Littlegrandma

[Littlegrandma]

4 minutes ago, kangamangus said:

Sorry to hear that  You aren't an idiot for doing what the hospital said, don't even say that. You needed help and did what any person would do, listen to their doctor. It's so not your fault. I'm sorry for what you're going through. I can really relate though. My updose is going okay, my depression levels are down a little bit, but my DP/DR and physical symptoms are ramping up a bit. Nothing I can't handle so far. Hang in there, you are in my thoughts. 

Thanks Kang

glad you're getting some relief. 

Oh, the D/P D/R is so awful. Hope is settles down for you soon, now!!

hugs, littlegrandma 

[Littlegrandma]

I really need advice from a mod, please. It's only been 19 days now since my lexapro was reduced by 50% to 5 mg.

i have horrible anxiety and .5 Ativan barely takes the edge off. My headaches are milder but am nauseous and very foggy. The symptoms seem to come from W/D from Ativan. Oh, I don't know. After I originally went down in dose on the lexapro, I would at least get relief from the anxiety in the evening. Now it's relentless. 

I know I haven't given it very much time but at this point I am so worried about all the drugs that I've added since my original attempt to taper lexapro on June 2

(Ativan .5 x 3 day and metoprolol 

25 mg x 1 day. 

I want to taper the Ativan. Maybe go inpatient to get off of it. I just want off since it's only been a couple months since it was introduced. I just don't want to worry about it later. 

Im suffering anyway. I just want these poisons out of me!!!! 

I am so confused. Scared. Need some advice please before I pull the plug on these meds. 

Thanks, lg

[bubble]

I'm sorry to hear you continue to struggle.

 

Unfortunately even decreasing Ativan let alone stopping it altogether is a very, very bad idea. Inpatient is not going to do anything. They just strip people of drugs fast and send them home to suffer (frequently adding more drugs)

 

The real trouble starts a few days and weeks later and goes on for months. You really don't want to go there. Things can get so much worse.

 

Since you say that you reduced Lexapro by 50 % I would rather updose Lexapro for 1 mg maybe.

 

The other day I read a message from son of one of our members who cold turkeyed her drug when she got impatient and she's been bed ridden and unable to communicate so her son had to write for her. These drugs are very, very dangerous. There is really no way to be nice about it. We just have to take them seriously.

 

There is a subsection on benzos on this forum so you can get an opinion on your Ativan use there.

 

You will get better. Just avoid any rash decisions.

[Littlegrandma]

Thank you so much Bubble. 

Just desperate, as we all are. 

I did try updosing a few months back and all hell broke lose. That's when I ended up at Mayo. 

So, do you think the best thing is to just hang where I'm at (5mg) and wait to stabilize?

i am so angry with myself for adding Ativan. Do I stay with that til the lexapro is gone completely?

that may take years! 

Thank you, lg

[bubble]

If updosing made you feel worse I woyld stay here (typing from my phone so can't see the drug history but will study it as soon as I can).

 

I wouldn't worry about Ativan at the moment. It's not much consolation but I went on a such high dose of benzo when I reinstated Lexapro that I will now miss my childbearing years to long taper to two drugs. But trying to taper any faster makes my life unbearable. Our situations are very, very hard but we just have to accept them and take all the little mercies we get with gratitude. Spending a day taking care of grandchildren, even if struggling and things like that.

 

You will see what to do about Ativan once you stabilise. You can taper it before Lexapro since you weren't taking it so long. Another month or two won't make much difference.

 

Maybe you are just being hit by a wave which makes it look like there has been no progress but we saw there was. That's why journaling symptoms is so important. Our brain just distorts the picture.

 

Hang in there and hoping for a relief soon. Must check on the rest of the crowd: Scorpio and JS. Haven't seen them around for a while...

[Littlegrandma]

Bubble I have read your story and have the utmost respect for you and your opinion. I am so sorry for everything you have been through. 

I do try to not whine too much, but some days it is so overwhelming. 

I do feel better w/ your saying maybe I can taper the Ativan in a month or two when stable on lex. 

