Kristine: not alone

[Carmie]

Hi Kristine,

I’m sorry you have so many symptoms. I see you’re totally off one of your meds this month. Did you jump straight off 0.1 as ten percent of that would be 0.001? 

 

I cant even taper by 10%, I’ve been tapering around 4% or 5%. 

 

Hope some of your symptoms ease  a little soon 

 

Sending you big hugs xxx

 

 

 

 

[Kristine]

26 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

Wishing I could wrap you in one of your signature blankets.  Glad you had some extra sleep, honey.

All my love, Rosetta

That sounds lovely Rosetta. Thank you. I've been thinking of you and hoping you are able to rest. Blanket (((hugs))). K xo

[Kristine]

19 minutes ago, Carmie said:

I’m sorry you have so many symptoms. I see you’re totally off one of your meds this month. Did you jump straight off 0.1 as ten percent of that would be 0.001? 

 

I cant even taper by 10%, I’ve been tapering around 4% or 5%. 

 

Hope some of your symptoms ease  a little soon 

 

Sending you big hugs xxx

Yes, I jumped off at 0.1mg of the dexamphetamine. The reason I dropped the dexamphetamine so quickly is because there is a major drug interaction between dexamphetamine and fluoxetine. I was symptomatic. Showing signs of dexamphetamine toxicity.  I also dropped Fluoxetine from 40mg down to 20mg on the 31st of January due to serotonin syndrome symptoms. I was having a host of horrible symtoms including seizures. So, I had no choice. There is much more detailed information in my thread about all of this. Those symptoms are gone but I'm of course left with w/d. I don't regret my decision's...I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. All the drugs I ceased prior to joining SA in December was under the "guidance" of my psychiatrist.  

 

(((Hugs))) to you Carmie. K xo

[Carmie]

24 minutes ago, Kristine said:

Yes, I jumped off at 0.1mg of the dexamphetamine. The reason I dropped the dexamphetamine so quickly is because there is a major drug interaction between dexamphetamine and fluoxetine. I was symptomatic. Showing signs of dexamphetamine toxicity.  I also dropped Fluoxetine from 40mg down to 20mg on the 31st of January due to serotonin syndrome symptoms. I was having a host of horrible symtoms including seizures. So, I had no choice. There is much more detailed information in my thread about all of this. Those symptoms are gone but I'm of course left with w/d. I don't regret my decision's...I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. All the drugs I ceased prior to joining SA in December was under the "guidance" of my psychiatrist.  

 

(((Hugs))) to you Carmie. K xo

 

 

Looks like you made great decisions Kristine, 

 

I’ll have to read through your thread again, just don’t have the brain power today.

 

I’m glad we’re no longer under the “guidance”of psychiatrists too, like you said.

 

 I just go to the psychiatrist to get the seroquel and he lets me taper at my own pace.

 I used a 25mg tablet to go down to 7.5mg. That’s the lowest tablet though so I asked him to give me a script for a 7.5mg compounded capsule so when I eventually microtaper I’ll use that in 300ml of water.  He will give me a script for whatever dose I want, so I’m glad he’s cooperative.

 

I’ve read some stories where the psychiatrists insisted on tapering at their rate. All I can say to that is change your psychiatrist, find one that will give you the scripts you need. I’ve read too that you can get the scripts from a gp so that’s always an option too, 

you just have to find one that will work with you.

 

So many people suffering from meds they shouldn’t have been put on, soooo sad. No use dwelling on what’s been done to us though as it doesn’t change anything. All we can do is take a day at a time and move forward.

 

I’m all for using lots of distractions to get through the day.

 

Wishing you all the best in your journey Kristine  xxxx

 

 

 

 

[wantrelief]

3 hours ago, Kristine said:

The above daily symptoms remain. Some disappear for some time periods during the day but the fatigue, muscle weakness, muscle pain and cognitive difficulties are constant companions. My limbs feel full of lead. Yesterday I was hit with a bout of nausea which thankfully only lasted for about 5 hours. My cog fog lifted a little yesterday but is very bad again today along with vertigo. I can not move my head quickly otherwise the room spins on its axis. The buzzing has amplified in my head. I feel like my brain is a wasps nest full of wasps. There is a great deal of head pressure and a very strange sensation that liquid is leaking out of my ears (there isn't). Last night my sleep improved a little...instead of my average 3 hours...I got 5 hours. One small blessing. 

