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Bobo32

Hi bryan, how long you've been on ADs? Have you recovered from soft glans and sexual numbness ?

Thanks


2004-2007 paxil

2015- zoloft 3 months zyprexa 3 months lexapro 3 months xanax

Med free since Feb 28th 2017

Mostly experiencing PSSD

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Bobo32

How are you feeling Ben? Let us know


2004-2007 paxil

2015- zoloft 3 months zyprexa 3 months lexapro 3 months xanax

Med free since Feb 28th 2017

Mostly experiencing PSSD

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branyan

Hey guys!

 

Things, again, were going great for a while. Then I had a very very very stressful month and things have been a bit numb again. Performance is still great, but the actual beginning and end feeling aren't so great. Hoping it swings (no pun intended) back around again soon.


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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Bobo32

Hey guys!

 

Things, again, were going great for a while. Then I had a very very very stressful month and things have been a bit numb again. Performance is still great, but the actual beginning and end feeling aren't so great. Hoping it swings (no pun intended) back around again soon.

Hey brian,

How long you've been taking Ads?

Have you ever experienced soft gland syndrome?

How are you feeling now regarding arousal and pleasure?

 

Thank you


2004-2007 paxil

2015- zoloft 3 months zyprexa 3 months lexapro 3 months xanax

Med free since Feb 28th 2017

Mostly experiencing PSSD

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branyan

 

Hey guys!

 

Things, again, were going great for a while. Then I had a very very very stressful month and things have been a bit numb again. Performance is still great, but the actual beginning and end feeling aren't so great. Hoping it swings (no pun intended) back around again soon.

Hey brian,

How long you've been taking Ads?

Have you ever experienced soft gland syndrome?

How are you feeling now regarding arousal and pleasure?

 

Thank you

 

 

 

1. That information is in my signature as well as well documented across my posts.

2. I haven't

3. You can read this entire thread and I think that will answer your questions.

 

Good luck to you, I am sorry to hear you are suffering. 


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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stan

congratulations for shar

you have a life very full

 

i looked only a part because it needs several day 


for anxiety 

12 years paxil - cold turkey 1,5 month - switch celexa 1 year taper; total 13 years on brain meds 

67 years old - 9 years  med free

 

in protracted withdrawal

rigidity standing and walking, dryness gougerot-szoegren, sleep deteriorate,

function as have a lack of nerves, improving have been very little 

 

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branyan

Thank you!

 

 

 

And just like that things feel normal again, thank goodness. I was feeling hopeless there for a week or two. I feel connected, have a sex drive, and perform well.


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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UnderPressure

I'm curious as to your anhedonia.

 

I'm eight months med free.

 

I was only on 3 mg of risperdal for about four months and anhedonia set in while I was taking it. It's the main reason I went off the drug as I could not stand not being able to feel anything.

 

I understand the meds you were on are different and you were on them for a greater length of time....but could you maybe explain the process/progress of your anhedonia?

 

This is the worst feeling in the world, I feel like a soul-less shell of a human.

 

My libido is low too, but I imagine that has a lot to do with a lack of emotions.


Risperidone (Risperdal)-3mg from May 2016-Sept.

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nicolantana

I'm on your coat tails here Under Pressure,

 

I second the motion Branyan.

 

Can you expand on the anhedonia side of things? what was the dissipation like? did you get windows or was it all of a sudden etc, etc, etc...were you soulless for a long stretch...?

 

Cheers


late July...lexapro 10 seroquel 25.....due to mild depression......adverse reaction, suicidal thoughts, hospitalization

August....felt that meds were ripping stomach apart....docs didn't believe me..upped meds to seroquel 125, lexapro 20, mirtazapine 30, olanzapine 20....stayed on these drugs unitl mid november......severe anhedonia all the time...mid novemeber 2016 , began taper.....very small windows of emotion...Christmas....off everything by Christmas day......last six weeks, cried and laughed on a number of occasions for first time since taking initial meds....8 occasions of strong emotion over 6 weeks in ealry 2016.......doubting recovery......

