bhasski Posted May 17, 2018 Author Share Posted May 17, 2018 I started taking CBD oil 5 days back .. for start it appeared to help sleep.and digestion .. but now and yesterday night I coudnt sleep well. I tried 3 times to bed now.. and my legs become too resltess to bear. Also digestion has gone poor. Just had ACV teaspoon in water after l ooking over internet. I am tired, more irritated and nothing seems to help. In how many ways these drugs damage me.. ? All aspect of me took by them and left a disabled irritated angry thing... Yes, its a thing now.. no matter how much I try.. it comes back hard doing more damage. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
bhasski Posted May 17, 2018 Author Share Posted May 17, 2018 2:30 AM .. Hoping I could be able to sleep somehow? I always try to be away from phone, but its the only thing that keeps me from.being paranoid over sleep. Wish me luck. Gn 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
bhasski Posted May 24, 2018 Author Share Posted May 24, 2018 Update: Yesterday night I was able to go to sleep by 12:30 and I woke by 8:00 am now. Its the longest in these 2 years without any sleeping pills or melatonin supplement. Feeling some different now. Irritation is there but physically and mentally its little different. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
wantrelief Posted May 24, 2018 Share Posted May 24, 2018 This is wonderful news, bhasski! -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
dj2010 Posted May 24, 2018 Share Posted May 24, 2018 1 hour ago, bhasski said: Update: Yesterday night I was able to go to sleep by 12:30 and I woke by 8:00 am now. Its the longest in these 2 years without any sleeping pills or melatonin supplement. Feeling some different now. Irritation is there but physically and mentally its little different. wow bhaskkhi, this shows true healing, dont be discouraged if sleep goes bad again, it will likely come in windows and waves, On 5/17/2018 at 10:00 PM, bhasski said: 2:30 AM .. Hoping I could be able to sleep somehow? I always try to be away from phone, but its the only thing that keeps me from.being paranoid over sleep. Wish me luck. Gn you need to get some blue light blocking glasses if you are looking at your phone at night, that way it wont interfere with your circadian rhythm, these are the best things I ever bought, I wear them every night after 6pm: https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/B005IPPBNI/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1 take care 2001 - 2005 prozac, 2001 - 2017 various benzos, mainly diazapem and zanex, 2002 - 2017 olanzapine or seroquel, 2002 -2017 propanolol, 2005 - 2009 venlafaxine 75mg , forced to go cold turkey off venlafaxine as moved Thailand, doctor cut me off and couldn't get it there, severely ill for over 2 years, countered withdrawals with more zanex and seroquel 2014 returned to UK, mainly to get treatment getting off meds doctor advised to taper seroquel over a few weeks, severely ill and bed bed-bound so reinstated it, 2015 tapered seroquel myself slower over a few months, was off it 2 months and was too ill so went on olanzapine, became zombie and too tired to get out of bed, went back on seroquel, very depressed so went back on venlafaxine, didnt work so doctor swapped to zoloft became very agitated so back on venlafaxine June 2016 - felt strong enough to begin tapering again, started what I thought was a slow taper of all meds, 2016 July Not had any alcoholic drink since this date, 2016 October completely off diazepem, 2017 Feb completely off seroquel, 2017 March completely off proponanlol, 2017 April (day before birthday) completely off venlafaxine, OFF ALL MEDS 11/4/2017, was fine for nearly 3 months and then delayed withdrawal hit, supplements taking: turmeric capsules, NiaCel (nicotinamide riboside), Vit B12 sublingual, Vit B3, Vit B6, Vit B1, apple cider vinegar, manuka umf 10 honey, camu camu powder, melatonin when needed, epsom salt baths, juices, smoothies, Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/topic/15175-dj2010-off-all-meds-for-3-months-and-been-fine-now-bad-insomnia/ Link to comment
bhasski Posted May 24, 2018 Author Share Posted May 24, 2018 Thanks @dj2010. I would hope this continue for long so as to make mindset clear about healing.. Rigiourous and continuous wdl breaks all mental strength and positivity. Also I have not seen a pure window yet for any moment. But this definitely gives a hope for healing. How are you doing? 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
dj2010 Posted May 25, 2018 Share Posted May 25, 2018 18 hours ago, bhasski said: Thanks @dj2010. I would hope this continue for long so as to make mindset clear about healing.. Rigiourous and continuous wdl breaks all mental strength and positivity. Also I have not seen a pure window yet for any moment. But this definitely gives a hope for healing. How are you doing? im doing ok at the moment, just recovering from a bad few days from having to take antibiotics, hope you have had another good sleep, take care 2001 - 2005 prozac, 2001 - 2017 various benzos, mainly diazapem and zanex, 2002 - 2017 olanzapine or seroquel, 2002 -2017 propanolol, 2005 - 2009 venlafaxine 75mg , forced to go cold turkey off venlafaxine as moved Thailand, doctor cut me off and couldn't get it there, severely ill for over 2 years, countered withdrawals with