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  1. Hello everybody, i hope everyone is well. i would like to thank altostrata for this website and i also want to thank whoever volunteers, so thank you. anyways, i am almost fully recovered from the harmful effects of risperidone. I did not think i would recover, all in all it took 14 months to feel "normal." Here's a link of my first topic if you want more of a perspective on how i used to be: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/12502-risperdalhater-my-risperdal-story-and-how-it-has-affected-my-life/#entry234527 I took risperidone for about 3 weeks, i recall starting off with 2mg doses daily then after a few days i complained about drowsiness and feeling weird so they lowered the dose to 1mg then after a few more days they worked their way up to 3mg daily and a long with that i received a long acting 7mg injection which can be taken once a month (as i recall). towards the end of me taking the drug i started feeling very very drowsy and i recall saying in a pathetic weak voice "I don't like this, i want to stop", so i dumped the risperidone in the trash and never took it again, i stopped cold turkey. the next week and a half or so i went through the worst experience of my life until that point. i had: - constant shakiness - could barely sleep - extreme sadness - seemingly a complete absence of happiness - serious muscular fatigue and weak blood flow these all disappeared after that week and a half except for the muscular fatigue and weak blood flow. the sadness/blah feeling got better at an extremely slow pace. libido died of course (pretty common with risperidone). thankfully i did not grow breasts or lactate like some of the victims of risperidone, perhaps they took it longer or took a higher dose. month 1-10 i was a fatigued wreck, people asked me why i looked so sad, i had to force my smiles etc. month 8-10 or so (as i recall) got slightly better but nothing big, just slight improvements. month 10.5 = more slight improvements in energy. nothing to be excited about though. month 11-14 is when the healing starting picking up its pace. i was hopeless at one point. i don't care if you've been on the drug for years, i still sincerely believe you will get better, just get off of the drug. taking this drug is not how a human being is supposed to live. so i started supplementing with niacin and my blood flow was better, i know because when i was at the gym i could actually get a muscle pump again, it wasn't that great but it was there. when someone is lifting weights, their blood is supposed to flow and the muscle that you're using will get filled with blood and become more vascular, i did not have this except for before i took risperidone. i've been lifting weights for 5 years, gym rat level; that being said, i could tell something was wrong when my blood flow became weak. don't worry about libido, it will return as long as you avoid those crap drugs. i personally put any drug in the category of "crap" whether it is prescribed by a doctor or not. i heard that when you show low libido, zinc can be a link.... yes i did try to make that rhyme. get your blood tested, i have heard that medicines can deplete certain vitamins/minerals. again, please get your blood tested. recovery won't happen overnight no matter how many methods you use to help yourself. supplements that helped me: Natural vitality calm magnesium: it's a powdered form of magnesium and has worked better than any magnesium i've tried. Melatonin __________________________________________________________________________________________________________ if you need help or advice, feel free to message me. at this point it has been 14 months and i am recovered, everything is back to normal. check your blood, supplement with what you need, eat good food, exercise. thanks for reading everyone.
  2. just want to thank everyone here who posts. I am managing my daughter's withdrawal. She doesn't speak much so i have to gauge her withdrawal by her eating and sleeping habits as well as when we 'see her old personality' show up for a few minutes a day. When she can concentrate on a video or a movie, play Uno, or listen to her spotify.....we know she is feeling better. THe tapering is so slow and i want her off this med, but watching her body is my only key. It is an amazing process to see this sweet child who has no idea why this is happening, go through this process. Those of you who can speak and share are my light. Peace
  3. Hello, I am a mom who is helping her 16 year old son (under the guidance of his psychiatrist) to taper off psychotropic medications. He has a complex medical history with cancer and narcolepsy and mood issues. I am not sure what, if anything, his current meds are doing for him given how long he has been on them and how much he has changed in that time. He is currently doing very well and is in full agreement on trying to reduce/stop the medications. After 2 previous disastrous attempts to taper him off Risperal in the past (done in the traditional, much too fast way), I was able to help him taper off Risperdal this past year. He started at a dose of 1 mg (taken as .5 mg morning and evening) in June of 2017. As outlined on this site, I reduced him monthly by 10% of the current dose for around the first 7 months and then was then able to speed up the time between reductions (because my son was doing very well and asked me to speed it up!). He has now been off Risperdal for 5 months, doing well, and I would like to try and taper him off Celexa. His psychiatrist is in agreement with tapering him off. Although the psychiatrist (a brand new once as my son's old psychiatrist left his practice this summer) had never heard of the 10% reduction method, he is supportive and wrote a prescription for liquid Celexa so that I can give him a combination of pill and liquid during the taper. I have the liquid and I can start at any time, but I am feeling very nervous! I thought it might help to discuss my plan here. I also have a few questions. My plan is to, as I did with the Risperdal and is recommended here, reduce the dose by 10% of the previous dose. I have the 10 mg/5 ml Celexa solution and 10 mg tablets. My son's current dose is 30 mg, so he takes three 10 mg tables each morning. Here is my reduction schedule for the first few months, starting with his current dose of Celexa, and the combination of tablet and liquid I will give him 30 mg: 10 mg tablet + 10 mg tablet + 5 ml liquid (this is his current dose - just to be extra cautious I will give him a few days at this dose because of the change to a combination of liquid and pill) 27 mg: 10 mg tablet + 10 mg tablet + 3.5 ml liquid (I will have him stay at this dose for 1 month provided everything is going well) 24.3 mg: 10 mg tablet + 10 mg tablet + 2.15 ml liquid (again, 1 month at this dose) My first question has to do with how precise to be with rounding off dosage amounts. I have a 5 ml and a 1 ml syringe. The 1 ml syringe is divided into hundredths, so I can get precise, but do I need to? I did with the Risperdal taper, but I started at 1 mg, so I needed to. For example, the third reduction, rounded to the nearest hundredth of a mg, is a dose of 21.87 mg. So, for this reduction I could give him two 10 mg tablets and .94 ml of the liquid. Or, I could round up to 22 mg and give him the two tablets and 1 ml of liquid. Any thoughts on precision of rounding would be appreciated! My second question is what would be a good drink to mix the liquid Celexa into. I put the Risperdal into a very small amount of milk. I am thinking of using milk again. Thank you!
