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26/F. Depression/anxiety. History of being somewhat underweight. Family history of severe mood disorders. My brother killed himself about 6 months ago.

 

2007-2013: Lexapro 10-20 mg. Took this on and off, with 2 cold turkey "quits." I remember it took about 7-8 days of sleeping and withdrawal symptoms both times. Luckily this time around, my SSRI has a much longer half-life, and wellbutrin has been pretty tame so far in terms of withdrawl side effects. 

 

2015: Moved out of state by myself. Lived alone. Started seeing psychiatrist regularly. After trying: citalopram, sertraline, and the SR version of bupropion, my stable prescription has been 150 mg bupropion XL (wellbutrin) and 30 mg fluoxetine (prozac) in the morning everyday. Wellbutrin was my "Godsend." I was crying for 12 hours a day for no reason. Wellbutrin made it possible to get out of bed.

 

2017: Moved back with family. They're feeding me and taking care of me. I'm trying a taper because of side effects. There are so many "mild" ones that it's difficult to even identify them anymore - I've accepted them as just "normal". The dizziness, the foggy brain, the random "blank" moments when I forget what I'm saying mid-sentence. GI symptoms...  Etc. I stopped the wellbutrin earlier this week. According to this website: https://www.health.harvard.edu/diseases-and-conditions/going-off-antidepressants it should be out my system 99% by now. Keeping the prozac consistent. I have a ~10 or so pills of .025 generic xanax that I'm keeping for panic attack emergencies or acute withdrawal symptoms. I'm taking 3 capsules of 10mg each. I might try dropping one whole capsule for a week and see how I do. I will be of work for a few weeks so it will be a good time to experiment.

 

I'm trying to add lifestyles changes that will help me manage depression. Here is what I am trying right now, in approximate order of perceived efficacy: 

1. exercise: 3-5 days a week, trying to get 150min of moderate cardio and 2 days of full body strength (per CDC recommendation). Has helped with mood, self-esteem, dramatically improved sleep quality and appetite.

2. meditation: using an app for this. started with 3 minutes, went up to 10. Haven't done it the last few days, will start again tonight. 

3. sleeping hygiene - work in progress.

4. diet: avoiding processed foods and junk foods, eating 3 good meals a day, lots of water. I have been experiencing huge pangs of thirst since stopping wellbutrin. I'm taking a few supplements (curcumin, probiotics, among others) but I don't know if that's doing anything.

 

I'm interested in "gut health" - apparently there's a huge connection between the gut and the brain, eh? Trying to take care of it. I'm also reading some books. Currently reading Upward Spiral. Has anyone read it? Here's the description: "Depression can feel like a downward spiral, pulling you into a vortex of sadness, fatigue, and apathy. In The Upward Spiral, neuroscientist Alex Korb demystifies the intricate brain processes that cause depression and offers a practical and effective approach to getting better. Based on the latest research in neuroscience, this book provides dozens of straightforward tips you can do every day to rewire your brain and create an upward spiral towards a happier, healthier life."

 

Here's to managing symptoms... of the meds, withdrawal symptoms, and depression. 

 

 


Wellbutrin XL 150 mg

Prozac 20 mg

Xanax .25 mg as needed


 

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Gridley
Hello, Soylec and welcome to SA.  You have a great attitude, which is much of the battle, and have instituted some excellent lifestyle changes.
 
If I understand your post correctly, earlier this week you cold-turkeyed 150mg Wellbutrin earlier this week.  You said:  "According to this website: https://www.health.harvard.edu/diseases-and-conditions/going-off-antidepressants it should be out my system 99% by now."
 
Unfortunately, that is not the way it works with antidepressants.  Unlike, for example, aspirin, which ceases to have an effect once it is out of your system, antidepressants actually change the brain, and the fact that it is "out of your system" does not alter this.   I urge you to read the following link:
 

 

I am concerned that your cold-turkey is going to cause you some unpleasant withdrawal symptoms.  At Surviving Antidepressants, it is recommended that a person taper by no more than 10% of their current dose with at least a four week hold in-between decreases.  The 10% taper recommendation is a harm reduction approach to going off psychiatric drugs.  Some people may have to taper at a more conservative rate as they are sensitive to even the smallest drops.  Please read these links:


Why taper by 10% of my dosage?

What is Withdrawal Syndrome?

