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Elyssa143

@Sheera

Hey my sweet friend❤ so glad to have read this. It really seems like you are doing so well. I do know it may not always feel like it. But how huge is it to see you say coming out of this is huge! I do understand 100%. So it seems maybe I have turned a corner? Not a huge one but something has shifted. Im having alot more ptsd and flashbacks about it. But I definitely still have symptoms and daily but not as horrific like each month symptoms seem to have decreased a tiny bit in intensity. But of course im still scared and concerned. Scared of the feeling of life not being worth it. Scared of the si, and feeling of not wanting to live, the dread, aka and depression.  But it is alot better. I just pray it continues. I keep wondering if we actually get to a point where things are less and never go back to as awful as it once was? Love and light to you. Look forward to hearing back. 


13 months on 25 mg of sertraline.

Fast taper in march 2018, reinstated 12.5mg

Cold turkey sertraline april 17,2018

Zyprexa 5mg april 17,2018

Zyprexa taper to lamictal May 4-13 (life threatening rash)

Back on zyprexa 5mg for 10days & tapered over 5 weeks.

21 months off sertraline 

19 months off zyprexa

22 months into withdrawl 

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Sheera

@Elyssa143 yes, you will be back there!  All of this will be a past memory. Each day your brain is healing and you will come out of this more resilient, capable, and much more sure of who you are!  Keep at it every day and try to trust that you will eventually be 100%. I’m so glad you can see the healing now. ❤️❤️
 

hugs—Sheera


Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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Amira123

@Sheera Hey Sheera

 

Does the anhedonia go away completely during the windows?

 

Thanks

Amira


Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

June 2016- October 2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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Sheera

@Amira123 great question!  My anhedonia has just recently started to disappear for longer moments. And I would say based on my past healing that it probably feels like it’s gone completely and there’s probably more healing to be done—yay I will probably feel even better!!

 

 

Anhedonia is so hard!  Do you have any strategies that you’re using to try to cope with it?  Especially if you’re a person who typically feels joy (or tries to) in minute things. I’ve been feeling the anhedonia lately—I can’t find a tv show to watch, I have a million books I ordered and want to read but I can’t get myself to do it. It’s just blah. It has improved SO MUCH though!  Hang in there!!

 

Sheera


Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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Amira123

These are great news and it gives me hope, I wish you complete recovery, Sheera

 

i am 20 months off CT and i am still struggling with emotions numbness, anhedonia and DP. I am trying to do most things i used to do in the past but i can't get any pleasure out of them. 

 

So did it take 3.5 years for the anhedonia to disappear completely for you?

 

Amira


Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

June 2016- October 2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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Sheera

@Amira123 I am currently at 3.5 years and I would say it is probably the symptom that I still notice the most besides my sleep

issues. So it’s not completely gone yet but it is way more manageable than it used to be.  I remember when I used to think about doing the dishes and it caused me so much stress. That level of it is gone. And I have lots of time where I don’t notice it all. It will get better and I promise it’s so worth it!  ❤️


Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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Elyssa143

@Sheera its always so reassuring to read your responses. Im coming up om 27 months. Still struggling. Definitely less in tense. But the dread, hopelessness and feeling of not wanting to do this anymore is hard. The fear of never healing or being years out still struggling is so hard. Life has never felt not worth it for me :( and thats distressing in itself. On top of the awful Akathisia inner and the intrusive si. But even the intrusive thoughts seem to be more fleeting lately? Ive been pretty discouraged lately i see alot of suffering. I even had a lady tell me last night that this is life. The struggling is normal and this is how my life would be and i would just have to work at the thoughts and feelings and of course severly triggered me as ive pushed through so much during this and done everything I can yet i cant make the akasthsia go i cant make the dread or feeling of wanting to die go no matter how much. I try. I do what i used to love i push everyday. I was really hoping by this time id be alot better and every day wouldnt still be some level of struggle but it is better. But still not a way to live. I also get disocuraged becUae i feel pretty alone with my symptoms this far out. Most everyone i talk to has had these severe things drop off for them :(. Looking forward to hearing back. Hugs


13 months on 25 mg of sertraline.

Fast taper in march 2018, reinstated 12.5mg

Cold turkey sertraline april 17,2018

Zyprexa 5mg april 17,2018

Zyprexa taper to lamictal May 4-13 (life threatening rash)

Back on zyprexa 5mg for 10days & tapered over 5 weeks.

21 months off sertraline 

19 months off zyprexa

22 months into withdrawl 

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Sheera

@Elyssa143So this lady who said this is life and said it’s a struggle really has no idea. There is life and then there’s trying to do life in withdrawal. There is no comparison. It’s like a hill compared to Mt Everest. When this is over, the real life struggles will be hard but you won’t have withdrawal symptoms on top of them nagging at your every turn. Please don’t put any stock into what people who haven’t gone through withdrawal say about it. This is all of life’s problems on crack. 😆  
 

As far as people having symptoms this far out, I do and there are a lot of people in the success stories who have struggled this long. There will be a window here sometime soon—you’ll see what it’s like to have some really good days strung together and it will all be worthwhile. You can and you will do this!  
 

