☼ Junglechicken

[Junglechicken]

6 hours ago, Flowers said:

So sorry you are having a bad attack of IBS JC. Hope it calms soon.

 

Still waiting for my op! I missed a slot when I went back to UK in the summer even though I told the hospital I would be away. The Spanish health system is quite strict here so it seems I got put to the back of the waiting list again. I am seeing my surgeon next Friday as will probably have to have all my pre op checks done again as they were done in April/May. 

 

Ho Hum!

 

In the meantime I have crashed into a big wave!  At least the weather is still mild here and the sun is shining!

 

Lots of love

 

xxx

 

Flowers,

 

So do I...….I think it was caused by this IBS stuff called "Silicol gel".

 

I started taking it on Wednesday, and then got really bad diarreah / gut pain last night.  My gut still hasn't settled down.

 

Keeping everything crossed re: your op preps and can totally commiserate on the big wave (me too).

 

BIG HUGS,

 

Lots of love xxx

[Junglechicken]

Gut is a bit better.  

 

Have rested today and just had soup for lunch.

 

There is still pain referral around the body, but no diarrhoea which is good.

 

Suspect the "Silicol gel" may have pissed off the pathogen overgrowth in my small intestine causing that horrible stomach upset and diarrhoea.

 

In any case, none of this is good.  My goal was to remain calm today which paid off.

[Junglechicken]

IBS (I think) symptoms persist.

 

Havent had diarrhea since Thurs night, but left side pain is still there.

 

Have NEVER had severe IBS like this before.

 

Broccoli and sprouts really upset my stomach/gut, and they never used to before.

 

A lot of trips to the loo today 😕

[Flowers]

1 hour ago, Junglechicken said:

IBS (I think) symptoms persist.

 

Havent had diarrhea since Thurs night, but left side pain is still there.

 

Have NEVER had severe IBS like this before.

 

Broccoli and sprouts really upset my stomach/gut, and they never used to before.

 

A lot of trips to the loo today 😕

That sounds awful.  If you are in a wave I guess the tummy will be more sensitive. Hope it calms down soon.

 

Flowers xxx

[Junglechicken]

15 minutes ago, Flowers said:

That sounds awful.  If you are in a wave I guess the tummy will be more sensitive. Hope it calms down soon.

 

Flowers xxx

 

Flowers,

 

I think this "episode" was triggered by my TOTM which arrived at 50 days.

 

My oestrogen dropped significantly, and I have experienced concurrent symptoms due to the hormonal changes.

 

I'm seeing my GP on 8th Nov about the IBS plus FSH blood work result.

 

Then of course there is WD and grief as contributing factors also.

 

JC xxx

 

 

[Flowers]

A lot of things going on in your body then JC. Hope you get some relief soon.

 

xxxx

 

[Junglechicken]

4 minutes ago, Flowers said:

A lot of things going on in your body then JC. Hope you get some relief soon.

 

xxxx

 

 

Yes there are Flowers, my body is making its "unhappy" state known that's for sure.

 

I have made a GP appointment for Monday 5th, and fully expect to get referred for "further investigation" 😕

 

If this doesn't happen, then great.

 

xxx

[Flowers]

Poor you. It  always takes so long to get a Dr's appointment and having to wait won't help!

 

xxx

 

[Junglechicken]

1 minute ago, Flowers said:

Poor you. It  always takes so long to get a Dr's appointment and having to wait won't help!

 

xxx

 

 

Thank you Flowers, really appreciate your sympathy.

 

God willing this won't be anything to worry about, just very bad IBS.

 

I had an osteopath appointment this morning....she opened the diaphragm up (I'm a shallow breather), and so loosening up those tight muscles.  This may also help the IBS to calm down a bit.

 

Also, I'm eating bland food until it calms down completely.

 

It all sucks.

 

xxx

 

 

[Flowers]

It is horrible to be constantly worrying about symptoms.  It probably is nothing to worry about and the more you worry about it the worse it gets! Vicious circle!

 

Think you are doing all you can to help with the osteopath and eating bland food. I sympathise cos I have been eating bland food for months now due to my inflamed gall bladder.  Grhhh!

 

xxxx

[Junglechicken]

1 minute ago, Flowers said:

It is horrible to be constantly worrying about symptoms.  It probably is nothing to worry about and the more you worry about it the worse it gets! Vicious circle!

 

Think you are doing all you can to help with the osteopath and eating bland food. I sympathise cos I have been eating bland food for months now due to my inflamed gall bladder.  Grhhh!

 

xxxx

 

As far as symptoms go, that is the story of my life Flowers ☹️

 

Anyway, here's hoping we both get well again soon...…...

 

xxxx

[Flowers]

These things will get sorted eventually. Just got to put up with it all in the meantime!

