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@Kovacks Yes! I just came from an activist event last night and lemme tell you, I'm probably now even more the life of the party than before psychiatric drugs, because I'm so overjoyed to have it back. And it keeps getting better. In the last month I stopped using my white noise generator at night because the ringing in my ears is not so bad/gone at times. My sleep scores on my fitbit are rising to 91-94 (think of it as a grade on an academic paper) 2-3 times a week now. 
But yes, at some point you will feel better, and later you will feel good enough to be a source of a good time. You will feel *good* again! 
 

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 

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48 minutes ago, Armorall said:

@Kovacks Yes! I just came from an activist event last night and lemme tell you, I'm probably now even more the life of the party than before psychiatric drugs, because I'm so overjoyed to have it back. And it keeps getting better. In the last month I stopped using my white noise generator at night because the ringing in my ears is not so bad/gone at times. My sleep scores on my fitbit are rising to 91-94 (think of it as a grade on an academic paper) 2-3 times a week now. 
But yes, at some point you will feel better, and later you will feel good enough to be a source of a good time. You will feel *good* again! 
 

Congratulations, this is a good news.

keep it up.

- 2013-2014 zoloft 100 mg  xanax 1 mg

- 2015 prozac 40mg/ Xanax 1 mg / zopiclone 7.5

- 2016  brintellix 20mg /Pristiq 50mg / xanax 1 mg

- 2017  Cymbalta / xanax 1 mg / zopiclone 7.5 mg

- 2018 cibralex 10mg/ lexotanil 1.5/ 

- 2019 Effexor 150mg / lexotanil 1.5 

- December 2019  Concerta 36 mg/ zyban 300 mg/ lexotanil 1.5  / zopiclone 7.5 mg / quit on June 2020

- July 2020  Invega Sustenna XR 100 mg shot / lexotanil 1.5 mg  / zopiclone 7.5 mg

- October 2020 reduced the dose to 75 mg shot and Quit

 

i am still on lexotanil 1.5  / zopiclone 7.5 mg 

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@saeed Thank you! Please message/tag me if you ever want any support. Have a great day!

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 

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10 hours ago, Armorall said:

@saeed Thank you! Please message/tag me if you ever want any support. Have a great day!

Thank you very much, your story is inspiring.

- 2013-2014 zoloft 100 mg  xanax 1 mg

- 2015 prozac 40mg/ Xanax 1 mg / zopiclone 7.5

- 2016  brintellix 20mg /Pristiq 50mg / xanax 1 mg

- 2017  Cymbalta / xanax 1 mg / zopiclone 7.5 mg

- 2018 cibralex 10mg/ lexotanil 1.5/ 

- 2019 Effexor 150mg / lexotanil 1.5 

- December 2019  Concerta 36 mg/ zyban 300 mg/ lexotanil 1.5  / zopiclone 7.5 mg / quit on June 2020

- July 2020  Invega Sustenna XR 100 mg shot / lexotanil 1.5 mg  / zopiclone 7.5 mg

- October 2020 reduced the dose to 75 mg shot and Quit

 

i am still on lexotanil 1.5  / zopiclone 7.5 mg 

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17 hours ago, Armorall said:

@Kovacks Yes! I just came from an activist event last night and lemme tell you, I'm probably now even more the life of the party than before psychiatric drugs, because I'm so overjoyed to have it back. And it keeps getting better. In the last month I stopped using my white noise generator at night because the ringing in my ears is not so bad/gone at times. My sleep scores on my fitbit are rising to 91-94 (think of it as a grade on an academic paper) 2-3 times a week now. 
But yes, at some point you will feel better, and later you will feel good enough to be a source of a good time. You will feel *good* again! 
 

Did you ever get your core back? Like I would crunch at ecstacy moments and this would make my raps good. It's so feint now that I can't even get exactly my point across. Hope that makes sense, like that sex that really pushes something over the edge

july 21 and july 28 / 2020 the two loading doses of paliperidone

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@Kovacks yup, I am capable of ecstatic moments, when I'm not having them, it's just because I'm not in a situation to have them, not that my body/brain is limited. I'm a musician and can feel and enjoy all the music I used to again (and I go out dancing A LOT). I got it back in April. In our city, we have a bi weekly event with DJs outside. I'd be playing and enjoying more live music and clubs were it not for Covid, but at least I can go out dancing twice a month, lol

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 

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@saeed thank you. Yours will be, too!

