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Hi, good night everyone 

 

Backstory:

- After surviving SA I started medication in 2019 with Fluoxetine

- In 2020 it got worse with the pandemics, so I got Duloxetine instead 

- Since that year and until now I got many changes including 120mg Duloxetine a day + Sertraline and Clozapine (my biggest cocktail) until this last month when I was only getting 30mg a day 

- After the 30mg I followed a plan of only taking 15mg until it was 0

* I once had withdrawal symptoms, which lead me to almost faint due to my BP being super low, all because I did not take my medication for two days (Had a huge argument with my family which led me to not asking for money for it) 

 

Now to the current situation: 

 

I’ve been officially 9 days off my medication, and I’ve been living hell 

 

I expected something but not to this point

 

I work at the family business and have been a diligent worker for a year, this actually helped me get even better during my depression finally leading to me getting my doctors approval to get off meds 

 

During office hours I do my best and have even worked extra hours with no pay, but due to the fact that I still live in my parents house, I’ve kept no mind to it 

 

Our clients have congratulated my family many times due to my diligent work and dedication to the company 

 

My family is very aware of the situation I’m currently living, since I’ve told them and even sent them an article 

 

I asked for a day off since I feel terrible, and it got rejected, since apparently I have “no excuse” and it is all my fault for “not sleeping well” or “going out” 

 

I haven’t even been eating well, I feel terrible and they even made me drive today which I feel like was absolutely irresponsible 

 

I’ve been having such a hard time having them believe me

 

How did you go about that? 

 

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Hi Lex, 

welcome to SA. Your best bet to not go through a years-long withdrawal is to reinstate the last dose you were on (since you've been off for only about a week). This should help you get back to normal. Once you stabilize on that, you can slowly taper - we will help with that - over a few years and you will, hopefully not suffer withdrawal symptoms at all. If I were you, I would start taking my medicine at the last dose you were taking today and don't delay. Your symptoms should settle in a few days. 

 

You may also want to consider slowly getting yourself to a place of independence where you are not dependent on a family that is not understanding and tolerant of you being unwell. But first things first, we need to get you stable. 

 

Hope you feel better very soon. 

OMW

"Nothing so small as a moment is insurmountable, and moments are all that we have. You have survived every trial and tribulation that life has thrown at you up until this very instant. When future troubles come—and they will come—a version of you will be born into that moment that can conquer them, too." - Kevin Koenig 

 

I am not a doctor and this should not be considered medical advice. You can use the information and recommendations provided in whatever way you want and all decisions on your treatment are yours. 

 

In the next few weeks I do not have a lot of capacity to respond to questions. If you need a quick answer pls tag or ask other moderators who may want to be tagged. 

 

Aug  2000 - July 2003 (ct, 4-6 wk wd) , citalopram 20 mg,  xanax prn, wellbutrin for a few months, trazodone prn 

Dec 2004 - July 2018 citalopram 20 mg, xanax prn (rarely used)

Aug 2018 - citalopram 40 mg (self titrated up)

September 2018 - January 2019 tapered citalopram - 40/30/20/10/5 no issues until a week after reaching 0

Feb 2019 0.25 xanax - 0.5/day (3 weeks) over to klonopin 0.25 once a day to manage severe wd

March 6, reinstated citalopram 2.5 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 mg for sleep 2-3 times a week

Apr 1st citalopram 2.0 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 once a week (off by 4/14/19- no tapering)

citalopram (liquid) 4/14/19 -1.8 mg, 5/8/19 - 1.6 mg,  7/27/19 -1.5 mg,  8/15/19 - 1.35, 2/21/21 - 1.1 (smaller drops in between), 6/20/21 - 1.03 mg, 8/7/21- 1.025, 8/11/21 - 1.02, 8/15/21 - 1.015, 9/3/21 - 0.925 (fingers crossed!), 10/8/21 - 0.9, 10/18/21 - 0.875, 12/31/21 - 0.85, 1/7/22 - 0.825, 1/14/22 - 0.8, 1/22/22 - 0.785, 8/18/22 - 0.59, 12/15/2022 - 0.48, 2/15/22 - 0.43, 25/07/23 - 0.25 (mistake), 6/08/23 - 0.33mg

 

Supplements: magnesium citrate and bi-glycinate

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Hi!

 

So since I read online that “it only takes 1-2 weeks” I was super eager to reach those 2 weeks 

 

Yesterday I had a few beers and ended up having a HUGE crisis, and ended up taking the medication again 

 

These past few days have been hell and given me a few more symptoms, it’s like waking up to the worse Christmas ever - “ahhhh, what will symptom Santa bring me this morning?” 
 

Anyways, today I woke up with an urge to vomit 

 

Do you think it was because of the beer, the antidepressants, the stress, a wild cocktail of it all? 
 

I absolutely feel robed from not being told this could happen before lol 

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Alcohol is a huge no-no in withdrawal. It can set people back by months and years so lesson learned, pls do not do more of that. Vomiting is normal after having alcohol, so I wouldn't necessarily attribute it to the withdrawal. 

But if you want our help, pls fill in your signature so we can advise. 

What dose did you reinstate?

"Nothing so small as a moment is insurmountable, and moments are all that we have. You have survived every trial and tribulation that life has thrown at you up until this very instant. When future troubles come—and they will come—a version of you will be born into that moment that can conquer them, too." - Kevin Koenig 

 

I am not a doctor and this should not be considered medical advice. You can use the information and recommendations provided in whatever way you want and all decisions on your treatment are yours. 

 

In the next few weeks I do not have a lot of capacity to respond to questions. If you need a quick answer pls tag or ask other moderators who may want to be tagged. 

 

Aug  2000 - July 2003 (ct, 4-6 wk wd) , citalopram 20 mg,  xanax prn, wellbutrin for a few months, trazodone prn 

Dec 2004 - July 2018 citalopram 20 mg, xanax prn (rarely used)

Aug 2018 - citalopram 40 mg (self titrated up)

September 2018 - January 2019 tapered citalopram - 40/30/20/10/5 no issues until a week after reaching 0

Feb 2019 0.25 xanax - 0.5/day (3 weeks) over to klonopin 0.25 once a day to manage severe wd

March 6, reinstated citalopram 2.5 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 mg for sleep 2-3 times a week

Apr 1st citalopram 2.0 mg (liquid), klonopin 0.25 once a week (off by 4/14/19- no tapering)

citalopram (liquid) 4/14/19 -1.8 mg, 5/8/19 - 1.6 mg,  7/27/19 -1.5 mg,  8/15/19 - 1.35, 2/21/21 - 1.1 (smaller drops in between), 6/20/21 - 1.03 mg, 8/7/21- 1.025, 8/11/21 - 1.02, 8/15/21 - 1.015, 9/3/21 - 0.925 (fingers crossed!), 10/8/21 - 0.9, 10/18/21 - 0.875, 12/31/21 - 0.85, 1/7/22 - 0.825, 1/14/22 - 0.8, 1/22/22 - 0.785, 8/18/22 - 0.59, 12/15/2022 - 0.48, 2/15/22 - 0.43, 25/07/23 - 0.25 (mistake), 6/08/23 - 0.33mg

 

Supplements: magnesium citrate and bi-glycinate

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