thecowisback Posted November 5, 2018 Share Posted November 5, 2018 7 hours ago, Liamb123456 said: How long were you on meds for 20 years Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
EnglishSteve Posted December 5, 2018 Share Posted December 5, 2018 I read your thread waves and Sympathise. I was wondering how you’re getting on now ? 1)On Seroxat (Paxil) 14 years Stopped working. 2) September 2017 cross tapered to Mitrazipine 15mg over 4 week period. 3)Six weeks after cross taper tried to reinstate to Seroxat at low dosage. Lasted 10 days. Failed. 4) Remained on just Mirtazapine 15mg for 8 months. 5) in May 2018 attempted cold turkey from Mitrazipine. Lasted 4 days. Failed. 6) reinstated 15mg for 9 days 7) reduced dose of Mirtazapine to 7.5mg. Been on this dose for six weeks to the present day and I’m now totally unstable. Link to comment
waves12 Posted February 14, 2019 Author Share Posted February 14, 2019 32 months since cold turkey. Terrible debilitating anxiety but have had a lot of stress since March last year and no let up from the situation so far. Can anxiety really make me feel so unwell all the time? Can anyone relate? It is so bad I am having MRI next week as have convinced myself this can not possibly be anxiety, fingers crossed it all comes back ok. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted February 14, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 14, 2019 Waves, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Speaking for myself, anxiety can definitely make you feel very unwell, with various symptoms physical and emotional, especially when it's constantly activated with stress. Good luck on your MRI. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
waves12 Posted February 14, 2019 Author Share Posted February 14, 2019 1 hour ago, Gridley said: Waves, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Speaking for myself, anxiety can definitely make you feel very unwell, with various symptoms physical and emotional, especially when it's constantly activated with stress. Good luck on your MRI. Thank you Gridley for saying that it is reassuring. Will post and report back after MRI. Waves Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted February 21, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 21, 2019 Hi waves, I’m really sorry that your anxiety is so high. A lot of the time it is withdrawals, but it’s worth checking out if you’re worried about it. At least you can have peace of mind then. Could you please put in your drug signature so that we can see your medication history at a glance. Thanks a lot. ChessieCat will send you a link. Wishing you all the best in your healing journey💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted February 21, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 21, 2019 Account Settings – Create or Edit a signature * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Waiting12 Posted February 22, 2019 Share Posted February 22, 2019 I can relate, I’m sorry W. Chemical anxiety here non stop too. 2011-2014: 25-50mg Zoloft then CT via doctors advice. Some mild physical sx but fully functioning, unaware that withdrawal was a thing. Dr didn’t know why I was chronically dizzy with brain fog & advised to try Zoloft again.2016: severe adverse reactions to Zoloft (1 dose), Paxil (3 weeks), celexa (2 weeks), buspar (1 dose), lamictal (4 doses). Ativan 12 times within a month. Also tried Xanax & klonopin a couple times. Each reaction became more severe. Kindled. Became disabled from these meds.Drug free 12-16-2016Month 1-20: +5% healing every monthMonth 21- present: setback to acute from amoxicillin antibiotic (1 dose)Month 32- 11 months into setback from antibiotic. Seems I was floxed by amoxicillin somehow. Horrific. Link to comment
waves12 Posted February 27, 2019 Author Share Posted February 27, 2019 On 2/21/2019 at 5:50 AM, Carmie said: Hi waves, I’m really sorry that your anxiety is so high. A lot of the time it is withdrawals, but it’s worth checking out if you’re worried about it. At least you can have peace of mind then. Could you please put in your drug signature so that we can see your medication history at a glance. Thanks a lot. ChessieCat will send you a link. Wishing you all the best in your healing journey💚 Thanks Carmie I had my results and all is fine. Great news for me but....................... the anxiety still remains that I wonder if I am losing my mind, I feel terrible