  I've  w/d from xanax in the past. It was ugly. I am just so angry at myself for getting into it again. But I was desperate and thought it would be short term use. 

  I tried cutting lunesta a bit last night since I'm taking the Ativan anyway. BIG mistake!! That's probably why I'm so desperate, sick and needy today. 

Thanks for all you do for me and others while calmly living your own hell. I told you....  

you're my hero!

lg

[bubble]

Cutting Lunesta explains it!

 

And explains why cutting Ativan would be such a bad idea.

 

Whining is ok plus you didn't whine  I whine an awful lot. But my husband seems to have the sole 'privilige'. What helps me most is helping others. It at the same time allows me to stay with my symptoms and distract from them. I help most when I'm at my worst. When I'm better I'm away from the forum.

 

Anything that help (provided it doesn't harm the next day or a few months down the line like adding other drugs).

 

This thing teaches us patience the hard way, very hard. But that's why it's such an effecient teacher.

 

This will pass. You might still be wavey for a bit but you know why and it taught you a very valuable lesson.

[Littlegrandma]

Yep. Baby boomer. I want instant gratification.      😏Lg

[Littlegrandma]

I'm trying to be patient, but these symptoms are getting the best of me. 

I didn't have the horrible anxiety at 3am when I woke this morning, so I thought it was going to be a better day. But the migraine-like headache hit and it is relentless. Of course it comes with the nausea and eye pain. I keep thinking if I have a blood Mary or two, I'll be good as new. I'm kidding, of course, but this is like the worst hang over. I've taken Advil and Tylenol but neither touches it. Just makes stomach pains worse. Already feel like someone has taken a baseball bat to all of my organs. 

  It was 3 weeks yesterday since I went from 10 mg lexapro to 5 mg to get rid of the trembling. 

 I'm so afraid to go up at all again as that had catastrophic results last time. Do I just hold on? I know everyone is different, but how long is this going to last?  Seems to get worse rather than better. 

  The depression has hit me pretty hard and the d/p d/r. 

  Just looking for reassurance that things will settle down soon. I keep telling myself the headache is my brain healing.....and screaming at me for abusing it for so long!!

 Any thought? Anybody?

 Thanks, lg

 

And I can't even go outside. 96 outside right now. This is the 4th or 5 th day of record heat. And lexapro and heat are not a good combo for me. Between that and my eyes, I'm feeling so claustrophobic. Lg

[Scorpio]

1 hour ago, Littlegrandma said:

I'm trying to be patient, but these symptoms are getting the best of me. 

I didn't have the horrible anxiety at 3am when I woke this morning, so I thought it was going to be a better day. But the migraine-like headache hit and it is relentless. Of course it comes with the nausea and eye pain. I keep thinking if I have a blood Mary or two, I'll be good as new. I'm kidding, of course, but this is like the worst hang over. I've taken Advil and Tylenol but neither touches it. Just makes stomach pains worse. Already feel like someone has taken a baseball bat to all of my organs. 

  It was 3 weeks yesterday since I went from 10 mg lexapro to 5 mg to get rid of the trembling. 

 I'm so afraid to go up at all again as that had catastrophic results last time. Do I just hold on? I know everyone is different, but how long is this going to last?  Seems to get worse rather than better. 

  The depression has hit me pretty hard and the d/p d/r. 

  Just looking for reassurance that things will settle down soon. I keep telling myself the headache is my brain healing.....and screaming at me for abusing it for so long!!

 Any thought? Anybody?

 Thanks, lg

 

And I can't even go outside. 96 outside right now. This is the 4th or 5 th day of record heat. And lexapro and heat are not a good combo for me. Between that and my eyes, I'm feeling so claustrophobic. Lg

Hi lg

so sorry you are struggling with your terrible migraine. I am not sure if it's any help but my husband and daughter suffer with the same horrible condition and they take summatrapan which they get via the doctor but you can also buy over the counter here. It works for both of them and they take half a dose. How is your cold, any improvement as that won't help your symptoms either. I am 10 weeks of reinstating 1mg and like you very scared it won't get better but we do both get some, not many yet, but some better days so I think we have to sit it out. I know when I get those horrible pains in my head I also tell myself it us my brain recovering. For me it is the relentless anxiety and a lot of nausea that I find so hard .

it must be very uncomfortable for you in that heat, I don't have any ideas for that as we are not often subjected to that heat we spend more time moaning about the rain or how cold it is!  

