Moonpie: need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan

[Greatful]

@Moonpie  

23 hours ago, Moonpie said:

There is an undercurrent of anxiety there even when my symptoms let up

I will have this too.  not very often do I not have anxiety....UGH

 

Hang in the there, you will be writing your success story before you know it❤️

[Moonpie]

@Greatful Thank you.  We be will be writing them in the future, I  have no doubt!  No matter what we face now!

[getofflex]

@Moonpiehugs and I'm praying for you every day!  How are you doing today? 

[Moonpie]

@getofflex Thank you for checking on me. Last night was a really bad night lots of anxiety and little sleep. My Fur baby has an enlarged heart and he was breathing too rapidly, I noticed a lot  Of panting. It may be because he needs to be groomed and his groomer has not been in.  Taking him to the vet tomorrow. Anxiety has eased some. How are you?

[Greatful]

@Moonpie  What's with the anxiety.  I was up with it at around 4:30am, so bad I got out of bed and got some magnesium.  Struggled with ACCEPTING until about 6:40. Still have some anxiety....

Sorry about your fur baby(cat?).  Our pets are very special to us.  My dog follows me around the house.

[getofflex]

I’m so sorry about your fur baby having the health issues.  The stress from this can certainly exacerbate your withdrawal and sleep issues.  I went through this with my cat a year ago. I will pray extra hard for you right now.  Hang in there. I hope the vet can help.  
 

im doing well today. No symptoms.  I’m very thankful.  

Edited August 24, 2021 by getofflex

[Moonpie]

Well I have not posted in a while.   I finished my 7th month off of Lexapro.   It had some ups and downs but nothing major. Anxiety but overall the whole month was pretty good. I thought oh boy I'm on my way. On the 20th when I started my 8 months it is not panning out that way. I've had some nights of panic and nausea. My neck pain has been excruciating at times. I really think it is part of the withdrawal because some days it isn't there. I find myself having stronger anxiety, depression, tight chest. The intensity has been a bit of a surprise after the good month before.  I've also had dizziness. My jaw is out and made me think the tooth I need to have fixed was abcessed  But after a talk with my dentist  He said there are no signs of it. I have had this add this happen with my jaw before . I'm going to go in and bite the bullet next week and get it fixed. It is time. Have a lot of anxiety about if I have to take an antibiotic and what the medication they do ti sedate me will do. Especially because of where I'm at now. But I really don't think I can wait any longer.  There have been moments that I thought but I want to take a benzo get through it. But I don't want to add something else to the mix that could make it worse or or make it something else I have to taper off a. I just know  right for me, no matter how much I want to escape at the moment. Because I still have the buspar to go. I'm trying to just soldier through. Getting really drained and sometimes I feel like I just don't want to fight anymore. Not going to hurt myself for anything.  Just really discouraged. Going to the chiropractor tomorrow to get my job put in place but I'm in a lot of pain right now strong anxiety just just so miserable. After an 11 day wave I did have a good day yesterday. So thankful for it.  Still had some neck pain, and really worked not allowing myself to fall into anxiety. Had good  energy.   Then in my windows I feel  fragile physically and emotionally. At 4 am this  morning I woke up not being able to go back to sleep and anxiety. My jaw hurting and worry about my tooth. No matter what I'm waking up at that time everyday pretty much and just laying there trying to rest some.  I'm just overwhelmed and weary.

[Greatful]

@Moonpie

 

1 hour ago, Moonpie said:

I've had some nights of panic and nausea. My neck pain has been excruciating at times. I really think it is part of the withdrawal because some days it isn't there. I find myself having stronger anxiety, depression, tight chest.

 I am sorry that you are going through a rough spell.  The ups and downs are very draining, I sure can attest to that.  Depression is a hard one to work through.  The filer in our brain is so dark and grey it isn't as easy to accept.  Anxiety you can say this is just a sensation in my body and if your mind is clear you usually can work with it, but the darkness of depression is very tiring.  Thank goodness you have had a break, small but a break.  You are so far along in your recovery that things will move out soon I hope.  The waves will break and the window will be back.

1 hour ago, Moonpie said:

At 4 am this  morning I woke up not being able to go back to sleep and anxiety

I will wake early most mornings,  sometimes I can feel the anxiety and panic start up.  UGH.  I am sure you know all the tricks to survive but I will through this out there.  The last few nights if I wake up around 4:30 I will take some magnesium and turn on my (what my husband called my elevator music)I have several that I pick from.  I usually use the rain and piano sounds.  Sometimes I can go back to sleep or at least rest until later in the morning.. I have capsules so I pour out some in water and drink it down.  I also us Mia1's idea when trying to go to sleep, this is rest time not thinking.  Crazy as it sounds sometimes that works, especially when trying to fall asleep when you first go to bed or when you wake up to go to the bathroom.   