everyday for several months now and its almost got me housebound. I still work from home dont do my work properly really, skimming over what I have to do. This job was due to finish some time ago but will be finishing in two months now. I am so scared as not well enough with the anxiety to go out and find another job and I fear losing my home as I have a mortgage to pay. So much fear. The fear I expect is adding to anxiety too. How do others cope with this terrible anxiety? It doesnt even subside like it did before in the evenings. I had suffered with dark depression on and off during all this and it left for a while, few months, it has returned again and now dealing with the depression and horrible anxiety on top. The suffering is inhumane. Will do the medication list later, it is in my profile as had problems adding it in when I joined. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
waves12 Posted February 27, 2019 Author Share Posted February 27, 2019 On 2/22/2019 at 1:52 AM, Waiting12 said: I can relate, I’m sorry W. Chemical anxiety here non stop too. Thanks Waiting I dont know if its chemical or just who I am. I have always been a bit of a worrier but never had this sort of anxiety, but I was on meds for many years so I guess it was masked. I listen to and read Claire Weekes all the time. Hope you having better days. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
waves12 Posted February 27, 2019 Author Share Posted February 27, 2019 I feel so broken today and wonder if this is WD or my new mental health normal, very scared today. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
thecowisback Posted February 27, 2019 Share Posted February 27, 2019 36 minutes ago, waves12 said: Thanks Waiting I dont know if its chemical or just who I am. I have always been a bit of a worrier but never had this sort of anxiety, but I was on meds for many years so I guess it was masked. I listen to and read Claire Weekes all the time. Hope you having better days. that is what i have after stopping the meds. i took the pills for ocd in the first place, but the anxiety and levels of ocd i've experienced during withdrawal are far far worse than i ever experienced before the meds. i also started to experience depression which was something i never had before in my life. i hope you get a break soon xxx Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
waves12 Posted February 27, 2019 Author Share Posted February 27, 2019 1 hour ago, thecowisback said: that is what i have after stopping the meds. i took the pills for ocd in the first place, but the anxiety and levels of ocd i've experienced during withdrawal are far far worse than i ever experienced before the meds. i also started to experience depression which was something i never had before in my life. i hope you get a break soon xxx Thanks thecowisback I was reading some success stories for comfort and I know it all takes time and that all the past catches up, unresolved issues plus the inability to cope as never learnt. Scarey S*** for sure. How are you getting on? I see you have reinstated. I am 32 months off ct now and its so tough. xxx Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
thecowisback Posted February 27, 2019 Share Posted February 27, 2019 i haven't seen much improvement at all in 2 years, and mentally my problems were getting worse. i'm on 2.5 mg of prozac now. it's been 6 weeks and i've actually had a couple of much calmer days, calmer than i've known since stopping the prozac so i'm going to keep on at this low dose and see how things go. i kept thinking recovery could be just round the corner, but things had gotten so bad over christmas i just had to take a risk and do something about it. i couldn't wait any longer. Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
waves12 Posted February 27, 2019 Author Share Posted February 27, 2019 48 minutes ago, thecowisback said: i haven't seen much improvement at all in 2 years, and mentally my problems were getting worse. i'm on 2.5 mg of prozac now. it's been 6 weeks and i've actually had a couple of much calmer days, calmer than i've known since stopping the prozac so i'm going to keep on at this low dose and see how things go. i kept thinking recovery could be just round the corner, but things had gotten so bad over christmas i just had to take a risk and do something about it. i couldn't wait any longer. Pleased that the dose is working for you so far. I had read you were struggling a bit with the RI for a while there so its good that you feel a bit calmer now. I completely get why you are doing this, it is so hard to carry on with all the mental symptoms. I have a very ongoing stressful situation with family and its causing such suffering that I feel I cant carry on like this at times and have thought about RI several times in the last few months but also too scared of start up symptoms or failure of RI not working. I will continue to follow your progress and really hope for you that it now all goes up and up. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
