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2 hours ago, nz11 said:

You are going to be okay Hannah 

Well done on making a decision in what is clearly a most difficult time.

As Lex says we are wishing this goes well for you. 

Many people can take several months to stabilize after a ri.   But you have already said that day 1 you feel somewhat better. That's a great sign.

Don't be hard on yourself about ri you have to do what you have to do. Don't feel a failure about this, the only failure here is your doctor.

   

 

Your gonna be okay we all going to be ok it's just a matter of time. I feel the same way you do and i know it's hard but we're gonna get better that's what i keep reminding myself. Drinks lots of water, vitamins some oat milk. Message me if you wanna talk am in the same boat as you right now.

God bless 

My first antidepressant ever.

Zoloft September 12, 2017.

First 3, 4 days on 50 mg. 

My doctor lower my dose to 25 mg later that week. September 19.

From September 19 till November 14 taking 25 mg.

September 14 started to taper of 25 mg to half the pill.

Did that for a week only

September 14 is when i decided to quit completely.

December 2 marks 18 days off Zoloft.

Zyprexa for one week, November 

Ativan 1mg for one week, December 

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Thanks everyone for your help. I ended up reinstating 2.5mg and am on day 5 or 6. I feel so much better emotionally but physically some weird things are happening (which I think were starting to occur before reinstatement but can't be 100% sure. Feeling really super paranoid that it was the wrong thing to do? But I'm more paranoid that I have permanent brain damage. Here are my symptomms:

Weird brain sensations

Metallica taste in mouth

Disturbing, intrusive thoughts

Intrusive memories (good, neutral and bad; all with no obvious trigger)

Sense of not knowing where I am

Time travelling - sometimes all of a sudden in my mind I feel as if it's 2011 or earlier. It's really scary. 

Not recognizing people properly, mostly only having a sense or  who they were years and years ago. For example when I think of my sister I can only see her as her 16 year old self so many years ago.  

 

I'm really scared I won't heal or I've made it worse by reinstating.  But I feel so so so much Beyer emotionally for doing so. 

 

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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It’s been a week since ri how are you feeling Hannah

a little better I hope.

Thought for the day: Lets stand up, and let’s speak out , together. G Olsen

We have until the 14th. Feb 2018. 

URGENT REQUEST Please consider submitting  for the petition on Prescribed Drug Dependence and Withdrawal currently awaiting its third consideration at the Scottish Parliament. You don't even have to be from Scotland. By clicking on the link below you can read some of the previous submissions but be warned many of them are quite harrowing.

http://www.parliament.scot/GettingInvolved/Petitions/PE01651   

Please tell them about your problems taking and withdrawing from antidepressants and/or benzos.

Send by email to petitions@parliament.scot and quote PE01651 in the subject heading. Keep to a maximum of 3 sides of A4 and you can't name for legal reasons any doctor you have consulted. Tell them if you wish to remain anonymous. We need the numbers to help convince the committee members we are not isolated cases. You have until mid February. Thank you

Recovering paxil addict

None of the published articles shed light on what ssri's ... actually do or what their hazards might be. Healy 2013. 

This is so true, with anything you get on these drugs, dependance, tapering, withdrawal symptoms, side effects, just silent. And if there is something mentioned then their is a serious disconnect between what is said and reality! 

  "Every time I read of a multi-person shooting, I always presume that person had just started a SSRI or had just stopped."  Dr Mosher. Me too! 