  4. I apologize in advance for not knowing a ton about this subject, and it may seem foolish but my doctors have never really told me much about my medication and situation and I shamefully never asked. Basically I was diagnosed with ASD after a suicide attempt some years ago(again it may seem silly but I am not sure exactly what year this was but I believe it was when I was 16 and I am 23 currently) and after trying various medications my psychiatrist prescribed me with 3.75 mg of Risperidal injected via muscle every 2 weeks, and I have been taking that for at least 3 years. Now again I don't know a ton about this, but as far as I know the dosage I am at is very small since it is only every 2 weeks, and I have missed up to 3 weeks of doses with little effect, but still I feel like I am in a much better place than I was when I started in my life and my weight has been an issue for some time and I hope getting off of these meds will help. I have stopped seeing a psychiatrist 3 years ago, because I moved away and he thought I was stable enough to not need to see one regularly. I know others have it much worse than me, in terms of dosage and diagnosis, I have not had serious depression and my mood and social interactivity has only gotten better and better as time goes on, but still I would like to disconinue my medication for weight purposes as well as not wanting to get an injection every 2 weeks. I fully believe the main reason for my starting this medication was my mindset and life situation caused depression and social disconnect, and I just feel I would like to give getting off of it a go. I am not sure how bad withdrawal will be or it's effect on my mind and mood will be, and anyone who knows more about this could hopefully educate me a little. I plan to see my GP this week to discuss with him and whether I need to see a psychiatrist before tapering(as I said I really don't know how severe the effect on me will be and whether it will be mild because of the low dose or what) but I have a good supporting family around me and really feel no need to see one at this point, although if he thinks it's a good idea I probably will. Other than weight gain I have had no noticeable side effects. I'd like to stress how little I really know about my medication, googling I can't find much info on what a low dose such as what I take (3.75mg* muscular injection every two weeks) has on me, all I really know is that people around me said I have begun opening up a lot more the past few years compared to before, but I don't know how much of that is due to the meds or lifestyle changes. It may seem silly for me to want to get off of it if my life has only improved greatly since taking the meds, but I really don't like the idea of being dependent on them for the rest of my life and my weight has become a big problem to fix and all the help I can get for that from stopping this medication would be appreciated. For all I know this dosage could be a piece of cake to kick or I could be in for hell, if anyone knows more please let me know, if it's the former I apologize for wasting peoples time as I realize it's not exactly as severe a dosage as a lot of people on anti psychotics have(as far as I understand). Thank you for your understanding. * I believe I mis-remembered my dosage as 3.75, when looking online it is more likely to be 37.5, not as low as I thought.
