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  2. Pho2Art
    Pho2Art joined the community
  3. choytu
    that is what I did, I was achy and fatigued and wanted a relief and took a quite hot tub with epsom salts. not long after I got dizzy and was soo tired.. seems like too much for me as well i decided also from today to make a 3% taper from 6.4 to 6.2mg, as you said and will wait couple of weeks to see how it goes. in the mean time I am just soo sick of this neuropathy and paresthesia feelings like pain throughout the body and muscle stiffness and soreness + cold feet (with burning sensations), that I am searching everywhere just to find some relief.. but seems like there isn't
  4. BaccatePlayer
    This sounds very promising. I'm actually on the opposite side: emotionally I got over all of my struggles, but the symptoms are persisting and that's precisely my issue. If you don't experience windows and waves, you may be very well recovered. Processing emotions is challenging, stressful and takes a lot of time. Your mind is learning to live again. You'll get through all of your experiences, just remember you may still be a bit fragile and your processing may be a little biased because under bigger stress, we interpret everything as worse. Thank you! It's very motivating since our situation is quite similair and I'm just 33 days behind you. I wasn't very unhappy before drugs, so maybe in 2-4 weeks I will be free. Mostly some very bizzare, wierd mood discharges, depersonalization, cognitive slowdown, tensed body, the worst is when I'm having panic attack or such a strong depersonalized mood that I can only trust that it will pass cause otherwise I wouldn't be able to bear it. Ocassionally nausea, headaches and balance issues pop out, but it's mostly about waves and altered moods. I don't feel myself yet and panic increases each time I'm completely losing control under heaviness and wierdness of symptoms. Yes, you can still do a lot. Don't ever believe that nothing better will come. You meet new people, learn more and there's always a value in it. Your english is fine for me though it's a second language for me. There's a lot you already did right.
  5. Warpman

    Warpman - My history

    Warpman replied to Warpman's topic in Introductions and updates

    Today a little better than yesterday. Little anxiety and little depression. Just boring negative thoughts, but no panic or dread. There was also strong tightness in the back and shoulder. A kind of very accentuated tension. I wonder how I ended up in this state. I was a person who woke up and went to live life. Today I wake up afraid of mental symptoms - which I had never felt before antidepressants - of which I could be a victim. I'm sure many friends here on this forum go through or have gone through the same things. May God help us move forward.
  6. Madfrank

    Madfrank: Hello

    Madfrank replied to Madfrank's topic in Introductions and updates

    I’ve updated my signature. Thanks
  7. KaiLee
    You are a strong individual, and you will be healed. I believe in you. Sorry for taking up too much space in your topic. But as I say this, I also realize that these are the words that I actually want to say to myself.
  8. KaiLee
    No matter how long it takes, you will heal.
  9. KaiLee
    And I have learned so many things and improved in so many ways during this period. My life has completely changed for the better because of what I've been through.
  10. KaiLee
    And I have indeed become so, so much wiser and better. Even the moment's pain and fear can take them away, I know those won't disappear. So I am grateful.
  11. 102820
    Hello and thank you for your comments. I am using a one ML syringe. There are 2 mg per ML. take the Celexa in the morning. I’ve been taking the Ativan at night. I understand what you are saying so I am going to just continue with my regular dose of Ativan at night so that it doesn’t cause additional withdrawal symptoms. I have taken a picture of the syringe I use and pointed my finger nail to the dosage, which is two lines above the large line above four. I am deducing. This is 0.47 ML. The five number on the syringe means 1 mg. I hope this makes sense and I certainly, appreciate your kind and helpful response . I have been feeling really good every day! except for the extremely loud tinnitus and these small withdrawal symptoms here or there. I don’t mind toughing it out if I can get off this quicker. withdrawals do we ever really get to the place where we feel fine before stepping down again? But if you think it’s better to wait, I can wait. What a couple more weeks?
  12. KaiLee
    My case does prove that you will indeed go back to your 'factory reset'. I might not be there yet, but I am definitely getting closer. So don't worry. It will be fine. Things will work fine for you. Stay strong as much as you can. You've got this.
  13. Gonzo
    I need to find a new meaning to my excruciating moral injuries and issues, as I tried to do 8 years ago, outside the intoxicating psychiatric moral system and its meaningless, nihilistic meaning framework, I need a new non pathologizing and stigmatizing perspective, to find closure to my moral conflict, suffering and trauma and to escape my disabling moral loop and moral, mental and emotional prison, to solve my psychosocial "dysfunctionality", "abnormality" and "immorality", to survive and live well in this toxic culture, meeting my human, personal, traumatic needs. Psychiatry forced me to get into all this moral stuff to be able to escape from its oppression and alienation and solve my deepest issues, it forced me to become much more wiser than I ever was, this is the human condition. While we suffer, suffering forces us to face reality and to solve our painful life problems, to be able to relax, rest, find peace, balance, to avoid pain and enjoy life.
  14. Moe96

