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Living and loving life. 

@Aeroman so beautiful to read. I hope it will happen for me and so many on this board. 

1999:  Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse manic reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months.                     

2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects)

2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg  (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram  2mg ,  approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held.  2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg

(Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts)

I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath
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Hello All, it's been a long time since I have logged in here and posted.  My story is located here:   http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/7761-%E2%98%BC-aeroman-hello-from-aeroman/?

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Thanks for sharing.  Yes, one will know when they're in that anhedonia phase.  It isn't fun at all but I would take that over akathasia (inner restlessness) any day.  I have a slew of hobbies and all

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I am pretty late to this wonderful success story. But thank you @Aeroman for giving me hope that I can get off Lexapro! I have been reading/watching Claire Weekes, meditating, walking, eating well, yo

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@Aeroman

 

Hi.

 

With the Anhedonia would you describe it as a full head feeling, l

May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg

 

March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths.

 

July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific.

 

August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline.

 

March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had.

 

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 pressure inside the head. like no room to think of ideas and hobbies. No joy or excitement in your stomach?.

 

Thanks

May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg

 

March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths.

 

July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific.

 

August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline.

 

March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had.

 

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I used to describe Anhedonia as a feeling of glue all over my brain, or like my brain was wrapped in cling film. 

 

Apologies for the mixed text.

May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg

 

March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths.

 

July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific.

 

August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline.

 

March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had.

 

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Good to hear man.Thanks for the update. 

March-2017-Dec-2017 ativanCT /reinstated ativan 1mg tapered 2 months/June 2017-April 2018 zyprexa 10mg switched to seroquel 200-300mg in april 2018/dec-2017-present zoloft 100mg/ quit seroquel 200-300mg cold turkey May 6 2018 reinstated seroquel 100mg around May 25 2018 since then tapered to 50mg zoloft and 50 mg of seroquel presently other medications Testosterone cypionate 2oomg every 4 days

UPDATE -August 20 2018--october 20 2018 tapered off Testosterone/Nov 7 2018 --Dec 20 2018 Lamictal micro dose 2.50mg 1 1/2 weeks then reduced to 1.25 then fast tapered as it became paridoxial.nausea- racing thoughts- agitation and insomnia.

August 28 2018 to Present Cannabis indica micro dose PM bedtime only.

Presently Seroquel 37.5 mg bedtime /Zoloft 47mg morning

May 2018-Present Multivitamin/ Bcomplex/Vit C 1000MG/B12 1000MCG/Fish oils 2grams/

Jan 2019-Trace mineral liquid low dose

Update dec 2019 -29mg of zoloft tapering/Seroquel 37.5 holding/1 or 2  ativan 1mg a month as needed if that.

Black seed oil-caprylic acid-/b complex/b12/multi/D/E/melatonin

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@Aeroman so beautiful to read. I hope it will happen for me and so many on this board. 

it will.  Be patient!  I know, easier said than done.

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Hi.

 

With the Anhedonia would you describe it as a full head feeling, l

Not a full head feeling.  I would describe it as simply existing, not living. Walking zombie, not interested in anything.

Lexparo 10mg user for 2.5 years. Last dose was 2/27/2008 after a fast 1 month taper. Recovered around 2011. Had issues with depression, anxiety, akathasia, inner restlessness, vertigo, insomnia, loss of appetite, eye floaters just to name a few. Basically rode it out, employing the Dr. Claire Weekes method.

 

Took Cipro in July of 2014 and have been having set backs with nausea, vertigo, anxiety (racing thoughts), and depression the last half of 2014.

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4 hours ago, Leo1983 said:

 pressure inside the head. like no room to think of ideas and hobbies. No joy or excitement in your stomach?.

 

Thanks

A Disconnect from feeling satisfaction/enjoyment.  It is like being in a glass sphere observing others enjoy life and you're not able to relate/connect.

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Good to hear man.Thanks for the update. 

you're welcome.  Let me know if there is anything I can answer.

Lexparo 10mg user for 2.5 years. Last dose was 2/27/2008 after a fast 1 month taper. Recovered around 2011. Had issues with depression, anxiety, akathasia, inner restlessness, vertigo, insomnia, loss of appetite, eye floaters just to name a few. Basically rode it out, employing the Dr. Claire Weekes method.