 

Love to you all. K xo

Oh my lovely friend, I am so sorry you are dealing with these awful symptoms on a daily basis. And despite all of what you are going through, you manage to write such encouraging, positive, and supportive messages to others.  You are so strong and courageous, Kristine.  With love - WR.

[Rosetta]

Dear Kristine, you are so kind to everyone.  Thank you for being there for me when you are suffering so.  I wish you much more than 3 hours of sleep tonight.  And a nap, too!

[Downbutnotout]

21 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

Dear Kristine, you are so kind to everyone.  Thank you for being there for me when you are suffering so.  I wish you much more than 3 hours of sleep tonight.  And a nap, too!

Yes, I agree. With all of it.a truly unselfish person. I hope your suffering diminishes.

 

[Kristine]

Hey Carmie, I'm pleased you have got a script for a 7.5mg seroquel compounded capsule from your psychiatrist. Great news.

On 24/04/2018 at 1:13 PM, Carmie said:

I’ve read some stories where the psychiatrists insisted on tapering at their rate. All I can say to that is change your psychiatrist, find one that will give you the scripts you need. I’ve read too that you can get the scripts from a gp so that’s always an option too, 

you just have to find one that will work with you.

 

I wouldn't say my psychiatrist insisted I taper at her rate, she was just ill informed, like the majority of psychiatrists. At the time I was ill informed as well. However, I look back to March 2017 when I was taking 6 psychotropic medications...these were prescribed by a different psychiatrist. All these medications were at high doses. I was suffering drug interactions and side effects. So I can't say I regret tapering as fast as I did. My psychiatrist and I are coresponding via email regarding my taper. Thankfully she wants to learn from my experience.  I'm hoping this information will filter through and benefit her colleagues as well. Create some kind of awareness and change. I've been getting my scripts from my GP. 

 

Thank you for the well wishes Carmie. Much Love K 

[Kristine]

Thank you @wantrelief and @Rosetta for your kind words and support...I have to say I'm struggling. Mainly because of the insomnia. I'm finding the lack of sleep is making it very difficult to constructively cope with the host of other symptoms. Sleep deprivation is making my days much more difficult. I'm sure it will pass at some point. Just don't know when. Much Love K xo

[wantrelief]

Just now, Kristine said:

Thank you @wantrelief and @Rosetta for your kind words and support...I have to say I'm struggling. Mainly because of the insomnia. I'm finding the lack of sleep is making it very difficult to constructively cope with the host of other symptoms. Sleep deprivation is making my days much more difficult. I'm sure it will pass at some point. Just don't know when. Much Love K xo

I am so sorry about the sleep deprivation and how it makes everything that much more difficult. As you said, it will pass....I hope sooner rather than later.  I just wish I could take this all away from you and make it better. I am thinking about you, as always, and sending you big hugs.  

[Kristine]

13 minutes ago, wantrelief said:

I am so sorry about the sleep deprivation and how it makes everything that much more difficult. As you said, it will pass....I hope sooner rather than later.  I just wish I could take this all away from you and make it better. I am thinking about you, as always, and sending you big hugs.  

Big hugs back WR  (((hugs))) K xo

[Frogie]

Just wanted to drop by and see how you were feeling.

 

I hope better

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[Kristine]

7 minutes ago, Frogie said:

Just wanted to drop by and see how you were feeling.

Thank you Frogie, you are very kind. I'm doing it tough to be honest...been trying to write an update but finding some symptoms hard to put into words. I'll get there eventually. One step at a time. Much Love. K xo

[Frogie]

9 minutes ago, Kristine said:

Thank you Frogie, you are very kind. I'm doing it tough to be honest...been trying to write an update but finding some symptoms hard to put into words. I'll get there eventually. One step at a time. Much Love. K xo

Stay positive like you always are😊😊

[Kristine]

Update:  The main issue for me is ongoing insomnia. The sleep deprivation is exacerbating all my other symptoms. Insomnia started to get bad in August 2017 when I ceased the Seroquel...so it has been an ongoing problem. However, currently im only getting a maximum of 4 hours sleep. At worst one hour. I find it extremely difficult getting to sleep. I never fall asleep prior to 2am. I feel agitated, restless, can't keep my legs still. I have to get up and walk around. I rub magnesium oil into my legs but this doesn't help. My skin is hot and itchy. Sometimes I feel like I want to rip my skin off. When I do eventually fall asleep it is always a broken sleep. I often have nightmares and wake gasping for air. Or I just wake from a light sleep which doesn't feel like I was asleep in the first place.

