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  2. Hi Hayduke, Thanks for the update. I’m so sorry to hear of your suffering, you have been through a lot. Your story is inspiring. I am glad you are here. Glad to hear that the trauma work is healing in deep ways, that is wonderful. Hope you also take it easy, Hayduke, by doing things you enjoy, that is soothing, comforting and joyful to balance the heavy feelings that therapy can bring up sometimes. It is good to take time off to recharge. Self care is so important. So glad to hear that brassmonkey’s method of tapering is working for you. Listening to our bodies is so important for a safe and gentle taper. Please take good care of yourself. Wishing you the best on your Tapering Journey, Hayduke. Blessings, Healing, Love and Light to you <3 <3 <3
  3. wanttosurvive

    wanttosurvive: Tianeptine

    Hi, I am 17 months off drugs, this is a brief update. I am in a wave, which has started on May 10 th. As always it has started abruptly, just overnight. The previous day I was okay, mistakenly thinking about how far I had come in regard to recovery as I was considering myself recovered but the day after the ugly face of the disease uncovered itself again.... It has been 2 weeks, most probably within 7-10 days it will subside in severity and then symptoms will fade away, because up to date it has been like this. In regard to severity, I can just describe in words of Alto "as bad as ever, only a little different".... Now symptoms included: 1. nausea (tolerable) 2. stomach discomfort 3. head ache, heavy head feeling 4. brain fog 5. DR/DP (LITTLE). please take attention. If there is anyone concerned about the severity of DR/DP, please read my previous posts. 1 year ago, DR/DP was so annoying that I was in a situation I regard myself as if I was in a coma state. Just lying on the sofa, barely speaking, only looking at the TV or out the window wondering what time of the day was it or what was going on outside. people walking, where do they go??? I felt myself I was an idiot or an alien monster, I could not realize the persons, time, places. I was constantly pinching myself or biting my fingertips just to hurt myself, just to evoke some sensations in order to feel myself, in order to overcome feeling of DR/DP, in order to feel that I was alive..... 6. fatigue 7. muscle/joint pain 8. psychological concerns 9. edema 10. noise sensitivity 11. feeling too cold (in may, here it is hot outside) 12. OTHER nonconditional symptoms, that come and go, do not follow the pattern of the wave. pins and needles like sensation, tooth pain, ear ache, taste changes, itching....they also come and go in windows and also in waves. In this wave head ache and heavy head feeling are the most annoying symptoms. CURRENTLY; - no supplements, afraid of reactions - eating most of the foods, that I was sensitized before, including fish, egg, nuts,... (not in small portions, full plate) - I am back to my original weight before WD, appetite is better although I have nausea - I gained my lost muscle mass although do not exercise efficiently - Exercise: walking, light strenght workout - histamine intolarence is better, I can eat most of the high histamine foods but in small portions OVERALL, I am much much better both physically and psychologically. 1 year ago I quit my job and moved to live my parents. In june I must start to work again, that was the deal I made with my boss. I am happy still I have the oppurtinity to go back to my work.... Reasons why I have not worked for 1 year: 1. suicidial ideation that I had those days 2. DR/DP was so overwhelming that I could not even handle simple daily activities. It was impossible to work.... 3. overwhelming physical symptoms, like nausea, joint pain, extreme fatigue, insomnia, sleep distubances,.... 4. afraid about waves, premenstural periods....(still afraid about, but there is nothing to do, I must work).... .......I wish HAPPY DAYS to all survivors....
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  5. AlexRussia

    AlexRussia: Polydrugged in Russia

    I am reading right now "Psychiatry . National guide" made by "russian society of psychiatrists". This book widely used by many doctors in russia. Quote from book " Long term use of benzo for anxiety disorders for six months or more are safe and effective" . Next quote " withdrawal doest last more then 3 weeks" ... I think this guide should be renamed to "Genocide. National Guide. " I cant even image how many peoples lives were broken by this guide. And what do u think this guide says about withdrawal from antidepressants and neuroleptics. Nothing, like there is no withdrawal. Its absolutely insane.
  6. You have been off for sometime I wouldn't be starting it again, just ride it out, give it time. Your other symptoms went in time so no reason these won't.
  7. Just found out that I have been taking 7.5mg of Mirt not 15mg. I have been prescribed 30mg for over 3 years and when I reduced I cut them in half so 15mg. My last prescription from my GP was for 15mg so I've been thinking I have taken 15mg as I cut the 30's in half but in fact its 7.5mg so I have reduced without knowing it. I had such a fuzzy head when at gps I must have missed her saying I was getting 15mg not 30mg. I know the tablets are a different colour but as brands change I didn't give that any thought. So I guess I'm doing better than I thought given the big reduction , no wonder I was getting headaches from hell almost every day. So I feel getting 7.5mg next time I can cut to 3.5mg by cutting those in half then off for good.
  8. Mirthazard

