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I was on lexapro for 10 years and tapered off.  I have been completely off for 3 months.  At first I felt pretty good but anxiety has been creeping back, that feeling like you are watching yourself in a movie instead of real life.  I feel agitated, my memory is scary and wake up every morning around 5am regardless of what time I go to bed, and lastly, just not happy.   

 

How do you know if this is withdrawal still or relapse?  I know withdrawal is difficult but relapse is also a real possibility. My doctor will be of no help.  He already told me before I tapered I would be done with withdrawal very quickly....drug half life etc. etc.

 

I would appreciate any advice.

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Hi, Figgy.

 

Welcome to SA.  Gut reaction is that this is withdrawal, but without having your history and speed of taper it is hard to fully assess. 

 

Please put your withdrawal history in your signature

 

In general we at SA suggest a 10% monthly reduction at most.  Here are some links that will be useful to you.

 

What is withdrawal syndrome? 

 

Why taper by 10% of my dosage?

 

Our general guidance on tapering Lexapro is the following:

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/406-tips-for-tapering-off-lexapro-escitalopram/

 

So, long story short, if you can provide some additional information we can provide you with some additional thoughts and help.

 

The things you are citing, however, are very standard in withdrawal.  If you didn't have them prior to starting on the drug then it is HIGHLY LIKELY that it is, in fact, withdrawal.

 

Best,

 

Andy

Sertraline 50mg and Clonazapam .375mg from 2000 -- symptoms of dizziness Spring 2012

increased to .5 Clonazapam and 100mg Sertraline -- no improvement

Benzo microtaper from November 2012 to November 2014 (followed benzo sites "taper benzo first")

Started Sertraline taper in December 2014 cut by 25mg to 75mg; 62.5mg 1/1/15 and 50mg on 2/1/15

Held at 50mg through April 5 to use liquid 
Reduced dosage in 10% or less drops from 50mg to 25mg -- at single tablet of 25mg on 10/5/15

Transitioned to all liquid for accuracy while tapering -- Horrible insomnia -- back to 25mg liquid and held until October 1, 2016

10/16 -- 11/18 tapered very slowly to 10.6mg.  No real improvement and never really stable so updosed to 12.5mg (1/2 a pill) for convenience and long hold.

After 8+ months of holding with no noticeable improvement decided to add .4ml of liquid Prozac (about 1.5mg) to see if that improves the situation

Supplements, Magnesium, D3, Omega 3, curcumin, Valerian, 81mg Aspirin, L-Theanine, Vit. C,

 

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Thanks Andy,

Updated my signature as you suggested.  I have always had generalized anxiety and went on lexapro originally due to a family crisis that caused me to barely function and cope.  I just stayed on it.  I can stick this out if it is withdrawal but I don't want to ever go back to that woman close to a breakdown. 

Did I taper too fast?

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Hi Andy,

 

Glad you found SA.  You will find excellent information and support here.

 

It appears from your taper history that you may have tapered too quickly.  Please wait until someone with more knowledge replies before doing anything, but I suggest you read the following so you can better understand what and why they suggest something.

 

Brain Remodelling

 

About reinstating and stabilizing to reduce withdrawal symptoms

 

You can use your Intro topic to ask questions and post updates and as a record of your recovery.

 

Good luck.

 

CC

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Thanks CC for your answers.  I guess I don't understand how i could have tapered more than I did.  My dose was 5mg or half of a 10mg tablet.  I reduced to a quarter of a tablet for about a month then off.  Trying to cut it any smaller would have resulted in odd shapes and crumbs.  What should I have done.

 

After 3 months off...the link you sent me says reinstatement is unlikely to help and could cause problems.  Not sure what to do.  It is a big struggle and I don't know how to get out of my own head and just live...I feel like I'm in a fight for my mental health.

 

Best,

Figgy

 

P.S.  It is really amazing to find a place to ask some questions and get an answer!  I am grateful.

