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i've had more windows and the depression has lifted a huge amount, but i have no way of knowing if that's down to the prozac or stopping amlodipine which can cause depression. the waves now seem more intense than before. i'm not sure if that's true or if it's how i'm perceiving them but i feel like i'm making life such a misery for my family and i just want this intense fear to stop. 

oddly enough pb hospitals don't phase me much. because of family health problems in the past i'm well used to them and just look forward to having nice lunch in the canteen 😉 have you got any more insight as to how you've gotten so bad at the moment? do you still think it's down to overdoing it when you helped your friend recently?


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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4 minutes ago, thecowisback said:

i've had more windows and the depression has lifted a huge amount, but i have no way of knowing if that's down to the prozac or stopping amlodipine which can cause depression. the waves now seem more intense than before. i'm not sure if that's true or if it's how i'm perceiving them but i feel like i'm making life such a misery for my family and i just want this intense fear to stop. 

oddly enough pb hospitals don't phase me much. because of family health problems in the past i'm well used to them and just look forward to having nice lunch in the canteen 😉 have you got any more insight as to how you've gotten so bad at the moment? do you still think it's down to overdoing it when you helped your friend recently?

Oh yes of course doing that work ruined me ,I was doing light walks when I could the previous few months.its my ego,it perceives all this process as weakness so it pushed me towards self destructive ego machoism.in the summer I did work on my house while having a chest infection .dam nuts I was.anymore work on the house ,I will get help from my uncle ,I need to drop my gaurd and be ok with not doing things .

The podcasts I listen to dont help ,alfa male.I listen to joe rogan and some of hes guests drive my critic insane.

 

I have a weird body dismorfia going on ,I feel like a monster alfa male stuck inside a "weak beta males body" .

Im used to people asking me to do things and I cant now.I thought this experience would humble me but its the opissite ,it could kill me.

Thats cool you enjoy hospitals,nothing but triggers for me (sick asthmatic child)and being a germ afobe ,no thanks ha.

The bonus is your depression has lifted .dont fret why for now,enjoy it being gone.

Your are not a sociopath,you are not doing this to your family on purpose,maybe theyl be forced to learn more about this process..

Take Care

 

 


Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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4/04

7am got up after restless night. took 3mg prozac. 

very anxious all morning, lots of ocd thoughts. trying to dismiss them. 

2.45 itchy patch on left leg stared to itch like mad again. used some aloe vera gel which helped. 

3.50 feeling very panicky. listened to music to help myself calm down. wanted to go for a walk but very stormy outside. 

5.00 cooked dinner. tearful and panicky. 

calmed down a little after dinner and watched tv with the kids. 

9.00 very panicky again. trying not to engage with the ocd thoughts. 

11.00 took candesartan 4mg, levothyroxine 75 mcg, sage 50mg. went to bed. 

actually slept really well all night. woke a couple of times but managed to go back to sleep. awake from 5-5.45 am but nodded off again until 7 am so probably the best night's sleep i've had in ages. 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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it's been 2 weeks since i upped the prozac. i might try upping it again tomorrow. 

the last 2 weeks have been miserable. the depression has mostly lifted but panic and anxiety has filled the gap. 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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54 minutes ago, thecowisback said:

it's been 2 weeks since i upped the prozac. i might try upping it again tomorrow. 

the last 2 weeks have been miserable. the depression has mostly lifted but panic and anxiety has filled the gap. 

Just back from DR myself and he was taken aback at my prozac dose 4mg ,very low he said .I mite up it myself .

At what cost I wonder myself about getting off meds .

Take care.


Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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indeed. it's so hard to make a decision when we have no real idea of the consequences. the only thing stopping me upping it to the full dose right now is the thought of more start-up side effects. i feel like such a failure having battled to stay off the drugs for 2 years only to be sitting here thinking of upping the dose again but bloody hell i need some sort of life back, not this miserable existence battling to find a glimmer of relief in what is usually days on end of fear, panic and constant dread. i feel like i've lost the past 2 years with my family as i haven't been participating fully in family life, just trying to tread water and hold my head above the surface while normal life has been carrying on around me. 

i guess hundreds of others on this site must have thought and felt the same but i just don't have the same strength that they have to carry on. my family need me, and they need a functioning parent, not someone who constantly drags them down with tears, fears, phobias and ocd rituals. 

i just hope to god slowly upping the dosage does something, or at the least does nothing. i dread to think what things will be like if it makes them worse, but it's a chance i'm going to have to gamble on i reckon. 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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11 minutes ago, thecowisback said:

indeed. it's so hard to make a decision when we have no real idea of the consequences. the only thing stopping me upping it to the full dose right now is the thought of more start-up side effects. i feel like such a failure having battled to stay off the drugs for 2 years only to be sitting here thinking of upping the dose again but bloody hell i need some sort of life back, not this miserable existence battling to find a glimmer of relief in what is usually days on end of fear, panic and constant dread. i feel like i've lost the past 2 years with my family as i haven't been participating fully in family life, just trying to tread water and hold my head above the surface while normal life has been carrying on around me. 

i guess hundreds of others on this site must have thought and felt the same but i just don't have the same strength that they have to carry on. my family need me, and they need a functioning parent, not someone who constantly drags them down with tears, fears, phobias and ocd rituals. 

i just hope to god slowly upping the dosage does something, or at the least does nothing. i dread to think what things will be like if it makes them worse, but it's a chance i'm going to have to gamble on i reckon. 

Well slowly upping the dose will give you more control so just thread carefully and keep at it ,keep working on your thinking.

ive noticed how my partner cant get her head around why I loath myself and my past  so much  so this keeps me pushing to keep at it .it has to be the withdrawl .keep telling yourself this  when you are so  hard on yourself

.you will have to see if you feel worse in the days afterwards  if you do too much ,I understand raising kids doesn't give you much time alone but the hardest thing can be doing nothing ,especially when our minds run a million miles an hour . but ive been forced to do nothing the last few months and its very hard but a must .this withdrawl creates a valid  obsession but we need to keep finding ways out of our head .

Take care .


Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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ah yes, thoughts of the past. this constantly plagues my mind. things i did, the person i was, the people i let down, the crap decisions i'm now regretting. i never felt like this until withdrawal hit and now i hate the very fibre of my being.......


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Please do not make a rush decision today.

Look back at your post yesterday.

I am also feeling lousy today. I made my decision to cold turkey when I felt like this, big mistake.

Tomorrow will be better so decide then.


Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018

Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018

Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018

Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs.

Updosed  8March to 5mgs and holding

25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner

If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum:rolleyes:

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i hope so xxx


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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5/04

7 am took 3mg prozac. 

very anxious and panicky all day. 

2 pm fell asleep for an hour. felt more anxious and disorientated. 

5 pm cooked dinner. very shaky and tearful. 

8 pm leg started itching  again. 

very bad ocd all evening. 

11.30 took levithyroxine 75mcg, sage 50mg, candesartan 4 mg. restless sleep. awake at 5am with bad panic. 

 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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I just wondered if you know there is this thing where we can apparently access therapy more easily on NHS...might be good to have some kind of counselling about the past? Try not to worry about past decisions, be kind to yourself. Think of all the kind good things you do now, with your children etc. It's sometimes much easier to be mean to ourselves though isn't it.


Fluoxetine 20mg a day, (mornings) Amitryptilline 10-50mg (evenings) for last two years (usually lowest dose of the latter) Previously on and off Fluoxetine since 1999. Off completely for pregnancies in 200s with no problems but recently more difficult to withdraw.End 2018 Tapered to 10mg Fluoxetine (am) and 10mg Amitryptilline (evening)Co-codomol 30/500 prescribed (one to two tabs 6 hrly as required for pain)

 

Start Jan 2019 5mg Fluoxetine mornings. Stopped amitryptilline.

6th Feb 2019 Stopped Fluoxetine, 2 X 425mg St Johns Wort daily. 