  5. Most, if not all, of us on here keep notes or track symptoms, progress and tapering schedules. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could combine them all in one big AI database and have it spew out the statistically significant data? Until that comes to fruition, I wanted to share some patterns that I have tracked with my daughter’s anti-psychotic tapering progress over the last two years. Maybe others have seen similar patterns? Or can share their noticeable patterns on the specific days or weeks when they occur from a drop in dose/ taper time frame. So often in the throes of withdrawal agony we look for a way to ‘fix’ our current situation. We ruminate whether we should up dose, taper down, throw a supplement at it, add a different med …. In the hopes of making the current “pain”, better. Pretty much I have thought of all those things except throwing in the kitchen sink in an attempt to ‘make it stop’ for her. As it is often cited and discussed here on Survivingantidepressants.com, learning how to cope using non-drug techniques during these times is the best strategy. Can knowing when you are in the middle of something awful, that what you are experiencing is actually a typical pattern others have gone through and will eventually subside…be of benefit to help ‘ride the wave?' I vote, "yes it can." The pattern that I have noticed for my daughter, Glo, is what I call the “Week Three Phenomenon.” This phenomenon became more apparent as her dose became lower. Probably because she was pretty much ‘zombified’ on the higher doses and it was only when her level of alertness improved and just overall feeling better occurred that the ‘down patterns’ emerged more clearly. Week Three Phenomenon occurs between day 15 and 22 after a taper. It shows up as Emotional Spirals, (typically Anger Spirals), Crying Spells, Agitation and increased Insomnia. Week one and Week two have their share of symptoms but typically not these. Actually those weeks have more physical symptoms and less emotional symptoms. Additionally there is more “calm” in week 2. So one might think, “Ahh I made it through the rough parts of that taper” and then boom….not so much. But then by week 4…pretty much on cue for day 22 or 23…the calm returns. Maybe this is Windows and Waves but maybe it is actually repair work going on from the drop in dose. Maybe there is really a methodical way the brain heals and it impacts certain areas of the brain in succession (the amygdala, hippocampus, frontal lobe perhaps)? Similar to the old fashioned arcade Pinball Game only the “ball” pings the same areas of the brain in a repeatable fashion after a taper? I am certainly only a mother observing my daughters behaviors and actions through this process so, no expert am I. Nor do I really know what she is feeling as she does not talk much any more. However, I can count on these emotional spirals showing up on week 3 like clockwork. The other pattern I see relates to Menstruating Females. This pattern is most discernible when one is having regular periods. Glo went from amenorrhea in the beginning to irregular periods then to regular but shortened periods. But every month when she is regular her symptoms go ‘off the charts’ during ovulation. They last about 24 to 36 hours and occur mostly 14 days before the start of her next period. She has ramped up pacing (I am assuming akathisia), chewing/jaw tension, agitation, insomnia and decreased level of alertness/communication. This same pattern emerges 24 to 48 hours before she starts her period. So what happens if my sweet beautiful daughter is in Week Three of a taper and ovulation or her menstrual cycle arrives? Well, if the general public, doctors or psychiatrists were around they would lock her up in a psych ward and “med her up” (to refer to words by @puthappinessfirst) Fortunately, I will not let that happen. It is comforting to me to know these are patterns and that there is always calm after these storms; usually in the form of increased healing. She is better now than she has been at any time on this medication. She still has much healing to do. I still have patience to learn. But we are getting through to the other side of being on this poison. Peace to all who taper, Glosmom
  6. How long does it take to completely recover from risperdal consta? I switched from risperdal consta to latuda end december 2017 but I must still be affected by it, since I'm still impotent (I got this condition while on risperdal consta).
  7. has anyone had an anti psychotic (or any drug) induced hyperprolactinemia AKA high prolactin? if so, how did you recover (what drug/supplement/vitamin did you use, diet, etc) or what are you doing to recover? for those who don't know, high prolactin causes infertility in both men and women causing women to miss periods and men to have erectile dysfunction. i assume my high prolactin was caused by risperidone because i haven't felt the same fertility wise ever since i took it. to treat my high prolactin, i am currently using an over the counter supplement called "vitex" which was recommended by John Gray. John Gray link:
  8. Hello, im from eu, sorry about my english. i'm going to taper my medication which is risperdal 1mg. I have had it about 1,2month. I have been taking 0,5mg for few days now so.. My earlier meds were abilify, zyprexa, truxal and levozin. I had my boozepsychosis about 7 months ago. how slowly do i need to manage with risperdal?
  9. I have just started tapering the drug and I am just curious if anyone went through a similar process and can provide any tips.
  10. Hello. About 6 months ago I was hospitalized and put on risperdal against my will. I was diagnosed as bi polar and given the medication over the course of 21 days, beginning with a pill and ending with two injectables. I was scheduled for a third injection three months after being released, but as the symptoms were impossible to cope with, my psychiatrist put me on abillify instead. After less than a month, I discontinued the medication completely cold turkey and I haven't been back to see him since. Here are some of the symptoms I've noticed for the past 3 months since discontinuing the medications. -akathisia -mild gynecomastia -emotional flatness -inabillity to read or retain information ( I used to read about a book a week before the medication) -increased joint pain -terrible anxiety and agoraphobia -erectile dysfunction and an empty sex drive/diminished orgasms -severe weight gain Anyways, a whole myriad of symptoms began to occur, but my main concern is permanent neurological impairment or alteration caused from this medication. I've read that these medications are actually neurotoxic, that they shrink the brain or even cause brain cells to die, all sorts of terrible stuff like that - and I'm terrified. I don't know what to do or how to cope. Is there anybody out there with similar experiences? If so, how long has it taken you to recover, if you recovered at all? I feel like I've basically been lobotomized. I'm only 23, and I couldn't imagine living life like this without some hope of getting better. Any help is appreciated. Thanks for listening.
