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  1. Hello, I'm still new to this site and apologize if I made a mistake that could get me banned by instantly starting a topic but I was too mentally drained to even read the description, I'm really desperate to get answers that will shed light onto my own case of what I assume to be withdrawal and hope administrators won't take offense in it. I was previously preparing this text so excuse if the start sounds somewhat artificial as followed up by this part of the text, I don't feel like re-editing it. Now, would you consider it out of the ordinary that I didn't feel any withdrawal symptoms the first two years after I quit medication? I heard it is not uncommon for antipsychotics (in my case risperidone 1mg) to have more bizarre withdrawal effects than other psychiatric drugs. All this just invokes worry in me that I might be severely mentally ill instead of merely going through the necessary withdrawal process. In respect to that are details that I find important to stress out as far as my own situation is concerned, one such would be that I can't clearly tell when my symptoms started, as if not knowing when they will end wasn't scary enough, some I can even recall as far back when I quit therapy. And they don't appear to be too problematic, at least not as much as people describe theirs (although still profoundly debilitating and present with almost all describing symptoms in the book including occasional physical pains, but I still feel like most of you go through worse than me as I can be surprisingly functional on certain days, of course I might also be wrong and projecting a humble vital mindset since I know complaining won't help me any further). Another thing to note is that I was compelled to quit cold turkey due to the risperidone having caused severe internal organ damage in the form of pancreatitis, and during my stay on it I was completely deprived from the other medication I was taking, prozac to be exact, in an amount of 20mg, all as instructed by my doctor, without any tapering process. And the first few weeks of therapy my dose was rashly decreased from 1.5mg to 1mg risperidone. Other important details concerning my medical history include infrequent xanax consumption as monitored by my mom and whenever I felt the need for it (which actually didn't impact me negatively and even helped), an attempt at suicide by overdosing with an unknown substance (it's really the hypnotic effects of risperidone to blame so don't judge me please, I woke up the next day after 16 hours of sleep without side effects so it couldn't be that fatal), frequent alcohol and marijuana consumption for several months to make the effects of risperidone more bearable, and later recreative drug use when I was already off and determined to celebrate my newly acquired health (especially morning glory seeds in case that information is of any significance, I even think the first dissociation symptoms were triggered by them but that was still a year prior to when the withdrawal symptoms truly started kicking in, in the sense of turning me dysfunctional), as well as the fact that I spent the previous year starving myself due to poor appetite as I had no clue what was wrong with me and that withdrawal syndrome does it (which probably already stunted my health development enough). Please also note that I was completely straight edge before these medicines, I don't want you to get a wrong of me as the type drug abuser who has himself to blame for ruining his life, everyone deserves a second chance and you should know yourself how heavy these medications are, they required certain measures of escapism and relief which I rediscovered in recreative drugs as they partially helped me regain my cognitive processes and fight off the continuous inner turmoil of being trapped in your own body. I deeply hope all this has left no incurable permanent brain damage and that there's still hope to start life anew in spite of all the mistakes I've made in the past 5 years and truly paid them and even have to carry them with me up to this day, I'm only 20 years old and already have to pay such burdensome consequences for my past actions. Looking back at all that I think I would have rather died from sepsis than spend any more time on these demonic medicines. Medications that I felt so horrible on for the entire time I was taking them couldn't be any good for me, all the while I was too restrained by the mental blockages they caused to say anything during this one-and-a-half-year stay, it's only when I was taken off that I finally felt like a happy fulfilled human being again, even in a problematic situation like the one that forced me to end them. All that being said, I'm not very informed on the topic and would be deeply thankful if someone could provide me additional information sources. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
  2. I apologize in advance for not knowing a ton about this subject, and it may seem foolish but my doctors have never really told me much about my medication and situation and I shamefully never asked. Basically I was diagnosed with ASD after a suicide attempt some years ago(again it may seem silly but I am not sure exactly what year this was but I believe it was when I was 16 and I am 23 currently) and after trying various medications my psychiatrist prescribed me with 3.75 mg of Risperidal injected via muscle every 2 weeks, and I have been taking that for at least 3 years. Now again I don't know a ton about this, but as far as I know the dosage I am at is very small since it is only every 2 weeks, and I have missed up to 3 weeks of doses with little effect, but still I feel like I am in a much better place than I was when I started in my life and my weight has been an issue for some time and I hope getting off of these meds will help. I have stopped seeing a psychiatrist 3 years ago, because I moved away and he thought I was stable enough to not need to see one regularly. I know others have it much worse than me, in terms of dosage and diagnosis, I have not had serious depression and my mood and social interactivity has only gotten better and better as time goes on, but still I would like to disconinue my medication for weight purposes as well as not wanting to get an injection every 2 weeks. I fully believe the main reason for my starting this medication was my mindset and life situation caused depression and social disconnect, and I just feel I would like to give getting off of it a go. I am not sure how bad withdrawal will be or it's effect on my mind and mood will be, and anyone who knows more about this could hopefully educate me a little. I plan to see my GP this week to discuss with him and whether I need to see a psychiatrist before tapering(as I said I really don't know how severe the effect on me will be and whether it will be mild because of the low dose or what) but I have a good supporting family around me and really feel no need to see one at this point, although if he thinks it's a good idea I probably will. Other than weight gain I have had no noticeable side effects. I'd like to stress how little I really know about my medication, googling I can't find much info on what a low dose such as what I take (3.75mg* muscular injection every two weeks) has on me, all I really know is that people around me said I have begun opening up a lot more the past few years compared to before, but I don't know how much of that is due to the meds or lifestyle changes. It may seem silly for me to want to get off of it if my life has only improved greatly since taking the meds, but I really don't like the idea of being dependent on them for the rest of my life and my weight has become a big problem to fix and all the help I can get for that from stopping this medication would be appreciated. For all I know this dosage could be a piece of cake to kick or I could be in for hell, if anyone knows more please let me know, if it's the former I apologize for wasting peoples time as I realize it's not exactly as severe a dosage as a lot of people on anti psychotics have(as far as I understand). Thank you for your understanding. * I believe I mis-remembered my dosage as 3.75, when looking online it is more likely to be 37.5, not as low as I thought.
