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It has been years since I took medications, I was 16 when I took them in 2009, and went through a few different brands.

I have copied some of my introduction story to make things easier for me.

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/5232-%E2%98%BC-hello-charliebrown-script-free/#entry67166

 

Starting with Fluoxetine 10mg for 1 month.

Then Venlafaxine for 1 month at 75mg then, 3 months at 150mg.
1 month of Clonazepam 0.5mg as I was tapered off Venlafaxine and onto Sertraline 50mg.

Then I took Sertraline 100mg for 4 months.
 

Still experiencing panic attacks, agoraphobia and paranoia. I went to the hospital during a panic attack and was given Lorazepam 1mg for 1 week.

 

This is when my psychiatrist added Risperidone on top of the Sertraline.

 

Risperidone started at 0.25mg for 3 days, then 0.5mg for one week, raised to 1.0mg for one week. After two weeks I had a check-up I told the Dr. I wasn't feeling anything and I believe he may have misinterpreted that as "no effects" but when I said it I meant that I felt no emotions. My dose was raised to 1.5mg daily.
 

After 3 days of 1.5mg I began experiencing Akathisia with no relief of anxiety. With no options in perceived sight I took all of the remaining Risperidone. Approx forty 0.5mg pills. My Parents caught me and called 911.

 

At the hospital I was given charcoal and passed out, waking hours later. After being discharged I continued to take Sertraline as prescribed for 2 months.

 

With no reduction in my anxiety and my emotions being basically non existant I decided to "take the good with the bad" and feel some kind of emotion. Over the next month and a half I slowly weaned myself off Sertraline. Popping open the capsule and throwing away 3-5 tiny XR beads a day.

 

So that's my age, meds and taper strategy.
 

How long it took to regain all my emotions and bodily functions is a hard one to answer.

 

It took about 6 months before I felt much of anything. Then the bad emotions came back, sadness, anger.

 

Slowly over the next two years I had many days that were blank and void of anything, days full of sadness, but also days where a light would shine and I would be happy. Feelings were coming back in waves and leaving again.

 

I joined this website in late 2013 and at that point I had some emotional range, a libido but no sexual pleasure.

So i guess it took about 3 years off medications to regain a good emotional range and my youthful lust.

 

I'm finally writing this success story because in the past year the lack of sexual pleasure and anhedonia are not a problem for me anymore.

 

The feelings slowly came back in waves, sometimes weak, but getting stronger and stronger.

 

Now I feel great when I hug someone or see a friend smile. Sometimes the feelings can even be overwhelming.

Like my heart is ready to burst.

 

I don't know what else to add except, it's been almost 7 years since I took medications and I am a whole new person!

Don't give up hope! Things are constantly changing, even if you don't notice.

I didn't notice the change until it was right in my face! :D

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changed at request of OP

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Mjau

Thank you CharlieBrown for coming back and sharing how you're doing now! So glad you're feeling great!!

It's so comforting for all of us who are still in the battle to know there are people like you who have recovered!

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Alua

Thanks Charlie Brown. Great story, great courage. I don't know you but I'm so so happy for you. Wishing you years of happiness and good health.and thanks for coming back and sharing x

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scallywag

Hey CharlieBrown Try as they might to outsmart you like Lucy and the football, you finally kicked the psych drugs but good and for good.  Awesome!

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Deadpool

Thanks CharlieBrown. Have a wonderful life ahead. :)

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Shep

Wonderful success story, CharlieBrown. Thank you for writing it. Wishing you a happy and healthy drug-free life. 

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risperdalhater

i'm sure many people still recovering will find hope from your post. congratulations on your recovery  :) .

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elbee

Thanks you for sharing your story of success. It gives me hope!

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CharlieBrown

Thank you everyone for your well wishes! This website and its community have helped me when no one else could! Thank You!
It feels good to let others know they're not alone, and that things can change for the better!
 

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escitalopramsucks

It is so so good to read you tonight, Charliebrown.

 

I´m very happy for you.

 

I passed the most bitter year last winter and after that on summer I had a window when i recovered a little of my libido and my feeling come back.

