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On 23 November 2019 at 10:10 PM, Shane88L said:

Rupa, how fantastic! 😃 Very happy for you!

Thank you Shane.

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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On 20 November 2019 at 7:21 AM, hayduke said:

Glad things are improving for you Rupa.

 

On 23 November 2019 at 10:10 PM, Shane88L said:

Rupa, how fantastic! 😃 Very happy for you!

Thank you hayduke and shane.

I wish you all speedy recovery.

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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No visible remembrance of getting caught into dreams,unwanted or involuntary thought process, hallucinations, any kind of sleep disturbance from 10 days consiquently.

Just waking up from good night sleep just like that.

Only thing feeling little abnormal about sleep stretch time.

It is never 8 hours. 

It is like 4,5,6 non stop. 

Once got up , there is no continuity of sleep.

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Hi Rupa! So nice to hear your update!  I look forward to when glo no longer has the confusion between what is real and what are dreams/memories.  This seems to be getting better for her,  but I know her 'confusion' can occur during the day, not just upon waking.  I do think it is getting better, so it is nice to know that you have had 10 days of clear separation of sleep and dream like state.  I hope long stretches of sleep returns soon, so that you are sleeping closer to 7 to 8 hours at a time, instead of 4 to 6.  

 

Sending many good thoughts your way!  Glosmom

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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5 hours ago, Glosmom said:

Hi Rupa! So nice to hear your update!  I look forward to when glo no longer has the confusion between what is real and what are dreams/memories.  This seems to be getting better for her,  but I know her 'confusion' can occur during the day, not just upon waking.  I do think it is getting better, so it is nice to know that you have had 10 days of clear separation of sleep and dream like state.  I hope long stretches of sleep returns soon, so that you are sleeping closer to 7 to 8 hours at a time, instead of 4 to 6.  

 

Sending many good thoughts your way!  Glosmom

😙

Rebirth

😃

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Hi @rupa, How are you doing?   I believe you have passed your one year mark and was hoping all is still going okay.  If it is, would love for you to consider writing your Success Story.   Glo is hanging in there.  Still windows and waves, but seeing new improvements here and there.  Again, hoping you are well!  Best Wishes, Glosmom

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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11 hours ago, Glosmom said:

Hi @rupa, How are you doing?   I believe you have passed your one year mark and was hoping all is still going okay.  If it is, would love for you to consider writing your Success Story.   Glo is hanging in there.  Still windows and waves, but seeing new improvements here and there.  Again, hoping you are well!  Best Wishes, Glosmom

Hiya Glo's Momma,

Hope you are taking care of yourself along with Ms Glo as well.

Yes ma, I am feeling absolutely well.

I do not even remember , when is the last time I had dream or involuntary thought process.

I am including more sprouts and fruit in my daily diet, along with light carbs and lot of veggies, by limiting animal protien.

I am giving time to gardening, house keeping, over all self care etc.

I am still struggling to concentrate on work and money earning ,saving related duties like studying stock market etc.

For example , I need to read money related calculations and information several times to understand better , without getting other intrusive thoughts.

I am not stressing my mind.I am giving enough time to heal it.

Hope Ms Glo would reach sooth point soon.

Thank you from my bottom of the heart for being there.

With much love

😙

I would hope you would Visit India ma ,along with Healed Glo.

 

 

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Oh, that is great that you are doing well and taking care of yourself!  Now dear Rupa,  doing the Stock Market and financial calculations causes issues for MOST people (even those who are not in withdrawal).  :)  So if that is your last issue then, I agree, you ARE doing well! So happy for you!!

 

Yes, I am taking care of myself too.  It is winter here (but fortunately it hasn't been an awful winter) the days are getting longer so the promise of Spring makes me very happy!  Thank you for the invite to, India!!  One day I just may take a visit there.  And if you are to ever come to our beautiful United States of America, you will have to visit me and healed Glo (once we get her healed.. I am hoping it is just around the corner for her)!!  

 

Again, so happy you are well.  Don't forget to write your Success Story so you can inspire more people.  Warmest Regards, Glosmom

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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I am sleeping 10 pm to 10 am these days!

Feeling sooth and happy.

So I am not restricting it.

It seems brain is taking all the natural sleep it lost all these prolonged months.

Getting dreams became very rare and they are seeming very natural kind of dream.

When I look back into the past,this entire scenario is miraculous.

If I would not find this site, at right time ,I would not be alive.

Kudos to management and the staff and the volunteers of this site.

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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So happy for you, Rupa! I can't wait to read your success story in the future!!!