9th Feb 2019 Reinstated 5mg Prozac, stopped SJW due to headaches and upset tummy.

10th Feb 2019 Started using liquid diluted Prozac and syringe, dividing doses (2 X 2.5ml) = 5mg daily

12th Feb 2019 Stopped prozac after even small doses seem to be causing a bad reaction.

17th Feb 2019 Started taking single dose 425mg SJW mornings 

 

Also taking supplements: Multivitamin, Longvida Curcumin 500mg a day, Magnesium Citrate 500mg/day, Magnesium L-threonate 50mg/day, Omega 3 (with Vit E) 1000mg/day, Vitamin D3 20000IU

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i've all but given up on therapy. i paid for counselling last year but didn't really get much out of it. i felt like i was.just telling them what i thought they wanted to hear and i find it excruciating telling my problems to anyone, let alone a stranger. 

i think this is something i'm going to have to tackle alone. the counsellor i saw did a lot of work on forgiving myself and telling me how i made the best decisions at the time. i don't think she understood at all how much my emotions are ramped up because of withdrawal.

i think the past is just another big stick to beat myself with and i'm working hard on trying to just focus on the present. i have yet another new self help book on my coffe table this week and it is actually very interesting so far ( a lot more so than the other dozen or so sitting on my shelves half finished. eckhart tolle's book has to be the driest read since the set books we were made to read in school 😉).


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Sassenach

Hi

 

Just checking in. you sound calmer and even a touch of humour.

 

Orange blossom has a point, although you felt dreadful yesterday you cooked a meal and no doubt did a whole of other things wives and mothers do without realising.

 

Look after yourself too.


Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018

Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018

Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018

Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs.

Updosed  8March to 5mgs and holding

25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner

If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum:rolleyes:

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Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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I read a small portion of your thread, where you where feeling suicidal.  I'm hoping you are still looking for hope.  As one who has been in a mental hospital because of thoughts of suicide, I can assure you, you do not want to go to a mental hospital.  I'm very glad that I am past thoughts of suicide.  I know how thoughts of deep regret and loathing can take one down the road to dispair.  I am so thankful to still be around enjoying my 3 children and 5 grandchildren.  Life can be very good.  

Perhaps you have not come across the best person for you to talk with.  I encourage you to try and talk with someone.  Give them 1 to 3 one hour sessions, then move on if not connecting.

Do you believe in feeding your soul and spirit with good instruction?  I think you do, sine you mention reading self help books.  I certainly have read my share of self help books.  Ask, and I will share what helps me.

Only you can seek to find hope and peace within.


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Other Pharmaceuticals per day:  Amlodipine 5 mg

Vitamins per day:  C 2,000 mg; D3 1.25 mg; Probiotic 218 mg; Fish Oil 1,600 mg; Magnesium Glycinate 240 mg; CoQ10 100 mg; Saw Palmetto 320 mg;

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those feelings of regret are the worst at the moment. regret and fear of the future loom very large right now 😰😰


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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6/04

7 am took 3.5mg prozac. will update signature when i can get on the computer.

high anxiety all morning. lots of crying. tried to explain to family members why i'm feeling so low. they're sympathetic but are feeling tired of my incessant low mood and panicking. 

1 pm ate lunch then fell asleep. woke 15 minutes later in a state of panic. 

cried on and off all afternoon. lovely sunny day but couldn't even bring myself to leave the house for a walk round the garden. feeling completely hopeless.

6pm ordered takeaway. 

watched movies all evening with the kids which distracted me a little. 

12.00 am took levothyroxine 75mcg, sage 50mg, candesartan 4mg. bought magnesium but forgot to take it. 

couldn't get to sleep. constant ruminating about things in the past, letting family down etc. 2 am got up and tried to read for anwhile. still very panicky. tried sleeping on the sofa. kept drifting off then being woken in panic again. spent the rest of the night alternating between the bed and the sofa but didn't get to sleep until around 7 am.


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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13 hours ago, thecowisback said:

those feelings of regret are the worst at the moment. regret and fear of the future loom very large right now 😰😰

DITO,dam withdrawl hey.consumed with fear for the future today myself.


Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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😓😓


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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9 hours ago, thecowisback said:

i'm very close to updosing to a full 20mg of prozac

 

If you decide to increase it would be better to increase by small increments.

 

From Post #1 of this topic:

 

On 10/9/2012 at 10:17 AM, Altostrata said:

There are reports of people with prolonged post-withdrawal syndrome who did better taking a drug at full dosage 2 years later. If you want to do this, please consult a doctor, we cannot advise you on it, the doctor is going to have to monitor your reaction to the drug.

 

These are forums for people who want online support for staying on drugs:

 

depressionforums.com or PatientsLikeMe.com


Being very patient.  I'll get there - slowly.  ETA mid 2021

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (caused muscle weakness), Zoloft/sertraline; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (mild Serotonin Toxicity)

Began tapering Oct 2015  Current from 17 Oct 2020:  Pristiq 0.56 mg (compounded + liquid)

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On 4/6/2019 at 8:29 AM, thecowisback said:

i've all but given up on therapy. i paid for counselling last year but didn't really get much out of it. i felt like i was.just telling them what i thought they wanted to hear and i find it excruciating telling my problems to anyone, let alone a stranger. 

i think this is something i'm going to have to tackle alone. the counsellor i saw did a lot of work on forgiving myself and telling me how i made the best decisions at the time. i don't think she understood at all how much my emotions are ramped up because of withdrawal.

i think the past is just another big stick to beat myself with and i'm working hard on trying to just focus on the present. i have yet another new self help book on my coffe table this week and it is actually very interesting so far ( a lot more so than the other dozen or so sitting on my shelves half finished. eckhart tolle's book has to be the driest read since the set books we were made to read in school 😉).

 

This post shows a lot of growth, TCIB.

 

Here's something to talk about with a therapist: "I feel like I'm telling you what you want to hear." There's worlds in that. It strikes right at something that's been holding you back all your life.


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thankyou 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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7/03

7am took 3.5mg prozac

very tired after very little sleep. 

anxious and panicky all morning. 

1 pm forced myself to eat. not really hungry because of anxiety. 

2pm went for a long walk. 

5 pm cooked dinner. spoke to a friend on the phone while cooking to distract me. 

6.45 had a phone call with some unwelcome news. had to visit a family member and didn't get back until late. 

12.00 am took candesartan 4mg, levothyroxine 75 mcg, sage 50mg tried to sleep but found it hard to wind down after the events of the evening. nodded off around 2 am. slept until 6 am. 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Altostrata

You're going to have to decide whether you feel better or worse on a higher dosage of Prozac. That is the deciding factor.

 

It's been hard to figure this out from your posts. You will have to make the judgment call yourself.

 

 


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it's a tough one. i'll try this dose for a couple of weeks and see how it goes. 

the depression has returned with a vengeance this week, but that's probably down to the stress from a family crisis at the moment. 

 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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8/04

7 am took 3.5mg prozac. 

anxious all morning. trying to defuse the thoughts. 

11 am itchy patch on leg started itching again. used aloe vera gel. eased after about an hour. 

2 pm picked up bits and pieces in the shops. mildly anxious but not too bad. 

4pm started to think doom and gloom thoughts. tried distracting myself by going for a walk with the kids. 

5 pm cooked dinner. very distracted. it didn't turn out well and everyone left it. didn't feel hungry anyway. 

feeling very low all evening. tried to watch tv but couldn't settle or concentrate. 

11.00 took candesartan 4mg, levothyroxine 75 mcg, sage 50mg went to bed. didn't sleep well. kept waking and thinking doom and gloom thoughts. tried 'changing the channel' (thankyou altostrata for that suggestion that i read on here somewhere) but didn't sleep past 5 am. 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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9/04

7 am took 3.5mg prozac. 

feeling very low and hopeless. feel like i have to push on through the day. 

12.00 had lunch. feeling a bit dizzy.  tried to nap after lunch but feeling too restless. 

3.30 picked kids up from school. felt dizzy when walking. passed after a few minutes. 

