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Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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it's been 2 weeks now since my wonderful 5 day window and i'm scared that that will be the last one i see. i keep telling myself to think rationally and that windows will come back but it's so hard to believe right now. 

my fear this last two weeks has been so high. i'm scared of things that don't matter to other people. i despair of the state of the house but have no energy or inclination to do the diy jobs needed to fix it up and i worry constantly about things that may or may not happen in the future. these things even fill my dreams at night so there's no respite. 

i'm wondering if this wave feels worse because the window i had was so good. 

i'm sitting here in floods of tears - i feel so desperate right now. i even missed a concert this week that i had tickets for and had been looking forward to seeing for months. i was just too scared to drive to the city and face all the crowds at the venue. 

i don't want to increase the prozac any more so i guess i've got no choice but to trudge on and hope another window comes soon. 

i feel so whiny and self obsessed but i'm finding it really hard to think of anything outside of my head right now, even though i'm actually carrying on as normal as far as the outside world is concerned. someone told me last week how they think it's lovely how i'm always so happy and smiling and that i always brighten up a room when i walk in. if only they knew what the inside of my mind looks like - probably something akin to a hieronymous bosch painting 😣


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Hi TheCowIsBack,

 

It won’t be your last window! Hang on in there.

 

warmest wishes,

 

Rich


 = medication taken now

 

2007 quetiapine to March 2019 200mg

2019 quetiapine March to present 225mg 

2007 citalopram to present 40mg 
2018 March Abilify 5mg  
2019 Abilify February rapid taper over 3 weeks from 5mg to off

2019 March Clonazepam as required, taken very occasionally, then taken 0.5mg for 2 days 28th and 29th March, now phased out

2019 1st April reinstated Abilify 0.5mg / day 

2018 to present Liquid B12 2g twice daily (diagnosed B12 deficiency) 
 

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Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Rosetta

What you are going through is so similar to my experience.  The worrying all day and bad dreams at night.  Your brain is trying to heal, and this is the result.  It will fix itself eventually.  You simply have to hold on until it does. "Simply" - it's very, very frustrating, I know.  If you can distract that will help.  I don't expect you to read my thread, but it is full of posts just like your last two.  I'm coming out of it now, more or less.  The worry is less intense.  The nightmares less frequent.  My house is still a mess, but I can handle it being that way, and I am pretty confident that I will be able to fix it eventually.  You will get to this place.  I am sure of it.  

 

I'm very glad to hear that people see you as happy and are glad to see you.  You are going to need contact with others, and that trait will be helpful.  

 

Everything is going to work out all right.  That impossible to see right now.  However, looking back I can see how irrational my thinking was, and how obvious it was that my worries were generated by my brain being altered by the drugs.  It takes much too long for it to change back, but it will.  Meanwhile, very few of your worries will actually happen, and you will continually become more capable i n dealing with problems that that do aris e.  Please give yourself a break right now, and pretend you have a broken leg.  You can't get up as fix the house!  Your leg is broken.  It needs to heal.  You don't need to damage it more, right?  (I'm not saying your brain will be damaged more by trying too hard.). Pretend it's impossible for you to physically do these things on the days your brain won't cooperate.  Then sit down with a cup of tea and watch funny tv, or funny cat videos, or teach yourself something via youtube.  It is in fact physically impossible to do some things and not others when our brains are repairing themselves.  You have to use trial and error to find out what you can do.  Make sure that whatever it is you choose something that is not increasing anxiety even if it seems frivolous and wasteful.of time.  Anything that causes you stress -- oops, that broken leg is back!  Can't do it.  The very basic survival activities you must do.  That is enough stress.  Otherwise, let as much go as possible, and watch soothing videos with calming music, painting videos, etc.  It is ok to let your brain heal first!

Rosetta


https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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thankyou so much for your reply - i've been having a read through your thread and you've really been through the mill - it's only people like you on here who truly understand how i:'m feeling and why i'm so scared of such ridiculous things 💙💛💓💜💙💚


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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thecowisback

i've been on 5mg of prozac for 5 weeks now. i thought it was helping to reduce my fear 2 weeks ago when i had a 5 day window but now things are as bad as ever. 

do i need to updose again or have i not given it enough time to work? i know prozac has a very long half life so takes a while to kick in. 