  3. Most, if not all, of us on here keep notes or track symptoms, progress and tapering schedules. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could combine them all in one big AI database and have it spew out the statistically significant data? Until that comes to fruition, I wanted to share some patterns that I have tracked with my daughter’s anti-psychotic tapering progress over the last two years. Maybe others have seen similar patterns? Or can share their noticeable patterns on the specific days or weeks when they occur from a drop in dose/ taper time frame. So often in the throes of withdrawal agony we look for a way to ‘fix’ our current situation. We ruminate whether we should up dose, taper down, throw a supplement at it, add a different med …. In the hopes of making the current “pain”, better. Pretty much I have thought of all those things except throwing in the kitchen sink in an attempt to ‘make it stop’ for her. As it is often cited and discussed here on Survivingantidepressants.com, learning how to cope using non-drug techniques during these times is the best strategy. Can knowing when you are in the middle of something awful, that what you are experiencing is actually a typical pattern others have gone through and will eventually subside…be of benefit to help ‘ride the wave?' I vote, "yes it can." The pattern that I have noticed for my daughter, Glo, is what I call the “Week Three Phenomenon.” This phenomenon became more apparent as her dose became lower. Probably because she was pretty much ‘zombified’ on the higher doses and it was only when her level of alertness improved and just overall feeling better occurred that the ‘down patterns’ emerged more clearly. Week Three Phenomenon occurs between day 15 and 22 after a taper. It shows up as Emotional Spirals, (typically Anger Spirals), Crying Spells, Agitation and increased Insomnia. Week one and Week two have their share of symptoms but typically not these. Actually those weeks have more physical symptoms and less emotional symptoms. Additionally there is more “calm” in week 2. So one might think, “Ahh I made it through the rough parts of that taper” and then boom….not so much. But then by week 4…pretty much on cue for day 22 or 23…the calm returns. Maybe this is Windows and Waves but maybe it is actually repair work going on from the drop in dose. Maybe there is really a methodical way the brain heals and it impacts certain areas of the brain in succession (the amygdala, hippocampus, frontal lobe perhaps)? Similar to the old fashioned arcade Pinball Game only the “ball” pings the same areas of the brain in a repeatable fashion after a taper? I am certainly only a mother observing my daughters behaviors and actions through this process so, no expert am I. Nor do I really know what she is feeling as she does not talk much any more. However, I can count on these emotional spirals showing up on week 3 like clockwork. The other pattern I see relates to Menstruating Females. This pattern is most discernible when one is having regular periods. Glo went from amenorrhea in the beginning to irregular periods then to regular but shortened periods. But every month when she is regular her symptoms go ‘off the charts’ during ovulation. They last about 24 to 36 hours and occur mostly 14 days before the start of her next period. She has ramped up pacing (I am assuming akathisia), chewing/jaw tension, agitation, insomnia and decreased level of alertness/communication. This same pattern emerges 24 to 48 hours before she starts her period. So what happens if my sweet beautiful daughter is in Week Three of a taper and ovulation or her menstrual cycle arrives? Well, if the general public, doctors or psychiatrists were around they would lock her up in a psych ward and “med her up” (to refer to words by @puthappinessfirst) Fortunately, I will not let that happen. It is comforting to me to know these are patterns and that there is always calm after these storms; usually in the form of increased healing. She is better now than she has been at any time on this medication. She still has much healing to do. I still have patience to learn. But we are getting through to the other side of being on this poison. Peace to all who taper, Glosmom
  4. Here is a question for everyone who has used anti-psychotics (especially athletes): Have you experienced poor blood circulation after using anti-psychotics? please reply with your experience in decent detail. I myself am an athlete and after i took risperdal, my blood circulation dramatically weakened, i was much less vascular and could barely experience a muscle pump after working out; I recovered from that side effect after a rough 14 months. later i took abilify and the same exact thing happened, poor circulation, less vascular and of course fatigue in the gym. after bloodwork, the only thing that was abnormal was prolactin (it was high after risperdal and low after abilify).
  5. Hey I am girl from Denmark. I am on my way of Adjuvanz (aka Vyvanse - see this post) and risperidon risperidone . I feel its quite hard. Specially the risperidon has a lot of withdrawal symptoms such as tiredness, mood swings, strange feelings at my skin and whole system. I started at 0,75 mg and now i am 0,40. I tried to stop for two days ago, but to day it has been totally awfull. I wish there was a guideline, which could show me for how long the withdrawal symptoms would last. Adjuvanz is now 70 mg. Starting with 120 mg. Its not so hard yet, but I think it will be harder, when I get down to 50 mg and below. I am glad, that I found this forum and hope to get helping advice and maybe being able to help others.
