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This is how antidepressants have turned my entire life upside down in the small space of 8 months

 

I fell pregnant with my daughter who is now 15 mnths old.  I immediately became depressed showing nearly all signs of depression and was advised by my doctor to go on antidepressants whilst pregnant or I could end up with postnatal depression. I refused as I didn't want any harm to come to my unborn child from any side affects.  So I muddled on, then surely enough after a traumatic unplanned caesarean I could not bond with my daughter and was really struggling to just to do the simplest tasks, plus many other symptoms of postnatal depression. 8 months after the birth of my daughter I knew I just couldn't go any further I needed medication.  I hated the stigma attached but just couldn't do it any other way. I was put on 50mg sertraline and I felt the effects immediately and thought this was the best thing ever! Woohoo!

 

A few weeks later I was sat in my kitchen and remember having vivid suicidal thoughts about hanging myself, I was not of low mood at all but none the less these thoughts were there I remember having a kind of itching sensation around my neck and the only way I thought I could get rid of the itching was to get the rope put it around my neck and hang myself.  HOLY ****! I totally realised what I was thinking and panicked I telephoned my partner and explained what had happened and  that I totally understand now how someone could commit suicide, it felt like it was my calling. So, my partner and I did some research on antidepressants  which confirmed our suspicions, so I decided to taper off the Sertraline, which I did over a month or so, just lowering the dose slightly each week.

 

Soon after depression hit again. It wasn't all the time but when it hit I was out for a couple of days, bed ridden and just wanted no contact with anyone.  I was looking after the kids and my partner  worked full time, so as you can imagine this really messed with our lives.  My partner was constantly taking time off work, it just wasn't good.  I sought help from a hypnotherapist/behavioural therapist rather than go back to the doc because I knew he’d just hand me another prescription and I thought I’d rather be depressed than have suicidal thoughts. Doing this worked in the short term, but I just couldn't kick the depression.  So losing all hope and seeing no alternative I went back to the doc and back on the pills.  30mg Paroxetine again and as with the previous medication it worked  immediately! Woohoo! Then 2 months down the line I started to feel really weird, foggy in the head, terrible concentration, totally unable to problem solve, multitask or even remember the simplest things.  So I went to the doc and explained that I think I am having side effects from the medication and I need some help as I feel like my brain is starting to shut down.  He disagreed with me saying it didn't sound like a side effect, upped my dose and sent me to counselling.

 

Two weeks after the dosage was upped the suicidal thoughts crept in and I just decided to end my life that night by taking an overdose of the remaining Paroxetine tablets.   I was then hospitalised in a psychiatric ward where the psychiatrist diagnosed me with Bipolar type 2 and agreed that considering my pervious history that the doc should not have upped my meds and they were a direct cause of the suicidal thoughts and attempted suicide.  So thanks to the well informed Doc’s prescribing this stuff willy nilly, I could have killed myself twice!

 

Anyway, I stayed in hospital whilst they immediately took me off the Paroxetine and put me on mirtazapine 30mg and Seroquel 50mg. low and behold a few weeks later I am having Bipolar symptoms off the chart.  My husband even disputes the Bipolar diagnosis because he says I have shown no previous signs of bi polar UNTIL I was put on the Seroquel and Mirtazipine.

 

In all seriousness my brain is seriously messed up, I absolutely have no idea who I am anymore, I am doing this and conducting myself weirdly in situations that just wouldn’t normally go down.   Sorry to be graphic but I just want  sex all the time. I constantly feel high, but agitated if I cant do what I want.  I feel like I cant stop, The relationship with my small children, I feel is horrible.  Pervious to this I was an excellent mum, loving caring, patient.  Now I have no patience and rarely want to be around them because I don’t feel a bond and I hate to say it but their voices are like a drilling in my brain.  I am just no good for them right now.  I hate myself for it, hate who I have become and want me back.  I have had no low moods yet, like hopelessness  or whatnot, just  serious agitation and all the negatives that come with that.   I said to my partner I feel like a squashball in a squash court being smacked about the place at high speed with little to no control over where I go and what I do, there’s an errie driving force called Mirtazipine and I want it gone.