Over two decades later, the number of antidepressant prescriptions a year is slightly more than the number of people in the Western world. Most (nine out of 10) prescriptions are for patients who faced difficulties on stopping, equating to about a tenth of the population. These patients are often advised to continue treatment because their difficulties indicate they need ongoing treatment, just as a person with diabetes needs insulin. Healy 2015

I believe the ssri era will soon stand as one of the most shameful in the history of medicine. Healy 2015

Let people help people ... in a natural, kind, non-addictive (and non-big pharma) way. J Broadley 2017

 

 

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Hi nz11,

 

Not doing very well. I have a really strange tightness in my brain. Tightness and/or pressure. I also have strange sensations in my brain, similar to brain zaps, but they aren't brain zaps at all. It's as if u can physically feel my brain not working as it should.  My thoughts are racing a million miles an hour, I can't catch one thought before the next one. It's non stop and I can't slow down. I also can't seem to focus my brain as hard as I try. I'm really worried that I'm going to snap/lose control. I feel so revved up.  Cant feel my emotions very well (perhaps feeling a bit hypomanic). I'm not sure if this is withdrawal, RI or the fact I took a couple doses of an antibiotic called erythromycin for a skin infection (which I promptly stopped after two days in fear it was causing this, however it's been three days and the symptoms haven't gone away). Really scared.

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Hi Hanna, I'm sorry you are not getting a moments peace at the moment.  It will pass.  The symptoms you descibe are very familiar to me.  I used to feel like a thick rubber band was wrapped around my head and a metal plate was stuck behind my eyes.

 

28 minutes ago, hannahG said:

I also have strange sensations in my brain, similar to brain zaps, but they aren't brain zaps at all.

I think I understand this feeling.  I get a fizzy, flickering, jolting sensation in my brain but I'm happy to report this has improved and is much less intense.  It does ease. All the other symptoms you are describing I have also experienced.  It certainly sounds like withdrawal to me... just trying to give you a glimmer of hope Hanna...that's very important to get through these giant waves.  Sending you healing. K 😊