 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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if only i could remember everyday things the same way i remember my ocd thoughts. i missed another appointment yesterday, the 3rd one in the last few weeks because my head was full of obsessions. i wrote it in my wall calendar and knew i had to go but by the afternoon i'd completely forgotten and missed it!

 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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5 hours ago, thecowisback said:

if only i could remember everyday things the same way i remember my ocd thoughts. i missed another appointment yesterday, the 3rd one in the last few weeks because my head was full of obsessions. i wrote it in my wall calendar and knew i had to go but by the afternoon i'd completely forgotten and missed it!

 

I relate TCIB ,for important appointments use your phone ,set an alarm for the date ,mine reminds me the day before and a few hours before the appointment . ,also put a note on the alarm of why its going off .

Peace . 


Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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good idea pb! now i've just got to get one of the kids to show me how to do that 😆😆 i'm such on old luddite!


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Rosetta

Missing appointments due to anxiety and worry taking over my brain is something I have dealt with constantly through this.  It's normal for people under a lot of stress and we are definitely under stress.  Forgive yourself.  The phone reminder idea is good, but a few hours before did not work for me.  I need constant reminders until I leave.  I can be swept up in a worry at any point along the way.  It's like a river current that redirects me down one side of a fork in the river.  Sometimes leaving very early helps because I become obsessed about the appointment itself throughout the time period.  


https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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thecowisback

sounds like a common problem for us!


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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i'm so eaten up today because i have to talk to someone tomorrow (and apologise for something) and i can't stop running over and over in my head what i'm going to say to them. my husband says it will be fine and i'm overthinking it. what is the worst this person will do? they'll probably just shrug and say it's fine. my husband is so pragmatic. i am whatever the opposite definition of the word is!!!


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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after a sleepless night i met the person i needed to apologise to and they said there was no need! so of course i've come home and my ocd has turned to some other obsession. 

it's just relentless. i never had it this bad before withdrawal. it's days like this i'm tempted to up the dose to 20mg and hope it works, but then my rational mind tells me what a mistake that would be and i'd have even longer to taper off at the end of all this. 

practicing claire weekes' words right now.........


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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how long should i stay on my current dose? it's been nearly 8 weeks with very little in the way of improvement. i haven't been taking daily notes as they made me fixate too much on my symptoms but i have been jotting down how i feel each day. apart from a wonderful 5 day window things are just the same regarding my fear, panic and ocd. 

i'm scared to increase the dose in case it makes my anxiety even worse like it did the last time i upped it. is it possible that the drug needs longer than 7-8 weeks to get working?

@ChessieCat @Gridley @Altostrata @Shep


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Altostrata

As usual, I need to know if the way you feel now is worse than you felt before, and in what way, when did it change yadda yadda yadda

 

We've been through this cycle so many times, I feel you should know how to do it by now. Yes, I need daily notes yadda yadda yadda

 

In general, I'm feeling your situation is not related to withdrawal, you need intensive therapy to change the way you react to your circumstances, or you need to change your circumstances, or something else we don't offer in peer support here. Whether an increase in dosage will help -- your guess is as good as mine.


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will start taking notes again.....


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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i feel it has to be down to withdrawal as i never experienced fear like this before or during taking meds, and i read so many other peoples posts on here that describe the same level of fear of things that really don't matter to other people. 

intensive therapy is something i don't have access to (have been begging for help for 2years but mental health treatment in this country is woefully inadequate.) 

i keep reading through my cbt and act books and listening to claire weekes, but nothing seems to sink in when that first wave of panic hits and by the time i've realised what is happening 2 or 3 days have passed. i find it so hard to recognise that first 'what if?' thought as my brain playing tricks. 