  11. Hello. I am twenty years old and had been on antidepressants since I was ten. From then on through my teenage years, all I knew was I needed to take my medicine . Once I was diagnosed with high-functioning autism, my pediatrician referred me to a neurologist. The neurologist then put me on respiradone and strattera. I don't remember if I had any behavior problems or not, but my neurologist told me I would have to be on medicine for the rest of my life. I stayed on those two meds until I got into high school. My first two years of high school, I couldn't stop crying. I cried day and night. My neurologist put me on celexa. When that didn't work, my neurologist told me he could no longer help me and referred me to a psychiatrist. I saw the new psychiatrist my junior year of high school who told me I had depression and anxiety that needed to be treated. I was taken off respiradone and strattera and put on pristiq and adderall. When pristiq wouldn't work, I was switched back to celexa. So it went on, switching back and forth between antidepressants. There were so many different ones I can't remember many of them. Every time I asked my psychiatrist if the next time it would work, he assured me it would. There was no chance to talk when I saw my psychiatrist. It would result in a new prescription every time. During my senior year, I helplessly slept through every class, sometimes falling out on the floor asleep. I had a good school counselor who allowed me to pass because she knew it was the medicine and I got plenty of sleep. I also cried uncontrollably almost every day in front of everyone and it was very humiliating as I would stir up a lot of attention. My senior pictures of me showed a person with a puffed up and swollen face. I was switched to lexapro again and stayed on it my whole first year of college. Then the crying returned. During my second year, I was switched to Abilify for depression. I still trusted my psychiatrist as he again promised me it would work. Out of all my experiences with antidepressants, there is nothing that could ever have compared to this. As soon as I took the first dose of Abilify, my brain signaled to me something was very, very wrong. I began receiving no sleep. My psychiatrist put me on trazadone for that, but when I took it, my body fell completely limp, my heartbeat slowed down to almost nothing, and I went numb while my body shut itself down. I stopped it after two nights. Meanwhile, with abilify, I began spending all my time obsessing over things I would normally never touch. I believed I was an alien hybrid sent from outer space to save the planet. I also believed the human race are all aliens in disguise. Then I started going mad. I didn't want to be a human anymore. I wanted to be a supernatural creature with otherworldly capabilities. This was all extremely terrifying to me, but I couldn't stop myself. I lost my common sense as I believed these nonsensical theories. My mind was overpowering me with racing thoughts such as these listed. I couldn't think clearly. I was almost always in a state of rage. Reasoning had left me. For reasons I do not remember, I stopped Abilify by myself cold turkey. My psychiatrist had told me before that I never needed to worry about tapering because the antidepressants I took were all in the same family. He never mentioned stopping completely. Withdrawal symptoms didn't show up until a week later. My psychiatrist told me they would last 15 days. They were relatively minor, and I didn't worry much about them. However, nothing could have ever prepared me for the horror I underwent next. Every horror I could have never imagined bestowed me over the course of a month. I received no sleep. I was very lucky if I got one hour. The nights soon got from bad to worse. I developed REM sleep disorder. I was unable to tell the difference between being awake and asleep. As my mind was drifting, I jumped up in the air, screamed, swung at the air, and thrashed violently all over. In addition, my head would suddenly snap up and I would shout melancholy indistinguishable language and suck in sharp breaths. I was aware of everything, but I had no control over it, and it was very disturbing to me. Then came the uncontrollable muscle movements. My lips drew up on the sides, my mouth gaped open, my lips puckered and pouted, my teeth bared, my tongue stuck out, my neck extended, my eyes bulged, my eyebrows rose and lowered, my hands flapped, my arms swung, my knees jerked, my head jerked side to side, and my fingers extended. Shouts, grunts, moans, and gasps escaped my mouth. Several weeks went by as more horrendous symptoms appeared. Every day I was a zombie. I could only do basic human activities. I had no awareness of the passage of time. At night while drifting off, a dark shadowy presence swept over me. I was aware of where I was in real time while drifting, but I sensed a sudden danger. I jumped up alert every time. I heard a voice I believed to be God's telling me why I was like this and what I needed to do. It spoke to me relentlessly for days. When this occurred, an otherworldly and overwhelming sense of peace filled my every being. But it was always soon replaced by a terror so surreal I could not function. During this time, I could "see" my brain and I believed I was in control of what I allowed to be let in. After four days of this, I ordered the voice to "Get out!" It did and did not come back. Right after this, a veil suddenly covered my mind and I was disengaged from reality. I had no sense of where I was and I had no connection with my parents. I was always mad, crying most of the time, and my head