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Hi Figgy-- welcome to the group.  I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling so bad right now.  Most of the things you're currently feeling are more than likely WD symptoms from a very fast taper.  Seeing that you are 3 months out reinstatement gets a bit tricky, but it can still work. If you were to start taking a very small dose, say 1mg it should help to reduce the symptoms you're feeling.  It won't help immediately as it takes four days for any dose change to become steady state in the blood and start taking effect.  Because of the symptoms you are now feeling it could take several weeks for things to settle down.  Making up such a small dose takes a little practice but is really pretty easy to do. Some people crush their pills and use a jewelers scale to weigh out the new dose, while some people opt to make their own liquid.  Here are a couple of threads on how to do it:

 

How to cut up tablets or pills

 

How to make a liquid from tablets or capsules

 

Using an oral syringe and other tapering techniques

 

These and the threads Andy and CC suggested should be plenty to overload you with information. If you have any questions just ask.

 

Thank you for putting your details in a signature block it is very helpful.  It looks like there may be a typo on the second line though. 

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Did I taper too fast?

 

Unfortunately, yes.  I know it seems counterintuitive because you can't see how to get the pills smaller, and they don't make smaller mg pills, but that's part of the way big pharma makes it hard to get off their "stuff."

 

The best way to taper more slowly is in liquid form because it is easier to make fine gradations.  In the alternative, members use sensitive scales and cut pills or remove beads in capsules to get to the right interim mg levels. It is not easy work, but it can make all the difference.

 

Given how fast you came off the med, I feel much more confident that what you are suffering from is, in fact, withdrawal.

 

Read the links and ask questions after you understand where you are.

 

Best,

 

Andy

Sertraline 50mg and Clonazapam .375mg from 2000 -- symptoms of dizziness Spring 2012

increased to .5 Clonazapam and 100mg Sertraline -- no improvement

Benzo microtaper from November 2012 to November 2014 (followed benzo sites "taper benzo first")

Started Sertraline taper in December 2014 cut by 25mg to 75mg; 62.5mg 1/1/15 and 50mg on 2/1/15

Held at 50mg through April 5 to use liquid 
Reduced dosage in 10% or less drops from 50mg to 25mg -- at single tablet of 25mg on 10/5/15

Transitioned to all liquid for accuracy while tapering -- Horrible insomnia -- back to 25mg liquid and held until October 1, 2016

10/16 -- 11/18 tapered very slowly to 10.6mg.  No real improvement and never really stable so updosed to 12.5mg (1/2 a pill) for convenience and long hold.

After 8+ months of holding with no noticeable improvement decided to add .4ml of liquid Prozac (about 1.5mg) to see if that improves the situation

Supplements, Magnesium, D3, Omega 3, curcumin, Valerian, 81mg Aspirin, L-Theanine, Vit. C,

 

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Welcome Figgy,

 

You are in good hands here - so glad you found this site and can feel supported.  What I love about being here is no longer feeling alone in this w/d journey.  Wishing you well...

 

Hugs,

KarenB

2010  Fluoxetine 20mg.  2011  Escitalopram 20mg.  2013 Tapered badly and destabilised CNS.  Effexor 150mg. 

2015 Begin using info at SurvivingAntidepressants.  Cut 10% - bad w/d 2 months, held 1 month. 

Micro-tapering: four weekly 0.4% cuts, hold 4 weeks (struggling with symptoms).

8 month hold.

2017 Micro-tapering: four weekly 1% cuts, hold 4 weeks (symptoms almost non-existent).

2020 Still micro-tapering. Just over 2/3 of the way off effexor. Minimal symptoms, - and sleeping well.
Supplements: Fish oil, vitamin C, iron, oat-straw tea, nettle tea.

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Thank you, Brass Monkey...I did have a typo in the second line of my signature.  I have read the suggested links about making a liquid from tablets but I don't feel confident I can do that and not screw it up or make the wrong concentration for myself.  Just trying to figure it out is making my head swim.