 

For the past 5 days I have a strange sensation in my ears. An earache which feels like a thick liquid is oozing out. It is difficult to put into words. The vertigo and nausea is back...I believe the ear sensation, vertigo and nausea are all connected. Like seasickness. My cns is confused. My poor body is fighting so desperately for homeostasis. I can only think to ride this out as best that I can. 

 

I introduced 75mg of magnesium on the 21st of April. I don't think is helping or making anything worse. I've read that aspirin might help, I think Alto wrote that somewhere. Give me strength. 

 

The other symptoms  such as extreme fatigue, muscle weakness, irritability, depressed mood etc continue...currently I can't even make it to the shower. 

 

Love to you all. K xo

[Frogie]

19 minutes ago, Kristine said:

Update:  The main issue for me is ongoing insomnia. The sleep deprivation is exacerbating all my other symptoms. Insomnia started to get bad in August 2017 when I ceased the Seroquel...so it has been an ongoing problem. However, currently im only getting a maximum of 4 hours sleep. At worst one hour. I find it extremely difficult getting to sleep. I never fall asleep prior to 2am. I feel agitated, restless, can't keep my legs still. I have to get up and walk around. I rub magnesium oil into my legs but this doesn't help. My skin is hot and itchy. Sometimes I feel like I want to rip my skin off. When I do eventually fall asleep it is always a broken sleep. I often have nightmares and wake gasping for air. Or I just wake from a light sleep which doesn't feel like I was asleep in the first place.

 

For the past 5 days I have a strange sensation in my ears. An earache which feels like a think liquid is oozing out. It is difficult to put into words. The vertigo and nausea is back...I believe the ear sensation, vertigo and nausea are all connected. Like seasickness. My cns is confused. My poor body is fighting so desperately for homeostasis. I can only think to ride this out as best that I can. 

 

I introduced 75mg of magnesium on the 21st of April. I don't think is helping or making anything worse. I've read that aspirin might help, I think Alto wrote that somewhere. Give me strength. 

 

The other symptoms  such as extreme fatigue, muscle weakness, irritability, depressed mood etc continue...currently I can't even make it to the shower. 

 

Love to you all. K xo

I am so sorry to hear that some of your symptoms have returned.

 

You are such a strong woman. I hope they leave you soon.

 

You are in my thoughts 

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

[wantrelief]

26 minutes ago, Kristine said:

I introduced 75mg of magnesium on the 21st of April. I don't think is helping or making anything worse. I've read that aspirin might help, I think Alto wrote that somewhere. Give me strength. 

I am so very sorry for everything you are going through, I just wish I could take all of this away.  I wonder if the magnesium isn't making anything worse if it would be worth trying to increase the dose (spread throughout the day)?  There was some information posted recently on weighted blankets....not sure if you've tried that but it sounds like some people have found it helpful for restlessness.  I am grasping at anything that might be of use.  I hate that you are going through this.  I am thinking about you, as always, and sending lots of love - WR.

[Kristine]

37 minutes ago, Frogie said:

I am so sorry to hear that some of your symptoms have returned.

 

You are such a strong woman. I hope they leave you soon.

 

You are in my thoughts 

 

Thank you Frogie, you are very kind. I hope they leave soon as well! You are in my thoughts as well. Much Love K xo

[Kristine]

26 minutes ago, wantrelief said:

I am so very sorry for everything you are going through, I just wish I could take all of this away.  I wonder if the magnesium isn't making anything worse if it would be worth trying to increase the dose (spread throughout the day)?  There was some information posted recently on weighted blankets....not sure if you've tried that but it sounds like some people have found it helpful for restlessness.  I am grasping at anything that might be of use.  I hate that you are going through this.  I am thinking about you, as always, and sending lots of love - WR.

Thank you for your kind words WR,  That's a really good suggestion spreading out the magnesium throughout the day. I'll give it a go. Lordy, if I knew sticking my head in a bucket of peanut butter would help I'd give that a go  you must have read my mind about weighted blankets...there is an Australian company which make them. I'm going to order one today. Much Love K xo  

[Carmie]

1 hour ago, Kristine said:

Update:  The main issue for me is ongoing insomnia. The sleep deprivation is exacerbating all my other symptoms. Insomnia started to get bad in August 2017 when I ceased the Seroquel...so it has been an ongoing problem. However, currently im only getting a maximum of 4 hours sleep. At worst one hour. I find it extremely difficult getting to sleep. I never fall asleep prior to 2am. I feel agitated, restless, can't keep my legs still. I have to get up and walk around. I rub magnesium oil into my legs but this doesn't help. My skin is hot and itchy. Sometimes I feel like I want to rip my skin off. When I do eventually fall asleep it is always a broken sleep. I often have nightmares and wake gasping for air. Or I just wake from a light sleep which doesn't feel like I was asleep in the first place.