[Littlegrandma]

10 minutes ago, Scorpio said:

Hi lg

so sorry you are struggling with your terrible migraine. I am not sure if it's any help but my husband and daughter suffer with the same horrible condition and they take summatrapan which they get via the doctor but you can also buy over the counter here. It works for both of them and they take half a dose. How is your cold, any improvement as that won't help your symptoms either. I am 10 weeks of reinstating 1mg and like you very scared it won't get better but we do both get some, not many yet, but some better days so I think we have to sit it out. I know when I get those horrible pains in my head I also tell myself it us my brain recovering. For me it is the relentless anxiety and a lot of nausea that I find so hard .

it must be very uncomfortable for you in that heat, I don't have any ideas for that as we are not often subjected to that heat we spend more time moaning about the rain or how cold it is!  

 

[Littlegrandma]

Ha. Yeah. Rarely happy with the weather in Illinois. But my husband says nothing makes me happy. I guess that's what depression is. 

  So , the summattrapan, is it just a pain reliever? I'll look it up. My girlfriend suffers migraines and her neurologist is trying different AD drugs on her the last few months. I begged her not to go that route. But her daughter is on 20 mg lex and her husband 30 mg. 

They are both slugs and I keep telling Lisa that's what the drug does. 

Ive never had head pain like this before w/d. I'm nauseous all the time but the migraine makes it so much worse. 

 My cold  is better. Thanks. Besides the stomach pain from w/d, I am so sore from coughing. Feels like I've been doing sit-ups but definitely not. Haha. I wish

  The pain has subsided a bit now. I just wish we knew how long it was going to take us both to stabilize. I'm getting very frustrated, as I know you are too!! 

  My son stopped by after work today. I couldn't even talk to him. I try to act strong around my kids but I couldn't stop crying. 

 Madelyn, my 4 1/2 yr old broke her arm last night. Glad it wasn't on my watch, but it still is a stress I don't need. Poor thing. She's got a cast from shoulder to fingers. She does look pretty cute tho. 

 How are you going to handle your next taper, when the time comes?

 Sorry to whine but thanks for listening and writing back. I was in such a desperate moment. But you're right. We do get windows. That's a good sign and I'm so grateful for those times. There's other people on this forum that I talk to that are having a much rougher time than me. It breaks my heart!! These damn drugs need to be outlawed. When I see a commercial for AD drugs, I just want to scream. It's greed. Money at the cost of the health of unsuspecting victims. 

 Thanks for letting me vent 😘 Lg

[Scorpio]

9 hours ago, Littlegrandma said:

Ha. Yeah. Rarely happy with the weather in Illinois. But my husband says nothing makes me happy. I guess that's what depression is. 

  So , the summattrapan, is it just a pain reliever? I'll look it up. My girlfriend suffers migraines and her neurologist is trying different AD drugs on her the last few months. I begged her not to go that route. But her daughter is on 20 mg lex and her husband 30 mg. 

They are both slugs and I keep telling Lisa that's what the drug does. 

Ive never had head pain like this before w/d. I'm nauseous all the time but the migraine makes it so much worse. 

 My cold  is better. Thanks. Besides the stomach pain from w/d, I am so sore from coughing. Feels like I've been doing sit-ups but definitely not. Haha. I wish

  The pain has subsided a bit now. I just wish we knew how long it was going to take us both to stabilize. I'm getting very frustrated, as I know you are too!! 

  My son stopped by after work today. I couldn't even talk to him. I try to act strong around my kids but I couldn't stop crying. 