 

Now i´m again bad and my sexual pleasure and libido are 0. I´m worried about this improvement was a unique fact and stay like now forever.

 

reading you cheer me up. Thanks

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CharlieBrown

I've received a few personal messages asking about the severity of sexual dysfunction I experienced. I thought I would post a few more details here.


At my very worst I had no libido, no arousal, no erections and I could feel it when touched but it was just like touching my arm or leg. Not as sensitive as it should be.

In 2013 I had a libido, arousal, erections but was still suffering from lack of sensation in my genitals. Upon climax I would have no pleasure, only muscle movements.

I thought I would never get better, I didn't try much or do anything special. But in time everything returned to normal and I have sexual pleasure again.

 

Hopefully that clears up the more private questions people may be left with after reading my story. Good Luck to you all!

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Deadpool
On 7/5/2016 at 0:03 AM, CharlieBrown said:

It has been years since I took medications, I was 16 when I took them in 2009, and went through a few different brands.

I have copied some of my introduction story to make things easier for me.

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/5232-%E2%98%BC-hello-charliebrown-script-free/#entry67166

 

Starting with Fluoxetine 10mg for 1 month.

Then Venlafaxine for 1 month at 75mg then, 3 months at 150mg.
1 month of Clonazepam 0.5mg as I was tapered off Venlafaxine and onto Sertraline 50mg.

Then I took Sertraline 100mg for 4 months.
 

Still experiencing panic attacks, agoraphobia and paranoia. I went to the hospital during a panic attack and was given Lorazepam 1mg for 1 week.

 

This is when my psychiatrist added Risperidone on top of the Sertraline.

 

Risperidone started at 0.25mg for 3 days, then 0.5mg for one week, raised to 1.0mg for one week. After two weeks I had a check-up I told the Dr. I wasn't feeling anything and I believe he may have misinterpreted that as "no effects" but when I said it I meant that I felt no emotions. My dose was raised to 1.5mg daily.
 

After 3 days of 1.5mg I began experiencing Akathisia with no relief of anxiety. With no options in perceived sight I took all of the remaining Risperidone. Approx forty 0.5mg pills. My Parents caught me and called 911.

 

At the hospital I was given charcoal and passed out, waking hours later. After being discharged I continued to take Sertraline as prescribed for 2 months.

 

With no reduction in my anxiety and my emotions being basically non existant I decided to "take the good with the bad" and feel some kind of emotion. Over the next month and a half I slowly weaned myself off Sertraline. Popping open the capsule and throwing away 3-5 tiny XR beads a day.

 

So that's my age, meds and taper strategy.
 

How long it took to regain all my emotions and bodily functions is a hard one to answer.

 

It took about 6 months before I felt much of anything. Then the bad emotions came back, sadness, anger.

 

Slowly over the next two years I had many days that were blank and void of anything, days full of sadness, but also days where a light would shine and I would be happy. Feelings were coming back in waves and leaving again.

 

I joined this website in late 2013 and at that point I had some emotional range, a libido but no sexual pleasure.

So i guess it took about 3 years off medications to regain a good emotional range and my youthful lust.

 

I'm finally writing this success story because in the past year the lack of sexual pleasure and anhedonia are not a problem for me anymore.

 

The feelings slowly came back in waves, sometimes weak, but getting stronger and stronger.

 

Now I feel great when I hug someone or see a friend smile. Sometimes the feelings can even be overwhelming.

Like my heart is ready to burst.

 

I don't know what else to add except, it's been almost 7 years since I took medications and I am a whole new person!

Don't give up hope! Things are constantly changing, even if you don't notice.

I didn't notice the change until it was right in my face! :D

This gives me hope. I have faith :)
i can feel sadness ,anger now

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theloneranger86

thanks for clearing up Charlie Brown. Appreciate it . 

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Pepita

yeah!!! thanks for your story!!!!!❤️

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CharlieBrown

Hey, Chiming in again!

After some personal messages and recollection. I thought I should add some information about my improved libido.

 

I started taking meds when I was 16 and going through puberty, I don't think I ever had a proper reference point to start from.

I stated that I felt my libido was improved 3 years post medication. It's true that I had regained a steady libido, but looking back now I can see that it was still not as strong as it should be for a young man of that age.