 

Also according to the reading, reinstating after 3 months sounds perhaps riskier than just staying off?  If I do nothing can I expect to be better over time?

How much time?  

 

Lastly, my family has become increasingly worried about how bad my memory has become over the past few years.  I realize this may be a separate (an unfortunate) issue but can 10 years of lexapro mess with your memory and/or cognitive abilities?

 

Thank you all.

Figgy

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Welcome Figgy. 

 

I don't have much advice to offer but I think you will find support here and you're not alone. It takes the brain time to adjust to any change so take good care of yourself right now. I wish you the best and you're not alone here. 

2000: Use of venlafaxine for moderate depression for two years. Tapered off with no major problems. 

2010: Venlafaxine 5 years, doses between 75-150-300. Tolerated but only partially stabilised the severe depression & escallating side effects. 

Adverse reactions to citalopram (tried before venlafaxine), sertraline & mirtazapine (tried after venlafaxine became problematic) with suicidal ideation caused. 

2014: Adverse reaction to one prozac pill which I tried to begin taking in order to stabilise the withdrawal and actually made it horrendously worse. My body & brain went on fire two hours after taking the pill and severe WD began.

Spring 2014: CEASED ALL ANTIDEPRESSANTS. Did take occasional lorazepam (two weeks at first followed by the occasional half tablet at night sometimes.

2014: WD: living hell for five months, gradually improved a little by little for almost a year and a half but with frequent heart palpitations, weakness and anxiety and very poor sleep. Struggled to do things both physically & mentally but was improving slowly. 

2015: WD relapse with full symptoms. anxiety/panic triggered beyond initial anxiety resurgence by a couple of small half doses of Lorazepam that seem to have restarted all the WD symptoms I had in the beginning & ruined all the progress I had made. 

2017: Bad reaction to propranolol beta blockers. Nervous system kindled into violent shaking like withdrawal again. Alerting system on overdrive. 

 

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Hey Figgy I took Lexapro aswell. I am very certain it's WD not a relapse. 3 months is not a longtime to experience these feelings. You tapered too fast and your doctor will be of little help right now. I would agree with brass monkey to try to reinstate a small dose but that would be only if your symptoms are really bad. If you dont reinstate recovery time is not easy to predict. It could happen at anytime or take a while. We don't have enough studies thanks to big drug companies that hide evidence of this. It seems most people who don't have a severe WD recover within a year but those that do it can be a much longer time. 1-3 yrs

I also think your memory will continue to get better. WD effects people on so mmay levels and temporary cognitive impairment seems to be quite a popular symptom.

Was on 30mg (Lexapro) for 7-8yrs20mg for 3 months (This was my choice my Doc wanted me to drop much faster)15 mg 2week10mg 2 weeks 5 mg 1 week0 since August 24th . PPI Dexlant  30 mg taper has begun. Cutting 20% currently.  using zantac as needed.  Benzo is currently 0.10mg 

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 Figgy '

 

What have you decided to do ?  You feel like you're in a " fight for your  mental health" because you are . 3 months out is borderline. You have to make a choice, as to whether you are going to reinstate. The window is closing . No one can predict how long withdrawal will last . If I were you I would try a small reinstatement , and give it 4 days  and then reassess.  However, it's totally your choice. You have been on ( the drug )  a long time , therefore might have a protracted withdrawal.

 

Ali

Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014

 

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I am still trying to decide what to do.  Yesterday when I found this site was a very bad day. So, yes...saying i was fighting for my mental health sounded pretty dramatic but it is a fight.  What do you mean it is borderline?  Reinstate with what dose for 4 days?

 

Late in the day yesterday I forced myself, really had to force myself to go outside for a brisk walk and I found it did help. Today is a better day.