was always jerking. I saw my psychiatrist for the last time two months ago. The doctor who had been nice to me all this time suddenly turned mean. He told me he refused to see me unless I got on medicine. By this time, I had found this site and many other websites about withdrawal. I knew I wanted to try living a better life and I was not backing down. I never took the newly prescribed anti psychotic he prescribed me. A week later, my parents, exasperated with how I was doing and on their last straw, called my psychiatrist. My dad told the psychiatrist I had read on the internet how long the withdrawal really is and the doctor spoke with me on the phone. My psychiatrist told me that the withdrawal symptoms I was describing were "all in my head" because the medicine would already be out of my system now six weeks later. He told me I needed to get on medicine right now because "I needed help". He told me my quality of life was not as good without the medicine. I was in another rage episode by this time, and unlike me, I confronted him. I said "Well why are a lot of these the same symptoms I experienced during the so-called withdrawal time?" He said he didn't know and preceded to ask me was I on drugs. I was in disbelief that anyone would ask such a thing. I have not spoken to that psychiatrist since. I am dealing currently with a lot of physical and mental symptoms but none I would describe as severe as that horrible nightmare of a month. (That month just happened to be timed perfectly with my Christmas break.) My mouth, head, and fingers jerk, but never as exaggerated as they were the first month. I dealt with extremely numb fingers, feet, and ankles up until two weeks ago. My ankles at times felt like they were hanging by a single nail. My feet, bluish-green, were so numb and swollen I had no feeling and shooting pains shot up my legs. I was extremely dizzy for so long. My gp told me I have low blood pressure. I started having panic attacks. Anxiety crept over me for no apparent reason. I cried a lot. I felt hopeless. I am dealing with apathy, anhedonia, akathisia, and cognitive problems. My memory has not been well during this whole time. I am not aware; I'm just wherever I am. I have lost perception of sight, hearing, and touch. I do things I'm supposed to do because I know that's what I've always done. I cannot connect feelings to memories; I have to rely on pictures and journals from over the years. I had to look back in my journal to refresh my memory of this whole experience which I happened to write down. I have been disconnected with myself...it was worse in the beginning. I would look at pictures of myself and couldn't connect that it was me. The whole first month of withdrawal my face was so puffed up I thought my skin would fall off. Sometimes things look bigger or smaller than they appear. My thinking ability is limited. I went to my gp again three weeks ago and I was low on vitamin D. I am currently on iron medicine, vitamin d supplements, allergy medicine, and multivitamins. Although the numbness has gone away, I am extremely faint and have weak tremors every day. At night I'm miserably exhausted. My heart is always beating fast and hard. I get chills and my body tenses up. I'm not sure if I should be concerned about any of this. I cold-turkeyed Abilify four months ago. I have managed to keep my grades up in college since then and so far have maintained a perfect attendance. Some days are harder than others, but I try to count my blessings as I've heard stories far worse than my own. I am only beginning to understand what I am dealing with. The last thing I would want is to ever take another antidepressant and hinder this process. I feel like I have a real sense of myself now and I feel more in control. I have no idea how long this will last or if it will ever go away but I try to maintain a positive attitude about it as things slowly get better. I have faced the fact that I can't change my past but I can certainly shape my future. I apologize for the long story. It is difficult to get my thoughts together.
  12. Link to father's topic: paranoidandroid Hello everyone, Iv'e actually been looking at this site for quite a while now to get me through and decided to make an account now I feel in a slightly better place to do so. Currently I'd just like peoples opinions on my situation.. do you think I'll ever fully recover? My history in the signature sums it up quite concisely so if you want to ask any questions please do. I believe I will but I just want to hear it from other people, as you may know this can be a lonely place to be. I wasn't aware for all this time how damaging these drugs are and assumed my visual snow and DP was just related to anxiety. But now I have no doubt in my mind they caused these symptoms. I may not go back to exactly how I was 6 years ago, which is upsetting, but as long as going forward I'll be able to make a better reality for myself, then I think I'll be okay. I'd also be very interested in what people think of my diet and if you think I should refine it in any way.
  13. Hello, my name is Manny. I was diagnosed 0CD and schizophrenic in 2008, but I been taking benzos and amiptriptiline since 2005. Currently,taking abilify 20mg,risperidone 2mg,cymbalta 60mg,biperiden 4mg. I am tapering klonopin down to 0,27mg from a dose of 1,25mg. I went to see my doctor this week because a blood test that I did. He said my hepatic transaminases are high because of the medication that I take. I am assuming the APs that I take. What can I do to get my liver function well? I know, quitting the APs, but I can t cold turkey. Any advice,please.
