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Altostrata

bhasski, mammaP has given you great advice.

 

On 5/20/2017 at 4:26 PM, mammaP said:

My memory is terrible, it has been really bad since ECT years ago. It has got a bit better since tapering off effexor but is still bad.

 

You have had such a lot of drugs in the last 3-4 years  and your nervous system is struggling. We have replied many times trying to answer your questions but we can't say how long this will last. You have to take each day as it comes and get through it the best way you can. Every day is one day closer to being healed.  It will take time, but you will get better and have to hold on to that thought. Knowing that your body is healing itself will help you to get through this. 

We are all in this together, some are healed and others are just starting the process. Sometimes it is very, very hard to come here and try to comfort and encourage others when we are struggling ourselves. Staff are also in withdrawal or tapering and are here voluntarily to help others. To be told we don't care is hurtful to us because we care very much but there are so many we just can't answer every post.  

 

Please take good care of yourself and be careful of trying other things because they have helped someone else. Everyone is different and what helps one person might harm another.  Often we feel that we must do something when what we really need to do is NOTHING, just allow our bodies to heal themselves. 

 

On 7/17/2017 at 9:29 AM, bhasski said:

Where are all the moderators ?

Can somebody tell me sth natural to relax legs esp. left leg ... so that I can rest atleast ?

 

^ Do you still have restless legs? Many people respond well to magnesium, it can relax muscles, see

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1300-magnesium-natures-calcium-channel-blocker/

 

Gentle stretching can also help, especially if you sit at the computer a lot.

 

On 7/25/2017 at 9:07 AM, bhasski said:

Hi everybody,

I have very stiff neck and stretching pain at back of neck and shoulders along with fatigue.

 

 

Anybody who is facing same issues and have gone better pleas reply.. 

 

A surgeon who operated me for ulnar neuropathy gave me nortryptline 10mg/ pregabalin 75mg. I took it once believing him and the next morning i woke up pain free and relaxed.

From that day, i know its sth hormonal damage caused by ssris ans APs. I never took nortryptline again knowing its a atypical AD.

 

Please gimme sm solution to relieve pain.

 

Do you sit at the computer a lot? Gentle stretching can help back and shoulders. Also, magnesium, see

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1300-magnesium-natures-calcium-channel-blocker/

 

 

What is your current symptom pattern?

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@Altostrata

Emotionally : There are ingoing continuous  negative thoughts which brings anger, hatred most of the time.

Nothing seems pleasant. Nothing excites me. Irritation on the verge of breaking loose into anger.

 

Physically: Stiff neck and muscles..  restlessness all over .. restless LEFT leg mostly aggravating at night.  Fatigue. I feel uncomfortable most of the time. Difficulty in talking, laughing..

Visual blurness ( not able to read laptop screens) ,  Heaviness in eyes, pressure in head... Uneasiness in chest left side.. 

Left hand still numb and gripping issues after 10 mos of surgery.

 

These symptoms are little easier to bear from last year, but still makes me dysfunctional.

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AntiAntiPsychotic

Dang bhasski it sounds like you are suffering to the extreme. God willing you get better

 

I thought I had it bad. It's been 5 months since being off Risperdal and I've been having a very hard time too. Heavy eyes, somehow I can't cry, sometimes I want to break things, people's voices irritate & make me nervous, so does most heavy noise, it's been getting better but I have the concrete block head feeling too, muscle stiffness, always hungry but feels like it does nothing, difficulty talking, can't enjoy anything, sad & angry but it's like I can't feel either way, paranoid & sensitive, very lazy & having difficulty finding motivation to even shower or change clothes + wash clothes, difficulty remembering things & retaining info, TERRIBLE dreams & nightmares the past few weeks, insomnia + suddenly waking up, lowered sex drive + strange feelings both sexual & non sexual.

 

To sum it up, bad, bad & more bad. And you may of read my story already, but I'm currently fighting a legal case & may be going to jail in this already unhealthy state.

 

Only taking fish oil pills that seem to give some relief. Reluctant to try homeopathy. Terrified of doctors and going back to hospital

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@AntiAntiPsychotic

I do wish that we can come out of misery  as our older self with some pills of paracetamol or ibuprofen.

 

But this is sheer agony that we are put into. 

I have tried homeopathy .. and currently on Ayurveda. They are not as dangerous as the western medicines.

 

Infact, if they dont do good, they wont harm. For the fact, i got some relieved by Ayurveda.

I wish you a great relief.

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Will it get better?

Restless leg .. uneasy blur eyes.. difficult breathing/ shallow breathing... late or no sleep .. 

Why did they do this ..?

Just some eductional and professional ego of smartness.... 

 

Frustration of not being able to get into anything ... on father support and still in resesntment with the way he works. 

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8 hours ago, Miko789 said:

I noticed better memory within one hour after taking it

I take it in the morning one capsule 600mg with piperine.

 

 

Try this, it might help with restless leg,

http://www.ebay.co.uk/itm/Varixinal-Gel-Sooths-Varicose-Vein-Fatigue-Help-Pressure-In-The-Legs-75ml-/322625956644?epid=1049947210&hash=item4b1e016b24:g:4M4AAOSwwN5ZfvWq

 

 

 

Thanks.

