pug Your miracle is coming, hang on!

[pug]

Yes, it will feel like a miracle when it happens for you; and it will happen for you, it is just a matter of time.  I want to get that out there first thing; it is my belief that we will all heal in time; it has happened for me and is continuing to happen and it will happen for you.  Am I completely 100% done healing?  No.  Am I so, so much better?  Oh yes!  Now for some basics:

 

Male, mid 50s, took zoloft for over 20 year, quit cold turkey 3.5 years ago, was off 5 months, thought I was relapsing, so started prozac for 3.5 months and then quit that cold turkey.  Then I found S.A. and discovered what I was dealing with was not a relapse but withdrawal (and recovery).  So yes, I did everything completely wrong and more than once!  I am proof that given time we can heal.

 

I currently just celebrated 30 months of being drug free.  Now, how to begin to describe the inhumane torture that I have endured until very recently; not sure but I will try.  I have gone through both the windows and waves pattern and the continuous misery pattern.  I was one of those that suffered a great deal after quitting, but really got slammed at about 6 months off.  At 1 year I was barely functioning; at 1.5 years I was still miserable, and at 2 years off I was wondering if I was doomed to endless suffering with no end.  But now as I have hit the 2.5 year mark I feel as if I have turned the corner.

 

Windows and waves general comprised the first year and then it became continuous misery for pretty much the next 6 to 12 months or more; and then back to windows and waves.  My last serious wave was in months 25-26 and now finally what feels like solid progress the last month or so.  I am hesitant to list symptoms because I know how much it use to scare me to read what others were going through; but on the other hand it really helped when a new symptom would start, because I knew it was part of the recovery process and not some disease or sickness, and most of these are gone or have become minimal although they lasted for months or years.  And just because I experienced them does not mean that you will, we all have a very individual road to recovery; so here they are in no specific order:

 

Dark depression, anxiety, paranoia, obsessive compulsive, panic attacks, intrusive/obsessive thoughts that tortured me, hopelessness, irrational thinking, suicidal thoughts, brain zaps, intense organic fear, severe inner-body tension that felt like my whole insides were clamped up, sexual dysfunction, severe tension, tremors and pain in the back of my legs and calves, terrible shoulder and upper arm pain, mania, extreme bloating and stomach pain, nausea, dizziness, vertigo, feeling like my brain was on fire, feeling like a part of my brain was missing, feeling like a bomb had gone off in my head, floating head feeling, super-hot face, body temperature regulation problems – being super-hot or cold, constipation, dehydration, lack of appetite and weight loss, feeling dead, anhedonia, akathisia, mood swings, insomnia, terrible brain fog and inability to think clearly, sensitive vision and hearing, inching and burning skin, cold like symptoms, head congestion, phantom smells, constant tinnitus, severe fatigue and exhaustion, health anxiety, I could not read, listen to music, or meditate, heart palpitations, random traveling aching and stabbing pain throughout my body, headaches, and so many other symptoms that I can’t remember.  The torture, pain, misery, suffering and utter despair was never ending…until it did finally start to end for me and it will for you too.

 

Did anything help me along the way?  I tried many things; acupuncture, vitamins and supplements, alpha-stim, gluten free diet, no sugar diet, no caffeine, no alcohol, and anything else I could do to try and feel better.  Did it work?  In a sense it all worked because it kept me focused on recovery and gave me hope when I had none, and the possibility that I might feel better.  But time passing has been the real healing agent; although that was the last thing I wanted to hear when I was suffering so intensely.  I did find that mindfulness, breathing exercises and physical exercise helped when all else failed and I was so truly desperate.  Many hours were spent just trying to pay attention to my breath going in and out; and I still use this practice as a relaxation method.  It also helped me greatly to visit this website daily as well as Benzo-Buddies.  I read success stories for hours at a time, read the Bloom in Wellness facebook page each day and anything by Baylissa Frederick and also Don Killian.

 

So, what remains for me?  I still have tinnitus (although it has gotten much better over the last month), stomach bloating and pain on occassion, nerve pain, some brain zaps at night, fatigue and tiredness, and sleep issues.  If I had to put some percentages on where I am at now I would say physically I am at about 85-90% healed and mentally/emotionally at 90-95% healed.  I now eat anything that I choose although I eat as healthily as possible because I value life so much now and I want to live as long as possible; I exercise regularly and it feels wonderful; I enjoy caffeinated drinks including regular tea and coffee which I had given up for many months; I also drink wine and beer a couple times a week if I choose to and enjoy it.  I am in the best shape since high school, and have lost 75 pounds (on purpose). Life is good again and just the simple things are more than enough to bring joy and happiness.

