success ☼ Sunnyday: go back up in dosage?

[Carmie]

Hi Sunnyday, 

 

Just checking in to see how you’re doing. I’m sorry you’ve been going through such bad waves. Are you getting any more windows? Hope you feel a little better soon. 

 

Sending sunshine your way☀️☀️☀️

 

 

[Sunnyday]

Hi @Carmie, thank you. I tend to get small windows. They are very short lived, sometimes just an hour or two but I look forward to them. But I will admit I feel frustrated many times when they go away. Hope you will get some windows soon too and that you'll get back some energy. I'd share some if I could!

[Miracle123]

Hi Sunnyday, 

Merry Christmas and Happy Boxing Day , my dear.

Good to hear you got few hrs window.....hope window will continue longer and longer for you. Im still out for my christmas holiday , we are not really celebrate it but im really love this festival seasons with all light decoration and beautiful christmas tree. 

I hope you enjoy and got a lots joyful during this holiday.Take care. Thinking of you and my warmest hugs .🤗❤️

[Sunnyday]

Thank you @Miracle123, I had a really good christmas. I think the light decorations and the excitement from the children are the two best things about it probably. I'm glad you seem to be enjoying yourself too. Youtake care as well, lots of hugs!

[Sunnyday]

Lost a friend today (not deceased, just left me). I think it was drug use making the person really paranoid and believing I had done horrible things that I hadn't. It was very delusional talking, scary because it came out of nowhere. It feels awful. No matter what I said the person was convinced. Never experienced anything like it.

Stomach has been hurting for hours from the anxiety but I'm trying to not think about it too much. Definitely sent me into a wave though.

[Carmie]

Hi Sunnyday, 

 

Just checking in to see if your windows are getting any longer than a few hours. I hope they keep widening more n more. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

[Sunnyday]

1 hour ago, Carmie said:

Hi Sunnyday, 

 

Just checking in to see if your windows are getting any longer than a few hours. I hope they keep widening more n more. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

So far they seem to be the same Carmie, thanks for checking on me. It's better than no windows though, that's for sure. Right now there are none. Relationships affect me a lot more than I should allow them to. Hope you're okay, I will try to distract myself with things that make me happy, like you do. Hugs to you.

[Carmie]

 

21 minutes ago, Sunnyday said:

So far they seem to be the same Carmie, thanks for checking on me. It's better than no windows though, that's for sure. Right now there are none. Relationships affect me a lot more than I should allow them to. Hope you're okay, I will try to distract myself with things that make me happy, like you do. Hugs to you.

 

Hi Sunnyday, 

 

I hid the last posts for you seeing it was irrelevant to withdrawals anyway. Hope that makes you feel better. 

 

I don’t think it’s a good idea to hang around people that are abusive and that make you feel bad about yourself. If they trigger waves in you and you able to break off contact that’s what I’d be doing.

 

I’m so sorry you’re in the midst of the wave, it’s no fun. I had a three month wave recently too. They always come to an end though. It’s just hard when you’re going through them as they feel like never going to end. We are always proven wrong though when they do end. 

 

Hang in there, we will win this fight💚

 

Edited December 28, 2018 by Carmie
Left a long space at the end🤷‍♀️😃

[Sunnyday]

Thank you @Carmie! 

 

The thing is I've known this person for over a year and they've been so great up until this last week, it was a shock. Never had any conflicts or toxicity before. But the situation is what it is now I guess. It's sad because it's obvious they're hurt and so am I but none of us can do anything more about it unless the person decides to quit with the drugs. 

 

I remember you had been in a long wave recently, happy that one is over for you. It's rough. But yes, reassuring myself that it will pass eventually is one of the things that helps me the most. Hope you're doing okay at the moment. And thank you.

[Steve61]

Sorry to hear about your troubles, Sunny. Relationships are the most demanding thinking that we deal with in life.hope that you are doing okay 🤗🤗

[Carmie]

On 12/28/2018 at 8:45 PM, Sunnyday said:

Thank you @Carmie! 