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin C, D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 
Message me here if you want: 
https://www.facebook.com/morra.lal.3/  I've been getting a lot of fake friend requests, so please send a message before friend requesting me, thank you!

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19 hours ago, Armorall said:

So happy for you, Rupa! I can't wait to read your success story in the future!!!

Armorall,

How are you feeling now? 

Is sleep good, any day time discomfort with symptoms?

Thank you for your wishes.

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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During the day, I've been in a window for the last two days. The week before, I was in a fatigue wave- just slept through the night, slept after work, tired at work. This week, I'm in an insomnia wave at night (or so I think). When I'm in an insomnia wave, I can nap, but I do get hypnic jerks and some slight pangs of anxiety, but I still do it. Sleep at night is like I go to bed at 10:30pm, sleep until 1:30am, get up then take .3 melatonin, then sleep until until 6:30am, wake up before my 6:50am alarm and start sweating, mild fuzzy cortisol anxiety pours in. But yesterday during the day, I was good, symptom-less the whole day, same with today, had a good day at work. 

Thanks for asking, I hope to see improvements as I enter month six. 

3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking vitamin C, D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. 
Message me here if you want: 
https://www.facebook.com/morra.lal.3/  I've been getting a lot of fake friend requests, so please send a message before friend requesting me, thank you!

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Been on cold medication , levo citrazine and fexofenadine.

Used approax 40 days.

After using 10 days, sleep became deep and long hours.

After 40 days stopped.

Sleep reduced to 4,5 hours.

Cold or allergy controlled.

Then sciatica occured.

Lower lumbar.

Did not use any medicines by thinking some thing weird happening.

May be brain still in the process of rewiring, just a thought.

So sciatica healed with lot of water and kimia date diet.

Then on 26/2/20 , right eye at upper , inside the eye lid, there was a white flash some time.

Then next day healed.

Then today I am getting a dark floater in the right eye, which illusioning a rat running in the floor kind of.

After one hour settled.

Any way I will go and get thorough eye check including glaukoma., which I did 4 months back and eyes are absolutely fine then.

So am believing still body is in the part of recovery.

After finish the recovery of each lobe at the brain , now every part of the body one or other thing happening.

I am not sure how logical it is.

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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HI Rupa!  Dang....sounds like you have been "through the wringer"  :(  So sorry to hear that.  I don't know either but it makes perfect sense to me that  maybe most of your brain has healed but there are still issues with receptors/hormones/organs that are more physical in nature, but still related to withdrawal.  I hope you feel better soon and all these ailments heal in time. 

 

It is great to hear from you!!  Glo has actually taken a slight turn for the better in the last week....I am not going to assume all is well, yet, but it is good to see her sleeping better and be in a better mood more often.  Baby steps.... but we are getting there and are so grateful to you for all of your support through this process!! 

Hugs, Glosmom

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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On 29 February 2020 at 1:10 AM, Glosmom said:

HI Rupa!  Dang....sounds like you have been "through the wringer"  :(  So sorry to hear that.  I don't know either but it makes perfect sense to me that  maybe most of your brain has healed but there are still issues with receptors/hormones/organs that are more physical in nature, but still related to withdrawal.  I hope you feel better soon and all these ailments heal in time. 

 

It is great to hear from you!!  Glo has actually taken a slight turn for the better in the last week....I am not going to assume all is well, yet, but it is good to see her sleeping better and be in a better mood more often.  Baby steps.... but we are getting there and are so grateful to you for all of your support through this process!! 

Hugs, Glosmom

Hi Glosmom

Dear , it is really seems long process.

Unless physical brain effects, we should not touch the brain at all with medication.

There was this flush of libido few months back, I was clueless to ,what to do,  then for some reason it happened ,i could not clean pubic hairs, then i noticed libido regulated naturally.

Thought , if I mention it here, this thought may be useful to them, who are facing libido issues.

Now, I have given a thought that, there is some connection between hormones and the hair.

There must be some reason budhism and ancient hinduism practised shaved head to gain better brain strength to concentrate on learning skills.

I am very glad, that, Ms Glo could reach zero and progressing.

Please take care of you too.

Having plenty of kimia dates, more water, veg, all fruit, choclates, ice creams , curds mixed with water, some times, occassionally non veg , rice, oats , indian snakes.

What i mean to say appetite is intact.

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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on 07.02.20

There was this feeling and physical discomfort that sensing skull and the organ brain.

It sensed with a kind of ache, along  the bounderies of the brain.

