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If I don't fully recover during this present system of things, I know I will recover perfect health in the very near future. I know of over eight million others who share my hope.

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There is a topic "Do you believe in chronic damage? What if you were given a guarantee that you could live forever on an earthly paradise with mankind and animals all being at peace with one another? And you would be healed from withdrawal syndrome or whatever affliction you are living with. Even if you were to succumb from your sickness, you would able to live again. And this would last forever. Would you not be interested in how these things could come true for you? There are over eight million on the earth right now myself included, who absolutely know this will happen. It can become your hope as well. Do you want to be well again and enjoy the exquisite delight in the abundance of peace? Please, just ask me how this can become a reality for you as well.

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Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

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We live in critical times hard to deal with. This is another proof of that statement. But it is not always going to be this way. A very bright future awaits in the very near future. All these injustices will be gone. Man has dominated man to his injury for centuries, but this is all coming to and end soon.

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I have a very traumatic history like many here and millions the world over. Mankind is a sea of agitation like no other time in history. But there is a way out. Just ask me.

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Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

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Marsha, please see

 

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Am I being publicly humiliated?

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Please, I don't understand. These posts were hidden and there was a private discussion with a moderator. Since the subject has been made public i am responding publicly.

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I don't understand what I am allowed to say in my one topic.

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If you are inviting others to discuss your faith with you, you can do it in this topic, or personal messages if you prefer.

Oh thank you so much Altostrata. I will try to be very careful not to frighten anyone.

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This is what helps me. "Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be anxious, for I am your God. I will fortify you, yes,I will help you, I will really hold on to you with my right hand of righteousness. " I know I will be well again someday.

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Hebrews 3:4 "Of course, every house is constructed by someone, but the one who constructed all things is God." No, I have not lost my faith in God from withdrawal, but in fact have had my faith strengthened. If a house, must be built my human hands, how much more so the universe must have intelligent design. Am I allowed to talk about this here or am I confined to my one topic? Don't want to break any rules.

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That's great Marsha.

 

Yana

2010 started 10 mg celexa, 2011 went up to 20 mg

06/2014 started tapering (20 mg,10 mg alternate days)

19/09/2014 crashed at 10 mg

20/09/2014 updosed to 20 mg to try and stabilize- Never stabilized and CNS basically plummeted

August 31 2015- Started my 5% taper anyways

May 3 2016- At 14 mg the tapering caught up with me- Withdrawal included severe anxiety, feeling like im on speed, suicidal and homicidal ideation, akathesia, feeling like I was on heroin, memory loss, PGAD, feeling like I was on an acid

May 4 2016- Updosed to 15.5 mg to try and stabilize

​June 4- Started taking 2 mg 5 times a day which adds up to 10 mg because of akathesia when taking my full dose. Akathesia symtpoms smaller

July 27th- Dropped from 15.5 mg to 10 mg because could no longer tolerate taking drug- bad side effects mainly akathesia and emotional deadness.

​Oct 11- Improved a lot since May 4th after my crash. Withdrawal symptoms still left- DR/DP, emotional anasthesia, akathesia, tingling in head, feeling like my body and face disappears, messed up sound interpretation, perception and difficulty reading social and emotional cues during DR/DP, apathy, inability to tell if I am in dream or reality, disturbed sleep. Started having few windows

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praying everyday to thhat i don't have anything permanent, even tho i'm feeling stuff for more than a year now... god, this is a living nightmare, just heard about one guy with a pretty similar story, who after 15 years still feeling stuff, that's just insane

(i'm brazlian so please, ignore spelling mistakes) 2015 the beggining of the year started with effexor xr 37,5

went up to 300mgs

in october of 2015 quitted COLD TURKEY/took olanzapine 5mgs for 2 weeks around november/ reinstated effexor in january of 2016

in march of 2016 was at 300mg again

in may tappered effexor xr and added trazodone 150mgs, seroquel 50mgs and abilify 10 mgs/in july cold turkey from abilify (no big deal)

in september tried reducing trazadone to 50mg

after 2 weeks went back to 150mgs of trazadone and 50 mgs of seroquel and added 2 mgs of klonopin to use WHEN NEEDEED

currently taking 150mgs of trazadone and 50 mgs of seroquel at night

 

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Something else that helps me. I believe God's promise that soon I will have "exquisite delight in the abundance of peace." Cited from New World Translation of the Holy Scriptures.

