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2 hours ago, dj2010 said:

 

you should be able to claim PIP, I am claiming that at the moment even though I work and i am getting the higher rate, I have not told the doctors i am off my meds, you should take the meds from the doctor but just throw them in the bin and the you should apply for PIP, if you need any advice with the application process dont hesitate to ask me as I have been through it all

 

take care

Great advice from DJ there  terry .use the doctor to your advantage .

Lets face it terry you don't want to be in hospital and have decisions  made for you .with money being a big stressor what DJ says is the way to go .

Take great care terry .

Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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2 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Terry, we have been around and around with this. I am very sorry you are in such distress, but to a large part, you are sabotaging yourself.

 

Your posts here seem to be for the purpose of demonstrating your situation is hopeless. This is your existential position. It probably was part of your personality before you took psychiatric drugs. You ask for solutions but always argue against them when they are presented.

 

If the end result of any conversation with you is that your situation is hopeless, I don't see any reason to participate in it. One thing that is for sure: If you insist your situation is hopeless, it will be hopeless. You are the one doing the insisting, not your doctors, not your family, not anyone here. Whether you move forward depends entirely on you.

 

One option is to see Dr. Healy. Another is to do nothing and let your nervous system heal on its own. This will be a gradual and frustrating process. If you choose this route, I strongly urge you to learn Non-drug techniques to cope with emotional symptoms  because I really do not want to see another 15 pages of self-sabotaging masochistic complaining from you here.

I appreciate your reply alto and I am sorry if I have offended you even though I find the word masochistic rather harsh I can only apologise if I have offended others when I know people are trying to help I will I shall refrain from being so negative in future again my apologies 

2001 to jan 2015 Effexor 150 mg 

jan 2015 15 mg mirtazapine 20 mg quetiapine 

feb 2015 quetiapine stopped 

feb 2015 30 mg of citalopram added 

feb 2015 mirtazapine increased to 30 mg 

july 2015 citalopram stopped 

sept 2015 200mg of pregabalin 

jan 2017 mirtazapine stopped

jan 2017 20 mg fluoxetine

march 2017 all meds stopped 

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You would do well not to reinforce your own extreme pessimism by refraining from posting about it here, but you would do even better by not allowing it to paralyze you in real life and taking action to ameliorate your condition. Your fatalistic passivity is your problem.

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

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Hi Terry. Fellow akathisia sufferer here. It is hell and I get your hopelessness. I'd gladly swap akathisia for the anxiety, anhedonia or whatever many people here suffer from.

 

I mean, I get anxiety too. But you know.

Current daily meds. Citalopram 2.5mg morning. Diazapam 1.5mg evening, Propanalol 40mg split 4x10mg throughout day.

 

Recent meds. Fluoxetine 20mg began 24th Nov 2017, CT on 4th December on medical advice due to bad Akathisia. Citalopram 10mg began on 13th Dec 2017, tapered to 2.5mg by 20th Dec 2017 on medical advice. Diazapam 2mg began on 6th Dec 2017 cut to 1.5 mg on 26th Dec. Propanalol 40mg began on 13th Dec. Zopiclone 3.75 mg began 13th December, used maybe 5 times then quit.

 

Previous history. Tricyclics, Fluoxetine or Citalopram for periods of 6mo to 2yrs over last 25 years. Probably 5 yrs in total. No significant ill effects.

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Terry, everything ok?

05/2013 Lyrica 100 mg / per day for pain + PGAD resulting from caesarian delivery11/2014 started to taper: 50 mg per day/ for one week then c/tafter one month reinstated at 50 mg /per days of 10 July 2015 drug free-

symptoms OCD

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I need help in locating a old post or a contact on here and I am struggling to find it , at the beginning of last year a member said on here that they were going to make a short film on withdrawel I contacted them and made a film , I cannot remember the members name or can’t find a link to the request for people to participate in this . I have no contact number for this person so was hoping if I could find the original link I might be able to send her a message to see if she is online , I would like to get in touch with her so that I can share the film I made with others on the venalaxafine group to show awareness of the dangers from to fast a ataper , if anyone could help me locate this I would be gratefull

2001 to jan 2015 Effexor 150 mg 

jan 2015 15 mg mirtazapine 20 mg quetiapine 

feb 2015 quetiapine stopped 

feb 2015 30 mg of citalopram added 

feb 2015 mirtazapine increased to 30 mg 

july 2015 citalopram stopped 

sept 2015 200mg of pregabalin 

jan 2017 mirtazapine stopped

jan 2017 20 mg fluoxetine

march 2017 all meds stopped 

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Hmmmm.  I kind of remember that too Terry.  Was it the person who was going to travel around to different places doing interviews?  Check down in the "Current Events" section and scroll on back on posts to the time frame that you think it was.  That's my best suggestion.

 

Maybe somebody else remembers?

Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks.

Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988.  In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm.

Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!  Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to

2016 Dec 16 medication free!!

Longer signature post here, with current supplements.

Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016.  And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed.  Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022.  Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜

None of my posts are intended as medical advice.  Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider.  My success story:  Blue skies ahead, clear sailing

 

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I know this is not a site for advising medications but I have reach the line in withdrawel where I am at my limit as to what I can endure 4 years of hell and nearly 12 months off all meds but I need to seek help before it’s to late the question I have is if I need to reinstate a med to help me out of this hell what is the best form to aim at , the only one that ever seemed to help had no depression on was Effexor but serotonin ramps me up so bad , I know reinstatement can be a crap shoot but I honestly can’t go on anymore I’m reluctant to go back to Effexor as it pooped out and the side effects were intolerable has anyone stabilise using another med just to enough to keep them going , if you look at my history you can see I was given a lot of medication over a short period but none help but I think the Effexor withdrawel was so strong and I didn’t give them much chance , has anyone had any luck reinstating another drug 

2001 to jan 2015 Effexor 150 mg 

jan 2015 15 mg mirtazapine 20 mg quetiapine 

feb 2015 quetiapine stopped 

feb 2015 30 mg of citalopram added 

feb 2015 mirtazapine increased to 30 mg 

july 2015 citalopram stopped 

sept 2015 200mg of pregabalin 

jan 2017 mirtazapine stopped

jan 2017 20 mg fluoxetine

march 2017 all meds stopped 

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3 hours ago, Terry4949 said:

I know this is not a site for advising medications but I have reach the line in withdrawel where I am at my limit as to what I can endure 4 years of hell and nearly 12 months off all meds but I need to seek help before it’s to late the question I have is if I need to reinstate a med to help me out of this hell what is the best form to aim at , the only one that ever seemed to help had no depression on was Effexor but serotonin ramps me up so bad , I know reinstatement can be a crap shoot but I honestly can’t go on anymore I’m reluctant to go back to Effexor as it pooped out and the side effects were intolerable has anyone stabilise using another med just to enough to keep them going , if you look at my history you can see I was given a lot of medication over a short period but none help but I think the Effexor withdrawel was so strong and I didn’t give them much chance , has anyone had any luck reinstating another drug 

Please get some help and get stabilized.  There is no point in suffering. Life is meant to be lived WITH or without meds.

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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4 hours ago, Terry4949 said:

I know this is not a site for advising medications

 

Yes, that is the case.  There are other sites on the internet, eg patientslikeme, that might be more suitable for what you are looking for.

 

On 16/01/2018 at 6:16 AM, Altostrata said:

One option is to see Dr. Healy. Another is to do nothing and let your nervous system heal on its own. This will be a gradual and frustrating process. If you choose this route, I strongly urge you to learn Non-drug techniques to cope with emotional symptoms  because I really do not want to see another 15 pages of self-sabotaging masochistic complaining from you here.

 

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MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

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Hi Terry

 

I am sorry you are suffering so badly for so long, I hear you about the depression, I have had it severely too but it is subsiding now.  I did not know what to do with myself for so long it was frightening.

 

I do subscribe to Baylissa's website, Bloom in Wellness and she has lots of help on there and does live webiners, there is a fee each month and I have found it very very helpful to watch the recorded videos and you can partake in the webiners live if you wish by asking lots of questions, you don't see each other you just see Baylissa and you get to see others questions and she answers them, as I mentioned you can watch them later too.  Baylissa  says much the same as the mods here that it really is time and patience..

 

It may be worth a look, some of her website is free but the webiners are very good.

 

I hope you can get some peace very soon.

 

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Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years.

Last AD's taken:

Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016  to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd.

2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016.

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On 1/7/2016 at 12:49 AM, Terry4949 said:

Hi I am new to this forum and this is my first post . I am currently on 30mg mirtazapine and 200mg of pregablin , I have been on these mess for about 3 to 4 months . I have just cut my mirtazapine from 30mg to 15mg and in the space of 4 days I have have horrible side effects , anxiety through the roof , shaking , lack of appetite poor sleep crying spells and the general feeling of feeling crap . The reason I have started to withdraw from the mirtazapine is that after 3 months I feel no benefit only get awfull side effects . No help with my anxiety and depression if anything it's made me more depressed . I have gone through withdrawing from Effexor and that was really tough , however just the drop for a few days of the mirtazapine has left me crushed , my doctor told me that mirtazapine was a easy drug to withdraw from , but after 4 days it has left me house bound . Has anyone got any idea on how I get through this or any experience in mirtazapine withdrawals

I wish someone would have told you, when you joined this forum TO REINSTATE! Please get some help-your life is worth more than trying to prove a point! 

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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7 hours ago, Terry4949 said:

I know this is not a site for advising medications but I have reach the line in withdrawel where I am at my limit as to what I can endure 4 years of hell and nearly 12 months off all meds but I need to seek help before it’s to late the question I have is if I need to reinstate a med to help me out of this hell what is the best form to aim at , the only one that ever seemed to help had no depression on was Effexor but serotonin ramps me up so bad , I know reinstatement can be a crap shoot but I honestly can’t go on anymore I’m reluctant to go back to Effexor as it pooped out and the side effects were intolerable has anyone stabilise using another med just to enough to keep them going , if you look at my history you can see I was given a lot of medication over a short period but none help but I think the Effexor withdrawel was so strong and I didn’t give them much chance , has anyone had any luck reinstating another drug 

Why don't you try Abilify of something like that?

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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12 minutes ago, samanthaelizabeth said:

Why don't you try Abilify of something like that?

