Rose9975 Posted March 12, 2017 Author Share Posted March 12, 2017 Today another good day. I went hill walking but was tired think I did too much walking yesterday. Feeling really hungry last few week. Has anyone felt this while tapering? I have put on a lot of weight which I am not happy about. I think I need a detox. My head is good & I feel grounded but I love to fit into my clothes again.I love sugar. Anyway, my goal for this week is to exercise at least twice this week I am good to get out Saturday & Sunday I love nature. I need to start cooking also. Otherwise All is well xx I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 17, 2017 Author Share Posted March 17, 2017 Turtle pace: Note to self good week.Back to base line.Reminder symptoms due pass.They will pass. Happy St Patrick's Day. A weekend of outdoors cycling & hill walking.life is good.life is too short to stop living or put it on pause. I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 22, 2017 Author Share Posted March 22, 2017 Tired the last few days. I did no exercise Monday & Tuesday...craving sugar. I am off work the last few days.I felt my brain healing yesterday. Feeling FLAT, HEAVY in body.I went for a Thai massage yesterday as a treat. I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
AliG Posted March 22, 2017 Share Posted March 22, 2017 It must be lovely to live in Ireland and have beautiful hills for walking. I'm envious. I would try and take full advantage of this and just try and walk away your withdrawal. I know it's not quite that simple but it does give you a slight edge. Enjoy ! Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 22, 2017 Author Share Posted March 22, 2017 Thanks Ali.Distracted myself for most of the day.pain the back of the eyes particilarly right eye.pushed self to go for a 40 minute jogg....my soul drank in the sunlight ... pain back again now. .my mother is depressed today also & drinking to self-sooth... I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 22, 2017 Author Share Posted March 22, 2017 I just realise I feel lonely....I feel I have no one I can confide in...someone to listen....the only person I have ever felt anyone cared was a therapist I paid...I went to for years...I miss her....I miss her listening to me.. I miss feeling normal after talking to her...I miss her mothering me...As I type this healing tears roll down my cheeks...tonight is self-pity night.... I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted March 22, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 22, 2017 Hi Rose, your post about weight gain and sugar caught my eye. I am another sugar addict and the weight is piling on! I need to cut out sugar too or at least cut it down. I cut it right down before and felt much better but gradually have got back into bad habits again. Your post has made me decide that from tomorrow I will not have any more cake or sweets, or biscuits.......or juice, oh dear this is going to be tough, want to join me? **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 24, 2017 Author Share Posted March 24, 2017 Episode of depression ♥today. Still in the middle of it my body feels heavy I don't feel like thinking it hurts.I know I should exercise but my body feels exhausted.I feel flat...my head is shut down pressure on the brain around the brain I want to be alone I am lieing in bed waiting for this to pass...who understands? Not even I!!it is like a dark cloud that I see coming it's coming it's coming & it takes me over I'm now in bed waiting for it to pass ⏳ I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted March 24, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 24, 2017 Hang in there Rose, you are right it will pass and I hope it is very soon. **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 24, 2017 Author Share Posted March 24, 2017 Thank you mamma ❤. Still feeling flat. I have a wedding to attend tomorrow but no energy to get organised.I think I will choose not to have children.I don'the know how I would cope if I had other people relying on me to be fully functioning fully present. I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted March 24, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 24, 2017 You will cope Rose. You wont always feel this way and will get better. Take the day in steps, first step is to get up, and then a shower etc. You might enjoy it, often I dread going places but feel better that I've done it and it passes a day. Hope you make it and have a lovely time, even if it is only an hour. **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
powerback Posted March 25, 2017 Share Posted March 25, 2017 Hi rose sorry to hear u going through an episode of depression ,I know your pain ,I am also going through a very bad episode of depression at the moment,its a beautiful day here in Ireland and ile go off for a walk for a few hours , I went yesterday but had zero energy so when I got home I got straight into bed at 4pm and slept like a baby until 6. I've experienced the feeling of torture trying to get out of bed and then finally getting out for that walk,this is the time we need to keep our strength up. but i totally understand some days we have to rest . The other day I was out up the hills with no one around and I was experiencing a horrible episode of depression and I shouted out loudly F#CK OFF HORRIBLE DEPRESSION LEAVE ME ALONE ,i felt some relief ,its like writing it down on paper.A strong episode of depression is very insidious ,its like been possessed by a demon. This whole winter just felt like something i had to get through and i did ,so