Freezyzd Posted July 16, 2023 Share Posted July 16, 2023 (edited) SSRI ruining me For the past 3 months I have been dealing with anxiety and it had been hard for me to leave home. But I still felt happy in a way and stayed positive and at least could be brought joy from talking on the phone with my girlfriend or playing video games, movies etc. I finally decided to get help and it ended up being the worst decision of my life. 12 days ago my psychiatrist gave me lexapro and I regret it so much for taking it and I hate him for giving it to me. Like I just had anxiety I wasn’t depressed:/ I took one pill literally one pill and I haven’t been the same since first day started having suicidal thoughts from it and this eventually subsided. Over the course til now I have felt so numb feeling no emotions no happiness no joy no more excitement. And it’s really taking a toll on me. Me and my girlfriend were supposed to finally be moving in together in 6 weeks and I had some of the best upcoming months of life. Now I can’t feel anything or enjoy anything and it’s like what’s the point or purpose. I’ve seen people have dealt with this for years with no improvement. At least with the anxiety I was happy. It’s so unfair for my girlfriend to have to deal with this. This is truly devastating and I haven’t moved from my bed since. It’s crazy to think that one pill completely changed me and ruined my life over night and I’m only 21 years old:/ My parents think this will just go away and tells me like people have done much worse drugs and they have good lives now but they totally don’t understand but I mean how could they. I hope this feed can turn into a recovery story Edited July 17, 2023 by manymoretodays name to topic title Link to comment
Freezyzd Posted July 19, 2023 Author Share Posted July 19, 2023 Hi my name is zay I recently have been struggling with anxiety for the past 3 months. It had been affecting the quality of my life and just made it very hard for me to leave home. I eventually decided to get help and 15 days ago I got prescribed lexapro 10mg. I took one pill and hours later everything changed. I started to experience su***** thoughts “something I’ve never had before” and just more panic and anxiety and that made me scared. I called my psych immediately and was told not to take it anymore. After a day or 2 the thoughts started to subside but that was when I realized I just did not feel like my self, I cannot feel my emotions and I have no motivation, no appetite, and I just can’t seem to get enjoyment out of any thing I do or even music doesn’t feel the same. Also the thoughts still come from time to time too but they’re not as strong as they were the first couple of days. This has really been taking a toll on me stressing and being anxious if I will ever return to my pre self as I am only 21 years old. I am just looking for guidance and wondering if I’m going to be stuck this way as the anxiety was nothing compared to this. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 25, 2023 Administrator Share Posted July 25, 2023 Welcome, @Freezyzd Among our members, we have a small group of people who never did get along very well with the antidepressant. Many have had severe adverse drug reactions (ADR) within a few doses. These people, who are tagged "immediate ADR", have symptoms that are like protracted withdrawal syndrome but they don't have withdrawal syndrome, they have similar symptoms because their nervous systems were upset by taking the drug. Their recovery is slow, with frustrating waves and windows, like people with withdrawal syndrome, but it seems their recovery isn’t as long. Since they had a serious ADR to an antidepressant, they probably should not consider reinstatement. Please read Immediate adverse reactions to an antidepressant or within a few doses? How long for recovery? Many people find fish oil and magnesium supplements helpful, see https://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/36-king-of-supplements-omega-3-fatty-acids-fish-oil/ https://survivingantidepressants.org/topic/15483-magnesium-natures-calcium-channel-blocker/ You might try a little bit of one at a time to see how it affects you. Please let us know how you’re doing. To help us out, follow these instructions Please summarize your drug and withdrawal history in your signature You may need to use a computer to do this. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Celeste1990 Posted June 1 Share Posted June 1 Hi @Freezyzd i also had an adverse reaction to Lexapro. How are you doing? 2012-2013 - 5mg Lexapro 2015-2016 - 5mg Lexapro (the above are approximate dates but each time i was taking it for at least 6 months) April 6, 2024 - one 10mg dose Lexapro and immediate adverse reaction Link to comment
Freezyzd Posted June 2 Author Share Posted June 2 I’d say 90% better than how I felt when I first came here. I haven’t been on here in quite some time honestly but I saw your message on my email. Anyways some things are just not the same but I feel like I’m at a point where I’m ok. After about 2 months I’d say everything just started flooding back to me I live life normal again but it is a little different then what it was before. But I feel like that’s because of the experience I had with the antidepressant. I can smile again I can feel again be sad when I’m supposed to. For me personally time just did the trick. I didn’t take any supplements or any different type of medications. But how are you what are your symptoms? Link to comment
Celeste1990 Posted June 3 Share Posted June 3 Thank you so much for your response! I’m so glad you’re doing much better. I’m two months out from my adverse reaction and really struggling. I’m a little different from you because my symptoms are completely physical. I have really bad dizziness during the day and at night I’ll twitch and jerk awake constantly. The only symptom that’s gotten better is ringing in my ears (that’s pretty much gone) but that was my least concerning symptom. I’m just so upset that one pill (and one small decision to take it) could completely change my life like this. I’m just so discouraged and see no light at the end of the tunnel. 2012-2013 - 5mg Lexapro 2015-2016 - 5mg Lexapro (the above are approximate dates but each time i was taking it for at least 6 months) April 6, 2024 - one 10mg dose Lexapro and immediate adverse reaction Link to comment
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