 

I know you are anxious to get off this drug.  Even so, you should consider reinstating a small dose of Wellbutrin.  The fact that you only recently discontinued the drug is to your advantage.   At this time, reinstatement of a small dose of the original drug is the only known way to help alleviate withdrawal syndrome.  Then, after you stabilize (after your symptoms become manageable) you can begin a 10% taper to get the rest of the way off the Wellbutrin.  The only other alternative is to try and wait out the symptoms and manage as best you can until your central nervous system returns to homeostasis.  Unfortunately no one can give you an exact timeline as to when you will start feeling better and while some do recover relatively easily, for others it can take many months to many years.  

 

This link explains reinstatement:

 

About reinstating and stabilizing to reduce withdrawal symptoms ...

 

We ask all of our members to fill out a signature so that all of your information can be read at a glance.  This helps moderators determine you current situation and give informed advice.  We would ask that you follow the instructions at the link below.

 

 

 •    Please leave out symptoms and diagnoses.
 •    A list is easier to understand than one or multiple paragraphs. 
 •    Any drugs prior to 24 months ago can just be listed with start and stop years.
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Is reinstatement something you would consider?  If so, after you have posted your signature, I will ask the other moderators what amount of Wellbutrin would be advisable to reinstate.
 
 
 

 

 


Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 11month taper is 100% complete.

 

Lorazepam 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, resumed a few months later. CT 2000.  1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept, 2016 increased to 0.5 X 3 in split dose. Sept. 2019 increased to 0.625 X 3 after crossover to new brand

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 15mg.  Aug 2016, discovered SA, updosed to 25mg and holding.  Taper is 66% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, melatonin .3mg


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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Hi Gridley, thanks for the welcome and the informative post.

 

I am willing to reinstate the wellbutrin if I experience any noticeable withdrawal effects. If it gets harder to get out of bed, I'll reinstate it as well.  Somehow I am unscathed, but it has only been 7 days.I'm  in a relatively safe space - off work, living with family. I'm just feeling gutsy enough to go for it. Wellbutrin is also just unusual, as it doesn't "fit" into the other categories of antidepressants. So far, have not experienced anything unpleasant. The only symptom I have noticed was on day 2, I felt extremely sleepy. Somewhat increased thirst.

 

I am planning on tapering the prozac, as it is an SSRI and I have experienced withdrawal effects with those before. I will likely not do a 10% taper unless I have to. I understand that the 10% rule has been is considered the golden standard in terms of safety and limiting risks of withdrawal symptoms and other severe side effects. What I'm gambling on is essentially that maybe I am/will be "one of the lucky ones" who does not experience severe repercussions. 

 

I am keeping a log and will continue to monitor for symptoms.


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Prozac 20 mg

Xanax .25 mg as needed


 

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Welcome, soylec.

 

What are the side effects you've been experiencing from Prozac and Wellbutrin? Has this symptom pattern changed since you went off Wellbutrin?

 

Please be aware that, aside from those who were told by their doctors to go off too fast, every person here who went off a drug too fast and developed withdrawal syndrome was counting on being "one of the lucky ones."

 

Going on and off drugs can make your system sensitive to reductions. Since you just went off Wellbutrin, if I were you, I'd wait a couple of months before tapering Prozac, to make sure your system was not upset by going off Wellbutrin.


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Hi Soylec and welcome to SA.  I love your list of lifestyle changes 🙂 I'll take note! I'm also interested in gut health but have only scratch the surface at this point in time. K