    Burning skin, burning feet

    Not sure if its restless legs, the pain and pin and needles sensation is in my feet only, altough i have jerks in my whole body, legs to, while asleep.
  9. Its been 8 months since i quit Lexapro. Its been hell, ofc. But regarding pms? Oh my lord. I suffer from reeealy bad pmdd since ssri. So i had some tests done, showed low on progesterone, i got to try Lutinus. Shouldnt. It nearly killed me. So I decided to try the cream instead. All natural, sounded better. So. Besides feeling like crap from ssri most days of the month.... I took 200mg of the cream, 10 days a month for 3 months, felt awesome at first! Then Another level of hell broke loose. For 10 days a month now instead I shiver, have fevers and "the flue" on and off all the time. Crazy sinus issues! My nerves are all over the place, everthing hot feels cold and vice versa on my skin, feels like cold water running down my back. My eyes hurt, my teeth hurt and worse of all is the burning skin.. Everywhere i had put the cream my skin is on fire 24/7, im red and flushing and sweating like a pig, joint pain, muscle pain, my soles on feet hurt, my left arm went numb, dizzy like crazy and just lie in my bed and shake for some days, and im tired.. Like.. Awfully tired, cortisoldrops thru the days.. Where i need to sleep asap. Anxiety from mars!! The day i get ny period everthing in my body buzzez, i cant even stand up, or even crawl to the bathroom. DP is nothing compared to this feeling. ... These sre just some of my side effects. Its been 3 months since i quit the cream. Its getting little better by time.. But can your body heal itself now? Will my adrenal go back to normal? Have i destroid myself for good? 😕 So Yeah, im scared shitless now. I know progesterone affects cns, and get stored in fat tissues.. So maybe in time it all would be gone from my body. I hope. Just my varning here, I would rather rewind, try again to balance with healthy foods, cbt (like reading Claire weekes), try some herbs instead and listen when most docs said i didnt need any HRT since i have my period every month.
  10. Sorry forgot to say: do I have any other option than reinstate the Citalopram? I mean either I try to reinstate or what do I do, I wait? Will these things will ever go away?
  11. Hello and thank you for your very useful answers and links. I've read them and I think that this is a risky road (reinstatement) but I need to try, don't I? It's been too long I've not been feeling good. I will try to answer some of your questions: Yes I never had them before but I read in some publications online that a relapse can occur in a more intense way from the original one, so maybe this is the case.? The fact that I've taken the antidepressant for such a short time (less than 3 months) can it have something to do with these new symptoms? Like my body getting used to it, then abruptly this medicine disappears and my brain goes in panic because I didn't give it enough time to adjust to the new situation? Yes I've done all the possible tests: including MRI, all negative. Yes I recently bought two new bottles of Citalopram, I use the liquid version so I can use drops instead of tablets. You know I'm writing from Italy and here they are super cheap so it's very easy to get it: I pay only 2.5 euros per bottle ($2.80). I was thinking and thinking of reinstating just trying to get some advice first. So if I was taking 8 drops per day as my max dosage (16 mg), shall I start with 1 drop per day for the first week and see how it goes? Then I can go up with the weeks if I don't feel worse, what do you think? Thank you so much, this forum is so useful Erika
  12. Doubt the damage is from mucuna pruriens alone, however adding mucuna pruriens on top of the other drugs probably was probably too much for your system handle mucuna pruriens boosts dopamine while olanzapine blocks dopamine receptors so the mix can obviously cause problems a low dose of mucuna actually helped me a lot during my taper off psych drugs but it doesn’t agree with everyone The medicine at these hospitals will be high strength extracts which are often mixed together into a tonic, be very cautious with them keep us updated how you get on take care
  13. U.K. resident. Filled in. 6 years & counting. Lost everything in my life due to it. It’s a living nightmare
  14. Songbird