in that aspect its an achievement. Please be careful thinking about big decisions like children in a depression episode ,it can make it worse. Have fun at your wedding ,its a great day for it ,here in Ireland . Take care Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 25, 2017 Author Share Posted March 25, 2017 Hi Powerback, How are you feeling now? Sorry your not feeling good also xx.I am using this site to track my symptoms.Today like yesterday I experienced a huge release of tears....deep release...prior to this I felt anxious, stressed, overwhelmed and worried.I felt so much better after this discharge . I wonder what is happening in my fried brain...I felt so much better...it was like it rebooted my brain like a computer....then when I was mindful there was a lot of strange sensations around various aspects of my brain.I hope healing.I got my period also today.I am grateful of this website as a tracking of symptoms so that I can learn to understand normalise & articulate my process.Again so grateful for this space. I have gone too far to go back. I am tenacious. love & light xx I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 26, 2017 Author Share Posted March 26, 2017 What a horrific night woke up around 3p.m & thought I was going to die with mentural cramps...nausea, faintness, diarrhoea, major suicidal thoughts and ♥♥depressive thinking.Lasted intensively for two hours.This a.m feeling dreadful feeling weak and flat. 12.30p.m Had a near break down with deep crying suicidal thoughts negativity.Now feeling rage, anger hugh irritability & agression what has been the trigger?? Hormones? Feel like hitting someone. I am not on the pill. Has Lexapro been helping with these symptoms.Maybe I should consult a herbalist to help with hormonal imbalance.Feeling sh@#$e . I would make some parent..I want to be by myself and feel allergic to people.... I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 26, 2017 Author Share Posted March 26, 2017 What a day feel exhausted...emotional roller coaster. Had another deep cry in my financees arms & forced my self out ito civilation.... I had a glass of wine for self medication reason's & seems to have done the tick....I have base lined... Please God next week is better for me I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 27, 2017 Author Share Posted March 27, 2017 Back at work today.Distraction is good for my mind.My head is not good tonight. I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted March 28, 2017 Author Share Posted March 28, 2017 Window today thanks everyone one for listen to me when I was not feeling great bless you all xxxx❤☘ I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted March 30, 2017 Moderator Share Posted March 30, 2017 Window today thanks everyone one for listen to me when I was not feeling great bless you all xxxx❤☘ Hi Rose9975: I see you go down 1mg a month. Does that work best for you, not the 10%? I'm at 7.3 and have been nauseated ever since, no motivation, and very emotional. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Take care, Frogie xx PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted April 1, 2017 Author Share Posted April 1, 2017 Hi Froggie, 1mg every two months seems o.k for my body but maybe when I am below 10mg it will need to be longer holds. Sorry your struggling.Thank God since 28th March I'm feeling 'normal' for me that is.... I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted April 2, 2017 Moderator Share Posted April 2, 2017 Hi Froggie, 1mg every two months seems o.k for my body but maybe when I am below 10mg it will need to be longer holds. Sorry your struggling.Thank God since 28th March I'm feeling 'normal' for me that is.... That's great... I might try to hold longer, maybe it will work. Thanks for answering my question. Take care, Frogie xx PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted April 9, 2017 Author Share Posted April 9, 2017 Latest update ....yesterday I was feeling horrible. Depressive feelings huge fatigue for the last few days since Wednesday. Adrenal exhaustion from stress? Tapering symptoms? depression (body telling me I need the tablets?) Article: the researchers argue, from the neurological effects of the drugs' retention of serotonin and the consequent downregulation of neurotransmitters that are once again needed (though in short supply) when treatment ends. Feeling hopeless, exhausted, fed up hugely frustrated agitated angry negative I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
powerback Posted April 9, 2017 Share Posted April 9, 2017 Latest update ....yesterday I was feeling horrible. Depressive feelings huge fatigue for the last few days since Wednesday. Adrenal exhaustion from stress? Tapering symptoms? depression (body telling me I need the tablets?) Article: the researchers argue, from the neurological effects of the drugs' retention of serotonin and the consequent downregulation of neurotransmitters that are once again needed (though in short supply) when treatment ends. Feeling hopeless, exhausted, fed up hugely frustrated agitated angry negative Hi snap with symptoms, lately I make a huge point of watching comedy [last night Seinfeld clips on youtube] ,just back from my walk [tiring] and said hello to the doctor that originally put me on medication ,I've seen him before on my walks ,thought it was funny seeing him today. Be strong, we will get the peace we deserve .Believe that no matter what. Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted April 9, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 9, 2017 I'm sorry that your window has slammed shut Rose. It will open again it is normal for the wndows to last a short time but they will lengthen in time. It would be best to hold the dose you are at for a while to stabilise before making any more cuts. I hope you feel better soon. **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted April 9, 2017 Author Share Posted April 9, 2017 Thanks Powerback just back from hill walking 3.5h...I just pushed through it.No Choice. The tiredness can be so debilitating ????????????.I find that I can do an intensive hill walk but sometimes I don't have the energy to wash a cup!!! Heading for auricular acupuncture in the a.m I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted April 10, 2017 Author Share Posted April 10, 2017 9th April window from 6.30p.m & again today. Thank your God memory still poor however.Went for forest Hill walk after work....bed now 10p.m nothing unusual there I need alot of sleep.I never went for acupuncture. I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted April 14, 2017 Author Share Posted April 14, 2017 This week sheer exhaustion 10p.m and impossible to wake in the a.m.Throat is sore so immune system could just be run down. Other then that depressive mode suicidal thoughts have lifted. I want to live & enjoy life so will be stopping for now. I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Chicago77 Posted April 17, 2017 Share Posted April 17, 2017 Hi Rose, Just wanted to stop by and say you aren't alone. My fatigue is TERRIBLE too. It's my worst symptom and makes it hard to work. I don't have insomnia like a lot of other people. I sleep great for 8-9 hours and still wake up lethargic and heavy. Hope yours lifts soon!! Took 10 mg of Lexapro for 15 years. Started to taper in October 2015. Took last 1mg dose in March 2016. Started having side effects end of March 2016. Symptoms include: anxiety, heart palpitations, shaky, chronic fatigue, body feels like lead(so heavy), brain fog and dizziness and really bad pain especially on right side of body. Symptoms as of 10/18/16- Burning skin, widespread body pain, some insomnia, some fatigue, some brain fog, anxiety upon waking up, numbing and tremor in pinky and ring finger on left hand, cracking/popping/stiff joints. Symptoms as of 4/19/17- A little burning skin, muscle pain, FATIGUE, some brain fog, tremor in pinky and ring finger on left hand, cracking/popping/stiff joints, blurry vision, eye floaters, sciatica. Symptoms as of 10/3/17- Physical symptoms-- Very little burning skin that comes and goes, some muscle and nerve pain that comes and goes, tremor in pinky and ring finger, muscle twitches, cortisol spike in the morning(heart palpitations), cracking/popping joints all those this has gotten a little better lately, blurry vision and eye floaters that come and go, sciatica(less intense now), fatigue which is still very bad but better than a year ago. Mental symptoms-- Depression, anxiety, hopelessness, lack of motivation or interest, brain fog(trouble focusing and concentrating), ruminating thoughts. All these come and go. Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted April 17, 2017 Author Share Posted April 17, 2017 Hi Chicago77, I see your off this drug.well done you.I empathise with your tiredness ...energy afffects everything. ..mood...productivity. ...part-taking in life etc...you think the drug cause's brain damage? maybe the tiredness is coming from depression? God only knows I guess we are the guinea pigs for this drug. ...How do you manage the tiredness? It's strange at the weekends I feel fatigue yet I will push myself to climb a mountain for 2-4 hours that tells me it's psychological....I can push through this mental barrier somedays not other days to do housework, visit a friend etc strange etc.What are your thoughts on that? ? I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Chicago77 Posted April 17, 2017 Share Posted April 17, 2017 Honestly, I don't think my fatigue is caused by depression or anxiety. I never had depression and the anxiety from WD has subsided months ago. Of course I get frustrated that I'm exhausted and have other physical symptoms, but I don't really feel anxious. It's strange. The only thing I can think of is maybe I shocked my body by coming off this drug(I didn't taper correctly) and it effected every part of my body. All my organs like brain, liver, adrenals, gut etc. I don't know. I see other people on here are suffering from severe fatigue too, so I know it's not just us. I never had fatigue problems prior or during meds so it has to be related. Some days I can barely move out of bed and others I can move around with less fatigue and do things. Who knows! Took 10 mg of Lexapro for 15 years. Started to taper in October 2015. Took last 1mg dose in March 2016. Started having side effects end of March 2016. Symptoms include: anxiety, heart palpitations, shaky, chronic fatigue, body feels like lead(so heavy), brain fog and dizziness and really bad pain especially on right side of body. Symptoms as of 10/18/16- Burning skin, widespread body pain, some insomnia, some fatigue, some brain fog, anxiety upon waking up, numbing and tremor in pinky and ring finger on left hand, cracking/popping/stiff joints. Symptoms as of 4/19/17- A little burning skin, muscle pain, FATIGUE, some brain fog, tremor in pinky and ring finger on left hand, cracking/popping/stiff joints, blurry vision, eye floaters, sciatica. Symptoms as of 10/3/17- Physical symptoms-- Very little burning skin that comes and goes, some muscle and nerve pain that comes and goes, tremor in pinky and ring finger, muscle twitches, cortisol spike in the morning(heart palpitations), cracking/popping joints all those this has gotten a little better lately, blurry vision and eye floaters that come and go, sciatica(less intense now), fatigue which is still very bad but better than a year ago. Mental symptoms-- Depression, anxiety, hopelessness, lack of motivation or interest, brain fog(trouble focusing and concentrating), ruminating thoughts. All these come and go. Link to comment
