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DazWah: Decisions on Paxil.


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Hey Guys/Girls,

 

I have been on ADs for the last 5-6 years, with the last 4 year being on 20mg Paxil. Although the meds help me get through some tough times, The last month I have had a wake up call that I am now so emotionally numb that it was beginning to affect my marriage and family life. I was spending lots of money for that quick fix of a temporary emotion/feeling, it was almost like a hunger that never ends. I was happy to eat, go to work, come home, go to bed. Everything else felt like a chore (seeing family, spending time with wife to name a few) 

 

So, Two weeks ago I dropped from 20mg Paxil down to 10mg. Wow what a wake up call that was! Although I guess I was slightly more emotional than I used to be. I felt emotions! Although I am tired, feeling nausea, slight anxiety, loss of appetite, hard to sleep. I found solace in doing the things I felt like chores only a few weeks ago, gardening, cleaning, even watching TV! I am hoping that I feel much better in a couple of weeks. 

 

When I dropped doses on Effexor all I felt was a bit grumpy and flu like symptoms. This time the drop felt like when I stopped Effexor completely! Anger, zaps, aches and pains emotions etc.

The hardest thing to cope with is the insomnia! loss of appetite is making me feel a bit week. 

 

So, Every few nights I take a Temazepam to help with the sleep and I generally feel much better the next day or two which is helping me see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I think i will stay on 10mg for a while until my body recovers enough. Has lower dose of Paxil helped with people to regain motivation to live life? 

 

My doctors advice was to switch up to another med, I am not sure what to do, I dont want the next med to end up the same emotional distant apathetic person. Although I was "content" once coming down I can see that eventually it would be a recipe for disaster and would like to avoid that trap again! 

 

Would love to hear others experiences on similar situations. 

 

April 2011 - 20 mg Paxil

 

October 2015 - 10 mg Paxil - This was a 50% cut, now on the start of my 3rd week - pretty rough but the last few years of Apathy is enough motivation to keep strong.

 

January 2016 - If 10 mg is stable, the plan would be to drop down to 9 mg.

 

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PS; probably need to provide some background. 

 

Went on Effexor after breaking down (age 23), moved house, early work starts (up by 4:30am), long drive to work, inconsistent night shifts, etc Ended up isolating myself and smoking weed to relief my issues(i know this was not a good idea but I think it was hard for me to open up to anyone about the way i was feeling etc), eventually this crashed and caused me to hate the person I had become depression and anxiety hit the roof, so much so I would lose 10kg in a week. Doctor put me on Effexor, after 4-5 months I started changing up my schedule, began dating my now wife. Life was good, I could cope easy with the issues with work etc keeping a balanced lifestyle I ended up tapering off Effexor over a 4-6 month period, as I felt I was getting to carefree with my attitude.

 

I was AD free for around 5-6 months (everything in life was manageable) when suddenly my partners father died of a stroke (he was 50 Feb 2011) this shook up everything for my partner, everyone around me was constantly sad, work became inconsistent and I was constantly forced to take time off. After a few months my Dr put me on Paxil (20mg), I was actually surprised how quick the Paxil acted as I started to feel better after 3-4 weeks of use. The medication helped me to help my partner get through a lot of bad times. Now its been 4 + years and things are now better with work, now married, own house (close to work < 20mins drive). No more shift work or early starts. Although now the meds are working too well and having a hard time to decide on what to do next.

April 2011 - 20 mg Paxil

 

October 2015 - 10 mg Paxil - This was a 50% cut, now on the start of my 3rd week - pretty rough but the last few years of Apathy is enough motivation to keep strong.

 

January 2016 - If 10 mg is stable, the plan would be to drop down to 9 mg.

 

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Hello Daz,

 

Welcome to S/A, glad you found us!

 

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Feel free to browse the site. There is a lot off great info!

Also, check out Brass Monkeys thread. Very inspiring Paxil withdrawl story.

 

Best wishes,

Tgirl

April 2014 remeron 45mg.