  • Citalopram 20mg - 40mg ~ approx 2010 - October 2015 (stopped over one week)
  • Parnate  20mg - 50mg and olazapine 5mg ~ Jan 2016 - May 2016 (ceased over 2 days) 
  • Lithium 450mg-900 mg and Thyroxin ~May 2016 - May 2017
  • Diazepam various doses (including PRN) ~ 2015 - 2017
  • Oxazepam various doses (including PRN) ~ May 2016 - June 2016
  • Lurasidone 20mg ~Mid May 2016 - Mid June 2016
  • Vortioxetine 10mg - 20mg ~ 6th June 2016 - 20th July 2016 (abruptly ceased)
  • Amitriptyline 200mg ~July 2016 - September 2016 (ceased over 1 week)
  • Nortriptyline  (dose ?) ~October 2016 ~ November 2016 (abruptly ceased)
  • Seroquel XR 100mg - 300mg ~ May 2016 - August 2017 (ceased over 3 weeks)
  • Escitalopram 10mg - 30mg ~ August 2016 - March 2017 (ceased over 2 weeks)
  • Bupropion 300mg ~ December 2016 - May 2017 (ceased over 1 week)
  • Clonazepam 1.5mg daily ~ July 2016 (started tapering May 2017 - September 2017 currently on 0.375mg..ie 0.125mg TDS) 27th May 2018 5% 0.357mg (possible paradoxical reaction - see benzo thread)  28th June 5% 0.337mg, 28th July 10% 0.303mg, 12th September10% 0.272mg, 18th September reinstated 10% due to intolerable WD 0.303mg, 1st October-11th Oct 10% (1% reduction over 10 days) 0.272mg, 22nd October clonazepam ceased crossed over 10mg diazepam
  •  Dexamphatamine 20mg ~ December 2016 (started tapering October 2017 - tapered 1.25mg 4th Dec 2017, 1.25mg 19th Dec 2017 6.25mg, Speed up decrease due to major interaction between Dex and fluoxetine- ref to thread 10% 17th Feb 2018 5.63mg, 10% 21st Feb 2018 5.1mg, 10% 26th Feb 2018 4.5mg 10% 28th Feb 4.1mg, 10% 1st March 3.7mg, 10% 5th March 3.3mg, 10% 8th March 3mg, 10% 10th March 2.7mg, 10% 12th March 2.4mg, 10% 14th March 2.16mg, 10% 16th March 1.94mg, 10% 18th March 1.74mg, 10% 20th March 1.57mg, 10% 21st March 1.41mg, 10% 22nd March 1.26mg, 10% 23rd March 1.13mg, 10% 24th March 1.01mg, 10% 25th March 0.9mg, 10% 27th March 0.81mg, 10% 29th March 0.73mg, 10% 31st March 0.66mg, 10% 2nd April 0.59mg , 10% 4th April 0.53mg, 10% 6th April 0.47mg, 10% 8th April 0.42mg, 10%10th April 0.37mg, 11th April 0.2mg, 12th April 0.1mg (last dose) OFF! 
  • Fluoxetine 40mg ~December 2016 -.31 Jan 2018 reduced to 20mg (probable serotonin toxicity) 10th March 2020 10mg, 7th April 9mg, 1st May 8.5mg, 15th May 8.0mg, 27th May 7.5mg, 8th Sept 7.2mg, 2nd Oct 7mg, 19th Oct 6.8mg, 28th Oct 6.6mg 
  • Diazepam 10mg ~ 22nd Oct 2018, 10th November 8mg, 14th Nov 7mg, 8th December 6mg, 30th December 5mg (Nocte), 7th March 2019 4.5mg,14th March 4mg, 5th April 3.5mg, 9th April 3mg, 18th April 2.5mg,1st May 2mg, 17th May 1.75mg, 25th May 1.6mg, 4th June 1.59mg, 5th June 1.58mg, 6th June 1.57mg, 7th June 1.56mg, 8th June 1.55mg, 22nd June 1.4mg, 4th July 1.2mg, 16th July 1mg, 30th July 0.8mg, 13th Aug 0.6mg, 28th Aug 0.4mg, 10th Sept 0.2mg, 23rd Sept Off! 
  • SR Circadin 2mg (melatonin) 25th May - 20th June 
  • Zolpidem 10mg 25th May (7 tablets)
  • Supplements: Magnesium glycinate (soluble - sip throughout the day) 

 

"Whenever you feel yourself doubting how far you can go,  just remember how far you have come.  Remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome"    Unknown 

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Hi everyone. Quick update. I have not experienced any significant withdrawal symptoms from stopping wellbutrin. Talked to a friend of mine, and she actually quit taking hers because she ran out of a prescription! She has a master's in nursing... Lol. Doesn't take care of herself sometimes. Anyway, looks like she is doing fine, and didn't report any side effects either.

 

I am starting to taper off from the fluoxetine. Last 2 days I've taken 10mg vs the 30 mg. I have noticed increased sleepiness and thirst. I feel weird and foggy, but it's like a 1 on a scale of 1-10.

 

Continuing to exercise. I am doing ok. 

