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10 hours ago, SquirrellyGirl said:

I always wonder when people mention crying spells.  Are we talking crying out of the blue, no real reason, or being more emotionally labile?  Lately I've been the latter.  I saw an ad on TV for Bohemian Rhapsody (movie) this morning and began thinking about Freddy Mercury and how sad that he died young and then I was weeping!  I wept about all kinds of things this morning, that and my cat that disappeared over a year ago, and some moving video on twitter...But it feels good to FEEL!

 

SG

 

 

oh I agree with the "it feels good to feel!!"

I have had both: crying spells for no reason, those were clearly WD/Recovery related, and were embarrassing when they happened outside my home (and just confounding when they happened when I was alone lol)

 

the emotional lability doesn't really bother me, because like you, I'm just so happy to feel anything at all.

 

but that has evened out a lot over time, and I don't get overly emotional much any more, my emotions seem to be getting closer to what seems "reasonable" - if there even is such a thing.

 

so good to see you SG, how are you going these days?

  • pysch med history: 1974 @ age 18 to Oct 2017 (approx 43 yrs total)
  •  Drug list: stelazine, haldol, elavil, lithium, zoloft, celexa, lexapro(doses as high as 40mgs), klonopin, ambien, seroquel(high doses), depakote, zyprexa, lamictal- plus brief trials of dozens of other psych meds over the years
  • started lexapro 2002, dose varied from 20mgs to 40mgs. I tried to get off it several times. WD symptoms were mistaken for "relapse". 
  •  2013 too fast taper down to 5mg but WD forced me back to 20mgs
  •  June of 2105, tapered again too rapidly to 2.5mgs by Dec 2015. Found SA, held at 2.5 mgs til May 2016 when I foolishly "jumped off". Crashed in Sept, reinstated at 0.3mgs in Oct. 2106
  • Tapered off to zero by  Oct. 2017 Doing very well
  • Nov. 2018 feel 95% healed, current age 63 
  • Jan. 2020 feel 100% healed, peaceful and content 
  • Aug 2021, loving life ❤️ 
 
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I'm so glad to see that you are essentially free.  I hope I'm getting close, but I doubt it.  You were feeling well a year ago, and I wasn't.  Still, thank you for keeping us updated.  Your story continues to give us all hope as you were on so many different drugs for so many years.  We must all be able to heal because you did.  Why it's shorter for some I suppose we won't know for a very long time, if ever.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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14 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

I'm so glad to see that you are essentially free.  I hope I'm getting close, but I doubt it.  You were feeling well a year ago, and I wasn't.  Still, thank you for keeping us updated.  Your story continues to give us all hope as you were on so many different drugs for so many years.  We must all be able to heal because you did.  Why it's shorter for some I suppose we won't know for a very long time, if ever.

 

 

thanks Rosetta

I think one thing that may have helped me is that I'm in (or past? never sure which is right) menopause so I don't have all the female hormones fluctuating month to month

 

I think that makes a big difference. I was always very emotionally and physically affected by my periods with extreme mood swings.

 

I also have very little stress in my life. 
 

in those two ways I feel fortunate.

 

I am kind of amazed when I look at how long I was on those drugs, and how many!! that I've done so well.

I didn't take any psych meds when I was pregnant and there were a couple of short periods when I wasn't on any drugs, but out of the 43 year history of accepting Rxes for that crap, I was on at least one and usually 2 or more psych drugs for a solid 40+ years

 

that's a long time!

 

so the human body/brain is a pretty amazing thing. like the energizer bunny, takes a lickin and keeps on tickin lol

 

  • pysch med history: 1974 @ age 18 to Oct 2017 (approx 43 yrs total)
  •  Drug list: stelazine, haldol, elavil, lithium, zoloft, celexa, lexapro(doses as high as 40mgs), klonopin, ambien, seroquel(high doses), depakote, zyprexa, lamictal- plus brief trials of dozens of other psych meds over the years
  • started lexapro 2002, dose varied from 20mgs to 40mgs. I tried to get off it several times. WD symptoms were mistaken for "relapse". 
  •  2013 too fast taper down to 5mg but WD forced me back to 20mgs
  •  June of 2105, tapered again too rapidly to 2.5mgs by Dec 2015. Found SA, held at 2.5 mgs til May 2016 when I foolishly "jumped off". Crashed in Sept, reinstated at 0.3mgs in Oct. 2106
  • Tapered off to zero by  Oct. 2017 Doing very well
  • Nov. 2018 feel 95% healed, current age 63 
  • Jan. 2020 feel 100% healed, peaceful and content 
  • Aug 2021, loving life ❤️ 
 
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Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988.  In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm.

Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!  Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to

2016 Dec 16 medication free!!

Longer signature post here, with current supplements.

Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. 

None of my posts are intended as medical advice.  Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. manymoretodays

 

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