  14. August 2014 I went to hospital to get help for my hellish anxiety. I stayed there for three weeks since living in home with the fear was impossible. They put me on 10mg Zyprexa based on the assessment that my anxiety was due to pre- psychosis. When I got home, the anxiety was gone almost completely, and so was my libido. 1 month later I reduced zyprexa to 5mg. I had a great deal of thinking problem. I could not watch movies and understand them. My short term memory was not working at all. Reading a book was impossible. I discussed with my doctor about these symptoms and he insisted that I would go on with my medication. I did not like what the med was doing to me, so once more, after a month or so, I reduced my pill to 3mg a day. This went on for 5 months. My thinking got a little bit better. During that time, my libido was very low. I could get erection only by rubbing my penis, I had no interest actually in the opposite sex like I used to. What was even more alarming, was that i could not get satisfaction from anything. I used to do a lot of sports and workout, and i loved the euphoric feeling after a good workout. With zyprexa all i felt during and after sports was tiredness and weakness, there was nothing rewarding. So, the months went on, and i got more and more depressed. I dont know if depression is the right word because it actually was not even depression, it was nothing, it was emptiness, i was a moving doll. I did not talk to people anymore, there was nothing behind my eyes that was worth saying. I isolated to my apartment and there was a period of two months that i didnt see people at all except at grocery store. I was in really bad shape, every ten minutes i thought about how to kill myself, and three times i made the decision to commit a suicide but when the time came i hesitated. Every night i took the pill because i was used to do so. I was in so bad situation that i could not actually question my own health and benefit. The pill had taken over me. The doctor and therapist both were aware of my situation but the docs opinion was to carry on with the drug. After 7 months of zyprexa medication my doctor changed the pill To Risperdal 1 mg to try out if that works for my libido. I took the pill 0.5 mg for three weeks. I cannot surely say what is true and what is not, since those times were so foggy. But through that fog i think i could see my libido disappear completely. I stopped the medication immediately. And now for the recovery story. It is 2,5 months since i stopped taking medication. First month went with constant suicidal thinking and anxiety, and in times i felt like i was on overdrive. Since then i have reduced suicidal thinking a great deal, and my mind seems to have calmed down a bit. More importantly i have started talking to people again and have had some nice short conversations. A few times i have had sports and felt again that euphoria that was missing almost a year, but that doesnt hit me every time. But for that part there are still bad times that last from days to a week. It is like my mind is slipping back to that f---ing numbness from time to time. During the last 1,5 months i have developed some sort of insomnia. I sleep 2-5 hours a night, and the sleeping quality is horrible. During the morning i have a hangover from bad sleep. I have had a strange suffocation-feeling four times when i am falling to sleep, never have had that one before. It feels like vomiting or swallowing the tongue. It lasts maybe a second but scares the **** out of me when almost sleeping. When i sit or lay down relaxed, like the other day at the beach, my body starts suddenly sway back and worth rapidly like there was some sort of wave going through, it also lasts about a second or less. It happened also to my right leg alone. Most of the time my libido is absolutely 0. My testicles are aching, and when i squeeze them, there is not much feeling left. My penis is shrinked, cold and numb. I cannot get any kind of weak erection even by rubbing. One time i rubbed an ejaculation with the soft penis and the sperm was dry and sticky white stuff. Is it a good thing that i laugh while i am writing this? There are short times of few days when my libido seems to rize a bit, just a bit, nothing like it used to be. I can get some sort of hard erection and i can find women attractive to some degree. One thing i have noticed is that those times when i masturbate the sperm is exactly the opposite, it is wet and bright, no any white in it. One time i managed to have sex during those "horny" days, and what a disappointment! My d*ck rose promising, it was not a full erection but hard enough for sex. The sex was nothing like it used to be. No "shivers" at all. Weak orgasm came way too early after few seconds. I am laughing even more now. During the last few weeks my urination need rises tremendously and i have to drink more water. This lasts few days and then it goes away. There has now been two such periods. It is alarming because Zyprexa can cause Diapetes. Even worrying is the fact that i have a big uncomfortable need to eat quickly something and it seems to happen same time with the urination period. I have always been athletic and i am still athletic after the zyprexa treatment, allthough maybe centimeter of fat have appeared to cover my abs, and now i am at the fattest of my entire life. So it seems that my mind has started to recover from the ugly poison that i took. I have read this forum and i am very sad to hear that there are people who have to suffer that horrible numbness without any feeling, month after month. My sympathy is with you. Hang in there buddies, I am sure that after time you will get your reward and it feels so Good. It is worth waiting, and it will happen. The other side looks very beautiful, and is waiting for you. i will never take continuous neuroleptic treatment again, never. If my anxiety returns,i will only take antipsychotics until the anxiety is gone. If i become so mentally ill that i cannot survive without neuroleptics, i will kill myself without a question. Some people like their lives with antipsychotics, and i am happy for them. People are different, my dose was very low and i found my life completely destroyed by Zyprexa and Risperdal. For me, they are poison. Libido is bothering me. On difficult days i start thinking suicide, but then there comes a little bit better one. My mood changes very much along with my libido. I have accepted that it is quite possible that i will never get my libido back completely. It is a very sad thing. But after experiencing that Zyprexa-8-month-walking-coma-living-dead, there is something in this world that you want to look at, even if you are chemically castrated by med experts and drug companies.