With all due respect SE...Abilify is an atypical antipsychotic with horrible side effects. I find this an inappropriate comment and not within the guidelines of this forum. K

  • Citalopram 20mg - 40mg ~ approx 2010 - October 2015 (stopped over one week)
  • Parnate  20mg - 50mg and olazapine 5mg ~ Jan 2016 - May 2016 (ceased over 2 days) 
  • Lithium 450mg-900 mg and Thyroxin ~May 2016 - May 2017
  • Diazepam various doses (including PRN) ~ 2015 - 2017
  • Oxazepam various doses (including PRN) ~ May 2016 - June 2016
  • Lurasidone 20mg ~Mid May 2016 - Mid June 2016
  • Vortioxetine 10mg - 20mg ~ 6th June 2016 - 20th July 2016 (abruptly ceased)
  • Amitriptyline 200mg ~July 2016 - September 2016 (ceased over 1 week)
  • Nortriptyline  (dose ?) ~October 2016 ~ November 2016 (abruptly ceased)
  • Seroquel XR 100mg - 300mg ~ May 2016 - August 2017 (ceased over 3 weeks)
  • Escitalopram 10mg - 30mg ~ August 2016 - March 2017 (ceased over 2 weeks)
  • Bupropion 300mg ~ December 2016 - May 2017 (ceased over 1 week)
  • Clonazepam 1.5mg daily ~ July 2016 (started tapering May 2017 - September 2017 currently on 0.375mg..ie 0.125mg TDS) 27th May 2018 5% 0.357mg (possible paradoxical reaction - see benzo thread)  28th June 5% 0.337mg, 28th July 10% 0.303mg, 12th September10% 0.272mg, 18th September reinstated 10% due to intolerable WD 0.303mg, 1st October-11th Oct 10% (1% reduction over 10 days) 0.272mg, 22nd October clonazepam ceased crossed over 10mg diazepam
  •  Dexamphatamine 20mg ~ December 2016 (started tapering October 2017 - tapered 1.25mg 4th Dec 2017, 1.25mg 19th Dec 2017 6.25mg, Speed up decrease due to major interaction between Dex and fluoxetine- ref to thread 10% 17th Feb 2018 5.63mg, 10% 21st Feb 2018 5.1mg, 10% 26th Feb 2018 4.5mg 10% 28th Feb 4.1mg, 10% 1st March 3.7mg, 10% 5th March 3.3mg, 10% 8th March 3mg, 10% 10th March 2.7mg, 10% 12th March 2.4mg, 10% 14th March 2.16mg, 10% 16th March 1.94mg, 10% 18th March 1.74mg, 10% 20th March 1.57mg, 10% 21st March 1.41mg, 10% 22nd March 1.26mg, 10% 23rd March 1.13mg, 10% 24th March 1.01mg, 10% 25th March 0.9mg, 10% 27th March 0.81mg, 10% 29th March 0.73mg, 10% 31st March 0.66mg, 10% 2nd April 0.59mg , 10% 4th April 0.53mg, 10% 6th April 0.47mg, 10% 8th April 0.42mg, 10%10th April 0.37mg, 11th April 0.2mg, 12th April 0.1mg (last dose) OFF! 
  • Fluoxetine 40mg ~December 2016 - 31 Jan 2018 reduced to 20mg (probable serotonin toxicity) 10th March 2020 10mg (1:1 ratio), 7th April 9mg, 1st May 8.5mg, 15th May 8.0mg, 27th May 7.5mg, 8th Sept 7.2mg, 2nd Oct 7mg, 19th Oct 6.8mg, 28th Oct 6.6mg, 5th Nov 6.4mg, 26th Nov 6mg, 2nd April 2021 5.9mg, 9th April 5.8mg, 19th April 5.75mg, 22nd April 5.7mg, 26th April 5.65mg,28th April 5.6mg, 1st May 5.5mg, 4th May 5.45mg, 7th May 5.4mg, 10th May 5.35mg, 12th May 5.3mg, 15th May 5.25mg, 18th May 5.2mg, 20th May 5.15mg, 22nd May 5mg, 10th July 4.5mg, 9th Aug 4.48mg (switched from syringe to pipette method), 12th Aug 4.46mg, 14th Aug 4.4mg, 18th Aug 4.38mg, 19th Aug 4.36mg, 20th Aug 4.34, 21st 4.32mg, 22nd 4.3mg, 23rd Aug 4mg (hold), (micro-taper) 12th Oct 2021 3.98mg, 14th Oct 3.96mg, 15th Oct 3.94mg, 16th Oct 3.92mg, 17th Oct 3.9mg, 18th Oct 3.88mg, 19th Oct 3.86mg, 21st Oct 3.84mg, 22nd Oct 3.82mg, 23rd Oct 3.8mg, 24th Oct 3.78mg, 25th Oct 3.76mg, 26th Oct 3.74mg, 27th Oct 3.72mg, (WD reached intolerable level, reinstated 0.06mg) 28th Oct 3.8mg, 7th March 2022 3.7mg, 21st March 3.6mg, 4th April 3.5mg, 18th April 3.4mg, 2nd May 3.3mg, 16th May 3.2mg, 20th June 3.1mg, 4th July 3mg, 18th July 2.9mg, 12th September 2.7mg, 18th October 2.5mg, 14th Nov 2.3mg, 12th December 2.1mg, 18th January 2023 1.9mg, 9th July 2023 1.88mg, 16th July 1.86mg, 23rd July 1.84mg, 30th July 1.82mg, 6th Aug 1.80mg, 10th Sept 1.7mg, 12th Oct 1.68mg, 23rd Oct 1.66mg, 30th Oct 1.64mg, 6th Nov 1.62mg, 13th Nov 1.60mg, (2:1 ratio) 30th Dec 1.597mg, 7th Jan 2024 1.595mg, 8th 1.592mg,  10th 1.589, 11th 1.587, 12th 1.585, 13th 1.583, 14th 1.58 cont… 5th Feb 1.56mg, 11th Feb 1.55mg, 19th Feb 1.54mg, 26th Feb 1.53mg, 4th March 1.52mg, 11th March 1.51mg, 25th March 1.50mg, 1st April 1.49mg, 8th April 1.48mg, 15th April 1.47mg, 22nd April 1.46mg, 29th April 1.45mg
  • Diazepam 10mg ~ 22nd Oct 2018, 10th November 8mg, 14th Nov 7mg, 8th December 6mg, 30th December 5mg (Nocte), 7th March 2019 4.5mg,14th March 4mg, 5th April 3.5mg, 9th April 3mg, 18th April 2.5mg,1st May 2mg, 17th May 1.75mg, 25th May 1.6mg, 4th June 1.59mg, 5th June 1.58mg, 6th June 1.57mg, 7th June 1.56mg, 8th June 1.55mg, 22nd June 1.4mg, 4th July 1.2mg, 16th July 1mg, 30th July 0.8mg, 13th Aug 0.6mg, 28th Aug 0.4mg, 10th Sept 0.2mg, 23rd Sept Off! 
  • SR Circadin 2mg (melatonin) 25th May - 20th June 
  • Zolpidem 10mg 25th May (7 tablets)
  • Supplements: Magnesium glycinate (soluble - sip throughout the day) 