Saw a psychiatrist a couple of weeks ago who said get of the Seroquel  it is really bad stuff.  If im not having problems sleeping, which I’m not then ditch it, so I did that immediately with only gastro side effects I think.  I cannot remember what normal me feels like any more, I may be having side effects or it could be the quick withdrawal from Paroxatine, who knows.

 

 So again off I trot to the doc ( I get a good doc this time Very thorough) and she agrees the medication is making my bipolar 2 worse and we have now made a plan to come off it altogether.  Although the original depression may come back L - full circle with no accomplishment only shear devastation.

Sertaline 50mg tapered off over a month. Peroxatine 40mg taken off immediately by hospital Seroquel 50mg stopped immediately Mirtazipina 30mg started tapering as advised by the doctor half for 3 days then stop.  Advice from this site said taper at 10% so currently taking 27mg for a few weeks

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Welcome, Wanting.

 

It sounds like you tend to have a known adverse reaction to SSRIs: Suicidality.

 

It is possible, when you went off sertraline too fast, you got withdrawal syndrome rather than "relapse"; taking Paxil later relieved this, then you got an adverse effect again to the SSRI.

 

While many doctors will misdiagnose an adverse reaction to an SSRI as some kind of "bipolar" condition, it is not. Your system simply does not get along with serotonergics.

 

It is possible that the abrupt discontinuation of paroxetine in the hospital revived withdrawal syndrome; irritability and apathy can be part of this. Plus, you are now having adverse reactions to mirtazipine and Seroquel.

 

Mirtazipine can be sexually stimulating. We have several people here who have experienced this (in the Introductions forum, use search for "mirtazipine" or "Remeron").

 

Seroquel can make you feel dopey and disoriented.

 

What time of day do you take your drugs? Please put ALL the drugs you take in the Drug Interactions Checker http://www.drugs.com/drug_interactions.html and copy and paste the results in this topic.
 

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

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Hello Wantingmeback,

 

That's some journey you've been on there - I'm really sorry to hear how badly it was all handled by your doctor.  I think you'll find a lot of support here, as well as information for tapering safely. 

 

You did well to taper in what you probably thought was a relatively slow way - and compared to what a doctor might advise, it was.  We recommend tapering by no more than 10% of your current dose each month.  This helps to reduce withdrawal symptoms, and allows your brain to adjust as you go.  So the depression you felt after tapering Sertraline originally would have been w/d symptoms caused by the too-fast taper. 

 

From there, things start to get cumulative.  Your CNS was then trying to cope with that, as well as being put on Paroxetine, then having that dose increased (god, what a negligent doctor!)  Each change adds to the trauma of it all.  Then c/t off Paroxetine, and put on Mirt and Seroquel.  I'm not surprised you feel entirely messed up. 

 

Right now your Central Nervous System will be feeling very destabilised by all the cold-turkies and fast tapers.  It's going to need some stability in the form of holding before you consider tapering further.  It looks like your sig. says you have taken a half dose of Mirtazapine today.  If so, I think you'd be best to get back to your original dose to let things settle first.  Then, when you have, you could start tapering in a more gentle way.  (Unless Alto thinks you need to stop it quicker due to adverse reactions/suicidality). 

 

Thanks for filling out a signature.  Would you be able to add dates into it?  The more detailed and precise it is, the better we can help you make decisions.  Thanks. 

 

I agree that the bipolar label is ridiculous.  It has been documented that many people get misdiagnosed bipolar after SSRIs have destabilised them.  Doctors mistake it with the withdrawal symptoms of mania and depression.

 

I'm glad you are here.  You may like to get hold of a book called Anatomy of an Epidemic - explains all sorts of things.

 

Karen

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posted same time as alto, may be some double-ups

2010  Fluoxetine 20mg.  2011  Escitalopram 20mg.  2013 Tapered badly and destabilised CNS.  Effexor 150mg. 

2015 Begin using info at SurvivingAntidepressants.  Cut 10% - bad w/d 2 months, held 1 month. 

Micro-tapering: four weekly 0.4% cuts, hold 4 weeks (struggling with symptoms).

