☼ pinkfairy: rapid taper of Paxil

[jonnypeters1234567]

40 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

 

Hi Jonny 

many thanks for stopping by & saying hello really appreciate it thank you...

 

The dinner was lovely..I just had no energy to wash up.Note to self (start buying paper plates) back into a wave I keep rapid cycling 

windows then waves...

 

I hope your managing & your day as been bearable 

 

xxxx

 

Has been my life for the last 3 months

[pinkfairy]

So sorry   It’s been mine for 2 years 

no windows since 2016 

 

now finally getting windows & waves 🙏🏻

 

Keep going it’s all we can do 

truly sorry your on this path 

 

The only way out is through 

xxxx

[pinkfairy]

Hello all 💕

does anybody know which antibiotic is safe for me to take please?

my son had a nasty viral & I have caught it.I have been in bed for 2 weeks coughing some nasty stuff up.With me been a smoker I think it’s gone to my chest...so I will have to go to the doctors to get it checked out.very lathergic & running nose feel extremely flu-ish 

 

i have tried vicks for my chest 

paracetamol for the headaches & hot lemon honey & ginger for my throat.

many thanks 

pink xxx

 

 

[ChessieCat]

Here's SA's topic:  cipro-levaquin-azithromycin-z-pack-and-other-antibiotics

 

[Shep]

Hi, Pink, since you are on a benzo, I also want to point out an extra danger for people taking benzos. Fluoroquinolone antibiotics displace benzodiazepines from the benzodiazepine receptors, which can throw you into acute benzo withdrawal.

 

Here is a list of the  fluoroquinolones so you'll know which ones to avoid:

 

Category: Fluoroquinolone antibiotics

 

Should you require an antibiotic, please note there are many other kinds that are much more safe, especially for someone dealing with benzos. Please read through the link that ChessieCat provided to find out more. 

[pinkfairy]

Thank you both so very much for this information.

i will read it now & take the list to my doctor.So if he goes to prescribe one of these I will know straight away 

thanks again for this information.

 

Hopefully I won’t need anything.But best to checked out.

 

My sons is going now.🙏🏻 

 

Thanks again Cheshire & shep ❣️

 

 

[powerback]

Get well soon pink 👍.

[pinkfairy]

Thanks so much p.b 

seeiously battle fatigued...

 

How you keeping?any improvements I hope so 🙏🏻

 

[Jill28]

@pinkfairy

hi Pink- 

I just read all your posts and wondered how you survived all of that. You are amazingly strong and an inspiration to me. 

I was in the midst of Zoloft withdrawal and my dr started me on 10 mg of Prozac. 

I had a severe reaction and now am suffers to get through each day. How did you do it?!!❤️

[powerback]

On ‎9‎/‎23‎/‎2018 at 12:26 PM, pinkfairy said:

Hello all 💕

does anybody know which antibiotic is safe for me to take please?

my son had a nasty viral & I have caught it.I have been in bed for 2 weeks coughing some nasty stuff up.With me been a smoker I think it’s gone to my chest...so I will have to go to the doctors to get it checked out.very lathergic & running nose feel extremely flu-ish 

 

i have tried vicks for my chest 

paracetamol for the headaches & hot lemon honey & ginger for my throat.

many thanks 

pink xxx

 

 

Hi pink did you get anything for your viral infection .keep up all the good nutrition .

Have the hot lemon ginger honey drink for a while ,that's a good one .

I have lemon and ginger twice a day  .

Take care .

[pinkfairy]

On 9/24/2018 at 1:09 AM, Jill28 said:

@pinkfairy

hi Pink- 

I just read all your posts and wondered how you survived all of that. You are amazingly strong and an inspiration to me. 

I was in the midst of Zoloft withdrawal and my dr started me on 10 mg of Prozac. 