 

The thing is I've known this person for over a year and they've been so great up until this last week, it was a shock. Never had any conflicts or toxicity before. But the situation is what it is now I guess. It's sad because it's obvious they're hurt and so am I but none of us can do anything more about it unless the person decides to quit with the drugs. 

 

I remember you had been in a long wave recently, happy that one is over for you. It's rough. But yes, reassuring myself that it will pass eventually is one of the things that helps me the most. Hope you're doing okay at the moment. And thank you.

 

Hi Sunnyday, 

 

Just checking in to see how you are. I hope that you’ve gotten over the stress of that incident. Coping with stresses in relationships can certainly take its toll on our health and make the withdrawals worse.

 

My wave ended a few weeks back, but I’m going to taper back to the original tablets starting tonight, so there may be another bumpy ride up ahead. 

 

Take care, sending hugs🤗

 

 

[Miracle123]

On 12/28/2018 at 6:45 PM, Sunnyday said:

The thing is I've known this person for over a year and they've been so great up until this last week, it was a shock. Never had any conflicts or toxicity before. But the situation is what it is now I guess. It's sad because it's obvious they're hurt and so am I but none of us can do anything more about it unless the person decides to quit with the drugs. 

Hi Sunnyday, 

How are you my friend?

Im understand this....about friendship a bit complicated because you cant read how or what they think about.To maintenance great or good relationship really not easy especially find someone really understand you. Even though you know this person about a year ago with not conflicts but sometimes the way we are talking or doing anything can hurt the person without reliase it. Sorry im not means you are wrong or to judge anything but im know you also suferring and in painful feeling.

Trying to calming down your feeling and find a good time to meet or hang out with them. Talk openly about your feeling with your friends. im believe if they really care and understand you and always listening to you.

Dont give up and trying your best to keep this relationship. You know well of them all. Take care with a lots love from me.❤️🤗

 

 

[Carmie]

Hi Sunnyday, Just checking in again to see how you’re doing💚

[Miracle123]

Hi Sunnyday,

How are you, friend? Im just wanna to know about your progress. Hope everything will be fine and well for you. Thinking of you and take care......

[Sunnyday]

Hi @Miracle123 and @Carmie.  I'm feeling very depressed and numb most of the time, also stressed. Don't really have the energy to be active on here lately, so I'm sorry about that. Hoping you're both doing okay, hopefully I can come back as soon as possible and read in your threads. Hugs to you both.

[Carmie]

On 1/19/2019 at 8:01 AM, Sunnyday said:

Hi @Miracle123 and @Carmie.  I'm feeling very depressed and numb most of the time, also stressed. Don't really have the energy to be active on here lately, so I'm sorry about that. Hoping you're both doing okay, hopefully I can come back as soon as possible and read in your threads. Hugs to you both.

 

Hi Sunnyday,

 

So sorry you’re feeling so numb and depressed. I hope you feel a bit better soon💚

[Sunnyday]

Hi everyone. I'm wondering if anyone knows if semi-voluntary tics is a kind of akathisia? I see a lot of people have problems with akathisia during withdrawal but I got big problems with semi-voluntary motor tics during my withdrawal and it's one of the symptoms that I still have a lot of.

So in other words it's not the completely involuntary kind, it's more like a very strong itch or restlessness that is very uncomfortable and I try to get rid of (with for example toe crunching or similar movements with my hands. Other muscles too but hands and feet are the most common for me).

[Miracle123]

On 2/10/2019 at 11:15 PM, Sunnyday said:

Hi everyone. I'm wondering if anyone knows if semi-voluntary tics is a kind of akathisia? I see a lot of people have problems with akathisia during withdrawal but I got big problems with semi-voluntary motor tics during my withdrawal and it's one of the symptoms that I still have a lot of.

So in other words it's not the completely involuntary kind, it's more like a very strong itch or restlessness that is very uncomfortable and I try to get rid of (with for example toe crunching or similar movements with my hands. Other muscles too but hands and feet are the most common for me).

Hi Sunnyday,

How are you my dear?....Quite some time i havent coming into SA Forum. Sorry for my late to reply you. 

