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  2. Egle
    Did you find anything on fluanxol?
  3. sandnit
    @Onmyway, so true. I didn't have any antibiotics thank god. My inner dialogue is pretty harsh indeed. A lot of thoughts are like" I just started tapering for a little bit and look what is happening.... Is the rest of the taper going like this etc etc." also lost of thoughts on the wave not going away etc etc. They seem to be automated during waves but I'll try to remind myself to stay realistic. And I have a hard time accepting the way I feel. I'm trying to work on that to. Yes I will do so soon. Thank you @Onmyway!
  4. Doctorsrcrap

    Doctorsrcrap: can't cry and frustrated

    Doctorsrcrap replied to Doctorsrcrap's topic in Introductions and updates

    I am in the pits of despair. I don't know what to do about the excruciating pain I'm in. Any of the meds the doctor tried either did not touch it or made me feel ill. The pain is not under control and I don't know how to get it under control. My MRI was run again, they said some degenerative changes in the facet joints but can that honestly be the cause of how much pain I'm in. I'm at a loss of what to do. This is the most desperate I have ever felt. If this pain isn't sorted I don't think I am going to make it out of this. Without the pain I might have said I was heading in the right direction for healing but this pain is the worst thing ever and I'm terrified. I don't understand what's happened to me
  5. Josh
    Hi @Emonda hope you are well! I’ve been holding at my dose of 0.11ml (0.44mg) of Prozac for 17 days now. I’ve seen a slight improvement in my symptoms. I’ve also been seeing a healer so that might also be helping. the main symptoms I’m dealing with is the brain fog and cognitive functioning that is really quite bad, find it so hard to talk to people and hold conversations and I can feel it hurting my body at times. This seems to progress during the day after I wake up. I’m also dealing with a lot of anxiety when I wake up in the mornings now. im just wondering should I move my dose up higher or should I just stay on this dose as it is until I stabilise? Can I find stabilisation staying on a low dose? Let me know if you have any questions about how else I’m feeling and I can share with you to help your understanding thanks so much Josh
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  7. ThreeLittleBirds

    ThreeLittleBirds: Lexapro withdrawls

    ThreeLittleBirds replied to ThreeLittleBirds's topic in Introductions and updates

    Hi Guys, I just wanted to update after the nightmarish experience of trying to reinstate the 1mg of liquid Lexapro (it brought on never before panic attacks and agoraphobia), I threw the remaining liquid in the rubbish bin. Since going cold turkey on the 30th of October 2023, it was obviously too long a period to reinstate the SSRI. I know there is nobody on this site that is going to coerce me to reinstate the medication at the lower recommended dosage of 0.5mg but even if that was the best course of action, I threw it away out of sheer terror. I guess I was wondering if there's any chance of just not taking Lexapro again or if resuming another former medication like Paroxetine, would it bring out the same allergic side effects? I probably not using all the correct terms but in Australia, nobody has any information in regard to this withdrawal process. The pharmacist told me it should only last 2 weeks but as you can tell, it's been going on for months. Is it normal to feel flu like, have chronic fatigue and tire out easily? I can't sleep at night and constantly wake up every 2 hours with bouts of anxiety, I have lost weight as my anxiety makes me nauseated and my nerves still feel like they are screaming especially after trying to reinstate the 1mg Lexapro. I've read that exercise is important and try to walk as often as possible, but my body feels so weak and faintish. I used to be quite active, and I use to exercise and do pilates...now I feel exhausted, and all my confidence has gone. Sorry for the complaints but it has taken so much joy out of my life and have lost the ability to smile, laugh, watch a movie or read a book as my focus is totally shot and my anxiety is skyrocketed with my agitated nervous system. I know that meditation and exercise is an important part of recovery but find the energy and focus really hard to have to follow through on this process. Sorry for the long rant...I hope I made sense. I'm so tired and feel totally lost. I will appreciate all your help guys ThreeLittleBirds
  8. Onmyway
    Hi @sandnit Yes, unfortunately, all part of the game. The good thing is, we know it's time limited and waves pass. It's no wonder that this wave is harder - not only have you started tapering but your poor body has been dealing with physical illnesses, extra demands from kids being sick, injury that got cleaned without an anesthetic, tooth issues (antibiotic?). Withdrawal is hard under stable circumstances. Life challenges make it even harder. Please give yourself a break and compassion. This is difficult. Not sure what your internal dialogue is but if it is as harsh as most of us, remember to remind yourself to be gentle to yourself. Just as a reminder, can you please update your signature @sandnitwith your taper up to now so we can have a quick look when we advise? Wishing you some respite soon Omw
  9. sandnit
    I ordered the stabilisation strip and I'm holding on 4,5mg. I think my body and mind are definitely having a hard time adjusting. This wave is much harder compared to the ones I felt holding om 5mg. I hope I stabilise a bit soon because this is so hard. I can barely function...... But I'm doing my best. @Onmyway, last week I had bouts of nausea and bowel issues on top of the DP, DR, chemical feeling of anxiety etc. And this night I had a nightmare (that's new for me). These are all part of the game right?? Praying for some relief soon! Wishing you all good healing
  10. ThreeLittleBirds