Why does it seem like everything is worst in the night.  The obsessing and panic can be horrendous some days.......🥴

 

1 hour ago, Moonpie said:

 I finished my 7th month off of Lexapro. 

Congratulations 7 months.  I am jealous.  I just started my taper Sept. 1  two cut, yeah down to 4.75mg.  

 

A big squeeze it headed your way.🤗

 

[Moonpie]

@Greatful Thank you for your encouragement and support. This has been one of the roughest times I've had in a while.   I tried 2 other magnesiums a few months ago and they caused problems I take 2 Mintran l at night. Standard process magnesium and it helps me go to sleep.   But I don't stay asleep. I'm kinda scared to try another kind again with where I'm at right now. Yes everything is worse at night in the darkness. I hate feeling so fragile and weak. Physically and emotionally.   You are doing great, you are almost halfway there. I know you will make it.  Whatever this tooth brings. And I am praying nothing but relief. At least it will behind me.   It has been hanging over my head for 5 years. Please take care.  I always appreciate your posts.

[getofflex]

15 hours ago, Moonpie said:

My neck pain has been excruciating at times. I really think it is part of the withdrawal because some days it isn't there.

I suspect this may be from tension and anxiety.  

 

15 hours ago, Moonpie said:

There have been moments that I thought but I want to take a benzo get through it. But I don't want to add something else to the mix that could make it worse or or make it something else I have to taper off

This is wise.  Up until Dec 2019, I used a benzo on occasion to help me sleep. I'm glad I stopped doing it.  My brain has slowly been learning to go to sleep on it's own.  

 

 

15 hours ago, Moonpie said:

Just really discouraged.

I'm right there with you girl.  This WD can be the most discouraging thing.  Especially after you had a good month, and to get hit with this wave.  This process is seemingly not logical, and non linear.  Have you tried reading any of the success stories?  They can be very encouraging, at least for me they are.  

 

15 hours ago, Moonpie said:

After an 11 day wave I did have a good day yesterday. So thankful for it.

Thank the Lord for that! 

 

I'm continuing to pray for you.  

[Moonpie]

@getofflexthank you as always for  caring, encouraging me, and your prayers. Please take care

[Tweet]

Hi Moonpie.

Sending prayers your way.

You're going to get better and better. You have been through so much already with this withdrawal business and the whole process just gets so tiring!

At some point it gets to where a personal is just so sick of "more of the same". That can be the hardest time.

One day things WILL BE BETTER 😉 and your symptoms will be a dim memory.

You are such a fighter and you WILL get there! 

 

 

[Moonpie]

Thank you @Tweet Struggling to stay a fighter. I think about giving up (no self harm) but we have no other choice. Still in a bad wave. Yesterday morning I woke up with trouble breathing.  Very scary.  I try to keep reminding myself this is my body healing. Such trouble sleeping and tornado warnings woke me up at 11:45 and couldn't go back to sleep. The lack of sleep compounds everything.  Calling the dentist today to make an appointment. Thank for your prayers! 

[Tweet]

 

Yesterday morning I woke up with trouble breathing.  Very scary.

This definitely happened to me on a regular basis. Just consider who it  s who gives us a spirit of fear and you will know who is behind it. He has so enjoyed having you enslaved to him through this nasty pharmaceutical nightmare and will stop at nothing to get his little slave back! If he can get you scared of a heart attack you might come back to him.

iThe lack of sleep compounds everything.

Yes the lack of sleep definitely makes everything worse. I'll never forget the first blessed night of wonderful sleep that I got when I was far enough along in my recovery! You will get your great night of sleep too! 😁👍

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Moonpie]

@AltostrataI go to the sedation dentist today about my tooth. Anything they decide to do will be done in the office.  Very nervous. I have been a hard wave the past 2 weeks.  Any suggestions on drugs he might use, things to avoid, or questions to ask?  Not sure if he understands WD. I am assuming they won't do anything until next week unless they decide it had to be pulled. I am praying they can save it. I am in a bad wave and very scared of this making it worse and setting me back. Only pain killer I can take is synthetic codeine- only antibiotics is amoxicillin and cefdinir and have taken neither in 8 years.  I am going to refuse the antibiotic and unless the tooth is infected. Would appreciate any advice from alto and others.