 

For the past 5 days I have a strange sensation in my ears. An earache which feels like a thick liquid is oozing out. It is difficult to put into words. The vertigo and nausea is back...I believe the ear sensation, vertigo and nausea are all connected. Like seasickness. My cns is confused. My poor body is fighting so desperately for homeostasis. I can only think to ride this out as best that I can. 

 

I introduced 75mg of magnesium on the 21st of April. I don't think is helping or making anything worse. I've read that aspirin might help, I think Alto wrote that somewhere. Give me strength. 

 

The other symptoms  such as extreme fatigue, muscle weakness, irritability, depressed mood etc continue...currently I can't even make it to the shower. 

 

Love to you all. K xo

 

 

I’m so sorry you are going through such a hard time at the moment Kristine,

 

Ceasing seroquel certainly ends u up in the hell of rebound insomnia. Im still on it but when I accidentally didn’t take one many years ago I didn’t sleep for even five minutes so I will be going through the same thing eventually. I’m not sure when in my tapering journey this will happen, but I’m trying not to thing about it fir now.

 

I see you’re going to get a weighted blanket too. I’ll probably do so in a month or so, also from an Australian company, I’m guessing it’s the same company you will be getting it from.

 

I’m sorry about your earaches. I got them the other week. Withdrawals bring up so many weird symptoms.

 

Thinking of u Kristine, hugs🤗🤗

[wantrelief]

32 minutes ago, Kristine said:

Lordy, if I knew sticking my head in a bucket of peanut butter would help I'd give that a go  

Oh my goodness, even when you are feeling awful you are somehow able to be so funny!

 

[Kristine]

Thank you for your kind words Carmie,

57 minutes ago, Carmie said:

Ceasing seroquel certainly ends u up in the hell of rebound insomnia. Im still on it but when I accidentally didn’t take one many years ago I didn’t sleep for even five minutes so I will be going through the same thing eventually. I’m not sure when in my tapering journey this will happen, but I’m trying not to thing about it fir now.

I'm hoping because you are tapering at a slow rate that you will not suffer from insomnia. Fingers crossed!

58 minutes ago, Carmie said:

see you’re going to get a weighted blanket too. I’ll probably do so in a month or so, also from an Australian company, I’m guessing it’s the same company you will be getting it from.

I just ordered one Carmie. I'll be able to give you a review...cause they ain't cheap 

 

Thank you for the hugs Carmie 

Much Love K xo

[Kristine]

44 minutes ago, wantrelief said:

1 hour ago, Kristine said:

Lordy, if I knew sticking my head in a bucket of peanut butter would help I'd give that a go  

Oh my goodness, even when you are feeling awful you are somehow able to be so funny!

Oh WR, you are so sweet! I think it's the only thing that gets me through sometimes 

[Carmie]

6 hours ago, Kristine said:

Thank you for your kind words Carmie,

I'm hoping because you are tapering at a slow rate that you will not suffer from insomnia. Fingers crossed!

I just ordered one Carmie. I'll be able to give you a review...cause they ain't cheap 

 

Thank you for the hugs Carmie 

Much Love K xo

 

Look forward to your review Kristine, 

 

What weight did you end up getting? 

 

No they ain’t cheap but it’s too much effort making your own, though if you have a sewing machine and feel up to it might be a good project. I love all kinds of crafts but I don’t own a sewing machine. I’ll keep crocheting my blankets for friends, very therapeutic. It’s my distraction.

 

Much love back to you too💚

[Kristine]

2 hours ago, Carmie said:

Look forward to your review Kristine, 

 

What weight did you end up getting? 

 

No they ain’t cheap but it’s too much effort making your own, though if you have a sewing machine and feel up to it might be a good project. I love all kinds of crafts but I don’t own a sewing machine. I’ll keep crocheting my blankets for friends, very therapeutic. It’s my distraction.