 

So that is my story and I hope it will encourage you as you read it that you will recover and become yourself again.  I remember reading similar statements in success stories and thinking, “Yea, right, that is easy for you to say, you are not suffering through this terrible hell right now!”  And maybe you are thinking the same thing as I did, but please listen to my words; you will make it, you will recover, you will feel better, and you will join me in loving life once again; just please don’t give up or give in and keep going!

 

As I sit here with a cup of coffee and contemplate what I have been through the last several years, it all seems so strange and foreign.  Success stories promised that I would make it to recovery, and they were right, so now it is my turn to tell you that you will make it, “You will make it!”.  Wishing everyone here all the best and a quick recovery.  Please let me know if you have any questions and I will be happy to try and help.

 

All my love.

 

Pug

[nicolantana]

Pug!! What a great post!! Thank you so much for sharing with us!!!

 

my main condition is Anhedonia. 5 months off meds and largely empty...no emotions, no motivation, drive,  very little brain activity, not connected with anything around me etc...

 

did you experience similar?? were you without emotions?? how did they come back?? were you a zombie for a while and now human again???

 

Thanks in advance!

 

Nick

[theloneranger86]

wow pug. So did the sexual dysfunction also resolve ? Are you now back to normal , would you say , when it comes to libido and erections ? Sorry to be graphic about it . But its something thats been bothering me for than a year. A lot of the other physical symptoms have gone away for me ,but sexual dysfunction and anhedonia remain and they have limited my life in a big way . Im looking to get out of this mess and live my life again. 

[Chicago77]

Congrats Pug!! Thank you so much for coming back and posting your Sucess Story. It's so helpful for others. I see that you still have nerve pain. Has that lessened in intensity over time? Did the burning skin lessen as well?

[DrugfreeProf]

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this, Pug. How much we all needed to hear this! Bless you and please keep posting!

[gigi63]

Thank you Pug!!!! How wonderful for you!!!! Congratulations!!!! Thank you for coming back to give us encouragement that the light is coming!!! You are right, when in it, seems like it will last forever!!!! We are all so pleased for you!!! I have a question Pug, now that you are seeing the light, emotions are so close to 100 percent back to normal, would you say, as others have, that you cannot even revert back to the neuro pain, angst, fear???! Again, thank you so much and congratulations!!!!

[gigi63]

Pug, I am also wondering what kind of exercise you do and how did you know when and how much would be OK???

[gigi63]

Another question Pug, so I guess this is three, how did you know you were turning a corner??? What was happening to you and in what ways??? Thank you.

[apace41]

Well done, Pug!

 

Thanks for returning to share with all of us still on the road.

 

Please stick around as it is SO HELPFUL for members to hear from those who have made it. Especially a 20+ year med man.

 

Best,

 

Andy

[Distraut]

Pug, what a wonderful post.  Thank you so much for telling us about this.

 

I so hope my 28 year old son, Akrontes, who is 13 months into cold turkey from Zoloft and suffering terribly from OCD and connected mental torment and thinks he will never recover, will gain some hope from your story which I have printed out for him. 

 

How did your mental torment resolve itself?  Was it gradual or did it lift quite suddenly and how long did it take before you got some relief?

 

Thank you in advance.

[nicolantana]

No pressure here at all pug! Just the whole crew waiting like pilgrims for your revelations

[Pluto]

Wow! This is great to read. Congratulations on your successful recovery. I envy you. I am also inspired by you. I felt teary reading that. Yeah, I am an emotional hot mess right now, but the tears are of joy and hope. I pray to get to where you are one day. 

[Hopefull]

Congratulations Pug!

 

Time is a healer. Your success story uplifts my spirts. Wishing you health and happiness!

[Santino]

Hi Pug

So glad you re winning your life back. I really wish a nice and speedy recovery....

All the best

[dini84]

Thank you for this post Pug! You've given us all a lot of hope and something positive to turn my mind to when waves hit and it decides to focus on the negative and the pain. Thank you so much!!!

[LexAnger]

Thank you so much Pug for sharing your experience and helping everyone here! Your success can be life saving!

 

I'm so so happy for you for making it to the other side of this most horrendous hell!

 

Wish you speedy 100% recovery!!

[apathetic]

thank you so, so much for sharing this.