June 2014 abilify 2.5 remeron wasn't working so abilify was then added

September 2014 woke up with anxiety x 100!!!!

Pdoc then took me from 45 to 7.5 within a month and took abilify from 2.5 to 0

Currently

Remeron 7.5

Vitamin d 5,000 iu taking for about 3 years

October 2014 added fish oil/omega 3 1000 mg per day

Levothyroxitine 100 10 years or so

Dec 2014 started tapering 10% every 10 days-no problems.

August 2015 down to 0.1 mg

Woke up with severe anxiety-sleep issues-racing thoughts-depression. 9/9/15 up dose 1 mg.

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Welcome 'dazwah' 

I wish you well

Sertraline 100mg amytrip 60mg diazepam 4mg (and when needed) since late 90's.Reduced all meds over 6 wks (too short) last doses 13 wks ago.Still having withdrawals.I would have done it differently

5th august 2015 reinstated 5mg amytripiline.increased to 10mg amtrip 9th sept 2015.

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Welcome, Daz.

 

Have your symptoms gotten better or worse over the last 2 weeks?

 

Paxil is a very difficult drug to go off, and a 50% cut is a large decrease. You might want to hold at 10mg for a good while to let your nervous system adapt. See Why taper by 10% of my dosage?

 

What is withdrawal syndrome?
 
The Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

 

Tips for tapering off Paxil (paroxetine)

 

All psychiatric drugs often cause emotional anesthesia, that's their job.

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Welcome Daz,

Thank you for joining and sharing your story, you will find a lot of friendly help and support here, getting off these drugs can be tricky for some people, but with the information here, you will be able to retain some control of your life while you safely taper off.

 

Please read the links Alto posted, they contain just about everything you need to know about safe tapering and withdrawal.

 

Please stay in touch and let us know how you are doing.

 

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I'm not a doctor.  My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one.

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I am feeling a bit better today, I had a temazepam last night which gave me 4-5 hours sleep, will take another tonight and then hold of a day or two. 

 

I have been thinking about a lot lately, about past periods of when I was ever in extended periods of distress. I found so many triggers or reasons why than it has given me so much confidence to push through and eventually stop Paxil.

 

I will definitely be tapering off much slower next time.

 

Withdrawals whether from quitting cigarettes, coffee, marijuana etc have always pushed me to my worst place.

The worst was when I was most likely depressed and hypochondriac from shift work and moved house to a more rural location, away from friends, too much change for a person that had relative normality, I made the mistake that and self medicated with marijuana which became a daily habit, at first that worked but soon made me more depressed and after 9 months of use I quit cold turkey.

 

Dr put me on Effexor after that, as I was a wreck at the time.

 

I know that the exhaustion from lack of sleep, on top of a fragile brain in the process of repair that it is never going to be an easy road. 

 

Funny thing with the drop was that for the first 10 days it was only mild discomfort. Light head, tingly, and a little agitation. One night it was a bit warm and I had no option to sleep elsewhere, caused me to freak out. Now its the more the "recovery" from breaking the mind from telling you that you are going to go nuts unless you give it what it needs.

 

Right now I am having trouble sleeping as I keep monitoring myself to ensure that i fall asleep, which in turn keeps me up (silly I know). I know if at least get a few hours sleep that I will be alright and able to cope the next day.

 

I have removed everything that can be stressful so I am quite optimistic. 

 

Last time from effexor i went from 150mg to 75mg (2mnths) to 37.5mg (2mnths) to completely off.

 

I will stay here for a little while and let my body heal, then drop 1 mg every few months until I get to the point that the drop will cause withdrawals then I will stop all together. Would rather not prolong the usage if possible.

April 2011 - 20 mg Paxil

 

October 2015 - 10 mg Paxil - This was a 50% cut, now on the start of my 3rd week - pretty rough but the last few years of Apathy is enough motivation to keep strong.

 

January 2016 - If 10 mg is stable, the plan would be to drop down to 9 mg.