 

"Whenever you feel yourself doubting how far you can go,  just remember how far you have come.  Remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome"    Unknown 

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Just now, Kristine said:

With all due respect SE...Abilify is a atypical antipsychotic with horrible side effects. I find this an inappropriate comment. K 

Well he needs help and probably is psychotic from withdrawal, he reached our for help and didn't get any.  He came to this site 2 years ago after dropping is does from 30 to 15, somebody should have told hip to go back up in dosage instead of letting him suffer.  I am worried about his well being.  With all due respect, Kristine.

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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34 minutes ago, samanthaelizabeth said:

Why don't you try Abilify of something like that?

 

samanthaelizabeth, please DO NOT make drug suggestions to members of SA.

* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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5 minutes ago, ChessieCat said:

 

samanthaelizabeth, please DO NOT make drug suggestions to members of SA.

Sorry, just trying to help the guy.  Won't happen again.

 

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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6 hours ago, samanthaelizabeth said:

Sorry, just trying to help the guy.  Won't happen again.

 

Samanthaelizabeth thankyou for your concern I am very sick from all this I don’t want to resort to medication but I feel I need to if to survive i am now house bound bed bound and 12 months out from a c/t and clearly getting worse soon the doctors will hospitalise me and force drugs on me so I need it to be my choice you were only trying to help and I didn’t want you getting in trouble for suggesting a medication 

2001 to jan 2015 Effexor 150 mg 

jan 2015 15 mg mirtazapine 20 mg quetiapine 

feb 2015 quetiapine stopped 

feb 2015 30 mg of citalopram added 

feb 2015 mirtazapine increased to 30 mg 

july 2015 citalopram stopped 

sept 2015 200mg of pregabalin 

jan 2017 mirtazapine stopped

jan 2017 20 mg fluoxetine

march 2017 all meds stopped 

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We can't advise you what drugs to take, Terry. Not because we don't "believe in" drugs, it's because we don't know.

 

If we knew of drug treatments that would quickly set everyone aright, we would tell you about them. We discourage other members from recommending drugs because following that recommendation might hurt someone.

 

If you feel you need to consult a physician or go to the hospital, that's up to you.

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

"It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein

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42 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

We can't advise you what drugs to take, Terry. Not because we don't "believe in" drugs, it's because we don't know.

 

If we knew of drug treatments that would quickly set everyone aright, we would tell you about them. We discourage other members from recommending drugs because following that recommendation might hurt someone.

 

If you feel you need to consult a physician or go to the hospital, that's up to you.