thecowisback Posted February 27, 2019 Share Posted February 27, 2019 thankyou - i know what you mean about the fear - i was really scared of starting again, finding it didn't work or maybe make things a whole lot worse. it's very early days yet but the 2 days of calm that i had were so good that i'm really hoping things are easing up a little. having family problems must be a nightmare when you've already got so much going on with withdrawals 😥 Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
GonnaBeOk Posted February 28, 2019 Share Posted February 28, 2019 On 2/14/2019 at 5:28 AM, waves12 said: 32 months since cold turkey. Terrible debilitating anxiety but have had a lot of stress since March last year and no let up from the situation so far. Can anxiety really make me feel so unwell all the time? Can anyone relate? Yes, I can completely relate to the debilitating anxiety. It is absolute torture, and 100% related to my CT withdrawal from Prozac 10 months ago. I never had anxiety like this before meds. I did struggle with some anxiety, but not this gut-wrenching, intolerable worry that never leaves. Our son is graduating from nursing school out of state in about 7 weeks, and I am not able to go. Heartbreaking. I have been housebound and have great difficulty coping with anything. Other paramount symptoms for me are horrid depression (a million times worse than any previous depression) and terrible insomnia (I've never had insomnia before), and many other symptoms as well. I thought about reinstating, but have not yet, mainly because I am so unstable already, that I fear having to come off if it doesn't work or makes me worse. I am trying to implement neuroplasticity exercises, but find it very difficult to simply function. I try not to be on the forum much, as it doesn't seem to be great for my worried thoughts, but just wanted to let you know you are not alone. 2002-ish-April 2018: Prozac 40mg (was on 20mg for many of those years); Jan-April 2018: too fast "taper" off Prozac July 2018: Tried lowest dose dose Lexapro for 3 weeks; quick tapered off; Aug-Nov. 2108: Ambien and Ambien CR for sleep (appx 10 total doses). Made depression worse and did not work; Nov 2018: 7 doses .5mg Ativan for sleep over 12 days time. Stopped. December 2018: One week Remeron for sleep. Did not work or help. "Tapered" off over a few weeks. In past years also took/tried Wellbutrin, Seroquel, Klonopin, Paxil; Current supplements: 1 mg Melatonin; Transdermal magnesium; Fish oil; Ketotifen (mast cell stabilizer), vitamin C; milk peptides March 26, 2019: Re-instated 0.5mg Prozac; April 15, 2019 Started 0.75mg Prozac May 6 2019: 1mg Prozac; May 27: 1.25mg Prozac; July 29, 2019: Began 1.25mg Lamotrigine Link to comment
thecowisback Posted March 1, 2019 Share Posted March 1, 2019 so sorry to hear you're having such a rough time gonnabeok. it's hard to describe to anyone who hasn't had experience of this just how bad the fear, depression and insomnia are. i've never experienced anything like this before in my life and feel like i've lost the past 2 years completely. i hope you manage to get some relief soon. so sorry to hear you'll be missing your son's graduation Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