Which brand capsules are you using for turmeric with piperine?

 

And how do you take it with honey ?

 

The above link is for varicose veins... I dont have that... its only restlessness which gets increased when I lie down to bed.

And only left leg...

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virgo43

Bhasski bhai. Just wanted to say hello. 

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bhasski

Hello ,

Very kind of you bhai. 

I am going through stressful phase... health is not getting any better.. and I am trying assisting father in business, though I am making it bad ... had anger bursts ... 

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SkyBlue

Hi bhasski,

 

Yes I do believe it gets better. It has gotten better for me and gotten better for so many people here. 

 

Your signature says you are taking some supplements. Have you had any luck trying magnesium? 

 

Hang in there. 

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6 hours ago, SkyBlue said:

Hi bhasski,

 

Yes I do believe it gets better. It has gotten better for me and gotten better for so many people here. 

 

Your signature says you are taking some supplements. Have you had any luck trying magnesium? 

 

Hang in there. 

I am hoping same and thus hanging with different methods.

 

No, 

I didn't had any luck with magnesium.

I rarely noticed any relief or felt good. Instead it made my stomach bad which was already very bad at that time.

 

I had cramps all the time then with little to no appetite.

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Miko789

Bhaski I have a question

 

how much bacopa you take and when morning or afternoon?

 

thanks

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I am not taking pure bacopa.. Rather its a ayurvedic preparation - Brahmi vati. It has other ingredients too.

Brahmi is bacopa monnieri.

 

I take it mostly in the evening or if forgotten, at night before bed.

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bhasski

Why is there no signature information for mobile site ?

 

 

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I cannot bear the sight of my eldest sister who has put me through this agony... she is here home and my head is burning.

 

She is the one who has taken my trust as granted and suppressed my wishes claiming shes always right.

 

I am in living pain as I am unable to bear her sight and voice.

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AntiAntiPsychotic

^^ it sucks when you have to mentally deal with family & social stress on top of the stress that's already happening from these awful drugs we've been given

 

try to focus on something else & don't feed into it, that's usually what they want, a reaction from you so they can start a feud. I've noticed over time its what certain types do when they know your a strong individual.

 

hows the symptoms going bhasski ???

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18 hours ago, AntiAntiPsychotic said:

^^ it sucks when you have to mentally deal with family & social stress on top of the stress that's already happening from these awful drugs we've been given

 

try to focus on something else & don't feed into it, that's usually what they want, a reaction from you so they can start a feud. I've noticed over time its what certain types do when they know your a strong individual.

 

hows the symptoms going bhasski ???

I am not well. Dead zombified with one emotion of rage.

I have all those symptoms aggravated since my sister came.

 

Dont know what to do other than to avoid her sympathy and keep myself out of reach and mute

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Does it get better ? Will I get my emotions back ? Will I be able to even  think for  work  with my education or previous job experience?

 

 

Or it will remain as painful as it is...

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Again.. will it get better?

Sexually will I be able to feel things ... mentally will I feel calm .. will i be able to do my daily tasks again ?

Will I be able to  feel pleasure .. will I be able to say again that  dont worry I will handle this ... 

 

Will anger leave my side ...

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Madeleine

I think you will get better.... in all respects. Time heals.  

Are there any non-drug and non supplement methods that you are using to deal with the anger and anxiety? The withdrawal is very, very real - and causes mental and physical symptoms, such as anger, anxiety. There is no doubt about that -- and all of us here have experienced it first hand unfortunately. However, thoughts and corresponding feelings can also affect our wellbeing, both physical and mental.  Anger and ill feelings also can also contribute to physical issues and anxiety.

So, if you are not yet doing something to change these negative feelings into positive you should consider doing that. It could help.  For example, faith/spirituality, meditation, cognitive behavioural therapy etc. can help you come to a state of acceptance of things you can't change. 

With best wishes,

M.

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FarmGirlWorks

Hang in there, Bhasski -- you are not alone in this hell of withdrawal. I am at month 7 and experiencing anxiety that is thru the roof and makes it very difficult to think. But I have this forum and people I've seen in real life who do get better after getting thru this. Hang on...

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On 11/8/2017 at 10:22 PM, Madeleine said:

So, if you are not yet doing something to change these negative feelings into positive you should consider doing that. It could help.  For example, faith/spirituality, meditation, cognitive behavioural therapy etc. can help you come to a state of acceptance of things you can't change. 

Madeline,

 

Thanks for writing and giving your time.

The whole thing of faith/ spirituality is gone from me... 

I did wonder most of the time that why for all the years I was inclined towards spirituality? Why I love its thoughts... everyhthing is gone..

Nothing in chest builds up thinking off it as if it was different me.

 

I am trying my best but seeing other people doing things easily remind me how poorly I am living even though I have most.. good  ignorant parents who believed the doctors.. overconfident complacent loving sisters who never could go wrong but for me...