Thankyou alto we have had this conversation before I have stuck it out for as long as I can take and I know it’s a crap shoot but I feel I need to try and get some stability with this depression then I can think about tapering slowly over a much longer period I understand why you don’t want other members recommending drugs on this forum that is why I posted to samanthaelizabethas I know she meant well and I feel as if I had got her in trouble, 

2001 to jan 2015 Effexor 150 mg 

jan 2015 15 mg mirtazapine 20 mg quetiapine 

feb 2015 quetiapine stopped 

feb 2015 30 mg of citalopram added 

feb 2015 mirtazapine increased to 30 mg 

july 2015 citalopram stopped 

sept 2015 200mg of pregabalin 

jan 2017 mirtazapine stopped

jan 2017 20 mg fluoxetine

march 2017 all meds stopped 

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11 hours ago, Terry4949 said:

Samanthaelizabeth thankyou for your concern I am very sick from all this I don’t want to resort to medication but I feel I need to if to survive i am now house bound bed bound and 12 months out from a c/t and clearly getting worse soon the doctors will hospitalise me and force drugs on me so I need it to be my choice you were only trying to help and I didn’t want you getting in trouble for suggesting a medication 

Don't worry.  I just want you to get well!  If you have to go to the hospital to stabilize than so be it.  Let us know how you are doing.  God Bless.

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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You don't have to explain to us or ask our permission, Terry. If you feel hospitalization or other medical treatment is the right path for you, please follow it.

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I have been fighting this battle for so long after years of anxiety and depression and horrible physical symptoms I was taken of all meds that was 12 months ago but I have become so much more worse , my wife of 26 years has stood by me watched me suffer sacrificed her life no holidays we don’t go out as everything revolves around my withdrawals it’s not that I don’t want to do these things it’s the fact I feel so ill all the time , she goes to work when I cant in order for us to survive she does everything but yesterday she told me she has had enough and she wants me to leave go away or she will she says that my depression and anxiety has ruined what little we have together she is tired of the years of struggling through this and the weight has dragged her down , she says she dreads walking in the door to look at my face and says she can’t remember the last time she saw me smile or want to do anything she says she sees my suffering and it makes her angry that I refuse to be helped by doctors by taking their drugs and that I don’t try to give them a chance , in the 26 years we have been married I have tried more than 20 and they havnt helped , I have been all through the protracted withdrawel with her and what has happened to me I keep most of my feelings to myself now as if I told her I wake with suicidel idealations everyday and have done for months she would go mad my wife has heard it all over and over again so many times and I understand how frustrating this must be for her but I didn’t choose this and there is nothing more that I want that is to feel better , my wife wants me back on meds she says our children have suffered I have two a daughter 21 and a son 22 she says I show no interest in them or what they do , but I am so consumed by the depression and anxiety I can’t get out of this bubble , my children are great wonderful and I am so proud of them but my wife says I am like a living zombie so she wants out this has left me heart broken it’s probaly the only thing I have left to hold onto , I don’t know how I will go on alone sometimes I think the only thing that stops me from killing myself is because I don’t want to harm them but if I loose them what’s the point I know this sounds selfish but I will have nothing , I am at a lose

 

2001 to jan 2015 Effexor 150 mg 

jan 2015 15 mg mirtazapine 20 mg quetiapine 

feb 2015 quetiapine stopped 

feb 2015 30 mg of citalopram added 

feb 2015 mirtazapine increased to 30 mg 

july 2015 citalopram stopped 

sept 2015 200mg of pregabalin 

jan 2017 mirtazapine stopped

jan 2017 20 mg fluoxetine

march 2017 all meds stopped 

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Terry I'm sorry to read about your situation.  I think it would be wise for you to find a face to face professional (non-drug) counsellor who can help you through this tough time.

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ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

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Terry, 

 

I wish I knew what to say to help you.  I'm so very sorry you are faced with this situation.  

 

Rosetta

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Terry, I urge you to find face-to-face help from a mental health counselor, clergy, a relative, or a sympathetic friend. We're only an Internet forum. Your cries for help tear at our hearts, but there's very little we can do for you online.

 

You need to take action in the real world to find help and support.

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Thankyou alto I have taken your advice on board and yesterday I had a appointment with a councillor and a phyciatrist about how my situation is and what we can do to give me support and help me through this the phyciatrist suggested a antiphycotic which I expressed I didn’t really want to take as I don’t think antiphycotics are the answer , but they are now going to work with me on a close relationship , I am sorry that you needed to warn me I didn’t mean to upset or offend anyone on this site I am just really struggling and I know you have seen so many people over the years in my position , this site has been a life line to me as I know I’m not the only one suffering and the invaluable knowledge that I can get from here is the best anywhere in which I try and relate as much as possible to my doctor in order for them to be able to help me in a appropriate way , part of the reason I did not wish to receive help from a phyciatrist is that 12 months ago I was hospitalised and was forced into having injections and they would not tell me what they had given me then when I was over medicated I was forced into 12 sessions of ect and it has petrified me ever since that if I go to them for help they will do it again that is why I have been so reluctant to go a see someone , I was in hospital for 3 months and only got out because I told them I was feeling better but I knew I was in withdrawel but there is no such thing to them in that place , please don’t ban me from this site as I do value the vast amount of knowledge greatly i will refrain from posting if it’s upsetting other members as that’s not my intention 

 

2001 to jan 2015 Effexor 150 mg 

jan 2015 15 mg mirtazapine 20 mg quetiapine 

feb 2015 quetiapine stopped 

feb 2015 30 mg of citalopram added 

feb 2015 mirtazapine increased to 30 mg 

july 2015 citalopram stopped 

sept 2015 200mg of pregabalin 

jan 2017 mirtazapine stopped

jan 2017 20 mg fluoxetine

march 2017 all meds stopped 

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14 hours ago, Terry4949 said:

I have been fighting this battle for so long after years of anxiety and depression and horrible physical symptoms I was taken of all meds that was 12 months ago but I have become so much more worse , my wife of 26 years has stood by me watched me suffer sacrificed her life no holidays we don’t go out as everything revolves around my withdrawals it’s not that I don’t want to do these things it’s the fact I feel so ill all the time , she goes to work when I cant in order for us to survive she does everything but yesterday she told me she has had enough and she wants me to leave go away or she will she says that my depression and anxiety has ruined what little we have together she is tired of the years of struggling through this and the weight has dragged her down , she says she dreads walking in the door to look at my face and says she can’t remember the last time she saw me smile or want to do anything she says she sees my suffering and it makes her angry that I refuse to be helped by doctors by taking their drugs and that I don’t try to give them a chance , in the 26 years we have been married I have tried more than 20 and they havnt helped , I have been all through the protracted withdrawel with her and what has happened to me I keep most of my feelings to myself now as if I told her I wake with suicidel idealations everyday and have done for months she would go mad my wife has heard it all over and over again so many times and I understand how frustrating this must be for her but I didn’t choose this and there is nothing more that I want that is to feel better , my wife wants me back on meds she says our children have suffered I have two a daughter 21 and a son 22 she says I show no interest in them or what they do , but I am so consumed by the depression and anxiety I can’t get out of this bubble , my children are great wonderful and I am so proud of them but my wife says I am like a living zombie so she wants out this has left me heart broken it’s probaly the only thing I have left to hold onto , I don’t know how I will go on alone sometimes I think the only thing that stops me from killing myself is because I don’t want to harm them but if I loose them what’s the point I know this sounds selfish but I will have nothing , I am at a lose

 

/terrymU;n si sorry, 

 

36 minutes ago, Longestroadhome said:

Terry I am so saddened to read your story. Have you seen this thread 

 

I have found Jame’s thread to be well written and very helpful. His own experience mirrors yours in many ways and you may find it helpful to read. 

 

I pray that that you find help in some way 🙏

 

 

On 2/21/2018 at 4:50 PM, waves12 said:

Hi Terry

 

I am sorry you are suffering so badly for so long, I hear you about the depression, I have had it severely too but it is subsiding now.  I did not know what to do with myself for so long it was frightening.

 

I do subscribe to Baylissa's website, Bloom in Wellness and she has lots of help on there and does live webiners, there is a fee each month and I have found it very very helpful to watch the recorded videos and you can partake in the webiners live if you wish by asking lots of questions, you don't see each other you just see Baylissa and you get to see others questions and she answers them, as I mentioned you can watch them later too.  Baylissa  says much the same as the mods here that it really is time and patience..

 

It may be worth a look, some of her website is free but the webiners are very good.

 

I hope you can get some peace very soon.

 

Waves

 

Terry , I’m sorry you are going through this.  I hope you find help. It’s really tough. 

 

2001 Remeron , Celexa, prozac a week on lithium. 

2014 went off effexor and trazadone in 3 weeks. 

2014 zoloft (hyper reaction) put on effexor 75 mg. Was stable until 2017 

2017  Trazadone 50 mg (June) Effexor to 113 mg (2 weeks) Effexor 150 mg for a month . Took 75 mg until November. . Lithium 10 days, Lamactil 10 day  aug-nov15 ativan

October : Prozac bridge to get off 75 mg of effexor Used 10 mg of prozac. Stopped prozac 3 wk 

Dec 6, 7 Upped trazadone from 50 to 100 mg Did it for 3 days Stopped it

Dec 7 , Dec 8 Took prozac again 0.1 , 0.1, 0.6 stopped it

Dec 11 and Dec 12 upped it to 100 again

Dec 15 , 16,17 went back to 50 mg of trazadone

December 18 Began 3 beads of effexor  Dec 25 began 5 beads of effexor take 10 mg of omneprazole daily

 

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Thankyou alto I have taken your advice on board and yesterday I had a appointment with a councillor and a phyciatrist about how my situation is and what we can do to give me support and help me through this the phyciatrist suggested a antiphycotic which I expressed I didn’t really want to take as I don’t think antiphycotics are the answer , but they are now going to work with me on a close relationship , I am sorry that you needed to warn me I didn’t mean to upset or offend anyone on this site I am just really struggling and I know you have seen so many people over the years in my position , this site has been a life line to me as I know I’m not the only one suffering and the invaluable knowledge that I can get from here is the best anywhere in which I try and relate as much as possible to my doctor in order for them to be able to help me in a appropriate way , part of the reason I did not wish to receive help from a phyciatrist is that 12 months ago I was hospitalised and was forced into having injections and they would not tell me what they had given me then when I was over medicated I was forced into 12 sessions of ect and it has petrified me ever since that if I go to them for help they will do it again that is why I have been so reluctant to go a see someone , I was in hospital for 3 months and only got out because I told them I was feeling better but I knew I was in withdrawel but there is no such thing to them in that place , please don’t ban me from this site as I do value the vast amount of knowledge greatly i will refrain from posting if it’s upsetting other members as that’s not my intention 

 

It’s good you’re getting help. I know that takes a lot of courage. 