    ThreeLittleBirds: Lexapro withdrawls

    ThreeLittleBirds replied to ThreeLittleBirds's topic in Introductions and updates

    Hello LostInCanada, I'm completely lost in my quest to regain my life back and my sanity. To be completely honest reinstatement of even a smaller dose of Lexapro is terrifying to me. I know nobody on this site is a medical professional but I am interested in how you did it or are you still in the process? My GAD, depression and Suicidal idealation is through the roof and everyday is an emotional roller-coaster. I can't get any professional medical advice and wonder if my body would accept another SSRI (like Paroxetine) to calm down the withdrawals and my nervous system? I really just want this nightmare to end. I cannot get out of bed most days and feel incapable of handling any type of employment with such chronic physical and emotional distress 😭😭😭😭 Does your mind ever really recover and mend itself from all the damage done to it?
  11. ThreeLittleBirds

    ThreeLittleBirds: Lexapro withdrawls

    ThreeLittleBirds replied to ThreeLittleBirds's topic in Introductions and updates

    Thank you for your support. Sometimes I feel like I will never reach the end of this nightmare that is now my daily reality. I wish there was real life support groups for people to meet up and encourage each other to continue to fight and maybe share stories of hope.
  12. Onmyway started following Sonia009: Citalopram discontinuation/reinstatement
  13. Onmyway
    Hi @Sonia009@Sonia009, Sorry you've been suffering so much with withdrawal and anxiety over the years. I haven't read your whole thread but looked at your signature and see you've made lots of drug changes during that time. Withdrawal causes nervous system disregulation. Changing drugs or doses does the same thing. It's hard to advise on what to do because we only get a glimpse of your symptoms here and there. Do you keep daily symptoms log? Are your symptoms worse now than they were before reinstatement? I see you have been having dizziness from the beginning. Keeping a log of symptoms is important also because our memory is clouded by our mood. If you feel miserable you may imagine that you've felt this way for the last few weeks X weeks whereas the truth is different. You need to decide whether the drug causes side effects for you. Usually an effect that happens after you take the drug may be from the drug itself but it could also be related to the time of day - lots of people have worse symptoms in the morning. You can lower your dose and track your symptoms and see if they get better. We can't tell what's what. But in general, you need stability for your symptoms to subside. Going up or down can both cause symptoms. You see why this decision is hard to advise on. Hope you start feeling better soon Omw
  14. Doctorsrcrap