 Madelyn, my 4 1/2 yr old broke her arm last night. Glad it wasn't on my watch, but it still is a stress I don't need. Poor thing. She's got a cast from shoulder to fingers. She does look pretty cute tho. 

 How are you going to handle your next taper, when the time comes?

 Sorry to whine but thanks for listening and writing back. I was in such a desperate moment. But you're right. We do get windows. That's a good sign and I'm so grateful for those times. There's other people on this forum that I talk to that are having a much rougher time than me. It breaks my heart!! These damn drugs need to be outlawed. When I see a commercial for AD drugs, I just want to scream. It's greed. Money at the cost of the health of unsuspecting victims. 

 Thanks for letting me vent 😘 Lg

Hello lg

im sorry you are struggling but anything to do with children/grandchildren is a further stress if anything is wrong with them and I would say a broken arm rates quite high. I hope she is ok poor little thing. 

I spelled the sumatriptan wrong. I don't know if they have it USA. 

Nausea, anxiety debilitate me terribly and are the two things that I find so hard  I hope your head and coughing have eased today 

supposed to be seeing my daughter and baby today but couldn't sleep last night and had to take melatonin about midnight only slept til 5 and full on anxiety, stomach and tinnitus so not sure how I'm going to manage yet. 

I wish you a good nights sleep and a better day tomorrow. 

 

[bubble]

Here is our little club of struggling sufferers. But we are enduring!

 

Yes, the brain it heals in a matter if months and not days, not even weeks.

 

11 hours ago, Littlegrandma said:

We do get windows. That's a good sign and I'm so grateful for those times

 

I just started writing down how I feel every hour or two or three. When I'm desperate it is easier to get it all out, to feel it completely. And then when I read it through I see there were moments when I felt a relief or felt even normal.

 

But when I write at the end of the day especially from a bad and desperate moment I wouldn't remember those little moments that clearly show I'm healing. That's just the nature of this process. 

[Littlegrandma]

1 hour ago, bubble said:

Here is our little club of struggling sufferers. But we are enduring!

 

Yes, the brain it heals in a matter if months and not days, not even weeks.

 

 

I just started writing down how I feel every hour or two or three. When I'm desperate it is easier to get it all out, to feel it completely. And then when I read it through I see there were moments when I felt a relief or felt even normal.

 

But when I write at the end of the day especially from a bad and desperate moment I wouldn't remember those little moments that clearly show I'm healing. That's just the nature of this process. 

 

[Littlegrandma]

Bubble we are enduring, but not living. I am grateful for the windows. But my windows are never clear headed. When I don't have a migraine, I have anxiety. When the anxiety isn't present, it makes me aware of every ache and pain in my body. 

 And the w/d is never out of my mind. It's even in my dreams. I'm not very good at distracting myself from it anymore. I seem to be going backwards. 4 mo now of feeling like hell. Not to mention the 2 yrs on lex that were very unpleasant. 

 I just don't know who I am anymore. I'm my husbands child. A scared little kid. 

[Littlegrandma]

4 hours ago, Scorpio said:

Hello lg

im sorry you are struggling but anything to do with children/grandchildren is a further stress if anything is wrong with them and I would say a broken arm rates quite high. I hope she is ok poor little thing. 

I spelled the sumatriptan wrong. I don't know if they have it USA. 

Nausea, anxiety debilitate me terribly and are the two things that I find so hard  I hope your head and coughing have eased today 

supposed to be seeing my daughter and baby today but couldn't sleep last night and had to take melatonin about midnight only slept til 5 and full on anxiety, stomach and tinnitus so not sure how I'm going to manage yet. 

I wish you a good nights sleep and a better day tomorrow. 

 

 

[Littlegrandma]

Madelyn may need surgery. Stupid urgent care. I don't trust any doctors. First they said no break. Then fracture. Now may need to be reset. My daughter is a nurse and kept telling the doc it's broken and he kept saying it is not. After the X-rays were read the next day, sure enough. It's broken. Now it's the weekend and can't get to an orthopedic til Monday. 

