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I'm 32 with no prior history of mental health problems. I had a manic and psychotic episode in late May of 2015 after to weeks of starting CPAP therapy for severe sleep apnea. I take a cab to my hometown and admit myself to the hospital because I'm freaked out by my behaviour and my feelings, and after being evaluated I'm given seroquel (25 mg 2x day) and risperidone (2 mg before bed) and end up staying at the psychiatric ward for 5 weeks. After leaving the hospital, I suddenly have no libido and significant fogginess and anhedonia. I get off seroquel and get prescribed lithium (450 mg initially, later 600 mg) because I can't stay awake on the seroquel. I quit the risperidone and then the lithium because I can't take being a fat, bored, pill-dependent zombie. I'm struggling with the risperidone withdrawl, but I'm able to work full time, I'm gradually getting less bored and anxious, and my libido is starting to come back. (I seldom have acute sexual desire, but I'm actually able to get an erection and to get myself off when I make the effort to fantasize about stuff that turns me on, whereas I went weeks without bring able to have an erection or, naturally, to orgasm while I was gullibly poisioning myself with risperidone)

 

I'm just very frustrated that I was never advised that risperidone had such nasty side effects, but I did go from being manic and euphoric to pretty well losing touch with reality.

 

I think I had a dopamine overload because the CPAP therapy improved my sleep and my energy level so incredibly that it felt like a bloody miracle. I started feeling like I was on ecstasy or on a good crystal meth trip or something (wouldn't know...I've only had booze and pot, but based on what I've read...). I felt this incredible euphoria and sense of empathy, and I was writing political rhetoric and coming up with grandiose idea to make the world a better place and to make my place of employment kick butt, but then I lost touch with reality, destroyed some possessions, and blew $200 on a cab ride.

 

Anyways, I just want to be happy again. I want to take pleasure in the stuff that I used to like before all this happened, I want to lose weight and get myself in shape (making process on this front...But I suppose when your BMI is 40, you can lose weight even when lithium and risperidone are dragging you down), I want to fall in love with my job and with my ideals again, I want to be a better version of the person that I was before I got treatment for my sleep apnea.

 

I know it's not the CPAP therapy that does that to me. All it does is ensure that I can breath when I sleep. Common sense dictates that when you stop breathing 100 times an hour and keep waking up and failing to reach REM sleep and spending your days micro-napping, you obviously need medical addition It's dealing with the fact that I experienced something very similar to drug-induced psychosis for what I assume was a dopamine overload, hallucinated the second coming of Jesus Christ while I was psychotic, was surrounded by people with delusional beliefs when I was at the psychiatric ward that fed into the craziness, and then, because of the hallucinations and the religious delusions prior to my coming to grips with the risperidone side-effects, thought I was in Hell. In reality, the anhedonia, the anxiety, and the libido problems were just consequences of my having to deal deal with one of Satan's poisons here on Earth: risperidone.

 

I wish everyone peace, love, happiness, fulfilment, freedom from psychiatry, and awesome sex! And please let and every one of us get better!

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tgirl

Rh,

Just wanted to say hello and welcome to S/A. A mod should be coming along to help you!

 

Tgirl


April 2014 remeron 45mg.

June 2014 abilify 2.5 remeron wasn't working so abilify was then added

September 2014 woke up with anxiety x 100!!!!

Pdoc then took me from 45 to 7.5 within a month and took abilify from 2.5 to 0

Currently

Remeron 7.5

Vitamin d 5,000 iu taking for about 3 years

October 2014 added fish oil/omega 3 1000 mg per day

Levothyroxitine 100 10 years or so

Dec 2014 started tapering 10% every 10 days-no problems.

August 2015 down to 0.1 mg

Woke up with severe anxiety-sleep issues-racing thoughts-depression. 9/9/15 up dose 1 mg.

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Nomoreheadmeds

Welcome Rh I wish you well


Sertraline 100mg amytrip 60mg diazepam 4mg (and when needed) since late 90's.Reduced all meds over 6 wks (too short) last doses 13 wks ago.Still having withdrawals.I would have done it differently

5th august 2015 reinstated 5mg amytripiline.increased to 10mg amtrip 9th sept 2015.

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Altostrata

Welcome, RH.

 

It's a very good sign that the sexual anesthesia, a very common side effect of psychiatric drugs, is going away.

 

I wouldn't worry about a dopamine overload. Brain chemistry is much more complex than that. Did you take any drugs while starting CPAP?

 

Please let us know how you're doing.


This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

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RisperidoneHell

I've now been a week without risperidone and 4 days without lithium (have nothing against it.. Just desperate to lose weight).

 

Last night, I had my best non-risperidone sleep since getting out of the hospital at the end of June. As a bonus, I was somewhat horns spontaneously this morning for the first time in ages and my cum was thicker and less watery than it had been, so I suspect that my testosterone and prolactin levels are heading back to baseline. The boredom feels much less oppressive today, there's very little anxiety, and the morning dread of getting out of bed and facing a boring day with a lack of energy is beginning to subside.

 

I'd still have little desire to get out of bed today if it were not for the fact that I work this afternoon, but at least I'm starting to notice progress. I feel less foggy each day

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Altostrata

Um....a little Too Much Information there.

 

Good to hear you're doing better.

 

Many people do better with fish oil and magnesium supplements, see
http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/36-king-of-supplements-omega-3-fatty-acids-fish-oil/
http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1300-magnesium-natures-calcium-channel-blocker/


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JanCarol

Hey RH - first, on what happened to you.

 

May I refer you to the excellent http://www.bipolarawakenings.com/ channel by Sean Blackwell.  It's not really about bipolar, but about that expansive state you achieve when you are awakening to a new consciousness.

 

Another good one is:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFtsHf1lVI4 , called Psychosis or Spiritual Awakening, by Phil Borges (I haven't watched that one yet, but another of our mods recommended it and found it seminal in her understanding of what happened to her)

 

As for the drugs - sadly - the biggest cause of relapse in the class of drugs you took - is going off of them suddenly.  Maybe you could updose half of your lithium?  I realize you are desperate to lose weight, but you also don't want to end up in the ward again!

 

Also, so that we can help you better, please fill out your signature line with a summary, noting when you were put on each drug, and when you quit them?  This will enable us to know what you have been through - wherever you post on the forum - without having to read your thread again.

 

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Complete your Signature from Phone or Tablet

 

Welcome to SA! 


"Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna

 

Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again.

 

My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices.

 

A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia.   CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013.   Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine).     Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 -  Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years  on Lithium).  Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made.


The tedious thread (my intro):  JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium

The happy thread (my success story):  JanCarol - Undiagnosed  Off all bipolar drugs

My own blog:  https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/

 

 

I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016!

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Altostrata

RisperidoneHell has posted a Success Story here

Happy days are here again: My recovery from a life-time of undiagnosed sleep apnea and the Hell of bipolar misdiagnosis and junk meds.
 
 
I added our cheerful "here comes the sun" symbol



to the title of this Intro topic, to show recovery.

In keeping with our tradition, I'm locking this topic now. Please post your congratulations in RisperidoneHell's Success Story topic.


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