  6. Hello, I am a mom who is helping her 16 year old son (under the guidance of his psychiatrist) to taper off psychotropic medications. He has a complex medical history with cancer and narcolepsy and mood issues. I am not sure what, if anything, his current meds are doing for him given how long he has been on them and how much he has changed in that time. He is currently doing very well and is in full agreement on trying to reduce/stop the medications. After 2 previous disastrous attempts to taper him off Risperal in the past (done in the traditional, much too fast way), I was able to help him taper off Risperdal this past year. He started at a dose of 1 mg (taken as .5 mg morning and evening) in June of 2017. As outlined on this site, I reduced him monthly by 10% of the current dose for around the first 7 months and then was then able to speed up the time between reductions (because my son was doing very well and asked me to speed it up!). He has now been off Risperdal for 5 months, doing well, and I would like to try and taper him off Celexa. His psychiatrist is in agreement with tapering him off. Although the psychiatrist (a brand new once as my son's old psychiatrist left his practice this summer) had never heard of the 10% reduction method, he is supportive and wrote a prescription for liquid Celexa so that I can give him a combination of pill and liquid during the taper. I have the liquid and I can start at any time, but I am feeling very nervous! I thought it might help to discuss my plan here. I also have a few questions. My plan is to, as I did with the Risperdal and is recommended here, reduce the dose by 10% of the previous dose. I have the 10 mg/5 ml Celexa solution and 10 mg tablets. My son's current dose is 30 mg, so he takes three 10 mg tables each morning. Here is my reduction schedule for the first few months, starting with his current dose of Celexa, and the combination of tablet and liquid I will give him 30 mg: 10 mg tablet + 10 mg tablet + 5 ml liquid (this is his current dose - just to be extra cautious I will give him a few days at this dose because of the change to a combination of liquid and pill) 27 mg: 10 mg tablet + 10 mg tablet + 3.5 ml liquid (I will have him stay at this dose for 1 month provided everything is going well) 24.3 mg: 10 mg tablet + 10 mg tablet + 2.15 ml liquid (again, 1 month at this dose) My first question has to do with how precise to be with rounding off dosage amounts. I have a 5 ml and a 1 ml syringe. The 1 ml syringe is divided into hundredths, so I can get precise, but do I need to? I did with the Risperdal taper, but I started at 1 mg, so I needed to. For example, the third reduction, rounded to the nearest hundredth of a mg, is a dose of 21.87 mg. So, for this reduction I could give him two 10 mg tablets and .94 ml of the liquid. Or, I could round up to 22 mg and give him the two tablets and 1 ml of liquid. Any thoughts on precision of rounding would be appreciated! My second question is what would be a good drink to mix the liquid Celexa into. I put the Risperdal into a very small amount of milk. I am thinking of using milk again. Thank you!
  7. Hello! Here’s my psychosis and medication history; so.. i had psychosis which was caused by extremely heavy drinking. i had meds (latest risperdal) for.. 10months and they made me a zombie 😕 i quit risperdal about 4 months ago and i started feeling great little by little, until someday i felt totally back to myself! (Normally i’m talkative, say jokes and laugh alot) uh oh so lately (2weeks) i’ve been feeling myself little bit ”too good” like i’m in a super good mood of love and happiness and i’m super confident! (Nothing euphoric) but *zap* my mood can be killed so easily to super pissed off (like workmate not greeting me) but in these 2 weeks i have learned to drink coffee and smoking cigarettes so.. every day i drink about 5-10cups of coffee (i get usually too energenic) so it (coffe/cig) cause me this kind of energyboosts. I’m not psychically energic, but mentally too energic, my mind is racing like crazy! i’ll try to avoid coffee and cigs and alcohol from now on and i can already see that my mind is alot calmer.. (uh oh coffe/cig withdrawals are going to be hellish!) like i said i’hv been only mentally/emotionally energic (my mood is changing all the time!) but pychically (you know my bodyfunction) i am really LAZY! (Like i normally am) but when i’m alone, i’m super lazy! Even when in my head can make up great ideas and such but i have been reading about mania, i dont waste money or do all the rime something? Like i said, i’m lazy I have read the topic ”dealing with emotional spiral” and thats just the ways my mind is racing! I tried that sleeping habit about listening meditation music and it really helped and i slept within 10minutes! In these 2 weeks i have slept normally only once i didnt sleep at all (drank 10cups of coffee before going to sleep) but i’m still concerned if THIS IS BIPO/MANIA?? 😕
  8. How long does it take to completely recover from risperdal consta? I switched from risperdal consta to latuda end december 2017 but I must still be affected by it, since I'm still impotent (I got this condition while on risperdal consta).
  9. Hi there I am coming off risperdal. I know its tough but is it possible. I was really hoping to hear from alto strata on the matter. What speed should I start my taper at? Guys is there any hope? All im hearing are nightmare stories and im desperate for hope...
  10. Hello. About 6 months ago I was hospitalized and put on risperdal against my will. I was diagnosed as bi polar and given the medication over the course of 21 days, beginning with a pill and ending with two injectables. I was scheduled for a third injection three months after being released, but as the symptoms were impossible to cope with, my psychiatrist put me on abillify instead. After less than a month, I discontinued the medication completely cold turkey and I haven't been back to see him since. Here are some of the symptoms I've noticed for the past 3 months since discontinuing the medications. -akathisia -mild gynecomastia -emotional flatness -inabillity to read or retain information ( I used to read about a book a week before the medication) -increased joint pain -terrible anxiety and agoraphobia -erectile dysfunction and an empty sex drive/diminished orgasms -severe weight gain Anyways, a whole myriad of symptoms began to occur, but my main concern is permanent neurological impairment or alteration caused from this medication. I've read that these medications are actually neurotoxic, that they shrink the brain or even cause brain cells to die, all sorts of terrible stuff like that - and I'm terrified. I don't know what to do or how to cope. Is there anybody out there with similar experiences? If so, how long has it taken you to recover, if you recovered at all? I feel like I've basically been lobotomized. I'm only 23, and I couldn't imagine living life like this without some hope of getting better. Any help is appreciated. Thanks for listening.