 

I am functioning, some days on the edge of panic but functioning.  My families concerns about my memory has really scared me. My memory is not good and i have been aware of it for some time.   Reinstating and feeling better is so tempting but I have come this far and I am intimidated by trying to titrate lexapro.  I am terrible at math and would surely goof that up.  How bad is my withdrawal?  I have nothing to compare it to.  

 

When I feel really terrified I have the option of taking a half of an alprazolam but I don't know if that is a good idea or a bad one..

Thank you everyone..

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Hi Figgy--  The whole process seems to be so overwhelmingly complex it's boggling, I totally understand.  As for how long it will take, no one can tell.  Some people can come off years of use CT with no problems while others take only a couple of pills and suffer for a very long time.  For most it takes a lot longer than they would like and for the people who CT or Fast Taper it frequently takes even longer.  After a CT or Fast Taper there is a honeymoon period where things feel tolerably well, then after a few months the symptoms blindside the person.  We see it all the time here.  Yes there is some risk in reinstating after three months, that is why we recommend that you start at a very small dose and see what happens and then maybe increase it if things go well.  For many the prospect of feeling functional out weighs the risk of a bad reaction.

 

Memory problems and brain fog are two of the primary symptoms of WD and they will improve with time.  For those of us who are holding down full time jobs it can be a real challenge, but it can be done.

 

Could one of your family members help with making up the liquid?  Getting them directly involved could increase their support.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Thank you, Brass Monkey.  Unfortunately the memory issues have been going on long before I discontinued Lexapro.  That is why I asked if just taking the drug can cause issues with it?

 

What is the risk of reinstating after 3 months?  What is it that can happen?

 

Thank you!

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Figgy ,

 

I posted at the same time as Brassmonkey , but lost it  !  I was pretty much going to say the same thing . You are feeling ok , now , but months down the track , is when this thing can hit with " full force" However, once the window is shut , you're forced to deal with it , and there are no other options. You could have years of " protracted withdrawal ".

Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014

 

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Hi Figgy -- "what were we talking about?" lol  Yes memory loss happens while on the drug, not just after coming off of them.  When I was on my full dose of Paxil I had real trouble remembering what I did five minutes ago.  It's one of the big reasons I started to taper off.  Things are much, much better now.

 

When a person comes off these drugs too fast it throws their brain into chaos which causes the WD symptoms.  It also can make the CNS sensitive to any type of psych drug. Worst case is for some people introducing even a small amount of the drug pushes things over the limit and the brain reacts very badly with what is called an adverse reaction.  This usually happens very quickly and the only thing to do is to stop taking the drug and wait for things to settle.  Most of the time there will be a little more confusion on the brains part and then it will recognize the drug as the key it was looking for and settle down relieving some of the symptoms at the same time.  I have seen many more people get relief from a small updose than who had trouble.  The ones who had trouble usually started with to big of a dose which caused the problems. 

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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What window?  When does it shut...

 

I was feeling fine right after I discontinued .  I think I am experiencing WD now.  Perhaps you are telling me it could get a lot worse.  

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Figgy ,

 

I've been up all night. :wacko:   I'm just saying , the option to reinstate runs out . The longer you leave it the less likely it is to work . It's up to you. Just trying to help , and ease a little of the pain.  I've had years of it and just trying to save you from that . Take it or leave it . Up to you.  :unsure:     Ali

Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014

 

                                                  Psych Drug - free since May 2014
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Hi Figgy,

 

I can understand that you probably feel overwhelmed at the moment.  I did when I first joined and was going through withdrawal and had a foggy brain.  Your poor memory certainly wouldn't be helping you.  The members and staff here have a wealth of knowledge and experience.

 

Nobody, and I mean nobody, is able to say what will happen if you don't reinstate.  Likewise nobody can say what will happen if you do.  However, I think (and this is my personal opinion, not direct advice) that reinstating a small amount for 4 days, as suggested, would be worth trying and might give you some relief from the withdrawal symptoms.  If you post during and at the end of 4 days, suggestions could be offered as to what you do after that.

