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Miracle123

Hi RS, How are you? Hope everything going fine with your slower tapering. Im glad your brain cog is gone.....i remember those brain pressure, zap or cog is really make me suffering until now. Hope your healing and recovery getting better and more improvement. Take care and hugs.

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RachelSusan

@Miracle123

 

Hi Miracle,

 

Thank you for stopping by.  Yes, thank goodness no Cog Fog for me.  When I taper I still get symptoms but they are very light compared to what I went through last year and the year before that. 

 

This process takes a long time so please don't give up hope. It sounds like you are having some good days and then some bad days.  Hopefully you will continue to see improvement. I am two years and four months into this ordeal and it's only the last 6 months that I have felt really good. You will improve, it just takes a long time.

 

Warm wishes,

Rachel

 

 

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ChessieCat

Hi RachelSusan,

 

BrassMonkey suggested adding a drop of vodka to the diluted sertraline and Terry tried it and it worked:

 

tips-for-tapering-off-zoloft-sertraline

 

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RachelSusan

@ChessieCat

Hi ChessieCat,

 

Thanks for the tip. I will try it. 

 

By the way, since I have you here on my site please let me say thank you.  It takes a village, and you were part of that village.  You have no idea how much you and the other mods have done for me.  Thank you, thank you, thank you.

 

RS

 

 

 

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RachelSusan

Posted the same thing twice.  Oops.

 

 

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Posted the same thing twice.

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RachelSusan

I read this here on our site and I just had to copy it to my thread so I could read it whenever I want to.  By BrassMonkey. So profound.  Thank you @brassmonkey

  On 12/2/2017 at 12:24 PM, brassmonkey said:

Being brave and strong has nothing to do with not feeling fear or handle things in a "proud" manner.   It's doing what has to be done to survive, sometimes minute by minute, hour by hour or day by day. If it's hiding in a dark place crying or going for a walk when you legs are too sore to move, getting out of bed and taking a shower, if it needs to be done and you do it, that's being brave and strong. Marching down the street exuding strength is a show of bravado which frequently accomplishes nothing, unless that is what the moment calls for.  The people around you who appear to be towers of strength, are often brittle and will crack and break when things don't go their way.  This is a big factor in why people in ADWD slowly lose many of their friends over time.  The friends do not have the strength and bravery to face the situation and so in time turn and run.  For those of us in the thick of it, we have no choice, to get through this we must go on minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day doing what needs to be done, and by doing so each and every one of us displays strength and bravery beyond the superhero level.

 

 

 

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RachelSusan

I'm still out here and still tapering.  I thought it was time to check in.

 

I am down to 3.5mg and have been reducing abut 3.5% every four weeks. I've been having some problems with the tapers lately so I am going to slow it down. 

 

I have some heart palpitations in the middle of the night where my heart will speed up to an abnormal rate and wake me up with sweats and shakes. It was happening 5 or 6 times a night, but now it is down to two times a night and not as intense in how I feel or how high the pulse rates goes.  I saw a cardiologist who had me wear a heart monitor and it has been documented. The cardiologist says it's not arterial fibrillation but he doesn't know what it is. When I mentioned my Zoloft taper he said it is not possible that it is causing the heart racing.  I of course found the page on this site that talks about that very thing. So I checked my notes and it appears that there might be a correlation between when I taper and when I get these heart things. Right now I am at day 24 since my last taper. I'm going to hold off on reducing for a while and see if these heart palpitations continue to decease.

 

Other than that all things are good.

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apace41
15 minutes ago, RachelSusan said:

When I mentioned my Zoloft taper he said it is not possible that it is causing the heart racing. 

 

If I had a nickel for every time...

 

Doctors have been lied to and misled about these meds so we can't be surprised about this kind of reaction.  YES. 100x YES, RS.  It is the taper.

 

You are doing great.

 

Best,

 

Andy

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wantrelief

Congratulations on getting down to 3.5 mg, RS.....what an accomplishment!!  The heart palpitations sound scary....I am really glad they are dissipating and I hope you experience even more relief as you hold.  

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RachelSusan

@wantrelief

 

Hi Wantrelief,

 

Thanks for stopping by.  It looks like we are both struggling, however I am sure we will make it.  I think you said something in one of your posts about wanting a stress free life.  I have have to agree with you, I think it really helps the tapering.

 

Warm wishes,

RS

 

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RachelSusan

@apace41

 

Hi Andy,

Thanks for the encouragement with the taper. I really appreciate it.  It took me a while to figure out the heart palpitation thing until I started to write the dates when they occurred in my taper worksheet. Even then I wasn't positive, just noticed a correlation. Then when I found a thread here on this website I said, "ah ha."  Now that you have agreed I feel even more convinced. Most of the palpitations were at night and short lived however I had one that went up to 195 BMP while sitting still and lasted for 6 hours.  Now that I am about 26 days away from my last taper they are completely gone. It's frightening because I know that something like I mentioned, lasting as long as it did, can cause very serious medical issues.  My gosh are these drugs powerful, and yet doctors give it out like it is candy. 

RS

 

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apace41
1 hour ago, RachelSusan said:

It's frightening because I know that something like I mentioned, lasting as long as it did, can cause very serious medical issues. 