  11. Hi there, I am wanting some information on how to withdraw or at the least reduce my medications. I was initially put on lexipro for 3 months in nov 2015, it made me a lot worse and I was taken off it and put on Risperdal 1mg and cymbalta 120mg January 2016. I stayed on this for a year with slight improvement and then in December 2016 my psychiatrist reduced my rispiradol to 0.5 when I complained about oversleeping weight gain and lingering mental illness, within 2 weeks this made me very edgy and unsettled so she increased it back to 1mg and said I might have to be on it forever, she then added 30mg mirtazipine. I have been on these 3 for the last year. I am terrified of going back to how I was but I also do not like the side effects or simply being on drugs. Im hesitant to seek advise from the same psychiatrist as the last time I went there she wanted to put me on a mood stabilizer which was March 2017 I never went back... any advise please? Thank you x
  12. Hello, my name is Manny. I was diagnosed 0CD and schizophrenic in 2008, but I been taking benzos and amiptriptiline since 2005. Currently,taking abilify 20mg,risperidone 2mg,cymbalta 60mg,biperiden 4mg. I am tapering klonopin down to 0,27mg from a dose of 1,25mg. I went to see my doctor this week because a blood test that I did. He said my hepatic transaminases are high because of the medication that I take. I am assuming the APs that I take. What can I do to get my liver function well? I know, quitting the APs, but I can t cold turkey. Any advice,please.
  13. just want to thank everyone here who posts. I am managing my daughter's withdrawal. She doesn't speak much so i have to gauge her withdrawal by her eating and sleeping habits as well as when we 'see her old personality' show up for a few minutes a day. When she can concentrate on a video or a movie, play Uno, or listen to her spotify.....we know she is feeling better. THe tapering is so slow and i want her off this med, but watching her body is my only key. It is an amazing process to see this sweet child who has no idea why this is happening, go through this process. Those of you who can speak and share are my light. Peace
  14. Hi all, I am new to this forum. I want to share my experience with you guys. This is my second time trying to come off of these two medications. I want to succeed in staying off them this time. I have been off meds for four months so far. A bit of a history of my medication use. I have been on seroquel and lexparo for a total of six years. In 2014 I tried to come off of those 2 meds and did it way too fast. I was on Seroquel 600mg and the physical withdrawals got so bad that I ended up in the emergency room. At that point however I did not go back on any meds and stuck through the physical withdrawals until they went away. A few months after that I went through the emotional, clinical, and psychological post withdrawals that got so bad that after 5 months I went back on medications and ultimately to the same meds I was on before. I have been on those meds since this past year. So I was on seroquel 400mg and lexapro 10mg until this past year. I knew that I had done it too fast and too quickly the first time and I was not under any medical supervision as I had stopped seeing that doctor. I wanted to give going of medications a second attempt this time and with determination and willpower to not go back on them again. With my luck however this past April my psychiatrist told me she was moving to a different state and will be replaced. So I asked her how to wean myself off of the meds before she left and she did not agree with it but told me how. Btw after she left I just followed her instructions and did not see the people that were covering for her because i did not feel the need to since I was no longer taking any medication, they never replaced her and just had people filling in and when they did find a nurse practitioner, I was told that she has quit. But back to what my doctor said. She told me to go down from 400mg of seroquel by 50 mg every month, that was her recommendation for the slow taper. This was back in April and it would take me 8 months if I did it that way before I would be off so I did not do that and instead went down 100mg every month. She told me that that was not the safest way to do it but she could not stop me. Now that I look back I probably should have done it by 50 mg each month even if it would have took 8 months, and maybe I would not have as many problems right now. So I began the weaning process in April and by July I was off both seroquel and lexapro, seorquel 400mg and lexapro 10 mg. For the Lexapro I went from 10mg to 5mg for two months, then to 2.5mg for a few weeks, by 3 months I was off of it as well. The physical withdrawals did not last that long and I got through it. But two months in I was getting the clinical, emotional and psychological symptoms back. The very ones they were meant to treat, and each month it is getting worse and worse. I do have to mention that before I ever started any medications, the only thing I was ever diagnosed with was depression and social anxiety. I was put on an SSRI and it made me very agitated and off the walls, kind of like hypomania with anger and impulsiveness, thinking and acting reckless. Once again I was never like this before meds. So what did they do? They added seroquel to counteract those side affects of the SSRI and I stayed on that combination ever since, going as high as 600mg of seroquel at one time and these past 3 years on 400mg of seroquel. The post withdrawal affects I have been dealing with now four months off the meds has been has follows. It started as paranoia, slightly delusional, lots of anxiety and worry and nervous, can't calm down. Then came the depression, debilitating depression, it can be brutal, then came the severe ruminations and obsessions, I repeat the same stuff in my head over and over again like a broken record with anxiety, doubt, unsure jumping back and forth between thoughts, it is very time consuming and makes me feel like I am losing it. And then came the mood swings, lots of agitation and irritability, anxiety, angry thoughts, hostility, everything pisses me off, don't like myself or anyone else, thinking irrational and delusional, depressed but with lots of energy, suicidal ideations, there are moments when I feel ok or normal and am able to laugh but those don't last. And now recently when I feel totally out of it, kind of like derealization and depersonalization, where I feel disconnected from myself, everyone else, and everything around me. I don't feel anything, loss of pleasure and emotions. And it is really scaring me. I never know how I am going to be feeling on any day, it is so unpredictable and it seems to be changing and getting worse and worse. I am still going through all the symptoms I mentioned before, and they keep adding on to different or new ones but I never know how I am going to be feeling at any given moment or day, it is very unpredictable. Lately my head has been hurting and I feel I am going into cognitive decline, like I am slowly starting to lose my mind, where I can barely function. Also, I am having a lot of restless movements of my hands, feet, and legs all the time. I am having more sexual dysfunction now than when I was on meds. I feel extreme panic, worry, and desperation, severe anxiety, where I feel like I am drowning or can't breathe, and moments of intense grief and sorrow. This is an everyday thing for me, it shows no mercy and I am getting tired of it all, it seems never ending, don't know what to do but I need help. The current state that I am in is that I find it very hard to be around people, all my symptoms exacerbate around people making me feel ten times severely worse. So I don't leave the house much these days, only if I can and it is not for long. Even in the house, I am mostly in my room, being in the kitchen, or bathroom