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 

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6 hours ago, Armorall said:

@Kovacks yup, I am capable of ecstatic moments, when I'm not having them, it's just because I'm not in a situation to have them, not that my body/brain is limited. I'm a musician and can feel and enjoy all the music I used to again (and I go out dancing A LOT). I got it back in April. In our city, we have a bi weekly event with DJs outside. I'd be playing and enjoying more live music and clubs were it not for Covid, but at least I can go out dancing twice a month, lol

There was a line by ice t that said, I see dead bodies floating in the water and I grin. I could never have that amount of smugness again. Do you know what I mean?

july 21 and july 28 / 2020 the two loading doses of paliperidone

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@Kovacks you mean like a playful self-satisfaction? Sure you can! I know, it seems out of reach. Our symptoms mess us up and make it feel like they are forever and there is no end, probably because you feel so far away from who you once were, so it seems doubtful that you could ever come back so completely to who you were before injury. But you can and you will. I know, I didn't believe it either and it's frustrating because no one can tell you when it will happen. There was no way I could have expected my brain to turn when it did. I told my husband I will probably not be able to work forever, we shouldn't buy a new home while in WD, we should move to a lower income home in preparation for the long, long battle. But it happened. Thankfully he didn't listen to me and he stuck around. Not to bash anyone who is taking precautions because of WD, because we cannot predict the length of it, just offering an example of how much I couldn't believe that relief is coming. Have you watched Daily Grind/Michael Priebe at all? I watched some of his youtubes (and Baylissa's) just to watch survivors and see their happy expressions, their seemingly productive lives. They are here to remind us. Baylissa told me to make a video to discuss what I was going through, then save it, so that I could make a video later and people could see how much better I was. I couldn't make the first video because it was too painful to wonder about how long it would take before I could make the second video. I regret not making it now. So, I'm just saying, I get it. It's too hard to imagine, and suffering is very deep. But, it will come. I took a cocktail of SNRI and my doc ripped me through 3 different antipsychotics. If I can get back to myself, you can get back to yourself. I'm sorry that the date of when that happens is not obvious. It is the condition that we have to wait through...but it will happen. 

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 

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10 hours ago, Armorall said:

@Kovacks you mean like a playful self-satisfaction? Sure you can! I know, it seems out of reach. Our symptoms mess us up and make it feel like they are forever and there is no end, probably because you feel so far away from who you once were, so it seems doubtful that you could ever come back so completely to who you were before injury. But you can and you will. I know, I didn't believe it either and it's frustrating because no one can tell you when it will happen. There was no way I could have expected my brain to turn when it did. I told my husband I will probably not be able to work forever, we shouldn't buy a new home while in WD, we should move to a lower income home in preparation for the long, long battle. But it happened. Thankfully he didn't listen to me and he stuck around. Not to bash anyone who is taking precautions because of WD, because we cannot predict the length of it, just offering an example of how much I couldn't believe that relief is coming. Have you watched Daily Grind/Michael Priebe at all? I watched some of his youtubes (and Baylissa's) just to watch survivors and see their happy expressions, their seemingly productive lives. They are here to remind us. Baylissa told me to make a video to discuss what I was going through, then save it, so that I could make a video later and people could see how much better I was. I couldn't make the first video because it was too painful to wonder about how long it would take before I could make the second video. I regret not making it now. So, I'm just saying, I get it. It's too hard to imagine, and suffering is very deep. But, it will come. I took a cocktail of SNRI and my doc ripped me through 3 different antipsychotics. If I can get back to myself, you can get back to yourself. I'm sorry that the date of when that happens is not obvious. It is the condition that we have to wait through...but it will happen. 

Did you take paliperidone? Is it the same thing you take? Sorry for not making sense. I mean did what you take give you the same effects it would give to someone with paliperidone? I believe you. It's just. I'm not doing that well

 

It's just I really want to get better and I don't think il feel the same. I know you said you get back to seemingly yourself or completely yourself. Is that very true? I don't want to be this ***** up mess forever. I got a lot to do and people counting on me and the **** is getting intense

 

july 21 and july 28 / 2020 the two loading doses of paliperidone

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@Kovacks I didn't take palperidone. You can see the myriad of anti-psychotics that I burned through in my drug signature. Antipsychotics are a dicey drug, but, from having read so many people's stories on here, I'm willing to conclude that the difference between brand names is like the difference between any brands. Like Levi's jeans and  Dickies do basically the same thing, they just have a different name and a slightly different look. I can't tell you anymore that yes, you will feel the same eventually and no, I cannot give you a  time frame on when that is. I know you want a date, I wanted it, too. But, unfortunately because drug companies like to deny our situation and give some bogus answer as to why it is happening, further research is inhibited. And, if you read a lot of threads here, you can tell that it's hard to predict when it will stop, regardless of time someone took it or what combination of drugs. 

Yes, I feel for you, because, aside from the hell that is withdrawal, the secondary thing is that you suddenly are having trouble acquiring resources. All I can say is that you should write down all your social safety nets (friends, family) and use them if you haven't already. Also, if there's a way to seek out doing work that is possible while you are in withdrawal (for instance, I was researching medical data entry instead of teaching, lucky for me, Covid happened and I could teach from home during WD). I have this dream where drug companies at least recognize what they've done to us, then set up a sort of hotel/spa so that  WD victims can go there and recoup for an indefinite amount of time. But, that is not profitable, so it won't happen unless there's enough pressure for exposure. Anyways, I digress. I know you need daily assurance that this will end. I know you've waited a long time. I'm sorry no one can give you an answer on when it will end, and I also clung to trying to find that answer as well. Try to find the things that have traditionally worked for us in waiting it out-walking in the forest, yoga at home, and magnesium when needed. You will turn, but yes, how you burn up the time before then will also assist you. 