8 month hold.

2017 Micro-tapering: four weekly 1% cuts, hold 4 weeks (symptoms almost non-existent).

2020 Still micro-tapering. Just over 2/3 of the way off effexor. Minimal symptoms, - and sleeping well.
Supplements: Fish oil, vitamin C, iron, oat-straw tea, nettle tea.

My story of healing:ContinuedHealing

***I am not a doctor; please do your own research and be able to take responsibility for decisions you make.*** 

           'The possibility of renewal exists so long as life exists.'  Dr Gabor Mate.

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Welcome sorry you need to be here but glad your here sooner rather than later.  This is safe place to tell it like it is hopefully that will be as helpful to you as it has been to me. 

I wish you peace

 

ps

 

Just so you hear it again your husband is right they cannot properly dx anything when your having a reaction to a drug..though it has happened to many of us here. 

Having a suicidal reaction to an antidepressant seems to be one thing I do well... two drugs known to cause this in spades for me are prozac and zoloft ...paxil would likely have made the list had I not stopped it quickly... effexor was the sex drug for me... 

 

So you see this is what these drugs cause and your not crazy your having reactions to drugs... I just wanted to come back an add this as thinking back these are the words I wish some body had said to me...

peace

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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Thank you so much for your comments, advice and support.

 

I will definitely taper much more slowly I think i am just in such a hurry to get off of everything that i was happy to go with what the doc said, but now reading the 10% method  that definitely seems like the way get off for good.

 

Thanks for letting me know that you believe my "returning to depression" after sertraline was likely to be because of getting off the sertaline too quickly.  Makes sense now, funny how you dont see these this when they are happening to you and helps me feel more at ease with taking more time tapering off

 

Thanks for the comment agreeing with my husband about the bi polar diagnosis, again one of those things that I just didn't think about.

 

Funny you should mention the book, Anatomy of an Epidemic my husband bought it very recently. I shall read it. :)

 

And last but definitely not least Thanks for saying I'm not crazy it's just a reaction to the meds.  I had tears in my eyes when I read that.  great support.  I totally question my sanity every second.  

 

You are all awesome :D

Sertaline 50mg tapered off over a month. Peroxatine 40mg taken off immediately by hospital Seroquel 50mg stopped immediately Mirtazipina 30mg started tapering as advised by the doctor half for 3 days then stop.  Advice from this site said taper at 10% so currently taking 27mg for a few weeks

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Also - the things that really click with you that you read here, write them down and stick them on your wall. You need help getting the old lies out of your head and the new true things in there. 

2010  Fluoxetine 20mg.  2011  Escitalopram 20mg.  2013 Tapered badly and destabilised CNS.  Effexor 150mg. 

2015 Begin using info at SurvivingAntidepressants.  Cut 10% - bad w/d 2 months, held 1 month. 

Micro-tapering: four weekly 0.4% cuts, hold 4 weeks (struggling with symptoms).

8 month hold.

2017 Micro-tapering: four weekly 1% cuts, hold 4 weeks (symptoms almost non-existent).

2020 Still micro-tapering. Just over 2/3 of the way off effexor. Minimal symptoms, - and sleeping well.
Supplements: Fish oil, vitamin C, iron, oat-straw tea, nettle tea.

My story of healing:ContinuedHealing

***I am not a doctor; please do your own research and be able to take responsibility for decisions you make.*** 

           'The possibility of renewal exists so long as life exists.'  Dr Gabor Mate.

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Also - the things that really click with you that you read here, write them down and stick them on your wall. You need help getting the old lies out of your head and the new true things in there. 

:)

Sertaline 50mg tapered off over a month. Peroxatine 40mg taken off immediately by hospital Seroquel 50mg stopped immediately Mirtazipina 30mg started tapering as advised by the doctor half for 3 days then stop.  Advice from this site said taper at 10% so currently taking 27mg for a few weeks

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I'm after some advice please.