 

firstly, thank you for describing your symptoms. i'm currently dealing with brain fog aka i can't think clearly at all, better said i can't think, aggression, apathy, lack of motivation.

but at the first place - cognition, because i messed up and took things that could only worsen my state, and they did.

 

sharing success stories is very important and i'm glad that you came here to share yours.

the thing that i'm the most glad for to read is "life is good again, i enjoy simple things". so, it in fact is possible to go back to the normal state.

[Itzakadoozee]

thank you so, so much for sharing this.

 

firstly, thank you for describing your symptoms. i'm currently dealing with brain fog aka i can't think clearly at all, better said i can't think, aggression, apathy, lack of motivation.

but at the first place - cognition, because i messed up and took things that could only worsen my state, and they did.

 

sharing success stories is very important and i'm glad that you came here to share yours.

the thing that i'm the most glad for to read is "life is good again, i enjoy simple things". so, it in fact is possible to go back to the normal state.

I can't think clearly either since my brain was destabilized during a fast taper. Hopefully as we heal we should be able to think better. I'm still on 3 mg escatalopram btw

[anongrl5590]

Wow great success story, Pug! I remember I had PM'd you awhile ago and your message to me gave me the heart to keep pushing through. I read through your old posts and seems like during this horrific stage of your life, you were still able to manage a positive attitude above it all 

 

I can also relate to the hundreds of symptoms you listed. Did you ever get these symptoms too? -- eye floaters, pins + needles in hands and feet, really bad painful electric sensation all over the body, numb skin feeling, acid reflux, OCD looping music/thoughts in head?  

[PluckyPony]

Yay! This post is life, pug!  It always lifts my spirit when I read stories of courage and perseverance, even in the midst of great adversity.   I am grateful to you for sharing your story, giving hope to so many people in the process.

[pug]

Pug!! What a great post!! Thank you so much for sharing with us!!!

 

my main condition is Anhedonia. 5 months off meds and largely empty...no emotions, no motivation, drive,  very little brain activity, not connected with anything around me etc...

 

did you experience similar?? were you without emotions?? how did they come back?? were you a zombie for a while and now human again???

 

Thanks in advance!

 

Nick

 

Nick,

 

I did have anhedonia, and I felt dead inside like a zombie; and yes I am now human again!  I felt disconnected from myself and everyone and everything around me, like I was enclosed in a small space with no contact with the outside world even when I was moving around in it. A friend or family member could have died right in front of me and I would not have felt anything.  It was very hard to deal with and I was sure that I was doomed to feel that way forever; but I was wrong!  My emotions came back in big swings for me mostly; breaking down crying for 1/2 hour, or having a lot of anger and irritation, being over emotional, feeling a glimmer of joy for a few minutes, and then back to no emotion.  I had a very hard time controlling my emotions when they started to return, so that was another challenge.  Slowly but surely my emotions have evened out and are much more stable and "normal" (or what is normal for me and feels right). I feel again; the full spectrum of human emotions and it is is wonderful.  You will too, just get through each day as best as you can and time will bring your emotions back on line.  I am hoping that it will happen for you very soon.

 

All the best.

 

pug

[pug]

wow pug. So did the sexual dysfunction also resolve ? Are you now back to normal , would you say , when it comes to libido and erections ? Sorry to be graphic about it . But its something thats been bothering me for than a year. A lot of the other physical symptoms have gone away for me ,but sexual dysfunction and anhedonia remain and they have limited my life in a big way . Im looking to get out of this mess and live my life again. 

 

Hello,

 

The sexual dysfunction has gotten much, much better!  No worries on asking graphic questions; if we don't get real about these things we can't help each other!  It is difficult to gauge whether I am back to "normal" because the drugs killed my libido and sexual abilities, and I was on them so long that I don't really know what is normal for a man my age.  I can tell you that my desire has returned, erections are much more reliable and orgasms have become intense again.  I doubted if I would ever desire sex again, be able to perform, or get any pleasure from it.  I am lucky to have an understanding partner who has stood by me as I have healed and recovered my abilities again.  I can tell you that it is so much better than when I was on the drugs, and has gotten better as I have recovered, I feel like it will continue to improve, just like everything else.  Sex is wonderful again and I am eternally grateful that it has become a part of my life once more.  I see no reason to doubt that it will be the same for you; just give it time, as frustrating as that is when we are suffering, but really time will make the difference.  I hope that this area of your recovery will start to improve very soon; you will be so thankful and happy when it does, just as I am.

 

Keep us posted on your recovery.