I had a severe reaction and now am suffers to get through each day. How did you do it?!!❤️

 

Hi Jill & thank you for stopping by & reading my posts ♥️ 

 

Your words touched me more than you will ever know,I have even wrote down what you said it was beautiful & am honoured that you said those things.What a beautiful soul you have..xxx

 

I am so so so sorry that your here in this position.But you will be ok & you will get through this.xxx

 

To answer you I honestly have no idea how I got from there to here.This site,ian Singleton,baylissa a couple of on line friends all helped to carry me when I went down.It was madness but I just know am blessed to of survived that.Plus the losses have gone through.We all do heal it’s just so so slow...acceptance is a huge factor in this & letting go of once who we thought we were.Learning to dig deep & hold on I was so very very lost...but only when we are lost can we find our selfs ♥️!

 

lovely to meet you (but obviously not how we all are)

you look after your self & hold on because you are worth it ♥️

 

Pink xxxx

[pinkfairy]

3 hours ago, powerback said:

Hi pink did you get anything for your viral infection .keep up all the good nutrition .

Have the hot lemon ginger honey drink for a while ,that's a good one .

I have lemon and ginger twice a day  .

Take care .

Hey p.b 

 

only managed to go today been mega bed bound.But had to drag my lump out of bed & go.so glad I went have got a chest infection 

no wonder I couldnt function & in bed.i got amoxicillin 500mg 3x day...had my first one then started to panic lol (medication anxiety at its best)but have been ok 👌!crawled back into bed with my lemon & ginger...plenty of vicks & am just laid quiet.my son comes back home Thursdays so need to try & pick up some!Its set a huge wave off been poorly think have been hit over the head with the surf 🏄‍♂️ trying to get through it 😆

 

am not hungry or thirsty at all 

I keep having to set my alarm to remind me to eat.what a life p.b 

I have to laugh it’s my humour what’s getting me through it all 

thanks for stopping by are you ok?

 

take care 

xxx

[pinkfairy]

Does any body know if I could introduce fish oil & magnesium please?xxx

[Leo1983]

Pink fairy you say you got through it?

 

But your posts seem to spell that your not over it yet?

 

Thanks

 

Lee

[pinkfairy]

Hi lee 

defo not over it still along way to go 

 

sorry I meant I have turned a corner from where I was before...

 

i was so lost & utterly destroyed by losing everything.Now have accepted where I am at.Also meaning I got through the total crash of it all.

pink xxx

[pinkfairy]

I got through 2 CTs 

losing my son,my home,my job,my ex & been taken into hospital...

 

to say am still standing after going through that alone is a miricle in its self 💕

[powerback]

2 hours ago, pinkfairy said:

Does any body know if I could introduce fish oil & magnesium please?xxx

The only way to know pink is to introduce small amounts and see how your system tolerates it ,this seems tp be the rule of thumb ,maybe try geting it from food sources first .

Google nutrients and amino acids needed for the body and go from there.

Take care.

[pinkfairy]

Thanks p.b 

i am best off probably getting it from food as I can’t listen to my body & how it reacts etc 

 

never could as I was always so busy been a single mum,two jobs,avid dog walker etc...was always on the go.

 

knowing me had take it & be up for a month lol 

 

will have a search.Am in the process of ditching super market meats for butchers meat.

 

have been eating a lot of garlic lately my body is craving garlic 

thank god am single 😆

 

cheers p.b xxx

[powerback]

2 hours ago, pinkfairy said:

Thanks p.b 

i am best off probably getting it from food as I can’t listen to my body & how it reacts etc 

 

never could as I was always so busy been a single mum,two jobs,avid dog walker etc...was always on the go.

 

knowing me had take it & be up for a month lol 

 

will have a search.Am in the process of ditching super market meats for butchers meat.

 

have been eating a lot of garlic lately my body is craving garlic 

thank god am single 😆

 

cheers p.b xxx

I mostly go butchers ,cut the portion sizes down and the money will even out .far better to eat better quality when affordable ,I also eat organ meat ,mostly calf and lambs liver ,cheap and packed with nutrients .im addicted to chicken tights the last few months ,very cheap and tastier than breast .im yet to  gravitate to heart yet lol.

Garlic is a good one ,interesting that your craving it .it actually has antibacterial healing qualities'[I think] so very true for your situation .

 

[pinkfairy]

33 minutes ago, powerback said:

I mostly go butchers ,cut the portion sizes down and the money will even out .far better to eat better quality when affordable ,I also eat organ meat ,mostly calf and lambs liver ,cheap and packed with nutrients .im addicted to chicken tights the last few months ,very cheap and tastier than breast .im yet to  gravitate to heart yet lol.

