levai: Dpdr from cold turkey amitriptyline

[levai]

Hi All,

 

On aug 16 2022 I have started using amitriptyline 10mg prescribed by neurologist where I was having one sided headaches. After starting the medication I felt really sleepy through out the day I can't focus on work and dry mouth, however I read that for the medication to function we have to take for a longer period of time, i continued regardless of how I felt. But on sep 2nd week when I tried to sleep I would sleep for 5 mins and wake up with body jerks again and shock like sensation and not able to fall asleep. I felt really really bad that day.but i really exactly don't remember if I did take medication or not on that day but to my memory I think i also took it that day.next day I went to the same doc he said it's nothing just hypnic jerks but they were very bad I know how hypnic jerks feel they would clear in 5 mins not whole night,

 

then he prescribed other medication etilaam.pro 0.5 , i understood I was already making my self a mess wite medication and decided not to experiment any further . Then I stopped, next day i wasn't able to fall sleep I would sleep for 1hr and wake up with Nightmares, I would be half asleep , it was so horrible so i came back home . I genuinely thought it was happening because of medication(amitriptyline )side effects that I took I should never go on them, and next few weeks I would try to sleep but wake up in 2-3 hrs with Nightmares and couldn't fall asleep,also I would be half asleep , not fully awake or fully slept. But i didn't understand why all this was happening,

 

i was always analytical in my life , during this period I was asking myself why I am feeling so bad every day and insomnia. Maybe one day i thought due to caeffine, may be x may be y .. but now i understand none of it is a logical explanation. On Oct 22 still having sleep issues at night i just asked myself why iwas feeling so bad and i felt a shock , next min I couldn't recognise myself and all depersonalisation symptoms from them..

 

after few days i visited a psych he prescribed paxil and clonezapam, i thought they would take dp away, they didn't, i would feel more numb, after completing one month course having no medication for a day while sleeping I felt the exact same way unable to fall asleep jerking night mares that day, then i understood whenever I missed a dose all this jerks are happening and realised that these medications shouldnt be quit abruptly so late , I had bad withdrawal symptoms from amitriptyline. Now I can't get out of this dp every day feels like hell, the paxil 12.5 and clonezapam makes me sleepy and numb no excitement.im having suicide thoughts from couple of months I can't take this dp and numbness, i tried doing sports, working for long hours, cold showers, but the feelings of dp haven't reduced a bit

Edited August 26, 2023 by manymoretodays
just spacing for readability, name to title

[Altostrata]

Welcome, @levai

 

I am sorry you've had these problems. It's very possible that you are feeling the effects of the Paxil and clonazepam you're taking. They often make people feel odd and "not there".

 

We offer peer support for going off psychiatric drugs. What would you like to do?