powerback Posted March 1, 2019 Share Posted March 1, 2019 On 2/14/2019 at 1:28 PM, waves12 said: t is so bad I am having MRI next week as have convinced myself this can not possibly be anxiety, fingers crossed it all comes back ok. What did they check in the MRI ,this would of been a good situation to get your nervous system scanned. I can relate to the extreme Anxiety ,its a cruel joke. I suggest cleaning up everything in your life ,diet needs to change if we are consuming sugar ,diary ,gluten, caffeine .all bests are off once our nervous system is upset. The home stress is a very tricky one ,I think we just need to keep learning and realising what we need to just not pay attention to our own reactions to others and keeping our heads down. Get a plan in your head for the work situation ,get networking with your DR ,build up a good relationship so they can help you and sign you off sick .no one wants to be on the sick but freaking yourself out will not help either .even give yourself a years break ,nothing is wort driving yourself into the ground,i learned this the hard way. Anxiety is very covert ,we bury our head over making decisions ,the smallest things become huge ,Claire weeks will help you push through a lot of this . Take care and keep learning Waves 12. Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
GonnaBeOk Posted March 1, 2019 Share Posted March 1, 2019 Thank you so much @thecowisback. 💗 2002-ish-April 2018: Prozac 40mg (was on 20mg for many of those years); Jan-April 2018: too fast "taper" off Prozac July 2018: Tried lowest dose dose Lexapro for 3 weeks; quick tapered off; Aug-Nov. 2108: Ambien and Ambien CR for sleep (appx 10 total doses). Made depression worse and did not work; Nov 2018: 7 doses .5mg Ativan for sleep over 12 days time. Stopped. December 2018: One week Remeron for sleep. Did not work or help. "Tapered" off over a few weeks. In past years also took/tried Wellbutrin, Seroquel, Klonopin, Paxil; Current supplements: 1 mg Melatonin; Transdermal magnesium; Fish oil; Ketotifen (mast cell stabilizer), vitamin C; milk peptides March 26, 2019: Re-instated 0.5mg Prozac; April 15, 2019 Started 0.75mg Prozac May 6 2019: 1mg Prozac; May 27: 1.25mg Prozac; July 29, 2019: Began 1.25mg Lamotrigine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted March 3, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 3, 2019 Hi Waves, I’m so sorry that the anxiety is so bad for you. My coping strategy when going through waves is pretty much distraction, I do arts and crafts, take photos, go out in nature, listen to music, watch DVDs and Netflix etc etc. One of these days all the horrible symptoms we have now will be gone. If you had anxiety before you were on the meds it shouldn’t be as severe as when going through withdrawals, because everything is really ramped up during withdrawals. Our CNS is on high alert all the time, and all of our emotions can be a lot worse. Take care💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
waves12 Posted March 10, 2019 Author Share Posted March 10, 2019 I am now 33 months since cold turkey and finding it almost impossible to carry on as I am. The anxiety is off the chart and the depression is so dark. My sleep is just 4 hours if I am lucky and been this way since the journey began. Its all affecting my work, my family, my friends and feel I am losing a battle to stay the course. I would like to try reinstatement but also know it could be hard at this stage. Would one of the mods please advise, I would be so grateful. I have duloxitine 20mg capsules and 10mg tablets of citalopram here in the house. I dont think the citalopram suited me one bit as when I was switched to it I had problems, I think I did anyway, or else it was just the switch over that threw everything, but more likely the cold turkey, not sure really. I didnt feel great on the A.D's down the years but didnt feel suicidal thoughts as I do now. Thanks Waves12 Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
waves12 Posted March 10, 2019 Author Share Posted March 10, 2019 I have also lost so much weight and feel weak and exhausted that going for walks has become difficult now. Last year I was walking and cycling everyday, I dont have the energy now and its very concering. I had MRI scan of brain and spine and blood tests recently and all came back ok. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
waves12 Posted March 11, 2019 Author Share Posted March 11, 2019 bump Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
thecowisback Posted March 11, 2019 Share Posted March 11, 2019 it's reasuring to hear your mri scan results were ok but that doesn't help with how bad you're feeling 😯 can you do even a tiny bif walking? when i started i could barely make it to the end of my street but i kept persevering and got a little bit further each week. i now do anywhere between 15-30 minutes a day which probably isn't enough but it's better than nothing. can you go swimming? good luck if you do decide to reinstate. xxx Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