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Here are a few encouraging words from the Bible. In the very near future: "He will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away." Revelation 21:4. We are living in "critical times, hard to deal with." From 2 Timothy 3:1-5. I would happily share my wonderful hope for the future that is promised in the Bible.

 

Am I following the guidelines correctly?

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You may like to read or join this thread Marsha 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/5849-lets-pray-for-one-another/?hl=prayer#entry79270

 

wishing you peace

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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It is not our fault that we are suffering. Even people who have never been on these drugs suffer like we do. Ecclesiastes 9:11 says "time and unexpected events overtake them all." I believe God's word when it says "The whole world is lying in the power of the wicked one." That is Satan the Devil. He is responsible for the turmoil and suffering that mankind experiences. But soon God will put an end to all suffering by taking the Devil out of the picture. God gives us so much hope for the future even while sustaining us right now as we suffer. Imagine this: Never having to die and living on the earth in a beautiful paradise with no sickness or death and all creation being at peace with one another. This is promised in the Bible by our Creator. I would love to share how I learned about this wonderful future. PM me or just ask here and I will do my best within the SA guidelines to help anyone who is interested.

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Will you accept God's greatest gift. What do you think? What is the greatest gift God has ever given us? The Bible says:"God loved the world so much that he gave his only begotten Son." The Bible describes a gift of incalculable worth, which can bless those who receive it with everlasting life. Could there be a gift of greater value?

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Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

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What can God do for you today? Excerpts from Psalm 25....."Turn your face to me and show me favor, for I am alone and helpless...The distresses of my heart have multiplied...See my affliction and my troubles....Free me from my anguish....guard my life and save me....for my hope is in you......" These words from God's word the Bible have brought me great comfort. And from Isaiah 42....No crushed reed will he break, no smoldering wick will he extinguish.... I J.....h have called you in righteousness, I have taken a hold of your hand....I will safeguard you....You can see others have shared your pain and anguish, they penned for you words you also express because of being overwhelmed in this system. God sees it and can strengthen you to help you endure. Have that confidence, no matter what, as it is a promise from him.

90 mg armour thyroid

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B12 ez melts, active B complex, vitamin D3, Vitamin C, Fluconazole, Nystatin, SloFe, Magnesium.

Nearly 30 years of benzos, antidepressants, antipsychotics etc...took a lot of them. 

Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

Drug free September 9, 2019

 

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On 12/28/2016 at 10:38 AM, Marsha said:

What can God do for you today? Excerpts from Psalm 25....."Turn your face to me and show me favor, for I am alone and helpless...The distresses of my heart have multiplied...See my affliction and my troubles....Free me from my anguish....guard my life and save me....for my hope is in you......" These words from God's word the Bible have brought me great comfort. And from Isaiah 42....No crushed reed will he break, no smoldering wick will he extinguish.... I J.....h have called you in righteousness, I have taken a hold of your hand....I will safeguard you....You can see others have shared your pain and anguish, they penned for you words you also express because of being overwhelmed in this system. God sees it and can strengthen you to help you endure. Have that confidence, no matter what, as it is a promise from him.

Yes, this is what gets me through. Every time. I have hope that humans can "find their exquisite delight in the abundance of peace," Psalm 37:11.

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This is for those who have been lost by man's inhumanity to man and to comfort those of us who remain. We are living in perilous times. So many are frightened and have lost hope. 

 

Song 151 "He Will  Call"

 

Life like a mist, appears for just a day, Then disappears tomorrow. All that we are can quickly fade away,  Replaced with tears and sorrow. If a man should d-e, can he live again? Hear the promise God has made: 

He will call; The d--d will answer. They will live at his command. For he will have a longing For the work of his own hand. So have faith, and do not wonder, For our God can make us stand. And we will live forever, As the work of his own hand.

Friends of our God, though they may pass away, Will never be forsaken. All those asleep who in God's mem-'ry stay, From d--th he will awaken. Then we'll come to see all that life can be: Paradise eternally. 