Garlic is a good one ,interesting that your craving it .it actually has antibacterial healing qualities'[I think] so very true for your situation .

 

Woah p.b you eat unreal lol so many nutrients in all that...i only eat chicken,pork & beef (say once a week)I love my fish 

I tend to eat salmon & prawns a lot!i couldnt face cooking that what you do ie liver etc I couldn’t before WD I was a vegetarian for years...yea chicken thighs are really nice defo tastier than breasts 

 

honestky for about a month solid I am just wanting garlic really strange.I wonder if we can eat to much I am having quite a lot!

red lentils am eating a lot of too.Instead of mash am doing squash with rock salt & pepper it’s devine.Was wanting choc yesterday so I treated myself to a bar nearly ate my fingers...was out of this world lol 

 

Change of subject here 🤓

not every body’s cup of tea this,but this song as got me through many of horrid days & nights such a beautiful song.💕

 

Xxx

 

 

[powerback]

Correction ,I meant cows liver dont ask why I texted calf lol.

Night pink ,its good to see you in good spirits ,you deserve it that's for sure .im off to documentary land to quieten the racing thoughts and chill out .

Take care . 

[pinkfairy]

Honestly didn’t know till you just said dear lord lol 😆 

 

dont know who’s worst,

thank you p.b we have to try & make the best out of this chapter some how in humour 

 

good night hope you wake up in a big window 

take care & thanks 

 

no midnight feasts on calf’s lol 

 

same off to unwind to jason Stephenson sleep mediation 

xxx

[pinkfairy]

Morning SA 💕

 

I don’t think these antibiotics are agreeing with me.Serious headache on waking at 5am,feeling sick to my tummy...wanting to crawl out of my skin & adrenaline surges to the point of I thought my head was going to blow off.

 

But the pain in my left side of lung is subsiding so it’s a catch 22.

 

I am wondering if it’s because I am taking the Valium & antibiotic together?

could some one help me space them out.I can’t think of how to do it,my heads all over the place.

 

Have managed to have & omelette as soon as I woke up & ginger & lemon hot water.

 

What & horrible feeling of feeling as though there’s so much energy trapped inside my body...if I could run I would be out running (wishful thinking) 

 

many thanks in advance pink xxx

[powerback]

27 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Morning SA 💕

 

I don’t think these antibiotics are agreeing with me.Serious headache on waking at 5am,feeling sick to my tummy...wanting to crawl out of my skin & adrenaline surges to the point of I thought my head was going to blow off.

 

But the pain in my left side of lung is subsiding so it’s a catch 22.

 

I am wondering if it’s because I am taking the Valium & antibiotic together?

could some one help me space them out.I can’t think of how to do it,my heads all over the place.

 

Have managed to have & omelette as soon as I woke up & ginger & lemon hot water.

 

What & horrible feeling of feeling as though there’s so much energy trapped inside my body...if I could run I would be out running (wishful thinking) 

 

many thanks in advance pink xxx

 Hi PF does  the antibiotic say have with food .follow what it says ,its good they working tho .

Take care.

 

[pinkfairy]

Hey p.b I am taking them with food,have never taken them on a empty tummy.

 

I just wondered if taking them together could be a problem?

 

This wave is certainly not abating any time soon.Hooefully it might settle once this infection clears up...good thing I have cut down to 6 (horrible smokes) a day...cannot face any more.

 

Have bought some smoking mints to cut down.I am actually going off cigarettes!

 

jeez louise my head is busting open.Dark room & head phones into day listening to music 🎶 

 

thanks pb 

xxx

[powerback]

22 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Hey p.b I am taking them with food,have never taken them on a empty tummy.

 

I just wondered if taking them together could be a problem?

 

This wave is certainly not abating any time soon.Hooefully it might settle once this infection clears up...good thing I have cut down to 6 (horrible smokes) a day...cannot face any more.

 

Have bought some smoking mints to cut down.I am actually going off cigarettes!

 

jeez louise my head is busting open.Dark room & head phones into day listening to music 🎶 

 

thanks pb 

xxx

I doubt there would be much of an issue taking the antibiotic an hour after the valuim .