 

This link is about Keeping it SIMPLE, SLOW and STABLE especially 2.c. Do not jump around in dosage.

 

I found this video helpful:  

 

Unfortunately nobody but you can decide what to do.  Just a thought.  Maybe writing a pro's and con's list might help.  Having things buzzing around in your head, especially when you can't think clearly, can make it harder to decide what to do.

 

All the best.

 

CC

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Plodding along inch by inch:  12" = 1',  3' =  36 " or 1 yard,  1760 yards  = 63,360" or 1 mile

Current from 17 Apr 2021:  Pristiq 0.2665mg  now holding each dose for 3 weeks

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015 

My tapering program   My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)  My website

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

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Ok, thank you everyone.  If I am understanding things correctly....although I began experiencing withdrawal after about 2.5 - 3 months after ceasing Lexapro you are all saying I could get much worse and therefore should try a small dose for 4 days?  If yes, what do you consider a small dose?

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Hi Figgy,

 

Someone should be along soon who will be able to suggest a dose.  Sorry I can't help with that.

 

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1 mg

Current: Xanax 0.26 (down from 2 mg in 2013), Lexapro 2.85 mg (down from 5 mg 2013)

Amitriptyline (tricyclic AD) and clonazepam for 3 months to treat headache in 1996 
1999. - present Xanax prn up to 3 mg.
2000-2005 Prozac CT twice, 2005-2010 Zoloft CT 3 times, 2010-2013 Escitalopram 10 mg
went from 2.5 to zero on 7 Aug 2013, bad crash 40 days after
reinstated to 5 mg Escitalopram 4Oct 2013 and holding liquid Xanax every 5 hours
28 Jan 2014 Xanax 1.9, 18 Apr  2015 1 mg,  25 June 2015 Lex 4.8, 6 Aug Lexapro 4.6, 1 Jan 2016 0.64  Xanax     9 month hold

24 Sept 2016 4.5 Lex, 17 Oct 4.4 Lex (Nov 0.63 Xanax, Dec 0.625 Xanax), 1 Jan 2017 4.3 Lex, 24 Jan 4.2, 5 Feb 4.1, 24 Mar 4 mg, 10 Apr 3.9 mg, May 3.85, June 3.8, July 3.75, 22 July 3.7, 15 Aug 3.65, 17 Sept 3.6, 1 Jan 2018 3.55, 19 Jan 3.5, 16 Mar 3.4, 14 Apr 3.3, 23 May 3.2, 16 June 3.15, 15 Jul 3.1, 31 Jul 3, 21 Aug 2.9 26 Sept 2.85, 14 Nov Xan 0.61, 1 Dec 0.59, 19 Dec 0.58, 4 Jan 0.565, 6 Feb 0.55, 20 Feb 0.535, 1 Mar 0.505, 10 Mar 0.475, 14 Mar 0.45, 4 Apr 0.415, 13 Apr 0.37, 21 Apr 0.33, 29 Apr 0.29, 10 May 0.27, 17 May 0.25, 28 May 0.22, 19 June 0.22, 21 Jun updose to 0.24, 24 Jun updose to 0.26

Supplements: Omega 3 + Vit E, Vit C, D, magnesium, Taurine, probiotic 

I'm not a medical professional. Any advice I give is based on my own experience and reading. 

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I would also suggest 1mg

Was on 30mg (Lexapro) for 7-8yrs20mg for 3 months (This was my choice my Doc wanted me to drop much faster)15 mg 2week10mg 2 weeks 5 mg 1 week0 since August 24th . PPI Dexlant  30 mg taper has begun. Cutting 20% currently.  using zantac as needed.  Benzo is currently 0.10mg 

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Thank you, everyone.

I am having a medical procedure on Wednesday that requires conscious sedation (yes, the dreaded colonoscopy).  Anyway, I am thinking of trying the 1mg for 4 days to see how I do but I don't want to risk an adverser reaction until I get through this procedure which is 4 days away.

