Moderator brassmonkey Posted August 2, 2018 Moderator Share Posted August 2, 2018 Hi Sky-- sorry to hear that you got slammed after having such a nice window. Your'e in a great place though and other windows will keep opening wider and wider. ((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))) Brass 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted August 2, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 2, 2018 Notwithstanding this wave, you are doing great with your taper. Going so slowly will pay off. We are all behind you. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Rosetta Posted August 3, 2018 Share Posted August 3, 2018 Amen!! Frustration is an understatement. I'm rooting for you! -Rosetta https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted August 3, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 3, 2018 20 hours ago, SkyBlue said: I know it will get better. In the midst of all of that, though, I do just want to tantrum/shout that this it is beyond frustrating to fall out of my lifeboat again. Can I get an "amen" from the crowd????? .......and another huge AMEN from the crowd. I have not fallen out of MY proverbial lifeboat, yet getting thrashed about once again is no picnic. I much prefer the calm walk on the beach in the sunshine. It is what it is..... says I. Can't have one without the other from time to time. Celebrating your 0.3 mg Paxil dose as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yep, rooting for you We're all in this together. ❤️ Love, peace, healing, and growth, mmt Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted August 4, 2018 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 4, 2018 On 8/2/2018 at 2:29 PM, brassmonkey said: Hi Sky-- sorry to hear that you got slammed after having such a nice window. Your'e in a great place though and other windows will keep opening wider and wider. ((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))) Thanks so much, Brass! I definitely am in a good place. ((((HUGS)))) right back! On 8/2/2018 at 2:43 PM, Gridley said: Notwithstanding this wave, you are doing great with your taper. Going so slowly will pay off. We are all behind you. Thanks, Gridley! I really appreciate it. Going slowly has most definitely paid off!! On 8/2/2018 at 7:31 PM, Rosetta said: Amen!! I'm rooting for you! -Rosetta I love it! ! ! Thanks so much. 12 hours ago, manymoretodays said: .......and another huge AMEN from the crowd. I have not fallen out of MY proverbial lifeboat, yet getting thrashed about once again is no picnic. I much prefer the calm walk on the beach in the sunshine. It is what it is..... says I. Can't have one without the other from time to time. Celebrating your 0.3 mg Paxil dose as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yep, rooting for you We're all in this together. ❤️ Amen! Thanks, mmt, for the support and for celebrating with me! You guys are the best. 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted August 11, 2018 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 11, 2018 Hi everyone, I had some akathisia this week. It's so hard to explain. From the https://rxisk.org site, the akathisia symptoms I experience are: ▪ anxiety or agitation ▪ a feeling of wanting to jump out of your skin ▪ dark and unpleasant thoughts "Akathisia can feel very strange and unpleasant. Sufferers often find it very difficult to explain exactly what is wrong, even though they may be in unbearable distress." That really rings true for me. It was rage, but like a Jekyl and Hyde situation, not even cognitive, but a horrible bodily sensation combined with acute suicidality. I wouldn't wish it on any human being ever. Looking at my notes, though, it's been a while (3+weeks) since the akathisia has happened. That's progress. I'll take it! I look forward to being free from that symptom! I also had some moments of clarity this week! Overall a positive trend. Going to hold at 0.3mg for a while. Hugs and solidarity to everyone. ❤️ 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Rosetta Posted August 11, 2018 Share Posted August 11, 2018 Thinking of you. Akathisia is the most horrible sensation. It is indescribable at least to those who have never had it. There's a physical component and a mental component. Both are horrid. I saw someone describe it as on par with the feeling a person in a burning building feels before she jumps out the window. I've never been in that position, but it certainly comes closer to an explanation that allows a person who isn't a sufferer to imagine the choice a person with Akathisia feels she must have. Of course, the choice to just live through it is there, but the mind seems to feel that choice does not exist. It's absolutely the most dangerous mental state I have ever experienced. When I see a person say she doesn't want to die, but is afraid she will commit suicide I think "Akathisia!!!" It sounds absurd to be afraid one will kill one's self, doesn't it? And yet that's what I felt when it was very intense. The mind is overwhelmed by the brain disorder to the point that continuing on through the condition appears to be out of the question. If only someone would find out what exactly the body or brain is doing during Akathisia! There must be a way to help people survive it instead of giving them drugs that make it worse! Hang in there, SkyBlue!! It will be gone someday and never come back! https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Rabe Posted August 11, 2018 Share Posted August 11, 2018 Oh thinking of you SkyBlue! I was wondering what akathisia was....I think because, just as you said, I wouldn't even know how to describe all the sensations except that they are a horrible wave of their own and seem to come from all directions. I IS awful...I am so sad you are dealing with that, but grateful to hear that you feel it has improved! Bless you for caring for others in the midst of your own trials! Take care!!💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