BIG WINDOW IN july 2017, felt incredible, lasted a month or so, felt close to recovered...window left, september to Chrimstas 17 was anhedonic hell.....Turn of the year, January 2018, some very strong days (a window) offering renewed hope

back to hell until late February 2018, strong 10 day window....followed by anhedonic wave for 7 months straight! not a flicker of normalcy

September 2018 ...incredible window...followed by three month wave.January 2019.... a strong window

window subsided, but new baseline was higher.....life since January 2019 ( 9 months and counting) has been far better. Complete anhedonia is gone!! God, I've tears writing that. I am far from recovered, but far from hell...to use a scale, if life is rated out of a hundred, I was about minus 50 for the majority of 2 years..I know feel about 30 per cent of self, experiences intermittent flickers of normal life regularly....My days have more quality and I am optimistic of recovery. 

 

 

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Bobo32

hey bryan,

 

what you mean by being numb? Is it like having your genitals cold and not enough bloodflow in there?

 

Did that reverse for you?

 

Thank you


2004-2007 paxil

2015- zoloft 3 months zyprexa 3 months lexapro 3 months xanax

Med free since Feb 28th 2017

Mostly experiencing PSSD

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Chorlton

Hi Branyan,

 

How are you doing? I too have pssd.

 

chorlton


2017 10mg Citalopram for two weeks.

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branyan

Things were going pretty great in the month of May/June. Possibly the best in the 7 years since PSSD began. It was the most effortless erections, orgasms, etc. Now after a couple of really stressful months it's kind of bad again. So heres to hoping that changes again soon. 

 

 


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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branyan

Now I can happily say that after a week of traveling with my partner things are going great again. Everything feels right again, and is performing like I expect it to.


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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Bobo32

Are you performing like you want to ? Are you 100 percent healed when it comes to sexuality ?

also have you ever experienced soft glans syndrome ? Do you know anything that could help with this type of pssd ?

thank you


2004-2007 paxil

2015- zoloft 3 months zyprexa 3 months lexapro 3 months xanax

Med free since Feb 28th 2017

Mostly experiencing PSSD

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branyan

Hi Bobo. I am not 100% healed. I have explained that many many times in this post. I have also answered your second question many many times. I am sorry to be blunt, but I am a bit tired of repeating myself in that regard. As I have said before, and if you take the time to read my posts, even 7 years out things are still fluctuating. I am sorry you are suffering, and i truly wish you the best.


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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jescowhite
On 21/2/2016 at 8:31 PM, branyan said:

Hey guys! Brunyan here from the old PP forums. I haven't written in any SSRI or related forum in almost 2 years now. The reason being? Things for the most part have been pretty damn great. My actual life is great. I have a great career started. I am finally independent and financially stable. I've had a couple of short relationships in between now and when Paxil Progress ended. During that sexual relationship I almost NEVER had one problem. Not only that, things were pretty freaking great in that department. I never had any problems getting it up, and sex was frequent and very good.

 

Now there is still some of the genital numbness, and spotty libido, but was scarcely a worry.

 

So. fast forward. We broke up. Not the right time in our lives, etc etc blah blah.

 

 

Now the libido and functioning goes right back down to nothing good. This has been the pattern in the post SSRI/PSSD world for almost 5-6 years now. In the relationship things work great. Outside of that relationship, even when by myself things just dont feel very good.

 

I realize how lucky I am. I'm grateful to have what I have. I'm so lucky. I'm not even really complaining. I just kind of needed to vent because its kind of scary. And in the past the one habit I've made is obsessively trying to hook up with girls or look at porn to keep testing if things are working. And I want to be a lone for a while and do some more soul searching. 

 

The last girl i was with I was very upfront about the PSSD stuff, and we took our time to get to sex and that made all the difference. I cannot discount the emotional and psychological part of it. It's almost as if the PSSD has made those components so strong that I am now 'demi-sexual". 

 

If you look that up it basically means you can't be aroused without an emotional connection..

 

I've got a lot of work to do in therapy to deal with this. I need to listen to my rational mind and not the fearful part. I can do this.