Blondiee1915 Posted April 18, 2017 Share Posted April 18, 2017 Hi Rose, I am also struggling with fatigue which I believe is caused by lexapro WD. I have some other symptoms but this intense fatigue is on top of the list for sure . I basically CT this summer then reinstated in October stayed on 5 mg for about 2.5 months and then switched to another SSRI Luvox . I did get some relief but the fatigue is very overwhelming . I do think it is caused by WD from lexapro . I had some fatigue while I was on lexapro but nothing compared to the way I feel . I also didn't have any fatigue prior to taking lexapro , so my assumption and belief it is medication induced . I can second to Chicago how one day I wake up and I am so fatigued and brain foged that I can't even get out of bed . On few occasions I had to come in late for work due to this . And on other days I wake up and I am a tiny bit less fatigued and somewhat able to function . It is definitely a challenge . I do not know if there is a pattern or not . I try to get at least 9 hours of sleep to help me cope Hope you are doing better 04/10 Luvox 25 mg PM, Nortriptyline 1 mg PM 03/08/19: Buspar 2.5 mg AM, 5 mg PM 01/01/19: Xanax 0.125 AM 5 times a week. Occasionally, 0.125 twice a day AM & noon 12/18 Armour Thyroid 60 mg (for hypothyroidism) Supplements: B Complex, B12 (adeno), multi-vitamin, D, Adrenal Cortex, iron Lexapro 20 mg 2007 - 2013 with various attempts to stop 2013 found a new Dr and started trying other meds: Prozac, Notryptoline, Effexor, Buspar, Gabapentin, Paxil, Nardil Lexapro 15 mg 2015 - 04/2016 Vibryiid 10 - 15mg 05/16-06/16 NO MEDS 07/16 - 10/31/16 Reinstated 10/31/16 at 2.5 mg lexapro, increased to 5 mg 1/13/17 switched to Luvox 50 mg before bed 1/20/17 Luvox 37.5 mg PM 12/18 Luvox 10 mg PM, Nortriptyline 2 mg (started Nortriptyline 06/17 at 10 mg) Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted April 25, 2017 Author Share Posted April 25, 2017 Just an update:I am still stabilised. A reminder that it does come. Intense Fatigue has left the building.Overeating a lot. Felt bulimic urge to vomit yesterday it was strange.Coming off this tablet is such an experience. Maybe stomach receptors coming back into action..maybe not..maybe just eating too much....no symptoms thank God all is well. I wish to try to enjoy life & part take in it more...I need to get a better more solid foundation e.g pass times, making time for friends etc. I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted April 26, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 26, 2017 Good on you! Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted April 29, 2017 Author Share Posted April 29, 2017 Hi all, I got my period again.Another month passed how time flies!!!!never went to homeopath so emotions all over the shop this week......job interview next Friday so fingers crossed ....more money less stress.....planning exit from Social Work the STRESS is not good for me I am still learning to manage the work volume self care syptoms of tiredness and negativity. Eyes sore this week from over exposure to the computer screen .....#one day at a time # need a day to myself I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted April 29, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 29, 2017 It is so good to read your updates Rose, I am really happy that you are improving, Onwards and upwards! **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
Rose9975 Posted May 13, 2017 Author Share Posted May 13, 2017 Week 8th May: I haven't been feeling this good in along long time.... I have started taking Revive Active mutlivitamin and I have been genuinely HAPY CONTENT this week.Those of you have suffer depresive systems know what I am talking about. Plan on going to a new G.P to get blood test & hormones checked out....watch this space. Feeling 10/10 normal & feeling grateful xxxx normal tiredness needing less sleep ????????????????????❣???? feeling positive hopeful xxx I've started taking antidepressants in 2001. I took Cipramil for 3 years. Elflexor for 1 year. Lexapro 10mg - 20mg since 1992 approximately. STARTING DOSE 20mg Lexapro 2016 19mg Lexapro (3rd January 2016)-Taper 5% 18mg Lexapro (8th February 2O16)-Taper 5% 17mg Lexapro (? March 2016) - Taper 5% - 16mg (16th May 2016) Taper 5 % 17mg (21st August 2016) + 5% 16mg (3rd January 2017) - 5% 15mg (4th February 2017) -5 14mg (6/02/18) -5% Link to comment
powerback Posted May 13, 2017 Share Posted May 13, 2017 Week 8th May: I haven't been feeling this good in along long time.... I have started taking Revive Active mutlivitamin and I have been genuinely HAPY CONTENT this week.Those of you have suffer depresive systems know what I am talking about. Plan on going to a new G.P to get blood test & hormones checked out....watch this space. Feeling 10/10 normal & feeling grateful xxxx normal tiredness needing less sleep ❣ feeling positive hopeful xxx This is great well done ,I take great solace from your positive post ,I dream of been in the same place one day . good on ye may it long continue . total respect PB Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
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