 

2001 Remeron , Celexa, prozac a week on lithium. 

2014 went off effexor and trazadone in 3 weeks. 

2014 zoloft (hyper reaction) put on effexor 75 mg. Was stable until 2017 

2017  Trazadone 50 mg (June) Effexor to 113 mg (2 weeks) Effexor 150 mg for a month . Took 75 mg until November. . Lithium 10 days, Lamactil 10 day  aug-nov15 ativan

October : Prozac bridge to get off 75 mg of effexor Used 10 mg of prozac. Stopped prozac 3 wk 

Dec 6, 7 Upped trazadone from 50 to 100 mg Did it for 3 days Stopped it

Dec 7 , Dec 8 Took prozac again 0.1 , 0.1, 0.6 stopped it

Dec 11 and Dec 12 upped it to 100 again

Dec 15 , 16,17 went back to 50 mg of trazadone

December 18 Began 3 beads of effexor  Dec 25 began 5 beads of effexor take 10 mg of omneprazole daily

 

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Terry,

 

I'm thinking about you.  I read through your thread.  You have been medication free only 12 months.  That wasn't what I expected, but it makes sense now that I've read through.  (So have I (been medication free 12 months.))

 

These milestones are really difficult.  It seems that a year is long enough for many things, but with this "syndrome" or whatever we might call it "12 months off" is a trying time.  You wrote on my thread that your moods are changing rapidly like mine are right now.  It is frightening.  

 

I understand what you are feeling.  I think we may be used to feeling bad in one way and when there is a change its scary.  We can't "see" this as possibly being a good change.  It doesn't feel good the way healing from other injuries feels "good." We can only listen to the people who have been watching people suffer WD for the last 5-10 years and hope they are right.  They think I'm experiencing healing, and if that's so then I think you are, too.  People are writing on my thread that they believe these rapid changes are a good sign.  They could be a good sign for you.  They aren't writing that on your thread because they see that you are suffering terribly, and it might seem insensitive.  However, I see a parallel with us, and I want to point that out.  I'm scared, and if I didn't have people telling me that this is a positive change I might panic.

 

Your wife is feeling the effect of the milestone, too, I see.   It's really a shame that she is reacting this way, but it's understandable.  I wish I had the ability to reach out and let her see this from my perspective.  All I can do is try to say something to support you.  

 

You must not let your wife's panic affect you too much, Terry.  Why?  Because you will never lose your children.  They are grown.  They have known you before the meds hurt your brain.  They love you.  Nothing your wife can do will take them away from you.  They aren't children who can be influenced by her actions or separated from you while they are forming their vision of you.  When you are well and they look back on this time they will know you were doing the best you could.  All this information about ADs and psychiatry is going to come out someday and everyone is going to say, "Oh, if only we had known."  Please make that a day when your kids can say, "I'm glad you held on, Dad."  

 

Let me say that you and I have different challenges because the cultural expectations are different.  I'm a woman, and you are a man.  My husband is waiting for me to get better.  Your wife is discouraged.  I'm not saying she's "wrong," but that she is "allowed" to be discouraged.  My husband isn't "allowed;" he is expected to stay by me in our culture.  Do not let cultural expectations ruin your life, Terry.  Tell "cultural expectations" to go to Hell.  If your wife leaves you, it is her mistake, and it's not about her anymore.  It's about you and about the father of your kids.  In just 6 months all this WD might 95% better for you.  I wish your wife could see that the way my husband can.  Don't let a mistake on your wife's part take away your hope.  I'm not saying I wouldn't feel the same despair that she does, but from the outside I see the possibility that you will be a lot better by July.  Stay where you are, and see if she stays.  Words are cheap.  She may not follow through, and you will have another 6 months of healing especially if you see the counselor to help you through.  She could change her mind.  I really wish I could let her see what's inside my mind, and make her understand how hard I am trying to get well.  I have intense anxiety, but WD has caused intense depression for you.  It's the same thing; it's WD, but it's manifesting itself differently.  I can't work either, but I will be able to someday.

 

I don't know anything about inositol.  It's a supplement I think.  I read that it is thought to affect mental state at high doses and that high doses cause upset stomach.  Maybe at a tiny dose it won't do that, but I'm not suggesting you use it.  I'm responding to what you wrote on my thread about it.  I can't say whether it's a good idea or not, but I do think having the support of a counselor is very important. 

 

Hang on, Terry.  You can and you must.  Stay right there in your own house.  Twenty two years is a lot of contribution and this is just a bad illness that no one can see.  The doctors know perfectly well that it exists, but they don't know how to treat it.  So, they deny it exists.  They did the same thing with Gulf War Syndrome, but it is real and they make it worse with drugs.  I takes me really mad that they tell our families that our illness doesn't exist!

 

--Rosetta

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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You are compassionate Rosetta. 

 

2001 Remeron , Celexa, prozac a week on lithium. 

2014 went off effexor and trazadone in 3 weeks. 

