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Is itching a WD system or a side effect?i can’t stop itching every where...& The skin on my hands is terrible.No moisture any where,all my mouth is cracking too...

 

I cannot touch a dam thing as am so sensitive...if the wind brushes against my skin it hurts...is this hypersensitivity even normal??

 

why am I itching so bad...it’s just started happening 

xx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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8 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Is itching a WD system or a side effect?i can’t stop itching every where...& The skin on my hands is terrible.No moisture any where,all my mouth is cracking too...

 

I cannot touch a dam thing as am so sensitive...if the wind brushes against my skin it hurts...is this hypersensitivity even normal??

 

why am I itching so bad...it’s just started happening 

xx

Hi:

 

I'm not a mod or dr, but I itch all over too. Try getting some good cream/lotion it helps me. Doesn't take it away, but helps!

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. 

 Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist.

 Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form)

---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil.

Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper.

19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020)

I am not a medical professional.

The suggestions I make are based on personal experience.

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Thanks so much froggie 

even my scalp is itching off,it’s a feeling of ants or something I can’t explain it...have had another bath in baby oil but still itch itch dam itch...

 

so sorry you have it too.xxx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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5 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Thanks so much froggie 

even my scalp is itching off,it’s a feeling of ants or something I can’t explain it...have had another bath in baby oil but still itch itch dam itch...

 

so sorry you have it too.xxx

You might try magnesium cream, that helps calm it down too. Try Epsom salt bath. But maybe a mod would know more.

 

It's no fun...

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. 

 Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist.

 Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form)

---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil.

Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper.

19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020)

I am not a medical professional.

The suggestions I make are based on personal experience.

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Thanks froggie will order some.I do have Espom salt baths when able.xxx

 

This morning,Urgh!All before 8.30 am..

 

Dropped a plate & it smashed ,burnt a pan,my son was carrying on over the Xbox.so was arguing,but no xbox on a morning now until his dressed for school.Its causing a lot of problems.My own fault for allowing it to happen!I said sorry & were going to sort a morning routine out to try & get on top of it all,as it all callasped  2016..

 

started crying after he left for school.No child should have to go through this or see his only parent a shell of who they were.so sad & it’s not right what these drugs do.We should be out there enjoying is childhood.Not coped up like prisoners...sorry for the rant but it grinds you down this journey & my heart aches for son having to watch it all.I hide so much yet my insides are like jello...

 

I get my new weighted blanket today.(pray it helps with sleep) No energy at all,but DR/DP dropped off.Just very high anxiety which seems to be here a lot...lots of deep breathing & self talk.

 

xxx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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Hi pink ,I hope your well .

Always remember we are worth it .

I hope your son is well .

Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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On 31/01/2018 at 9:57 PM, pinkfairy said:

were going to sort a morning routine out to try & get on top of it all

 

My daughter uses pictures hung on hooks for my grandson's bedtime routine.  If your son is older you could get him to help you make a chart with pictures.

 

When she was young I used to tell her to tidy her room and I would go in later and find her sitting on the bed.  When I was growing up my mother used to tell me to clean my room and I wouldn't do it, just get side tracked.  It wasn't until years later, possibly after watching Super Nanny Jo, that I learned that it is a good idea to break things down into smaller tasks and have a list which you can use as a guide.  This is something that I'm still trying to implement, and I've just turned 60!

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18 hours ago, powerback said:

Hi pink ,I hope your well .

Always remember we are worth it .

I hope your son is well .

 

Hi p.b thank you so much for checking in on me....

 

have got really deep depression & the feeling of loniness is like no other.

 

my son is pulling away from me,I can’t reach out as am so low.This is impacting us massively :( 

 

i hope you had had a nice weekend away??

thanks again for checking in 

pink xxxx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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15 hours ago, ChessieCat said:

 

My daughter uses pictures hung on hooks for my grandson's bedtime routine.  If your son is older you could get him to help you make a chart with pictures.

 

When she was young I used to tell her to tidy her room and I would go in later and find her sitting on the bed.  When I was growing up my mother used to tell me to clean my room and I wouldn't do it, just get side tracked.  It wasn't until years later, possibly after watching Super Nanny Jo, that I learned that it is a good idea to break things down into smaller tasks and have a list which you can use as a guide.  This is something that I'm still trying to implement, and I've just turned 60!

