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I am 20 years old and just tapered off Celexa 4 weeks ago. I can't remember exactly but I think I started it my sophomore year of high school. I've always been healthy and active in sports but that year were some major life changes and I was suffering depression. I asked my mom to see a doctor. I really wanted medication because I thought it would help. On my first visit to the psychiatrist he said I had major depressive disorder and prescribed my first antidepressant. I don't remember what I started with but I was taking 40 mgs of Celexa when I quit. I thought it helped the first year but I struggled through my freshman year of college. Then my sophomore year everything went downhill. I just couldn't do it anymore. I quit my job and dropped out of school. I was having suicidal thoughts and feeling destructive. I smoked marijuana all the time and didn't want to do anything else. I didn't drink alcohol because I'm under 21 but also afraid it would cause a bad reaction with the medicine. When I'm alone I have no motivation to eat or feed myself. I didn't socialize much at all in college not even with my roommates. My mom insisted that the antidepressant wasn't helping me and was making everything worse. I finally agreed to come home and taper off last Christmas. The psychiatrist said I should reduce 1/4 each week so 30 mg to 20 mg to 10 mg the last week. The doctor at Kaiser said the withdrawals should only last 2 weeks. It's 4 weeks now and I feel terrible. When I talked to the doctor he said I am relapsing into depression and that I should try to find a medication that works for me. He gave me a prescription for Wellbutrin but now I'm terrified to take it. I don't want to go through this again. I know now from this site that I should have done a slower taper. I am thinking about reinstating but that scares me too but I think I could do it if that's the only choice to get out of this anxiety. I don't have the suicidal thoughts as much anymore. I just want to get better. I am taking CBD gummies to help with the withdrawals. I feel so weak, hopeless and worry I won't be able to have a normal life again and consistent mentally. I get triggered all the time and embarrass myself in public so I just don't like to be around other people. It's hard being out and seeing all the happy normal people. I just want to sleep all day. I've been pushing myself to go out for a walk or go to the gym because it's close by but only for 20 minutes.
LovelifeTryingtoSurvive posted a topic in Introductions and updatesI went about it all the wrong way. September 2017 I went Cold Turkey from 20mg of Citalopram. Used it for 18 months or so. I stayed off hoping this would eventually get better. They never did. The first two weeks were the worst. Loss sense of reality, no emotions, flu syndrome basically all the side effects under the sun. 90 days I’m I reinstated. 5mg on day and was fine. Then 5mg the next week and was fine again. Then, 10mg the next day and got SS and hyperactivity. .5 Klonopin has helped with the on going dizziness and sucidal thoughts. Anyone out there with success stories from cold Turkey and unable to reinstate? Even a time frame. Waves of symptoms come and go. Everyday is different. I hope to hear back from anyone who cares With hope, Trevor