Borealice Posted July 23, 2018 Author Share Posted July 23, 2018 Thanks for the input alto. I've decided I'm going to try 20 mg at 2pm today. I don't have a pill cutter with me....how would I split the 25 mg pill? 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 23, 2018 Administrator Share Posted July 23, 2018 It's going to be very hard to cut an accurate 5mg from a 25mg tablet. We usually recommend making a liquid and using an oral syringe. This might be hard to do while you're traveling. If you took 3/4 of a 25mg tablet, you'd be taking 18.75mg. That is, however, a big drop, you might not want to take the risk of withdrawal symptoms in the middle of a wedding. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Borealice Posted July 23, 2018 Author Share Posted July 23, 2018 1 hour ago, Altostrata said: It's going to be very hard to cut an accurate 5mg from a 25mg tablet. We usually recommend making a liquid and using an oral syringe. This might be hard to do while you're traveling. If you took 3/4 of a 25mg tablet, you'd be taking 18.75mg. That is, however, a big drop, you might not want to take the risk of withdrawal symptoms in the middle of a wedding. How would I go about making a liquid? I can try to look for a Walgreens today. I'll be back home tmrw so perhaps I can start then. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Borealice Posted July 23, 2018 Author Share Posted July 23, 2018 1 hour ago, Altostrata said: It's going to be very hard to cut an accurate 5mg from a 25mg tablet. We usually recommend making a liquid and using an oral syringe. This might be hard to do while you're traveling. If you took 3/4 of a 25mg tablet, you'd be taking 18.75mg. That is, however, a big drop, you might not want to take the risk of withdrawal symptoms in the middle of a wedding. Disregard previous post, I found the liquid/tapering link you posted. Thank you 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Borealice Posted July 23, 2018 Author Share Posted July 23, 2018 1 hour ago, Altostrata said: It's going to be very hard to cut an accurate 5mg from a 25mg tablet. We usually recommend making a liquid and using an oral syringe. This might be hard to do while you're traveling. If you took 3/4 of a 25mg tablet, you'd be taking 18.75mg. That is, however, a big drop, you might not want to take the risk of withdrawal symptoms in the middle of a wedding. So I had no choice but to take the 25mg today. Will record how I feel. I'm with my mom, so I told her bringing down the dose may help. She said "but what if it is a lack of serotonin.can you honestly say for the past years you've been taking medication, there wasn't a single happy moment. You can reduce, but only if you're sure you feel like the medicine did nothing for you. You need to think back on what effects it had. Think closely." I want off these drugs, they did absolutely nothing for my OCD. these drugs are the things that created a Chemical imbalance (dr breggin reference). But when my mom said that too me, I got a little worried. No one believes I'm in withdrawal. What If I'm not in withdrawal anymore and there's something else going on. I'm gonna message my dumb psych when I get to the hotel room to ask about a liquid or compounding of Zoloft. That frikin psych should have not made me taper that fast. Although I said i wanted off. I didn't know about taper schedule. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 23, 2018 Administrator Share Posted July 23, 2018 Perhaps you could minimize discussing your plans with your mother? You'll need to take charge of this yourself. Good idea to request the liquid. You could take 1/2 tablet with liquid for your daily dose. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Borealice Posted July 25, 2018 Author Share Posted July 25, 2018 On 7/23/2018 at 3:34 PM, Altostrata said: Perhaps you could minimize discussing your plans with your mother? You'll need to take charge of this yourself. Good idea to request the liquid. You could take 1/2 tablet with liquid for your daily dose. After some back and forth with doctors nurse, I was able to get approved for Zoloft liquid (they did not want to give it to me!). And I'm playing phone tag with them, so I didn't even receive a confirmation of when I'll get the liquid by. It's 2:45 and I forgot to take my Zoloft again!!! I should be taking it at 2 everyday. I'm going to take25 mg again today. At least I'm back in Californian soil. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 26, 2018 Administrator Share Posted July 26, 2018 Congratulations, you've now educated your doctor's office. Maybe you should set an alert on your phone for your dose time? Please let us know how you're doing. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Borealice Posted July 26, 2018 Author Share Posted July 26, 2018 Ha! Thanks alto for your continuous support and to everyone here. I don't know I'm just trucking through the day, makes me anxious to think about whether or not I'm getting better. I was so hyper focused on monitoring myself these past few days, I think I need to take a step back for a little bit. But doing better I think, 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Bunyapine Posted July 30, 2018 Share Posted July 30, 2018 I find it hard to deal with withdrawal, because everyone around you, doctors included, don’t know about withdrawal and they just think a doctor can help you! With withdrawal symptoms your strength of mind is hard to achieve. The only thing that stops me going to the doctor is that withdrawal was brought on by a doctor and I don’t want to get worse because of their lack of knowledge! 1987 Anafranil 1987-1989 Prothiaden 1990-Jan 2015 Prozac 40mg Feb-Mar Prozac 30mg Ap-Nov Prozac 20mg (+10mg Zoloft for 1 week in Sept) Dec Prozac 10mg 2016 Jan-2017 Oct Prozac 15mg Nov Prozac 14mg Nov Prozac14.5mg Other drugs Humira and Methotrexate for rheumatoid arthritisSupplements :Magnesium and calcium.Folic acid 5mg. Inderal 10mg (stopped 2018 Dec). 2018 Nov Quetiapine fumarate 25mg Dec 150-125mg 2019Jan 125-25mg Feb 25-12.5mg 2018 Dec Sertra 25-150-125mg 2018 Dec Pregabalin 75-150mg Link to comment
Borealice Posted August 2, 2018 Author Share Posted August 2, 2018 Hi eveyone, im so bad. I haven't been journaling at all about my symptoms. I don't know if it's laziness or I'm just too burnt out at the end of the work day to care. I'm struggling a lot with the notion that I am an amalgamation or cells and neurons, that everything I do and think is the result of my brain, that I have no control. That it's not me when I'm doing work or thinking in my spare time or watching a YouTube video. I question every single thought in my head. I used to have pride about who I am, but I realized it's all my upbringing and character traits. This is driving me crazy. I feel trapped. Am I just a robot ? I've lost the feeling of myself and feel I can never get it back. This is a result of the depersonalization or ssri withdrawal and my underlying OCD. The Paxil withdrawal was so physically debilitating I got through it, but Zoloft withdrawal is not physical it's all mental. I don't know what to do. I'm coming to work everyday, going home and then walking and sleeping. Everyone has expectations of me. I could have managed my symptoms of OCD without ssri. Ssri are supposed to help and they did the exact opposite. How can something that's suppose to raise your serotonin also affect your decision making and memory. Ssri are horrible. My poor parents who raised me with only love. My "mental illness" has been made worse by big pharma. I was fine. Does anyone have ways of coping? Can anyone relate? And how is the nervous sustem related in all of this? How does the body work? I'm seeing a therapist tmrw. I also have a dog who brings me some comfort 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
jonnypeters1234567 Posted August 2, 2018 Share Posted August 2, 2018 Sounds alot like my withdrawals very hypnotic, zoning in and out of a parallell universe and not recognising anyone 2009-2010 Citalopram 20mg CT no problems Sertaline 2010- 6monnths 2011- 2017 June 2017- Citalopram 20mg CT Link to comment
Borealice Posted August 2, 2018 Author Share Posted August 2, 2018 20 minutes ago, jonnypeters1234567 said: Sounds alot like my withdrawals very hypnotic, zoning in and out of a parallell universe and not recognising anyone Hey Jonny, read your intro topic. Looks like we both attended a wedding recently while in our states. Ha!. I hope we can both get better soon. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
jonnypeters1234567 Posted August 2, 2018 Share Posted August 2, 2018 haha apparently i did! dont remember going to be honest 😉 This is like time travel 2009-2010 Citalopram 20mg CT no problems Sertaline 2010- 6monnths 2011- 2017 June 2017- Citalopram 20mg CT Link to comment
Borealice Posted August 4, 2018 Author Share Posted August 4, 2018 IS it possible I could have neurotoxicity from taking 25 mg Zoloft after not taking for 2.5 months. So just reinstated my original dose? I can't drive as well and my cognitive skills have gone down. I'm scared. This isn't fair. Have my neurons died? It's been 2 months since I reinstated 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Borealice Posted August 5, 2018 Author Share Posted August 5, 2018 I got into a row with my parents. Since I'm not still feeling 100%. They've had it with me. They say I'm not in withdrawal. Maybe I'm not in withdrawal and I'm making it up. I don't feel any physical symptoms, it's rly just mental. But it's not enough where I can't function. I don't know what's wrong.... i was so much better before I started all my medication. Straight A's, lots of friends. I haven't taken my Zoloft since 2pm. I feel better, more clear. Maybe I should start tapering? Doctors office never got back to me about the liquid Zoloft and they don't return my messages...I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Borealice Posted August 5, 2018 Author Share Posted August 5, 2018 I have a regular therapist I will be seeing every Friday now. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Borealice Posted August 6, 2018 Author Share Posted August 6, 2018 Can anyone explain why late reinstatement is dangerous?? It only creates fear in people who have reinstated. If it's a new drug you start does that not count as reinstatement? I'm in a rock and a hard place, I don't know whether to continue my Zoloft or if it's not helping me get better. I can't tell. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted February 24, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 24, 2019 Hi Borealice, How are you doing?💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 5 Author Share Posted February 5 I am such a ******* idiot. I did this to myself AGAIN. As if Cold turkey from paxil was not a hard enough lesson. I was quite stable for a number of years and then I decided to come off of zoloft. Starting dosage was 60 mg, I tapered over the course of 2 years. I misread the dosages between ml and mg and accidentally Cold turkeyed after 5mg. I can't believe I'm doing this to myself again. I went off the 5mg of zoloft in November 2023. By mid december the withdrawal symptoms hit me like a truck. Extreme suicidality, wanting to run into traffic. Akathasia. intense suicidal ideation. The worst symptom by far is the obsession with one though since November. everyday 24/7. I have latched on to the thought that " I thought someone was stupid in my mind" and I keep replaying that thought I had over and over again in my mind. The crazy thing is I don't ever want to let go of the thought. So its just going to be there forever? I'm afraid to stop thinking about the thought. I can't imagine a reality without that thought. and its driving me absolutely suicidal. I can't take it anymore. I had to reinstate 5 mg of zoloft on January 15th. Upped it to 10 mg on February 2nd. I have a psychiatrist appt this friday 2/9. Why did I do this to myself again? I feel like I'm playing with my life. How will I ever get past this? If this thought is going to be here forever, how can I live? How do I forget when I don't want to forget? I've been taking ativan almost daily to cope. can you believe I'm trying to maintain my full time job through this? I'm so scared. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
TightLinesGuy Posted February 7 Share Posted February 7 On 2/5/2024 at 8:25 PM, Borealice said: I've been taking ativan almost daily to cope. can you believe I'm trying to maintain my full time job through this? I'm so scared. I am very sorry you made a mistake in your tapering, an easy mistake to make. Try not to be too hard on yourself. I would be very careful with Ativan, it has a high potential for dependence, arguably more so than antidepressants, although everyone is different. I would hate you to become hooked on two different medications. June 2020: Started citalopram 20 mg for misdiagnosed adverse drug reaction. Developed side effects of hypomania. Nov. 2023: Rapid reduction to 5 mg citalopram to stop hypomania. Dec. 13th, 2023. Reduced to 3.75 mg citalopram — severe depression and anxiety and loss of appetite Dec. 26th Updosed over a week to 7.5 mg to pull me out of it but hypomania returned. Stabilised withdrawal symptoms by 50% very quickly but took 6 weeks to stabilise 90 to 95%. February 15th Withdrawal symptoms stabilised enough to reduce. Forced to reduce to 5 mg due to hypomania side effect. Currently taking 5 mg citalopram (2.5 mg twice per day). I am stabilising quite well on 5 mg per day. Can withdraw in the future very slowly now that hypomania side effect has stopped. Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 8 Author Share Posted February 8 I am such a ******* idiot. I did this to myself AGAIN. As if Cold turkey from paxil was not a hard enough lesson. I was quite stable for a number of years and then I decided to come off of zoloft. Starting dosage was 60 mg, I tapered over the course of 2 years. I misread the dosages between ml and mg and accidentally Cold turkeyed after 5mg. I can't believe I'm doing this to myself again. I went off the 5mg of zoloft in November 2023. By mid december the withdrawal symptoms hit me like a truck. Extreme suicidality, wanting to run into traffic. Akathasia. intense suicidal ideation. The worst symptom by far is the obsession with one though since November. everyday 24/7. I have latched on to the thought that " I thought someone was stupid in my mind" and I keep replaying that thought I had over and over again in my mind. The crazy thing is I don't ever want to let go of the thought. So its just going to be there forever? I'm afraid to stop thinking about the thought. I can't imagine a reality without that thought. and its driving me absolutely suicidal. I can't take it anymore. I had to reinstate 5 mg of zoloft on January 15th. Upped it to 10 mg on February 2nd. I have a psychiatrist appt this friday 2/9. Why did I do this to myself again? I feel like I'm playing with my life. How will I ever get past this? If this thought is going to be here forever, how can I live? How do I forget when I don't want to forget? I've been taking ativan almost daily to cope. can you believe I'm trying to maintain my full time job through this? I'm so scared. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Administrator KenA Posted February 8 Administrator Share Posted February 8 @Borealice Sorry to hear that you are going through this again. I can completely understand having the intrusive thoughts. I had them quite often as well with thoughts getting stuck in my head. Mine were terrible as well. Things like remembering to breathe and blink, so I can completely understand. I hope that you are able to come through this quickly and get back to feeling better again. I have merged this post into your original intro topic as each member is allowed only one intro topic. Best wishes! Ken 1 2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage 2011 - CT Quit Tramadol 2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP) September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit Drug Free Since October 5th 2019 Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 18 Author Share Posted February 18 I feel like I can’t hold on much longer. I want to die. I can’t tell what’s the withdrawal, what I’m creating, and what my ocd is creating. I’m just surviving at this point. I’m in utter hell. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 20 Author Share Posted February 20 I feel really suicidal and scared and could use some words of encouragement 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Moderator LotusRising Posted February 20 Moderator Share Posted February 20 On 2/8/2024 at 11:41 AM, Borealice said: I had to reinstate 5 mg of zoloft on January 15th. Upped it to 10 mg on February 2nd. Hi @Borealice, Have you noticed any changes at all since restarting the zoloft? Have you seen this thread? What happened when you met with your psychiatrist? Do you have a therapist? 2003-2009 on and off various SSRI's for short periods, Ativan prn 2010-2011 Ativan, up to 1.5mg/day - tapered off without issue 2013-2021 ativan 1-1.5mg 10-12x/month, daily starting Oct 21 to help with buspar WD 2016 - Effexor 75mg, short-term 2021 Mar -Jun Buspar ADR at high dose, tapered 3 months 2021 Aug Wellbutrin 150mg for 5 days (ADR), then MIrtazapine 7.5mg for 7 days (ADR) Oct 22/21 - Direct switch ativan to clonazepam (don't do this) Tapered clonaz Oct/21 - Apr/23 - 0mg! Supplements: omega-3, mag-glycinate "Believe that your tragedies, your losses, your sorrows, your hurt, happened for you, not to you. And I bless the thing that broke you down and cracked you open, because the world needs you open" - Rebecca Campbell *** Disclaimer: Please note, my suggestions/comments are based on my own personal experiences. Please consult a knowledgeable practitioner to discuss decisions regarding your medical care *** *** Please do not send me PM's *** Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 20 Author Share Posted February 20 13 minutes ago, LotusRising said: Hi @Borealice, Have you noticed any changes at all since restarting the zoloft? Have you seen this thread? What happened when you met with your psychiatrist? Do you have a therapist? Thank you. I started Prozac two days ago 20mg. Not taking the Zoloft. I don’t know what’s happening in my brain. I’m just stuck on one singular thought “that I thought someone was stupid” . It’s just there lodged in my brain. And I refuse to forget it. Maybe my amygdala doesn’t want to forget? It seems trivial but it’s making me suicidal. I’m just scared. That’s there no solution to this. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Moderator LotusRising Posted February 20 Moderator Share Posted February 20 46 minutes ago, Borealice said: I’m just stuck on one singular thought “that I thought someone was stupid” Looping thoughts are definitely pretty common. Have you tried any coping skills to help with this? 2003-2009 on and off various SSRI's for short periods, Ativan prn 2010-2011 Ativan, up to 1.5mg/day - tapered off without issue 2013-2021 ativan 1-1.5mg 10-12x/month, daily starting Oct 21 to help with buspar WD 2016 - Effexor 75mg, short-term 2021 Mar -Jun Buspar ADR at high dose, tapered 3 months 2021 Aug Wellbutrin 150mg for 5 days (ADR), then MIrtazapine 7.5mg for 7 days (ADR) Oct 22/21 - Direct switch ativan to clonazepam (don't do this) Tapered clonaz Oct/21 - Apr/23 - 0mg! Supplements: omega-3, mag-glycinate "Believe that your tragedies, your losses, your sorrows, your hurt, happened for you, not to you. And I bless the thing that broke you down and cracked you open, because the world needs you open" - Rebecca Campbell *** Disclaimer: Please note, my suggestions/comments are based on my own personal experiences. Please consult a knowledgeable practitioner to discuss decisions regarding your medical care *** *** Please do not send me PM's *** Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 20 Author Share Posted February 20 4 minutes ago, LotusRising said: Looping thoughts are definitely pretty common. Have you tried any coping skills to help with this? No I haven’t. It almost feels like I don’t want to to forget the thought and I’m desperately holding on to it. And yet the thought is causing me distress. I feel like I would be living a lie if I forget the thought. It’s so tortuous. I’m scared it’s going to be like this forever. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Kaylaq Posted February 20 Share Posted February 20 Hello, I see you, I hear you…🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Sending you strength, courage and love to live another day! 😊 On Venlafaxine for 30 years, 150mg 2018 first tapered, over 2 months, horrible crashed, reinstated 3 months later February 2023, tapering again, every 4 weeks reduced by 50% 150mg down to 37:5mg June 2023, from 37.5, broke open capsule, started tapering by one bead at a time every 2 weeks August, 2023 stopped last bead. Nov, 2023, started Saint John Wort, 600mg, 3x a day = 1800mg - reduced 1 capsules 300mg on Feb 15, 2024 Supplements, magnesium bisglycinate, B complex, multivitamin, Omega 3 complex, Vitamin D3, digestive enzymes also, use L-Theanine, occasionally natural GABA, - stopped this in Jan 2024 For H.Pylori- Manuka Honey, 850mgo, Mastica Chios gum, Kefir, & probiotics Link to comment
Moderator LotusRising Posted February 20 Moderator Share Posted February 20 I wonder if either of these threads would help you with this: 2003-2009 on and off various SSRI's for short periods, Ativan prn 2010-2011 Ativan, up to 1.5mg/day - tapered off without issue 2013-2021 ativan 1-1.5mg 10-12x/month, daily starting Oct 21 to help with buspar WD 2016 - Effexor 75mg, short-term 2021 Mar -Jun Buspar ADR at high dose, tapered 3 months 2021 Aug Wellbutrin 150mg for 5 days (ADR), then MIrtazapine 7.5mg for 7 days (ADR) Oct 22/21 - Direct switch ativan to clonazepam (don't do this) Tapered clonaz Oct/21 - Apr/23 - 0mg! Supplements: omega-3, mag-glycinate "Believe that your tragedies, your losses, your sorrows, your hurt, happened for you, not to you. And I bless the thing that broke you down and cracked you open, because the world needs you open" - Rebecca Campbell *** Disclaimer: Please note, my suggestions/comments are based on my own personal experiences. Please consult a knowledgeable practitioner to discuss decisions regarding your medical care *** *** Please do not send me PM's *** Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 27 Author Share Posted February 27 im in dire straits. suicide seems like an option. i have urges to jump off a building or go into the ocean. I dont see myself recovering from this. I've attached so much meaning to this looping thought that I called someone stupid, I dont see a future where I'm not holding on to this thought. I'm only 32. How will i live on? My poor parents. I have to take ativan to function at work. I'm not able to regulate what I'm eating. (overeating). I don't know what to do. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Kaylaq Posted February 27 Share Posted February 27 Just wanted you to know I hear you, I see you! 😊😊 in my own intensive wave cycle too, it’s so difficult living this way…. On Venlafaxine for 30 years, 150mg 2018 first tapered, over 2 months, horrible crashed, reinstated 3 months later February 2023, tapering again, every 4 weeks reduced by 50% 150mg down to 37:5mg June 2023, from 37.5, broke open capsule, started tapering by one bead at a time every 2 weeks August, 2023 stopped last bead. Nov, 2023, started Saint John Wort, 600mg, 3x a day = 1800mg - reduced 1 capsules 300mg on Feb 15, 2024 Supplements, magnesium bisglycinate, B complex, multivitamin, Omega 3 complex, Vitamin D3, digestive enzymes also, use L-Theanine, occasionally natural GABA, - stopped this in Jan 2024 For H.Pylori- Manuka Honey, 850mgo, Mastica Chios gum, Kefir, & probiotics Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 27 Author Share Posted February 27 26 minutes ago, Kaylaq said: Just wanted you to know I hear you, I see you! 😊😊 in my own intensive wave cycle too, it’s so difficult living this way…. thanks Kaylaq, as much as this is withdrawal., I feel like my ocd has gone haywire and worse than I ever had before. I don't get a moment of rest during the day. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 27 Author Share Posted February 27 Is there such a thing as a memory erasing pill, or something to zap my brain? I am so desperate. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
Borealice Posted February 27 Author Share Posted February 27 I am so scared. I feel like I've learned something about the brain I shouldn't have and I can't go back. I refuse to get rid of this memory. Do I have to start taking stronger drugs? I want a frontal lobotomy. 2014-2015 Paxil ((withdrawal) May 2016 Zoloft 125 mg,, tapered until march 2018 25 mg zoloft March 2018 12.5 mg Zoloft (Withdrawal) june 16, 2018 reinstated 25 mg Zoloft (still withdrawal)*June 2018-Nov 2021 60 mg zoloft *nov 2021-nov 2023tapered down to 5 mg zoloft, accidentally stopped ct at 5mg *dec2023-withdrawal started dec 2023-reinstated 5 mg Zoloft feb 2024-stopped Zoloft started 20mg Prozac Link to comment
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