 

pug

[nicolantana]

Thank you so much Pug. Thanks for coming back to us. And thanks for your detailed response. That's exactly how I'm feeling but I will persevere. And I'm aware the return of emotion could be a big challenge, but I'll be ready for it.

 

regards,

 

Nick

[theloneranger86]

Such a genuine response . Pug , thanks a lot for taking the time to write this. 

I hope I see the day when I can write my recovery story here . 

[Distraut]

Thank you for coming back and keeping hope alive for us all Pug.  I join with theloneranger86 in waiting in anticipation of writing another success story in this thread.

[Gridley]

Pug, you are a life-saver.  Thank you.  

[pug]

Congrats Pug!! Thank you so much for coming back and posting your Sucess Story. It's so helpful for others. I see that you still have nerve pain. Has that lessened in intensity over time? Did the burning skin lessen as well?

 

Hello Chicago77,

 

The burning skin has pretty much gone away!  For the longest time the skin down the right side of my back would burn, tingle and feel strange.  I also had burning areas on my feet, thighs, other areas, and had burning nipples too; now all gone for the most part.  I occasionally have the slightest hint of burning, but it is gone quickly.  During this recovery the burning skin would go away for a little bit every now and then, but always returned; so frustrating!  But once again, in time, it has healed and no longer tortures me.

 

I still have nerve pain, but that has improved also.  The pain comes and goes of its own accord and in random places throughout my body; lately in my left buttock running down my entire left leg.  It can be very painful still, but it is now much more manageable and I can deal with it.  The stabbing pains have also improved and have lessened over time.  I am confident that as I continue to recover and time passes, this will improve and eventually go away for good.

 

I hope that your recovery is coming along and you are seeing improvements.

 

pug

[pug]

Thank you Pug!!!! How wonderful for you!!!! Congratulations!!!! Thank you for coming back to give us encouragement that the light is coming!!! You are right, when in it, seems like it will last forever!!!! We are all so pleased for you!!! I have a question Pug, now that you are seeing the light, emotions are so close to 100 percent back to normal, would you say, as others have, that you cannot even revert back to the neuro pain, angst, fear???! Again, thank you so much and congratulations!!!!

 

Hi triplem15,

 

You are absolutely spot on- I can not revert or relive the fear, angst, depression, hopelessness, and utter despair that I once felt almost continuously for what seemed like forever.  It just isn't there. As others have said, you look back and wonder, "What just happened"?  I read my old journal, or think back and although I can remember it all, it just doesn't have the same traumatic sensation or impact.  It is very weird, but understandable when you consider that we have a brain injury that we are healing from.  Every so often I will have a hint of it, but that is all and it is gone quickly, so my fear of relapse has gone away, and that is why it feels like I have finally turned the corner.

 

I hope that things are improving for you.  All the best.

 

pug

[pug]

Hello Everyone,

 

A couple things came to mind recently that I wanted to share.  During the worst of my recovery, when I was dealing with extreme anxiety, akathisia, and I feared going to bed to try and sleep, I would take a hot epsoms salt bath right before getting into bed.  I used baking soda and epsoms salt in large quantities and soaked in the hottest water I could take for about 20 minutes while listening to guided meditations.  I then went immediately to bed and tried for sleep, or at least to get some relaxation.  I feel that the baths helped, and maybe they would offer you some relief.

 

Another thing that helped was keeping a journal.  Writing down my thoughts and feelings; how bad I felt and my symptoms helped me a great deal.  It was also great that when I felt a little better on a day and made notes on it, I could look back and reassure myself that I actually did feel better for a little bit and didn't imagine it.  I copied success stories and quotes and pasted them in there and also wrote my own positive affirmations to repeat hour after hour.  I feel like these things did help.  I kept an electronic journal in a word doc. and also a paper one with success stories and positive affirmations and quotes.  I would read both over and over each day until one day I no longer felt that I needed to.

 

Hoping that everyone is seeing improvements soon!

 

pug

[Gridley]

You are a gem!

[Distraut]

Dear Pug

 

Sorry to bother you again, but could you tell us a bit about your obsessive thinking, OCD?  Did anything help to distract yourself or give you some relief?  Did the obsessive thoughts fade away gradually or all of a sudden, and do you remember how long you were afflicted with them?

 

Thank you so much in advance

[Sampo]

Thank you for sharing your success story. Congratulations that you are able to enjoy of your life again!

