lamb1974: I don't know what to do in my situation

[lamb1974]

I got off benzos 12 years ago in a rehab I was on benzos for 9 years first it was first it was Ambien after a year it quit working had all type of trouble withdrawals then it was Xanax from there it was Klonopin tapered off using Valium and I got out of rehab too much later my doctor put me on Remeron for sleep and chronic pelvis pain that I had took me 6 months to feel normal after rehab 5 years later I took Ambien only for a month and I got a paradoxical effect had the same withdrawals using only for a month took me 6 months to feel normal I had ever symptom life was great again 17 months ago I started taking testosterone shots I started notice and I started having anxiety a little bit felt my mind was racing at times I would have bladder spasms after I urinate at times started having a little bit of morning anxiety I went to the doctor cuz I had just a little trouble sleeping he told me he'll give me Ambien told him I had problems with that drug a long time ago but he assured me that nothing was going to happen if I just take a couple times a week so I did that I took a total of nine and three weeks the 9th one I took I felt like I was in a rocking boat I remember this feeling well from 6 years ago a week later I took another testosterone shot which I was late on then I have ever sent them the next day I went and full-blown panic very high blood pressure akathisia ringing in the ears night sweats burning skin burning muscles suicidal thoughts plus a lot more right after that I cold turkey the testosterone shots I quit taking Ambien I also quit drinking I drank for 10 years it's been 15 months now without all of that and I'm still in bad shape at this point I really don't know what to do I will admit some of the problems I had like dpdr has left muscle twitches have stopped the burning muscles have eased my symptoms I'm left with that are debilitating is the inner vibrations I guess that would be inter aka feel like I have high cortisol I still get the burning skin a little I'm really thinking it may be from the Remeron now but I don't know If I should tapered yet I'm so fed up with this stuff I called a hospital detox they told me they can get me off 10 days and after that I can go to a rehab I know that's a bad idea but this point I don't see how I can even taper this being like this just want to get it over with any help thanks

[getofflex]

Hello, and welcome to SA.  We are a volunteer-run community of people who have been or are getting off of psychiatric drugs.  My first question when I was reading your post is, what drugs are you currently still taking?  We really do need to see a very concise and detailed drug signature before we can help you out.  I will just warn you, drug rehab places are likely to try to get you off your drugs way too fast.  At this site, we suggest an extremely slow taper.  Another thing to be aware of, is that the vast majority of doctors do not know how to properly taper their patients off of psychiatric drugs, and will usually do it way too fast.  

 

Can you please give us specific information in your signature about your drug history for all drugs and supplements you are on and have been on, especially for the past 18-24 months?  Only give us drug names, dosages, and dates, as best you can remember, in a list format.  Read the link below for instructions.  

 

How to List Your Drug History in Your Signature

 

Here is some important information about how these drugs actually work.  This explains why we get symptoms from going off of these medications, and why it's so important to taper slowly and carefully, and be very cautious about changing our doses: 

 

How Psychiatric Drugs Remodel Your Brain

 

 

This helps you understand what withdrawal syndrome is: 

 

Video on Recovery from Psych Drugs

 

Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

 

 

Tapering is best done extremely slowly, and we generally taper by 10% of the current dose no more than once every 4 weeks, so that the reduction becomes exponentially smaller.

 

 Why Taper by 10% of my Dosage  

 

When we know more about your drug history, as requested above, we can give you specific guidance.