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MissMellie

Hi Guys,

 

Its been a long time since I posted on this forum, however I am due to celebrate my 4 year anniversary from Lexapro withdrawal and I thought I should give you all an update on my recovery.

I haven't been active on the forum for some time as I needed to distance myself. I felt that everytime I read about other people's symptoms/stories although helpful at the time, it also triggered a lot of fear...fear of the unknown and fear of what would happen to me if I got more symptoms, or if my symptoms did not disappear. In saying that I also gained a lot of hope from other people' stories and I even re-read certain ones over and over in the hope that I too would make a full recovery.

 

Well ladies and gents, I can happily say that I too have made a full recovery after a "severe" withdrawal from the poison Lexapro. It did take a long time, however my recovery did happen. It was slow and gradual and did occur in waves as everyone knows. I personally felt my big turning point was around the 2 year mark, with big improvements happening after that time. I do also want to point out that some symptoms I had weren't actual symptoms of Lexapro withdrawal  - well they may have been somewhat a part, but not wholly Lexapro. I think this is important to know as when your in the depth of withdrawal you tend to blame everything on your withdrawal (well I at least did). A good example of this was the pins and needles I experienced in my left shoulder blade. I found out this was actually from muscle tension, which was exacerbated by my job. I had a couple of sessions of dry needling as well as some magnesium oil and it was gone.

 

So do I still get anxiety? Yes of course I do..I'm human and as a human I feel emotions, one of them being anxiety. Is it as bad as what it was on Lexapro - definitely not, 100% not. My anxiety at first while on Lexapro completely diminished to a point where I did not care about anything (very sad I know). However this changed and turned into severe anxiety, with OCD type repetitive thoughts which I have never experienced in my life up until Lexapro.

 

As for my symptoms now, I have none, none that are worth while mentioning....do I have crappy days where I don't feel 100%...sure. Everybody does! But I have I got rid of the horrible thoughts, the tingling, the zaps, the weakness, the heart palpitations, the nausea, the bad dreams, feelings of aggression, suicidal thoughts, memory loss, depersonalisation and the many more I have listed in my diary. I still have triggers...that make me remember the hell I went through and I think it will still stay with me for a long time, however life is good now, actually life is awesome!! I have a wonderful family, a great job and best of all I am completely med free!! Living life and trying to be as healthy as I can be.

 

So for all of you out there, who are wondering 'will I recover?'. Yes you will!!! Your recovery is imminent. Take all the good days and enjoy them. When the bad ones come along, focus on the good days you have had and how many more are coming your way. Withdrawal really made me appreciate feeling good - I think that's something we all take for granted. I would also like to mention that I found the book "Recovery & Renewal" by Bayilssa Frederick amazing and it was my bible for many days/nights when I felt like giving up. That alongside this forum of course.

 

I wish you all the best on your journey and your road to recovery x

 

 

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AmyK

Wonderful to hear! Thank you for sharing your story. It gives a lot of hope! 

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Ssriwarrior

Such an inspiring post!   :D

 

It pains me to know that you got prescribed this in your postpartum period.  Such a raw and vulnerable time for so many women.  It is happening in epidemic proportions to women in the U.S.  and it needs to stop!!!  

 

Thank you for updating, it gives so many some hope. 

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Purplestars22

What a great story of defeating wd and healing. You give me so much hope I am 27 months off and still struggling. Thanks for coming back to the forum and updating.

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Hibari

Thank you for sharing your success story, give me continued hope. 

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MissMellie

So glad that I have given you all some hope & inspiration. Yes Silver Star I must admit I felt robbed by my GP for prescribing me this poison. I didn't feel a whole lot after commencing Lexapro, when really it should have been a wonderful joyous time for us. In a way though, I am grateful for my experience, as I now value my health, the time I have with my family and I am mentally stronger for it.

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Tootsieroll

It touches me so deeply to know that you have reached the other side. Congratulations on your triumph and may we all greet you at the finish line. I hope you don't mind me asking, when did you feel you turned a corner? You are 4 years out but was there a big shift half way through?