 

I have many very similar syptoms as you have had. It is so good to hear that healing isn't impossible. So thank you once again for giving hope to us! I promise that I will write my own success story some day when I'm healed. Hopefully everyone will do the same!

[gigi63]

Thank you Pug for your response to my question. Perhaps you can tell me this, as your healing has come over the many months, can you try to describe how you saw the symptoms resolving. What I mean is, did the physical symptoms heal first, did all of the emotions heal first? Or was it more of a gradual healing in tandem with each other?  I know it is often NOT linear healing but just wondering how your process unfolded? I do believe I read it was very gradual but I think you were referring to the return of emotion not necessarily the neuro emotion, or was the organic fear and angst, etc a part if the return of emotion??? For me, they seem very separate. Neuro emotions vastly different from my emotions, if that makes sense?   Hoping for some clarification on this??? Thank you.  

[nivek]

On ‎5‎/‎29‎/‎2017 at 2:03 PM, pug said:

Yes, it will feel like a miracle when it happens for you; and it will happen for you, it is just a matter of time.  I want to get that out there first thing; it is my belief that we will all heal in time; it has happened for me and is continuing to happen and it will happen for you.  Am I completely 100% done healing?  No.  Am I so, so much better?  Oh yes!  Now for some basics:

 

Male, mid 50s, took zoloft for over 20 year, quit cold turkey 3.5 years ago, was off 5 months, thought I was relapsing, so started prozac for 3.5 months and then quit that cold turkey.  Then I found S.A. and discovered what I was dealing with was not a relapse but withdrawal (and recovery).  So yes, I did everything completely wrong and more than once!  I am proof that given time we can heal.

 

I currently just celebrated 30 months of being drug free.  Now, how to begin to describe the inhumane torture that I have endured until very recently; not sure but I will try.  I have gone through both the windows and waves pattern and the continuous misery pattern.  I was one of those that suffered a great deal after quitting, but really got slammed at about 6 months off.  At 1 year I was barely functioning; at 1.5 years I was still miserable, and at 2 years off I was wondering if I was doomed to endless suffering with no end.  But now as I have hit the 2.5 year mark I feel as if I have turned the corner.

 

Windows and waves general comprised the first year and then it became continuous misery for pretty much the next 6 to 12 months or more; and then back to windows and waves.  My last serious wave was in months 25-26 and now finally what feels like solid progress the last month or so.  I am hesitant to list symptoms because I know how much it use to scare me to read what others were going through; but on the other hand it really helped when a new symptom would start, because I knew it was part of the recovery process and not some disease or sickness, and most of these are gone or have become minimal although they lasted for months or years.  And just because I experienced them does not mean that you will, we all have a very individual road to recovery; so here they are in no specific order:

 

Dark depression, anxiety, paranoia, obsessive compulsive, panic attacks, intrusive/obsessive thoughts that tortured me, hopelessness, irrational thinking, suicidal thoughts, brain zaps, intense organic fear, severe inner-body tension that felt like my whole insides were clamped up, sexual dysfunction, severe tension, tremors and pain in the back of my legs and calves, terrible shoulder and upper arm pain, mania, extreme bloating and stomach pain, nausea, dizziness, vertigo, feeling like my brain was on fire, feeling like a part of my brain was missing, feeling like a bomb had gone off in my head, floating head feeling, super-hot face, body temperature regulation problems – being super-hot or cold, constipation, dehydration, lack of appetite and weight loss, feeling dead, anhedonia, akathisia, mood swings, insomnia, terrible brain fog and inability to think clearly, sensitive vision and hearing, inching and burning skin, cold like symptoms, head congestion, phantom smells, constant tinnitus, severe fatigue and exhaustion, health anxiety, I could not read, listen to music, or meditate, heart palpitations, random traveling aching and stabbing pain throughout my body, headaches, and so many other symptoms that I can’t remember.  The torture, pain, misery, suffering and utter despair was never ending…until it did finally start to end for me and it will for you too.

 

Did anything help me along the way?  I tried many things; acupuncture, vitamins and supplements, alpha-stim, gluten free diet, no sugar diet, no caffeine, no alcohol, and anything else I could do to try and feel better.  Did it work?  In a sense it all worked because it kept me focused on recovery and gave me hope when I had none, and the possibility that I might feel better.  But time passing has been the real healing agent; although that was the last thing I wanted to hear when I was suffering so intensely.  I did find that mindfulness, breathing exercises and physical exercise helped when all else failed and I was so truly desperate.  Many hours were spent just trying to pay attention to my breath going in and out; and I still use this practice as a relaxation method.  It also helped me greatly to visit this website daily as well as Benzo-Buddies.  I read success stories for hours at a time, read the Bloom in Wellness facebook page each day and anything by Baylissa Frederick and also Don Killian.