    Facial Changes

    @Stormstrong I've merged your topic with a similar one.
  15. Yes, plenty of members are doing very gradual liquid tapers, although not daily reductions, that would likely be too fast. For more information, see these topics: Micro-taper instead of 10% or 5% reductions The Brassmonkey Slide method of micro-tapering Are you able to get a commercially-made liquid, or will you be making your own?
  16. Yes I panicked and went from 15mg back to 30mg and paid the price, that's when I found this site, thank god. No intention of upping my dose now as I feel as stable as I can be at 15mg. I'm expecting to feel bad and have raised anxiety because it was there when I started this med, that's why I took it, but I will just have to deal with it head on I guess. I have totally underestimated the power of these drugs and would be very reluctant to go on them again unless things got so dark that I couldn't see any light as I did before.
  17. Please be aware than when updosing it is better to increase by a small amount and see how that affects the withdrawal symptoms. It takes about 4 days for a dose to get to full level in the blood and a bit longer for it to register in the brain. If after 1 or 2 weeks you find that the withdrawal symptoms are still unbearable you could then increase by another small amount. It is better to increase gradually than to risk taking too much. Please see Post #1 of this topic, much of which is also relevant to updosing: About reinstating and stabilizing to reduce withdrawal symptoms
  18. ChessieCat

    steadyeddy: Just wanted to say......

    are-we-there-yet-how-long-is-withdrawal-going-to-take Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization
  19. steadyeddy

    steadyeddy: Just wanted to say......

    Hi I'm eddy My timeline ive been off citalopram for 3.5 years now currently going through a big wave. I was wondering what sort of time everyone else has been off their meds and any advice to help with the waves thanks eddy
  20. Never stayed on 22.5mg for long because I found going back up a dose after I panicked when I dropped to 15mg made me feel worse so that is why I went back to 15mg and stayed there. Thanks for the advice I know deep down I should ease up but I'm just sick of this drug and want it out of my system. I read that some do this drop over years not months and I just don't think I could handle that amount of time. Perhaps I am setting myself up for failure but I think the drop to 7.5mg is the only option for me, but I will keep updating and can only hope its not too harsh.
  21. Nelly

    Nelly: coming off fluoxetine

    Hello i reduced to 8 beads on 2nd May. I am feeling a little anxious and depressed. No nasty physical symptoms. Sleep pattern has changed slightly in that I am waking earlier and not feeling that overwhelming tiredness when waking. Have I reduced to 8 beads to soon? Or do I need to take these antidepressants for the rest of my life to keep my anxiety and depression at a low? Started taking fish oil 1000mg approx 3 weeks ago. Disappointed to be feeling so low again. X
  22. Started a new job yesterday. Extremely anxious, but I was able to play it cool and get through the first day. I feel like I’m at least capable of working right now, which is good. Still dealing with anxiety but I am still improving.
  23. Songbird

    How to cut up tablets or pills (using a pill cutter)

    @BfromNJ I've merged your topic into our pill cutting topic. Before I switched to liquid, I used to cut pills and weigh them - I tried a pill cutter but couldn't make it work, so ended up cutting my pills with a sharp kitchen knife instead.
  24. Andie

    Andie: tapering off Pristiq

    Hi @Altostrata Still struggling along. I haven’t made the switch to Effexor yet. I am having a lot of problems with early morning panic, vivid dreaming and muscle spasms. It’s had a really big impact on me and my day to day functioning. I still don’t know what sent me into full blown withdrawal in October 2018 despite a slow taper.
  25. Cnick91

    Wim Hof Method (Highly Recommended)

    Admin, You may want to move this to the media section as it may be a better fit there. I originally posted here because the Wim Hof method is scientific at its core (Wim’s method is rewriting science books). The video attached is informative but not exactly scholarly or something you would find in a scientific journal.
  26. That's really lovely of you, Rabe. Thank you. 💜
  27. Hello dear Rabe I'm sorry to hear you are still so affected by everything and feeling unbalanced. Sounds like you managed to get to your daughter's today to see your granddaughter? Such an achievement if you did, I know it is hard when in particularly tough times. Let's hope you are able to go along on 1 June - but if not: is the best way to cope with it - and be tender with yourself. much love, your PF Neroli 💜
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