  • Citalopram 20mg - 40mg ~ approx 2010 - October 2015 (stopped over one week)
  • Parnate  20mg - 50mg and olazapine 5mg ~ Jan 2016 - May 2016 (ceased over 2 days) 
  • Lithium 450mg-900 mg and Thyroxin ~May 2016 - May 2017
  • Diazepam various doses (including PRN) ~ 2015 - 2017
  • Oxazepam various doses (including PRN) ~ May 2016 - June 2016
  • Lurasidone 20mg ~Mid May 2016 - Mid June 2016
  • Vortioxetine 10mg - 20mg ~ 6th June 2016 - 20th July 2016 (abruptly ceased)
  • Amitriptyline 200mg ~July 2016 - September 2016 (ceased over 1 week)
  • Nortriptyline  (dose ?) ~October 2016 ~ November 2016 (abruptly ceased)
  • Seroquel XR 100mg - 300mg ~ May 2016 - August 2017 (ceased over 3 weeks)
  • Escitalopram 10mg - 30mg ~ August 2016 - March 2017 (ceased over 2 weeks)
  • Bupropion 300mg ~ December 2016 - May 2017 (ceased over 1 week)
  • Clonazepam 1.5mg daily ~ July 2016 (started tapering May 2017 - September 2017 currently on 0.375mg..ie 0.125mg TDS) 27th May 2018 5% 0.357mg (possible paradoxical reaction - see benzo thread)  28th June 5% 0.337mg, 28th July 10% 0.303mg, 12th September10% 0.272mg, 18th September reinstated 10% due to intolerable WD 0.303mg, 1st October-11th Oct 10% (1% reduction over 10 days) 0.272mg, 22nd October clonazepam ceased crossed over 10mg diazepam
  •  Dexamphatamine 20mg ~ December 2016 (started tapering October 2017 - tapered 1.25mg 4th Dec 2017, 1.25mg 19th Dec 2017 6.25mg, Speed up decrease due to major interaction between Dex and fluoxetine- ref to thread 10% 17th Feb 2018 5.63mg, 10% 21st Feb 2018 5.1mg, 10% 26th Feb 2018 4.5mg 10% 28th Feb 4.1mg, 10% 1st March 3.7mg, 10% 5th March 3.3mg, 10% 8th March 3mg, 10% 10th March 2.7mg, 10% 12th March 2.4mg, 10% 14th March 2.16mg, 10% 16th March 1.94mg, 10% 18th March 1.74mg, 10% 20th March 1.57mg, 10% 21st March 1.41mg, 10% 22nd March 1.26mg, 10% 23rd March 1.13mg, 10% 24th March 1.01mg, 10% 25th March 0.9mg, 10% 27th March 0.81mg, 10% 29th March 0.73mg, 10% 31st March 0.66mg, 10% 2nd April 0.59mg , 10% 4th April 0.53mg, 10% 6th April 0.47mg, 10% 8th April 0.42mg, 10%10th April 0.37mg, 11th April 0.2mg, 12th April 0.1mg (last dose) OFF! 
  • Fluoxetine 40mg ~December 2016 -.31 Jan 2018 reduced to 20mg (probable serotonin toxicity) 10th March 2020 10mg, 7th April 9mg, 1st May 8.5mg, 15th May 8.0mg, 27th May 7.5mg, 8th Sept 7.2mg, 2nd Oct 7mg, 19th Oct 6.8mg, 28th Oct 6.6mg, 5th Nov 6.4mg, 26th Nov 6mg, 2nd April 2021 5.9mg, 9th April 5.8mg, 19th April 5.75mg, 22nd April 5.7mg, 26th April 5.65mg,28th April 5.6mg, 1st May 5.5mg, 4th May 5.45mg, 7th May 5.4mg, 10th May 5.35mg, 12th May 5.3mg, 15th May 5.25mg, 18th May 5.2mg, 20th May 5.15mg, 22nd May 5mg
  • Diazepam 10mg ~ 22nd Oct 2018, 10th November 8mg, 14th Nov 7mg, 8th December 6mg, 30th December 5mg (Nocte), 7th March 2019 4.5mg,14th March 4mg, 5th April 3.5mg, 9th April 3mg, 18th April 2.5mg,1st May 2mg, 17th May 1.75mg, 25th May 1.6mg, 4th June 1.59mg, 5th June 1.58mg, 6th June 1.57mg, 7th June 1.56mg, 8th June 1.55mg, 22nd June 1.4mg, 4th July 1.2mg, 16th July 1mg, 30th July 0.8mg, 13th Aug 0.6mg, 28th Aug 0.4mg, 10th Sept 0.2mg, 23rd Sept Off! 
  • SR Circadin 2mg (melatonin) 25th May - 20th June 
  • Zolpidem 10mg 25th May (7 tablets)
  • Supplements: Magnesium glycinate (soluble - sip throughout the day) 

 

"Whenever you feel yourself doubting how far you can go,  just remember how far you have come.  Remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome"    Unknown 

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2 hours ago, hannahG said:

Hi nz11,

 

 My thoughts are racing a million miles an hour, I can't catch one thought before the next one. It's non stop and I can't slow down. I also can't seem to focus my brain as hard as I try. I'm really worried that I'm going to snap/lose control. I feel so revved up.  Cant feel my emotions very well (perhaps feeling a bit hypomanic). I'm not sure if this is withdrawal, RI or the fact I took a couple doses of an antibiotic called erythromycin for a skin infection (which I promptly stopped after two days in fear it was causing this, however it's been three days and the symptoms haven't gone away). Really scared.

 

Hannah,

 

I'm so sorry these meds have caused you to withdraw in this way.   I don't know whether the RI or the antibiotic could cause your racing thoughts, but I know that WD can as I experienced the same.  All I can say is that this symptom will stop.  You have to remember this: it is a normal part of WD.  It happens to some people and not others.  You are not going to lose control, but it certainly does feel that way, I know.   It might stop or slow down at any time.  You must remember that and not even think of giving up.  You will eventually stop having these racing thoughts.  I am proof.  I never figured out a way to make them slow down, but maybe someone on this forum did.  I'll look around for you and let you know if I find anything.

 

Rosetta

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hi Hannah thanks for taking the time to udpdate.

Even though you report not doing very well I didn't see the 's' word so maybe that's an improvement.