 

So, after Wednesday, I will try it.  If I have a bad reaction, I stop.  If I feel better I will be asking what I am suppose to do next.

 

This is such a hard decision as my WD symptoms are currently not so bad.  I am only doing this because you all seem to feel I am going to be blindsided down the road and I don't want that.  And yes, 10 years is a long time on this drug.

 

Best,

Figgy 

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Hello, Figgy.

 

I had a colonoscopy without any drugs whatsoever. I had no problems, and I'm a small woman. It was no more uncomfortable than a sigmoidoscopy.

 

You could discuss this with your doctor; it's important that the doctor have experience doing non-sedated colonoscopies.

 

If a drug is necessary, you might request propofol only. It wears off quickly and poses fewer problems for people whose systems are sensitized by withdrawal.

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

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HI,

I did decide to go ahead and try reinstatement.  I took 1mg of lexapro on Monday.  Today is day four.  I am not sure I am feeling better but I am not feeling worse.  It's funny....I can feel the effects of the lexapro like I did when I first started to take it all those years ago.  For me it is repetitive thoughts and even more strange getting a musical phrase stuck in my head.  These went away over time but I remember it well as I was very concerned about it.

 

So, where do I go from here?  I would like to think if I go up to 2mg I will begin to feel alot better but I need advice as to when/if I should try that.  When I do find relief how long do I stay there before trying to reduce more slowly than I did the first time?  

 

Thank you in advance...I so appreciate it.

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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So, where do I go from here?  I would like to think if I go up to 2mg I will begin to feel alot better but I need advice as to when/if I should try that.  When I do find relief how long do I stay there before trying to reduce more slowly than I did the first time?  

 

Very good news that you are feeling no adverse effects from reinstating at 1mg.  As I'm sure you appreciate, this is WAY more art than science and, as the saying goes, "your mileage may vary."  If it were me I would wait out until I had reinstated for a full week and, assuming no change, I'd up it to 2mg.  Good reason to be optimistic that it will help, especially if you seem to be reacting the same way.

 

I would sit at 2mg for a while and see how that goes for you.  If you stabilize on that level you will pretty much know it.  Once stable for a couple of week or a month, I would start to think about a nice, very slow, gentle taper off the 2mg.

 

Best,

 

Andy

Sertraline 50mg and Clonazapam .375mg from 2000 -- symptoms of dizziness Spring 2012

increased to .5 Clonazapam and 100mg Sertraline -- no improvement

Benzo microtaper from November 2012 to November 2014 (followed benzo sites "taper benzo first")

Started Sertraline taper in December 2014 cut by 25mg to 75mg; 62.5mg 1/1/15 and 50mg on 2/1/15

Held at 50mg through April 5 to use liquid 
Reduced dosage in 10% or less drops from 50mg to 25mg -- at single tablet of 25mg on 10/5/15

Transitioned to all liquid for accuracy while tapering -- Horrible insomnia -- back to 25mg liquid and held until October 1, 2016

10/16 -- 11/18 tapered very slowly to 10.6mg.  No real improvement and never really stable so updosed to 12.5mg (1/2 a pill) for convenience and long hold.

After 8+ months of holding with no noticeable improvement decided to add .4ml of liquid Prozac (about 1.5mg) to see if that improves the situation

Supplements, Magnesium, D3, Omega 3, curcumin, Valerian, 81mg Aspirin, L-Theanine, Vit. C,

 

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Thank you, Andy.  I will stay at 1mg for a full week and then try upping it to 2mg.  I'll let you know.  

 

One question:  The smallest increment syringe I can find has 1mg as the lowest possible measured dose.  How do you eventually taper down below 1mg if you can't measure it?

 

thank you.

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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One question:  The smallest increment syringe I can find has 1mg as the lowest possible measured dose.  How do you eventually taper down below 1mg if you can't measure it?

