouldn't want anyone to see it! Not so brave Frogie. It was 20 years ago now. I didn't share all my ugly obsessions over men (does he love me? Will he come to see me?) and interpreting signs (what could be called "delusions") and not sleeping and losing 40 pounds. This is just a taste of a journey over a few months - a sliver of the "prettier bits" of a very tumultuous time. And again, it got worse, after the redbud tree. Then I surrendered to an abusive controlling relationship that I thought was spiritual but ended up stripping me of all meaning and purpose. What I've come to, is a place of forgiveness. I was doing the best I could, and failing miserably - but I forgive myself because I believe I have learned more about being warm, caring, listening, compassionate - characteristics that I failed at then. I have 2 letters in that journal - one from the ex, one from a best friend - telling me how cold and judgemental and selfish I was, and that they were considering having nothing more to do with me. That was just before the "Undeserving" picture. This is just a sample of different ways to express extreme emotional states, to work it through, using a journal. Sadly, after about 1998, the computer came, and I was torn - it's easier to write on a computer - but some things fit better in a notebook (like pictures and collages and concert tickets). So my journal got splintered into a few different places - and much of it ended up as content on forums, or letters to people. Like all of the things I post here on SA - would normally, rightfully, go in a journal. But I just don't have the strength to post it twice. So a lot of what I write these days is set free, like a bird, to fly where it will. Right now my journaling is a lot of screaming at people and hating what is happening to me. I don't draw I just write. It gets really ugly sometimes. I will write letters to people but never would I send them! I will probably journal after therapy today. It's my youngest sons birthday and I haven't spoken to him in almost 8 years, a very sad day today. And I'm sick to my stomach because of it PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. Last dose June 24, 2024 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus JanCarol Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 20, 2016 LOL there was plenty of that in there, too. Letters I wrote that I never sent. Obsessive poetry trying to explain relationships to people. Please don't abandon me letters. Efforts at divination, trying to get the answer that I wanted (which wasn't there). "He loves me, he loves me not." Again, this was a sample, a little view of a process. It's not there for content, but for form, to demonstrate a different way of journalling. It's easier to access, for me, those feelings when I would use a brush. It was more pleasureable to write on a page that I had spackled or washed with paint. "Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again. My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices. A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made. The tedious thread (my intro): JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium The happy thread (my success story): JanCarol - Undiagnosed Off all bipolar drugs My own blog: https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/ I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Frogie Posted October 20, 2016 Moderator Share Posted October 20, 2016 LOL there was plenty of that in there, too. Letters I wrote that I never sent. Obsessive poetry trying to explain relationships to people. Please don't abandon me letters. Efforts at divination, trying to get the answer that I wanted (which wasn't there). "He loves me, he loves me not." Again, this was a sample, a little view of a process. It's not there for content, but for form, to demonstrate a different way of journalling. It's easier to access, for me, those feelings when I would use a brush. It was more pleasureable to write on a page that I had spackled or washed with paint. Today will be a good journaling day like I said. I go to therapy and I'm going to write to my youngest son. Today he is 26 and haven't spoken to him in almost 8 years. Get to write things to him he will never hear, it's a real shame. But that's how you heal. I color a lot. I colored with my neighbor yesterday and then she came over and we sat in the hottub. Nice day finally. PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. Last dose June 24, 2024 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BogiesGirl26 Posted November 4, 2016 Share Posted November 4, 2016 JanCarol I think your journaling is beautiful. I am very new here to this forum but I had to comment and say your work truly inspires me to journal my way through this. I have just quit Prozac cold turkey and searching for ways I can handle my anxiety without drugs. I hate the way Prozac makes me feel. But I am afraid for when it's completely out of my system that the anger and rage will start. That I don't know how to handle. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Frogie Posted November 6, 2016 Moderator Share Posted November 6, 2016 I'm not JanCarol obviously, but her work is beautiful. She is a beautiful person to speak with also. I'm sorry you are having such a bad time with Prozac. I hope you feel better soon. I did a stupid thing before I found SA and cut my Lexapro in 1/2 and I'm paying for that now. Take care. PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. Last dose June 24, 2024 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus Shep Posted December 14, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 14, 2016 Wow, tons of great information on this page! And Jan's artwork is an added bonus. I found this really great website full of people writing through their trauma: How Life Unfolds - Letters of Peace It's often the people who have been directly touched by violence or cruelty who have the most faith in humanity. We asked some of these remarkable individuals to put pen to paper and write Letters of Peace to the world so we can all be inspired by their words. And if you're interested in sharing your own Letter of Peace with the world, you can do so on Twitter at #lettersofpeace Some examples are shared in letter and via video on the website. Very inspirational. And there's a great article on how writing can help, as well as how to get started: Pen, Paper, Power! Five Benefits of Journal Writing Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LostInMarshes Posted December 17, 2016 Share Posted December 17, 2016 It's painful to journal for me, though I used to do it aplenty. I write in English and since it's not my first language and the persona I've developed to assimilate into this culture is not 100% me, I feel distant from myself. Then I switch to writing in my native language in the same monologue, and feel far away from "her" too. Scares me. Last time I enjoyed journaling was mid-journey into these drugs. Maybe they are to blame for this. 2000: Paxil, low dose. 2001: Paxil, quickly tapered off. 2006: Zoloft, 25mg. 2007: Wellbutrin, low dose, discontinued after a week or a month. 2007-2009: Zoloft, increasing dose (up to 75mg). 2009-2011: Zoloft, failed withdrawal attempts (cold-turkey; fast tapering). 2009-2011: Trying out Cymbalta, Celexa, Prozac, Lexapro, Ambien, Ativan, and Xanax. 2012-2015: Zoloft, 100mg to 200mg. 2013: Trazadone for Zoloft-induced insomnia, 25mg to 50mg. 2015: Trileptal, dose?, withdrew; Bupropion, up to 200mg. 2016: Zoloft, 137mg, Bupropion, 150mg, Trazodone, 25mg. 05/21/16: Began Zoloft taper - 10% from 150mg - 137ish mg 06/23/16: Zoloft taper - 125mg 08/03/16: Bupropion XL taper - cut 150mg pill in crude half (mistake) 10/31: Zoloft successfully down to 100mg. Staying on 100mg for 2-3 months to let my brain rest. 11/09: Wellbutrin SR prescribed, 150mg once a day, for withdrawal. 12/11: Wellbutrin SR, twice daily - minus 18ishmg = 112.50mg 09/30/17: Off Wellbutrin SR successfully. Zoloft taper: 90ish mg (shaving it off). Trazodone: still at 50mg. June 2018: Zoloft: 80ish (shaving off). Trazodone: 6mg. End of 2018: Off Trazodone. 01/20: Zoloft: 70ish? 08/20: Still around 80 or 70. Tapering by only 15 shaves each month. August 2024: 10mg!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted December 17, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 17, 2016 It's painful to journal for me, though I used to do it aplenty. I write in English and since it's not my first language and the persona I've developed to assimilate into this culture is not 100% me, I feel distant from myself. Then I switch to writing in my native language in the same monologue, and feel far away from "her" too. Scares me. Last time I enjoyed journaling was mid-journey into these drugs. Maybe they are to blame for this. Journalling as discussed here is not for enjoyment or pleasure but as a tool for dealing with past or current issues, maybe recognising thought patterns and possible triggers, finding and learning ways to cope using non-drug techniques. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
apathetic Posted June 16, 2017 Share Posted June 16, 2017 I find that journaling really helps me to cope and I'm journaling my whole life, I'm planning to publish a book when I organize my writings and when I'm a bit better. Have any of you heard about bullet journal ? I started it recently. Here is what it is --- http://bulletjournal.com/ You can track your habits there, write your thoughts, dreams (I'm analyzing my dreams with my psychiatrist), make to-do lists (helps me because I'm forgetting a lot), track your medication usage (that would be really useful for us who are tapering)... And the point of it isn't to look beautiful at all, but making it beautiful can be a great distraction (because most of the people make it look like it's something not everyone can do).Here are some examples of what it looks like: (none of these pictures are mine)Habit tracker Medication chart Dream log etc. You can track anything there, write anything you want, draw... It's a journal just for you. Mine doesn't look that beautiful as those in those pictures, but to me - that doesn't matter, and it in general doesn't matter, that's why anyone can do it. Wanted to share an idea, maybe someone would find it interesting. My withdrawal journey (click) "If you're going through hell - keep going". Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted June 26, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 26, 2017 That sounds cool! I don't do a bullet journal exactly, but I use 5X8 moleskines for my journal, carry them with me most places, and fill them up quickly. Definitely it doesn't matter if a journal is a "beautiful" bullet journal and I agree that that can be distracting to its intended purpose! 