 

I have been taking mirtazipine for 4 weeks ish but it's giving me dodgy side effects so have started to taper at 10%.  If my husband is calculating the 10% method properly it'll take me a couple of years to get off something i've only been on for one month.  seems excessive to me.  what do you think, can i taper it in lager increments? 

 

Thanks

 

Sertaline 50mg tapered off over a month. Peroxatine 40mg taken off immediately by hospital Seroquel 50mg stopped immediately Mirtazipina 30mg started tapering as advised by the doctor half for 3 days then stop.  Advice from this site said taper at 10% so currently taking 27mg for a few weeks

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Hi Wanting .  Welcome .  Technically you can taper faster , however it can be tricky .  If you taper at the recommended rate,  you will  taper off in a way that you can keep living a normal life, with minimal disruption.

 

If you find that you are tolerating it well , then you can speed up the tapering process, a little.  This is not common. Most have to go slow.  Can you fill in your drug history signature. It will help .

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/893-please-put-your-withdrawal-history-in-your-signature/

 

Even though it can take years , if it means being functional and carrying on with life , that is worth it  in the long run .  You certainly don't want to be dysfunctional . Have a read around and come back with any questions or concerns , you might have . This is your journal to ask questions and track your progress.

Ali

Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014

 

                                                  Psych Drug - free since May 2014
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Welcome WMB,

 

There seems to be a rush by the medical profession to get you off these drugs in an overly fast manner. Is there some health issue that is driving that?

 

You may have been taking this current drug for only four weeks but when you look at the whole picture it appears you've had exposure to psychotropic drugs for  longer than that. No doubt each progressive drug you were given was to cover the side-effects from withdrawal of the previous one.

 

Are you able to tell us the dates you started those previous drugs.

 

We have all had a wake-up call regarding our plight and unfortunately thanks to Pharma who have taken addiction to a new level and lied about it, 'slowly' for many is having to be defined as several years.

 

The medical profession do not acknowledge withdrawal however here is an excellent checklist from someone who does,

Dr. Joseph Glenmullen's withdrawal symptom checklist

 

These drugs profoundly altar the brain. You might like to have a read of this it is very insightful. It will help to explain why we need to go slowly when tapering.

Brain remodeling

 

In the absence of urgent medical reasons it is safest to taper at the 10% method. You might like to read this link

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1024-why-taper-by-10-of-my-dosage/
 

nz11

Thought for the day: Lets stand up, and let’s speak out , together. G Olsen

We have until the 14th. Feb 2018. 

URGENT REQUEST Please consider submitting  for the petition on Prescribed Drug Dependence and Withdrawal currently awaiting its third consideration at the Scottish Parliament. You don't even have to be from Scotland. By clicking on the link below you can read some of the previous submissions but be warned many of them are quite harrowing.

http://www.parliament.scot/GettingInvolved/Petitions/PE01651   

Please tell them about your problems taking and withdrawing from antidepressants and/or benzos.

Send by email to petitions@parliament.scot and quote PE01651 in the subject heading. Keep to a maximum of 3 sides of A4 and you can't name for legal reasons any doctor you have consulted. Tell them if you wish to remain anonymous. We need the numbers to help convince the committee members we are not isolated cases. You have until mid February. Thank you

Recovering paxil addict

None of the published articles shed light on what ssri's ... actually do or what their hazards might be. Healy 2013. 

This is so true, with anything you get on these drugs, dependance, tapering, withdrawal symptoms, side effects, just silent. And if there is something mentioned then their is a serious disconnect between what is said and reality! 

  "Every time I read of a multi-person shooting, I always presume that person had just started a SSRI or had just stopped."  Dr Mosher. Me too! 

Over two decades later, the number of antidepressant prescriptions a year is slightly more than the number of people in the Western world. Most (nine out of 10) prescriptions are for patients who faced difficulties on stopping, equating to about a tenth of the population. These patients are often advised to continue treatment because their difficulties indicate they need ongoing treatment, just as a person with diabetes needs insulin. Healy 2015

I believe the ssri era will soon stand as one of the most shameful in the history of medicine. Healy 2015

Let people help people ... in a natural, kind, non-addictive (and non-big pharma) way. J Broadley 2017

 

 

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Hi WMB,

 

Welcome to SA.  I've noticed that you started an Intro topic when you joined SA.  It is one intro topic per person so all of your history is kept together.  The mods will merge this new topic with your orignal topic.  You can click Follow Topic (top right of screen) and you will receive an email when someone replies.  You can then use your Intro topic to ask questions and as a journal of your progress.