    Doctorsrcrap: can't cry and frustrated

    Doctorsrcrap replied to Doctorsrcrap's topic in Introductions and updates

    @Tom2020 Yes, I don't know anyone who reacts to vitamin D the way I do. It's ridiculous but no one is bothered about finding out why it happens so guess I will be just one of those things I avoid.
  15. Marsha started following Happy2Heal my Victory statement
  16. Marsha
    It is good to read that you are settling in and tending to your health. Your name says it all.
  17. Mando
    Hi @Emonda I decided to start with 5% reduction today. I got a small post it note, got my two dessert spoons and did my best to crush the 20mg pill. I then created a funnel of the post it note and proceeded to put the powder in a small cup. I then filled it with 20ml of water and shook the powder and water until it mixed. I did notice I did get some foam on top after I stopped shaking it, but that foam did seem to disappear. Then I got a 20ml syringe and only got sucked out 19ml off the 20ml mixed cup and drank that. I just squirted the 19ml mix with the syringe into my mouth and then I refilled it with water in case I missed anything. I decided it to do this around 5 or 6pm every day. I was taking the pill every night around 10pm but I know myself and since it now takes 5 minutes to do the crushing and mixing, I'm afraid that I will be too tired to do that at 10pm. My wife suggested I do it first thing in the morning when I wake up. Not sure if you have had the same experience but when I drank that 19ml liquid, I definitely felt something that I don't normally feel when I take it in a pill form. Like an extra boost of energy and anxiety. It might be because I'm taking it in liquid form so it's hitting me faster and more direct or simply my mind playing games on me lol. Should I eat something before? Thank you in advance!!
  18. caracol
    Thank you! its helpful to know I’m not the only one. I will keep my hold going.
  19. Onmyway
    Hi @WestOn4th, I'm so sorry you are dealing with much worse limiting pain. I wish I had a way to magically lift it. But in the absence of magical abilities I'm sending you virtual hugs and warm thoughts. From your history we know these are related to withdrawal of ami which seems to work through a pre-existing condition. The question is would disease modifying agent help in this case and the answer may very well be yes but it seems like it's not easy to get these given the various waitlists. It's possible that once withdrawal is over they may not be necessary if you do end up going on them as your body may calm down. Can your primary care prescribe the more specialised drugs while you're waiting for the rheumatologist? I'm a bit worried about risk of bleeding with such prolonged high dose NSAID use. Do you have a doctor who can advise on ways in which you can lower those risks? Can you test yourself for occult blood in stool. In Europe those tests are available over the counter but not sure in the US. But your doctor can easily test them and test you for anemia as well. The next line for pain used to be Cox - 2 inhibitors but not sure if any are available and safe after the vioxx disaster years ago. I also don't know what the advice is with respect to movement - I know in RA is to keep moving to help pain but not sure in your case as I just don't have the knowledge. Do people in the US do telehealth appointments? Could you see someone know is not local? Someone specialist across the pond? The UK has a vibrant private sector where this may be possible from abroad but not sure whether they'd want tests. I assume prescriptions you could get from Canada? I'm trying to problem solve, can you tell? I'll stop and just send you my compassion and sincere wishes for respite. Please take good care of yourself. I love seeing your posts here. And may be one day we'll get to hear your music as well! Big hugs, Omw
  20. Dahlia50
    @Bailey @Ninabird @Boges11 Thank You ❤️ 🙏
  21. Tom2020

    Doctorsrcrap: can't cry and frustrated

    Tom2020 replied to Doctorsrcrap's topic in Introductions and updates

    I feel overstimulated for the rest of the day, I get diarrhea and then I sleep badly. Nothing like your reaction. Luckily I don't react to the active form (calcitriol). From memory, it takes 7 to 10 days to get dependent on pregabalin. It has a short half-life so if stopping was to cause you problems they would have started by now.
  22. Fluoxyoyo started following BaccatePlayer: Immediate adverse reaction to sertraline
  23. Ninabird

    Melbee: Please someone help

    Ninabird replied to Melbee's topic in Introductions and updates

    @Melbee You are in good hands here. Anytime you need support, I am a text away. You will NOT be like this forever. You are stronger than you think. 🥰
  24. Boges11
    Hugs and love, I gave the terrible aka too and stuck on mirt. tried to go from 6.45mg to 6.25 mg over last 3 wks and aka came in slamming me. I hate this for us, it is so inhumane and we need it to be lifted from us. This all is hard enough and aka really makes it so so challenging and also slams my mood, maybe it’s the mirt doing a number on my hormones, sobbing since yesterday. scared beyond words too, you’re not alone. It can help to know sometimes someone else is in this club bc it is so so lonely with not many having this in so the groups. you are doing all you can and that is enough. Just take the hour by hour bc looking ahead is too hard. Lord please give us a reprieve and show us the way off these that we can navigate. hugs and love 💜🙏💜
  25. hayduke
    Did you follow the 10%/month tapering guidelines, @AFAF?
  26. Jaffa