 I found the sumatriptan by google. Unfortunately it's seratonin selective. I'll keep alternating between Advil and Tylenol. 

 Sorry you didn't sleep well. Melatonin doesn't agree with me, but I may have been taking too high a dose. I was doing 3 mg. My pharmacist said try 9 and that about killed me. After this w/d, I'll try again at maybe 1 mg. 

 I hope you have a good visit with your daughter and baby today. If it's too much you can always say no. My daughter doesn't come around much just to visit anymore. She knows how tough it is on me. And I see the kids on my babysitting days. My husband will go there in the evening to see the kids when he needs his fix. Funny, they used to be the most relaxing thing in my life. Now, their happy, squealing voices brings so much anxiety. Breaks my heart.

 Hope you have a big window today.......lg

[Scorpio]

Hi lg

so sorry to hear your poor Madelyn is suffering. Hospital and doctors are so ineffective on what should be an elementary decision. Hopefully she is not in too much pain until Monday 

sorry the migraine tablets are no good for you. I read on here melatonin only needs to be 1 to 1.5mgs to be effective like you when we used to fly transatlantic I used to take 3mg. Now 1.5mg I hope it gives you some relief  9mg I'm not surprised it nearly killed you you poor thing. 

My day was an anxiety ridden dreadful day. I pushed myself to get my husband to take me to my my daughter this afternoon as I felt so guilty but it was very hard and while picking up the baby my back went so now in agony from that as well as everything else. Haven't been able to eat today which I know doesn't help me either. So we only stayed an hour and had to get back home with yet another problem. 

I know exactly what you mean about our children etc being too stressful I get the same way. She like everyone else doesn't fully understand what is going on and thinks she and the baby will distract me of cours all it does is cause kickbacks that I pay for heavily. 

Hope your day is much better than mine. 

 

[TryingToHoldOn]

5 hours ago, Littlegrandma said:

Now, their happy, squealing voices brings so much anxiety. 

This happens to me, too.  I have a 3 & 5 year old.  I hate WD.  

 

Hope you have a better day, LG.

[Littlegrandma]

40 minutes ago, TryingToHoldOn said:

This happens to me, too.  I have a 3 & 5 year old.  I hate WD.  

 

Hope you have a better day, LG.

 

[Littlegrandma]

I'm sorry TT. It's not fair to go thru w/d while raising kids. Should be such a happy fun time. 

 Today is better. I'm still in my pj's at 1 pm but I've been outside watering flowers, pulling the dead ones, moving the sprinkler and all the while looking like a lunatic with my husbands boxer shorts on. My neighbor came by to check in and she never said a thing about my attire. Ha 

 Still feel like I have a full on hangover, but I am so tired of being in the house. I'm drinking lots of h20 and going slow. I'm enjoying it. I forgot what summer smelled like. Wet petunias. 

Its great!!

thanks for checking in.....lg

[Littlegrandma]

1 hour ago, Scorpio said:

Hi lg

so sorry to hear your poor Madelyn is suffering. Hospital and doctors are so ineffective on what should be an elementary decision. Hopefully she is not in too much pain until Monday 

sorry the migraine tablets are no good for you. I read on here melatonin only needs to be 1 to 1.5mgs to be effective like you when we used to fly transatlantic I used to take 3mg. Now 1.5mg I hope it gives you some relief  9mg I'm not surprised it nearly killed you you poor thing. 

My day was an anxiety ridden dreadful day. I pushed myself to get my husband to take me to my my daughter this afternoon as I felt so guilty but it was very hard and while picking up the baby my back went so now in agony from that as well as everything else. Haven't been able to eat today which I know doesn't help me either. So we only stayed an hour and had to get back home with yet another problem. 

I know exactly what you mean about our children etc being too stressful I get the same way. She like everyone else doesn't fully understand what is going on and thinks she and the baby will distract me of cours all it does is cause kickbacks that I pay for heavily. 

Hope your day is much better than mine. 

