faith2122: Trazodone gave me PSSD, I need help

[faith2122]

I wanted to share my story, hopefully I can find someone that can identify themselves with my ordeal and possibly help each other. I still can't believe I'm typing this out, its all very surreal to me, I never in my life would have imagined that, at age of 21, I'd be tossed into this mess. Not only dealing with anxiety but now terrible thoughts of suicide ever since getting PSSD.

I was given Trazodone 50mg after having problems sleeping on July, I told my doctor I had some issues sleeping, she then proceeded to ask some mental health questions and I told her I had minimal anxiety and that whether I had depression was debatable.

I only took the pills 3 times, I stopped after realizing I could barely get an erection. Then came the initial crash, there was pain in my testicles that felt like blue balls, the veins in my testicles got inflamed and painful especially when I got an erection. I ended up jerking off, I thought it would alleviate the pain and go away, the semen was unusual, I never came so much in my life but the consistency was watery. I also suffered from terrible abdominal and pelvic pain which has gone at least 90% away in the two months that followed, it was annoying and really hard to concentrate on my studies but I thank God that’s gotten better. I'm not sure how common this is but I feel like my left ******** shrunk, I wonder if anyone on trazodone or other anti-depressants has had shrinkage of only one of their testicles. I also have Urinary incontincancy.

It got to a point where I had to tell my parents, it was embarrassing, I cried and told them these pills changed me and that I'm not ok. I was pretty much saying my goodbyes, it's so easy to just end the pain and kill myself but after a long discussion I'm going to wait this out as long as I possibly can. I can't just do this to them, they’ve suffered so much and given me more than I could ever ask for, I can't end my life knowing I'd leave them in so much emotional suffering.

I posted my story on another forum as well. Could this be PSSD, chemical epididimytis, prostatitis, pelvic floor dysfunciton? The symptoms with many of these conditions seem to over lap, What I do know is these problems are directly due to Trazodone. I'm just not sure where to go with this problem now, I honestly can't see myself living a whole year with this.

 

Edited October 4, 2017 by ChessieCat
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[faith2122]

Should I get back on the Trazodone and taper? 

[mammaP]

Hi Faith2122, welcome to SA. I am so very sorry to read that you are going through this. You are certainly not alone, we have several members going through the same thing, maybe slightly different symptoms but still as distressing. I would absolutely NOIT recommend going back to trazodone or any other psychiatric drug. You had an immediate reaction to trazodone and it will take time to settle down. The important thing for you right now is to stop worrying about it. I know that is not going to be easy, it will be very hard but worrying will not help your recovery.  Looking after yourself will get you through. It is a good sign that the pain is 90% better, really good. The only thing you can do is let your body recover and repair itself.   I am so glad to see that you are thinking positively and considering your parents and hope you are still able to study. IT is vitally important to have something to occupy you so that you are not focussing only on the PSSD.  I am going to post a link to the withdrawal topic for you to read. You are suffering from an adverse reaction but the result is the same as withdrawal, a disrupted nervous system.  It is very encouraging that you have had some improvements and I am sure that will continue if you let your body heal. Try to avoid forcing feelings and functions, they will return on their own.  Trying to force things  only frustrates and devastates people. 

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/603-what-is-withdrawal-syndrome/

 

Could you fill in your signature for us, it will be very easy with just 3 pills, but we ask all our members to do this. The link will take you to the signature box in settings. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/settings/signature/

 

 

[frasier23]

@faith2122, hope yourre better today