 

Interesting how getting off medication is just as much of a relief as getting on them? I guess my life situation has changed and the increase in other supports (especially family support and not living alone) and a relatively low stress job (as compared to a competitive graduate program) has allowed me to reduce medicines. For now. I am more than willing to take them again should the need arise. 

 

I understand that this is peer support or people experiencing withdrawal symptoms, so I am not sure if my posts are useful here. So far I am fine. 

 

Has anyone research withdrawl symptoms by age and exercise levels? I know younger people heal much faster, so maybe my brain is bouncing back faster than it would if I were 56 or even 46. There's just so little understood about these drugs... I am grateful that they helped me get through graduate school. I truly don't think I would've made it without them.


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Prozac 20 mg

Xanax .25 mg as needed


 

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Some side effects that may be related to reducing prozac:

  • strange feelings of coldness in the legs, especially at night (not due to temperature changes)
  • dreams - anytime I start/stop an antidepressant, I notice changes in dreams.
  • continuing brain fog and sleepiness.

overall feeling "fine".


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Had a crying spell last night. The meds definitely prevented/minimized those...


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Update: My depression symptoms returned with a vengeance. I'm back on Wellbutrin 150 mg and Prozac 20 mg. I am also doing intensive group therapy. I have 1 or 2 more weeks of this therapy. It seems to be helping.


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REMINDER TO SELF:

I don't need the drug now, but my still brain does.

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (caused muscle weakness), Zoloft/sertraline; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (mild Serotonin Toxicity)

Began tapering Oct 2015  Current from 17 Oct 2020:  Pristiq 0.56 mg (compounded + liquid)

My tapering program

My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

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I tried tapering 10% of the Prozac using liquid. I took 18 mg for 4 days (instead of 20 mg). Today I went back to 20mg because the headache was driving me nuts. Low mood. Anxiety, irritable. I thought I had learned my lesson and that I should follow the 10% rule. Looks like either I'm not ready to taper, and when/(if?) I am, I might need to taper even more slowly. Also... I think I need to quit the Wellbutrin first. That is much more complicated due to the XL... I just don't have the energy to do that. Even making the liquid of Prozac seemed like a lot of work. Last few nights I have had some weird nights - not being able to sleep, feeling too hot. It's bizarre. 

 

I guess I need to continue to work on boosting up other areas off my life before I try to reduce any of the meds. My psychiatrist said that I need to take these drugs for 2 years before considering a taper. Which is super discouraging... There is a lot of side effects...


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Prozac 20 mg

Xanax .25 mg as needed


 

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19 hours ago, soylec said:

I tried tapering 10% of the Prozac using liquid. I took 18 mg for 4 days (instead of 20 mg). Today I went back to 20mg because the headache was driving me nuts. Low mood. Anxiety, irritable. I thought I had learned my lesson and that I should follow the 10% rule. Looks like either I'm not ready to taper, and when/(if?) I am, I might need to taper even more slowly. Also... I think I need to quit the Wellbutrin first. That is much more complicated due to the XL... I just don't have the energy to do that. Even making the liquid of Prozac seemed like a lot of work. Last few nights I have had some weird nights - not being able to sleep, feeling too hot. It's bizarre. 

 

I guess I need to continue to work on boosting up other areas off my life before I try to reduce any of the meds. My psychiatrist said that I need to take these drugs for 2 years before considering a taper. Which is super discouraging... There is a lot of side effects...

 

 

Hi Solec, 

 

You need to stabilise first before you reduce again. I can’t reduce by 10%. It’s way too high for me, I’ve been reducing by about 4% to 5% . I still get withdrawals though, but they are bearable. I do still get waves when I’m tapering even by small amounts. You will get some symptoms. 

 

The mods here will give you advice about tapering. I dont know anything about the different meds and which to taper first etc, but they always have excellent advice. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

 

 

 

 

 

 


Been on antipsychotics, benzos, antidepressants and painkillers for chronic pain. 

Have been cold turkeyed and put on and off all sorts of things.  Was suicidal n ended up in a psych ward because I had akathisia from withdrawals. I can’t remember what I was put on but when I was released was in the same predicament with severe akathisia n was suicidal again.

Back to the psych ward and I was given a number of different drugs while there. Tapered off one when I got home n have been trying to taper off Seroquel since. It’s been years, tapering slowly but still having severe withdrawals.

