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Hello y'all!

 

I'm a 24 years old med student from Europe and I took Escitalopram three years ago for anxiety and OCD. It exacerbatet the problems and led to PSSD. To counter the PSSD i recently took Trazodone and then Bupropion and after the bupropion i had a major crash and developed a blank mind, brainfog, complete emotional numbness as well as full body numbness. After two months I had windows where I felt almost back to normal until I crashed another time and now everything is even worse. What gives me a bit of hope is the fact that after this huge crash I had also some windows, but I also am in despair because I crashed after the drug witdrawal and I read the stories of Sofa and Totenkopf who never really recovered. What is now very bad is the fact that i cannot sleep at all. Like my mind is so blank that i just exist in a constant state of nothingness and I cant fall asleep at all. I slept about 1 hour in the last three days. I am super afraid that i die because I may be not able to fall asleep ever again. Thank you for your help!

 

Taurus

Edited by manymoretodays
name to title

Escitalopram from 03/2020 to 10/2020 Taper over 1 month
Trazodone for two months in 2022 tapered in 8 days
Bupropion fro two weeks in 2023 Cold turkey

  • manymoretodays changed the title to Taurus: Will I be like this for the rest of my life?
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Hi, @Taurus.

 

Welcome to Surviving Antidepressants.

 

Please let us know more about the timeline of when you were on these drugs. The best way to do this is to set up a signature. Here is how:

 

How to Summarize Your Drug History in Your Signature

 

A direct link to your signature is here:

 

 Account Settings – Create or Edit a signature

 

Once we have this timeline, we can give you more targeted advice. 

 

Please continue to use this thread to document your taper and recovery. 

 

 

  • 5 months later...
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Hello, @Taurus How are you doing?

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  • 6 months later...
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How are you doing Now?

 

01/2017-12/2022 ~6 Years on Generic Escilitopram (5mg-20mg) because of repetitive panic attacks and anxiety that lead to depression. My tapering was not tapering as I read here. I consider it CT because of wrong directions of docs, I went from 20mg to 5mg in a short amount of time and then jumped to 0mg.

•01/07/23 Took maca root powder for pssd for 4 days only which I think worsened my symptoms a lot.(Not sure if that was the cause or what came was supposed to come)
•15/07/23-01/08/23 Prebagalin) 2x50mg

01/08/23 - 05/08/23.  75x50mg

06/08/23 - 18/08/23 2x75mg an then reduced 19/09/23 - 23-09 to 75x50mg 

24/09/23 - 1/12/23 2x50mg.

1/12/22- ongoing  2x45mg( on first week of December happened a mistake in liquid I made and took 4  times double dose  )

15/01/24 -  ongoing occasional 5mg  diazepam for anxiety.


 

 

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