 

Much love back to you too💚

Hey Carmie, It took me a while to decided which weight to get. I ended up just getting one which is 10% of my body weight. This is what was recommended on the site I ordered from. I have read you can go heavier...anyway, I'll know soon enough. And I'll certainly post a review. I certainly couldn't make one in the state I'm in! I imagine crocheting would be very therapeutic  I'm sure your friends love them. Much Love K xo

[RachelSusan]

 

11 hours ago, Kristine said:

For the past 5 days I have a strange sensation in my ears. An earache which feels like a thick liquid is oozing out. It is difficult to put into words. The vertigo and nausea is back...I believe the ear sensation, vertigo and nausea are all connected. Like seasickness.

Kristine,

That was my experience as well. The sensation is awful. It is so different than anything I have ever experienced it is reaffirming (in a sad way) to hear someone else describe it so accurately.  Yes I agree, I think they are connected.  It's horrible. I hope all your symptoms ease up soon.

RS

[Kristine]

1 minute ago, RachelSusan said:

Kristine,

That was my experience as well. The sensation is awful. It is so different than anything I have ever experienced it is reaffirming (in a sad way) to hear someone else describe it so accurately.  Yes I agree, I think they are connected.  It's horrible. I hope all your symptoms ease up soon.

RS

Hey RS, so lovely to hear from you  thank you so much for commenting on this and to echo that you to have suffered from these gaggle of symptoms. I wish you hadn't  it is so very difficult to find the correct words to fit a sensation/experience that is so weird and unpleasant...I'm finding many symptoms are difficult to put into words. Love and hugs. K xo 

[RachelSusan]

Kristine,  You did indeed get hit with very heavy withdrawal symptoms. And it is indeed so hard to find words to describe those symptoms. That's why when I read you post I said, "that is it, that's it, that's how I felt." I used to tell my family members that it was like some top secret special torture ray gun was used on me that sent pain into every cell of my body from the most nuclear level outward, and that still didn't begin to describe the pain of withdrawal. The pain is not pain in the traditional sense but still the worst pain I have ever experienced in life.  However like you said in earlier posts, humor is the key.  For example, your quote below hit home, however then MY sense of humor kicked in.

On 4/20/2018 at 6:13 PM, Kristine said:

If I were physically able, I'd go into the wilderness and camp by myself. I feel like I need to scream into the universe at the top of my lungs.

I though, yes that is what I want to do.  Then I though oh wait, I can't do that, screaming would cause pain because of my sensitivity to sound. Maybe I can whisper into the universe? I think we can cry or try and find the humor in it, or perhaps do both? Also here's to putting our heads in a bucket of peanut butter.

 

To better days Kristine. 

 

xo

RS

[FarmGirlWorks]

15 hours ago, Kristine said:

Lordy, if I knew sticking my head in a bucket of peanut butter would help I'd give that a go

I'll add "sticking my head in a bucket of peanut butter" to "dog's breakfast" which I still use. Ah, WD sucks lemons (I'd say something else but trying to keep it PG). Good vibes being sent your way across a few continents and a bit of water.

[Kristine]

On 27/04/2018 at 10:28 PM, RachelSusan said:

Kristine,  You did indeed get hit with very heavy withdrawal symptoms. And it is indeed so hard to find words to describe those symptoms. That's why when I read you post I said, "that is it, that's it, that's how I felt." I used to tell my family members that it was like some top secret special torture ray gun was used on me that sent pain into every cell of my body from the most nuclear level outward, and that still didn't begin to describe the pain of withdrawal. The pain is not pain in the traditional sense but still the worst pain I have ever experienced in life.  However like you said in earlier posts, humor is the key.  For example, your quote below hit home, however then MY sense of humor kicked in.

On 21/04/2018 at 11:13 AM, Kristine said:

If I were physically able, I'd go into the wilderness and camp by myself. I feel like I need to scream into the universe at the top of my lungs.

I though, yes that is what I want to do.  Then I though oh wait, I can't do that, screaming would cause pain because of my sensitivity to sound. Maybe I can whisper into the universe? I think we can cry or try and find the humor in it, or perhaps do both? Also here's to putting our heads in a bucket of peanut butter.