 

I'm of course open to any and all questions as I know that my story has been used as a success story for many people fearful of PSSD around the internet. 

 

Hey Brunyan! Thanks for sharing your experiences. How are things going?

Do you still experience soft glans or penile atrophy?

 

Best greets

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Bobo32

hey bryan,

Thank you for posting your progress. Please let us know about your improvements.

Wish you the best


2004-2007 paxil

2015- zoloft 3 months zyprexa 3 months lexapro 3 months xanax

Med free since Feb 28th 2017

Mostly experiencing PSSD

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branyan

After months of doing well, with some downs in between, I’m struggling again with the PSSD part. I’ve started to notice that when I’m depressed or things are very hum drum and routine that this happens.


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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hussy

Thanks for the update. It must be a wave which will lift soon I hope. How bad are the current symptoms and when did this wave start


mild depression: took effaxor XR 75mg From nov 2016 - feb 2017 for 4 months

PSSD : Since then along with continuing withdrawal.

cognition problems, headache , fatigue, concentration problems, anhedonia, PSSD ( erection 2/10, Libido1/10, orgasm 4/10) 

no significant improvements in any withdrawal symptoms or any PSSD symptoms

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branyan

It lifted! Things went back to pretty great! Just gotta ride it out.


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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Bobo32

How is your pssd ?

are you in a relationship?

how long was your last window and were you able to have normal intercourse ?

thank you 


2004-2007 paxil

2015- zoloft 3 months zyprexa 3 months lexapro 3 months xanax

Med free since Feb 28th 2017

Mostly experiencing PSSD

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89abc123

Hi,

 

im new to this site and find your updates so helpful! I'm a female with pssd and it's awful. I'm hoping for recovery myself but my issues started when I first went on the drug not when I was coming off. Not sure if that makes a difference to recovery but I'm staying hopeful...I'm coming up to the 3 year mark though.

 

glad to hear you are feeling better at the moment :)

 

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ChessieCat

Hi there,

 

The staff at SA are wondering how you are.  We'd love to hear how you are doing now.   Would you mind dropping by and giving an update?

 

Thanks.

CC


Being very patient.  I'll get there - slowly.  ETA mid 2021

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (caused muscle weakness), Zoloft/sertraline; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (mild Serotonin Toxicity)

Began tapering Oct 2015  Current from 12 Sept 2020:  Pristiq 0.625 mg (compounded)

My tapering program

My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

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branyan

 I’m alive and well! Save for a few moments here and there over the last couple years, I’ve been pretty much feeling healed. But really what that means to me is, sexual stuff is almost never a problem. And the normal that I understand now is something I’m happy with.

 

In other words I don’t think things will ever be like I was before ending SSRI use, but I remember more of what it feels like to feel good now, then I did before it before it.  Most of that trauma, both physically, and especially mentally is gone. 

 

 I’m happily married now, and like most of us schmucks, I’m just trying to be the best person I can be. I live my life the best I know how. 


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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ChessieCat

Hi Branyan,

 

That's a wonderful update and congratulations on getting married.

 

Thank you very much for returning to update us.  It is much appreciated.

 

Best wishes for the future.


Being very patient.  I'll get there - slowly.  ETA mid 2021

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (caused muscle weakness), Zoloft/sertraline; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (mild Serotonin Toxicity)

Began tapering Oct 2015  Current from 12 Sept 2020:  Pristiq 0.625 mg (compounded)

My tapering program

My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

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branyan

 So just like that I’ve gone through a very depressive episode which I often do this time of year and the sex drive has felt basically zero. I’ve had a few good experiences here and there (since my last post) but definitely feeling a bit down about things! Hopefully when the good weather comes out things will turn around. 


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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branyan

And just like that things swing back to really good after the depression lifts.


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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bhasski
On 1/8/2019 at 3:14 AM, branyan said:

 I’m alive and well! Save for a few moments here and there over the last couple years, I’ve been pretty much feeling healed. But really what that means to me is, sexual stuff is almost never a problem. And the normal that I understand now is something I’m happy with.