 

 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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i also feel 'your guess is as good as mine' is a very flippant way to reply to someone asking for help. i know i'm often going round in circles but i'm not the only one here stuck in groundhog day because of withdrawals. it's been commented before that i don't have withdrawals but i don't see how my case is any different from anyone else who came off long term use of ad's too quickly. i know i'm not going to cure my symptoms by taking meds again but i'm hoping to ease them and am very cautious about taking too much too soon, hence the question about updosing. 

i stopped making daily notes as every day is pretty much the same - neverending fear day and night. writing it down each day with no difference in symptoms makes me feel worse. 

i won't bother asking for advice any more. i just wanted to hear the opinion of someone more experienced and didn't expect such an offhand answer. 

there is no help to be had on the nhs - only last week someone  in our local news  committed suicide because they couldn't get access to professional help for their depression. a friend of mine lost her husband 3 years ago and is still on the waiting list for grief counselling.if you don't have money for private therapy you are buggered. 

 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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9 minutes ago, thecowisback said:

i also feel 'your guess is as good as mine' is a very flippant way to reply to someone asking for help

 

Alto isn't being flippant when she says this.  She is just being honest and admitting that she doesn't know.  If she did know, then she would be making a suggestion.

 

34 minutes ago, thecowisback said:

i keep reading through my cbt and act books and listening to claire weekes, but nothing seems to sink in when that first wave of panic hits and by the time i've realised what is happening 2 or 3 days have passed. i find it so hard to recognise that first 'what if?' thought as my brain playing tricks. 

 

Instead of trying to "fix it" when you finally realise it has happened, it might be better to do "check ins" throughout the day.

 

When my dog died 3 years ago my daughter was concerned about how I would cope.  She suggested that I check in with myself throughout the day to see how I was feeling.  To start with I set a reminder but after a while I didn't need to.  And I've ended up using this technique regularly and I've found it very helpful.

 

The idea of checking in with yourself is to help to nip it in the bud.  I also find that when I do this I take a few deep breaths so when I am doing okay at the check in time, I benefit from a bit of relaxation and a very short time away from whatever I am doing or thinking.  Sort of like a mini refresher time.  It's definitely made me more aware (mindfulness) and as a result I can pick up on the changes in me sooner than I used to. 


Being very patient.  I'll get there - slowly.  ETA mid 2021

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (caused muscle weakness), Zoloft/sertraline; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (mild Serotonin Toxicity)

Began tapering Oct 2015  Current from 12 Sept 2020:  Pristiq 0.625 mg (compounded)

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in the dare programme i'm following they advise not to check in. that's why self help is so hard because each different programme has different ways of dealing with things. 

i felt alto's comment was flippant as i only wondered how long it can take for prozac to work - i know it has a longer half-life than other drugs so takes longer to kick in but does that mean weeks or are we talking months? when i search online i find such varying information and some people say it can take a lot longer to work for anxiety and ocd than for depression. 

i'll just muddle along on my own from now on. 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Dont stay on your own unless youve got support.

Keep using examples like the other day when you met that person and it was fine.create new positive thoughts .

Its cruel tho isnt it because it feels like we are in that movie men in black and all our positive feelings and emotions are being wiped with the flick of a button .

I agree about not keeping a symptoms diary but try a diary for fears and thoughts .

Take care TCIB 


Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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thanks pb x i'm getting disheartened by being told i can't have withdrawals after all this time. my doctors don't believe me and then doubts are expressed on here as well, one of the few places where i could go and be believed. 

i know i have to change.my thinking and i'm the only one that can do that but there has to be a physiological reason for my thinking. i had always been a glass half full type of person, and always looked on the bright side until 2 years ago. i stopped prozac and bang!! since then i have had an unrelenting terrible fear of anything and everything and my mind swings from suddenly thinking of something scary that could happen, to beating me up about things i got wrong in the past. 

this isn't who i am or what i was like before withdrawals hit. 

if, as alto and my doctors say, my state of mind have .nothing to do withdrawals then i have to accept that i am just going crazy and may as well go up to full dose of meds and be done with it. 

 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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I'm off drugs 5 years and still don't feel anywhere near my "normal" self.

I NEVER felt like this in my life,I've been depressed and anxious but never felt anything like this....I had no idea someone could suffer like this.

these drugs are evil and should be banned.