2014 zoloft (hyper reaction) put on effexor 75 mg. Was stable until 2017 

2017  Trazadone 50 mg (June) Effexor to 113 mg (2 weeks) Effexor 150 mg for a month . Took 75 mg until November. . Lithium 10 days, Lamactil 10 day  aug-nov15 ativan

October : Prozac bridge to get off 75 mg of effexor Used 10 mg of prozac. Stopped prozac 3 wk 

Dec 6, 7 Upped trazadone from 50 to 100 mg Did it for 3 days Stopped it

Dec 7 , Dec 8 Took prozac again 0.1 , 0.1, 0.6 stopped it

Dec 11 and Dec 12 upped it to 100 again

Dec 15 , 16,17 went back to 50 mg of trazadone

December 18 Began 3 beads of effexor  Dec 25 began 5 beads of effexor take 10 mg of omneprazole daily

 

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This was so beautifully written. I know writing something beautiful was not your intention, your intention is to support Terry. But your heartfelt words for Terry  have helped me tonight as I struggle with my own wd pain. 

 

Terry, I am wishing the best as you work with a counselor to lean on. 

 

 

 

9/2013-4/2014:  After moms death, was prescribed a series of meds for short periods of time that didn't work. Zoloft, Lexapro,  Nortriptyline, Liquid Prozac, Cymbalta. 

1/2014-9/2014. Clonzapam: Given Lamictal, stopped Clonzapam at .125mgs  

1/2015-4 2017 Remeron: 41.25 -0.025mgs

7/2015-11/2018 Lamictal: 200mgs-0.05 mgs Had paradoxical reaction to Lamictal wd, broke my heart to take a benzo but wasn't sleeping. 

3/28/2019 -2/5/ 2021  Clonazapam: 0.625mgs-.00115 Med Free 

July 27th, 2022**Severe Setback due to surgery/ anesthesia. 

9/7/22-10/4/22 Trazadone 50-100mgs for sleep, 10/13/22-11/13/22 Trazadone 1 mg to stabilize

10/4/22-11/20/22 Remeron 7.5mgs (for sleep doesn't work) 11/20/22 7.3 - 12/31/22 6.3 

2023: 1/18/23 6.1 - 6/6/23 3.6  6/16 3.4  6/28 3.0 7/12 2.7  7/28 2.5 8/11 2.2 8/23 2.0  9/5 1.8  9/16 1.6  9/30 1.4  10/13 1.2  10/26 1.0  11/9 0.8  11/22 0.6  12/6 0.4  12/23 0.2.

2024 1/4/24  Remeron/Mirtazapine free 

Additional Support:  Armour Thyroid 75mgs, Magnesium Glycinate 300-500mgs,  L-theanine 

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I have been reading a article by dr Fava on people who have been taking antidepressants for a long period of time and become depressed after withdrawel due to the fact that the down regulation of receptors struggle to up regulate which causes depression even for those that were placed on the drugs who never had depression prior to the drug he calls it tardive dysphoria and says many people will struggle with this depression indefinitely and that reinstating any medication will not have any effect and it can be permanent , is this what we all go through with antidepressant withdrawel especially those of us that have been on long term meds I have been on for 27 years so if my brain has been finally worn down as in all receptors because of the various amount of drugs I have been on is this the reason that myself and others struggle with severe depression after other symptoms have disappeared and do you think this is permanent, I maybe reading what he said wrong but if it’s true that recovery from tardive dysphoria cannot happen at least I know what I am possible dealing with , has anyone read his article. or do we know if anyone has ever recovered

2001 to jan 2015 Effexor 150 mg 

jan 2015 15 mg mirtazapine 20 mg quetiapine 

feb 2015 quetiapine stopped 

feb 2015 30 mg of citalopram added 

feb 2015 mirtazapine increased to 30 mg 

july 2015 citalopram stopped 

sept 2015 200mg of pregabalin 

jan 2017 mirtazapine stopped

jan 2017 20 mg fluoxetine

march 2017 all meds stopped 

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How have you been Terry? Any symptoms eased up for you?

Aug-Dec 2015 Prozac 20mg / Dec 2015-Feb 2016 Prozac 15mg / Feb 2016-May2016 Prozac 20mg

May 2016-June 2016 15mg

June 2016-August 2016 10mg

October 2016-January 2017 15mg, alternating agitation/akathisia sets in --> cold turkey

January 2017 Clonazepam .5mg 

February 2017 Clonazepam 1mg (for a week) then .5mg morning and .25mg evening for about a month. Came down to .25mg morning and evening. 

May 1, 2017 Clonazepam .25mg morning and .125mg evening. // May 20, 2017 Clonazepam .25mg morning and .0625 evening (.3125 total).

early June .28125 // early mid june .25mg // mid june .21875 // late june .1875 // early july .15625 // early mid july .125 

mid july .09375mg // late july .0625 //early August 2017 down to .03125mg once a day, hopped off in mid August

reinstated at .0625mg late August // Oct 16 - updose to .07mg and switch to oral Rosemont solution

Nov 17 2017 reinstate Prozac .5mg // Nov 21 2017 prozac 1.6mg // Dec 18 2017  3mg prozac / fast taper off the reinstatement -- probably completely off early Oct 2018

June 2019 begin tapering off .07mg Clonazepam, Finish taper December 2019

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How are you doing now Terry? You have kind of gone dark. Any improvements?

2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016.
January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro.
March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off.
June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs
August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs
October 1st  - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs
November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs 

September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs

September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018)

November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs

February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs

April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs

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