My mind burns seeing myself pathetically and writing bs here ..  i want the calmness and acceptance.

 

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On 11/9/2017 at 1:37 AM, FarmGirlWorks said:

Hang in there, Bhasski -- you are not alone in this hell of withdrawal. I am at month 7 and experiencing anxiety that is thru the roof and makes it very difficult to think. But I have this forum and people I've seen in real life who do get better after getting thru this. Hang on...

Thanks

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I have been going through PSSD updates on pssdforum of Ghost to see if people have reached somewhere... but all vain.

 

Doomed to have this PSSD along with physical and emotionally robbed state.

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SA,

I know its my thread.. but this is regarding my father. He has been pushing his  health for a year with me bedridden.. for work . 

His symptoms were right hand trembling and leg numb and slow body movement.

 

Today after pushing him to go to a senior  neurophysician doctor to a captital city.. he got prescribed with 

 

levodopa+ carbidopa+ x .. combination

+

Escitalopram 10mg 

 

I dont want to go him to the pain I am going through with memory and emotional issues. Though my father is already having issues .. i know ssri and other dopamine drugs can make him in worse situation.

 

He was told to take them for a month and report. He will be home day after tomorrow. 

What should i do ?   l am insecure and fear the inability these drugs could bring in our life .  As its only my father who is taking care of us in the age of 67 and he can laugh and express even in pain. 

 

I am not ....

Please reply

 

 

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bheb
54 minutes ago, bhasski said:

What should i do ?   l am insecure and fear the inability these drugs could bring in our life .

 

Have you tried warning him/expressing your concern about the meds? Maybe an obvious question, but not exactly sure what you're struggling with re: your father. 

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10 hours ago, bheb said:

 

Have you tried warning him/expressing your concern about the meds? Maybe an obvious question, but not exactly sure what you're struggling with re: your father. 

 

I have told my mom rather furiously of what is happening to me ..could also happen me if such medications are given.

 

And the fact here , this doctor has not said to test for anything...  And prescribed the ssri and dopamine agonists by seeing him physcially.

 

Doctor says my father seems depressed to him.. But i don't think he is in any case.. A person living in pain all the time cannot laugh all the time and put comments. Father has pain and also - me and my grandfather ill to take care emotionally.

Why are these sick doctors spreading like flu ?

 

 

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7 hours ago, bhasski said:

 

I have told my mom rather furiously of what is happening to me ..could also happen me if such medications are given.

 

And the fact here , this doctor has not said to test for anything...  And prescribed the ssri and dopamine agonists by seeing him physcially.

 

Doctor says my father seems depressed to him.. But i don't think he is in any case.. A person living in pain all the time cannot laugh all the time and put comments. Father has pain and also - me and my grandfather ill to take care emotionally.

Why are these sick doctors spreading like flu ?

 

 

Hi bhasski ,I have a similar situation with my brother ,he eats terribly and binge drinks and I have to see him destroying himself and he just wont listen to me [a few months off 3 years sober myself ] ,I have now pulled back somewhat because we cant force them we can only try and enlighten them but I totally understand your passion .but make sure your good and healthy witch is the main thing in this process of recovery .

My mam is sick with a cold/flu so I went to her house and made her a soup and a strong vitamin c tonic and told her to drink that for a week ,my father mentioned the doctor and I replied do you want to kill her :D .I laughed at him .

Take care .

PB

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Why my stomach keep paining and not digesting anything?

Its been hell of 2 years still going on with anger in head.

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1 hour ago, bhasski said:

Why my stomach keep paining and not digesting anything?

Its been hell of 2 years still going on with anger in head.

Im the same with the anger and bad moods bhasski its torture ,even trying to force pleasantrys ,what in the world is it ,must be the unnatural stress our brains are put under.loved ones and friends find it nearly impossible to see past it.

.im listening to the latest podcast on madinamerica to find hope from the guest .

PB

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@powerback,

I don't know what will help... I started msm, licorice, zinc... 

 

But everything goes in vain.

What these supplements do inside our bodies ? 5 years past since put medicinal hell.

 

Each night I ended up cursing people who has done harm with being so ignorant and still claiming themselves right. I don't know how to live in this world with me living outside 24/7.

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Miko789

Bhasski how you doing with neck pain and  restless left leg?  

have you tried mucuna pruriens for restless leg ?(

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29 minutes ago, Miko789 said:

Bhasski how you doing with neck pain and  restless left leg?  

have you tried mucuna pruriens for restless leg ?(

 

I tried mucuna earlier for PSSD, not for leg. I was going through serious 

anxiety and issues that time. It didn't help , rather caused more problem.

 

 

My leg us little better , but far from normal. Neck is also in same condition. Still there is a lot of pain.

 

What helped me- I didn't know? 

I have taken licorice root , ashwagandha for more than month.

 

Also taking curcumin as and when i feel things are not working.

 

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bhasski

How long will it take for me to see a window?

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The neck pain is not going anywhere... its like my neck is so hard that it will break...  the stiffness and pain is in bones .. feels there is no muscle support.

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