 

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Nobody wants to prolong the usage.
 
Please let us know how you're doing. In the meantime,

Important topics about symptoms, including sleep problems

The Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

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So last night, although sleep was difficult. I got to a stage where I just kept counting and it something distracted me, I began again. 

All of a sudden I was counting and my eyes shut really hard down, began to see like these morphing shapes although no colour of different shades of black, almost felt like i was on a ride or a trance like state.

 

I felt a sense of warmth and calmness, I could hear everything going on around me, cars going down the street, heart beat, my breathing, my wife sleeping next to me, i could also think clearly.

I thought i must be asleep, after a while i remember dreaming and woke up as my arm went numb.

 

Im going to try this again tonight.  

April 2011 - 20 mg Paxil

 

October 2015 - 10 mg Paxil - This was a 50% cut, now on the start of my 3rd week - pretty rough but the last few years of Apathy is enough motivation to keep strong.

 

January 2016 - If 10 mg is stable, the plan would be to drop down to 9 mg.

 

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Very impressed by your technique. Please share it in Tips to help sleep -- so many of us have withdrawal insomnia

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I will I feel confident this will work :) I think that our anxious brains, although sometimes hard to concentrate we can use that to our advantage. The feeling was so extraordinary, almost like my anxious thinking is located in my lower part of brain and I can feel this area, feels sometimes like a water fall. Once the anxiety turned into focus (felt like the area called the minds eye?) the waterfall felt like only a drip. 

 

Really excited to try this again tonight! :)

April 2011 - 20 mg Paxil

 

October 2015 - 10 mg Paxil - This was a 50% cut, now on the start of my 3rd week - pretty rough but the last few years of Apathy is enough motivation to keep strong.

 

January 2016 - If 10 mg is stable, the plan would be to drop down to 9 mg.

 

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Just an update, nearly 1 month since last post. Had 3 really good weeks, couple of crappy days where I left too many things build up but hey as others have said it only gets easier. I am confident that the dosage I am on is not really having any effect on me and that its not going to be any worse once i am fully off. 

I have started meditation in the mornings for the past few days and seems to help, definitely going to stick with it and possibly enroll in a few classes. Keep strong everyone, take it one day at a time.

April 2011 - 20 mg Paxil

 

October 2015 - 10 mg Paxil - This was a 50% cut, now on the start of my 3rd week - pretty rough but the last few years of Apathy is enough motivation to keep strong.

 

January 2016 - If 10 mg is stable, the plan would be to drop down to 9 mg.

 

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Hello Guys/Gals,

 

Its been a while since an update but I have been completely off the medication since Xmas day. There have been times when it hasn't been so easy, many times when I want to give up but there is always something in the background telling me that its only temporary and low and behold soon enough it passes, even for a day, a week, two weeks the only thing I know for sure is that change is inevitable (this also goes for the easier times).

 

For the past few months, I have been constantly drawn towards a spiritual path rather than just only finding a way to peace, its more also wanting to understand the truth. This path is pointing my search inwards (its like an addiction) and its helping in many ways, but it also brings up many things that i need to learn to deal with rather than run away from, so its inevitable that its going to appear that its unstable because its the nature of everything which is change.

In many ways what I have learnt so far is that although the falls hurt and are not nice to deal with that they are where the real progress occurs, even if its a very small difference of perspective I can always see how it occurs and most of the time its usually due to; not wanting what is or wanting what is not (if that makes sense). I can only believe with time it will become much easier, or I will learn to be able to let go much easier. 

May you all be at peace.

 

Talk soon.

April 2011 - 20 mg Paxil

 

October 2015 - 10 mg Paxil - This was a 50% cut, now on the start of my 3rd week - pretty rough but the last few years of Apathy is enough motivation to keep strong.

 

January 2016 - If 10 mg is stable, the plan would be to drop down to 9 mg.

 

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Stay strong Dazwah.

Thanks for taking the time to update.

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