 

 

[Littlegrandma]

Yes. My family tries to distract me. It usually just annoys me. And I love them to pieces. It's worse when my mother or brothers talk in a loud happy voice, thinking they're going to somehow lift my spirits. I just want to slug them. But they don't really believe I'm in W/D. Just a little anxiety. Ha

  So sorry about your back. Just what you need on top of everything else. And I don't suppose there's anything you can do for it or take for it. How about a warm mag. bath followed by ice packs?? 

 when it rains it pours!! Feel like that's my new mantra. 

 I did get outside today for quite awhile. Slow easy yard work. I endured the heat and enjoyed it. 

Felt like throwing up the whole time but I could ignore the anxiety. 

  Madelyns pediatrician was my kids doc from day 1. The only doctor I have any faith in. So, he was not in today so they saw an assoc. My daughter wanted to go over the X-ray with him. After he stuttered and fumbled, he finally brought it up. He pointed to "the fracture " and said how it may be in the growth plate. Lauren said angrily that's not even the right bone. It's not on the ulna. It's on the humerus. He stuttered some more and had nothing else to say. What a dope!!!!!! How can we trust these bozos. I hate doctors!! 

  I hope your day gets better, Scorpio. Wish there's was something I could do for you. ....lg

[Scorpio]

25 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

Yes. My family tries to distract me. It usually just annoys me. And I love them to pieces. It's worse when my mother or brothers talk in a loud happy voice, thinking they're going to somehow lift my spirits. I just want to slug them. But they don't really believe I'm in W/D. Just a little anxiety. Ha

  So sorry about your back. Just what you need on top of everything else. And I don't suppose there's anything you can do for it or take for it. How about a warm mag. bath followed by ice packs?? 

 when it rains it pours!! Feel like that's my new mantra. 

 I did get outside today for quite awhile. Slow easy yard work. I endured the heat and enjoyed it. 

Felt like throwing up the whole time but I could ignore the anxiety. 

  Madelyns pediatrician was my kids doc from day 1. The only doctor I have any faith in. So, he was not in today so they saw an assoc. My daughter wanted to go over the X-ray with him. After he stuttered and fumbled, he finally brought it up. He pointed to "the fracture " and said how it may be in the growth plate. Lauren said angrily that's not even the right bone. It's not on the ulna. It's on the humerus. He stuttered some more and had nothing else to say. What a dope!!!!!! How can we trust these bozos. I hate doctors!! 

  I hope your day gets better, Scorpio. Wish there's was something I could do for you. ....lg

Hi lg

so pleased you managed to get into the yard even with anxiety - you did it, huge improvement to a few days ago. 

Like you and accepting your daughter is a nurse and I'm sure excellent in her profession doctors are just a dirty word in my house now and pray I don't need one. 

Magnesium seems to react with me have had a few Epsom foot soaks but plain frightened of reactions. So sensitive to anything. Since being on cipralex (lexapro) haven't been able to eat chocolate, sweet food and since coming off the horrible drug can't even enjoy a glass of wine anymore. Never mind just think when we get long windows we will be able to tolerate so much more and hopefully put on some of the weight I have lost.  

My family and friends have the same instinct - talk in a happy singsong voice and it will all be fine. Drives me up the wall and just want to alienate them. 

Would love to be able to help you too, still at least we can commiserate, comfort and hopefully uplift each other.  But worried about Js as she hoped to have internet by Wednesday and no sign of her. Hope she is ok.

wish us both a good day tomorrow.  At least if my back is as painful as tonight I will definitely be a couch potato tomorrow. 

[Littlegrandma]

Hows your back today? I'm a firm believer in ice packs. Several times a day. I hope you were able to get some sleep, despite the pain. 

 I was going to ask you about JS. Maybe she didn't get internet hooked up yet. Cable company often drags their feet. 

 I slept til 5:30. No horrible anxiety cortisol rush this morning. So grateful. I wish I could jump up and start my day, but depression seems to keep me glued. I just don't know what to do or where to start. I have no direction. I watched the sunrise and thought about taking a walk or how nice it would be to have ambition to go to the gym. Went back to bed and got on my phone instead. 