[Altostrata]

@Moonpie, you'll have to explain you're very sensitive to anesthesia and to antibiotics. Isn't the anesthesia local -- they don't knock you out, do they? Local is less likely to cause problems.

 

You might also tell the dentist you're sensitive to epinephrine and adrenaline, and ask him or her not to use it.

[Moonpie]

I am having to have sedation due to a reaction to carbocaine.  But now I have to have a bone graft and will have to put out. It is a ramas mantibular sliding bone graft.  They use a piece of my jaw.                    I only take Synthetic codeine  for pain. And  cednifer for antibiotic.  But has been many many years since i have had either.  Not sure what the graft dr. Will use.                             Heading to an appt. Now.  The dr doing the implants uses only fentanyl.  But he will fore go the valium or diazapam before a procedure.  I had valium many years ago before all these meds but have never had diazapam.  But that will be several months after the graft.                                   He thinks I may have had a bad Anxiety attack. Which is possible since I was in my 5th month of lexapro and was in WD.  So we may try carbocaine again.  He doesnt believe in WD just thinks I have an anxiety disorder.  But he is very sweet and willing to work with me.                              Will report about the new dr. After the visit.   Very very scared of any of this setting be back or making WD worse.  Especially since I have been in a wave since Sept. 20. Thank you for all your help.

[Greatful]

@Moonpie  I feel for you. Sounds like you have to go through this even when you are in a rough spot in WD.  Please be kind to yourself.  

One day at a time and one situation at a time❤️

[Tweet]

Hope all went well for you, Moonpie. We'll be here for you!😘

[getofflex]

@moonpie, you will be in my prayers, as always.  

[Moonpie]

@Tweet  @getofflex @Greatful  @Altostrata  Well it has been a rollercoaster but God has been so good (as always) and shown Himself strong.  He has worked in miraculous ways! Sorry for the post being so long.

 

Went to the first dentist.  He send me to a surgeon to the do the bone graft . I did not get the dr. he referred me to but

 

I knew the Lord knew best and of course He did.  A sweet sweet young man that took tons of time even after closing.  The office did not charge me for the consultation, CT scan or 360 x-rays.  One of many blessings.  Because of how long it has been since the molars were removed and the quality of my bone (he said age has something to do with it) I am not a candidate for using my bone.  With the large amount of bone missing, donor bone would only have a 50-70% success rate.  An implant in that tooth would have an 80% but not good.  The other dr. had misinformed me because mini implants should never be used in molars they will not last AND especially not in a bone graft.

 

My daughter was in the car outside and I was crying. I called her during the consultation and as we talked it became clear.  Pull the tooth which has to be done anyway and put an implant in. This will save my other teeth from bone receding.  He uses Propofol that read on the SA has worked best for many.  He said he won't know till he pulls the tooth if my bone can  handle and implant even though it looks good on the scan.  And they will add some bone at that time no matter what.  He has me an appt. in Feb. and said the tooth should be fine till then plus I know my WD will have had more healing. I am on the cancellation list so it may be sooner. He also talked like a antibiotic may not be necessary

 

He doesn't do fillings.  So I called another dentist my dentist referred  me too that only had one opening for sedation as their anesthesiologist  only comes once a month. I called last week when I thought it was abscessing.  The opening was still there!!!!  They use Propofol too!  I go next Thursday to have the teeth filled.  Have moved into a window thank the Lord!  Still anxiety and very high during these visits.  But I looked back and I did really good!  I still have some now but nothing like the wave since the 20th.  

 

Concerned if they pull the tooth and can't do it, and clench my teeth at night another concern. I have a mouth guard - going to get a new one.  Just going to continually leave it up to the Lord.  

 

I learned I don't have osteoporosis, in 5 years with this tooth being severe several years ago it has not abscessed, I only  have 2 small cavities.  Although I am missing all my lower molars and upper,  the 2nd dr. said I had very good dental work and everything looks great.  Not anywhere near needing dentures, both commented how healthy I was and the 2nd one said I looked really good.  LOL.  I can stay with my youngest daughter after both procedure so I won't have to be alone.  I won't have to miss any work next week, but may have to in FEB.  but the Lord will take care of all of that too! 

 

Another really big blessing is my daughter and son are helping with and already have part of the expense.  And out of the blue a man that him and his wife were like my closest aunt and uncle growing up and I have known since I was 4 years old,  sent me a check that will cover this!!!!!!  He had no idea. 