 

I'll second that to us both getting well soon.

 

xxx

[FarmGirlWorks]

Hey @Junglechicken... hope it feels better soon. The hormonal shifts at This Time Of Life are definitely a bat.

[Junglechicken]

6 minutes ago, FarmGirlWorks said:

Hey @Junglechicken... hope it feels better soon. The hormonal shifts at This Time Of Life are definitely a bat.

 

Hey FGW,

 

So you're going through all this peri-menopause "nonsense" too then?

 

Yes, it's a nightmare, and the ongoing feeling of unwellness is so unsettling.

 

JC

[FarmGirlWorks]

Yup: "nonsense" is right. My periods this last year were light but regular and the PMS hormonal downswing was out of this world bad. The last few months though, my TOTM has gotten irregular. But suddenly I'll hit a very dark place and it suddenly appears. Joy. Combined with WD it definitely is a double whammy. What can we do though but endure?

[manymoretodays]

On 10/25/2018 at 2:05 PM, Junglechicken said:

Funnily enough, talking of balloons; on my walks in the countryside, I keep seeing helium balloons with cute things on them; that have ended up stuck in trees, or on the ground.  I must have seen at least 4 or 5 in the past few weeks. 

 

Is that a sign?

 

Yes.

I did let a second balloon go, with writing on it.......awhile back........I thought it stayed somewhere up on a ridge, as I did not see it float all the way to the UK.  Were any of them purple??

That's good, labwork and hopefully reassurance, before the new job begins.

 

It's incredible what we, as women, go through sometimes with all the flucuations.  Oh.....men too sometimes.

I was just reading how the Native American women would go and sit in a moonlodge(I might have that wording wrong), with other women in the same boat.......during the bleeding time of the cycle.  They meditate and pray and then do a cleansing after......smudging.  They also.......in days of old..........only had very few cycles altogether, as compared to what most modern women of today experience.  I mean this was before electric lights, and all the other stuff that we have going now.  Things like endometriosis were non-existent then.  Not that we can go back.......I just found it fascinating.

 

Oh.....best junglechicken!

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

mmt

 

 

Edited November 1, 2018 by manymoretodays

[Junglechicken]

Pains in left side (including stitches) have finally dissipated (thank you, thank you God!).

 

Therapist said that IBS disturbances (esp. constipation, and I have had both) can take a while to resolve / calm down.  She also said, it was not surprising my gut reacted like that given that I will be going back to work after having spent 3 years in recovery from a breakdown etc.,  its all very scary.

 

I have been taking "SeneCalm" (after meals) and "Silicol gel" (before meals) before and after meals.  Yesterday morning I was so full of gas, I thought I was going to explode (awful feeling), but I think that the "SeneCalm" had mobilised the trapped wind in my colon on my left side (causing the pain).

 

Just knowing that there was a reason for the IBS has helped immensely, i.e. its not bowel cancer (catastrophic based thinking).

 

I am into Week 5 of CBT course, and have set my goals:

 

1) Reduce negative ruminations re: mother and MIL.

2) Reduce HA.

 

Lets see how it goes.

 

This morning I had FSH blood work done (result on Tuesday).  This may or may not show further drop in oestrogen levels causing most of my awful symptoms.

 

JC

 

 

 

 

[FarmGirlWorks]

Question: what is HA? Sounds like great goals. And glad you found out what is going on in the gut. I am at least two years without steady work and can understand that getting a real job as you have done (Way To Go!) will be def scary. You're doing great.

[Junglechicken]

3 minutes ago, FarmGirlWorks said:

Question: what is HA? Sounds like great goals. And glad you found out what is going on in the gut. I am at least two years without steady work and can understand that getting a real job as you have done (Way To Go!) will be def scary. You're doing great.

 

Hi FGW, HA is Health Anxiety.

 

I'm now feeling a bit nauseous, but I think that's to do with the gut repairing itself??

 

Thank you for your encouragement!  Yes, the work thing scares the hell out of me.

 

Hugs,

 

JC

[Junglechicken]

Just got my hormone tests back...…..

 

FSH: 6.6

Oestradiol: 350 mol/L

 

I know how these are measured differs between the US and UK, however, they came back "Normal".  Oh whoopee do!

 

My body is far from "normal".  Will have to see what my GP says tomorrow.

[Flowers]

Hi JC

 

Not sure what you were having tested but let me know what the Dr says.  I know you want to get to the bottom of what is causing you these problems.

 

Love from Flowers xxx

[Junglechicken]

3 hours ago, Flowers said:

Hi JC

 

Not sure what you were having tested but let me know what the Dr says.  I know you want to get to the bottom of what is causing you these problems.

 

Love from Flowers xxx

 

Hi Flowers,

 

Don't worry, I will be back here to update.