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 

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On 10/2/2021 at 5:25 AM, Armorall said:

@Kovacks I didn't take palperidone. You can see the myriad of anti-psychotics that I burned through in my drug signature. Antipsychotics are a dicey drug, but, from having read so many people's stories on here, I'm willing to conclude that the difference between brand names is like the difference between any brands. Like Levi's jeans and  Dickies do basically the same thing, they just have a different name and a slightly different look. I can't tell you anymore that yes, you will feel the same eventually and no, I cannot give you a  time frame on when that is. I know you want a date, I wanted it, too. But, unfortunately because drug companies like to deny our situation and give some bogus answer as to why it is happening, further research is inhibited. And, if you read a lot of threads here, you can tell that it's hard to predict when it will stop, regardless of time someone took it or what combination of drugs. 

Yes, I feel for you, because, aside from the hell that is withdrawal, the secondary thing is that you suddenly are having trouble acquiring resources. All I can say is that you should write down all your social safety nets (friends, family) and use them if you haven't already. Also, if there's a way to seek out doing work that is possible while you are in withdrawal (for instance, I was researching medical data entry instead of teaching, lucky for me, Covid happened and I could teach from home during WD). I have this dream where drug companies at least recognize what they've done to us, then set up a sort of hotel/spa so that  WD victims can go there and recoup for an indefinite amount of time. But, that is not profitable, so it won't happen unless there's enough pressure for exposure. Anyways, I digress. I know you need daily assurance that this will end. I know you've waited a long time. I'm sorry no one can give you an answer on when it will end, and I also clung to trying to find that answer as well. Try to find the things that have traditionally worked for us in waiting it out-walking in the forest, yoga at home, and magnesium when needed. You will turn, but yes, how you burn up the time before then will also assist you. 

Does your vocabulary come back? Was yours ever gone. I can barely say what I try to say

july 21 and july 28 / 2020 the two loading doses of paliperidone

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@Kovacks yes, when I had expressive aphasia, I definitely had a vocab problem. I had trouble choosing nouns and recalling various words. I'll have to look back on my journal to see what exactly I had trouble with in terms of word choice (there were particular categories), but it was definitely a thing. Yes, it all came back. I answered this question for someone else recently- as an activist, I sit in debates all the time and can argue fluidly and clearly, maybe even better than I used to be able to. I think I came out even sharper than I used to be, or maybe I'm more courageous after facing WD, I dunno. 

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 

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Word-choice has become such a problem to me. I struggle so much to express myself. Even when I read, I’d read the same lines 5~6 times to ensure that I got it right m. But it feels really bad it really makes me hate reading. 
yeah I’d check words in the dictionary every day. But it’s just not fluid I know their meaning but just don’t know—anymore— when and how to use them. I just feel disconnected and detached from everything. I used to be very comfortable with my speaking, I’d give presentation of my work with ease. I’d learn a language so easily as well. It would flow, words just came out naturally without thinking. Now even in my native language it’s a battle. And that depresses me so much. It just doesn’t flow, something has been broken. And it kills me. I dread the day I took those drugs. 
So yeah what a word means, how do we spell it… huge struggle. 3 years that I live like that. Creativity gone, my brain is just off. 
courage to all of us, let’s stay strong. I’m sure it will come back. But not gonna lie, it’s rock bottom for me.

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Feel good bernard, I hear you 😢

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On 10/12/2021 at 9:37 AM, Armorall said:

@Kovacks yes, when I had expressive aphasia, I definitely had a vocab problem. I had trouble choosing nouns and recalling various words. I'll have to look back on my journal to see what exactly I had trouble with in terms of word choice (there were particular categories), but it was definitely a thing. Yes, it all came back. I answered this question for someone else recently- as an activist, I sit in debates all the time and can argue fluidly and clearly, maybe even better than I used to be able to. I think I came out even sharper than I used to be, or maybe I'm more courageous after facing WD, I dunno. 

Ok, I want to draw out for you a diagram

I want you to read this left to right as time which is the way I talk

The first diagram on the upper left is how I used to talk, a way of tense rythym

Because I am so skilled; I can actually keep the conversation always above the line of inappropriateness.

My question is: do you understand the second diagram? Cause that is where my communication level is at right now

I just don't know where the diagram is

july 21 and july 28 / 2020 the two loading doses of paliperidone

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@Kovacks I think if you need to check in with people to see if your words are easy to comprehend, the people around you can tell you that. My job here was to answer your questions about my experience and it was also my wish to tell you that it does get better. Nothing more. 

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 

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