I’ve  tapered from 300mg of Seroquel to 7.5mg./ March 10th 2019=7.25mg / 17th of April 2019= 7mg / June 5th=6.75mg/ July 14th=6.50mg/ 28th of August=6.25mg/ 10th of Oct= 6.20mg/ 21st October 6mg/ 16th of December 5.80mg/21st of January 5.60mg/

 

I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL. These are my own views based on what I’ve experienced myself.

 

 

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Here we go again.

 

Haven't taken wellbutrin in a few months. More tired. But less stomach issues.

 

Today is day 2 without prozac. I actually just ran out... whoops. ordered refill. Will try to botch some sort of taper together...  I'm off work for 2 weeks. Big gamble.


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Feeling sleepy and tired. Didn't make it to the pharmacy but went to therapy and saw a friend. 


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Found my brother's old Prozac 40mg. Dumped out approx Half the capsule and took it. 

 

Have been taking Xanax .25 mg at night and that has improved my quality of sleep 


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I guess this is day 24.

 

Some lessons learned for my future self, should I find myself in this position again.

1. If taken Wellbutrin and Prozac, wean off Wellbutrin first.

2. Prozac is a lot easier to wean of when compared to Lexapro and Zoloft. 

3. Watch out for hormones/PMS. 

 

I ended up doing a Prozac "self-taper" and it was generally okay-ish so far. This have been complicated because I have been on break, I have been sick (head cold/etc). I don't know if I should just start taking it again? I need to exercise and eat better.


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Disappointed. Dizzy. Still have a cold. I'm sick off these withdrawal symptoms.The reality is that I wanted this to be a quick and easy process. Now I'm just angry that none of my doctors ever warned me about the withdrawal process. Head is so off.


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Surviving. Definitely feeling windows of "completely okay" and "not okay". Was consistently fine until few days ago. Last night felt like I was going to die from grief/panic. One breath at a time. 

 

EDIT: PMS window


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On 12/15/2018 at 9:14 AM, soylec said:

Here we go again.

 

Haven't taken wellbutrin in a few months. More tired. But less stomach issues.

 

Today is day 2 without prozac. I actually just ran out... whoops. ordered refill. Will try to botch some sort of taper together...  I'm off work for 2 weeks. Big gamble.

 

On 12/17/2018 at 5:34 AM, soylec said:

Found my brother's old Prozac 40mg. Dumped out approx Half the capsule and took it. 

 

Have been taking Xanax .25 mg at night and that has improved my quality of sleep 

 

On 1/7/2019 at 10:18 AM, soylec said:

I guess this is day 24.

 

Some lessons learned for my future self, should I find myself in this position again.

1. If taken Wellbutrin and Prozac, wean off Wellbutrin first.

2. Prozac is a lot easier to wean of when compared to Lexapro and Zoloft. 

3. Watch out for hormones/PMS. 

 

I ended up doing a Prozac "self-taper" and it was generally okay-ish so far. This have been complicated because I have been on break, I have been sick (head cold/etc). I don't know if I should just start taking it again? I need to exercise and eat better.

 

Hi soylec, 

 

Wow! You’ve made a lot of changes, no wonder you felt in a state of panic.  Could you please update your signature with the dates and the changes you’ve made. Thanks.

 

How are you feeling now?💚


Been on antipsychotics, benzos, antidepressants and painkillers for chronic pain. 

Have been cold turkeyed and put on and off all sorts of things.  Was suicidal n ended up in a psych ward because I had akathisia from withdrawals. I can’t remember what I was put on but when I was released was in the same predicament with severe akathisia n was suicidal again.

Back to the psych ward and I was given a number of different drugs while there. Tapered off one when I got home n have been trying to taper off Seroquel since. It’s been years, tapering slowly but still having severe withdrawals.

I’ve  tapered from 300mg of Seroquel to 7.5mg./ March 10th 2019=7.25mg / 17th of April 2019= 7mg / June 5th=6.75mg/ July 14th=6.50mg/ 28th of August=6.25mg/ 10th of Oct= 6.20mg/ 21st October 6mg/ 16th of December 5.80mg/21st of January 5.60mg/

 

I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL. These are my own views based on what I’ve experienced myself.

 

 

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I'm doing fine. It's the hormonal changes  (PMS/PMDD) that really mess everything up. I don't know how to change signature on mobile. 


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Sigh. Deeply considering getting back on meds. Haven't had therapy since 2019 due to new insurance plan.


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