  15. Moderator note: link to benzo forum thread - Miko789: Xanax withdrawal/tapering Hi, I'm new to the forum, I have some questions I want to ask. My doctor prescribed effexor for depression, in 2009. Now I'm free of symptoms and I managed to come off with withdrawal symptoms though. That's with the antidepressant. Now I'm on Risperdal consta from November 2013 and seroxat 10mg. My doctor prescribed with risperdal consta 3,3mg/day long acting injection every two weeks. From February 2015 he lowered the dosage to 25mg/every 2 weeks equals 1,66mg/day. I tried to lower the seroxat 10mg but after 40-45h I have withdrawal symptoms vertigo, dizziness. Is it possible to cut down seroxat? How about the Risperdal consta (long acting injection). Has anyone tapered off completely without withdrawals? I read about the 10% harm reduction procedure to taper off and I'm going to tell my doctor and follow. thanks in advance
  16. I have been on 3 mg of Risperdal for 13 years due to drug induced psychosis for meth. I decided to finally try to get off the med and have been tapering since December. I did 0.25 mg per month for 4 months but when I hit 2 mg insomnia kicked in for a couple weeks so I waited it out for 2 months and this time went down 0.10 mg for this month. It has been 5 weeks since my last taper and my only real symptoms are fatigue, feeling completely brain dead, and occasionally my vision feels all strange kind of like a very mild acid trip. I am sleeping 9 hours a night and everything is calm I just feel completely flat emotionally, brain dead, and tired for the most part. Would it be better to continue the taper or just hold since my symptoms aren't unbearable but they are just frustrating?
  17. Hi all. I have been on a combo of Risperdal and Zoloft since 2012. I reached 3mg risperdal and 200mg zoloft in early 2016, tried to taper off both starting in June of that year, and had a bout of insomnia in November, at which time I reinstated along with an additional 15mg remeron. Adding the remeron, I've learned, was a huge mistake and most likely unnecessary. Since then I've slept at most 6 hours instead of my usual 8. For the first 2 months on remeron I avoided caffeine and tobacco. Then, after picking up both again, my sleep suffered, and I eventually had nights with 2-3 hours. I've since learned that caffeine and tobacco induce the enzyme CYP1A2, which metabolizes remeron, explaining this. By abstaining from both, my sleep has returned. I have also tried shaving a sliver off my 15mg pill with no luck...getting a full night without sleep. I would like to be able to drink coffee and smoke again. That leaves me with 2 options, get off the remeron (seemingly impossible) or tolerate the lack of sleep. If I do the latter, will my sleep eventually not recover even when abstinent due to repeated withdrawals? I had been planning to use coffee and cigs only sporadically, letting my sleep return before using them again, or using only on the weekends. If I that is not sustainable, then how do you recommend I get off the remeron, given my sensitivity to even a small dose decrease? My doc has suggested trazodone as a replacement, but that med interacts with my other meds and a post about it here scared me away. Thank you so much for your help.
  18. Its been 17 months since I last received a Risperdal injection. 5 or 6 in total in just a 2 month period. I'm completely GONE. Most of my mind has disappeared. Imagination/visualization/creativity is gone. As is memory, for the most part. Just the faintest of memory remains. My brain (frontal lobe mostly) feels ripped, torn, ruptured, shrunk, numb, dead, burned, etc. It also feels like rubber. I've lost most of my intelligence. I feel damned. Can barely understand anything anymore. Feel nothing except mostly fear. It's just really hard to think about the simplest of things now and if I over strain my brain while trying to think it just seems to rupture or tear further so I have to be careful. Nothing in the world seems to exist anymore. It's all disappeared. I had a beautiful intellect/mind and now I've just been reduced to something very sub-human. Recovery seems completely impossible. I feel I will forever be like this - without my mind/soul - even after having left my body upon death. I cannot comprehend the damage or this loss of 'me' and I continue to deteriorate even after all this time after having stopped the injections. My mind is blank - a void. The chemical poisons from the shots just continue to slowly seep deeper into my brain tissues disabling more of my brain/mind as time goes by. Any ways, still like to read about people who've somehow recovered but I honestly feel no one out there could be as damaged as me but then again, when all the love goes, I suppose any kind of damage is conceivable..