direstraits Posted August 11, 2018 Share Posted August 11, 2018 19 hours ago, SkyBlue said: ▪ anxiety or agitation ▪ a feeling of wanting to jump out of your skin ▪ dark and unpleasant thoughts I've experienced this many times...it's horrible. wouldn't wish it on anyone. hope you're doing ok today. xx went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.started 10 mgs. Fluoxetine May 25 2021 .Stopped fluoxetine May 2022 at 5 mgs. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted November 29, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 29, 2018 Hi SkyBlue, How are you doing? I see you had bad akathisia in August. You described what it’s like really well, but that doesn’t even really describe it, does it? It’s something that is sooo hard to put into words. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced anything worse in my entire life! I’m really sorry that you get it too, my heart goes out to you. Sending hugs🤗💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
bhasski Posted November 29, 2018 Share Posted November 29, 2018 Hi @SkyBlue, How are you ? Hope you are feeling better. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted November 30, 2018 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 30, 2018 On 11/29/2018 at 6:51 AM, Carmie said: I see you had bad akathisia in August. You described what it’s like really well, but that doesn’t even really describe it, does it? It’s something that is sooo hard to put into words. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced anything worse in my entire life! I’m really sorry that you get it too, my heart goes out to you. Sending hugs🤗💚 Hi Carmie, Thank you for your kind words. Yes, the akathisia is impossible to describe. I've never experienced something so awful either, before withdrawal. It's physical rage combined with feeling like I'm in a horrible place where I can't feel God and God can't hear me. It's still happening very regularly. It's hard to believe that it will disappear one day, but I try to remain hopeful, even if I need to fake it for a while. Hugs right back. On 11/29/2018 at 12:39 PM, bhasski said: How are you ? Hope you are feeling better. Thanks so much for asking. Windows and waves!! Hope you are doing okay. 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted November 30, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 30, 2018 So sorry you're feeling bad. It will disappear one day, hard to believe though that may be. One of the hardest things for me is not feeling God but that has improved, so it does come back. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted December 2, 2018 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 2, 2018 On 11/30/2018 at 4:56 PM, Gridley said: So sorry you're feeling bad. It will disappear one day, hard to believe though that may be. One of the hardest things for me is not feeling God but that has improved, so it does come back. Hi Gridley, thanks so much for your kind words. I do trust that. (Most days at least!) Thanks for stopping by. ❤️ 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted December 5, 2018 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 5, 2018 Hi friends, Wanted to share that despite having a cold, coughing, fever, etc., I am doing great today because I am having at least a partial window! Just enjoying it for what it is (and so funny that after being in WD, feeling sick, etc. is nothing!), and wanted to share, because you wonderful people are always there for me when I'm *not* doing so well. ❤️ 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted December 5, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 5, 2018 Very happy to hear this, SkyBlue! Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted December 6, 2018 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 6, 2018 On 12/5/2018 at 1:17 PM, Gridley said: Very happy to hear this, SkyBlue! Thank you, Gridley! 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
direstraits Posted December 6, 2018 Share Posted December 6, 2018 On 12/5/2018 at 2:09 PM, SkyBlue said: Hi friends, Wanted to share that despite having a cold, coughing, fever, etc., I am doing great today because I am having at least a partial window! Just enjoying it for what it is (and so funny that after being in WD, feeling sick, etc. is nothing!), and wanted to share, because you wonderful people are always there for me when I'm *not* doing so well. ❤️ so happy for you,SkyBlue...hope you get many more windows! Love from ds.💙 went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.started 10 mgs. Fluoxetine May 25 2021 .Stopped fluoxetine May 2022 at 5 mgs. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted December 6, 2018 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 6, 2018 26 minutes ago, direstraits said: so happy for you,SkyBlue...hope you get many more windows! Love from ds.