 

In other words I don’t think things will ever be like I was before ending SSRI use, but I remember more of what it feels like to feel good now, then I did before it before it.  Most of that trauma, both physically, and especially mentally is gone. 

 

 I’m happily married now, and like most of us schmucks, I’m just trying to be the best person I can be. I live my life the best I know how. 

 

Happy to know. Best wishes.

 


08/13 - 01/14
Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem)

02/14 - 05/14
Flunil ​20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine
05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.25
10/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)
11/14 - 08/15
Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.
09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.
12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T)

03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam.

After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda

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changeofmotion

I just wanted to say that this thread has really helped me through the last year and a half or so and I wanted to extend my thanks, Branyan. And really happy to hear that you got married and are in general enjoying life!!

 

I'm experiencing similar patterns, a year and a half out from Zoloft and it's super useful to have a reference point to help me understand my experience better. 

 

So. Thank you. Again. 


Zoloft: 02/2015 - 12/2017

Intermittent dosing: 07/2017 - 12/2017

Quick taper ~2 weeks: 12/2017 - 01/2018

Wellbutrin: 01/13/2018 - 01/30/2018.

Prozac 10mg 01/30/2018 - 02/28/2018

Prozac 5mg 02/28/2018 - 04/01/2018

Oxcarbazepine 300mg 01/30/2018 - 02/14/2018

Oxcarbazepine 600mg 02/15/2018 - 04/02/2018

Oxcarbazepine 300mg 04/01/2018 - 05/01/2018

Oxcarbazepine 150mg 05/02/2018 - 06/01/2018

No medication 06/02/2018 - present.

 

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branyan

My pleasure man. I know when I started to get off the drugs I NEEDED stories like this.


2000 Lamictal 

Zoloft 
2001-2003 Still Zoloft
2004 Neurotin, LexaproSeroquel 
2005 OFF MEDS ENTIRELY
2006 -2009 Lexapro
March 2010 Off Lexapro on Zyprexa 
November 2010 off Zyprexa
Off ALL MEDICATION -Jan 22nd 2011

 

 

 

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Shar244
On 12/16/2017 at 6:09 PM, 89abc123 said:

Hi,

 

im new to this site and find your updates so helpful! I'm a female with pssd and it's awful. I'm hoping for recovery myself but my issues started when I first went on the drug not when I was coming off. Not sure if that makes a difference to recovery but I'm staying hopeful...I'm coming up to the 3 year mark though.

 

glad to hear you are feeling better at the moment :)

 

 

Abc my story is similar to yours, have you had any improvements?

 

This thread has given me hope, glad you’re feeling much better after all this time branyan. Thank you :) 


Sertaline (Zoloft)

25mg increased to 50mg after 2-3 weeks 

Mid Oct 2016 - Mid Dec 2016 

 

I also took Propranalol as and when/on and off from 2012 to 2016

 

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JP1985
On 1/7/2019 at 9:44 PM, branyan said:

In other words I don’t think things will ever be like I was before ending SSRI use, but I remember more of what it feels like to feel good now, then I did before it before it.  Most of that trauma, both physically, and especially mentally is gone. 

 

 

Hi Branyan.. I just wonder what you mean about this part? “I don’t think things will ever be like I was before ending SSRI use”

 

Did you mean before starting SSRI’s?.. or do you mean things were great when on SSRI’s. I’m guessing you came off SSRI’s because of sexual problems? I was on citalopram for 5 years and the last year of it I started getting the sexual problems so I came off it (once I realised it was the SSRI)

 

Cheers 

 

JP

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Naczoz

@branyan did all pssd sympthoms like genital numbness, no libido, ed, pleasureorgasms resolved?


01.12.2018 - 01.03.2019 - Took sertraline and than fluvosamine for major depression. 

 

Got SEVERE PSSD (no libido, no erections, pleasureless orgasma, total genital anesthesia, emotional numbness, lost of personality)

 

No wave and windows, no improvement so far. Just lije 1-2% in numbness in first two months post quitting. 

 

Im suicidal because of pssd. I dont believe in recovery since my state didnt improve in any significant way.

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