  19. Hello everyone I'm currently tapering Respiridone for the second time. The first time in 2013 in ignorance and without proportion guidance I tapered too quickly from 2 mg and I ended up relapsing with psychosis. My relapse was diagnosed as due to stress and insomnia but I experienced really strong withdrawal effects. I got better quickly and was on 1 mg Respiridone for about a year, my Dr wanted me to reduce earlier but I was moving house. for some reason I had been able to reduce from 1.5 mg to 1 mg without any problems but I hadn't been taking it for very long. I decided to try to taper in March 2015, switched to liquids and began my taper following advice I'd read on here to do things gradually. I was taking 0.5ml twice a day. I decided to try and reduce my morning dose in steps of 0.1ml. I know this is more than 10% sometimes but I find using the 1ml dosing syringe fiddly sometimes. Anyway I found the tapering ok but the main thing I suffer from is terrible insomnia, so often I'm exhausted and really struggling to go to work and concentrate. Sometimes sleep was worse around the time I made the cuts. Once I was convinced I heard a police car outside my house in the morning and was worried about psychosis relapse, but it didn't reoccur and had happened when I'd had no sleep for ages and had made a cut. I also sometimes dream when I'm awake, but not very often. Anyway sometimes I took much more than 4 weeks in between cuts. Finally got down to 0 5 ml a day this month. My periods stopped completely on Respiridone and although my Dr wasn't sure I was convinced it was due to the drugs. They thought I'd gone through the menopause- tests show I've got a menopausal profile. Anyway since tapering to 0.8ml day periods have restarted and are regular. I'm now facing tapering the last 0.5ml but am really nervous about it. Not setting a timeframe for it and will be making 10% cuts but it involves going off the drug completely if I tolerate it. I know it's not much to reduce from compared to the struggles people have faced here.Some friends have expressed concerns about me getting ill again. But I just want to be free of the drug if I can and try and get my sleep back on track naturally. I feel I can't cope with the insomnia for another year- it's been bad since I took 1 mg before my taper. I used to be very sociable but I'm much more withdrawn now. Been prescribed promethazine hydrochloride 10 mg for sleep which I take occasionally if I'm desperate, often it doesn't work.I've thought of asking my Dr about oestrogen but am worried about how that might interact with Respiridone.I now take fish oil and I've bought some vitamin B complex yesterday B6 and other B vitamins not B12 because I've read it can help insomnia but I'm a bit nervous about trying it because I've read on here it can be very activating. I don't want to be prescribed sleeping pills and get addicted to them. That's my story anyway thanks for reading and sorry it's so long. I've really enjoyed reading other people's posts on this site,it's an amazing site and everyone is so supportive. I don't feel I can talk to friends about this as they wont understand about withdrawal and most have never taken any meds. My Drs are very nice but they don't know much about it either and I can't see a psychiatrist over here because they class me as recovered and think the psychosis was due to stress and severe insomnia. So I've researched everything myself and my Dr just gives me the scripts.
  20. Here is a question for everyone who has used anti-psychotics (especially athletes): Have you experienced poor blood circulation after using anti-psychotics? please reply with your experience in decent detail. I myself am an athlete and after i took risperdal, my blood circulation dramatically weakened, i was much less vascular and could barely experience a muscle pump after working out; I recovered from that side effect after a rough 14 months. later i took abilify and the same exact thing happened, poor circulation, less vascular and of course fatigue in the gym. after bloodwork, the only thing that was abnormal was prolactin (it was high after risperdal and low after abilify).
  21. Hey I am girl from Denmark. I am on my way of Adjuvanz (aka Vyvanse - see this post) and risperidon risperidone . I feel its quite hard. Specially the risperidon has a lot of withdrawal symptoms such as tiredness, mood swings, strange feelings at my skin and whole system. I started at 0,75 mg and now i am 0,40. I tried to stop for two days ago, but to day it has been totally awfull. I wish there was a guideline, which could show me for how long the withdrawal symptoms would last. Adjuvanz is now 70 mg. Starting with 120 mg. Its not so hard yet, but I think it will be harder, when I get down to 50 mg and below. I am glad, that I found this forum and hope to get helping advice and maybe being able to help others.
  22. DailyRecovery31

    DailyRecovery31: Introduction

    When tapering, do you round to the nearest 100th decim[/size]al place? I'[/size]m getting for instance [/size]0.56902862332, etc. Do you round to 0.569? I'[/size]m trying to figure out how to taper off Risperdal. [/size] Please help![/size]
  23. Sky320

    Sky320

    Have been on multiple anti-psychotic drugs for the past 8 years. Had a nervous breakdown, was put on anti-psychotic. Tried coming off before knowing any better. Now on Risperdal Consta 37.5mg. Want to switch to Risperidone tablets or liquid. Have lost all emotions, become lifeless and constantly tired. Want to get my life back. Read on the forum about switch. Would 37.5 mg injection be equivalent to 3mg tablets or 3ml liquid started 5 weeks after last injection? Has anyone successfully made a switch and tapered off Risperdal? Thank you for any help. Also does anyone know of a good doctor in NJ who may be able to help?
  24. Plshelp

    Plshelp: olanzapine 5mg

    Hello fellow SA members! I am curious to know if anyone has come off antipsychotics and gone onto antidepressants and recovered from antipsychotics? My pdoc says that she's had ppl recover in this situation, but I'm in disbelief. Any comments and info would be greatly appreciated. Thank you! Xo
  25. Hello, Im 24 years old, in february i had an psychosis and was put on 6mg Risperdal a day. In the first month i felt nothing from the medication but in the second month i experiencend wirred conditions like my brain was melting.... since this time i lost all my Feelings interests and sexuality.... i cant even watch tv or read a book, the only thing i can do is starring at the wall all day...its awful. its the 4th month im off risperdal and still there is no change in my condition.... im thinking about suicid all day and had a lot of attempts. I really need a recovery story beside charliebrowns because i think his symptoms werent as bad as mine.
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