or living room makes me feel unwell, being in my room does not make me feel happy or content but it makes me feel better than being anywhere else. I know that this is all in part because of I have been off the meds four months now and that is why I am going through all this that is getting worse and worse. I ask myself if I give it more time being like this will I eventually get better? Will my brain go back to normal with time without having to go back on any medications, especially the ones I was taking? or do I need to go back on some type of medications right now to get me through this, whether they are the same ones or different ones? I wonder if I need to be hospitalized which would mean I would have to go back on meds, or if I should just go back on meds right away. I am not sure what to do at this point. My goal is to not go back on any medications and give it as much time as possible while doing things to occupy my mind and body and avoid anything that will trigger me, stress me out, or give my anxiety, which at this point it is just about anything. Another option I thought about was going back on the meds at a very low dose and than weaning off of them again at the slowest pace possible, this would be just to get me through this right now and stabilize me. Since I think 3 months weaning process was too fast considering that I was on them 6 years in total at fairly mid dose ranges. I can either wait it out longer and I wonder if i will get better or worse or stay the same, or if any emergency happens, like having serious thoughts about hurting myself or some type of episode, that I would either have to be hospitalized and go back on meds to save my life. I do take vitamins and supplements right now and I would like to think they are helping but I am really not sure. I am also exercising and watching what I eat and drink, and am getting good sleep thankfully. Can anyone relate to this at all? Have any opinions, suggestions, or advice? Thank you.
  15. Klipsanen

    I cannot talk!

    Hello, is there anyone else who struggles with talking? i can not talk? I used to be so talkative before my medication. My brain is just a huge lump of fog nowadays. Every now and then i only answer questions when asked and only with one word. I can't get any more words out of my mouth, cant even think! Will this problem go away when getting off of medication? (Risperdal) or is it just a part of anhedonia? (Emotional flatness) this problem ruins my relationship with everyone! Sorry for short post, had struggle even write this! Sorry about my english too!
  16. Hello Everyone, I am relieved to find this site, because I have been dealing with problems from my medications alone for a long time, and it's a relief to find a support system, and a place where I may be finally be able to be helpful. For context, I grew up in an unstable home. My parents were upper middle class and had no serious problems (like drug abuse), and were caring in many ways - but not in others. My mother withheld food for every reason in the book (misbehavior, being too busy, not believing I was hungry, trying to teach me a lesson about different things, like patience, and making sure I stayed super thin, and making sure I enjoyed the food she cooked more) and I was hungry all the time, though never became too unhealthy because I never exceeded 24 hours without food. But it made me extremely hunger phobic (which I still am today.) I developed insomnia and generalized anxiety at the same time. And no one in my family took it seriously - they were all disappointed in me. However, when I developed depression, my parents constantly took me to doctor's and tried numerous medications - Hydroxyzine, Prozac, Lexapro, Zoloft, Clonidine, Welbutrin, and Abilify - all to no avail. During my depression, both parents became extremely emotionally distant from me, which made things worse. Finally, my doctor prescribed Mirtazapine and convinced my parents to feed me more regularly, and my depression and insomnia went away. However, I was also prescribed Risperidone. I was told that its mood-stabilizing effects would be beneficial in helping regulate my emotions and would prevent me from overindulging in my internal fantasy world (that became a crutch for me during my depression. I was not psychotic or bipolar - my official diagnosis was major depressive disorder and I never had mania or hallucinations. Risperidone was at a low dose, .5 mg, although I was only 14. She also wanted Risperidone to be a short-term drug. However, we had to abruptly switch to a new doctor (my parents had split up, and we had to find a doctor closer to their new houses). He seemed to think Risperidone would be fine as a long-term drug; I suppose he thought it was needed to keep my depression at bay alongside Mirtazapine. Here's when the trouble began. Mirtazapine was fine (I'm still on it.) However, with Risperidone, I had to fast regularly to test for insulin resistance. This aggravated my hunger phobia, but my parents didn't take it seriously. It also exacerbated my anxiety tenfold. I became so afraid of bugs that by the the first year I was on it, I was too afraid to leave the house during the summer. Sleeping was hard because I was terrified a bug would crawl into my bed. Some of my childhood fears came back and became huge an irrational - I was terrified of vomiting and lound sounds, to name a few. My family didn't take this seriously - they didn't believe it had gotten worse; they told me I was always this anxious. My doctor mostly believed them and gave me Xanax rather than examining my medications. After six months on the drug and for the rest of my time on Risperidone, I began waking up twice during the night by extreme hunger, unlike anything I ever felt (around midnight and again between three and four in the morning) which was disastrous for my mental health because of my phobia. (I think the only way I survived was because the hunger was so extreme that it felt fake, but it hurt like hell.) I couldn't go more than two hours without getting extremely hungry, and became afraid of taking standardized tests in high school (because food wasn't allowed) and couldn't go to social outings because I was afraid my friends wouldn't stop for food. Sometimes, no matter what I did, I couldn't feel full. I stopped doing the fasting blood draws because of my phobia, despite the potential consequences. I started cutting to deal with the constant threat of hunger. My family still didn't take my deteriorating health seriously and even threatened not to feed me to get to do what they wanted, and mocked me for being scared all the time. The only thing that stopped them from not feeding me was my doctor. He told them to feed me, but he didn't take me off the drug despite the hunger-induced insomnia and anxiety. I had prolactin troubles. It gave me an intense sex drive. However, it stopped my puberty almost entirely. I had menstrual periods once every three months, but when I did have them, they could last for two weeks and were very heavy, though I had no cramps. I also began to look different - I look younger in my senior yearbook photo than I did in my eighth grade middle school photo. People who saw me around high school who didn't know me well enough asked if I was a freshmen all junior and senior year. My parents blamed me for some reason - they just said I should wear more makeup and said I got bad "genes" from the other parent. After three years on the drug, I started having serious problems with my gut. For the first three years, I had bad constipation on and off, getting progressively worse as the years went by. After the third year, I had an episode where I was constipated for ten days and had to use powerful laxatives four times to finally get some relief. After that, I had to use those laxatives regularly. I also developed an immense, cramping pain in my gut. It would get so bad that sometimes, during class