I have both akathasia too.....especially legs and hands....keep moving to feel better or feeling itching like thousand insects crawling...until now i will got it but ease a bit and not too extremed.Got a bit improvement but we really need patience to keep waiting.

Sometimes i also feel pressure,stress and tension too.....but you have to learn to cope these stress by doing a lots distraction or some execises or yoga will help a lots too.Beside this maybe read some books or meditation to keep yourself relax and empty your mind.Our emotional sometimes is up and down, we really need to balance our lifestyle to avoid bad depression to continue harm and spoil our moody.

Wishing you all the best and continue to healing. Take care and a lots hugs from me. ..

[Sunnyday]

Hi @Miracle123, I'm not too active on here right now either so I understand. I'm not really sure if my tics is a kind of akathisia or not but it is frustrating nonetheless. I've noticed exercise tends to worsen it actually (I still try to exercise though because I feel exercise is so important), which makes it interesting to hear that it helps the akathisia for you (?). But I agree, meditation and different ways to relax can be very helpful. It's difficult when I have really bad tics but it works as a prevention the days that it's not as bad.

 

Nice to hear from you Miracle, and thank you. Take care and hope you're still doing well. Big hugs.

[Carmie]

Hi Sunnyday, 

 

I’m sorry you’re getting tics. I’ve had symptoms that I wouldn’t have associated with withdrawals such as toothaches and earaches. I’m glad I found this site, I don’t google new symptoms anymore as they are usually always withdrawal symptoms.

 

Have you been getting any bigger windows or are they still quite short?

 

Yes, exercise can certainly ramp up symptoms. I think it’s best to stick to slow walking and maybe some stretches.

 

Sending hugs🤗

[Miracle123]

Hi Sunnyday,

me too also noticed you seldom login it ......busy with your own life??

im so sorry to hear your stressful life .....im really hope you can get out as soon as possible from tension and stress. Take care and a lots love from me...❤️❤️❤️

[Sunnyday]

Same @Carmie! I don't really look up the symptoms that much either anymore, especially the ones that seem to come out of nowhere. I think I am getting bigger windows if I look at the bigger picture yes. I should write it down like I did in the beginning but haven't gotten around to it.

You're probably right about the exercise to be a bit careful. The tics have worsened a lot these past few days despite the fact I'm not exercising at all, and I have no idea why. Very strange but will pass eventually like with everything I suppose. Hope you're doing okay still, haven't been in other people's threads today. Hugs to you.

[Sunnyday]

Hi @Miracle123, yes I have been very busy, pretty stressful and I find it hard to organize things because of the stress I feel but also my memory is absolutely terrible still. But it is what it is and eventually it'll be more manageable I'm sure! Hope you're still doing good, and take care. Hugs to you! 

[Sunnyday]

Started taking a probiotic finally February 9th, but that is the only recent change I've had. Sleep is pretty decent and so is my relationships. But I'm having a setback right now that has been a shock because it feels like I'm back to where I was like a year ago, and it came seemingly out of nowhere. I'm sure it's temporary, and part of the process but it's shocking to get thrown back into it when it has been better for a long time and even the waves haven't been as bad as they were back then. Tics is insanely bad too. 

I know it will be over eventually but I thought I would write it down because I didn't expect it. Should always expect it or maybe remember that it can happen so it doesn't bring one down as much.

[Sunnyday]

I get strong urges nowadays to self harm sometimes and I have no clue where it comes from. It's usually when I feel very sad and stuck but I never logically thought self harming was a good idea or logical. I had similar urges when I was the most depressed (before the pills) when I was very suicidal, but I still didn't do it. It's very strange because they are very intrusive thoughts. I try to read about ways to distract myself or redirect the thoughts and there is no reason to worry if anyone reads this,  just thought I would document it because it's a peculiar thing when it feels like it's a thought that's not even coming from you (even though it obviously is somehow?).