 

Took Cipro in July of 2014 and have been having set backs with nausea, vertigo, anxiety (racing thoughts), and depression the last half of 2014.

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A Disconnect from feeling satisfaction/enjoyment.  It is like being in a glass sphere observing others enjoy life and you're not able to relate/connect.

 

That sounds like what one might describe as depersonalization/derealization.

 

Thanks for coming back, as always, Aeroman.

 

Best,

 

Andy

Sertraline 50mg and Clonazapam .375mg from 2000 -- symptoms of dizziness Spring 2012

increased to .5 Clonazapam and 100mg Sertraline -- no improvement

Benzo microtaper from November 2012 to November 2014 (followed benzo sites "taper benzo first")

Started Sertraline taper in December 2014 cut by 25mg to 75mg; 62.5mg 1/1/15 and 50mg on 2/1/15

Held at 50mg through April 5 to use liquid 
Reduced dosage in 10% or less drops from 50mg to 25mg -- at single tablet of 25mg on 10/5/15

Transitioned to all liquid for accuracy while tapering -- Horrible insomnia -- back to 25mg liquid and held until October 1, 2016

10/16 -- 11/18 tapered very slowly to 10.6mg.  No real improvement and never really stable so updosed to 12.5mg (1/2 a pill) for convenience and long hold.

After 8+ months of holding with no noticeable improvement decided to add .4ml of liquid Prozac (about 1.5mg) to see if that improves the situation

Supplements, Magnesium, D3, Omega 3, curcumin, Valerian, 81mg Aspirin, L-Theanine, Vit. C,

 

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1 hour ago, apace41 said:

 

That sounds like what one might describe as depersonalization/derealization.

 

Thanks for coming back, as always, Aeroman.

 

Best,

 

Andy

yep, I'd say there is overlap.  You're welcome.

Lexparo 10mg user for 2.5 years. Last dose was 2/27/2008 after a fast 1 month taper. Recovered around 2011. Had issues with depression, anxiety, akathasia, inner restlessness, vertigo, insomnia, loss of appetite, eye floaters just to name a few. Basically rode it out, employing the Dr. Claire Weekes method.

 

Took Cipro in July of 2014 and have been having set backs with nausea, vertigo, anxiety (racing thoughts), and depression the last half of 2014.

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Thankyou. 

 

God did this last 3 years for you? 

 

i do alot of things now but i still wake each day and know im not back to normal. 

 

If i did not push myself through things i would not do much and sit and stare at the walls all day. I still have lost my qualities and confid3nce i once had.

May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg

 

March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths.

 

July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific.

 

August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline.

 

March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had.

 

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Thankyou. 

 

God did this last 3 years for you? 

 

i do alot of things now but i still wake each day and know im not back to normal. 

 

If i did not push myself through things i would not do much and sit and stare at the walls all day. I still have lost my qualities and confid3nce i once had.

Like 3.5 years. You'll get them back. Have faith. That's all I had left. 

Lexparo 10mg user for 2.5 years. Last dose was 2/27/2008 after a fast 1 month taper. Recovered around 2011. Had issues with depression, anxiety, akathasia, inner restlessness, vertigo, insomnia, loss of appetite, eye floaters just to name a few. Basically rode it out, employing the Dr. Claire Weekes method.

 

Took Cipro in July of 2014 and have been having set backs with nausea, vertigo, anxiety (racing thoughts), and depression the last half of 2014.

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Good to hear from you Aeroman. You.... like me also had a bad experience with Cipro. Glad things are going good for you.

Prozac 1999-2009 quit semi cold turkey.

 

2012 Placed on Seroquel 25 mg, Tranxene (Clorezepate) 3.75 mg 3x a day, Remeron 30 mg for anxiety/akathesia.

 

Weaned off Seroquel and Tranxene .to Remeron 15 Mg.

In May 2014 tried quitting Remeron at its lowest dose. Had severe withdrawals.Reinstated Remeron at 30 mg by doctor. August 5 2014 entered hospital. Doctor pulled the Remeron and bridged it to Pamelor (Nortriptyline) 40mg and Zyprexa 2.5mg.After removing the Remeron all my bad symptoms went away and I am stable.