 

1. Well hypomania is a wdl symptom that is correct.

2. Your words of the revved up feeling reminds me of Healy's quote that used the analogy that ssris affect on the brain were like a revved up formula one car in a suburban street and in another I recall he likened it to a big articulated truck in a suburban street  he explained it by saying ssris are highly overpowered for what they are wanted for. Maybe its also like  putting the car into neutral and then flooring the accelerator. 

Your symptoms appear to have changed from your 4 of jan desperate reinstatement post to the one above when you say you are now taking 2.5mg daily and feeling revved up. So maybe its due to the ri. You brain is not used being flooded with a  constant amount daily for a while now so it is going to have some adjustments to make. 

3. These drugs are also known to react with antibiotics. Did you have these symptoms before you took the ab? I'm not so sure this is the cause though.

 

I agree with Rosetta and Kristine I think this will pass as things settle down.

 

Are you able to update your drug sig. ? Are you taking any other 'rescue doses ' of other drugs at this time? that you have forgotten to mention.

Wishing you strength and stability.

nz11

Can anyone recall where that Healy quote was from...was it the document given to member? SG? I think from memory it was. I guess I will have to go look it up.

 

Thought for the day: Lets stand up, and let’s speak out , together. G Olsen

We have until the 14th. Feb 2018. 

URGENT REQUEST Please consider submitting  for the petition on Prescribed Drug Dependence and Withdrawal currently awaiting its third consideration at the Scottish Parliament. You don't even have to be from Scotland. By clicking on the link below you can read some of the previous submissions but be warned many of them are quite harrowing.

http://www.parliament.scot/GettingInvolved/Petitions/PE01651   

Please tell them about your problems taking and withdrawing from antidepressants and/or benzos.

Send by email to petitions@parliament.scot and quote PE01651 in the subject heading. Keep to a maximum of 3 sides of A4 and you can't name for legal reasons any doctor you have consulted. Tell them if you wish to remain anonymous. We need the numbers to help convince the committee members we are not isolated cases. You have until mid February. Thank you

Recovering paxil addict

None of the published articles shed light on what ssri's ... actually do or what their hazards might be. Healy 2013. 

This is so true, with anything you get on these drugs, dependance, tapering, withdrawal symptoms, side effects, just silent. And if there is something mentioned then their is a serious disconnect between what is said and reality! 

  "Every time I read of a multi-person shooting, I always presume that person had just started a SSRI or had just stopped."  Dr Mosher. Me too! 

Over two decades later, the number of antidepressant prescriptions a year is slightly more than the number of people in the Western world. Most (nine out of 10) prescriptions are for patients who faced difficulties on stopping, equating to about a tenth of the population. These patients are often advised to continue treatment because their difficulties indicate they need ongoing treatment, just as a person with diabetes needs insulin. Healy 2015

I believe the ssri era will soon stand as one of the most shameful in the history of medicine. Healy 2015

Let people help people ... in a natural, kind, non-addictive (and non-big pharma) way. J Broadley 2017

 

 

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Hi Hannah,

 

I think I have ideas for you to try.

 

For racing thoughts:

 

Weighted blankets for racing thoughts.  If it works for physical Akathisia maybe it will work for mental Akathisia of the mind.  I didn't try this, but my experience with a heavy weighted heating pad tells me it could be useful.

 

1. Rocking

2. Heavy heating pads

I used these two resources when I had racing thoughts and a feeling that my mind was vibrating with energy.  I did not have physical Akathisia.  I didn't pace, but maybe I should have for mental Akathisia.  People with physical Akathisia tend to pace.  I had what I have heard called Akathisia of the mind.  You may be having a milder version of Akathisia of the mind.  I'm not sure, but I believe there is a symptom of WD that is a sort of continuum of an extreme form of anxiety.  The continuum begins with thoughts that are anxious and it includes racing thoughts.  It can be, at its worst, highest end, an indescribable feeling that I try to describe as my mind vibrating with thought and emotion.  I would rock myself and sometimes my husband would rock me.  I also felt calmed by my heavy microwaveable heating pad that fits around my shoulders.  I thought the heat helped me (I was using it for pain in my shoulder and neck), but it makes sense to me that the weight of the pad helped me feel better, too.

