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Thank You Rhi , and thank you Bheb , Guiietta


December 2014 - Lexapro 20 mg

August 2016 Med free (6 week taper)

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Leo1983

Hi Guys.

 

I ALWAYS get very confused by all this stuff.

 

I was simply told from day 1 on here that basically the drugs cause the way you feel in Withdrawal??

 

Also the symptoms are all crazy and due to the Iatrogenic damage?????

 

That NOTHING you do will STOP the symptoms until you heal??

 

However you can help yourself by been positive, accepting and hopeful...

 

I get confused as alot i also read here talks about healing by neuroplasticity, nuerons, books etc etc.....

 

It confuses me. I was never this unwell/mad before medication..... SO do i wait this out accepting or is there more to it 

 

Cheers 


May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg

 

March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths.

 

July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific.

 

August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline.

 

March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had.

 

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Alice1
6 hours ago, Leo1983 said:

Hi Guys.

 

I ALWAYS get very confused by all this stuff.

 

I was simply told from day 1 on here that basically the drugs cause the way you feel in Withdrawal??

 

Also the symptoms are all crazy and due to the Iatrogenic damage?????

 

That NOTHING you do will STOP the symptoms until you heal??

 

However you can help yourself by been positive, accepting and hopeful...

 

I get confused as alot i also read here talks about healing by neuroplasticity, nuerons, books etc etc.....

 

It confuses me. I was never this unwell/mad before medication..... SO do i wait this out accepting or is there more to it 

 

Cheers 

 

Hey Leo ,

Its both ..  Wait it out and passively accept .. Reduce stress is all we can do . Its going to take as long as it takes . I've practiced living the best I can while being sick for over 3 years now . I've accepted that fact that this may take possibly a decade or more . I certainly hope not , but the more I distress about how long its taking the worse I feel , and I'm already pretty bad . I CT'd a powerful AD at a high dose though .. 

 

Altostrata says to control your negative anxious thinking, and calm your nervous system as much as possible ,and be patient . Also, expect recovery .. 

Giak says " It's a 100 little things" that help you heal . 

 

I certainly believe these two Gals know more about withdrawal than any Doctor selling books .. 

 

Even though I CT'd I'm still on board with what they say..  What other option do I have ? 


December 2014 - Lexapro 20 mg

August 2016 Med free (6 week taper)

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Leo1983

Hi.

 

Yeh me too i was on the old Lexapro too for 5 month then CT. Im 16 month out and have improved but still have anxiety i never had and that awful thick heavy brain, like my brains a brick. 

 

Apart from that not too much more. Oh wait i forgot with the thick brain comes Anhedonia feeling, so i have that too. 

 

Yeh Alto CT too! Paroxetine which is a bad drug. Gia was on lots of meds.....

 

My mindset is this like a virus or flu. You feel bad and no matter how much paracetamol or cold remedies you take it wont budge until the body fights it and we return to health. 

 

I have no big mental history however, after i stopped these meds i have the had the biggest in my life. 

 

I agree with accepting, grounding, CBT ect ect however if all is true and you wait it out, then in my eyes i will return to who i was naturally as a person. ( Which was not who i am now). 

 

I would have been 1st to the party!!! Now im last or dont even turn up... Thats not me 😔


May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg

 

March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths.

 

July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific.

 

August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline.

 

March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had.

 

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Leo1983

You say even tho you CT? what options?

 

Alot of people CT and healed 


May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg

 

March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths.

 

July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific.

 

August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline.

 

March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had.

 

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Alice1

What I mean is since I CT'd I really don't have any other option other than wait it out while practicing good recovery behaviors .. Which is hard because at some point everyday I get hit HARD with symptoms and its very difficult to keep calm , but they almost always subside later in the day . They do not go away , but they lessen .. I'm not about to reinstate and I'm not going to give up so my only option is wait it out with good practice ..


December 2014 - Lexapro 20 mg

August 2016 Med free (6 week taper)

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Alice1

Before withdrawal I was a carpenter . I used to build houses, and remodel old ones . Obviously I couldn't do that anymore, but i have a friend who told me "You have to do something" . Fortunately he owned a pawn shop , and since I was very knowledgeable about jewelry and coins etc I started working there part time . I remember sitting there staring out the window in a completely disconnected state with akathisia counting the seconds til I could go home .I remember thinking how my life was ruined ..