 

He will call; The d--d will answer. They will live at his command. For he will have a longing For the work of his own hand. So have faith, and do not wonder, For our God can make us stand. And we will live forever, As the work of his own hand.

 

I apologise if I have posted inappropriately and this must be removed. I just wanted to give some comfort and hope. 

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Nearly 30 years of benzos, antidepressants, antipsychotics etc...took a lot of them. 

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I love that Marsha, it is a beautiful song. :wub:

**I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge.

 

 

Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem)

1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat

2002  effexor. 

Tapered  March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads.

Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013

Restarted taper  Nov 2013  

OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015    :D 

Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014

 

Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg  

 July 2017 30mg.  May 15 2018 25mg

Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. 

 

My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33

 

Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible

 

 

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I love that Marsha, it is a beautiful song. :wub:

It is mammaP.

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 Portions of Song 139 See Yourself When All Is New

 

Just see yourself, just see me too,

      Just see us all in a world that is new.

Think how you'll feel, how it will be,

      To live in peace, to be truly free.

No evil one will then prevail...........

 

Now see yourself, and see me too,

       And look ahead to a world that is new

No sight we see, no sound we hear

       Will cause alarm or give rise to fear

 

  Just a few words that bring me peace, comfort and hope for a bright future ahead.    

 

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B12 ez melts, active B complex, vitamin D3, Vitamin C, Fluconazole, Nystatin, SloFe, Magnesium.

Nearly 30 years of benzos, antidepressants, antipsychotics etc...took a lot of them. 

Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

Drug free September 9, 2019

 

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There is hope everyone. For a bright beautiful future. Anyone reading this topic is invited to ask why I have posted all of the above. This world is out of control and people are faint outof fear because of the things happening on the earth. It's going to take something bigger than all of us to relieve our sufferings folks. PM me. Please,  ask anything you want. I will do my best to answer any questions you have. "

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Nearly 30 years of benzos, antidepressants, antipsychotics etc...took a lot of them. 

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song 44 

J.....h God, I call to you and ask you "Hear my prayer."

Mywounds are deep and slow to heal; my load is hard to bear.

Despondent thoughts and disappointed hopes have left me weak.

O God of comfort, care for me; your favor I do seek.

Chorus

Do raise me up; help me endure.

When I'm in doubt, make my hope sure.

From deep despair,  I turn to you. 

J.....h God, my strength renew.

 

Your Word has been my comfort and a refuge when I'm weak,

Expressing feelings dear to me in words I cannot speak.

Please build in me the faith and trust that your Word does impart. 

And help me always know your love is greater than my heart.

 

Do raise me up; help me endure.

When I'm in doubt, make my hope sure.

From deep despair, I turn to you.

J.....h God, my strength renew.

 

You can listen to songs like these as well. I find the lyrics and music so beautiful. I listen to them especially at night when I have disquieting thoughts and memories. 

 

 

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B12 ez melts, active B complex, vitamin D3, Vitamin C, Fluconazole, Nystatin, SloFe, Magnesium.

Nearly 30 years of benzos, antidepressants, antipsychotics etc...took a lot of them. 

Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

Drug free September 9, 2019

 

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God wants people to enjoy life on earth. He created tbe earth and everything on it because he loves mankind. Soon he will act to provide a better future for people in every land. He will relieve mankind of the causes of suffering. Jeremiah 29:11 "'For. I. well know the thoughts that I am thinking toward you,'  declares J-----h, 'thoughts of peace, and not of calamity, to give you a future and a hope.

 

 

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B12 ez melts, active B complex, vitamin D3, Vitamin C, Fluconazole, Nystatin, SloFe, Magnesium.

Nearly 30 years of benzos, antidepressants, antipsychotics etc...took a lot of them. 

Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

Drug free September 9, 2019

 

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It is hard for me too. But I try to keep my focus best I can on the future, the sure hope for permanent healing, perfect health and life filled with joy and peace. 

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B12 ez melts, active B complex, vitamin D3, Vitamin C, Fluconazole, Nystatin, SloFe, Magnesium.

Nearly 30 years of benzos, antidepressants, antipsychotics etc...took a lot of them. 

Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

Drug free September 9, 2019

 

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Portions of Song 145

God's Promise of Paradise 

 

A paradise our God had promised,

   By means of Christ's Millennial Reign,

When he'll blot out all sin and error,

   Removing d---h and tears and pain.

 

A paradise,  the earth will be.

   With eyes of faith, this we can see.

This promise Christ will soon fulfill,

   For he delights to do God's will.

 

I'm pinning my hope for true lasting healing on this promise. We live in critical times, hard to deal with.

Trying to not be bitter or angry anymore. It does not add a cubit to my lifespan.  To me and many more, learning about the beautiful future ahead,, practicing humility and forgiveness,and putting my focus on the momentous events coming which will put a permanent end to all pain, suffering, injustices.  

 

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15 mcg liothyronine

B12 ez melts, active B complex, vitamin D3, Vitamin C, Fluconazole, Nystatin, SloFe, Magnesium.

Nearly 30 years of benzos, antidepressants, antipsychotics etc...took a lot of them. 

Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

Drug free September 9, 2019

 

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I love this topic, I can imagine posting is a good way to cope on bad days and it's also a good comfort for people who believe in the bible.😁

I'm listening to the phone link at the moment and this scripture came up!

"Let your reasonableness become known to all men. The Lord is near.  6 Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving, let your petitions be made known to God;  7 and the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your mental powers by means of Christ Jesus."

I don't normally listen to meetings but I'm so glad I did today, especially after praying for Jehovah to show me he's with me. :) This part was helpful too,

16 for while I was in Thes·sa·lo·niʹca, you sent something to me for my need not just once but twice. 18 However, I have everything I need and even more.

Thank you for your topic! ❤️

16.4.14 - 25.4.15 Took Paxil (??mg) - cold turkey. Had random pgad symptoms around this time but not sure when exactly.

?.5.14: Started Citalopram (10mg) / 17.5.14: Quickly upped to 20mg  / 9?.15: upped to 30mg. 

8.16: Tapered off Citalopram in less than 2 weeks / 9.16: straight back on 20mg for just a week then stopped cold turkey. 11.16 Very mild pgad, PN symptoms and other withdrawals started.

7.12.16: Took Amitriptyline 10mg for just 2 days then stopped cold turkey.

14.12.16: reinstated 5mg of Citalopram / 1?.16: 10mg Citalopram / ?.16: 20mg Citalopram. 3.17 (6 months since withdrawing) pgad hit.

8.2.18: 15mg Citalopram / 8.3.18: 10mg / 8.4.18: 5mg / 12?.5.18: 2.5mg / 19.5.18: 0mg. pgad worsened almost instantly from first tapper, all sorts of PN symptoms, earworm, tinnitus, other things, coming and going until late 9.18 (4 months since 0mg) where it all got SO MUCH worse for 1.11 years (with windows and waves).

1.9.20: 99% healed ❤️

31.5.21: Smoked weed 5 out of 9 days. Pgad and other old withdrawals came back. 🤦‍♀️

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Marsha: My Mum gave me this not long after I got sick maybe it could be of some inspiration to you... as it was for me

 

One night I had a dream...

I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and across the sky flashed scenes from my life,

For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me, the other to the Lord

when the last scene of my life flashed before us

I looked at the footprints in the sand

I noticed that many times along the path of my life, there was only one set of footprints.

 

I also noticed that it happened during the most lowest, and saddest times in my life

This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it

"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you would walk with me all the way

but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints

I don't know why in times when I needed you the most, you were not there.

 

the Lord Replied...

 

"My precious child,  I love you and I would never leave you,  during your times of trial and suffering, when you saw only one set of foot prints, It was then that I carried you

2006-2007 ZOLOFT 25-300mg/day 2007-2015 ZOLOFT 300mg/day 2015-20th Oct 2017 200mg/day ZOLOFT STOPPED CT 3 week standard WD thought I was home free BUT 4th month went downhill rapidly.More than just depression, my brain was trying to cope with the sudden lack of ZOLOFT but couldn't. BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE

2/3/2018 took 200mg ZOLOFT  @ 3pm FELT GREAT WITHIN 30 MINUTES.. (Zoloft was always instant for me from day 1) 24 hours later MIND SPLIT IN HALF/BODY CRASHED