 

 

Hey RS, Your lovely post made me laugh...thank you so much...it has been even tougher today and I certainly feel like I'm being tortured by a ray gun...so your words are greatly appreciated  as far as whispering to The universe? Yeah, give it a go, but you may need to 'flip the bird' at the same time!  We need to cry and laugh...heck, sometimes I do both at the same time! Thinking of you RS. Much Love and (((hugs))) K xo

[Kristine]

20 hours ago, FarmGirlWorks said:

I'll add "sticking my head in a bucket of peanut butter" to "dog's breakfast" which I still use. Ah, WD sucks lemons (I'd say something else but trying to keep it PG). Good vibes being sent your way across a few continents and a bit of water.

Just make sure it's crunchy  it sure does "suck lemons"..yeah, I've got a few choice words myself. Sending you good vibes as well FGW. Much Love and (((hugs))) K xo

[Kristine]

On 25/04/2018 at 1:20 PM, Downbutnotout said:

On 25/04/2018 at 12:56 PM, Rosetta said:

Dear Kristine, you are so kind to everyone.  Thank you for being there for me when you are suffering so.  I wish you much more than 3 hours of sleep tonight.  And a nap, too!

Yes, I agree. With all of it.a truly unselfish person. I hope your suffering diminishes.

Hey D, thank you for stopping by and for your kind words. You have been in my thoughts and I'm also hoping your suffering has eased. Much Love and (((hugs))) K xo

[Kristine]

Hey All,  The ongoing insomnia is taking its toll. i have increased the magnisium to 150mg daily divided into 4 doses. I am considering reintroducing fish oil tomorrow. I do have a natural supplement for insomnia containing "ziziphus, hops and lactium"...or should I consider melatonin? Aspirin? To be honest I don't know what to do. My resolve to "ride it out" is cracking but I know I have no choice. Any advise would be welcome. 

 

Love to you All. K xo

[SkyBlue]

7 minutes ago, Kristine said:

Hey All,  The ongoing insomnia is taking its toll. i have increased the magnisium to 150mg daily divided into 4 doses. I am considering reintroducing fish oil tomorrow. I do have a natural supplement for insomnia containing "ziziphus, hops and lactium"...or should I consider melatonin? 

 

 

Hi Kristine,

 

Insomnia can be brutal for sure. 

 

Fish oil definitely sounds worth a try. There is a thread here: http://survivingantidepressants.org/topic/36-king-of-supplements-omega-3-fatty-acids-fish-oil/

 

*(Most of the info you'll need is in the first post)

 

Magnesium can be really good for insomnia...As long as you're tolerating the 150mg/day, maybe you could try increasing very, very gradually?

I personally take 500mg/day because I worked out that I do best on that amount. I'm not suggesting that you take 500mg!, but just that there's possible wiggle room for improvement with magnesium.

 

Are you able to practice good sleep hygiene (no screens [computer etc] for a while before bed; having a regular bedtime routine, etc.), as that can help too.

 

I hope it gets better soon for you.

[Kristine]

Thank you so very much SkyBlue, I have tolerated 150mg of magnesium so I'm sure I can increase it a ltttle more and introduce the fish oil as well. 

11 minutes ago, SkyBlue said:

Are you able to practice good sleep hygiene (no screens [computer etc] for a while before bed; having a regular bedtime routine, etc.), as that can help too.

I have tried everything...however, I've found I am unable to sleep prior to 2am. The following is a recent post which describes what happens....

On 27/04/2018 at 10:21 AM, Kristine said:

Update:  The main issue for me is ongoing insomnia. The sleep deprivation is exacerbating all my other symptoms. Insomnia started to get bad in August 2017 when I ceased the Seroquel...so it has been an ongoing problem. However, currently im only getting a maximum of 4 hours sleep. At worst one hour. I find it extremely difficult getting to sleep. I never fall asleep prior to 2am. I feel agitated, restless, can't keep my legs still. I have to get up and walk around. I rub magnesium oil into my legs but this doesn't help. My skin is hot and itchy. Sometimes I feel like I want to rip my skin off. When I do eventually fall asleep it is always a broken sleep. I often have nightmares and wake gasping for air. Or I just wake from a light sleep which doesn't feel like I was asleep in the first place.

 

I introduced 75mg of magnesium on the 21st of April. I don't think is helping or making anything worse. I've read that aspirin might help, I think Alto wrote that somewhere. 

I think I'm suffering from mild to moderate akathisia. Trouble is this has all been going on for so long I am no doubt suffering from battle fatigue. I ordered a weighted blanket online two days ago, hopefully it will arrive next week.

Much Love K xo

 

 

[Rabe]

Im so sorry Kristine...I so hope the weighted blanket is a help!  So hard to function without sleep...thinking about you!!