Hi Cheshire Cat,thanks for stopping by with your advice...

 

what a great idea,I used to do this when he was little!I tell him over & over but he will not listen,so am going to do what you said & brake it down into smaller pieces for him...

 

hey congratulations on turning 60 ❣️!Hope you had one what was enjoyable (as far as with drawls let’s us)

 

ps am going to implement it to am 39...

 

I was used to been a single mum,juggling to jobs,running a home & my dog!used to love been busy.But since WD am busy surviving now,but my mind jumps from one task to another then I get flustered!so am going to break it down 

thank you xxx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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For all you beautiful souls out here 

xxxx

PB I did it,I managed to copy the link from you tube 😁

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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Beautiful song xxx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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1 minute ago, powerback said:

lol great good on ye pink :D.

beautiful song . 

First time have smiled in awhile...

cant believe I figured it out!i would like some form of medal for this lol 

 

It takes me all of time to figure out what to have for our teas urgh!

 

 

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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3 hours ago, pinkfairy said:

 

Hi p.b thank you so much for checking in on me....

 

have got really deep depression & the feeling of loniness is like no other.

 

my son is pulling away from me,I can’t reach out as am so low.This is impacting us massively :( 

 

i hope you had had a nice weekend away??

thanks again for checking in 

pink xxxx

Your welcome pink ,lonliness is a bummer ,attack it with disrtraction and try not let it overwhelm you.

Im going to get some colouring books ,I need to reduce my screen time (not SA just mindless surfing in general).

I was colouring in my neices birthday colouring book  last week :D.

The weekend was great thanks.

Keep up the fight.

Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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1 minute ago, powerback said:

Your welcome pink ,lonliness is a bummer ,attack it with disrtraction and try not let it overwhelm you.

Im going to get some colouring books ,I need to reduce my screen time (not SA just mindless surfing in general).

I was colouring in my neices birthday colouring book  last week :D.

The weekend was great thanks.

Keep up the fight.

The colouring books are really good pb..lol bet your niece loved it!

or glad your weekend went well :) 

 

am struggling with distractions,am house bound 24/7 so it’s getting harder to keep on trying to find things!Been alone is a huge trigger for me,because of my childhood.The depression is truly horrible,I guess the loniness Feeds it too.Plus it’s trigggering me seeing the distance & pain in my sons face :( 

just wish I had a time machine.Had of never of come off the meds.

 

 

am guilty too of surfing...Amazon & eBay.Am looking to buy another fish tank.But even that hurts my brain.Have lost interest in everything.

 

 

am trying pb thank you 🙏🏻 & you too :) 

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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6 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

The colouring books are really good pb..lol bet your niece loved it!

or glad your weekend went well :) 

 

am struggling with distractions,am house bound 24/7 so it’s getting harder to keep on trying to find things!Been alone is a huge trigger for me,because of my childhood.The depression is truly horrible,I guess the loniness Feeds it too.Plus it’s trigggering me seeing the distance & pain in my sons face :( 

just wish I had a time machine.Had of never of come off the meds.

 

 

am guilty too of surfing...Amazon & eBay.Am looking to buy another fish tank.But even that hurts my brain.Have lost interest in everything.

 

 

am trying pb thank you 🙏🏻 & you too :) 

I get you about everything hurting the brain.

I was out for a walk today and my body had no energy and ached all over .

Never give up pink ,keep at it .

I so wish you had the support you deserve .

Its coming into spring ,not that youd think by the weather ,fight hard to get sun or even supplement vitiman D,im aware of that minefeild so be careful.

 

I was only thinking of the time macine myself the other day ,I wouldn't even be greedy and go back to far .

Stay safe pink.

 

Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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I got my colouring book pink :D,knowing me ile have music on in my ears ,laptop out and colouring lol.

As I said before we are worth every second of the fight .

Be safe .

Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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On 11/02/2018 at 6:57 PM, powerback said:

I get you about everything hurting the brain.

I was out for a walk today and my body had no energy and ached all over .

