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paxiljunkie: OCD & ME: Chronicles of a Paxil junkie


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Hello, my name is Jamie and I have had OCD since I can remember? I have been on numerous meds since I was 17 and am now 47. I have been addicted to paxil though for 20 years now and have not been able to successfully ween off of this med for any great length of time as the addiction to the med is to strong for me to bear. I am not saying that paxil never helped me in the beginning, it seemed to work for me, however as time passed and when I tried to stop taking it, did I really realize how much this med had control over me! Other meds I had taken I could seem to take  and then stop when I wanted, not this paxil, it has never given me the 'green light' to quit its usage. I have had more downs than ups while on this med and even had to be hospitalized twice in 2007 for severe withdrawl due to its abrupt stoppage. My life before this drug was 'not bad', yes I struggled at times with my OCD, but I was more 'functional' in my opinion than I am these current years that have passed by. If I had of known of the roller coaster ride this med would take me on over the last 20 years, I would have never purchased that 'ticket' so to speak! My eventual goal is to be paxil free, a dream of mine, to see how I actually feel without this poison in my system! Cheers! Jamie.

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Hello, paxiljunkie and welcome to Surviving Antidepressants.
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At Surviving Antidepressants, it is recommended that a person taper by no more than 10% of their current dose with at least a four week hold in-between decreases.  The 10% taper recommendation is a harm reduction approach to going off psychiatric drugs.  Some people may have to taper at a more conservative rate as they are sensitive to even the smallest drops.  Sorry about your hospitalizations.   Severe withdrawal symptoms are quite often the result of a too-rapid taper.
To help you better cope with withdrawal, these techniques in this link should be helpful:
We don't recommend a lot of supplements on SA, as many members report being sensitive to them due to our over-reactive nervous systems, but two supplements that we do recommend are magnesium and omega 3 (fish oil). Many people find these to be calming to the nervous system. 




Please research all supplements first and only add in one at a time and at a low dose in case you do experience problems.


To get you familiarized with the protocols followed by SA, I am linking a few topics so that you have a better understanding of what is recommended here. 



Gridley Introduction


Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.


Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements

Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium

Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium  

End 2021  year 1 of taper at 6mg

End 2022 year 2 of taper at 2.75mg 

Current dose as of Sept. 22, 2023 1.4mg

Taper is 92% complete.


Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan-Sept 2016 tapered to 14.4mg  

March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper

Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper

Taper is 87% complete.  


Supplements: omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, zinc, melatonin .3mg

I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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