 

I'm sorry you're suffering like this ….you're not going crazy,it's the drugs.

 

hope we can all recover from this someday.❤️


went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct  back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.

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2 hours ago, thecowisback said:

i stopped prozac and bang!! since then i have had an unrelenting terrible fear of anything and everything and my mind swings from suddenly thinking of something scary that could happen, to beating me up about things i got wrong in the past. 

this isn't who i am or what i was like before withdrawals hit. 

I think this is your answer....if this wasn't you before quitting Prozac, it is withdrawal.  My situation is different but I am experiencing these symptoms as well and see many others here with the same.  I am sorry it is so difficult to find in person support.  From reading your posts it sounds like you are trying your best on your own to find ways to cope with all of this.  In terms of drugs, unfortunately I don't think anyone can know if increasing the Prozac will be helpful or not.....it so hard to be stuck in this position of uncertainty.  I just want you to know you are not alone as you navigate your way through this.


-1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper; withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD)

-10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin
-Tried several times to slowly taper Zoloft by 10%, then 5% every 4-6 weeks; could never get below approx. 40 mg - spring 2012 experienced major WD symptoms due to stress; tried to updose but no relief, back on Klonopin 1 mg.
-Switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to Citalopram. Finished Zoloft 1/13; Citalopram 35 mg and 1 mg Klonopin.
-8/13: 27 mg Citalopram; 1 mg Klonopin

-11/14: 12.6 Citalopram - began to have bad withdrawal symptoms; out of desperation increased to 1.25 mg Klonopin at the beginning of December.  12/13/14 16 mg Citalopram - going to stay here to try to stabilize; stabilized on 16 mg Citalopram after 4-5 months

-7/15 - 3/16: reduced to 15 mg; ~ 2 months later w/d hit hard (probably r/t stress); 6/16 updosed to 20 mg Citalopram and trying to stabilize. Updosed to 1.5 Klonopin as well. Stabilized on 20 mg Citalopram after 4-5 months

8/17-9/17: feeling withdrawal symptoms at 20 mg Citalopram (due to stress) - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?)  - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg).

Supplements: fish oil; magnesium glycinate; vitamin D3; curcumin

Citalopram taper:  2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg

2020: 1/14/20: 10.89 mg (1.27% drop); 1/22/20: 10.75 mg (1.29% drop); 2/28/20 toe surgery; 4/26/20: 10.62 mg (1.21% drop); 5/3/20: 10.5 mg (1.22% drop); 5/10/20: 10.4 mg (1.24% drop); 5/17/20: 10.2 mg (1.25% drop); 6/7/20: 10.10 mg (1.27% drop); 6/14/20: 9.98 mg (1.19% drop); 6/21/20: 9.85 mg (1.30% drop); 6/28/20: 9.7 mg (1.22% drop); 7/12/20: 9.6 mg (1.23% drop); 7/19/20: 9.5 mg (1.25% drop); 7/26/20: 9.4 mg (1.26% drop); 8/2/20: 9.3 mg (1.28% drop); 8/17/20: 9.14 mg (1.19% drop); 8/31/20: 9.0 mg (1.31% drop); 9/6/20: 8.9 mg (1.22% drop)

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1 hour ago, thecowisback said:

thanks pb x i'm getting disheartened by being told i can't have withdrawals after all this time. my doctors don't believe me and then doubts are expressed on here as well, one of the few places where i could go and be believed. 

i know i have to change.my thinking and i'm the only one that can do that but there has to be a physiological reason for my thinking. i had always been a glass half full type of person, and always looked on the bright side until 2 years ago. i stopped prozac and bang!! since then i have had an unrelenting terrible fear of anything and everything and my mind swings from suddenly thinking of something scary that could happen, to beating me up about things i got wrong in the past. 

this isn't who i am or what i was like before withdrawals hit. 

if, as alto and my doctors say, my state of mind have .nothing to do withdrawals then i have to accept that i am just going crazy and may as well go up to full dose of meds and be done with it. 

 

 

Hang in there.its hard when the  rug of validation is pulled from underneath us .if you believe its withdrawl then that's enough .we are seeking validation from DRs that don't even believe it can happen .one sentence  to them is "black box warning" .