Applied plenty of luke warm pure coconut oil, which we believe and practise for scalp health by tradition here.

Then it disappeared.

Sleep is good.

Unable to nap after noon.

After noon naps are not deep.

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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It's been long time , skull sensitivity occurred.

Two inch above the straight left ear.

When I mention, skull sensitivity, it locates in one place , like surrounded by halo.

It lasts few hours.

I guess , while at deep sleep, some activity happens the brain, which out comes as skull sensitivity , as if little lava spreading inside.

I believe it's some adjustment process.

Waiting for when it lasts.

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Hope each and every member of our site , also each and every moderator of our site and all near and dear safe in this world's pandemic time.

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Hoping you are staying safe and healthy too, Rupa!  

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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Yes Mam Glos Mom,

Sleep is 7 hours undisturbed.

Not a sign of dream disturbance.

Little issue remained.

Involuntary thoughts before waking up from the sleep, half an hour.

Curd, turmeric, veg curries and fruit salads helping alot, Even rice.

Sciatica 80% cured.

Never have a habit of tea and coffee.

 

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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  • 3 weeks later...

Wow.

Was napping from 2pm to 5 pm, uninterepted, deep like before meds.

Even a sweet dream at wake up time.

Was working household from 8 am to 2pm.

Body unknowingly went into napping for a little  resting attempt.

Wow.

Even before meds, never had the intention of napping day time.

I used to avoid napping wantedly.

Today, it's pure precious, divine like an auspicious ritual.

Feeling so good and refreshing.

As if , life is beautiful.

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Hi Rupa,

How's your condition now? Any improvements in your dream state? 

March 2013 -April 2013 citalopram 5 mg/Clonazepam 0.5 mg/ Beta blockers

April 2013- June 2013 I was not taking any meds, feeling worst

June 2013 -Dec 2013 Fluxetine 20 mg

Dec 2013 Feb 2014 i was not taking meds

Feb 2014 - Jan 2016 - on and off the paroxitine 12.5 as I was not aware these were harmful drugs

As I left the drugs 3 year back so I don't remeber the exact date but tried to recall it as a best match

Jan2016- till now not taking any drugs

Syntoms- Quality sleep, brain feel tired but improving If I compare from past years

 

 

 

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On 24 May 2020 at 9:44 PM, Usha said:

Hi Rupa,

How's your condition now? Any improvements in your dream state? 

Yes, Usha, It seems brain healed completely.

I am experiencing,Re birth kind of happiness, after a long time struggle of the brain.

Taking lot of veg , green leafy veg ,fruit  and dry fruit mixing juices every day.

Along with my favourite south Indian carb items.

Sleep is deep and peaceful.

Rarely dreaming, which are very pleasant kind of natural dream kind.

Made my bed room interior very pleasant.

Near and Dear are very cooperating and helpful to the process.

The good part is, mind is concentrating on peaceful things.

Mind is filtering garbage thoughts which are unnecessary for me and others.

All those months of struggle, I was listening to simple OM chanting of Dhyan Guru of youtube.

Now , I am starting my day with Brahma Kumaris , Hindi version, Om Shanthi om, I am a peaceful soul.When ever I am not watching movie or korean soaps, I am keep listening Brahma Kumari Mam Shivani's meditation prayer.

Made a habit of 1 hour Elliptical exercise.

Still slight lower back disc bulge is there, taking bed rest too, to heal that.

Taking D vitamin and Folic acid injections for disc bulge.

I am including all kind of veg, fruit, greens and nuts.

Rarely I am having chicken, eggs, fish,mutton.

Feeling sorry to consume non veg, at the mind level.

So I Am not attempting to take.

Enjoying gardening, talk time with friends.

Enjoying helping needy,by showing some self employment for them, by making sure they earn some money by gardening, household help etc.

Educated any way capable of self employment.

Made a habit of afternoon nap.

Why not?

Long time ,brain suffered without sleep.

So am letting it enjoy sleep.

Even though after napping , every night 9pm to 6 am sleep is intact and deep and pleasant.

Oh usha, How precious these small things in life...!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Yes Thanks Rupa for sharing your experience. I don't have any option rather than waiting for my brain to heal by its own. I dnt have courage for again taking meds and make experiment for reinstatement ( which is most likely to fail as I m 3 years off the drug)when I am.not taking meds from 3 years. My all symtoms are gone, just my sleep is not fully improved every night i feel hypnogogic hallucinations and distorted and rubbish thoughts after that i drift off to sleep. If I found this group at the time when I was taking antidepressants , I could have tapering the dose just like you.