Hugs—Sheera 


Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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Sheera

Meh. I haven’t had a real window in quite some time. My neuroemotions are all over the place. Anger, judgement, annoyance are all there. Also at the same time lack of motivation and interest. But none are as intense as they used to be which is a positive. I’m just frustrated at the length of this. My husband and I are having a hard time connecting. I no longer appear to be struggling to him and put on a pleasant face to disguise how I feel to most people so it’s hard when I let it all out around him.  I guess this is all a good thing. Before I was a zombie and he knew when I wasn’t myself. I don’t feel like I’m in a wave but it’s definitely not a window. The anhedonia is really getting to me right now especially with being at home so much due to Covid. I don’t feel normal but I don’t feel great. Is feeling great really going to ever happen?  Maybe this is all the healing I will be?  I don’t remember being this crabby before drugs so I have hope deep in my soul that things will improve. It’s just been so long. I really thought I’d be 100% by now. Take care, warriors. 
 

Sheera


Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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Elyssa143

@Sheera

hello my sweet friend. I can relate 100%! I always wonder if this is it for me. We plateau and then we think is this it? From every story I’ve read everyone feels like that and then continues to improve! I am no where near healed so I understand your frustration but you’ve come so far and are so much better! It will continue. It has to!!!! One day girl. One day. I cannot connect with my fiancé either :( it all sucks but it is better so I’m trying to be greatful for that


13 months on 25 mg of sertraline.

Fast taper in march 2018, reinstated 12.5mg

Cold turkey sertraline april 17,2018

Zyprexa 5mg april 17,2018

Zyprexa taper to lamictal May 4-13 (life threatening rash)

Back on zyprexa 5mg for 10days & tapered over 5 weeks.

21 months off sertraline 

19 months off zyprexa

22 months into withdrawl 

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Erell
Posted (edited)

@Sheera and @Elyssa143,

I've 'bingwatched' SA and success stories for many months after my Paroxetine crash, and I recognize your fears. But :

1 hour ago, Elyssa143 said:

 

 From every story I’ve read everyone feels like that and then continues to improve! 

 

Exactly ! 🤗

I've seen this pattern too.

 

Take care ☀️

Edited by Erell

2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2008 : cold turkey of both

2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam

2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam (long half-life)

2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper, 3% drops. 

2018 to August 2019 : Paroxetine 20mg taper (3% every 15 days).

- 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg) because of a big wave. 

25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. 

 

April 2020-August 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21457-erell-struggling-with-paroxetine/?do=findComment&comment=499847

 

Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil 

 

Current medication :

7mg Fluoxetine + toothpick Paroxetine (since 20 Aug 2020)

1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020)

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Sheera

@Erell and @Elyssa143

 

thank you for your reassuring words. Those are the same things I tell people but it’s hard to say them to myself. 🤷🏻‍♀️
 

Sheera


Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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Sheera

Blah. I’m in a wave. Bad sleep, hopelessness, neuroemotions. I’m very sensitive and annoyed easily. I’m getting sucked down the hole that the feelings are true and valid even though they aren’t. Teaching in a pandemic I’m sure does not help but something I learned being at home for 6 months is that waves happen even when I don’t have stress. So I might as well be working and distracted in a wave than at home focusing on it. I am terrible at patience. When this all started I thought I’d be good by year 4 and while I’m 1000% improved I am nowhere near (I hope) 100%. I’m just sad today. I’d take any words of encouragement if you’ve got them. ❤️


Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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Hanna72

@Sheera

Hi there. I can totally relate to your words. I want to congratulate you though on your success. What an a accomplishment you have reached. Well done.

Life has its ups and downs, and we all experience it. Wouldn’t life be so boring if we would not have any challenges and have everything just put in our lab without any effort 🤔

You should be so proud of how far you have come. Wanting to strive higher like I feel you want is a great quality to have. 
You can do anything that you set your mind to.

Hoping for a wonderful window coming your way soon.

All the best to you.



2000/ 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering 20 mg Paxil. 
2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 20mg Prozac Took about 1 month during switch.

At one point my withdrawals were so bad I went up to 40 mg Prozac, but went quickly back down to 20 mg and very soon after that 10 mg Prozac.

Off  Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 10mg Prozac 2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D and C vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Elyssa143

@Sheera although I’m trailing behind you and don’t have much in the way of encouragment but you always tell me it always improves once the wave ends things are a lot better. I’m pretty down too my symptoms have been awful so I can relate. I’m sorry your struggling and life stress on top of everything else isn’t helping but you always tell me things are a lot better and that’s signs of healing so we just have to hang in there. Hugs to you my friend❤️ And yes my waves happen regardless as well too, so might as well stay distracted.


13 months on 25 mg of sertraline.

Fast taper in march 2018, reinstated 12.5mg

Cold turkey sertraline april 17,2018

Zyprexa 5mg april 17,2018

Zyprexa taper to lamictal May 4-13 (life threatening rash)

Back on zyprexa 5mg for 10days & tapered over 5 weeks.

21 months off sertraline 

19 months off zyprexa

22 months into withdrawl 

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Sheera

@Hanna72 and @Elyssa143

Thank you for stopping by. The wave is hanging around a bit but it’s not as bothersome as it used to be which is a plus I guess?  My biggest symptoms in this wave: exhaustion, headache and muscle tightness in the face, neuroemotions (but I get over them much more quickly—I used to be affected for days. Now it’s an hour and I can move on), also lack of interest in things/anhedonia is back but not as bad. I’m sure the stress of teaching in a pandemic is not helping my healing at all. It’s taxing on the nervous system. Finding peace in this time is difficult. 

Keep on keeping on warriors ❤️❤️
Sheera


Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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