 

Learning so many lessons in trusting God in this!!! He has never let me down nor did He my family all these years.  Must quit being an Israelite wandering in the wilderness!

 

Thank you all for your help, knowledge, encouragement, support and wisdom!  HUGS to all of you!  

[Altostrata]

Good to hear, @Moonpie Always a good idea to get second and third opinions about surgical procedures.

[getofflex]

@Moonpiethanks for the update, and praise Jesus for all the wonderful ways he is taking care of you!  This is fantastic.  I'm very happy to hear it!  I'm also glad to hear you are in a window.  How great that your adopted "uncle" sent you that check too!  Thanks for the update.  

[Tweet]

Thanks so much for letting us know Moonpie! God truly does all things well 😊👏

[Moonpie]

Well it has been a rough month and a 1/2. Anxiety and tight chest withdrawal symptoms have ramped up. But I have been having some windows for which I am very thankful.  Included is a few days of very mild anxiety and intrusive thoughts when mycortisol spike hits at 5 am.                                  I had the 5  crowns done. And did fine with the propofal.  The dentist office was amazing and I had a nurse anesthesiologist there just to take care of me.  I was out an hour and 45 minutes. I felt like when I got home I was having trouble breathing but I think it may have just been anxiety.                    One of the temporary crowns popped off 2 days later and had an  extended panic attack. My daughter had stuff from their dentist to put it back on.  I had another one a day later. Don't know what that 1 was about.       I go back in 2 weeks and have a tooth pulled and an implant put in.  I will be sedated again  But this time for only about 45 minutes.                                        I am concerned as it is my understanding and checking on drug interactions that I cannot take any painkillers other than ibuprofen for the extraction because can  cause serious problems  with buspar I am still on . Plus my daughter who I stay with and helps me if I am not will be going out of town the day after this.                          They are wanting to give me an antibiotic as a preventative but I hate to take it in case it makes my WD worse on top of everything else.   I don't want to get an infection. Any advice or tips in dealing with this, especially the pain killer.   Withdrawal , the buspar plus being alone is really making me nervous. 

[Shep]

Congratulations on getting so much dental work done, @MoonpieI know this is an area you've been struggling with for a long time.

 

You already know to avoid the fluoroquinolone antibiotics, so at least you know what not to take, if at all possible. Have you taken an antibiotic for anything else during withdrawal? If so, did you have a reaction? 

 

Here is some information on pain killers during withdrawal:

 

Painkillers in withdrawal: aspirin, ibuprofen, paracetamol, acetaminophen, naproxen, codeine

 

Good luck with the rest of your dental work. Please let us know how you do.  

[Tweet]

On some level, even though you are unconscious, your body is probably very much aware of what is going on with your dental work. Could it be possible that the anxiety is a product of this? Just a thought. It seems like sometimes the anxiety seems to wait and happen once it sends his we are out of the danger zone so to speak. Just speaking from experience here. No science involved LOL

[Moonpie]

@Tweet I  have found that to be true also. I believe our subconscious often has memories we are not immediately aware of.  I was VERY nervous and frightened.  Thank you for sharing!

[Moonpie]

UPDATE.   I decided I was going to call every pharmacist in my town and ask about interactions and even get poison control's input.  Well the 1st one I called assured me there was no problem.  They prescribe them together all the time.  Hmmm I was also subscribed Lexapro and Buspar at the same time and found out a year later that is not safe. 

 

 The 2nd one I called was very sweet and helpful. She actually looked it up.  And there IS and interaction that can be dangerous.  She said that the Buspar heightens the way the pain killer works and there was a danger of respiratory depression, CNS depression and hypotensive responses.   I stopped with her as I felt I had my answer. 

 

She suggested that if I am going to take the pain killer the day of the surgery, to skip my 2 Buspar doses that day.    I am concerned I might be adding fuel to my fire. Doing that at this point in withdrawal. Would appreciate ideas.  