 

9/11/14 - 7.5 mg tranxene, 40mg Pamelor, Zyprexa 2.5mg

12/29/14 -  20mg Pamelor, 1/6/15,  7/31/15 3.5mg, 8/10/15 3.2 mg, 9/15/15 2.2mg, 10/15/15 1.8mg

(Feb 2016 - 1.4mg Pamelor only -  OFF OF TRANXENE AND ZYPREXA SINCE DEC 2014 BENZO FREE Since 2014. Nortrityline (Pamelor) .8mg Aug 2016

March 2017 DRUG FREE

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I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression 2yrs ago after my relationship ended after 11yrs and for the last year I was taking lexapro but quit cold turkey after bad side effects due to a higher dose (from 10mg-20mg)  now I refuse to take any antidepressants as I felt like it was just a band aid effect on my issues when I just needed to time to get over things now I'm suffering with aches and pains as well as physical sicknesses and even ended up in hospital from paranoid episodes of having a heart attack but after reading your story it gives me hope that I can live a full happy life without medications so thank you for sharing your story,  especially when I never knew anyone who had mental health issues so it was hard to make my loved ones understand what I'm going through. 

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On 10/30/2019 at 11:20 AM, Kazzah said:

I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression 2yrs ago after my relationship ended after 11yrs and for the last year I was taking lexapro but quit cold turkey after bad side effects due to a higher dose (from 10mg-20mg)  now I refuse to take any antidepressants as I felt like it was just a band aid effect on my issues when I just needed to time to get over things now I'm suffering with aches and pains as well as physical sicknesses and even ended up in hospital from paranoid episodes of having a heart attack but after reading your story it gives me hope that I can live a full happy life without medications so thank you for sharing your story,  especially when I never knew anyone who had mental health issues so it was hard to make my loved ones understand what I'm going through. 

Hi Kazzah, checking in.  How have you been?!

Lexparo 10mg user for 2.5 years. Last dose was 2/27/2008 after a fast 1 month taper. Recovered around 2011. Had issues with depression, anxiety, akathasia, inner restlessness, vertigo, insomnia, loss of appetite, eye floaters just to name a few. Basically rode it out, employing the Dr. Claire Weekes method.

 

Took Cipro in July of 2014 and have been having set backs with nausea, vertigo, anxiety (racing thoughts), and depression the last half of 2014.

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Hi , Aeroman i'm italian guy who suffered from Paxil WD since December 2018 now i'm attend my 18ish months in Bad WD,my primary symptoms is DIZZINESS /instability sensation in 18 months i experienced all the symptoms in the list. Actually i feel in a suffer with no end(i'm exausted) . i read your story and i'm proud of you and your strenght.

my question is : at 18 months what are your sensation? your remaning issues? and the last is you suffered all the 4 years or gradually improve?

thks for reply and sorry for my bad english!!

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my bad english!! sorry for this!!!
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On 3/15/2017 at 7:55 PM, Aeroman said:
On 3/15/2017 at 7:35 PM, bhasski said:

Thanks for giving hope . I am living a real tough time since last 12 months of stopped cocktail. I shout at my parents as if I have never had any good moments with them. Its with everyone but I try to keep shut my mouth as it opens loud with built in anger.

Wheres the happiness gone ? Where's mind , body? I have chronic low blood pressure which never goes up for a long time even after coffee ?

 

Had to leave a good paying job and since then jobless. Friends come by and ask whats going on. I feel so weak , irritable all the time that I avoid everyone. I feel I am deep stuck.

 

Thoughts of going back to see a psychiatrist come to get some relief but cannot courage up as they are the reason for me in this situation.

 

In build hatred to everyone. Why ?

we all have different situations at home. We all have different environments. However, it seems that the pattern is the same for many of us that quit the drug too fast. I cannot explain why some feel issues for a few days and others feel issues for a few months. But what I can say for a certainty is that we all have the same trend of issues. I can't explain why I was feeling weird after I got off Lexapro and I remember printing out a bunch of stuff so my loved ones can see that I was not going crazy period I was printing out stories about people having the same issues. All I can say is that over time, it does get better period I would tell myself that this time next year I will be doing a lot better than I am today. In the beginning, I remember counting the hours and weeks. Then it went to months. I stopped setting a time line for me. It didn't do any good and caused more heartache. Don't set up a time line for yourself. Just know it will get better.

Your story is so inspiring as I'm withdrawing from Lexapro too. I will use your mantra whenever I despair : this time next year I will be a lot better than today! Thank you Aeroman! Btw did you have brain zaps? Mine started around month 16 of withdrawal and are still going on till now (month 22). It is one of my most difficult symptoms because it has been unrelenting. Grateful for your input, thank you! 