Never give up pink ,keep at it .

I so wish you had the support you deserve .

Its coming into spring ,not that youd think by the weather ,fight hard to get sun or even supplement vitiman D,im aware of that minefeild so be careful.

 

I was only thinking of the time macine myself the other day ,I wouldn't even be greedy and go back to far .

Stay safe pink.

 

Hope the aching as stopped Pb :/ 

No support Pb tried every avenue...even a vicar,the vicor was on an ssri wtf....he said I needed one!i was like omg 😮 no words...lol 

 

heyyy that’s great news pb happy colouring lol...

 

I have completely crashed...Undescrible depression I can’t even get out of bed with out my legs wanting to give way!My brain is just on fire,panic attacks non stop & sleep non existent.I feel like have been plugged into the national grid..

i have been doing eft tapping in bed & was crying right through out it.my nerves are screaming in my tummy...

 

its the holidays for my son I can’t even get up :( !What a complete mess I am in...I didn’t think things could get worse...oh man have gone down like a snowman ⛄️ on a sunny day!!

 

ps try & get some sharpies there awesome for colouring!

 

Ps keep up the good work 

xxx

 

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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2 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Hope the aching as stopped Pb :/ 

No support Pb tried every avenue...even a vicar,the vicor was on an ssri wtf....he said I needed one!i was like omg 😮 no words...lol 

 

heyyy that’s great news pb happy colouring lol...

 

I have completely crashed...Undescrible depression I can’t even get out of bed with out my legs wanting to give way!My brain is just on fire,panic attacks non stop & sleep non existent.I feel like have been plugged into the national grid..

i have been doing eft tapping in bed & was crying right through out it.my nerves are screaming in my tummy...

 

its the holidays for my son I can’t even get up :( !What a complete mess I am in...I didn’t think things could get worse...oh man have gone down like a snowman ⛄️ on a sunny day!!

 

ps try & get some sharpies there awesome for colouring!

 

Ps keep up the good work 

xxx

 

ARRR crap sorry for this tidal wave your in pink ,a vicar on meds ,does his congregation know he's doing mass under the influence lol.no offence to any church going folk reading this .

Had a very deep depression out walking today ,I sat on a wall in the sun watching cows grazing lol,the things that become interesting during withdrawl lol ,actually my anxiety was so bad the other day I was afraid to walk past them and turned back [lots of them on the trail ].I was well aware of my inner critic going bonkers judging me ,so I said hey shut up I've gone far enough for the day :D.

 

Thanks for the tip about the sharpies. .

I wish you well pink .your razor sharp wit is still there so hang on :D

Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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1 minute ago, powerback said:

ARRR crap sorry for this tidal wave your in pink ,a vicar on meds ,does his congregation know he's doing mass under the influence lol.no offence to any church going folk reading this .

Had a very deep depression out walking today ,I sat on a wall in the sun watching cows grazing lol,the things that become interesting during withdrawl lol ,actually my anxiety was so bad the other day I was afraid to walk past them and turned back [lots of them on the trail ].I was well aware of my inner critic going bonkers judging me ,so I said hey shut up I've gone far enough for the day :D.

 

Thanks for the tip about the sharpies. .

I wish you well pink .your razor sharp wit is still there so hang on :D

LOL....am sure there all probaly on them!I was so gob smacked by it..here’s me a blubbering wreak begging for help & he tells me I need meds,as they helped him!No need lol...

 

hahaha Pb that made laugh about the cows...at least you got out though :) 

 

I am sick of this inner critic,had love to duct tape the foul mouth thing up.lol 

 

seriously the Sharpeys are awesome!There about £7 a packet but worth it...Also go on to amazon at look at paint by numbers @Skeeter told me about these.

 

oh yes am in a 🌪🌊...this dam mind of mine won’t shut the hell up!The way it speaks to me is disgusting also...

 

Am wondering if the mirt as gone paradoxical as am just getting sicker & sicker with no signs of improvement.Am more concerned about this depression!