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Depresstothecore

I am very happy to read that you have recovered completely.i had read your previous post few months ago.but i was dissapointed when i found that you didnt post since long time.your post gives me hope that one day i will also recover.i have also been going through lexapro withdrawal from 5 months.but i am having very severe withdrawal , i am not functional at this stage.living in the hope that one day i will recover.it is very good that you got your life back.best wishes for your future life.

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Hopefull

Congratulations!

It is really nice to read a success story.

Wishing all the best in the future.

Your success story gives hope to all of us that are on their way to recovery.

I hope that I can completely recover like you.

There are so many things that I can relate to in your journey to recovery.

Best wishes, Hopefull. :)

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MissMellie

It touches me so deeply to know that you have reached the other side. Congratulations on your triumph and may we all greet you at the finish line. I hope you don't mind me asking, when did you feel you turned a corner? You are 4 years out but was there a big shift half way through?

Thankyou so much for your kind words. Yes my turning point was definitely around the 2 year mark! I knew my recovery was coming. It was very slow and gradual and very much in waves like everyone says. Between 2.5 to 3 year mark, things were improving quickly and here I am today. Please remember though I CT after many years of use so this WD was probably quite prolonged.

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MissMellie

I am very happy to read that you have recovered completely.i had read your previous post few months ago.but i was dissapointed when i found that you didnt post since long time.your post gives me hope that one day i will also recover.i have also been going through lexapro withdrawal from 5 months.but i am having very severe withdrawal , i am not functional at this stage.living in the hope that one day i will recover.it is very good that you got your life back.best wishes for your future life.

 I'm sorry that I haven't been back to update but I felt I needed space from thinking and researching about my withdrawal. I needed to focus my attention elsewhere. Lexapro is a horrible drug and I really feel for you. If you ever want to chat about any symptoms I am happy to help in any way I can :) You will recover...it's a just a process and a journey only you can make. Keep fighting x

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Mort81

Hey MissMellie your story has given me great hope!! I am so happy you reached the other side it must be amazing ! I am hoping to follow a similiar path. I took Lexapro and was weaned off super fast . my final 20mg was done in a month  . So close to a CT. I am at the 1.5 year mark .   THanks for your story its saved on my phone !

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MissMellie

Hey MissMellie your story has given me great hope!! I am so happy you reached the other side it must be amazing ! I am hoping to follow a similiar path. I took Lexapro and was weaned off super fast . my final 20mg was done in a month  . So close to a CT. I am at the 1.5 year mark .   THanks for your story its saved on my phone !

Wow your story sounds very similar to mine Mort - I also did pretty much a CT from Lex. I wish you all the very best on your journey. Thing do definitely get better!!!!

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Mort81

Yes missmellie lots of similarities!did you have any setbacks along the way? I was doing so well and hit a snag. I had done stuff in the past by accident like a really hot bath that triggered so many symptoms and just recently a hard neck massage that triggered so much dizziness and headaches . I get so discouraged when my symptoms flare from my carelessness.

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Cheryl

Thank you so much for sharing. I am new to this site and took Lexapro as well.

I lost somewhere along reading all the posts that I did not see how long you were on it for?

I have also just order the book you recommended.

(what is CT?)

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Mort81

Hey Cheryl I could answer the CT question . It means Cold turkey, so basically no taper .  What we find here on the site is usually a super slow taper is the best way to reduce withdrawal symptoms . It doesnt always work though , nothing is 100% safe with these meds. some people report just as bad suffering with a slow taper but It gives you the best shot of getting off the drug safely. 

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Prozac20

How long were you on lexapro?

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AussieGirl

Congratulations. I loved reading your update and found it both inspiring and reassuring   to say the least.

I'm wondering if during the really tough waves were you able to still work etc or were you at home with your family?

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Pokeshaw

Hey Missie - Thank you so much for posting your story. I am one of the many tapering Lexapro after reinstating in the middle of a severe w/d state. Been at it for a while now as you can see. Doing well but still dealing with waves off and on. Down to such a low dose but still have to micro taper.  I am looking forward to more recovery. I have had a good amount so far and am hopeful. Also, reading your story helps as well - so thanks again!

 

Pokeshaw

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ChessieCat

Hi there,

 

The staff at SA are wondering how you are.  We'd love to hear how you are doing now.   Would you mind dropping by and giving an update?

 

Thanks.

CC

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