Alice1 Posted March 11, 2019 Share Posted March 11, 2019 Hey Waves , You've mentioned that you had tremendous stressors in your family .. How is that going ? Is it still active or has it passed ? December 2014 - Lexapro 20 mg August 2016 Med free (6 week taper) December 22 2021 added Abilify 5mg / Ativan .5mg / Depakote ER 1000mg Discontinued Abilify 5mg on 12-30-21---accidental dose on 1-13-22 (looks like Ativan) Ativan PRN/Discontinued 1-14-22 Only drug is Depakote ER 1000mg ( looking to taper slow and safe for once ) 3/24/22 Depakote 625mg Propranolol 20-40mg PRN Link to comment
Goosie Posted March 11, 2019 Share Posted March 11, 2019 I hope you feel better @waves12 I am struggling with the same thing. I have to believe things will get better. May 2018: 1 dropper liquid marajuana june 2018. Trazadone ambien 10 mg july 2018 seroquel 37 mg ambien 2.5mg lex 5 October 2018 taper seroquel added hydroxizine 25 mg nov ambien taper lex taper dec 2018 off of lex off of phenibut October 2018- added a lot of supplements. night: 3mg melatonin Passion flower tincture valerian tincture lavender magnesium glycinate liquid gaba herbal blend Theanine 450 mg tryptophan 1.5 grams May 2019. Down to the following at night 4-6 mg hydroxizine. 250 mg tryptophan (1/2 pill).75 mg melatonin pill .75 herbal blend pill magnesium citrate Feb 2020:Off all supplements and pills. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 12, 2019 Administrator Share Posted March 12, 2019 Hello, waves. Is your family situation still stressful? This can indeed interfere with your stabilizing. What is your sleep pattern? There may be ways to improve your sleep, that could make a difference. The Cymbalta and Celexa must be quite old. Even if they're still good, there's no telling if reinstatement might help or hurt. You might be interested in Lamictal (lamotrigine) to calm post-discontinuation withdrawal symptoms This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
waves12 Posted June 6, 2019 Author Share Posted June 6, 2019 Update almost 36 months since cold turkey. Still suffering with debilitating anxiety and dark depression, the depression in waves of days the anxiety constant and impacting daily chores. Have had stressful time with family matter which began almost a year ago and peaked in March this year. I don't know how much is related to discontinuation any more it feels like this is just who I am now very scarey if that's so. Sorry I can't be more positive with update but this is how I am. Home situ is not good as live alone and family not close by and many friends gone off since this all began. Lost my life it seems. Spend a lot of time alone and feel quite frightened by myself with intense suffering daily. Feel hopeless to be honest and a shell of who I was 3 years ago which was busy active socialable and full of energy. I don't know if I can carry on some days as it is so hard to believe I will make a recovery from all this. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
Goosie Posted June 6, 2019 Share Posted June 6, 2019 I’m so sorry you are suffering. I believe you can heal in time. I am on a high protein diet and it seems to be helping. May 2018: 1 dropper liquid marajuana june 2018. Trazadone ambien 10 mg july 2018 seroquel 37 mg ambien 2.5mg lex 5 October 2018 taper seroquel added hydroxizine 25 mg nov ambien taper lex taper dec 2018 off of lex off of phenibut October 2018- added a lot of supplements. night: 3mg melatonin Passion flower tincture valerian tincture lavender magnesium glycinate liquid gaba herbal blend Theanine 450 mg tryptophan 1.5 grams May 2019. Down to the following at night 4-6 mg hydroxizine. 250 mg tryptophan (1/2 pill).75 mg melatonin pill .75 herbal blend pill magnesium citrate Feb 2020:Off all supplements and pills. Link to comment
waves12 Posted June 6, 2019 Author Share Posted June 6, 2019 6 hours ago, Goosie said: I’m so sorry you are suffering. I believe you can heal in time. I am on a high protein diet and it seems to be helping. Thanks Goosie for your help. I was very good at planning good clean meals but have slipped back with this a bit since stressful family situ so thank you for good reminder to me to get back to my proper healthy foods. Wishing you well. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