I couldn't do my work at all. I had to sit there, motionless, for the full hour because the pain was so bad I couldn't move. I had trouble standing for this same reason. This was my senior year, and the intensity of and the frequency of which the pain occurred and the need to use laxatives increased. At the same time, I started having psychotic episodes. I would switch between "positive" episodes, where I had delusions that the teachers and students in one of my classes were forming a conspiracy to humiliate me, that everyone I knew was trying to collect information about my weaknesses (hence my refusal to tell anyone about the pain in my gut), that other teachers were reading my thoughts, and so on. I became terrified of small noises and believed that whispering people were always talking about me. I had a perceptual difficulty where the world looked too shiny and glass-like. In between were "negative" episodes, where I couldn't make facial expressions, everything looked gray, and I moved very slowly and either felt immensely sad or nothing at all. teachers and friends tried to help me but I was scared of them and wouldn't let them. My family be angry with me. I was living with my dad, and would accuse me of abusing my Xanax drugs when I had negative episodes, and would yell and once hit me when I got scared of him during positive ones. I didn't live with my mom at all because her abuse was worse. After graduation, the laxatives just weren't effective anymore, but I kept using them, more and more, to try and get their effect. This caused bizarre symptoms (I think.) I slept for 14 hours a day, and had trouble moving after I took one. My heart would go extremely fast for hours after taking them. At the time, I started to worry they were killing me. I knew that both Risperidone and Mirtazapine caused constipation. The hunger was bad as it had ever been, and I was having delusions based around that, and I knew that Risperidone and Mirtazapine caused increased appetite. I finally decided that I needed Mirtazapine more because it had relieved the depression symptoms first, and Risperidone was only ever supposed to be for emotional regulation help anyway. Deciding I could do without it, I quit it cold turkey. I wouldn't have done this if I was thinking straight, but I was psychotic and no one was offering any help. Within hours, my constipation was relieved and NEVER came back. My appetite dwindled within a few days, as did my anxiety about bugs. For the first time in years, I walked out into the summer heat without fear of bees, and slept without hunger. I had a wonderful feeling in my body that I can't even describe. My psychotic symptoms being to ebb immediately, and were gone entirely after a month. However, other troubles popped up. First off, I've been mildly depressed and isolated since what happened. I feel awful about how I treated my friends and teachers when I was psychotic and thought I had to protect myself from them (which usually meant rudeness or shutting them out). I reconnected with some of my friends, and they really understood. However, not with others. Also, my family is the most distant they've ever been. They don't understand what I've been through, what I'm dealing with now, or why I treated them the way I did. They think I over-exaggerate and seem to regard me as unstable and don't have a sense of the recovery I've made, they only see the shortcomings I still face. I feel like a burden to everyone - I always need something, like money for doctor's visits or emotional support. I haven't yet been able to offer much in return, and it's profoundly upsetting. There's always something going on with me and I just wish I could help others for once. Two moderate shortcomings are communication and driving. Talking has become very difficult - I'm always forgetting what I should say (like "have a nice day') and am frequently lost for words - I either stare off into space or say "um" multiple times when asked a question. My words come out jumbled. Only a couple of friends have been patient enough to learn how to communicate with me. My family says I'm less intelligent than most people my age, and my peers and professors tend to think I'm weird or rude. I'm getting better though and my writing has remained fine and is a good communication tool for me. I also still can't drive. On Risperidone, I was too afraid to drive. Now, my nutrition is bad (I'll talk about that more below) and so it makes it hard to focus on different things at once (like car speed and lights) but I'm working on it. It's slow going though because I need to get away from my family. One of those is my menstrual periods. They are regular now, but the cramps they give me are intense. So bad that they make me sick to my stomach. Sometimes so bad that I almost faint and/or see stars. The cramping extends down my legs. I experience some of the psychotic symptoms I had on risperidone, along with confusion and sometimes even hypomania (like rapid talking and over-spending.) I now take Xanax exclusively for this because it's the only way to drown out the pain. Worse, I have terrible problems with my gut. I had acid reflux for a year after quitting Risperidone, though it's now mostly gone. Risperidone may have increased my appetite, but when I quit it, I lost my appetite almost completely. I became at one point nearly ten pounds underweight. I usually ate one small meal a day with a snack. I became so underweight that at one point I had problems breathing and climbing staircases. I had strange pains in my legs and made very poor decisions. I got sick all the time. I was cold all the time too - I had the space heater running in the summer. My felt pain in my bones all over my body and sitting on hard floors was excruciating. My family noticed none of this. At one point, I had to go to the urgent care once for dehydration. But of course, the doctor and my family wrote it off as anxiety, though the doctor mentioned I needed to put on some weight. I can't eat breakfast anymore I have symptoms of severe IBS daily, and used to vomit if I didn't get enough sleep (though this has since lessened to heartburn.) I still have malnutrition problems on an off. I alternate between a week of eating normally, eating less, and then eating almost nothing at all. Doctors and family say it's anxiety, but my anxiety has been virtually gone since quitting Risperidone. On that note, I HAVE made improvements. My anxiety is the lowest it's ever been my whole life (I can pick up spiders in my bare hand!). My hunger phobia, for better or worse, is more manageable now that my appetite is unreliable. I am in college. Socializing is hard and my roommate also became verbally abusive, making fun and belittling my health problems more actively than my family. However, I've made some light acquaintances and am helping a professor with research. I'm in the honors program at my school and I have a job. Despite my pain and eating problems, I go to class and have learned to be tough about it. I'm thinking of writing a book about my experiences with Risperidone. I'm keeping hope and positivty. But to be honest, it's hard. I don't have anyone to talk to about what I've been through. The nutrition problems are bad, and no one takes them seriously. I have a better doctor now, prescribing Mirtazapine and Trazodone (for sleep), and does recognize my weight issues are a problem, but I have trouble paying for her on a regular basis, and she can't do much for me when it comes to helping the nutrition/weight problem - I need a nutritionist, which I also can't afford. And so my poor health continues to get in the way of a lot of things, but I don't many solutions and sometimes the only thing I can do is hide them and manage them the best I can without guidance. And so, I am so grateful to anyone who has read this long and personal post, and I greatly appreciate any support and want to offer all I can in return.