March 2013 -April 2013 citalopram 5 mg/Clonazepam 0.5 mg/ Beta blockers

April 2013- June 2013 I was not taking any meds, feeling worst

June 2013 -Dec 2013 Fluxetine 20 mg

Dec 2013 Feb 2014 i was not taking meds

Feb 2014 - Jan 2016 - on and off the paroxitine 12.5 as I was not aware these were harmful drugs

As I left the drugs 3 year back so I don't remeber the exact date but tried to recall it as a best match

Jan2016- till now not taking any drugs

Syntoms- Quality sleep, brain feel tired but improving If I compare from past years

 

 

 

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20 minutes ago, Usha said:

Yes Thanks Rupa for sharing your experience. I don't have any option rather than waiting for my brain to heal by its own. I dnt have courage for again taking meds and make experiment for reinstatement ( which is most likely to fail as I m 3 years off the drug)when I am.not taking meds from 3 years. My all symtoms are gone, just my sleep is not fully improved every night i feel hypnogogic hallucinations and distorted and rubbish thoughts after that i drift off to sleep. If I found this group at the time when I was taking antidepressants , I could have tapering the dose just like you.

Usha , Dear, I am glad about you that , your, all other withdrawal symptoms have subsided.

I can better understand your pain, that I came walked those paths.

Every withdrawal symptom is as painful as the other.

No symptom is less painful.

Now your concentration should be ,on , getting healed from this sleep , dream problem.

I remember , I was listening to simple OM chanting without much orchestra in the back ground, to get the brain trained to think , what I say.

So whole day , whole night simple Om was playing preventing brain to think chaos.

I remember , the diet and every nutrition helped me to heal the physical brain.

Warm milk with turmeric helped to get less disturbed sleep.

I am the one , who believe in the recovery, irrespective of the time period of the suffering.

What made me to bring hope to my belief?

Aeroman , Brass Monkey, Mam Altostrata, you name them,

Yes, there are N number of experiences , lives in this our own beloved forum, who recovered and reached normality.

So will you Usha.

Much love from Hyderabad , south India.

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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@rupa It's so good to read about your quality and enjoyment of life post taper 🙂

 

Cheers,

Hayduke

I am not a health professional - your actions are your own.  

Please do not seek tapering support via private message - "Any reason to hold is a good one"

My taper visualised as a graph   |   My intro thread

Backdrop:  2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | end 2014 3wks aripiprazole

2015: olanzapine  10 -> 7½ -> 6⅔ -> 5mg  by crude pill cutter

2018:  Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold

Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration -> Jan 2020 1.214  -> Jan 2021 0.44 -> 2 Oct 0.205 ->3 Oct ZERO🥂

Jun 2023 💉150mg paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk after Jul 100mg Aug-Dec 75mg/4wks

Jul 2023 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^

Jan-Feb 2024 cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone

 

Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you"  -- KMFDM

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32 minutes ago, hayduke said:

@rupa It's so good to read about your quality and enjoyment of life post taper 🙂

 

Cheers,

Hayduke

Hayduke,

I am looking forward for your reaching zero.

Thank you for the kind words.

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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@rupathanks for giving me hope. But sometimes i wonder it's already been 3 years will my brain heal fully. I m very much frustrated with this hypnogogic hallucinations.

March 2013 -April 2013 citalopram 5 mg/Clonazepam 0.5 mg/ Beta blockers

April 2013- June 2013 I was not taking any meds, feeling worst

June 2013 -Dec 2013 Fluxetine 20 mg

Dec 2013 Feb 2014 i was not taking meds

Feb 2014 - Jan 2016 - on and off the paroxitine 12.5 as I was not aware these were harmful drugs

As I left the drugs 3 year back so I don't remeber the exact date but tried to recall it as a best match

Jan2016- till now not taking any drugs

Syntoms- Quality sleep, brain feel tired but improving If I compare from past years

 

 

 

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4 hours ago, Usha said:

@rupathanks for giving me hope. But sometimes i wonder it's already been 3 years will my brain heal fully. I m very much frustrated with this hypnogogic hallucinations.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/49-☼-about-altostrata-withdrawal-syndrome-since-2004/?do=findComment&comment=452190
 

And

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?app=core&module=system&controller=redirect&url=http://survivingantidepressants.org/topic/49-about-altostrata-withdrawal-syndrome-since-2004/&key=332bed557d41b906e89c723460ba3103f8c0362ab41e1db8a9d7cc9339b7156f&resource=
 

Usha , you know what, after 15 years she has recovered completely.