Im on the top of the wave with you ,can barely move in kitchen thismorning so DRs tommorow for antinflamatorys and painkillers ,they put animal's down for less than the state of me .

Determined to to see the sun today ,ile get the zimmer frame out and walk lol.

Take care pink.

[pinkfairy]

3 hours ago, powerback said:

I doubt there would be much of an issue taking the antibiotic an hour after the valuim .

Im on the top of the wave with you ,can barely move in kitchen thismorning so DRs tommorow for antinflamatorys and painkillers ,they put animal's down for less than the state of me .

Determined to to see the sun today ,ile get the zimmer frame out and walk lol.

Take care pink.

 

Thanks p.b 

 

oh no sorry to hear this 😕 

guess we’re both been thrown head first into the wave..good luck at the doctors p.b!

honestly they wouldn’t let animals suffer this way it’s just inhumane.state of myself I look like have been clubbing for 39 years with no break in between..

 

 

lol think am going to have to get a mobility scooter at this point in my life.so I will be beside you beep beep...lol 

i will be like marg off Benidorm lol 

 

good for you for getting out i have been in floods floods of tears just laid in a heap today.I picked myself up & cooked salmon for dinner & have done colouring....

 

going to start that online course for art soon,but my heads squeezing so bad with pressure & stupid looping thoughts...can’t concentrate enough to do it...my head reminds me of a ping pong game Lol....Have got & hat on in this house as it seems to help the pressure some how...I look like where’s wally....

 

Sorry I just have to use humour 

 

hope you enjoyed your walk...

 

keep on keeping on 

xxx

[powerback]

1 hour ago, pinkfairy said:

 

Thanks p.b 

 

oh no sorry to hear this 😕  

guess we’re both been thrown head first into the wave..good luck at the doctors p.b!

honestly they wouldn’t let animals suffer this way it’s just inhumane.state of myself I look like have been clubbing for 39 years with no break in between..

 

 

lol think am going to have to get a mobility scooter at this point in my life.so I will be beside you beep beep...lol 

i will be like marg off Benidorm lol 

 

good for you for getting out i have been in floods floods of tears just laid in a heap today.I picked myself up & cooked salmon for dinner & have done colouring....

 

going to start that online course for art soon,but my heads squeezing so bad with pressure & stupid looping thoughts...can’t concentrate enough to do it...my head reminds me of a ping pong game Lol....Have got & hat on in this house as it seems to help the pressure some how...I look like where’s wally....

 

Sorry I just have to use humour 

  

hope you enjoyed your walk...

 

keep on keeping on 

xxx

never apologise for humour ,Indian summer today so amazing ,walked really slow with a stick I found in the woods   ,found quiet spot for back exercises ,lying on the bed now and a bomb scare wouldn't make me move lol.

Don't judge the crying let it flow.

take care    

[pinkfairy]

20 minutes ago, powerback said:

never apologise for humour ,Indian summer today so amazing ,walked really slow with a stick I found in the woods   ,found quiet spot for back exercises ,lying on the bed now and a bomb scare wouldn't make me move lol.

Don't judge the crying let it flow.

take care    

Oh wow sounds AMAZING where you are...just getting out is awesome.Hate been housebound 

Legs won’t carry me out & about...so I just have to envisage you walking in the sun with your stick lol 

 

haha aye I wouldn’t be able to move either.

 

p.b have just got a pdf from kelly brogan for a 3 day meal plan 

but in one of her smoothies it says 

collagen hyrolydate,sunbutter,ghee & raw coca powder 

I never heard of these ingredients before 🙈

 

Are they safe to take?

xxx

[powerback]

8 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Oh wow sounds AMAZING where you are...just getting out is awesome.Hate been housebound 

Legs won’t carry me out & about...so I just have to envisage you walking in the sun with your stick lol 

 

haha aye I wouldn’t be able to move either.