  17. WarriorWoman

    How to taper less than .01mg at a time

    I am tapering liquid Risperdal and am trying to make a smaller cut than .01mg at a time. I am currently at 1.10mg. This is what I usually do: 1. Measure out 1 mg with a 2 ml syringe and at it to 1/2 cup water per directions from medication insert 2. Measure out .10ml with a .50 ml syringe (1ml of liquid = 1mg of Risperidone) 3. Stir then drink right away Is there a way that I can measure out an amount of liquid and then pull an amount that will give me a .005ml/mg cut? If so, can anyone provide he water to drug ratio as to how to go about making a cut this tiny? the smallest cut I can make with the .50ml syringe is a .01ml. Thank you all for your help!!
  18. Hello, im from eu, sorry about my english. i'm going to taper my medication which is risperdal 1mg. I have had it about 1,2month. I have been taking 0,5mg for few days now so.. My earlier meds were abilify, zyprexa, truxal and levozin. I had my boozepsychosis about 7 months ago. how slowly do i need to manage with risperdal?
  19. So 2 and a half months ago i started taking trileptal because of bipolar, they never worked so my doctor decided to put me on risperdal, 1 mg at night and half in the morning, everything was great for a month, the risperdal was working but one day i started having dizziness and was feeling too tired, like i was high or something, i ended up going to the ER because i had so much anxiety and dizziness, i talked to my doctor and he told me to quit the risperdal cold turkey because those was probably causing me those symptoms, well its been 2 weeks today since i quit risperdal and im still feeling dizzy with a brain fog, i haven't had a clear mind in a while, i also quit trileptal a week ago because i started to think it was the trileptal, but nothing is improving, do i need to wait for a longer time? I hear a lot of people get better within a week of quitting the medication and others take days, but i still feel like im under the pills effects, am i going to have this brain fog for a while? When i say brain fog i mean like, i cant feel or see things too clear, things are not vivid around me, and my mind feels like is working very slow. Once again, i took risperdal for a month and trileptal for 2 months and a half, i forgot to mention that im always tired too. Could this be the mixture of both pills? Or could it be the risperdal?
  20. I'm new to the forums - currently taking 225mg Effexor, .25mg Klonopin, and .25mg Risperdal. My psychiatrist noted that the Risperdal is temporary (will be taking it for about 3 months), but after reading about withdrawal from this particular drug, I'm wondering if I shouldn't begin going off it sooner than that. It's worth noting that the depression and anxiety that I was experiencing even with Effexor and Klonopin did subside almost immediately after beginning Risperdal. At any rate, I already know I'll be beginning a taper off Klonopin soon, after successfully dropping from .5mg to .25mg without any side effects after 4 weeks - I think I got lucky there. I've been on Risperdal for 28 days, so my natural question, given that withdrawal from psychiatric drugs can occur for anyone taking them for "1 month or longer" is whether I should just stop immediately, since it's been just shy of one month and my dose is low, or if I should taper. I understand that I shouldn't expect a definitive answer to this, but I'm very interested to hear what others think and, quite frankly, very scared about what I'm about to face, given the need to taper from two different drugs. My psychiatrist will undoubtedly tell me to just stop taking it after I've been on it for 3 months, as she seems to believe that there are no withdrawal symptoms from any psych. drugs. So I kind of have to go it alone on this decision without guidance from her. Any thoughts would be much appreciated.
  21. I have been on 3 mg of Risperdal for 13 years due to drug induced psychosis for meth. I decided to finally try to get off the med and have been tapering since December. I did 0.25 mg per month for 4 months but when I hit 2 mg insomnia kicked in for a couple weeks so I waited it out for 2 months and this time went down 0.10 mg for this month. It has been 5 weeks since my last taper and my only real symptoms are fatigue, feeling completely brain dead, and occasionally my vision feels all strange kind of like a very mild acid trip. I am sleeping 9 hours a night and everything is calm I just feel completely flat emotionally, brain dead, and tired for the most part. Would it be better to continue the taper or just hold since my symptoms aren't unbearable but they are just frustrating?