I remember reading all the threads, one after one , at my tough times.

It seems you are feeling heavy towards the time.

I was too.

At those heavy times, this divine site helped me to keep hope.

No one is alone.

We are all together in this battle.

Battle between mind and the physical brain.

Physical brain would be healed, it is evident.

Our very frustration Is all about the battle between positive and the negative feelings of the mind.

Every day, every moment we should let the positive mind to defeat the negative side and it’s prompting.

Time is nothing Usha.

We should think about life, timeless , momentary life.

Every moment we should prompt the mind that , if this is your last moment of life , what will you do?

Just live like this very existence is all about physical brain.

Keep the mind to look at the brain, as if any other organ, just we can touch, cannot think with that organ.  
Accept every moment, keep reading the site, with composed heart.

Keep writing in your thread, your recovery process and success story will get hope and light into fellow members.

As always, my hats off to the Administrators of surviving antidepressants dot org

I pray every day for our fellow members too.

 

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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I was prescribed a painkiller for 15 days, which contains paracetamol .Also ,D vitamin and folic acid Injections,for weekly once.

Thursday, 15 days finished for painkiller intake.

Friday and saturday peaceful.

Sunday and monday, sleep disturbance started with dreams again.

Whole night deprived of deep sleep, unable to wake up until 10 am , same nonsense again at wake up time dreams.

BP 125/85 above and 130/90 below , consequently from 3 weeks.

Not sure, whether  to start BP medication for life or not?

If started, how the BP medication effect on this brain?At present scenario?

It seems , simple pain killers for lower back too effected on the 3 years sensitive brain of these brain drugs.

Now , I am totally confused, what medication to take , what to avoid for life time?

 

 

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Hi Rupa!  Sorry to hear about your back pain, slightly elevated blood pressure and now..the return of sleep disturbance. :(  Seems logical to me that your pain killer could have easily sent you into a wave or brought on your sleep issues.   I hope your sleep resolves soon!   You are still only a year and 1/2 out from getting of your antipsychotic.  Hopefully, the entire rest of your life will NOT be disrupted whenever you have to take a medicine. A year and 1/2 is not really all that long in terms of withdrawal healing.  

 

Your blood pressure seems slightly elevated....but you said only for 3 weeks?  Pain can cause someone's blood pressure to go up.  Have you had issues with your blood pressure in the past?  Could you wait a bit to see if this turns into a chronic issue?  Could there be other reasons for the increase? (increased salt in diet, weight gain, supplements,etc..)

 

I will be thinking of you.  Don't react in haste, whatever you do. Take your time on any decision where you consider taking more medication....no matter the cause.

 

Best Wishes, Glosmom

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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6 hours ago, Glosmom said:

Hi Rupa!  Sorry to hear about your back pain, slightly elevated blood pressure and now..the return of sleep disturbance. :(  Seems logical to me that your pain killer could have easily sent you into a wave or brought on your sleep issues.   I hope your sleep resolves soon!   You are still only a year and 1/2 out from getting of your antipsychotic.  Hopefully, the entire rest of your life will NOT be disrupted whenever you have to take a medicine. A year and 1/2 is not really all that long in terms of withdrawal healing.  

 

Your blood pressure seems slightly elevated....but you said only for 3 weeks?  Pain can cause someone's blood pressure to go up.  Have you had issues with your blood pressure in the past?  Could you wait a bit to see if this turns into a chronic issue?  Could there be other reasons for the increase? (increased salt in diet, weight gain, supplements,etc..)

 

I will be thinking of you.  Don't react in haste, whatever you do. Take your time on any decision where you consider taking more medication....no matter the cause.

 

Best Wishes, Glosmom

 

Your words are alot to me.

 

Yes, last night , again sleep is intact, deep and no sign of dreams and disturbance.

So it took a week to settle.

In 20 years of span, I have combated with, worst L4 L5 disc bulge about 3 times.

Last 2 times, I was into only intake of processed Dates diet with only plenty of water.,Along with D vitamin injections, which healed me within 3 months with strict bed rest.

This time , i do not want to put pressure on my brain with fasting, so  I am giving greens, veg, fruit juices mixed.

Savouring almost everything like a connoisseur.

Obviously , put on weight.

Recently started using elyptical again , where I can comfortably sit and byke.

 

All these 20 years, I was checking Bp and blood sugar levels , every six months.

Nothing ever.

You sound logical, my lower back is in too much discomfort this time.