 

I have just had results back for FSH and oestrodil (both "normal" range), but I have most of the peri-menopause symptoms inc., IBS.

 

Need to get to bottom of pain at bottom of left side ribs (large intestine), and stitches in left side.

 

Love JC xxx

[Flowers]

Hi JC

 

I understand now!

 

Good luck with all of this and take care.

 

Love Flowers xxx

[Junglechicken]

Am borderline peri-meno Flowers, so am entering that territory.

 

My physical symptoms are anxiety/stress related due to losing Dad, new job.  The grief has hit me like a train, and I'm petrified of going back into the workplace (its been 3 yrs now).  The stitches in the left side, abdominal pain all IBS.

 

Explained that I had started CBT 5 weeks ago (still at the building blocks stage).

 

GP booked me in for pelvic ultrasound to check all ok with the ovaries.

 

Love JC xxx

 

 

[Flowers]

Hi JC

 

I know you have had a very tough time. Maybe some if not all is related to hormonal changes and WD as well as grief. Not a great comibination you poor thing.

 

At least your Dr is going to get your ovaries checked out. 

 

It must be quite daunting going back into the workplace after all that time but I am sure you will cope. You are a strong lady!  It will give you something to focus on too.  If it gets too much at least you have tried and no one can do anymore than that.

 

Love from Flowers xxx 

[Junglechicken]

1 minute ago, Flowers said:

Hi JC

 

I know you have had a very tough time. Maybe some if not all is related to hormonal changes and WD as well as grief. Not a great comibination you poor thing.

 

At least your Dr is going to get your ovaries checked out. 

 

It must be quite daunting going back into the workplace after all that time but I am sure you will cope. You are a strong lady!  It will give you something to focus on too.  If it gets too much at least you have tried and no one can do anymore than that.

 

Love from Flowers xxx 

 

Bless you Flowers, THANK YOU ❤️

 

Its the "Perfect Storm" of stressors.

 

Everyone in my very small circle of friends has been saying the work will help take my mind off "me, myself and I" HEALTH issues etc, etc.,  Not to mention contributing to the bills again of which there are plenty.  Have to "bite the bullet" and knuckle down...…….just wish there was a handy Valium pill to help get me through the first month being back in an office again??  

 

Had another interview yesterday for a contract position, so will see what happens with that.

 

On a positive note, at long last the IBS has finally calmed (the pains were very alarming).  I think the alkalising powder has worked its magic, but its taken a couple of weeks.

 

Yes, the ovaries ultrasound will be helpful for peace of mind.  That was the only referral she was willing to do!

 

How has your week gone?

 

Love from JC xxx

 

 

[Junglechicken]

HELP! I'm PETRIFIED!!!

 

Start my new job on Monday - that's T-2 days 😲

 

I'm re-entering the "real world", and have to "perform" and all that stuff.

 

Have asked my ND what I can take to help calm the nerves.

 

VERY, VERY SCARED...………...

[jozeff]

Hi JC,

 

I'm sorry you're so scared. 

 

Well, since you have two days left it is perhaps not the best option now to try some online CBT 😉.

 

We are not Allowed to give medical advice I believe. So, I'm not telling you to take anything. This is just my personal experience. Let I medical professional decide about this please!

 

I was in the same sort of situation and was prescribed propranolol to keep my heart rate and nervousness under control. This helped immensely for my social anxiety at that moment. Sometimes I take oxazepam to take the edge of and that works very well for me to literally calm my nerves.

This is very addictive so no more than a few days use.

 

I can tell you to keep calm and stuff like that but that may not help you at the moment.  It is very likely however that after a few hours at work you will feeluch calmer and you wonder why you were so nervous in the first place. This happened to me a few times because I'm my 8th job at the moment.

 

Try to do some relaxing stuff in the weekend like walking and reading. I guess you'll have to tough it out for two days. Thing will be muchuch better by Monday night that's what I believe!

 

Question for mod: is it allowed to talk about other medications in other peoples topics? If not let me know and I'll never write about it again.

 

Good luck junglechicken!! You can do it!!

 

 

Cheers

 

 

Jozeff

 

 

[FarmGirlWorks]

1 hour ago, Junglechicken said:

HELP! I'm PETRIFIED!!!

 

Start my new job on Monday - that's T-2 days 😲

 

I'm re-entering the "real world", and have to "perform" and all that stuff.

 

Have asked my ND what I can take to help calm the nerves.

 

VERY, VERY SCARED...………...

I agree with Jozeff that you'll get through a few hours of iton Monday and realize that you CAN do it, that is why you were hired. Of course, that is not the next two days. I take Passionflower to calm my nerves a little bit; there is a thread of here about it. Rooting for you!