 

After 3 years without medication my libido was much closer to what I remembered when I was 16. Now I can look back and see, that there has been a continued gradual improvement in my libido. It probably took closer to 5-6 years post meds, for me to have a completely "normal" libido.

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elbee

Hey @CharlieBrown thanks for continuing to come back and update. There is such little info out there, I personally really appreciate hearing about first person experience. I notice my libido increasing too as I get off the drugs. This, anecdotally at least is good news for many :)

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Altostrata

How are you doing these days, CharlieBrown?

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CharlieBrown
On 7/18/2019 at 3:48 PM, Altostrata said:

How are you doing these days, CharlieBrown?

 

These days can be tough. But that has to do with the economy and how much my money is worth at the store. Prices are going up, that's tough. But I live in Canada and I know I am blessed while others are starving. (Lets not get too serious, but I know Canada is riding on top of other countries poverty, I know some places don't have meat or even grains.) I have a loving family and desires for the future, that's what matters to me, in this life.

 

I have my troubles just like others around me. But medication side-effects are a thing of the past. That's why I visit this website.

I am 100% recovered from all the problems I came to this website with.

New problems may have replaced them in my mind, but I am free from the "distress and worry that I am permanently damaged, and I can't have a family of my own."

 

I can say that despite serious traumas in my life. That I haven't always publicly shared on this forum. (Witnessing the death of a friend) A newfound faith in Jesus Christ, repentance, prayer and submission in his name alone. Has brought me peace, when nothing else could.

 

I have dabbled with illicit drugs for 1 year, what a waste... (I don't mention them in my story, because they came after years of abstinence from drugs. Post drugs 5-6 years? And not really part of my recovery, the memories are still painful. And I don't feel they are relevant.) I don't want to lie by omission, but I also feel my use of illicit drugs had very little, if any affect on my recovery from medication side-effects.

 

I feared many would discard my story, with any excuse they can use. Because they don't have much hope. One excuse being that I once used street drugs, I can't be trusted. But if anything, it proves recovery is still possible! So forgive me for not disclosing that information, but believe my success story.

 

I only come back after 10 years off medications, to say that recovery is there, with time, and hope/faith. I didn't pray or have faith in Jesus when I had sexual problems, I was not with Christ at all when I first joined this site. But I had hope I would recover... Now I am whole again. My greatest desire is to have a family of my own, and be a good Father.

 

My life has it's waves and crests. Who's doesn't? I am not the boy I was in the past. I am a new man!

I hope to continue to come back to this site and give hope to those in need. I find it amazing I only have 28-29 posts over all these years.

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Altostrata

CharlieBrown, your continued participation in our community will give many people exactly what they need -- hope and encouragement. Thank you again.

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Cocopuffz17
23 hours ago, CharlieBrown said:

 

These days can be tough. But that has to do with the economy and how much my money is worth at the store. Prices are going up, that's tough. But I live in Canada and I know I am blessed while others are starving. (Lets not get too serious, but I know Canada is riding on top of other countries poverty, I know some places don't have meat or even grains.) I have a loving family and desires for the future, that's what matters to me, in this life.

 

I have my troubles just like others around me. But medication side-effects are a thing of the past. That's why I visit this website.

I am 100% recovered from all the problems I came to this website with.

New problems may have replaced them in my mind, but I am free from the "distress and worry that I am permanently damaged, and I can't have a family of my own."

 

I can say that despite serious traumas in my life. That I haven't always publicly shared on this forum. (Witnessing the death of a friend) A newfound faith in Jesus Christ, repentance, prayer and submission in his name alone. Has brought me peace, when nothing else could.

 

I have dabbled with illicit drugs for 1 year, what a waste... (I don't mention them in my story, because they came after years of abstinence from drugs. Post drugs 5-6 years? And not really part of my recovery, the memories are still painful. And I don't feel they are relevant.) I don't want to lie by omission, but I also feel my use of illicit drugs had very little, if any affect on my recovery from medication side-effects.

 

I feared many would discard my story, with any excuse they can use. Because they don't have much hope. One excuse being that I once used street drugs, I can't be trusted. But if anything, it proves recovery is still possible! So forgive me for not disclosing that information, but believe my success story.