So I will wait and see on BP.

Along with lifestyle changes.

Yes, I will be very careful on medication.

You mean alot to me.

I always hope, you Please take care of the self too.

 

 

 

 

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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On 6/2/2020 at 10:38 PM, rupa said:

You mean alot to me.

I always hope, you Please take care of the self too.

 

Thank you, Rupa!  You mean a lot to me too.  You gave me hope for Glo's healing as you recounted your healing journey. It has been invaluable to me!  Take care of you too!! Glosmom

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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No sleep from last three days.

Taking care to reduce blood pressure numbers from a week, through ,zero added salt to diet.

This is reducing sleep and brain not resting.

Brain is habituated to sleep on south indian hot and heavy spices, like Biryani etc.

Thus sleeps like a baby.

Now, no salt , no spices, no red chilli.

Blood pressure numbers reduced to 123/85 regularly.

Back pain healed by 6 week D vitamin and folic acid injections.

Taking multi vitamin with c vitamin content more.

May be taking vitamins at afternoon is advisable.

Taking vitamins night might increasing the brain activity.

Brain started worrying , negligence and careless behaviour of neighbouring ladies sister who comes rare to my place.

Whole night brain tolling on why she shouldnt she friendly and less ignoring to people etc.

Then got up and watched sister shivanis vedio in youtube.

Which says, peoples behaviour is their problem.

You are not the problem , to unfriendly people, they are in problem, so they cannot be happy with the world.

Then felt like slept an hour.

What I mean to say,

Brain back to before meds state.

Only difference is , life handling ideas and situations got better.

Participated in an international art event and got selected, they mailed.

This has given a boost and brain constantly thinking of work on some themes and bring those ideas into painting form.

Art always been the only passion but never this clear to actually work on the canvas like at the teenage.

Dont know how this confidence  and clarity of mind emerged to act towards some creativity.

Everything seeming and interesting like rebirth.

Made home transform with in budget or effordable buyings.

Previously everything was pesimistic.

Bought different color clothes and wearing every day

Previously it was only black

Bathing is no more a tough task.

Spending time to beautifying face features at the mirror.

Never looked into the mirror for twenty years.

Dusting , cleaning , gardening, caring home interior ,these all became a part of daily life.

Contentment with what I have is the mazor change in the brain.

No complaints no depression no sadness.

 

 

 

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Hope you are all taking necessary safety measures in this covid19 pandemic conditions.

It is seeming,I have started sleeping sound at nights and afternoon naps.

No sign of any other symptoms.

Backpain completely got relief by using D vitamin and folic acid injections.

No sign of Blood pressure.

Constantly BP numbers are 117/75.

Reduced salt and hot peppers intake.

Increased oats,bananas and fish in diet.

So did not start BP medication.

Life is seeming good in all aspects.

I wish the same to you all, with time pasess by.

You all please stay safe.

Feeling sad about the families of positive covid 19.

 

Cold turkeyed risperidone (1m.g)and trihexyphenidyl combination drug out of ignorance,In August 2016 after one month use.

Withdrawal symptoms settled at dreamful,disturbing sleep.

Thus introduced to olanzapine for sleep.Started using olanzapine out of ignorance.

Tapering olanzapine 10 m.g from February 2017.

May 2018 :Still suffering dreams,Still tapering olanzapine at 0.625.100ml water+2.5 mg olanzapine. June 2018 22.5ml=0.57mg.July 2018 20ml,August 2018-17.5ml,September 2018-15ml,October 2018 10 ml,December 2018 7 ml, BrassMonkey slide method so far at lower doses.2 nd December cold turkeyed , only to reach minure doses as reinstatement to cutshort endless tapering process.4rth December started 1ml.

Almost no symptoms and sleep is better,So started 0.5 ml from 17-12-2018.

"0"from31-12-18.Re birth happened from 10- 2020,as rejuvenation took whole2019.Completely recovered now.

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Hi @rupa ! So good to hear from you.   Also wonderful to hear that you are sleeping well, your blood pressure is good and you didn't have to take any medicine for it!!  So happy you are doing well, even during this crazy COVID 19 time.   Do you have any links to your artwork or pictures?  If you do and you don't want to share on here, please share with me via direct message. I would love to see your work!

 

Glo is hanging in there and doing a bit better. She still has quite a ways to go to get back to her 'normal' self. But the good news is, she is improving every month.  I hope to be able to post soon on progress she is making. 

 

Again so good to hear from you!!  Take care, friend! Glosmom

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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