[Scorpio]

Hi jc

 

i have no magic answer I’m afraid. It’s only trying self belief and maybe camomile tea - tastes disgusting but helps me sometimes. Just keep active over the weekend trying to distract from thinking about it. I’m sure by Monday evening you will feel wonderful having achieved that huge step back to a fulfilled life. 

Hugs

[Junglechicken]

Thank you Jozeff, FGW and Scorpio......

 

It's kind of like waiting for a medical test I guess.  This is a classic case of catastrophic thinking.

 

I think what scares me is being "on display" in an office environment.  Nowhere to hide other than the ladies loos.

 

My body has to adjust to a new routine....

 

Thank you for the vote of confidence, something which I'm seriously lacking.

 

Jozeff, I wasn't implying hard drugs to help calm me down, just natural stuff.  Will try the passion flower, and of course camomile tea Scorpio.

 

Thank you all again xx

 

 

[Sheera]

@Junglechicken I have faith that you will get through and although it probably won’t feel great at first, eventually you will look back on this moment and be proud of yourself for taking this step.  It will take some time adjusting to the new schedule but give yourself some grace and know that you will eventually get used to it. You don’t have to be an expert at this job on the first day. It takes time to work into a new position so give yourself some grace there too. I’m sure your employers don’t expect that of you. I often say to myself—“I’m doing the best I can right now.”  It reminds me that I don’t have to compare myself to anyone else, what I used to be, or what I am in the future. Whatever I am in his moment is exactly what the world needs from me.  I hope you can find some peace this weekend. 

 

Sheera 

[Junglechicken]

1 minute ago, Sheera said:

@Junglechicken I have faith that you will get through and although it probably won’t feel great at first, eventually you will look back on this moment and be proud of yourself for taking this step.  It will take some time adjusting to the new schedule but give yourself some grace and know that you will eventually get used to it. You don’t have to be an expert at this job on the first day. It takes time to work into a new position so give yourself some grace there too. I’m sure your employers don’t expect that of you. I often say to myself—“I’m doing the best I can right now.”  It reminds me that I don’t have to compare myself to anyone else, what I used to be, or what I am in the future. Whatever I am in his moment is exactly what the world needs from me.  I hope you can find some peace this weekend. 

 

Sheera 

 

Bless you Sheera,

 

Everything you say is so true, it's the anticipation of what "might" happen etc.,

 

I'm reading a book called "The Chimp Paradox", it's about mind management.

 

The Chimp is our primitive self that reacts easily with emotional outbursts; sees things in black and white; whereas the human is our more evolved and considered self that sees the grey areas of life.

 

It will be an achievement to survive Day 1.

 

 

[Flowers]

Hi JC

 

Just chiming in too!  

 

Try to remember why you wanted this job so much and how  you will enjoy it.  Think of the positive things.  It's natural to feel a bit apprehensive starting a new job  and WD certainly knocks our confidence.

 

Just try all those coping skills over the weekend. Distraction like  Scorpio mentioned will be good.  

 

Once you have got your first day over with you will be fine.  You can do this!!!

 

Hugs

 

Flowers xxx

[Junglechicken]

15 minutes ago, Flowers said:

Hi JC

 

Just chiming in too!  

 

Try to remember why you wanted this job so much and how  you will enjoy it.  Think of the positive things.  It's natural to feel a bit apprehensive starting a new job  and WD certainly knocks our confidence.

 

Just try all those coping skills over the weekend. Distraction like  Scorpio mentioned will be good.  

 

Once you have got your first day over with you will be fine.  You can do this!!!

 

Hugs

 

Flowers xxx

 

Thank you Flowers!

 

I'm going to buy a LOT of Uber relaxing herbal tea, some rescue remedy; ok no fact a whole survival kit 😃

 

Can either laugh or cry my way through the day.

 

Going to keep Dad in my mind, and don't want to let him down.

 

Hugs,

JC xxx

[Happy2Heal]

oh JC you're going to do fine!!

don't worry!

 

I heard something interesting recently-  a Ted talk or some such thing. The talk was about how anxiety and excitement light up the same places in your brain and feel very similar,  if not identical

 

so instead of saying, oh I'm so anxious, just say, oh this is going to be exciting!! and it is.

 

 

I've been trying to reframe things for myself this way lately-  anytime I'm going to try something new, I remind myself about how exciting it is, rather than how worried I am that I won't be any good or that I'll make a fool of myself. so what if I do? at least I tried and no one expects you to be perfect on your first day.  

 

you have a lot to be proud of, just putting yourself out there and doing this.

 

 

if you feel you need to "take something" ~~ take with your our support and love and belief in you!!

 take the confidence that you are strong and have made it thru some trying times and come out on the other side, you are a force to be reckoned with!

 

 

you got this!