[ChessieCat]

I've been having looping thoughts recently (again).  The other day in my mind, I was having a full discussion with someone about something that I would never have had to discuss whatever it was with this person.  It was really strange.  It was similar to how you rehearse something in your mind after an argument or when you are prepared to put your opinion across to someone.  But the difference was that it wasn't caused by that.  And I also have strange thoughts pop into my mind out of nowhere, unconnected to anything recent.  My theory is that it is to do with the adjustments the brain is making.  Sometimes I have heard conversations and music in the noise of other things.  I have to admit that I am very thankful that I've read about other members on this site having similar things happening.

[Sunnyday]

Yes @ChessieCat you're probably right, that makes sense because it just doesn't feel like my thoughts sometimes. I can also relate to some of the other things you're mentioning. Thank you for coming in here and posting that.

[Carmie]

Hi Sunnyday, 

 

How are you doing? Just thought I’d pop around and give you a hug🤗

[Miracle123]

Hi Sunnyday,

How are you doing ? im hope you are doing well and good now. Thinking of you . A lots love and hugs from me.....❤️🤗

[Sunnyday]

Hi @Carmie and @Miracle123, thank you both for coming in here. I feel better now. Still stressful and still in a wave to some extent but better than it was. Stomach issues makes me frustrated, because all I can seem to do to manage it somewhat before leaving the house is taking a bunch of painkillers. And of course that isn't sustainable, but right now nothing else is working. Hopefully I'm getting a doctor's appointment soon (it got delayed again) but I doubt they will find anything wrong to be honest.

Hugs to you both!

[Miracle123]

2 hours ago, Sunnyday said:

Stomach issues makes me frustrated, because all I can seem to do to manage it somewhat before leaving the house is taking a bunch of painkillers.

Hi Sunnyday, 

im so sorry to hear that but took a lots painkillers is not good ideal either way and more than harm your body. Have u try prebiotic, Slimpery elm bark, aleo vera juice or apple cider vinegar? All those couldnt help you? Hope doctor will give you good solution and find the root caused of your stomach issue. Take care and a lots hugs from me too🤗...

[Carmie]

Hi Sunnyday, 

 

Thanks for popping over to my neck of the woods.🌲🌲🌲I’m glad your wave has been a bit better. Any changes since you wrote on Wednesday?

 

I’m really sorry you get so much stomach pain. How long have you had the pain? Does it get worse when you eat certain foods? The only food that gives me stomach pain is gluten, but there are other foods my stomach isn’t particularly fond of either. I personally think the best diet is no grains, sugar, dairy etc. What sorts of foods do you eat?

 

I hope that your stomach settles soon, sending hugs🤗

[Sunnyday]

Hi @Miracle123 and @Carmie.

'm going to the gynecologist this Wednesday because I suspect that is at least part of the problem because of where the pain is located. Hopefully he will find something. 

I'm pretty sure part of the problem is the stress. Every time I'm going somewhere my stomach starts hurting, it's as if the body has learned to react that way and does it no matter where I'm going now (related to stress from social situations). It hurts really bad too.  Hopefully when I get more used to being in social situations it will get better, but for now I'm not sure how to solve it. Trying my best to relax and handle stress in different ways.

 

Hope both of you are doing okay and thanks for coming in here, been very inactive on here mainly because of stressful life at the moment. 

[Sunnyday]

Could anyone point me to a thread where it's discussed how to best approach doctors about the issue with the medications? Without them getting defensive. I'm sure it has been discussed on here a lot but can't find it right now.

I have an opportunity to reach out to someone right now and I thought I would, but I'm afraid I will ruin it if I go about it the wrong way.

[Gridley]

48 minutes ago, Sunnyday said:

Could anyone point me to a thread where it's discussed how to best approach doctors about the issue with the medications? Without them getting defensive. I'm sure it has been discussed on here a lot but can't find it right now.

I have an opportunity to reach out to someone right now and I thought I would, but I'm afraid I will ruin it if I go about it the wrong way.

 

These links should be helpful:

 

What should I expect from my doctor about withdrawal symptoms?

How do you talk to a doctor about tapering and withdrawal?

 

[Sunnyday]

1 hour ago, Gridley said:

 

These links should be helpful:

 

What should I expect from my doctor about withdrawal symptoms?

How do you talk to a doctor about tapering and withdrawal?

 

Thank you Gridley!