 

I only come back after 10 years off medications, to say that recovery is there, with time, and hope/faith. I didn't pray or have faith in Jesus when I had sexual problems, I was not with Christ at all when I first joined this site. But I had hope I would recover... Now I am whole again. My greatest desire is to have a family of my own, and be a good Father.

 

My life has it's waves and crests. Who's doesn't? I am not the boy I was in the past. I am a new man!

I hope to continue to come back to this site and give hope to those in need. I find it amazing I only have 28-29 posts over all these years.

Thank you for sharing your story. It helps me out a lot! 

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CharlieBrown
3 hours ago, Cocopuffz17 said:

Thank you for sharing your story. It helps me out a lot! 

 

You are more than welcome! I am glad to help. Take it easy, take it slow, take care! 😊

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CharlieBrown
9 hours ago, Altostrata said:

CharlieBrown, your continued participation in our community will give many people exactly what they need -- hope and encouragement. Thank you again.

 

That is what I aspire to do through this website. Thank you! I know you are a cornerstone of this website. Your continued service to others, over all these years is amazing. Selfless and kind, Bless you!

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PH1

Thanks for sharing your story, CB!   God bless you.

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ghm2018

Thank you so very much for sharing your story of recovery. It gives me hope! May God richly bless you and your family. 

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JackieDecides
On 7/4/2016 at 12:33 PM, CharlieBrown said:

So i guess it took about 3 years off medications to regain a good emotional range and my youthful lust.

 

 

On 12/15/2018 at 7:45 PM, CharlieBrown said:

It probably took closer to 5-6 years post meds, for me to have a completely "normal" libido.

 

 

I'm glad you are back and now a mentor, CharlieBrown.

 

I was encouraged by what I quoted because I have only been off Lexapro just over a year and I frequently fear that I should be all better by now. if someone as young as you takes years to recover, I find that encouraging because it means I am still going to get better than this. 

 

thank you!!

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CharlieBrown

Everyone thanking me is more than welcome. I feel you deserve it. Thank you for your well wishes!

 

I keep coming back because it was a struggle all those years, and I did not have much encouragement.

I feel obligated to tell others that in time... Sometimes a long time, you will recover.

 

You're all very welcome! Blessings, Chuck!

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Deadpool

There are no more medicines for me. I have regained my human life. Back to full throttle. Now... Ladies, have we met before? 😈

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CharlieBrown
12 minutes ago, Deadpool said:

There are no more medicines for me. I have regained my human life. Back to full throttle. Now... Ladies, have we met before? 😈

 

Careful, don't break hearts! Including your own. 👼

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getofflex

It's wonderful to read this success story.  It's gives me hope, and I'm happy for you that you recovered. 

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CharlieBrown

 

"I'm going to win! I'm going to win the decathlon! They'll treat me like Bruce Jenner! Parades, flowers, Wow!

It's great being a winner! So peaceful and quiet!"

 

Well wishes and all my best, to everyone still running the race!

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India
On 7/22/2019 at 1:46 AM, CharlieBrown said:

I am 100% recovered from all the problems I came to this website with.

This is an amazing thing to read. Congrats.

What about your cognivity?

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Cocopuffz17
On 9/30/2019 at 12:32 AM, CharlieBrown said:

 

"I'm going to win! I'm going to win the decathlon! They'll treat me like Bruce Jenner! Parades, flowers, Wow!

It's great being a winner! So peaceful and quiet!"

 

Well wishes and all my best, to everyone still running the race!

 

Haha! That video made me laugh.  Thank you for coming by and touching base! Such an inspiration to read success stories. 

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PH1

Haha!  Great video, CB!

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CharlieBrown
On 10/7/2019 at 6:30 AM, India said:

This is an amazing thing to read. Congrats.

What about your cognivity?

Thanks,

My cognitive function is back to what I would consider normal. It all came gradually, feelings good and bad, less brain fog.

 

I am a kinesthetic learner, I have the will, and attention span to do things! I am not so sharp at math, but I never have been. I can think quite clearly now, or at least I think I can. ;) 

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