more zanex and seroquel 2014 returned to UK, mainly to get treatment getting off meds doctor advised to taper seroquel over a few weeks, severely ill and bed bed-bound so reinstated it, 2015 tapered seroquel myself slower over a few months, was off it 2 months and was too ill so went on olanzapine, became zombie and too tired to get out of bed, went back on seroquel, very depressed so went back on venlafaxine, didnt work so doctor swapped to zoloft became very agitated so back on venlafaxine June 2016 - felt strong enough to begin tapering again, started what I thought was a slow taper of all meds, 2016 July Not had any alcoholic drink since this date, 2016 October completely off diazepem, 2017 Feb completely off seroquel, 2017 March completely off proponanlol, 2017 April (day before birthday) completely off venlafaxine, OFF ALL MEDS 11/4/2017, was fine for nearly 3 months and then delayed withdrawal hit, supplements taking: turmeric capsules, NiaCel (nicotinamide riboside), Vit B12 sublingual, Vit B3, Vit B6, Vit B1, apple cider vinegar, manuka umf 10 honey, camu camu powder, melatonin when needed, epsom salt baths, juices, smoothies, Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/topic/15175-dj2010-off-all-meds-for-3-months-and-been-fine-now-bad-insomnia/ Link to comment
bhasski Posted May 25, 2018 Author Share Posted May 25, 2018 Its only a night ... Last night was bad .. Today .. I suffered sever irritation ..now feeling too .. Suddenly indigestion .. Tightness.. Etc etc etc.. I now hate to put here things. They don't stay. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
rupa Posted May 26, 2018 Share Posted May 26, 2018 11 hours ago, bhasski said: Its only a night ... Last night was bad .. Today .. I suffered sever irritation ..now feeling too .. Suddenly indigestion .. Tightness.. Etc etc etc.. I now hate to put here things. They don't stay. No keep putting Bhasski,That is how we all will know,how the progress happened. I am feeling that, progress is happening in your life. You are very near to complete healing. Continue your bravery my friend. You are real man. Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use. Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep. Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance. Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017. May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml. Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018. "0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 28, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 28, 2018 Hello, bhasski, how are you compared to 6 months ago? PS SurvivingAntidepressants.org Web site volunteer help wanted! This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
bhasski Posted May 29, 2018 Author Share Posted May 29, 2018 22 hours ago, Altostrata said: Hello, bhasski, how are you compared to 6 months ago? PS SurvivingAntidepressants.org Web site volunteer help wanted! I cannot compare back with 6 mos timeline as I was almost same. Besides I was doing sth to help father which I stopped bcoz of irritation. Also yesterday, I had a severe rage bout where I broke my spectacles and throwed more things...All over some past issues with my father.. and still going on. And I did fasting yesterday. So anger is built in out of nowhere.I feel tired mentally. A 5 minute coversation seems tiresome. Still burning intrusive thoughts, no pleasure, no relax, indgiestion, fatigue, eye blurrness, memory etc issues are there. Restless legs bother me much. I tried magnesium oil for that which didnt help. If being compared to when I joined SA, I am much better. I would love to help but I am still no good. PS If you think I could be of help with very little uneven time ... i will surely help. Besides i can help with some little corner software tech left 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 30, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 30, 2018 You are much better! 🎉 That's excellent, more to come. Which symptoms have improved? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
bheb Posted May 30, 2018 Share Posted May 30, 2018 Also glad to hear about your improvement! Are you still taking CBD? I also have that "severe irritation" and "tightness" I think if I've understood your description properly -- it's brutal but glad you've gotten breaks. Aug-Dec 2015 Prozac 20mg / Dec 2015-Feb 2016 Prozac 15mg / Feb 2016-May2016 Prozac 20mg May 2016-June 2016 15mg June 2016-August 2016 10mg October 2016-January 2017 15mg, alternating agitation/akathisia sets in --> cold turkey January 2017 Clonazepam .5mg February 2017 Clonazepam 1mg (for a week) then .5mg morning and .25mg evening for about a month. Came down to .25mg morning and evening. May 1, 2017 Clonazepam .25mg morning and .125mg evening. // May 20, 2017 Clonazepam .25mg morning and .0625 evening (.3125 total). early June .28125 // early mid june .25mg // mid june .21875 // late june .1875 // early july .15625 // early mid july .125 mid july .09375mg // late july .0625 //early August 2017 down to .03125mg once a day, hopped off in mid August reinstated at .0625mg late August // Oct 16 - updose to .07mg and switch to oral Rosemont solution Nov 17 2017 reinstate Prozac .5mg // Nov 21 2017 prozac 1.6mg // Dec 18 2017 3mg prozac / fast taper off the reinstatement -- probably completely off early Oct 2018 June 2019 begin tapering off .07mg Clonazepam, Finish taper December 2019 Link to comment
