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piscesrising

Thanks for reminding me to come back and post on here. I want to give an honest update on how things have been.

 

Recap: I was on an SSRI, primarily lexapro for 13 years or so. I slowly weaned off in 2013. IT WAS SO FRICKIN HARD. I still get depressed, I still struggle with anxiety etc etc but nothing like I experienced during withdrawal. I remember literally rocking on the floor just sobbing and wanting to stab my eyes out and this happened more than not.

 

I am wired funky. I will always seem to have a harder time with being 'happy' than a lot of people. This is due to sooo many factors but here is the good news-I haven't had to go back and after that year I just couldn't. I don't ever want to have to go thru it again. My anxiety is much much better. The depression is up and down and I still greatly struggle with insomnia but this is due to other physical and emotional factors unrelated to the meds and I am trying to work on it in other ways.

 

One thing I found that greatly helps with anxiety for those of you in withdrawal- NeuroMag and Pharma Gaba. I also started taking a lot of ashwaganda.

 

This is controversial but I take 20mg dose of melatonin at night. 3 used to make me hungover but the Pure Encapsulations brand doesn't do this even at 20mg. Research has actually shown the high dose helps repair brain tissue.

 

I"m doing a very slow heavy metal detox program (thru food no chelating etc) because I know this has to do with my depression. I have mercury fillings and heavy metals are everywhere.

 

Hang in there. It feels like it's forever because one day of withdrawal is too long and I can't believe I got thru it (and I"ve gotten off of hard drugs and alcohol and I preferred that over SSRI withdrawal).You can get thru it. It really can get better. It's just a marathon not a race but maybe in a few years you will look back and be like 'omg I cant believe it's been that long' where as now it feels like it's your entire life..then you will realize you haven't thought about it in a long long time. Message me with any questions. Thinking of all of you and sending you light and love.

 

Natalie

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servadei

Piscesrising, did you have derealization and depersonalization? If you did, did they go away?

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scallywag

Pisces / Natalie

 

Thanks for coming back to post how you're doing that you've been off Lexapro for 3 years. I appreciate that it may have taken considerable courage to post a story that isn't all about rose gardens, beaches, and sunrise. Your authenticity shines through. I hope things get better for you.

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piscesrising

I had some depersonalization and the only time I had that again was after an assault that happened on me last summer-so it was PTSD related but nothing med related. How long has it been happening for you?

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servadei

Thanks for the answer. I had dp/dr since I stopped the meds.

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Mort81

Thanks piscesrising for the amazing story! I had a question, when did you feel you turned the  corner and healing was happening faster with less intense waves?

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manymoretodays

Hi.  Any other psych medications along with your 13 years or so of Lexapro or before?

 

It sounds great, your healing!  Can you give a general overview as far as what you do now in your life and your age, etc, other health problems? diet and sensitivities?............if you feel comfortable doing so.

 

Thanks for posting.  :)

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btdt

 NeuroMag? is that magnesium L-Thteonate.  I already know I can't take melatonin not even low doses.  I think this would be a great place for an update please. 

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blueheron

Natalie --

I needed to read this today. Been tapering for two months, today is around five days of total abstinence after almost 14 years of Celexa or Lexapro. 

 

I also have almost 18 years of clean and sober time, and NEVER expected this to feel like a detox. Holy crap! Why don't the doctors warn us about this?

 

Anyway, I've tapered before and always gone back because I couldn't get through this part -- the crying, grieving, heart-feels-like-an-open-wound part. But this time I will, armed with stories like yours.

 

So thank you. So appreciative.

Bridget

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Peachy

Blueheron -

 

I see that you say that you tapered using Welbutrin, and you have been medication free since 2012...

 

Did the welbutrin help with the ssri withdrawal? Also, are you still having all these symptoms today, since being med free in 2012?

 

What dose of lexapro were you on? I have been on lexapro to manage Pure-O and depression for 15 years. I am trying to come off again now and it has been hell. I really want to have a baby, plus my meds started to turn on me :(

 

 

Need reassurance it can be done after being on them for such a long time!

 

XX

Erin

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Peachy

Natalie-

 

Can I ask what dose of Lexapro you were on, and if you had the anxiety and depression before you started taking them?

How long did you take to taper, and how long did it take before you started to feel that you had healed?

 

I am mostly having intense mental things going on with withdrawal. Its horrific. 

 

I'm super interested in your story bc I too have been on Lexapro 15mg, and 20mg for a long period of time. It is suppose to be a more potent drug. I have had a hard time finding anyone that has been on high doses long term successfully get off...

 

Best wishes, and congrats on your recovery!

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stan

i searched datas because 13 years taken and success after 3 years!!!!!!!!

 

i find only a few speech in 2013, no details, and now come 18 june, post and 19 june finished leaved

 

curious interesting success story, maybe i search wrong with my bad english

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ChessieCat

Hi there,

 

The staff at SA are wondering how you are.  We'd love to hear how you are doing now.   Would you mind dropping by and giving an update?

 

Thanks.

CC

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