 

p.b have just got a pdf from kelly brogan for a 3 day meal plan 

but in one of her smoothies it says 

collagen hyrolydate,sunbutter,ghee & raw coca powder 

I never heard of these ingredients before 🙈

 

Are they safe to take?

xxx

ghee is just clarified butter ,good nutrients and source of fat,collagen is a good thing ,but google the hydrolydate part,coca is packed with antioxidants and nutrients so safe to take ye  ,take the smoothie early so its not stimulating you before sleep time .

You could take half the measurements to begin with ,smoothies can make you smell like a pig farm until your gut gets used to it .

In aspects of diet ,think months and make it a change over time .

I did a questionnaire the other day from her site and it came back that im hypoglyseamic  and close to thyroid disease  😣

 

[pinkfairy]

Oh wow I did the same & got the exact same one...she did a live free webnair on Saturday 

first time had felt some excitement in years 🙈lol 

 

nice about the pig farm part.lol 

 

They sell it all on amazon 

weary about the collagen as it as vitimans in bit dodgy for Benzo WD taking vitimans 

the rest sounds good...

if you type in kelkybroganmd/preview you can down load the pdf....

 

Think I will start with one of her smoothies on a morning & Change to butchers meat & go from there 

 

tbh am just winging this,it’s getting me through by looking into different things!no brain cells to try all this,but I can try....head pressure abatated thank you god...just extremely cold legs wth 

 

another a day of healing nearly down xxx

[pinkfairy]

Really struggling today with grief & deep emotions....

 

how i didnt want my sons childhood hood to be anything like mine & it’s the same family pattern...

 

so much emotional pain I could drowned!starting to get so frustrated at the length of time have been at this & not even off the drug into recovery..

 

am a shell of who i was,I always had a big heart & a big spirit now this drug is turning me into somebody I don’t reginise  or even like...

 

if if I could at least function to get out walking it would help but house bound & alone for since 2016 is taking its toll....

 

tired of suffering tired of it all!

The more I ingest this drug the sicker am becoming...

 

fed up to the back teeth...

 

every one & rverything gone....

[powerback]

17 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Really struggling today with grief & deep emotions....

 

how i didnt want my sons childhood hood to be anything like mine & it’s the same family pattern...

 

so much emotional pain I could drowned!starting to get so frustrated at the length of time have been at this & not even off the drug into recovery..

 

am a shell of who i was,I always had a big heart & a big spirit now this drug is turning me into somebody I don’t reginise  or even like...

 

if if I could at least function to get out walking it would help but house bound & alone for since 2016 is taking its toll....

 

tired of suffering tired of it all!

The more I ingest this drug the sicker am becoming...

 

fed up to the back teeth...

 

every one & rverything gone....

Thanks pink for saving me the bother of writing how I feel also .

Very rough day,cancelled 2 apointments ,too sick to leave the house and  ive only opened the curtains ,I remember last hollaween and I cant believe im even much worse than last year.

Oh yeah the nepotism ,oh lord do I beat myself around the head with that one .

We need to find serious compassion for ourselves some were because we wont find it anywhere else .

My critic is thrashing me today ,from my bed I can see a house being worked on and the roofer is over weight and aproaching 70 walking around working.

Sedation is welcomed today for me.

Try and float throw the agony .

Look up Daniel mackler on youtube ,I like him ,not today but when your better.

Be safe.

[pinkfairy]

Or thanks for p.b sorry your hurting  to...but just knowing am not alone helps more than you know...I have cried since 8am on & off still going..my sons come home today till Sunday 

 

so I forced myself to get dressed & Greet him with a hug he went on his Xbox & I just locked myself in the bathroom sobbing I couldn’t stop...

 

 

about the guy on the roof my thoughts would of been at least his CNS is intact my inner critic is going nuts just what a failure my life as been apart from 5 years....

 

honestly pets aren’t allowed to suffer this much.

 

wake me up when it’s all over 

I would welcome been hit over the head with a huge pan.

 

cheers for that p.b I will have a look!I did a mediation earlier & bawled my eyes out more...It’s not been able to function for walks that’s crippling me...

 

neuro emotions plus my own 

atomic bomb!i was trying to colour & I throw my pens all over my bedroom...(felt 7 years old pulling a wobbler)

 

one day p.b I hope to find some compassion for myself..

 

childhood programming (unreal)

 

I really hope you feel better soon.

best unlock this bathroom door & wipe the tears & go start tea....