March 3rd 2018 - Present. 24 Tamezepam, 40 Diazepam, 65 Oxazepam, 10 Alprazolam, 100? Lorazepam

4/3/2018 - 8/3/2018 EFFEXOR 75mg/day 9/3/2018 - 22/3/2018 ZOLOFT 50mg/day 23/3/2018 - 5/4/2018 ZOLOFT 100mg/day 6/4/2018 - 19/4/2018 ZOLOFT 200mg/day

19/6/2018 - 25/6/2018 OLANZAPINE 7.5mg/night 26/6/2018 - 8/7/2018 OLANZAPINE 15mg/night

29/6/2018 - 5/7/2018 ZOLOFT 200mg/day

6/7/2018 - 8/7/2018 Vortioxetine 5mg/day 

10/7/2018 - 29/7/2018 ZOLOFT 175mg/day

ATIVAN 29/6/2018 - 13/7/2018 - 2mg /day 14/7/2018 - 16/7/2018 spaced (x3 0.5mg doses/day)  17/7/2018  - 29/7/2018 spaced (x4 0.5mg doses/day)

 

 

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I so happy Rbvdk that you were able to listen by way of the phone. And deejay thank you for sharing that lovely piece. We are never alone. For Jehovah says, "I will never leave you and I will never abandon you."  During our trials that we face in this system of things, He makes the way out by helping us to endure it. I am looking forward to the future and try not to dwell on the past  which  I cannot change. 

90 mg armour thyroid

15 mcg liothyronine

B12 ez melts, active B complex, vitamin D3, Vitamin C, Fluconazole, Nystatin, SloFe, Magnesium.

Nearly 30 years of benzos, antidepressants, antipsychotics etc...took a lot of them. 

Better to feel and enjoy life again even the ups and downs. 

Drug free September 9, 2019

 

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I read the whole thread because I am desperate because my patience has come to an end, I mean my patience for bearing this very long journey of tapering psychiatric drugs. Good thing is that thanks to SA I'm tapering very slowly and gradually the drugs, which gives me a little bit of stability, but that doesn't eliminate the horrible side effects of the psych drugs I take. And this side effects are present 24/7. 

I read this topic because I'm searching for something to reduce, even if it is very little, the intensity of the hell I'm living. 

God and religious things have never helped me, I've tried before several times to feel better through religious things but they don't work.

I feel a hate to these religious topics because of the fact that they are false. I've suffered the biggest hells which are prove that God doesn't exist, prove that he has abandoned me. Those are facts that prove the falsehood of God. And I'm not the only prove, millions of innocent people, even children, have been raped, tortured and killed in Congo because other countries invade it to steal Congo's resources like metals and these countries steal the Congo's mines in order to sell those metals to some of the biggest corporations like Samsung, nintendo, toshiba, dell, etc so that this corporations can use those metals to produce laptops, smartphones and even cars to sell them all over the world. "God loves us, he promised us that he's going to give us paradise on Earth in a future , etc... bullsh*t (no offense, I don't mean this to people that say stuff about God but to the idea that God exists). People that believe in God believe in him because they haven't been tortured or killed. The day people that believe in God live the most horrible and prolonged hell, like the hell people live in Congo, they are going to stop believing in God. Or like the hell I've lived for 6 years of taking and tapering psychiatric drugs. I have 17 horrible daily side effects caused by the psychiatric drugs, and there is no way to get rid of them because once I cold turkeyed and I had a psychosis. So I can't cold turkey, I have to taper very slowly which forces me to keep taking the drugs. There is no way out. Because of psychiatric drugs, I lost my job, I could not finish my bachelor's degree, I'm not able to work/have a job so my mom has to pay for my basic expenses like food which makes me feel powerless and depressed. The not basic expenses I have to pay them for myself from my savings so little by little my money in my bank account is reducing and will soon reach zero.

The title of this thread: "Do you believe chronic damage can end? There is a way out." would be credible if someone in SA was in a long tapering of psychiatric drugs, that he/she went through severe and prolonged anguish and now he/she feels good, either now he/she already got off all his/her psych drugs or now he/she is in a very small dose, close to getting off them completely.