 Hope you have a nice day.   Lg

[Scorpio]

Hi lg

no my back is in constant spasm and very painful walking with difficulty. Same as you could not get out of bed anxiety, at 4, pain, nausea and feeling horrible. Have been on settee under duvet all day. Can't eat again. Verging on panic.  Very scared again 

well you slept til 5.30, no anxiety rush, two major good things now if we can get your depression under control you will be flying high!

hope your day got better and you are able to achieve some things no matter how little. 

[Littlegrandma]

Have you tried icing your back. I swear by it. 

 I'm also on the couch. I guess yesterday was too much. All the symptoms are back. I'm so frustrated and scared. I'm so tired of this!!      Lg

[Scorpio]

Hi lg

What a pair we are. I'd laugh if it wasn't so tragic!  You poor thing we seem to be in the same boat. The back has knocked me back into every symptom I have had. The nausea is awful and I am finding it impossible to try and eat. 

We seem to take one step forward and fifty back and the littlest thing will do it to us each time. Where's bubble when we need her for joint support. I hope she is enjoying herself somewhere probably by her stream with a good book in her hand. We will get there one day. 

'My back is an old injury two torn discs that leak fluid into my nerve canal and haven't had it for about two years but gone with a vengeance now. When I used to see the man who did backs he advised me not to do hot or cold treatment on it for some reason or other. Can't have magnesium bath as it reacts on me.  Can't take pain killers as not eating so vicious circle and I think the gods are throwing big rocks at me at the moment.

at least we can commiserate with each other

[TryingToHoldOn]

22 hours ago, Littlegrandma said:

I'm sorry TT. It's not fair to go thru w/d while raising kids. Should be such a happy fun time. 

 Today is better. I'm still in my pj's at 1 pm but I've been outside watering flowers, pulling the dead ones, moving the sprinkler and all the while looking like a lunatic with my husbands boxer shorts on. My neighbor came by to check in and she never said a thing about my attire. Ha 

 Still feel like I have a full on hangover, but I am so tired of being in the house. I'm drinking lots of h20 and going slow. I'm enjoying it. I forgot what summer smelled like. Wet petunias. 

Its great!!

thanks for checking in.....lg

Glad you got a bit of a break!  Enjoy those moments.

[Littlegrandma]

5 minutes ago, TryingToHoldOn said:

Glad you got a bit of a break!  Enjoy those moments.

 

[Littlegrandma]

It's over Trying. I did so little but it was too much I guess. Symptoms are back with a vengeance. 

Hope you're having a good Sunday

lg 

[Littlegrandma]

PS Where is land of enchantment?

i want to go!!

[Littlegrandma]

14 minutes ago, Scorpio said:

Hi lg

What a pair we are. I'd laugh if it wasn't so tragic!  You poor thing we seem to be in the same boat. The back has knocked me back into every symptom I have had. The nausea is awful and I am finding it impossible to try and eat. 

We seem to take one step forward and fifty back and the littlest thing will do it to us each time. Where's bubble when we need her for joint support. I hope she is enjoying herself somewhere probably by her stream with a good book in her hand. We will get there one day. 

'My back is an old injury two torn discs that leak fluid into my nerve canal and haven't had it for about two years but gone with a vengeance now. When I used to see the man who did backs he advised me not to do hot or cold treatment on it for some reason or other. Can't have magnesium bath as it reacts on me.  Can't take pain killers as not eating so vicious circle and I think the gods are throwing big rocks at me at the moment.

at least we can commiserate with each other

 

[TryingToHoldOn]

8 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

PS Where is land of enchantment?

i want to go!!

It's not quite as 'enchanting' as it sounds.  New Mexico is known as the Land of Enchantment.

 

[TryingToHoldOn]

11 minutes ago, Littlegrandma said:

It's over Trying. I did so little but it was too much I guess. Symptoms are back with a vengeance. 

Hope you're having a good Sunday

lg 

Sorry to hear, LG.  I'm in the pits, too. 👎