 

Dilute the liquid mixture, Figgy.  If you double the liquid then you halve the resulting amount, and so on and so on....

 

Cheers,

 

Andy

Sertraline 50mg and Clonazapam .375mg from 2000 -- symptoms of dizziness Spring 2012

increased to .5 Clonazapam and 100mg Sertraline -- no improvement

Benzo microtaper from November 2012 to November 2014 (followed benzo sites "taper benzo first")

Started Sertraline taper in December 2014 cut by 25mg to 75mg; 62.5mg 1/1/15 and 50mg on 2/1/15

Held at 50mg through April 5 to use liquid 
Reduced dosage in 10% or less drops from 50mg to 25mg -- at single tablet of 25mg on 10/5/15

Transitioned to all liquid for accuracy while tapering -- Horrible insomnia -- back to 25mg liquid and held until October 1, 2016

10/16 -- 11/18 tapered very slowly to 10.6mg.  No real improvement and never really stable so updosed to 12.5mg (1/2 a pill) for convenience and long hold.

After 8+ months of holding with no noticeable improvement decided to add .4ml of liquid Prozac (about 1.5mg) to see if that improves the situation

Supplements, Magnesium, D3, Omega 3, curcumin, Valerian, 81mg Aspirin, L-Theanine, Vit. C,

 

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Thank you, Silver Star.  I will check in on Monday when I have been on the 1mg for a week.   This site has been a godsend for me.  I am very grateful.

Figgy

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Hi,

I followed Silver Star's good advice and stayed on 1mg for a full week.  I am feeling much better.  I am trying to decide when to go up to 2mg.

 

I am still not convinced this was withdrawal?  The state I was in was close to the state I was in when I originally went on Lexapro.  I do not want to go back to where I was when I found this site.  So, I have some questions if someone can please answer.

 

How long can I be on this small dose and have it continue to be effective? Long term, traveling with liquid I make myself that has to be refrigerated is not very practical.  

 

If I decide I don't want to risk going off again will I need to get back to my original dose?  

 

I know this site is about helping people get off these drugs but I'm pretty scared about trying to withdraw again.  Thank you in advance.

Figgy

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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Figgy,

 

First off, "Sliver Star" is a designation based on how many posts a member has made.  Each of us has a screen name like "Figgy".  If you use "Sliver Star" you could to addressing lots of people.  LOL.  Happens a lot! :D

 

Great news that you are stable at 1mg.  If you are there is NO REASON to increase to 2mg.  I would stay here for a while.  Yes, it may be awkward for you to deal with liquid and refrigeration, etc., but to on the lowest effective dose for managing your symptoms that seems like a good trade-off.  I don't see any reason for you to start to try to taper now.  Let's see how you are on 1mg for another week or so.  It will also allow you to decide how you want to proceed. 

 

We are about trying to help people withdraw from these meds safely, however, it is not our role to force people to go off them.  We would, however, never advocate you increase your med dose from a level where you are stable simply for convenience.  It could have an adverse effect on you.

 

My approach if I were you would be to take a while longer at 1mg and if I remained stable, perhaps early next year I would try to do a very, very slow taper down from 1mg. 

 

But that's me.

 

Andy

 

Sertraline 50mg and Clonazapam .375mg from 2000 -- symptoms of dizziness Spring 2012

increased to .5 Clonazapam and 100mg Sertraline -- no improvement

Benzo microtaper from November 2012 to November 2014 (followed benzo sites "taper benzo first")

Started Sertraline taper in December 2014 cut by 25mg to 75mg; 62.5mg 1/1/15 and 50mg on 2/1/15

Held at 50mg through April 5 to use liquid 
Reduced dosage in 10% or less drops from 50mg to 25mg -- at single tablet of 25mg on 10/5/15

Transitioned to all liquid for accuracy while tapering -- Horrible insomnia -- back to 25mg liquid and held until October 1, 2016

10/16 -- 11/18 tapered very slowly to 10.6mg.  No real improvement and never really stable so updosed to 12.5mg (1/2 a pill) for convenience and long hold.