Thanks again for been there p.b 

 

Xxx

 

 

[powerback]

43 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Or thanks for p.b sorry your hurting  to...but just knowing am not alone helps more than you know...I have cried since 8am on & off still going..my sons come home today till Sunday 

 

so I forced myself to get dressed & Greet him with a hug he went on his Xbox & I just locked myself in the bathroom sobbing I couldn’t stop...

 

 

about the guy on the roof my thoughts would of been at least his CNS is intact my inner critic is going nuts just what a failure my life as been apart from 5 years....

 

honestly pets aren’t allowed to suffer this much.

 

wake me up when it’s all over 

I would welcome been hit over the head with a huge pan.

 

cheers for that p.b I will have a look!I did a mediation earlier & bawled my eyes out more...It’s not been able to function for walks that’s crippling me...

 

neuro emotions plus my own 

atomic bomb!i was trying to colour & I throw my pens all over my bedroom...(felt 7 years old pulling a wobbler)

 

one day p.b I hope to find some compassion for myself..

 

childhood programming (unreal)

 

I really hope you feel better soon.

best unlock this bathroom door & wipe the tears & go start tea....

Thanks again for been there p.b 

 

Xxx

 

 

Dont judge the emotional release ,I was welling up last week texting my sister that lives very far away and Im craving more emotional release but no access to it .my sister is now aware of how bad it is.

Doing a wobbler lol,I can laugh because I know exactly what its like .

I get you about geting out. I didnt make it out today but keep trying .

Sometimes I like the darker evenings ,its quite and peaceful ,I like the seasons.

Not many black berries out on my walk yesterday.

Enjoy your time with your son pink

 

[pinkfairy]

1 minute ago, powerback said:

Dont judge the emotional release ,I was welling up last week texting my sister that lives very far away and Im craving more emotional release but no access to it .my sister is now aware of how bad it is.

Doing a wobbler lol,I can laugh because I know exactly what its like .

I get you about geting out. I didnt make it out today but keep trying .

Sometimes I like the darker evenings ,its quite and peaceful ,I like the seasons.

Not many black berries out on my walk yesterday.

Enjoy your time with your son pink

 

He give me a huge cuddle an as gone out to play god love him...I remember before this I was only mum what used to go & play football & Kirby with him...we would walk for hours with the dogs in the woods I always used to have & army of little kids wanting to come with us...

no matter the weather we were always out & about together!

conker fights were the best with him he used to kick my bum at it...

 

bow have nissed over 2 years of his life.Feels like I lost him when all this happened.Now he wants to do his own things with his friends...I seem to watch from afar him growing up.Gone are those days & board games,chasing up the stairs shouting last one up is a rotten egg...now I can barely climb them!!its so sad...but I do my best to be up dressed & waiting for him on Thursday no matter how bad the pain is.

 

p.b the wobblers I have thrown (let’s not go there lol)

i would put a child to shame.

 

oh am so sorry your feeling bad p.b & your sister is far away but at least she understands.

 

I think this journey is so much harder having no one around to tell you it’s goibg to be ok or a hug etc.Were social creatures well I was.

 

i prefer dark nights seem to can’t handle summer months at all.

 

i love berries.everything is changing now,used to be my favourite time of year this...no time is any more.

 

nobody going through this can’t tell me they never get frustrated or seriously angry at the injustice of it all.

 

Its awesome you get out though 😊

 

i have noticed if i push through rough I can sleep more when am active 

but then I pay for pushing.But when I don’t push I start slipping into depression so feel stuck on this one.

damed if you,damed if you don’t.

 

really need to see my old Counselor but money won’t allow it.So am trapped not knowing how to express my emotions...I was always a big talker.But now I am met with silence & myself & it’s truly awful when you’ve been a people pleaser all your life...

 

dam this is one chapter I want over!feel tortured by holding..the longer I hold the WD seems to kick up until I cut again then I get relief for a little bit until the WD hit...

 

haha honestly you couldn’t make this up!well enough of the pity party I get sick of hearing myself..but dam these waves!was. Looking at old pics of myself my word I don’t recognise the person staring back so full of life...

 

keep on keeping on xxx