bhasski Posted May 30, 2018 Author Share Posted May 30, 2018 17 hours ago, bheb said: Also glad to hear about your improvement! Are you still taking CBD? I also have that "severe irritation" and "tightness" I think if I've understood your description properly -- it's brutal but glad you've gotten breaks. Hi, Yes I am still taking it. My irritation is from everything , nothing seems the same.. and i am more tensed with the things I never cared about. And occasional rage acts are worrisome. I have increased CBD at night to sleep. May be some tolerance. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
bhasski Posted June 7, 2018 Author Share Posted June 7, 2018 Another organ disaster : Just have my eyesight checked .. Again an eyesight increase in mere 2 months. now its l.e. 2.5 sph + 1.25 Cy 170 r.e 2.25 sph + 1.25 Cyl 170.. Overall increase in these 2.5 yrs of wdl is 1.25 degrees in both eyes. Now My l. hand already got surgery for being numb. Legs are restless. Eyes got weaken. Ears are overstimulated. Digestion is damaged. Hairs got grey. Sleep got weird. Immense fatigue. Poor memory. Restless me. What a gift my parents, sister and idiot doctors have given me... And idk how to get hold back on my life with these things going on. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
bhasski Posted June 13, 2018 Author Share Posted June 13, 2018 Yesterday was another hellish day for me. It was very hot and humid and my head was burning. Its like I was burning with anger, not able to talk I tried to lay down in day and my legs got so uneasy - something is crawling inside .. like a air and strength is sucked out from legs. Also, as soon as I close my eyes, my brain starts a story with people with recent unfavourable incidents and trying to convert story in favourable. Like where I really acted rude... now I was laughing and trying to behave differently, confidently - or there is voilence --- to get things done ideally ... I am tired of this story making up by mind.. i dont want it and its happening daily in wdl making me not able to sleep. I had to take Jatamansi to shut off it. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
DMV64 Posted June 13, 2018 Share Posted June 13, 2018 Just reading a bit here and wishing you a more peaceful day... -D 2001- Klonopin 0.125 mg. 2011- increase to 1 mg. 2018- increase to 1.5 mg. Taper 2023-2024. Taper complete! 2010- Trials of SSRI's, several. 2011- Saphris 5 mg. CT. 6/2017- retry Saphris 5 mg sublingual, begin taper August 2020 10% taper with scale, and final taper liquid sublingual, August 2019- taper complete! 2011- Geodon 20 mg. Begin taper Sept 2019. 10% liquid taper. 2020: December-5 mg. 2021: Jan-4.5mg. (held Feb.for vacation). March-4mg. Apr-3.6mg. May-3.2mg. June-2.8mg. (Held July for vacation). Aug-2.4mg. Sept.- 2.2mg. Oct. 2mg. Dec 2022 - Taper complete! 2011- Gabapentin 300 mg to present- 2020. Increase 2023 to 400mg. 2014- Vyvanse 20 mg, 2020- Vyvanse 5 mg. Increase August 2022 20mg. CT (unavailable) 4/2023 2016- Lithium 300 mg, June 2016 - FT. 2017- Cogentin 0.5 mg. June-August 2019- off Cogentin. 2018- Lamictal 300mg. Holding 2021 - Hydroxyzine 30mg. Holding. 2014 Omeprazole 20 mg and holding, Omega 3's/fish oil, Magnesium Link to comment
bhasski Posted June 13, 2018 Author Share Posted June 13, 2018 2 hours ago, DMV64 said: Just reading a bit here and wishing you a more peaceful day... -D Thanks a lot. I wish you calm and peace. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
bhasski Posted June 13, 2018 Author Share Posted June 13, 2018 My mind chats as I go to bed... making stories with people. I am also there and its me who plays other peoples part... just came out of bed after 1 hr of effort to sleep. Its almost 12:00 midnight here. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
powerback Posted June 13, 2018 Share Posted June 13, 2018 1 hour ago, bhasski said: My mind chats as I go to bed... making stories with people. I am also there and its me who plays other peoples part... just came out of bed after 1 hr of effort to sleep. Its almost 12:00 midnight here. This is a big problem for me constantly B ,lately even if I'm watching something my mind wanders to dialogue somewhere else . I know its far from a cure but I listen to documentary's while nodding off because if the chatter is about certain scenarios it can actually give me anxiety . I empathise deeply with all this mind chatter . sorry you suffering ,take great care . Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
bhasski Posted June 14, 2018 Author Share Posted June 14, 2018 8 hours ago, powerback said: This is a big problem for me constantly B ,lately even if I'm watching something my mind wanders to dialogue somewhere else . I know its far from a cure but I listen to documentary's while nodding off because if the chatter is about certain scenarios it can actually give me anxiety . I empathise deeply with all this mind chatter . sorry you suffering ,take great care . Hi @powerback Yes its about scenarios from past and recent days. And it plays like a film very much lively as soon as I close my eyes. Eventually I know that I am not sleeping and it drains me out of all mental energy. I come out of bed to do things. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