Ive recently being checking out paitentslikeme.com ,maybe you could get more support you need  on there .

Im not talking for Alto but she is human like us all and  patience can ware thin at times ,please don't take it personal ,I should know, SA has given me ample support .   

  the beating yourself up needs looked at ,,its mostly nuero ,give it context .I thrash myself over my past because ive basically nothing because of my addictions and choices ,through introspection this has me with another diagnosis ADHD ,but I need to be honest with myself .that's why im on pateintslikeme.com ,I now need to learn about ADHD and the brain .setting labels aside in my own case my brain has never fired properly .

Try a gratitude journal but I'm aware this can trigger your fear.[I can see you now saying ,WTF have I to be grateful for in this mess ha] .

I can see your thorn between up dose or not for relief ,make a decision one way or not and stick with it for a while ,even to give you some breathing space .

Take care TCIB ,remember if your OCD starts to focus on the decorating ,look out the window instead ha ,change the channel .I literally do on the tv  because of my ADHD lol.

Peace.     


Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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Hey, I haven't read your full thread but just wanted you to know it helped me to read your experience, so thanks for sharing. I can relate all to well to the ocd stuff, it's unrelenting most of the time. I've dealt with it since I was a teen. Regardless of how much of it is 'you' (whatever that is) or withdrawal (my instinct is that it's probably both in many cases), it does take great effort to get a handle on. But it can be done, don't doubt that. I've been hospitalised at times absolutely convinced I was a monster, practically begging a roomful of doctors to believe me, yet months or years later realising it was completely irrational and literally laughing at the state I got myself into. A good general rule that often helps is, if it feels like ocd, it most likely is. As soon as you get that tight fear, urge to ruminate, and deep inner doubt, that's your cue that your mind is going into irrational obsession mode. As I mentioned elsewhere in the site today, the work of Byron Katie has helped me a lot lately. Look her up. You can do this, you already have been. Just got to keep going, what else is there to do. Best wishes to you x


2008-2013 - Various meds on and off since age 18 incl. Sertraline, Prozac, Mirtazipine, Abilify. Prescribed for severe OCD.

CT'd several times over these years and reinstated after subsequent psych hospitalisations.

2014-2015 - Clomipramine, quetiapine and Epilum

2015-Jan 2017 - Prozac 40mg (stopped contraceptive pill, most stable period of time)

(Beginning of taper) Jan-October 2017 - Tapered Prozac to zero.

15 Jan 2018 - Reinstated Prozac at 2mg due to acute w/d symptoms

February 2018 - tapered to 1.8mg

May 2018 - reinstated at 5mg due to severe w/d symptoms. 9 month hold, stabilized well at around 6/7 months.

March 2019 - Tapered to 4.9mg

Current supplements: fish oils, probiotic, ashwaganda, colostrum powder, cannabis

 

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13 hours ago, thecowisback said:

i also feel 'your guess is as good as mine' is a very flippant way to reply to someone asking for help.

 

Sorry, at this point, your guess is as good as mine. I'm just a volunteer Internet support person. I can't go on asking for your symptom pattern. This must be the 30th time.  I have no idea what's going on. I don't have any idea if you need more drug or less drug or a different drug or no drug.

 

I don't know if you have withdrawal syndrome or are plagued by thoughts you cannot control. I can't be of any help, so I hope you understand, from now on, I will not be responding to your questions.


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9 hours ago, thecowisback said:

thanks pb x i'm getting disheartened by being told i can't have withdrawals after all this time. my doctors don't believe me and then doubts are expressed on here as well, one of the few places where i could go and be believed. 

 

it's harsh when you can't get good info from your doctors and you do need to talk here where we will believe you.  for what it's worth, it sure sounds like withdrawal to me. 

 

why not assume that's what it is? so often, what people are able to achieve is strongly influenced by their expectation.  expecting to get better is good for you. it's not always easy, but it's worth trying. 

 

13 hours ago, thecowisback said:

i felt alto's comment was flippant

 

I don't see it that way:  you might just be extra sensitive right now. lord knows I am, and I'm in a much better place than you are. 