 

So, what remains for me?  I still have tinnitus (although it has gotten much better over the last month), stomach bloating and pain on occassion, nerve pain, some brain zaps at night, fatigue and tiredness, and sleep issues.  If I had to put some percentages on where I am at now I would say physically I am at about 85-90% healed and mentally/emotionally at 90-95% healed.  I now eat anything that I choose although I eat as healthily as possible because I value life so much now and I want to live as long as possible; I exercise regularly and it feels wonderful; I enjoy caffeinated drinks including regular tea and coffee which I had given up for many months; I also drink wine and beer a couple times a week if I choose to and enjoy it.  I am in the best shape since high school, and have lost 75 pounds (on purpose). Life is good again and just the simple things are more than enough to bring joy and happiness.

 

So that is my story and I hope it will encourage you as you read it that you will recover and become yourself again.  I remember reading similar statements in success stories and thinking, “Yea, right, that is easy for you to say, you are not suffering through this terrible hell right now!”  And maybe you are thinking the same thing as I did, but please listen to my words; you will make it, you will recover, you will feel better, and you will join me in loving life once again; just please don’t give up or give in and keep going!

 

As I sit here with a cup of coffee and contemplate what I have been through the last several years, it all seems so strange and foreign.  Success stories promised that I would make it to recovery, and they were right, so now it is my turn to tell you that you will make it, “You will make it!”.  Wishing everyone here all the best and a quick recovery.  Please let me know if you have any questions and I will be happy to try and help.

 

All my love.

 

Pug

hey pug.....just love your story gives me hope.....i'm 28 months into this horrible nightmare started 1 -13 -15......I suffer 85% of what you posted re what wd stuff you endured. I'm so happy that your recovery is going well.....The thing that scares me the most is a psychiatrist took me off Zyprexa & Lexapro alternating dose cuts every 30 days( I got so damn sick and he felt it was not wd and that I needed new drugs... glad I refused) took 8 mo to get off Zyprexa & 14 to get off Lexapro. Hope I will not experience a double whammy from that. I have been very ill lost 55 lbs in 22 months. I'm about 30 lbs under weight. Now at 28 months I feel just a shade better then I did....but this recovery is not quick enough for me. Hope to start feeling better real soon.....TY for the HOPE!!!!! Nivek 

 

[Happy2Heal]

On 5/29/2017 at 2:03 PM, pug said:

 

 

 

so that is my story and I hope it will encourage you as you read it that you will recover and become yourself again.  I remember reading similar statements in success stories and thinking, “Yea, right, that is easy for you to say, you are not suffering through this terrible hell right now!”  And maybe you are thinking the same thing as I did, but please listen to my words; you will make it, you will recover, you will feel better, and you will join me in loving life once again; just please don’t give up or give in and keep going!

 

As I sit here with a cup of coffee and contemplate what I have been through the last several years, it all seems so strange and foreign.  Success stories promised that I would make it to recovery, and they were right, so now it is my turn to tell you that you will make it, “You will make it!”.  Wishing everyone here all the best and a quick recovery.  Please let me know if you have any questions and I will be happy to try and help.

 

All my love.

 

Pug

 

 

I thought I had posted my congratulations but I don't see that post, hrmmm

Maybe I didn't, my memory is not so good

I am so happy for you, and so thankful that you wrote this for those of us still waiting to reach the point where you are.

 

I cried at the thought of being able to drink coffee again, I miss it so much. I miss having just reg tea with caffeine in it, right now all I can drink is this flavorless herbal crap lol

 

Your story is esp encouraging to me, since I"ve been on SSRi's for about 20yrs , it's good to hear that long term 'users' can make it thru this, and even when there are two CTs involved.

I did a couple of those myself, one from a high dose and one from a very low dose.

 

I hope you know and appreciate how strong you are to have gotten thru this. I think we are all very impressive people, when I think of us collectively, going thru many of the same trials and difficulties and making it thru day after day.

 

thank you for posting your story and for being available to answer questions, I have a couple but I am not ready to hear the answer so I will save them for a day when I am feeling stronger

;-)

 

[AmyK]

Pug, it is so inspiring and uplifting to read your story. Thankyou, and thankyou again! 

I wish you all the best in discovering life again.