 

I would not spend a lot of time worrying about the potential for "very serious medical issues."  These are isolated events and your heart can withstand very high heartrates for extended periods.  Think about what happens when you exercise.  It is doubtful your heart was sustained at 190+ bpm, rather that was the high it hit, and a sustained rate of 120-150 even for 6 hours is not going to cause you a problem.

 

The stress of worrying about it is likely a greater risk.

 

Best,

 

Andy

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Carmie

Hi RS, 

 

Just wanted to say thank you for your nice message.. You’ve done really well on your taper so far, keep up the good work!

 

I see you’re like me, you can’t taper at ten percent either. 

 

Wishing you all the best with your continued tapering 💚

 

 

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DaveB

Wow RS, 3.5 of Zoloft!! That is so awesome, congrats!

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Godiswithme

Thank you, RachelSusan, for responding on my thread. 

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RachelSusan

@Godiswithme

 

Hi Godiswithme,

 

Thank you very much for stopping by. I really appreciate it.

 

I know we have a different medication situation, I do hope though that you go through your procedure as smoothly as I went through mine.  I know I was very concerned before my procedure and I hate to think of someone else being as nervous as I was.  Good luck.

 

RS

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RachelSusan

It's time to update my thread. This is more of a journal thing, unless someone cares to share their experience on the subject matter.

 

Now that cold and flu season is upon us, at least in my end of the world it is, I sometimes have a problem telling the difference between WD and an illness.  It sounds crazy, I know.  But the symptoms can be similar.  For me WD is sweating and feeling like I am burning up, but no elevated temperature.  When I am ill with an infection I never get a rise in body temperature either. Never. Ever.  Even with a bacterial infection that tends to produce a higher body temperature, I still don't get an elevated temperature, I just feel like I have a fever. So when I get that feeling, I don't know if it is WD or illness. Flu like symptoms are often present with WD. I've had a dripping sinus with WD and obviously with a cold. Painful sinuses and headache, is it WD, or a sinus infection? Earache, well it could be WD or could be infection, at least for me it could be either. So, to recap, feeling like a fever, runny nose, painful sinuses, headache, earache and flu like symptoms. WD or illness? Could be either.  If a sore throat or cough kicks in I am actually grateful because it tells me what I need to know.  And of course I can always run to the doctor for a blood test.  Darn I really hate WD.  No I am not in WD right now, it ended up being some sort of infection. And I am actually so grateful I am doing my happy dance.  Well in my mind I am doing my happy dance.  In actuality I am laying in bed watching old movies, taking antibiotics and pounding down the liquids.  I would rather have an illness than be in WD.  Anytime, any day, any way. So don't feel sorry for me or send me any condolences. I only want congratulations, I am one happy camper right now.

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FarmGirlWorks
3 hours ago, RachelSusan said:

No I am not in WD right now, it ended up being some sort of infection. And I am actually so grateful I am doing my happy dance.  Well in my mind I am doing my happy dance.  In actuality I am laying in bed watching old movies, taking antibiotics and pounding down the liquids.

That made me laugh, @RachelSusan... hurrah for infections. Congrats!

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RachelSusan

@FarmGirlWorks

 

Hi FGW,

 

Thank you for stopping by. I appreciate it. I am glad I made you laugh.

 

It looks like you are doing OK now after some sadness. I hope that you remain stable.  Happy Holidays to you. In our case, and I include myself, it might be, Semi Happy Holidays, or Lukewarm Holidays, or something like that.  How about Pleasant Holidays to you?  Will that work?  Pleasant Holidays to you FGW.

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FarmGirlWorks

And a respectably pleasant holiday to you as well @RachelSusan.

 

Last year I had major SI, could not go to my friends' annual xmas eve party because I couldn't stand the thought of the "how are you?" question, and ended up buffing my floor and painting a wall and looking at homeless people across the street and wondering how long until I was there. This year I am stable and for that I am immensely grateful.

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RachelSusan

Journal:

I've had to put a hold on my taper the last few weeks.  I've had a cold and then a sinus infection.  I made a promise to myself not to taper unless I am in an optimal situation, both health wise and stress wise.  Since the health is compromised I am on hold.   Like everyone else here I want off the drugs, but now is when patience comes into play. So I wait...

 

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Tattycorum

Hi Rachel, I'm sorry you have had to hold off on your taper due to cold and sinus infection. I know it must be frustrating!

 

I recently started coming down with a cold ,so I megadosed Vitamin C (titrated to bowel tolerance), and I found it also reduced some of my withdrawal symptoms. My cold went away but I'm staying on the Vitamin C megadose (about 6 grams a day, throughout the day) because I think it is helping reduce the anxiety and nightmares I experience. 

 

Good luck!

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Frogie
On 1/10/2019 at 11:58 AM, RachelSusan said:

Journal:

I've had to put a hold on my taper the last few weeks.  I've had a cold and then a sinus infection.  I made a promise to myself not to taper unless I am in an optimal situation, both health wise and stress wise.  Since the health is compromised I am on hold.   Like everyone else here I want off the drugs, but now is when patience comes into play. So I wait...