Nov/30/17 started Q-MIND (quetiapine) IR tablets 100mg 0-0-1. Dec/1/17 started pristiq (desvenlafaxine) 50mg tablets 1-0-0. Jan/4/18 started tapering pristiq by alternating dosages

Jan/5 & 6/18 changed to quetiapine XR 300mg. Jan/7&8/18 changed to quetiapine XR 150mg. Jan/9/18 went back to IR quetiapine 100mg 0-0-1.

Jan/14/18 started with 1.5mg melatonin 0-0-1

Jan/20/18 went back to one daily pristiq 50mg 1-0-0.   Tramadol: 2 year taper: from Mar/12/18 to Feb/11/20 I'm 100% sure I could have tapered it much faster, like in 5 or 6 months.

Pristiq taper: Jun/15/20 Converted from pristiq 50mg to efexor xr 75mg for 57 days.  Aug/11/20 weaned to efexor 37.5mg for 2 months with 26 days. Nov 6 '20  0mg of efexor xr.

Total time in tapering pristiq 50mg by converting to efexor xr 75mg: 4 months with 22 days: Jun/15/20 to Nov/6/20.

35 days  in efexor 0mg (Nov/6/20 to Dic/11/20) to start tapering quetiapine

Dic/11/20 weaned quetiapine from 100mg to 75mg, so 75mg from Dic/11/20 to Jan/4/21  25 days

Jan/5/21 weaned from 75mg to 50mg.   Jan/6/21 Cold turkeyed from 50mg to 0mg (Failed attempt of tapering quetiapine in 26 days)

Between Jan/6/21 to Mar/24/21 tried 3 different herbs and stopped taking melatonin 1.5mg (I've been taking melatonin since Jan/14/18) and felt hellish, went back to taking melatonin. 3 weeks before Mar/24/21 felt some days hellish AE's and Mar/24/21 felt hellish and intolerable anxiety so Mar/25/21 went back to 50mg of quetiapine. 

 

 

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Even though I have this hate towards religious stuff, I'm still open to it, meaning that if a person suggests me a religious solution, if it helped that person while tapering psych drugs, I'll be open to it and try it. 

Nov/30/17 started Q-MIND (quetiapine) IR tablets 100mg 0-0-1. Dec/1/17 started pristiq (desvenlafaxine) 50mg tablets 1-0-0. Jan/4/18 started tapering pristiq by alternating dosages

Jan/5 & 6/18 changed to quetiapine XR 300mg. Jan/7&8/18 changed to quetiapine XR 150mg. Jan/9/18 went back to IR quetiapine 100mg 0-0-1.

Jan/14/18 started with 1.5mg melatonin 0-0-1

Jan/20/18 went back to one daily pristiq 50mg 1-0-0.   Tramadol: 2 year taper: from Mar/12/18 to Feb/11/20 I'm 100% sure I could have tapered it much faster, like in 5 or 6 months.

Pristiq taper: Jun/15/20 Converted from pristiq 50mg to efexor xr 75mg for 57 days.  Aug/11/20 weaned to efexor 37.5mg for 2 months with 26 days. Nov 6 '20  0mg of efexor xr.

Total time in tapering pristiq 50mg by converting to efexor xr 75mg: 4 months with 22 days: Jun/15/20 to Nov/6/20.

35 days  in efexor 0mg (Nov/6/20 to Dic/11/20) to start tapering quetiapine

Dic/11/20 weaned quetiapine from 100mg to 75mg, so 75mg from Dic/11/20 to Jan/4/21  25 days

Jan/5/21 weaned from 75mg to 50mg.   Jan/6/21 Cold turkeyed from 50mg to 0mg (Failed attempt of tapering quetiapine in 26 days)

Between Jan/6/21 to Mar/24/21 tried 3 different herbs and stopped taking melatonin 1.5mg (I've been taking melatonin since Jan/14/18) and felt hellish, went back to taking melatonin. 3 weeks before Mar/24/21 felt some days hellish AE's and Mar/24/21 felt hellish and intolerable anxiety so Mar/25/21 went back to 50mg of quetiapine. 

 

 

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