rupa Posted June 15, 2018 Share Posted June 15, 2018 On 14 June 2018 at 9:24 AM, bhasski said: Hi @powerback Yes its about scenarios from past and recent days. And it plays like a film very much lively as soon as I close my eyes. Eventually I know that I am not sleeping and it drains me out of all mental energy. I come out of bed to do things. May be it is what Poetjester is calling hypnagogic hallucinations? I am suffering hypnopompic though. Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use. Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep. Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance. Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017. May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml. Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018. "0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now. Link to comment
bhasski Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 @rupa I am thankful to your recipe of tulasi and.pudina as it provides me short time acute relief. Though not helpful in my sleep issues much... your recipe helps me with anxiety and bad mood swings. I am taking it morning and evening and just took it and feeling the effect. For me, its effect lasts around an hour which is also a big relief. I have tried tulasi earlier alone when in bad withdrawal ... it didnt help much then. There are two factors - recipe with other ingrdients and wdl.not that severe with less akathisia. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
bhasski Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 I am starting Saraswatha choorna, which a Ayurveda doctor given me, from today night with milk. Its a preparation from kerala. Also taking Mentat tablets, 2 tab. thrice a day.. Wish me it helps with my racing mind. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
rupa Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 1 hour ago, bhasski said: @rupa I am thankful to your recipe of tulasi and.pudina as it provides me short time acute relief. Though not helpful in my sleep issues much... your recipe helps me with anxiety and bad mood swings. I am taking it morning and evening and just took it and feeling the effect. For me, its effect lasts around an hour which is also a big relief. I have tried tulasi earlier alone when in bad withdrawal ... it didnt help much then. There are two factors - recipe with other ingrdients and wdl.not that severe with less akathisia. Thank you bhasski....:) Today I bought sprite and 7 up cool drinks. Picked handful of tulasi,made paste.Mixed with sugar and lime. Then mixed 1 ltr of sprite and 7 up together and strained. served with ice cubes. Tomorrow I will try mixing pudina , tulasi,lime and jaggery too in 7up. Bhasskee, all the time fill your stomach with kaju or raw grape, pomegranate,apple and banana pieces , jaggery,little lime,mixed with soft curd rice . Every some time have stomach full of above curd rice mixed with all those fruits. Then see how you will get healthy feeling without any stomach problems. Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use. Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep. Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance. Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017. May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml. Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018. "0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now. Link to comment
bhasski Posted July 13, 2018 Author Share Posted July 13, 2018 I am having hard time to be with my father at shop. He did make wrong decisions for the past 3 years I am back. The time could have been more as I was not here before. I have asked him to make few changes for these 3 years but he still is doing same. We have a seasonal business and its tough competition with some MNCs brand to price out with duplicate products in market. We have to sell sometimes at loss in the main season which is the only income source. So I had told him to cut out that brand from shop for 3 years and he seems to doesnt even respond. He listens to people who serve at shop and has no rationale talking. My problem is I find it difficult to talk to customers who talk absurd in this wdl.They sometime abuse and mostly are farmers with less or no manner. I fight hard no to give up the rage to their non-sense. 3 years and I still find that my father is doing same... listening others... this has let him to put me on meds. He has this wrong habit of succumbing to superstitions... no scientific (logical) base in his thinking. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
theloneranger86 Posted July 13, 2018 Share Posted July 13, 2018 Bhasski I think we have interacted on the pssdforum too. We share a very similar story in terms of our fathers being major irritants in our lives. What has helped me is being on my own and not depending on him for money/ income . Once you're independent you'll stop thinking about his decisions and all the wrong he does and you will probably come in to the loop of self improvement and healing. It might take you a year or so , but getting on your own feet will probably make a lot of difference in your life. In the meanwhile forgive him and think of him as someone you owe a karmic debt to . Every mistake he makes which affects you is probably a result of past life/ this life's karma and try to tell yourself every time that you just reduced your karmic debt Link to comment
