itsmerosie: Hi all, just checking this isn't totally abnormal!

[itsmerosie]

Hi everyone thanks for letting me join.

I am 18 months in to a Prozac journey i wish i had never started, but at the time i was very unwell mentally and i needed hope and i thought meds were my only option.

I started taking 20mg and developed awful physical and mental side effects, i became very unwell and just felt so weird on these meds but was told i needed to push through.

Fast foward 12 weeks i felt numb, i felt like an alien in my own body and whilst i wasnt having awful intrusive thoughts, i felt no better as it was a different type of hell.

 

December 2023 i decided to reduce and have gone down slowly.  I am now at 4mg after a 9 month titration.

 

I have had some really good periods, days or weeks even where i've felt really well and like the old me before i got sick.  I can tell that im better on a lower dose and that the meds at 20mg did nothing for me that was positive.

 

At this stage i often feel very odd, like my brain is never quite stable.  I can have totally different feelings and thoughts throughout the course of one day. Numbness one minute, happiness the next, extreme agitation the next and then relief the next, some intrusive and disturbing thoughts and some tearfulness but then i can feel joy.

Basically this to me just feels like my new normal and its very very bizarre and i dont really understand it.

 

To cut a long story short, i am at 4mg now and just am so so so so fed up of this rollercoaster i want to get off.  I want this to stop and i want to be better.  

I wondered if anyone had any advice for this last 4mg.  I am 2 weeks in to my most recent reduction, i tend to hold my reductions for 6-8 weeks depending on how i feel.

 

Any advice or guidance is helpful, i make my own liquid.  

 

Thankyou

Rosie 

[LotusRising]

Hi @itsmerosie

 

Welcome to SA,

 

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Please tell us a bit about how you tapered - what was your taper rate? It's possible you moved too quickly and your brain hasn't caught up with the reductions. If this is the case, you may want to hold your taper. Have you read about waves and windows on the homepage?

 

LotusRising