 

Feel better RS:

 

I learned the hard way to hold when I was sick. 

 

You are very wise.

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

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RachelSusan

@Frogie

 

FROGIE!!!!! It's great to see you here.  Yes I had to learn the hard way too.  I've tapered a few times while sick. Definitely wasn't a good idea for me. 

 

I hope Jasper is well. And I hope you are getting a little more comfortable with him.  We will never forget Brownie.

 

xo

RS

 

 

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direstraits
On ‎1‎/‎10‎/‎2019 at 1:58 PM, RachelSusan said:

Journal:

I've had to put a hold on my taper the last few weeks.  I've had a cold and then a sinus infection.  I made a promise to myself not to taper unless I am in an optimal situation, both health wise and stress wise.  Since the health is compromised I am on hold.   Like everyone else here I want off the drugs, but now is when patience comes into play. So I wait...

 

just wanted to stop by and say thanks for visiting my thread.sorry you're not feeling well,hope you feel better soon.

take care,ds💙

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RachelSusan

@direstraits

 

I appreciate you stopping by, especially when you aren't feeling 100%. Thank you for your good wishes.

xo

RS

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DaveB
On 1/10/2019 at 11:58 AM, RachelSusan said:

Journal:

I've had to put a hold on my taper the last few weeks.  I've had a cold and then a sinus infection.  I made a promise to myself not to taper unless I am in an optimal situation, both health wise and stress wise.  Since the health is compromised I am on hold.   Like everyone else here I want off the drugs, but now is when patience comes into play. So I wait...

 

 

Good idea! No reason to push it and mess with your hard fought stability. Thanks for all you do!

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RachelSusan

@DaveB

 

Hi DaveB,

Thank you for stopping by, it means a lot to me. Patience has not been one of my strong points so it's been had for to learn it.  Slowly I am learning and practicing it. I guess I've made so many bone head moves in withdrawal that I've finally settled down.  I've made up a few rules for myself after bad experiences of my own and reading about other's bad experiences.  Now I just try and follow them. 

 

I hate this journey we are on. I know you have been suffering a lot lately.  My thoughts are with you.

 

RS

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DaveB

 

22 minutes ago, RachelSusan said:

@DaveB

 

Hi DaveB,

Thank you for stopping by, it means a lot to me. Patience has not been one of my strong points so it's been had for to learn it.  Slowly I am learning and practicing it. I guess I've made so many bone head moves in withdrawal that I've finally settled down.  I've made up a few rules for myself after bad experiences of my own and reading about other's bad experiences.  Now I just try and follow them. 

 

I hate this journey we are on. I know you have been suffering a lot lately.  My thoughts are with you.

 

RS

 

Yeah I am kind of this sites poster child for being impatient and making bone headed decisions. So I totally get where you are coming from there! Thanks for your thoughts, we will get there, just not sure when.

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FarmGirlWorks

Hey @RachelSusan, see that you are waiting thru cold/sinus yuck before tapering again. Good on you for being so patient! Really, I admire and am baffled by such patience (I accidentally typed "baggled" instead of "baffled" and that applies too). Hope you feel better sooner rather than later.

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Aquarius

Hi Rachelsusan 

Just seen a post you put on another thread about internal trembling and shaking i am getting this every other day  and its so depressing as there is no let up until the next day sometimes its like im shivering but im not cold then i start to panic over it then i cry sometimes i rhink ir might be akathasia as i need to move around hope it goes soon ...anything you did to help yours ..it feels like i just need ti to calm down then the next day i don't get it !

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RachelSusan

@FarmGirlWorks

Hello FarmGirlWorks,

Thank you got stopping by.  I am the person with the least patience.  However with these stupid drugs I've learned the hard way.  If I taper while sick with flu, cold, I end up sicker with withdrawal symptoms. It took me a while to learn --  like I said, the hard way.  Yes you can be "baggled" as well "baffled." Your posts always make me smile. 

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RachelSusan

@Aquarius

Hello Aquarius,

I'm very sorry to read that you too have the internal trembling and shaking.  It's really awful. I wasn't able to find anything to fix it, except for time.  Yes relief came as I stabilized.

 

Is any time of day worse for you?  For me it was from about 3 in the morning until about 8 in the morning.

 

I think because it is such an odd and different feeling we get more frightened of it than many of the other symptoms.  I recall being very frightened of it and felt I couldn't express clearly the feeling to anybody else.  Is there is someway that you can not let it frighten you and think to yourself that this is part of the process and it will go away?  If at all possible to think that way it might help remain a little calmer.  It doesn't help with the terrible feeling but at least you wouldn't find yourself so upset.  Also it came and went for me as well.

 

Aquarius, I hope you stabilize soon. This whole process stinks and I am very sorry you are going through it. 

 

 

 

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Aquarius

Mine is from when i wake up about 6.00 and then lasts most of the day i think i add second fear to it ...its weird because the next day i will be fine so that upsets me more as it feels worse after a good day and it makes me want to go back on the tablets everything is negative there is no hope and then the next day i am so positive its very extreme ...unfortunately i did a rapid taper been off 9 months ...sending wishes to you as well 

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