 

We do jewelry repair at the shop , but we have to send it out to another jeweler . This is a real pain . We actually have a bench with all the tools a jeweler would need . So, I started dabbling with it . Watching videos on YouTube on jewelry repair , sizing rings , etc . Well today ( about 2 years later ) I am totally immersed in it. I have actually repaired several items , and I am now sizing rings ( Sterling . Gold is my next goal ) . My friend who owns the shop is extremely pleased, and has granted me the money to get whatever I need to excel in the industry . I've even increased my hours .

 

I mentioned to somebody today that " Neurons that fire together wire together" , and when I'm at my bench working on a particular piece I can actually feel this happening . Yes I am still quivering with agitation and akathisia but my mind is totally focused on the work I'm doing .. Plus , whenever my mind says "oh no, you're in acute wd" its very easy to acknowledge it and then continue to focus on what I'm doing .. I also come home with something else on my mind other than wd . Like , what I will work on tomorrow , or what can I do to better myself , or what can I learn tomorrow .. 

 

Don't get me wrong . It's still a constant struggle , and a tug-o war , but its a start .

 

 I've also started walking a little again . However my timing sucks because its getting cold. I have a new friend on here who is a veteran in the community , and he's taught me a bit about expressive writing or journaling ..It really does help .. I write down my thoughts and feelings , and I seem to forget them for a little while .. 

 

So that's my plan ..


December 2014 - Lexapro 20 mg

August 2016 Med free (6 week taper)

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Gridley
15 minutes ago, Alice1 said:

I am totally immersed in it.

That is great news, Alice1!


Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Began taper using Brassmonkey slide Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Current from Sept.23, 2020 at 0.05mg

Taper is 99.75% complete.

 

Lorazepam 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, resumed a few months later. CT 2000.  1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept, 2016 increased to 0.5 X 3 in split dose. Sept. 2019 increased to 0.625 X 3 after crossover to new brand

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 15mg.  Aug 2016, discovered SA, updosed to 25mg and holding.  Taper is 66% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, melatonin .33mg


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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bheb

I’m so glad you’ve got some other purpose/motivation! I started taking a jewelry/metalwork kinda class and I’ve been feeling something similar. Exactly like you say, the sensations are all there but I somehow am able to immerse myself in the work and think of other things. I feel like creative activity has to be good for the healing brain. 


Aug-Dec 2015 Prozac 20mg / Dec 2015-Feb 2016 Prozac 15mg / Feb 2016-May2016 Prozac 20mg

May 2016-June 2016 15mg

June 2016-August 2016 10mg

October 2016-January 2017 15mg, alternating agitation/akathisia sets in --> cold turkey

January 2017 Clonazepam .5mg 

February 2017 Clonazepam 1mg (for a week) then .5mg morning and .25mg evening for about a month. Came down to .25mg morning and evening. 

May 1, 2017 Clonazepam .25mg morning and .125mg evening. // May 20, 2017 Clonazepam .25mg morning and .0625 evening (.3125 total).

early June .28125 // early mid june .25mg // mid june .21875 // late june .1875 // early july .15625 // early mid july .125 

mid july .09375mg // late july .0625 //early August 2017 down to .03125mg once a day, hopped off in mid August

reinstated at .0625mg late August // Oct 16 - updose to .07mg and switch to oral Rosemont solution

Nov 17 2017 reinstate Prozac .5mg // Nov 21 2017 prozac 1.6mg // Dec 18 2017  3mg prozac / fast taper off the reinstatement -- probably completely off early Oct 2018

June 2019 begin tapering off .07mg Clonazepam, Finish taper December 2019

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PSVT

Alice1

 

just finished reading this thread.......man, can I relate to the late onset of acute and more so the akathisia....

blows massive chunks.....total and incomprehensible torture that has no comparison and now into my 27 mths it's still tearing me a new one.

 

Hope you're still travelling through the fire of this hell and getting close to leaving this in the history books. 


Zoloft: Sometime early in 2014 Three days only. Torture!

Lexapro: Early 2015- Mid 2015 10mg

Lexapro: Mid 2015-March 2017 20mg

Tapered too fast, Withdrawal started through April-June 2017. Told by Doctor that it was rebound anxiety and have now developed MDD

Pristiq: July 2017-October 2017 50mg (total 56 days)

Lexapro: October 2017-October 2017 10mg (6 days)

Lexapro: October 2017-October 2017 20mg (5 days)

COLD TURKEY>>>>>>>>>>>>October 11,2017

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