 

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I have been taking mirtazipine for 4 weeks ish but it's giving me dodgy side effects so have started to taper at 10%.  If my husband is calculating the 10% method properly it'll take me a couple of years to get off something i've only been on for one month.  seems excessive to me.  what do you think, can i taper it in lager increments? 

 

If mirtazapine was the only psyche drug you had ever taken and only for 4 weeks, then it may be possible for you to taper faster, but as NZ11 pointed out, you have been on these kinds of drugs much longer than 4 weeks, so you need to consider the cumulative effect and realize that even though you have only been on mirtazapine for 4 weeks, your nervous system has been exposed to this kind of medicinel for much longer and so its more likely you will experience withdrawal symptoms from a fast taper.

I'm not a doctor.  My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one.

My Introduction Thread

Full Drug and Withdrawal History

Brief Summary

Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety) Xanax PRN ~ Various other drugs over the years for side effects

2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010

Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal

DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms

Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal)

May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins.

Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes

Supplements which have helped: Vitamin C, Magnesium, Taurine

Bad reactions: Many supplements but mostly fish oil and Vitamin D

June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens.

Aug 2016 - Oct 2016 Best window ever, felt almost completely recovered

Oct 2016 -Symptoms returned - bad days and less bad days.

April 2018 - No windows, but significant improvement, it feels like permanent full recovery is close.

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VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes?



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I just wanted to stop by and reassure you that these reactions happen and they are epic. I took a took a very small amount of ADs and had the suicidal thoughts, hallucinations and all sorts. They are incredibly strong drugs that are handed out like candy and no-one will ever acknowledge the fall-out from them - even for known reactions.

 

It is ridiculous to suggest that you have suddenly developed bi-polar. You have clearly had an adverse reaction to the various psych medications you have been on.

 

Listen to the good people here. They are a wealth of knowledge. It is horrible when you lose sight of who you are but things will get better. You will heal.

March 2003 took two sartroline tablets after a traumatic incident and had a reaction so stopped.  I am not sure now whether what I had for the next 18 months was WD after the reaction or the emotional fallout from the traumatic event.  Some of it was very similar to WD in hindsight.  

 

February 2014 - Took five pristiq (50mg) tablets and three Ativan and had a severe reaction.
Extreme withdrawal symptoms for three weeks compounded by visit to naturopath -

One week later took 900mg St John's Wort x 3 daily for six weeks - more negative effects and suspected serotonin syndrome - before tapering over three weeks. Last tablet late May 2014.

Waves and windows cycle of recovery with longer windows and manageable waves.

May 2015 - already in a mild wave, following a usual pattern, I took clarithromicin and amoxicillin for two weeks for a sinus infection which I also seem to have had quite a reaction to.

 

February 2016 - Feeling much better.  I still have waves and windows but they are manageable.  I'm largely enjoying life again.

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This is how antidepressants have turned my entire life upside down in the small space of 8 months

 

The relationship with my small children, I feel is horrible.  Pervious to this I was an excellent mum, loving caring, patient.  Now I have no patience and rarely want to be around them because I don’t feel a bond and I hate to say it but their voices are like a drilling in my brain.  I am just no good for them right now.  I hate myself for it, hate who I have become and want me back.  .

Hi.

Sorry to see you've been messed about by doc's so much. It doesn't inspire confidence when each one turns around with a different guess at the problem.

 

Re your children, I empathise. When I was on Seroquel and lexapro, and really quite ill with the depression, I really found it difficult to be what I thought was a good mum. I had a really short temper and would sometimes turn my back and be cursing quietly while they talked to me. I just wanted to be alone. Still, I gave the best I could at the time, even though it didn't always feel like much. Don't beat yourself up. I'm sure you're still a good mum. If you weren't you wouldn't be writing about how bad you feel as a parent.