 

Today I had to drag my self to make a salad & when I brought it back to bed,I nearly choked on a piece of celery...you should of seen me move I was like a ninja lol 

 

my whole ole salad shot in the air!

i keep freaking out now that am going to choke,I have so many phobias it’s not right 

xxx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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2 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

LOL....am sure there all probaly on them!I was so gob smacked by it..here’s me a blubbering wreak begging for help & he tells me I need meds,as they helped him!No need lol...

 

hahaha Pb that made laugh about the cows...at least you got out though :) 

 

I am sick of this inner critic,had love to duct tape the foul mouth thing up.lol 

 

seriously the Sharpeys are awesome!There about £7 a packet but worth it...Also go on to amazon at look at paint by numbers @Skeeter told me about these.

 

oh yes am in a 🌪🌊...this dam mind of mine won’t shut the hell up!The way it speaks to me is disgusting also...

 

Am wondering if the mirt as gone paradoxical as am just getting sicker & sicker with no signs of improvement.Am more concerned about this depression!

 

Today I had to drag my self to make a salad & when I brought it back to bed,I nearly choked on a piece of celery...you should of seen me move I was like a ninja lol 

 

my whole ole salad shot in the air!

i keep freaking out now that am going to choke,I have so many phobias it’s not right 

xxx

Put that to the mods about the mirt ,I'm useless with meds knowledge .I'm convinced taking this dose of meds is doing nothing but paradoxical also ,but I'm scarred to taper further in withdrawl and constant viruses because I cant get quite angry  and rage is directed at myself .

Just hap bran flakes for tea and its rotten lol. had home made beans on toast for lunch and of course missed my mouth and duvet covered in sauce,yikes .

 

Look in the mirror and tell yourself you will get past this wave/depression  because your worth it ,corny I know:) .

 

If I ever win the lotto pink your the first one ide help ,so dam crap you are  on your own raising your son in this process ,being around my niece has given me an insight into the effort needed .not much use to you I know because of the chances but I want to express my anger at this process for parents like yourself , sorry if this was a bit deep and heavy/triggering .tell me off if I have been .

 

 

 

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10 minutes ago, powerback said:

Put that to the mods about the mirt ,I'm useless with meds knowledge .I'm convinced taking this dose of meds is doing nothing but paradoxical also ,but I'm scarred to taper further in withdrawl and constant viruses because I cant get quite angry  and rage is directed at myself .

Just hap bran flakes for tea and its rotten lol. had home made beans on toast for lunch and of course missed my mouth and duvet covered in sauce,yikes .

 

Look in the mirror and tell yourself you will get past this wave/depression  because your worth it ,corny I know:) .

 

If I ever win the lotto pink your the first one ide help ,so dam crap you are  on your own raising your son in this process ,being around my niece has given me an insight into the effort needed .not much use to you I know because of the chances but I want to express my anger at this process for parents like yourself , sorry if this was a bit deep and heavy/triggering .tell me off if I have been .

 

 

 

Oh pb you are a treasure thank you so much...That’s so sweet of you & very kind!

what the hell are we meant to do if we are experiencing it,I have no idea...am scared to taper anything.My symptoms are so sereve it’s unreal.

 

you sound very much like me,my anger gets directed at my self.Been a child I had to swallow it down & all the people that have used me for there own needs get me so mad,yet am left with every body’s crap on my shoulders....I so totally get you!

 

haha your tea sounds beautiful 😁 lol...that’s me with the salad all over & you with sauce lol...

 

No not at all triggering Pb...

it saddens me to the core as it really is just us too....have reached out to so many people & just rejected each time!I wouldn’t mind if I had a partner who could say here,you go back to bed I will do the tea etc...my poor son as had to basically bring his self up for the past 2 years :( I cook for us but am not there emotionally to meet his needs...2 life’s ruined.I do my best with what have got(it’s not a lot)

He as distanced his self to protect his self.He said to me the other day,mum we have nothing to talk about any more :( !His right because am that tramatized I can’t find words to talk...I can barely function so he finds comfort in is xbox (so sad) But am powerless to do anything!We used to be the A-team went every where together & did all sorts.Hell I even didn’t go out drinking because I did not want to leave him...& now it’s like we’re a million miles apart!

 

i tried to get him to do yoga & breathing with me,he did it a few times then said no way am I doing this it’s rubbish!!