 

ask yourself if Alto could just have been responding the best way she could and didn't mean to be flippant at all. and remember she built this site and spends hours, literally, every day posting here to help people.  I couldn't do it! 

 

it's a hard time, take care of yourself best you can. 🤗


Currently taking Ramapril (blood pressure) 5 mg twice a day

Omeprazole 10 mg AM and 20 mg PM  (the taper has gone nowhere after the first cut)

Famotidine   once a day (and I still needs tums sometimes)

magnesium 200 mg at night

as of yesterday 2 fish oil capsules "EPA-DHA 1000"

 

off Lexapro as of 5/2018  - last dose had been 5 mg every other day for a couple years

 

highest dose had been 20 mg at which point I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, which went away when I cut the lexapro down to 15 mg. 

 

I spent years on Paxil before Lexapro (can't remember dose), briefly on Effexor and Abilify and others I have forgotten. in fact, when I was diagnoses with BPII I was put on all kinds of things which made me feel so bad I stopped them cold turkey within maybe 3 or 4 weeks, thank goodness. since then I've known these pills were terrible and I weaned down the Lexapro with zero help or support over I'm not sure how many years. 

 

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i'm up to 6mg of prozac now and not seeing any difference whatsoever in my anxiety and panic. 

i'm considering going back on a full 20mg dose to see if that will help. i've heard of other people going back on a full dose and finding relief so i'm sorely tempted. 

the only thing stopping me right now is the fear that it might make my anxiety even worse. if this did happen would i be able to cut back down to 6mg again?


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Arcticjessy

Hi. 
im in no way telling you what to do or suggesting it but I have read a few success stories where the patient had to go back to a higher dose to find relief. David Healy mentions it on his site that patients have to go higher than previous dose to see a reduction in symptoms. 


10 months of venlaflaxine cold turkey. Prozac 20 mg for 13 years, the last 5 years taken every other day. Cold Turkey.

Hellish terror. Deep melancholic depression, chronic insomnia, swing between akathesia and chronic fatigue. Vertigo, headaches neck pain and inner tremor. Taking magnesium and vit c. Just bought seriphos not tried yet.

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You could also ask for a very short dose of diazapam, it’s the only way I got back on antidepressants. I only took a low dosefor 10 days then stopped 


10 months of venlaflaxine cold turkey. Prozac 20 mg for 13 years, the last 5 years taken every other day. Cold Turkey.

Hellish terror. Deep melancholic depression, chronic insomnia, swing between akathesia and chronic fatigue. Vertigo, headaches neck pain and inner tremor. Taking magnesium and vit c. Just bought seriphos not tried yet.

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thecowisback

did you have very bad anxiety going back on?


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Arcticjessy

Hi. Yes I did but I was extremely unwell. I’m not saying your not suffering but I couldn’t function in any but the most basic way. I was very close to throwing the towel  in. Good luck whatever you choose 


10 months of venlaflaxine cold turkey. Prozac 20 mg for 13 years, the last 5 years taken every other day. Cold Turkey.

Hellish terror. Deep melancholic depression, chronic insomnia, swing between akathesia and chronic fatigue. Vertigo, headaches neck pain and inner tremor. Taking magnesium and vit c. Just bought seriphos not tried yet.

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hmm, that worries me as we only have a few weeks to christmas and i need to be fully functioning for that. i may hold off upping until january. 


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Arcticjessy

No I meant I was non functioning before. The anxiety does get worse for a week or so. 
it’s controversial but I truly believe some people’s lives are not worth living without medication I’m one.. I spent thousands on therapy. Meds are the evil and akathesia is the devil and most drs know rod all about these meds.. but I have to make my peace with it and accept something’s you just can’t change 


10 months of venlaflaxine cold turkey. Prozac 20 mg for 13 years, the last 5 years taken every other day. Cold Turkey.

Hellish terror. Deep melancholic depression, chronic insomnia, swing between akathesia and chronic fatigue. Vertigo, headaches neck pain and inner tremor. Taking magnesium and vit c. Just bought seriphos not tried yet.

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