    Dahlia50: Reducing Zoloft

    Jaffa replied to Dahlia50's topic in Introductions and updates

    Yes @Dahlia50 but lately I'm annoyed with myself for not trying to get completely off the zoloft sooner and be done with it. I have sacrificed a lot for my children as most mothers do but I wonder if it was wise to just stay on the Zoloft. Im worried now that I may be a disabled 70 year old one day with treatment resistant depression and my poor kids will have to face that! I know that you would be feeling that you did the wrong thing jumping off at 12.5 but I'm not sure that awful withdrawal doesn't come for us all at some point, despite a slow taper. There is often a big lag in the time that symptoms present. That's certainly been my experience. I do love the beaches in Australia. We are so lucky. Sometimes you can be on a beach all by yourself. They are pristine and beautiful. You will walk on the beach again one day. I know you will. Where are you from? I hope and pray that you are feeling some better moments no matter how tiny.
  27. jeffelmexicano

    jeffelmexicano: hello I'm new

    jeffelmexicano replied to jeffelmexicano's topic in Introductions and updates

    I try gratitud but its hard still trying Idk what to do with meds Antipsychotic índuced anheodnia i dont think Is much posible to heal Is just bombing dopamine all the Time Thats even worst than benzo wd but im not sure both are hell I think poeple have permanent or More anheodnia with antipsychotics AND they dont heal in years the pooeple i talked to Maybe i should stop benzo tapering AND taper seroquel ? So hard i know seroquel Is good for sleep after that i probably dont sleep normal again AND More with Benzos wd But anheodnia Is hell totally Idk Thanks for words Lotus
  28. Boges11

    Let's pray for one another

    Boges11 replied to Zoe's topic in Finding meaning

    @BaileyHaving a horrid time, fighting for my life with this akayhisa. I am so sorry you’re having it too, it’s beyond words and I keep praying God will take it away for all of us suffering with it. sending so many prayers your way. Lord please hear our prayers and answer them, we need aka taken away soon, this is too hard. hugs and love ,
  29. Tweed9674 started following Erimus: my introduction and journal
  30. Tweed9674
    Hi Caracol! That suck.... I'll echo Onmyway... I also think that holding is your best bet. Updosing while sick would make your symptoms harder to distinguish. if you are anything like me while I was on effexor, it might get a bit rough. Effexor was giving me crazy withdrawal symptoms as soon as I had a fever and I was not even tapering. This is something that still haunt me today, but it's a bit more tolerable with escitalopram for me. Anyway, my point is that getting sick can make withdrawal symptoms worse. If it happen to you, don't panic and wait until you aren't sick anymore to decide what to do next. I wish you and your loved one a quick recovery!
  31. Catwoman73

    Catwoman73: New Here! My story…

    Catwoman73 replied to Catwoman73's topic in Introductions and updates

    That's so strange lol! We're on the same wavelength it seems! I do love my dance classes... they are great for calming my mind and for burning off akathisia 'energy' when it occurs (though I haven't tapered low enough for that to kick in for me... YET). Unfortunately, I turn very cyanotic when my heart rate goes of 125, so I certainly can't dance with the intensity I would like to and that I once could. I'm at my lyrical jazz class tonight, as we speak (I watch my daughter's class before mine, when I'm up to it). I also take hip hop on Thursdays. And then I sort of crash for several days lol... post exertional malaise is no joke! But to me, it's worth it- we have to choose how we expend our energy, and I would likely be in waaaaay worse shape emotionally if I gave up dance altogether. It's nice to be here, even when I can only watch. I've been having a decent day, reading through lots of threads here. So damned much suffering! It's terrible what these drugs have done to us. Reading about symptoms that others have had makes me wonder if I haven't been suffering the effects of these drugs for my whole adult life, and just not realized what it was. I've had severe hot flashes and night sweats since I was 27- all hormonal tests came back normal for years (obviously not now- perimenopause has begun!). I've had muscle and joint pain since my mid-20s- again, testing has shown absolutely nothing. I had infertility problems, and multiple miscarriages... I was not on any psychoactive meds during that period, but maybe my prior experiences with SSRIs were still having some impact on me? Ever since I was taken off Paxil cold turkey in my early 20s, I've been emotionally labile, and suffered periods of extreme agitation/akathisia, outbursts of rage, and intense sadness for seemingly no reason. It's a scary thought that these symptoms have always been with me in varying degrees- makes me question just how much healing I can actually do? I refuse to give up though, and I'm hoping the fact that I am going to taper slowly this time, with the support of my awesome husband and daughter will help me find the best version of myself. That's it for deep Wednesday evening thoughts lol... time to try to dance! Fingers crossed I can get through the class unscathed tonight...
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