 

Am worried for us both Pb really worried as I aren’t picking up & basically house bound with terror 

 

sorry if a little deep xxx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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Ps not corney at all :) 

 

i tell myself self it to,it sounds so fake lol!!

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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8 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Oh pb you are a treasure thank you so much...That’s so sweet of you & very kind!

what the hell are we meant to do if we are experiencing it,I have no idea...am scared to taper anything.My symptoms are so sereve it’s unreal.

 

you sound very much like me,my anger gets directed at my self.Been a child I had to swallow it down & all the people that have used me for there own needs get me so mad,yet am left with every body’s crap on my shoulders....I so totally get you!

 

haha your tea sounds beautiful 😁 lol...that’s me with the salad all over & you with sauce lol...

 

No not at all triggering Pb...

it saddens me to the core as it really is just us too....have reached out to so many people & just rejected each time!I wouldn’t mind if I had a partner who could say here,you go back to bed I will do the tea etc...my poor son as had to basically bring his self up for the past 2 years :( I cook for us but am not there emotionally to meet his needs...2 life’s ruined.I do my best with what have got(it’s not a lot)

He as distanced his self to protect his self.He said to me the other day,mum we have nothing to talk about any more :( !His right because am that tramatized I can’t find words to talk...I can barely function so he finds comfort in is xbox (so sad) But am powerless to do anything!We used to be the A-team went every where together & did all sorts.Hell I even didn’t go out drinking because I did not want to leave him...& now it’s like we’re a million miles apart!

 

i tried to get him to do yoga & breathing with me,he did it a few times then said no way am I doing this it’s rubbish!!

 

Am worried for us both Pb really worried as I aren’t picking up & basically house bound with terror 

 

sorry if a little deep xxx

It would have to be over a million because I have my eye set on a new planet to move to :D.

Well I think your doing much better than the drinking ,because if you are anything like me that drinking lark has only brought trouble so stay away from it lol.

No worries with the deepness .its good for cleansing the soul .

I hope them days of others crap on the shoulders are gone ,ile never be the same again for ever ,because normal worries are nothing compared to what members on here suffer with . 

 

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1 minute ago, powerback said:

It would have to be over a million because I have my eye set on a new planet to move to :D.

Well I think your doing much better than the drinking ,because if you are anything like me that drinking lark has only brought trouble so stay away from it lol.

No worries with the deepness .its good for cleansing the soul .

I hope them days of others crap on the shoulders are gone ,ile never be the same again for ever ,because normal worries are nothing compared to what members on here suffer with . 

 

Well I don’t need to buy one Pb am already on a different planet from this one 😆!!

 

2 years sober Pb after decades of been a party girl...stopped the party life after my son was born.Never looked back,drinking also calmed down to just once a week on a Saturday night!really sorted my self out & now look...

 

pb the crap from others are what got me here!Broken from so much rejection...

 

jeez any body says to me I have got a cold I really feel like the mad hatter & saying REALLY that’s nice & a few Cuss words!or people moaning it’s cold or there glad works over etc 

 

Am like let’s swap even for 5 minutes!!

 

I never took nothing for granted before this,as had climbed out of Hell & it took me 15 years to do so...I was grateful & so kind I even helped old lady’s carry there shopping if I saw them struggle!!

thats the kind of person I was...now I just feel so angry & bitter!Hard words to swallow 

xxx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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2 years sober Pb after decades of been a party girl...stopped the party life after my son was born.Never looked back,drinking also calmed down to just once a week on a Saturday night!really sorted my self out & now look...

 

I think this also but consistency will pay off in the end ,we really are being tested ,I'm 3 years at the end of this month ,so proud .I can actually say this without wincing ,that's progress lol.

Everyday we wake up is a day for hope [inner critic just shouted "you believe that do ye "].

Did you ever watch the movie "me myself and Irene ",I was watching clips on YouTube recently and I look at it very different since ive been on my journey ,I still laugh loads at it . 