  22. Hello everybody, i hope everyone is well. i would like to thank altostrata for this website and i also want to thank whoever volunteers, so thank you. anyways, i am almost fully recovered from the harmful effects of risperidone. I did not think i would recover, all in all it took 14 months to feel "normal." Here's a link of my first topic if you want more of a perspective on how i used to be: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/12502-risperdalhater-my-risperdal-story-and-how-it-has-affected-my-life/#entry234527 I took risperidone for about 3 weeks, i recall starting off with 2mg doses daily then after a few days i complained about drowsiness and feeling weird so they lowered the dose to 1mg then after a few more days they worked their way up to 3mg daily and a long with that i received a long acting 7mg injection which can be taken once a month (as i recall). towards the end of me taking the drug i started feeling very very drowsy and i recall saying in a pathetic weak voice "I don't like this, i want to stop", so i dumped the risperidone in the trash and never took it again, i stopped cold turkey. the next week and a half or so i went through the worst experience of my life until that point. i had: - constant shakiness - could barely sleep - extreme sadness - seemingly a complete absence of happiness - serious muscular fatigue and weak blood flow these all disappeared after that week and a half except for the muscular fatigue and weak blood flow. the sadness/blah feeling got better at an extremely slow pace. libido died of course (pretty common with risperidone). thankfully i did not grow breasts or lactate like some of the victims of risperidone, perhaps they took it longer or took a higher dose. month 1-10 i was a fatigued wreck, people asked me why i looked so sad, i had to force my smiles etc. month 8-10 or so (as i recall) got slightly better but nothing big, just slight improvements. month 10.5 = more slight improvements in energy. nothing to be excited about though. month 11-14 is when the healing starting picking up its pace. i was hopeless at one point. i don't care if you've been on the drug for years, i still sincerely believe you will get better, just get off of the drug. taking this drug is not how a human being is supposed to live. so i started supplementing with niacin and my blood flow was better, i know because when i was at the gym i could actually get a muscle pump again, it wasn't that great but it was there. when someone is lifting weights, their blood is supposed to flow and the muscle that you're using will get filled with blood and become more vascular, i did not have this except for before i took risperidone. i've been lifting weights for 5 years, gym rat level; that being said, i could tell something was wrong when my blood flow became weak. don't worry about libido, it will return as long as you avoid those crap drugs. i personally put any drug in the category of "crap" whether it is prescribed by a doctor or not. i heard that when you show low libido, zinc can be a link.... yes i did try to make that rhyme. get your blood tested, i have heard that medicines can deplete certain vitamins/minerals. again, please get your blood tested. recovery won't happen overnight no matter how many methods you use to help yourself. supplements that helped me: Natural vitality calm magnesium: it's a powdered form of magnesium and has worked better than any magnesium i've tried. Melatonin __________________________________________________________________________________________________________ if you need help or advice, feel free to message me. at this point it has been 14 months and i am recovered, everything is back to normal. check your blood, supplement with what you need, eat good food, exercise. thanks for reading everyone.
  23. i stopped risperdal 4MG "Cold Turkey" and because of that that i can sleep only 3 hours per night. i am wondering regarding 2 issues: 1. How long will it last without start again and tapering ? 2. Can it make permanent damage to the brain so even after slow tapering the problem will persist permanently? If someone did the same, couldn't sleep and can share with his experience it will be great! Thanks
  24. I began tapering risperdol Feb 2017. It's been about 6 weeks now. I taper 5% every week. My original dose was 1mg each night. I am now at .70mg. I have no physical symptoms but the mental symptoms are the same as the side effects only much worse. The side effects are derealization, severe brain fog, severe depression, emotional flatness and what feels like lowered I.Q. I am sleeping fine and my appetite is good. I didn't gain any weight while on this poison and instead lost quite a bit. I have been taking risperdol for 3 years. I started at 2mg and lowered the dose to 1mg about one year ago. I was told by my pdoc that I could go off of it and I jumped at the chance. He tapered me way too fast and I think I experienced a psychosis or extremely high anxiety. I reinstated at that time. (I hope this post makes sense. I'm not thinking too clearly.) My question is, will these side effects start to diminish while I'm tapering? Will this start to go away as I am ingesting less and less drug? I've read many horror stories online and I'm really reaching for some success stories. I'm very afraid that these side effects will last long after the taper is complete. I am so depressed and do very little but sit on the sofa. I have to force myself to do anything and I have no interest in anything at all. Nothing brings me joy and I cannot feel love anymore. I don't laugh and I don't cry. I am zombie like. It is completely miserable. I've lost everything since I started this med. I've made very bad choices and lost my relationship, my job and my home. I am now living with my grown daughter and her husband. Without them I'd be homeless. Any advice would be very much welcome and appreciated. Thank you.
  25. Last year November, I was diagnosed with depression and given benzhexol along with risperidone. By December, I began feeling dependent on Benzhexol and could rarely do stuff without it especially reading, talking to folks around me,etc. I always felt too anxious without it,also I wouldn't sleep properly, then gradually my body begins to feel horrible, headaches along with a terrible body feelings, confusion. I knew there was a problem and complained about it to my Doctor. He dismissed it as I was becoming anxious, it's a mild side effect, etc basically I would be fine and he increased my dosage to take a tablet twice daily, then I felt better but only during the drugs. By January the drug wasn't making me feel better, I then began complaining further but this time I also tried stopping, I would stop for a few days, usually lying down thinking my discomforts would go away, it doesn't then I would use a pill, I could reduce my use to a pill, then half, I spoke to my doctor further, so now I'm taking half a pill daily, but it feels like hell and I often wish I never should have started using pill as I only feel worse.
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