bhasski Posted July 13, 2018 Author Share Posted July 13, 2018 20 minutes ago, theloneranger86 said: Bhasski I think we have interacted on the pssdforum too. We share a very similar story in terms of our fathers being major irritants in our lives. What has helped me is being on my own and not depending on him for money/ income . Once you're independent you'll stop thinking about his decisions and all the wrong he does and you will probably come in to the loop of self improvement and healing. It might take you a year or so , but getting on your own feet will probably make a lot of difference in your life. In the meanwhile forgive him and think of him as someone you owe a karmic debt to . Every mistake he makes which affects you is probably a result of past life/ this life's karma and try to tell yourself every time that you just reduced your karmic debt Thanks for posting here. Yes, he does irritate me and I accept that earning myself is the option but I need time for that. I am not well enough - both mentally and physically. His decisions and my family has taken my career. I tried to talk with him but he doesn't seem to talk to. His reaction to me is like hes ignoring me as a mentally sick. All these years when I was out studying and doing job , I was told by my sisters to talk with him and it was him who stops me. I feel very bad after every my each trial to talk with him. How long will it take to get back my emotions and physical strength? I am tired of trying and waiting. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
theloneranger86 Posted July 16, 2018 Share Posted July 16, 2018 i suggest you to take homeopathy , whatever recovery i have made i owe it to homeopathy. PM me I will give you the homeopaths number and name . Link to comment
jonnypeters1234567 Posted July 16, 2018 Share Posted July 16, 2018 I hope you get some relief soon 2009-2010 Citalopram 20mg CT no problems Sertaline 2010- 6monnths 2011- 2017 June 2017- Citalopram 20mg CT Link to comment
bhasski Posted August 9, 2018 Author Share Posted August 9, 2018 Well, For past 15 days, I again started sitting on my shop for 8 hrs. But I am feeling head pressure and pressure around eyes. Also from last 2 days .. pain in chest and ribs has flared up in intensity like past. How long to feel a clear window where all these symptoms vanish ,atleast for a light in tunnel ? 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
rupa Posted September 1, 2018 Share Posted September 1, 2018 On 10 August 2018 at 12:15 AM, bhasski said: Well, For past 15 days, I again started sitting on my shop for 8 hrs. But I am feeling head pressure and pressure around eyes. Also from last 2 days .. pain in chest and ribs has flared up in intensity like past. How long to feel a clear window where all these symptoms vanish ,atleast for a light in tunnel ? Restless legs gone? How is sleep friend? Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use. Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep. Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance. Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017. May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml. Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018. "0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now. Link to comment
bhasski Posted September 3, 2018 Author Share Posted September 3, 2018 I am sleeping okay 7-8 hrs.. But its always come late. Restless legs prb is still there .. It gets lesser smtimes n more smtimes .. So up and down. My prb is irritability in nature . 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted September 5, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 5, 2018 On 9/3/2018 at 2:29 AM, bhasski said: I am sleeping okay 7-8 hrs.. But its always come late. Restless legs prb is still there .. It gets lesser smtimes n more smtimes .. So up and down. My prb is irritability in nature . Have you tried magnesium at all? Topically applied magnesium (lotion) helps me with withdrawal-induced restless legs. 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
bhasski Posted September 5, 2018 Author Share Posted September 5, 2018 57 minutes ago, SkyBlue said: Have you tried magnesium at all? Topically applied magnesium (lotion) helps me with withdrawal-induced restless legs. Hi, I tried that for more than a month. I then stopped. This is another symptom that I am not able to continue anything longer due to inner irritation. It builds up and I keep bursting out with leaving things at hand. Restless legs are now bearable as I am able to sleep with an effort of some pranayams ( breathing). It also goes up and down in intensity. How r u ? 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted September 5, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 5, 2018 1 hour ago, bhasski said: Restless legs are now bearable as I am able to sleep with an effort of some pranayams ( breathing). It also goes up and down in intensity. How r u ? I'm glad you're receiving some relief by using breath work. I've found (simple) breath work to be really helpful too. I'm sure you're more knowledgeable about it than me. : ) Thanks for asking—I am plugging along with waves and windows. Like so many of us. : ) Really appreciate your asking. Hang in there, bhasski. 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
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