2 years sober ,tell that to the critic and put it in the pipe and  smoke it :)

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Tested you think lol...

i really think this is the ultimate life test,for what I have no idea 💡 

 

hey congrats at 3 years massive mile stone 😁!sadly I miss my wine to unwind with & read a good book!Now I can’t even see straight lol...

i have watched it before but I have no clue now lol 

man going to try & watch that :) 

 

inner critic (yea right you can’t even see numb nuts) lol 

 

everything stimulates  me now to the point of am like a cat on a hot tin roof lol...

 

getting up sends panic through my body!i feel like am just in acute every single second.Its my sleep what’s battering me to the ground,no improvements in 18 month still the 4 hours then I aWake in panic & adrenaline surges (I just say here we go again)....

 

i know am not healing because of the sleep situation!

i do everything to help baths black out curtains,no t.v etc....but them dam surges are crippling!!

 

i did watch ace Ventura the other week I did laugh out loud...it seemed strange!Have forgot what a good laugh is,am emotionally numb like have just shut down!

 

i need a miricle pb...or what I wouldn’t give to be able to walk out side again with no fear of my own shadow :) blissimo 

 

 

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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Have a watch of this when able ,a bit jargon but a lot of sense .I'm trying to adhere the advise myself .

Watch a couple of times .

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10 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Tested you think lol...

i really think this is the ultimate life test,for what I have no idea 💡 

 

hey congrats at 3 years massive mile stone 😁!sadly I miss my wine to unwind with & read a good book!Now I can’t even see straight lol...

i have watched it before but I have no clue now lol 

man going to try & watch that :) 

 

inner critic (yea right you can’t even see numb nuts) lol 

 

everything stimulates  me now to the point of am like a cat on a hot tin roof lol...

 

getting up sends panic through my body!i feel like am just in acute every single second.Its my sleep what’s battering me to the ground,no improvements in 18 month still the 4 hours then I aWake in panic & adrenaline surges (I just say here we go again)....

 

i know am not healing because of the sleep situation!

i do everything to help baths black out curtains,no t.v etc....but them dam surges are crippling!!

 

i did watch ace Ventura the other week I did laugh out loud...it seemed strange!Have forgot what a good laugh is,am emotionally numb like have just shut down!

 

i need a miricle pb...or what I wouldn’t give to be able to walk out side again with no fear of my own shadow :) blissimo 

 

 

Ok no more symptom talk ,its too late for it ,sorry for making you:)

It will change someday ,I just wish it was yesterday for all of us .

I woke at 9am this morning and it was 12 before I felt ok to get on with the day ,so strange ,its like a light switch ,I didn't fight it I just sat around and waited for the day to unfold ,a bit like accepting it ,I know its not like your situation though .

the last few days I'm watching alan partridge clips ,very funny . 

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1 minute ago, powerback said:

Ok no more symptom talk ,its too late for it ,sorry for making you:)

It will change someday ,I just wish it was yesterday for all of us .

I woke at 9am this morning and it was 12 before I felt ok to get on with the day ,so strange ,its like a light switch ,I didn't fight it I just sat around and waited for the day to unfold ,a bit like accepting it ,I know its not like your situation though .

the last few days I'm watching alan partridge clips ,very funny . 

Lol....

yea me too if I magic wand had make the whole community well ❣️

 

Orrrrr 9 wowsa that’s really good...:) 

 

my My day starts at 2am I come round at 8 am always feel alright when I come around,like windows on a morning...but as soon as I dose that dam benzo high anxiety kicks in & then the day turns to hell as soon as have taken it!!

 

i dread taking it.

 

lol yea he is v funny like...I used to watch hangover I just used to laugh so much at it,now I can’t watch it grrrrrr

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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2 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Lol....

yea me too if I magic wand had make the whole community well ❣️

 

Orrrrr 9 wowsa that’s really good...:) 

 

my My day starts at 2am I come round at 8 am always feel alright when I come around,like windows on a morning...but as soon as I dose that dam benzo high anxiety kicks in & then the day turns to hell as soon as have taken it!!

 

i dread taking it.

 

lol yea he is v funny like...I used to watch hangover I just used to laugh so much at it,now I can’t watch it grrrrrr

the hangover movies would trigger me these days ,flashbacks of the countless drunken days ,rotten lol.