After 8+ months of holding with no noticeable improvement decided to add .4ml of liquid Prozac (about 1.5mg) to see if that improves the situation

Supplements, Magnesium, D3, Omega 3, curcumin, Valerian, 81mg Aspirin, L-Theanine, Vit. C,

 

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Thank you, Andy.

The reason I was considering going up to 2mg was to get back to how well I was feeling when I went off.  But, I will take your advice and stay at 1mg for another week.  

 

Are you saying I could still have a bad reaction if I up my dose?  All I want for right now is to get back to where I was and stay there until after the first of the year.  I hope this is a reasonable expectation given how helpful the 1mg has been.  

 

I am still struggling to understand how such little doses can be effective.  A previous comment that I didn't see until too late suggested I might have trouble with conscious sedation from a medical procedure.  Is there a related problem with sedating valium type drugs because of WD?

 

Thank you again,

Figgy

Lexapro 5mg for 10 year

July 2015 went to 2.5mg

August 2015 off entirely

mid November:  WD came on in a big way.. relapse?

December 9 :  2mg.  It was too much, very hyped up, poor sleep 

December 10 :  1.25 mg.  a couple of pretty good days and several very difficult days; anxiety, insomnia 

Gave up and reinstated back to 5mg. 

June 4, 2018 started a new taper some time ago and currently at 3.8mg liquid lexapro. 

June 30, 2019 at 1mg liquid lexapro 

continued to taper 10% over the next year with a few holds.  Microdosed down to 0.01 mg 

June 13, 2020 off completely

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I'm not sure I follow you, Figgy. Are you saying you want to go back up to 15mg?

 

If you feel good at 1mg why go all the way back up? Plus, the reason the small dose works is because of the sensitizing of your CNS. For the same reason, going back to 15mg can have a paradoxical effect.

 

So long as 1mg worked that's where I would stay.

 

Andy

Sertraline 50mg and Clonazapam .375mg from 2000 -- symptoms of dizziness Spring 2012

increased to .5 Clonazapam and 100mg Sertraline -- no improvement

Benzo microtaper from November 2012 to November 2014 (followed benzo sites "taper benzo first")

Started Sertraline taper in December 2014 cut by 25mg to 75mg; 62.5mg 1/1/15 and 50mg on 2/1/15

Held at 50mg through April 5 to use liquid 
Reduced dosage in 10% or less drops from 50mg to 25mg -- at single tablet of 25mg on 10/5/15

Transitioned to all liquid for accuracy while tapering -- Horrible insomnia -- back to 25mg liquid and held until October 1, 2016

10/16 -- 11/18 tapered very slowly to 10.6mg.  No real improvement and never really stable so updosed to 12.5mg (1/2 a pill) for convenience and long hold.

After 8+ months of holding with no noticeable improvement decided to add .4ml of liquid Prozac (about 1.5mg) to see if that improves the situation

Supplements, Magnesium, D3, Omega 3, curcumin, Valerian, 81mg Aspirin, L-Theanine, Vit. C,

 

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Hi Figgy,

 

I'm pleased that you seem to have stabilized on 1 mg. Reinstatement may not eliminate all of your withdrawal symptoms. You may still experience waves of symptoms, at certain times. That is the nature of withdrawal . When you say you want to get back to where you were and stay there, do you mean your symptoms, perhaps?  Either way, it might be a good idea to keep track of your symptoms, to identify any patterns and help make any further decisions on dosage , in the future.

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/2390-dr-joseph-glenmullens-withdrawal-symptom-checklist/

 

Did you end up having your colonoscopy ?  What drugs, if any were you given?

 

I'm glad you are feeling better.

 

Ali

Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014

 

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