herod Posted June 6, 2019 Share Posted June 6, 2019 Hi waves, I'm sorry if this sounds stupid, but are you getting enough sun, and have you looked into your diet? Some things, like caffeine, trigger my symptoms, so I stay away from them. I feel like fish oil helps me a lot also. - March 2017: 50mg Sertraline starts - August 2017: up to 100mg - February 2018: down to 50mg - November 2018: one-week taper down to 0mg Link to comment
waves12 Posted June 8, 2019 Author Share Posted June 8, 2019 On 6/7/2019 at 12:59 AM, herod said: Hi waves, I'm sorry if this sounds stupid, but are you getting enough sun, and have you looked into your diet? Some things, like caffeine, trigger my symptoms, so I stay away from them. I feel like fish oil helps me a lot also. Hello Herod Thanks for posting to me. Yes get plenty of sunlight I go for a walk every day I do eat healthy foods. Have had and still have so much stress and symptoms have increased lots since all this started. It's very hard to get a break from it all. Hope you doing ok. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
waves12 Posted September 10, 2019 Author Share Posted September 10, 2019 Almost 39 months off from cold turkey. Really bad high anxiety that is so hard to deal with. Makes me want to jump out of my skin it's like being plugged in to the electrics. Anyone feel similar? Anyone have any tips on how to cope with this high anxiety? Hope everyone is doing ok and the best they can. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
gardenlady Posted September 10, 2019 Share Posted September 10, 2019 Hi waves. I'm tapering Cymbalta very slowly and also having a terrible time with dread, doom, despair, depression, insomnia and akathisia. I'm wondering if your feeling like you're "plugged into the electrics" is actually akathisia. I have that awful internal agitation and restlessness in addition to the restless legs at night and the intermittent need to jiggle my leg or move around during the day....all of which are classic akathisia symptoms. The insomnia is awful...I stay awake for over 24 hrs about every 3 or 4 days and then it takes me 2 days to recover from that and when I do, then it's back to more than 24 without sleep....a terrible cycle that won't stop. I'm sorry you had to endure a cold turkey, but if it's any comfort, a slow taper can be very tortuous, too. I'm in agony all the time and am decreasing by 1 bead per week. I'm at 44 beads/8.4 mg down from 60 mg and will need to slow down even more the lower I get so it may take another two years or so. It's hard to imagine feeling like this for that long not to mention the healing time required post-taper. I've been at this for over 18 months, now. I'm really sorry for your suffering and I wish I had an answer. Unfortunately, I think the only remedy is time and patience. 2016-Aug-Prescribed 2 mg Ativan & 10 mg Ambien; Oct-c/o from 20 mg Lexapro to 60 mg Cymbalta; Nov-Dec-Tapered off 10 mg Ambien 2017-Jan-Feb c/o from 1.75 mg Ativan to 13 mg Valium & begin daily liquid micro taper; May-taper Cymbalta 60 mg to 48 mg with severe withdrawals. Begin 11 month Cymbalta hold. 2018-Jan 11 completed Valium taper; Apr-Resume Cymbalta taper. Interval dose progress: Apr 43 mg; May 40 mg; Jul 35 mg; Sep 29 mg; Dec 21 mg; 2019- Apr 14 mg; Jun 11 mg; Aug 9 mg; Oct 7 mg; Nov 6 mg 2020-Jan 5.2 mg; Feb 4.8 mg; Mar 4.3 mg; Apr 3.9 mg; May 3.5 mg; Jun 3.3 mg; Jul 2.9 mg; Aug 2.7 mg; 28 Sep 2.4 mg/12 beads; 25 Oct 2.2 mg/11 beads; 22 Nov 2.0 mg/10 beads; 20 Dec 1.8 mg/9 beads 2021- 17 Jan 1.6 mg/8 beads; 14 Feb 1.4 mg/7 beads; 18 Mar 1.2 mg/6 beads; 18 Apr 1.0 mg/5 beads; 16 May 0.8 mg/4 beads; 13 Jun 0.6 mg/3 beads; 11 Jul 0.5 mg/2 beads; 8 Aug .03 mg/1 bead; 5 Sep 0 mg. Brutal, agonizing, slow 4.5 year Cymbalta taper completed as of 5 Sep 2021. 100% psych drug free. Link to comment
Alice1 Posted September 10, 2019 Share Posted September 10, 2019 1 hour ago, waves12 said: Really bad high anxiety that is so hard to deal with. Makes me want to jump out of my skin it's like being plugged in to the electrics. Sounds like Akathisia Waves . I've got it really bad . From what I've research It does go away , but it can take a long time . December 2014 - Lexapro 20 mg August 2016 Med free (6 week taper) December 22 2021 added Abilify 5mg / Ativan .5mg / Depakote ER 1000mg Discontinued Abilify 5mg on 12-30-21---accidental dose on 1-13-22 (looks like Ativan) Ativan PRN/Discontinued 1-14-22 Only drug is Depakote ER 1000mg ( looking to taper slow and safe for once ) 3/24/22 Depakote 625mg Propranolol 20-40mg PRN Link to comment
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