That sounds like paradoxical for sure ,get advise soon off the mods .

I know we all  check up on members on the site ,but would it be a good thing for you to give the site a break to relax you .I need to myself I think ,but I'm not busy enough ,I'm not saying you should, just thinking out loud .

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On 12/02/2018 at 10:12 PM, powerback said:

the hangover movies would trigger me these days ,flashbacks of the countless drunken days ,rotten lol.

That sounds like paradoxical for sure ,get advise soon off the mods .

I know we all  check up on members on the site ,but would it be a good thing for you to give the site a break to relax you .I need to myself I think ,but I'm not busy enough ,I'm not saying you should, just thinking out loud .

Hi pb...

 

sorry not been in touch hope your managing xxx

 

Have had aka really bad!

 

am just getting sicker,the depression is very bad.Am growing very concerned...because as soon as I dose the diazepam am hit with loads of symptoms.

 

Xx

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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27 minutes ago, pinkfairy said:

Hi pb...

 

sorry not been in touch hope your managing xxx

 

Have had aka really bad!

 

am just getting sicker,the depression is very bad.Am growing very concerned...because as soon as I dose the diazepam am hit with loads of symptoms.

 

Xx

Hi pink no worries of course. hope it changes soon for you.

Could you ask the mods for advice to see what's going on ,it looks paradoxical when you take diazepam,but don't take my words ,let a mod suss it out . 

Not a good week either ,constant viruses have me exhausted .I didn't leave the house on Wednesday and that's rare for me ,I at least  try and get a walk in every day .

Its been a very funny week for me ,I have loads of symptoms and at times extreme ,but I have had a decent amount of laughter and sense of humour ,its very weird .[sorry last thing you need to hear with not well ].

As I said pink I really hope it changes for you soon .I wish you the best and remember we are worth it .

 

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Hi pb how are you doing?

 

thank you so much for checking in,it means loads xx

 

Honestly....Am doing very bad!no improvements & just getting sicker.have gone into a spiral,I can’t get out of it...Am honestly struggling with the trauma of it all,I can’t speak to my son am just froze in terror....He basically shuts me out,won’t come near me...This suffering is unbearable.All my past is hammering on the door...what have lost seems to much for me!I can’t handle any stress & no matter if I hold it’s just getting worse....I honestly think am going to end up losing my son & our home!i can’t function pb...

 

i dont know what to do at this point.My nervous system is fried...getting out of bed produces panic attacks!

 

Am lost & lonely to the core...my family pattern is playing out in front of my eyes & am too sick to stop it...my son should not be going through this & I just feel as though I can’t put him through it for much longer!He deserves a childhood pb...I didn’t get one!

 

thank you for asking xxx

 

sorry it’s a horrible update...

First AD when i was 19.Binge drinker/drugs 15 years weekend use.I was always pulled on and off.2005-2007-Mirtapine 45mg CT. 2010-2016 Paxil 40mg + Zopiclone.Jan-2016 i was CT off Paxil.Stopped alcohol Jan 2016.Given 2-4mg of Diazepam April 2016 CT them after 3 month.They reinstated 8mg of Diazepam July 2016 and the Doctor CT me off Zopiclone the same day.They then tried adding all different drugs Mirt one of them at 15mg (i took 7.5mg).I was tapered August 2016 7.5mg.Sep 2016 7mg.Oct 2016 6mg.Tried 1mg of Paxil-stopped after 2 days.Nov 2016 5.5mg.Tried olanzapine @2.5mg (stopped after a week)Dec 2016-5mg.Tried switching to liquid Jan-March 2017 (no good)back to pills.April 2017-4.75mg of Diazepam June 2017 -4.5mg.July 2018 went inpatient for 10 days.Awakening 4 days later.HELD.Sep 2017 4.3mg Dec 2017-4mg (Held)April 2019- started tapering the Mirtazapine.Sep 2019 at 6mg of Mirtazapine (HELD)Stopped smoking CT after 26 years.10.16.19..Restarted the Diazepam taper Jan 2020 micro tapering (game changer) now 18/7/23 @0.052mg Diazepam + Mirtazapine @6mg.

 

 

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