5.00 cooked dinner. crying lots again. feeling very hopeless. 

watched tv with the kids in the evening. still very restless - felt as if i had to be doing something but not sure what. depressed feeling lifted a lot in the evening. 

11.00  took candesartan 4mg, levothyroxine 75 mcg, sage 50mg went to bed

12.00 am. woke up again thinking it was morning! 

5 am up again. trying to defuse thoughts. nodded off until about 6. 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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10/04

7am took prozac 3.5mg

had to visit the dentist. fine with the dental work (even though it was more work than i expected), but my head was full of racing thoughts all morning. 

12.00 had lunch. still lots of thoughts but trying hard to defuse them 

3.30 picked kids up. forced myself to go for a walk. 

5.00 cooked dinner. very anxious, wanting to seek reassurance. held off. high anxiety.

7.20 ankles started to tingle/itch. lasted about an hour. 

9.00 watched a fil. kept falling asleep. calmer.

11.00 took sage 50 mg, levothyroxine 75mcg, candesartan 4 mg.  disturbed sleep- woke up every hour through the night but always managed to fall back to sleep. 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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11/04

7 am took 3.5 mg prozac. very tense and anxious. 

intrusive thoughts all day. trying to defuse them. very tired. 

2 pm fell asleep on the sofa. slept for an hour (very unusual for me these days) 

3.30 picked up kids from school. anxiety very bad. 

5.00 cooked dinner. still very anxious. 

7.00 still feel very tired. ocd is pretty bad tonight. 

10.30 weird tingling is back in ankles. also itching on left leg. 

11pm took sage 50 mg, levothyroxine 75mcg, candesartan 4 mg went to bed. disturbed sleep, slept until 5 am then wide awake with racing thoughts. 

 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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what's the best length of time to wait between increasing doses? i keep reading that it takes 4 days for the drugs to work in the body and longer for them to register in the brain, but does this take longer for prozac because of the long half life? 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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34 minutes ago, thecowisback said:

what's the best length of time to wait between increasing doses? i keep reading that it takes 4 days for the drugs to work in the body and longer for them to register in the brain, but does this take longer for prozac because of the long half life? 

 

Depends on the individual i guess. Up dosing seems to cause less issues for people rather than decreasing dose. How are you feeling now with the reinstatment?


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a lot of the depression has lifted but ocd and panic have filled the gap it left, so i guess i'm no better off so far. i think i'll try upping the dose again tomorrow.


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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@thecowisback The panic is just so suffocating and unnerving. 


2002-ish-April 2018: Prozac 40mg (was on 20mg for many of those years); Jan-April 2018: too fast "taper" off Prozac

 

July 2018: Tried lowest dose dose Lexapro for 3 weeks; quick tapered off; Aug-Nov. 2108: Ambien and Ambien CR for sleep (appx 10 total doses). Made depression worse and did not work; Nov 2018: 7 doses .5mg Ativan for sleep over 12 days time. Stopped.

December 2018: One week Remeron for sleep. Did not work or help. "Tapered" off over a few weeks.

In past years also took/tried Wellbutrin, Seroquel, Klonopin, Paxil; Current supplements: 1 mg Melatonin; Transdermal magnesium; Fish oil; Ketotifen (mast cell stabilizer), vitamin C; milk peptides 

March 26, 2019: Re-instated  0.5mg Prozac; April 15, 2019 Started 0.75mg Prozac May 6 2019: 1mg Prozac; May 27: 1.25mg Prozac; July 29,  2019: Began 1.25mg Lamotrigine

 

 

 

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Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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12/04

7am took prozac 3.5 mg very scared this morning.

8.30 dropped kids at school and went into town to run errands. anxious.

1.00 hand lunch. very tired. nodded off for half an hour or so. 

5.00 cooked dinner. anxious.

anxiety died down during the evening then ramped up again at around 10 pm.

11 pm took candesartan 4 mg, magnesium 200mg, sage 50mg, levothyroxine 75mcg.

restless sleep.


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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