 

@Shep  The only antibiotic I can take is Cefdinir.  From what I can find out it is not the drug family you mentioned.  And like I said I have not taken it in going on 8 years.  I have not taken any antibiotics or pain killers since I have begun tapering or have been in withdrawal.   I have not had amoxicillin since a child but don't want to throw in a "lets see if there is a reaction" right now.  I am going to ask to have it just in case of infection.  I want to make sure there isn't one but I don't want to take it if I don't need it. I am assuming the dentist will give more information after the extraction had to how bad the decay was.  Flying by the seat of my pants right now.  lol

 

I have had a new unusual symptom the last 2 days.  After 5 years of barely eating, after lunch (which due to circumstances is at 3 pm) and my afternoon fruit, cottage cheese or plain yogurt., I get very very hungry!  Like I can't get full.  Then it passes.  I don't just keep eating but do eat extra. It is strange. I thought it might be from failing to drink enough water but this hasn't happened before. Has anyone else had this.  I was curious as to what that might have to do in the scheme of healing. I have lost 3 -4 more pounds. 

 

Anxiety has been milder through the day and cortisol spikes in the morning while waking me up have not had as intense a following of fearful thoughts.  My energy has been good the last few days. I was hyper one night and thought "Ut oh" heading to a wave, but nothing more than a short spike in anxiety.  

 

While withdrawal is a negative thing with all the symptoms and emotions, I know the suffering can consume us while we are in it. Windows big or little are soon forgotten when a new wave hits and the feeling of "forever' past and present hits again.  I have kept a journal of symptoms since I found the group and start in June the Dr. Glenmullen's symptom chart that I custom arranged with my symptoms.  Both have been helpful to see patterns and some degree progress.

 

Well I have started a new journal.  Probably not new to many but to me.  I now have a "windows journal" .  I am writing down every window and partial window and the date and detailed about how I felt.  That way when I get in "forever" mode I can go back and see the good parts and progress. 

 

I also keep and have for several years a gratitude journal, it had made a big differences in how I am aware of blessings.  I record the biggest to the smallest.... My grand babies fever broke.  I got a parking place by the door.  etc.  

I know what we focus on we become and it is definitely and challenge when the hard symptoms get so intense.  But if I have it written down it will at least give me the opportunity to remember and refocus. 

 

As always I appreciate everyone's support and guidance!!!       ❤️

 

 

[getofflex]

7 hours ago, Moonpie said:

I now have a "windows journal" .  I am writing down every window and partial window and the date and detailed about how I felt.  That way when I get in "forever" mode I can go back and see the good parts and progress. 

 

Great idea!  

 

7 hours ago, Moonpie said:

I also keep and have for several years a gratitude journal, it had made a big differences in how I am aware of blessings

It sounds like you have some very good coping strategies.  

 

 

[Greatful]

@Moonpie

How are you doing? 

I know that you have been at this quite awhile and I have to say you are a inspiration☺️, all of you that are preserving to the finish line.  It's been about a year for me and I think that it is enough.😖  

[Moonpie]

UPDATES: 

I had my tooth pulled and the implant put in on the 18th. After waiting 5 years and lots of  prayer. I was only out 45 minutes and all went well.  Ibuprophen did t the trick.  There was mild discomfort but nothing like I imagined of course.  So thankful! They gave me an one time IV does of dexamethasone and I did fine.  It is wearing off so that could be part of the discomfort too. 

 

This is  my 4th day post op and have been having pressure and some aching pain.  4th or 5th day there should be almost none. Made the mistake of looking at Dentist Google and it says in some places 7 - 10 but most 4-5.  I didn't take the antibiotic so I am nervous my implant is failing or getting infected.  I have a bad taste in my mouth - bitter on my tongue that brushing doesn't help. I looked it up here and it can be a withdraw symptom implant infection.  What a time to happen. 

 

Don't know what to do.  I don't' want to rush and take the antibiotic if it isn't needed as it could complicate things, but I don't want to wait and it be too late.  I have no swelling, no fever, none of the other symptoms of rejection or infection other than the ache and bad mouth taste.  I did good for several days.  Anxiety was at a minimum.  I even had a day where the thoughts didn't even cause anxiety or fear.  But last night I went to pick up a script and I didn't get the antibiotic and I guess it was a trigger.  With my jaw aching anxiety came rushing in with all these fears.  Ugh.  

 

One crown has been too high and the adjusted it again but it is still off.  I can't chew on that side and the irritation has kept that crown throbbing some nights. I go Monday to have it checked.  BUT I have not driven in the city for 2 years and only once with a friend.  That the latter was rather traumatic.  So there is one to take me this time. I feel like such a pain having everyone  drive me because of anxiety.  It is an hour one way.  I have a friend that will ride with me if she can take her son to an appointment on Tues.  She can't drive due to anxiety and will understand.   If not I go it alone.