 

You will get through this. There are people on this site who have kicked psychotropic drugs after years.

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Welcome wantingmeback,   well done for finding this site.  Everyone will help, anyway we can.  The moderators have EXCELLENT advice.   :)

 

And I say well done for NOT going the AD route while pregnant....(and wtf, you saying you are a bad mum, get real!! you are a brilliant mum!!!~).................. and wow, you actually do know, KNOW  the drugs have caused the suicidality.  (and other issues)   :)

 

Doctors actually have to admit the failings of this happy pills fraud, now, wow..............!!

 

I have not got any advice, just to say welcome, from a fellow Aussie!     Everyone on these psych meds, always starts off depressed, then bipolar, then,    the list goes on!!   All the meds, always the meds.... so glad you are young and knowledgeable, and want off the drugs.............     YOU HAVE MADE IT!  This knowledge is precious, how LONG  it takes to get off the stuff, totally irrelevant.........................

 

And your kids/family  love you,   none of us are perfect, and very less than perfect in WD, but my son wants me here!  So I'll stay..........    I hope you read the section on Neuro emotions, when you can, that really helped me.

 

The stuff these medications cause, is real, real scary..............  welcome to the group!             

 

I am so much better than when I arrived on this helpsite 12 months ago....................... HUGS X

1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression.  Serotonin syndrome, oh yes!  seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol.

Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly)  pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby).  98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.
2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout....  Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol,   and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.
Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg  seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg  tegretol 400mg.  Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.
Mid 15 ....   75mg  seroquel,  3 x 1800mg SJW  2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave
5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x  SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW
15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::   28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::;  18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump.

23/9  3mg.....,  27/9 0mg.  Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg.............  LIGHTBULB MOMENT,  I have  MTHFR 2x mutations.  CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it.

Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.

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  • Mentor

In the future, you will realise, how lucky, you had to get off these pills, from the horrific side effects, so quickly! ................    hang in there, balance out, and we are all here for you.

1992 Dothiepin 375mg 8 weeks, exhaustion/depression.  Serotonin syndrome, oh yes!  seizures . Fell pregnant, 3rd baby, Nitrous Oxide, 3 weeks mental hospital pp psychosis. zoloft tegretol.

Feb 1996 ct tegretol, tapered Zoloft 8 weeks. as (unexpectedly)  pregnant. Steven died after 3 days.(Zolft HLHS baby).  98 had run in with Paxil, 2 tablets, 3 weeks taper, survived.
2005..menopause? exhausted again. Zyprexa, mad in three days, fallout....  Seroquel, Effexor, tegretol,   and 8 years of self destruction. Failed taper.
Damn 1/4 valium... nuts again! .fallout, zoloft 100mg  seroquol 400mg mirtazapine 45 mg  tegretol 400mg.  Mid 14 3 month taper. Nov 14 CRASH.
Mid 15 ....   75mg  seroquel,  3 x 1800mg SJW  2 week window end of December followed by 6 week wave
5/2 68mg seroquel, 2.5 x 1800mg SJW::::20/2 61mg seroquel, 2.5 x  SJW::: 26/2 54mg seroquel, 2 x SJW::::21/3 43mg seroquel, 1 x 2700SJW :::: 23/4 36mg seroquel 1 x 1800 SJW
15/5 33mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::   28/5 30mg seroquel, 1 x SJW::::;  18/6 25mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::::, 11/7 21mg seroquel 1/2 SJW::, 26/7 18mg seroquel 1/2 SJW:::, 9/8 12mg seroquel :::, 16/8 6mg seroquel ;;;;, 12/9 0 jump.

23/9  3mg.....,  27/9 0mg.  Reinstated, 6mg, then 12mg.............  LIGHTBULB MOMENT,  I have  MTHFR 2x mutations.  CFS and issues with MOULD in my home. So I left home, and working 150km away during week, loving it.

Oh was hard, panic attacks first week, gone now, along with the mould issues.

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