    Hypersensitivity and Kindling

    Moe96 replied to Shep's topic in Symptoms and self-care

    Hello @margaretLO i’m sorry that you do. I read about your struggle with cognitive impairment a while ago and i’m having the same issue with the same severity you’re describing. i hope you’ve improved since then.
  15. KaiLee
    I am sorry about what I wrote in my topic. I guess I was insensitive. Indeed pain was too terrible for both of us in this withdrawal period. I am very sorry about the pain you're being through. But what I go through now, this is... I don't know how to explain this. I really don't. It's like your whole being beaten up by every memory that you remember. Every episode is like a torture. But could it be still the symptoms of the waves? As you said, the sign of waves and windows being not distinctive means we are more closer towards healing. I thought so, but strangely, as I was getting more 'healed', much more weird and disgusting things were happening inside me. I wasn't getting more relief, in fact, I just started to feel more pain constantly. Before, I was either in a pain or I was not. But now it's just pain 24/7. And I know so much well about this pain I'm being thorugh. I used to live in this painful emotions and thoughts, behaviors. I was in a disgusting pain for almost my whole life. I have been reliving every painful memories I had from the past. This makes me believe that now I am not actually in the withdrawal symptoms, but rather in a psychological recovery. Although I am not sure, I am very questioned. I wish I can know better...
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  18. Moe96

    Hypersensitivity and Kindling

    Moe96 replied to Shep's topic in Symptoms and self-care

    Can i ask what your symptoms are?
  19. KaiLee
    But I guess you're right. At least now, or when I am finallyhealed from the meds, there's something I can do about myself, even if I don't feel so much that way at the moment. Perhaps I still have long way to go for a full recovery from the withdrawal symptoms. I don't know, but at least I know the pain I'm going through right now so well, and the pain from it is distorting everything I feel and think. It feels like an eternal torture. The withdrawal pain felt horrible too, but at least it went away within time and eventually changed into something else. But this doesn't. And it feels a lot 'dirtier'. As I've already said, I believe this is something my soul suffers from... I guess I just have a very long way to go. But how lucky am I, at least I have a way to go, and I now have few people who helps me. No more toxic people in my life, and I grew up so much during this time. I now have a supportive family. I have nothing to lose. This might just be the best what I can possibly have. Only moving forward from now on.
  20. Erimus started following 102820: Tapering strategies Celexa
  21. Erimus
    Hello and welcome to SurvivingAntidepressants. We are a peer support forum to assist in tapering off psychiatric drugs safely, or recovering from psychiatric drug withdrawal. Are you taking a consistent dose of both citalopram and ativan each day? In your signature it says ativan 0.75-1mg/night. You need to take the same dose every day if you are trying to taper citalopram. We recommend a maximum of 10% of your CURRENT dose each month. Many people have to do smaller reductions, however. I can't imagine Mark Horowitz's taper strategies are much different. In order to help we would need to know the concentration of the liquid you are taking, and the capacity of the syringe you are using. I wouldn't start until things have settled down. Here are some of the most useful links regarding tapering: Important topics in the Tapering forum and FAQ Micro tapering Why taper by 10% of my dosage? Taking multiple psych drugs? Which drug to taper first? How to make a liquid from tablets or capsules Using a scale to weigh and measure doses We only recommend two supplements. Omega 3 Fish Oil and Magnesium. Both should be introduced separately and increased slowly. Regards Erimus
  22. Tigz91

    Hypersensitivity and Kindling

    Tigz91 replied to Shep's topic in Symptoms and self-care

    Somethings have but unfortunately I really struggle with a lot of symptoms still. Especially mcas like symptoms. I think this could now be permanent.
  23. Tigz91

    Doctorsrcrap: can't cry and frustrated

    Tigz91 replied to Doctorsrcrap's topic in Introductions and updates

    Wow! That poem is amazing and honestly so bang on. I hope you can get some relief soon. Sending hugs
  24. KaiLee
    Fixed few sentences overall. My language skill is definitely improving, though.
  25. Doctorsrcrap

    Doctorsrcrap: can't cry and frustrated

    Doctorsrcrap replied to Doctorsrcrap's topic in Introductions and updates

    A poem I sit and wonder to myself when will all this end I try to explain the pain I feel but you can't comprehend Was it my fault, did I ask for this the day I walked into your room Not once did you stop to think about the effects of the pills you gave me to comsume You give them our like candy like I'm a kid on Halloween night Do you even care at all what is wrong and what is right. Have you ever stopped to wonder why I still decline Did you ever stop to think it could be your fault and not mine And now here we are again, I'm asking for your advice But when you look at me I'm sure you see labatory mice She must still be crazy she must still be mad I see your fingers twitch, you want to grab that prescription pad If the blues one didn't work how about we try red How about pink or green or orange who cares she'll stop complaining when she's dead Why wont you listen, that you do this to me You might not have meant to but I think it's clear to see Or is the fact that your actions destroyed another's life To difficult for you to go home and have dinner with your wife. Its not fair that we all suffer, there are thousands more like me Who know that they aren't crazy but poisoned by their GP All I can hope is one day the truth will finally be out And you will stop inflicting pain on us and gaslightebing us til we shout I hope that you never suffer the way that we all do All I ask is there be a change before you destroy the next generation too. I should of taken illicit drugs they would have been easier to quit Rather than the rat poison that made me feel like **** I hope and pray that a change will quickly come And in the future people won't have to suffer like I have done
  26. KaiLee
    After writing these, I am feeling slightly better. Thank you...
  27. KaiLee
    But as always, I am just too much confused... I long for the day when I can look back at what I've been through with a clear mind, and write about it as much as I can, for myself and the others who might benefit from it.
  28. Alfred1977
  29. KaiLee
    By the way, how are your symptoms?
  30. KaiLee
    Sorry for the laguage, but I guess the easy way to say is I was dumber but much more happer. I wished it stayed that way.
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