Summer 2016 - summer 2018: put on Lexapro, going from 5 mg up to 20 mg over the span of the 2 years (had visited shrink for help with obsessive thinking, was not diagnosed with anything in particular, just prescribed Lexapro 15 mins into first session)

Summer 2018: tapered down by 2.5 mg every few weeks

Protracted withdrawal ever since. 0-14 months began with a massive panic attack that landed me in ER, followed by prolonged anxiety, mental fog and a skin rash on my back. Was regularly consuming alcohol as did not know I was in WD. From then onwards, hit with worse myriad symptoms. Currently at 22 months and have electromagnetic sensitivity, brain zaps, brain fog, memory problems (especially name recall), twitch in right eyebrow, daily waking up at 3 or 4 a.m. with fast heartbeats and "sticky" negative memories, suicidal thoughts, rage episodes, temperature dysregulation, physical numbness & weakness, libido loss.   

 

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On 3/11/2017 at 4:47 PM, Aeroman said:

It does not matter if you believe you're going to recover or not because the brain will heal no matter what you do.

 

I am pretty late to this wonderful success story. But thank you @Aeroman for giving me hope that I can get off Lexapro! I have been reading/watching Claire Weekes, meditating, walking, eating well, yoga, etc, etc. But on my bad days, I do very little and feel so negative that I think I am undoing all my work. But time does heal, no matter what! Thank you for this gift today!

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2008-2016 - Lexapro 10 mg, tapered to 2.5 mg over one year then CT without issues
Feb 2 - July 24, 2019 - restarted Lexapro 5 mg for insomnia

July 25 - Nov 19, 2019 - Lexapro 10 mg, resulted in increased anxiety and depression
Nov 20 - Dec 11, 2019 - 3-week FT from Lexapro 10 mg to 7.5 mg to 5 mg to 0
Dec 12, 2019 - Feb 4, 2020 - drug-free and feeling good until horrible WD hit
Feb 5 - Feb 16, 2020 - Paxil 10 mg, adverse reaction
Feb 18, 2020 - reinstated Lexapro 5 mg

Nov 22 - Dec 12, 2020 - transition from pill to homemade liquid

Dec 13, 2020 - 4.7 mg; Jan 3, 2021 - 4.5 mg

 

daily meditation 10-40 minutes, yoga 30 minutes; CBT & ACT therapy

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On 10/14/2019 at 5:56 PM, Aeroman said:

A Disconnect from feeling satisfaction/enjoyment.  It is like being in a glass sphere observing others enjoy life and you're not able to relate/connect.

you're welcome.  Let me know if there is anything I can answer.

 

 

Did it resolve completly? 

01.12.2018 - 01.03.2019 - Took sertraline and than fluvosamine for major depression. 

 

Got SEVERE PSSD (no libido, no erections, pleasureless orgasma, total genital anesthesia, emotional numbness, lost of personality)

 

No wave and windows, no improvement so far. Just lije 1-2% in numbness in first two months post quitting. 

 

Im suicidal because of pssd. I dont believe in recovery since my state didnt improve in any significant way.

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AWESOME Aeroman :) 

 

Looking (and feeling) good!!

 

Well done!

You look amazing and you're such a decent fellow to come back and help us all. Your story is inspiring me as I'm currently in Lexapro withdrawal. Thank you Aeroman!! 

Summer 2016 - summer 2018: put on Lexapro, going from 5 mg up to 20 mg over the span of the 2 years (had visited shrink for help with obsessive thinking, was not diagnosed with anything in particular, just prescribed Lexapro 15 mins into first session)

Summer 2018: tapered down by 2.5 mg every few weeks

Protracted withdrawal ever since. 0-14 months began with a massive panic attack that landed me in ER, followed by prolonged anxiety, mental fog and a skin rash on my back. Was regularly consuming alcohol as did not know I was in WD. From then onwards, hit with worse myriad symptoms. Currently at 22 months and have electromagnetic sensitivity, brain zaps, brain fog, memory problems (especially name recall), twitch in right eyebrow, daily waking up at 3 or 4 a.m. with fast heartbeats and "sticky" negative memories, suicidal thoughts, rage episodes, temperature dysregulation, physical numbness & weakness, libido loss.   

 

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