 

I have lost more weight due to not being able to eat much and that is a  stressor too.  Bring up some health anxiety.  It is funny how when you have anxiety ease or have good days when it comes back it seems new all over again.  I sound ungrateful for all these blessings but I am not. I am very thankful and see each one!  Just struggling. 

 

@Greatful thank you for checking on me.  That makes me happy I have been an inspiration!  I sure don't  feel like  one.  One of your posts this week to someone I am going to go back and copy and file to read again. It was a VERY BIG inspiration to me!!! 

 

NOVEMBER 20 - 9 MONTHS OFF LEXAPRO

[Shep]

@MoonpieDo you feel comfortable enough with your dentist to call and see if the bad taste in the mouth may be a sign of infection or if it would also require other symptoms, such as a fever? Anxiety can also cause a bad taste in the mouth, but I wouldn't want to assume this is anxiety since you did have a medical procedure in your mouth.

 

Please take good care. 

[Moonpie]

@ShepI called but they haven't gotten back with me.  I plan to go in Monday.  I am trying to remember when it started.  I have been having dry mouth for a while.  Withdraw and anxiety are amping up my fear. Strong anxiety all day long. I have wondered if it wasnt a new Wd symptom. Afraid to take ibuprophen as they are saying it hinders bone growth.  Pain has not been super bad just  uncomfortable.  Have been taking 2 , 400 mg doses a day.  A few days one 600 mg dose. Haven't taken any today.  Of course the pain increases my anxiety.  There is no tooth in the in the implant yet- waiting 3 months for bone and bone graft to heal.   I haven't had a mouth guard in over a month. Waiting for it to be made - maybe 2 more weeks so I know that isn't helping.   I look back and am amazed at all my body/ mouth has been through the last month.  I guess I shouldn't be surprised for a wave to hit. This is about when a bad one hit after I had all the crowns done.

[Greatful]

@Moonpie

9 months off of Lex🌞  Great work moving ahead one day at a time

I am jealous, I dream of saying I took my last dose of LEX.

I am sorry for all that you are going through.  You are one strong women, going through WD teeth giving out on you, crowns and now surgery.  

I bet when you have your mouth all taken care of, your waves will all but disappear and the bright sun will be shining through your windows

[Moonpie]

@Grateful thank you for your encouragement and kind words!!! You will get there too!  You are very close!  My goodness with all you have been through and hung in there I now dub you superwoman!!!! You are incredible.

 

@Shep  I went back and they worked on the crown that was bothering me and it has quit hurting.  It is sensitive but not all the time,  Now the crown next to the implant is throbbing and hurting. It feels like it is biting high.  They worked on it and said it didn't show anywhere it was rubbing after that.  After they do one things can change on the other side.  This feels like the other one did. But with it close to the implant sometimes the pain feels like it is over there. 

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There are some times my whole mouth feels inflamed.  But with all it has had done I am not surprised.  He said there was no infection and was amazing at how well I had healed especially when the realized it had only been 5 days since the surgery. I still hate taking the ibuprophen ever day but am so thankful it works. I did some research and there seem to be conflicting studies as to whether it hinders bone healing. 

 

No matter what I know God has this in His hands.  He was worked miracles to provide for this work and so many other things.

I loved this Dr. even more.  I asked him again if I should take the antibiotics to be safe.  I told him I was a real wildcard with meds and my concerns with it affecting my WD.  (They really listen concerning this and take me seriously)  He told me it has been very rare  for an implant to get infected. And are you ready . . . He said "I would rather you listen to your body!!!" How amazing a dr. is that!

     

Of course when I hurt my anxiety increases and I fight the crazy thoughts of what it might be.  I am seeing improvements with my anxiety and windows.  I am very thankful. 

 

I go back this coming Weds. to have this one checked and ground down some more.  With my anxiety I can't make the hour drive and back alone.  My friend can go with me then and take me.  

 

Oh I had milestone in recovery.  I drove to our nearest big city  where everything is  (1 hour 1 way) 6 months ago with a friend with me and it didn't do well.  Other than that I have not driven there at all for 2 years.  Monday I had a window and felt safe and confident.  A friend went with me and even in heavy traffic I had not anxiety.  We got back home and were eating lunch when the dental office called and said my night mouth guard was in - we drove back and got it and came home in rush hour traffic!  I was fine.  I see that as progress even if I can't do again right now.

 

Last week I found out young person in my family tried to commit suicide.  Thank the Lord they are okay and didn't do any damage.  Yes I have had some anxiety but I have been able to cope with it without going into a panic attack.  

 

Slow and steady wins the raise said the tortoise.