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted June 26, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 26, 2017 I keep a daily record of how I'm doing symptom-wise (0 is great, 5 is very bad) for both AM and PM, plus any special stressors that may've affected my state, plus how many hours I sleep and how interrupted it is. I also include other factors such as gluten intake (now are). The literary quality doesn't matter to me; I consider myself doing well just to get it down there. It is very helpful to me. Healing to all of you. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of Sept 25: 3.6mg Taper is 95% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase, L-Glutamine, milk thistle, choline I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice. It is information based on my own experience as well as that of other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted June 26, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 26, 2017 Cool, Gridley. I find I have to be somewhat careful w/symptom tracking because the obsessive part of my brain (I originally went on Paxil for OCD) can kind of get rolling with that. Especially early on in recovery. I think I've reached a pretty good balance now. It helps that most things are the same (amount of sleep; same supplements; extremely infrequent med changes). It's cool to hear others' experiences! 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
apathetic Posted August 14, 2017 Share Posted August 14, 2017 Hello again. Searched a bit about bullet journaling for mental health, and found this: 21 ways to track your mental health in a journal Even more ideas on how to track your MH They are also recommending making a "Done" instead of "To-do" list, because that makes you feel more accomplished. Personally, they used to help me but right now, to-do lists demotivate me even more than I am already demotivated to do things because I can't do much, and by writing down what have I done that day helps me more. Planning again to start a habit tracker for some important things such as taking a daily walk for at least couple of minutes (without music), seeing my dog at least once in 2 days and playing with her, reading a self-help book, etc. I think that now I can do those things because the dose is reduced and I am a little bit more functional than I was. It was hard for me to track my habits because all I could do whole day was lying in bed and doing nothing in general. What I'm also using a bullet journal for is to track questions that I want to ask my doctor, because I am forgetful. I need to take this all more seriously than I did. But I don't blame myself, I'm blaming the drug. My withdrawal journey (click) "If you're going through hell - keep going". Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted August 14, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 14, 2017 3 hours ago, apathetic said: track questions that I want to ask my doctor, because I am forgetful And then remember to take it with you * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anna42 Posted November 23, 2021 Share Posted November 23, 2021 I have been kinda obsessed with this theme for the last free days, and I came here with some terms you can Google and book titles you can buy if you can afford them Terms: journal prompts ( you can add any word before it to make them thematic, like depression journal prompts) Guided journal (basically books of prompts, if you add PDF in the end you can even find free ones, if they exist) Book titles: ACT daily journal (acceptance and commitment therapy guided journal) Zen as f*ck My therapist told me I should journal Cheaper then therapy. In amazon similar or in goodreads lists you can find a plethora of similar titles. Good reads is also a great resource for reviews. There are also books with writing and art prompts like wreck this journal. as well as sites with those. I also like zentangle, it was mentioned in art therapy, but it is very meditative. Hope it was somewhat useful, can not provide links easily, as I am on my phone 2018 - july 2019 - Paxil plus atypical AP July 2019 - November 2019 - Velofaxin November 2019 - December 2019 - AP that made me active and productive and then anxious and ahedonic January 2020 - Anafranil + Aripiprazol July 2021 - stopped cold Turkey Late october 2021 till now - Zoloft 100 mg + Aripiprazol 5 mg Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anna42 Posted November 23, 2021 Share Posted November 23, 2021 Title that can be mentioned also is "step out of your own story" which teaches you a technique of rewriting your story used in narrative therapy 2018 - july 2019 - Paxil plus atypical AP July 2019 - November 2019 - Velofaxin November 2019 - December 2019 - AP that made me active and productive and then anxious and ahedonic January 2020 - Anafranil + Aripiprazol July 2021 - stopped cold Turkey Late october 2021 till now - Zoloft 100 mg + Aripiprazol 5 mg Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dragoon909 Posted December 9, 2022 Share Posted December 9, 2022 (edited) Creating your own medicine: Journaling Hi there everyone, I'm fairly new to this forum. As I recently had a setback due to stress. I got to thinking on my journey to manage stress: the best medicine is self-care when it comes to stress and anxiety. One way of handling stress I find is writing and creativity. I was thinking of printing out and wiring my own journal, where my flow of thoughts and stresses could just "river" onto the pages. I personally believe getting a good grip on stress definitely helps in life in general and wd. Do you journal? Does it help you? Have you ever thought about creating your own journal: Today's date: What I'm stressed about: What can I do to help: Mood: so on.... I really believe it's beneficial along with perhaps a good diet and meditation. Thanks for reading, Dragoon 🦋 Edited December 23, 2022 by manymoretodays merged and added title Was on Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien, Klonopin and Depakote for several years. Came off Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien and Depakote c/t in 2009. Came off Klonopin in 2012. I forget the dosage other than 4mg of Klonopin. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mezzer Posted December 10, 2022 Share Posted December 10, 2022 Hi dragoon are you still on meds 1993 started 20mg Prozac. 2008 switched to 10mg of lexapro. 2015 added 50mg of Wellbutrin. Between 2015 and 2020 raised and lowered dosage of both. 2021 moved to Zoloft for one month then back to lexapro for one month. Then switched to 60mg cymbalta for four months. Then Basically cold turkeyed off cymbalta in two weeks using Prozac as a crossover med to reduce withdrawals. Not good. Then had Nortriptylene added to Prozac. Was on 20mg Prozac and 50mg of Nortriptylene for four months. Then did a four month ween off Nortriptylene. To date have been off cymbalta for approximately 11 months and Nortriptylene 7 weeks. Presently taking 12.5 mg Prozac. Also taking 10 mg of bystolic for BLood Pressure. I’m not sure how the Prozac makes me feel. It does nothing to make me feel not sad and anxious at times. I finally figured out the meds are not what I need. What I need is to get off the 12.5mg of Prozac and continue to work on my stuff. Any help is deeply appreciated thank you. Reduced from 12.5 to 10 then from 10 to 7.5. Too much of a drop. Bought a scale and went to 9. Stabilized and went to 8.2 oct 1, 2022. Just got hit with wicked low mood, high anxiety, fatigue, chills. The anxiety is high in the AM and lessons throughout the day. Hoping to stabilize soon Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dragoon909 Posted December 11, 2022 Share Posted December 11, 2022 43 minutes ago, Mezzer said: Hi dragoon are you still on meds No, I've been off for 10 years. I had a setback after major stress and stupid me took a supplement on top of it. I was completely healed until this small setback. It was my own fault though for not controlling stress and taking that supplement. I have some derealization going on... I hope it gets better soon. Whatever you do, please control stress!!! You'll be fine ❤️ Was on Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien, Klonopin and Depakote for several years. Came off Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien and Depakote c/t in 2009. Came off Klonopin in 2012. I forget the dosage other than 4mg of Klonopin. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mezzer Posted December 11, 2022 Share Posted December 11, 2022 Thank you, I journal not often as I forget. I’m tapering still and struggling to stabilize. Sorry to hear a supplement set you back. I surprised it could do that after you’ve been off for so long 1993 started 20mg Prozac. 2008 switched to 10mg of lexapro. 2015 added 50mg of Wellbutrin. Between 2015 and 2020 raised and lowered dosage of both. 2021 moved to Zoloft for one month then back to lexapro for one month. Then switched to 60mg cymbalta for four months. Then Basically cold turkeyed off cymbalta in two weeks using Prozac as a crossover med to reduce withdrawals. Not good. Then had Nortriptylene added to Prozac. Was on 20mg Prozac and 50mg of Nortriptylene for four months. Then did a four month ween off Nortriptylene. To date have been off cymbalta for approximately 11 months and Nortriptylene 7 weeks. Presently taking 12.5 mg Prozac. Also taking 10 mg of bystolic for BLood Pressure. I’m not sure how the Prozac makes me feel. It does nothing to make me feel not sad and anxious at times. I finally figured out the meds are not what I need. What I need is to get off the 12.5mg of Prozac and continue to work on my stuff. Any help is deeply appreciated thank you. Reduced from 12.5 to 10 then from 10 to 7.5. Too much of a drop. Bought a scale and went to 9. Stabilized and went to 8.2 oct 1, 2022. Just got hit with wicked low mood, high anxiety, fatigue, chills. The anxiety is high in the AM and lessons throughout the day. Hoping to stabilize soon Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dragoon909 Posted December 11, 2022 Share Posted December 11, 2022 1 hour ago, Mezzer said: Thank you, I journal not often as I forget. I’m tapering still and struggling to stabilize. Sorry to hear a supplement set you back. I surprised it could do that after you’ve been off for so long It didn't set me back like the beginning. I had some major stress going on. I'm functional, but just dealing with derealization. Was on Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien, Klonopin and Depakote for several years. Came off Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien and Depakote c/t in 2009. Came off Klonopin in 2012. I forget the dosage other than 4mg of Klonopin. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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