💙 So kind of you, ds. ❤️ It's over now, but I'm glad it was here and will definitely hope for more in the future. 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted December 7, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 7, 2018 H On 12/1/2018 at 8:19 AM, SkyBlue said: Hi Carmie, Thank you for your kind words. Yes, the akathisia is impossible to describe. I've never experienced something so awful either, before withdrawal. It's physical rage combined with feeling like I'm in a horrible place where I can't feel God and God can't hear me. It's still happening very regularly. It's hard to believe that it will disappear one day, but I try to remain hopeful, even if I need to fake it for a while. Hugs right back. Thanks so much for asking. Windows and waves!! Hope you are doing okay. Hi Skyblue, How are you faring? I see that you’re in quite a windows n waves pattern at the moment. It’s amazing when those windows poke through, isn’t it? I hope you have some good distractions while going through waves. I’m sorry to hear about how you’re struggling. Yes, our feelings can certainly become numb, and it’s sometimes hard to feel the things around us. I’m fortunate that I haven’t lost faith in God, it’s one of the main things that keeps me going. I hope that you are able to make some happy memories when you get those windows. I always find making happy memories in windows keeps me focused on something positive when I’m in waves. I seem to be stabilising slowly this week. About time!😃 I went to a concert on Sunday that was fabulous n I stayed at a friend’s place overnight. Besides that n spending time with friends Wednesday night, I haven’t been able to get out much because of my illness, but I’m hoping if I have the strength I might be able to get out in nature today. Do you have any favourite nature spots where you live? I think being in nature is so important when going through withdrawals. Speaking of nature, some of the birds we feed on the balcony are starting to fly into the loungeroom, so cute! We had a kookaburra fly in today. Time to slide the flyscreen across.😃 I hope you’re able to spend some time with animals too, if you don’t have any, borrow the neighbour’s dog.🤣 Sending sunshine your way☀️☀️☀️ Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted December 9, 2018 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 9, 2018 (edited) On 12/6/2018 at 6:04 PM, Carmie said: Do you have any favourite nature spots where you live? I think being in nature is so important when going through withdrawals. Speaking of nature, some of the birds we feed on the balcony are starting to fly into the loungeroom, so cute! We had a kookaburra fly in today. Time to slide the flyscreen across.😃 I hope you’re able to spend some time with animals too, if you don’t have any, borrow the neighbour’s dog.🤣 Sending sunshine your way☀️ Hi Carmie, Thanks for your kind post. I should clarify: it's only during severe akathisia that my faith is truly (most acutely) challenged. I'm glad you were able to see some friends, and hope you were able to get out in nature. Awwww, kookaburra! I only know them from the song. Kookaburra lives in the old gum tree... I do love being out in nature also. I make a point for it whenever I can. : ) Thanks for the sunshine. Very short days in the northern part of the northern hemisphere, and I could use it! Thanks again, and do take care. : ) Edited December 9, 2018 by SkyBlue kookaburra 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Rosetta Posted December 9, 2018 Share Posted December 9, 2018 Hi Sky, I'm so glad you had a window. --Rosetta https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted January 11, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 11, 2019 Hi Skyblue, Just popping in to see how you’re doing. 🤗💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Rabe Posted January 12, 2019 Share Posted January 12, 2019 On 11/30/2018 at 4:19 PM, SkyBlue said: Yes, the akathisia is impossible to describe. I've never experienced something so awful either, before withdrawal. It's physical rage combined with feeling like I'm in a horrible place where I can't feel God and God can't hear me. Hi Sky...the last 13 words are the hardest part for me...I used to see and hear God often and everywhere...now I do not and it feels very empty and lonely. It has been a huge part of my life and brought me much joy. I didnt know what the akathisia was until I came here..would be nice if having a word for it made it better to understand wouldn't it? It is an awful thing..but makes one REAlly grateful when it goes away!! Wanted you to know I am thinking about you and so happy to know that things are better. And YES...more sun would be FABulous wouldnt it?? The cold can be good for the anxiety...sometimes...but the lack of sunshine is hard to take after a bit! Take care SB!💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted January 13, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 13, 2019 On 1/11/2019 at 5:32 PM, Carmie said: Hi Skyblue, Just popping in to see how you’re doing. 🤗💚 Hi Carmie, Thanks so much for thinking of me. I am doing okay, thanks--windows and waves. A lot of dp/dr going on, so I am taking that as a sign of healing. Hope you are doing okay! ❤️ @Rabe, thanks for stopping by. Yes, the akathisia and withdrawal in general is something we will definitely heal from. God is still there, and we will be healed and be able to "feel" our faith more and more. ❤️ 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Rabe Posted January 13, 2019 Share Posted January 13, 2019 49 minutes ago, SkyBlue said: thanks for stopping by. Yes, the akathisia and withdrawal in general is something we will definitely heal from. God is still there, and we will be healed and be able to "feel" our faith more and more. That was beautiful...thank you!!!💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted January 15, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 15, 2019 Hi Skyblue, Glad to hear you’re not doing too badly. Yes, windows and waves certainly seems to be the order of the day around here, sending hugs🤗 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted January 21, 2019 Moderator Share Posted January 21, 2019 Hi SkyBlue: I'm on 0.3mg of Lexapro. So, you are a little ahead of me in your Paxil tapering. I have been on an AD for over 20 years. I couldn’t have made it through this without this wonderful site and Apace41. He took me under his wing and never left my side. I think I’m going to go down to 0.1mg (Chessiecat suggested that) to be safe. I was just wondering when you planned to “jump off” the Paxil? I noticed you said you were still on Zoloft also. Are you going to start tapering that immediately after the Paxil? The reason I ask is I’m on 3mg of Xanax. I think I’m going to wait a month and then turn to Shep for help with my Xanax. She is very good at the Benzo’s and I trust her immensely. I hope you do really well, and wish you the best of luck! We are going to make it!😊We are almost there! Take care, Frogie xx PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted January 21, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 21, 2019 55 minutes ago, Frogie said: I was just wondering when you planned to “jump off” the Paxil I hope you do really well, and wish you the best of luck! Hi Frogie and thanks for asking about me. No "stepping by" point in the works yet. I'm so far down on dosage that it could likely be any time now. I'll post more as I feel ready. Yes, I will taper it the Zoloft eventually, but I'm really not worried about or prioritizing tapering Zoloft anytime soon. After having been poisoned by Paxil for my entire adult life, I'm going to give my poor body a rest from tapering, etc. The taper will be soooo slow that wisely undertaken! I agree with your enthusiasm about the people here who have helped us so much. Thanks for the well wishes, Frogie, and same to you. ❤️ 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted January 21, 2019 Administrator Share Posted January 21, 2019 Wow, SkyBlue, that will be a banner day, when you're off Paxil! This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted January 21, 2019 Moderator Share Posted January 21, 2019 Listen to your body, at some point it will say it's time to jump. Best of luck when it happens. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted January 21, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 21, 2019 Congratulations on being so close. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted January 22, 2019 Moderator Share Posted January 22, 2019 1 hour ago, SkyBlue said: Hi Frogie and thanks for asking about me. No "stepping by" point in the works yet. I'm so far down on dosage that it could likely be any time now. I'll post more as I feel ready. Yes, I will taper it the Zoloft eventually, but I'm really not worried about or prioritizing tapering Zoloft anytime soon. After having been poisoned by Paxil for my entire adult life, I'm going to give my poor body a rest from tapering, etc. The taper will be soooo slow that wisely undertaken! I agree with your enthusiasm about the people here who have helped us so much. Thanks for the well wishes, Frogie, and same to you. ❤️ Thanks for answering my questions. I really appreciate it. I had a rough time with my Lexapro taper in the beginning, but I’m lucky to have this site and Apace41. Please let me know as you get closer, if you wouldn’t mind. I’d love to know how you are doing. I have been poisoned by some sort of AD since 1996, so I completely understand. Thank you for the well wishes also❤️ I really appreciate it. Take care, Frogie xx PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted January 23, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 23, 2019 On 1/21/2019 at 6:05 PM, Frogie said: Please let me know as you get closer, if you wouldn’t mind. I’d love to know how you are doing. I will definitely post here, so you will get all the latest updates! Thanks again for your interest. : ) 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted January 23, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 23, 2019 On 1/21/2019 at 5:02 PM, Altostrata said: Wow, SkyBlue, that will be a banner day, when you're off Paxil! Yes! ! ! !! I wholeheartedly agree! ! ! On 1/21/2019 at 5:06 PM, brassmonkey said: Listen to your body, at some point it will say it's time to jump. Best of luck when it happens. Thanks, Brass! That's wise advice. My body is saying it's definitely not long now. Will post updates for sure! On 1/21/2019 at 5:13 PM, Gridley said: Congratulations on being so close. Thanks very much, Gridley! 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Rabe Posted January 23, 2019 Share Posted January 23, 2019 What a huge gift in the New Year! SO SO happy for you! And amazed you have made the journey...hope!!💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
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