 

3. Bouncey exercise ball -- this is recommended on this site in a post in the thread about Weighted blankets.  They are occupational therapy resources used for autistic people.  We are suffering a condition in our brains that might have some similarities to those endured by autistic children?  Some of those kids swing on swings, rock themselves, and like bouncy balls. 

 

Maybe you will find other ideas that are used for autistic children on the Internet or in other threads here.  Type

" survivingantidepressants autistic autism" into Google to find info on this site.

 

A note of caution about the bouncey ball: I found exercise too stimulating when I had Akathisia of the mind.  I was jogging a mile a day to counteract morning cortisol spikes, and my Akathisia of the mind became very intense.  I would feel better for a few hours after jogging, but I believe the two were related.  After I stopped exercising the Akathisia continued to be a problem for a while.  I read on this site that exercise should be gentle such as walking or yoga (no inversions).  That makes sense to me after what I've experienced.  Therefore, I wouldn't overdo it with the bouncey ball.

 

For morning cortisol spikes I found a sleeping mask helpful.  The blackout curtains did not work well enough.

 

I hope you are feeling better today.

 

Rosetta

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hannah what you're going through is definitely the med withdrawal. I have the exact same symptoms you have.

Lexapro 1/17 - 3/17 10 mg.  Switched to Elavil 3/27/17 10 mg

Upped to 20 mg June 5, 2017 3 days, back down to 10mg June 8

Up again to 20 mg June 12, 2017 4 days, back down to 10 June 16

9/17 dropped to 9.5 mg

11/17 dropped to 9.3mg

2/18/17 dropped to 8.8 mg

February 14/2018 Adverse reaction to zofran pill at clinic

10/7/19 8.48 mg

12/22/19 7.3 mg 

2/7/20 6.5 mg 

5/23/20 5.84

 

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Everyone here is so very kind. Its so nice to be a part of such a supportive community. Thank you all for your replies and sorry I went AWOL. I have not been having the easiest time as of late and I had a lot of stress going on job-wise. Month 5 off my medication has been the worst so far too symptom wise. 

I never did continue on with my RI but wonder if I should have. I took about 6 days worth of 2.5mgs in early Jan. I was having awful symptoms already and I wasnt sure what was causing what. One symptom I know I had from RI was terrible vertigo and strange electric shock sensations in my brain. That freaked me out and i stopped my RI.  Potenitally I had started off on too high of a dose though and I should have started my RI between 0.5-1mg?

This last week I have been having pins and needles in my hands and in my face. I have also been having daily migraines which has been really scary.  Im wanting to try RI again at 0.5mg. What do you all think?

 

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Are you feeling any better overall being out of the worst month 5?

inreally hope so!

 

hug,

lex

Drug free Sep. 23 2017

2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks.

2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg

2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain

2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain;

2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain

2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg,

2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on

2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks.

2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR

2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg,8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg, 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg

2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg,

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I am no better unfortunately.  Much worse..

 

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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what do people think about RI 0.5mg? Thanks in advance

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Hi Hannah, I'm sorry you aren't feeling well.  I wish I knew the answer to your question about reinstating, but a Mod may be along soon to help, I hope. -- Rosetta

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hi everyone. 

I reinstated at 2.5mg.

I wonder if its normal that escitalopram all of a sudden gives me the worst vetigo/odd brain sensations. I never had these symptoms when starting it before (except last time i tried RI) and i just dont know if i should stick it out and hope they pass. I seem to have much more normal sleep on escitalopram and sleep has been such a big issue for me since coming off that I would quite like to get it stabilized while i recover from my benzo wd symptoms

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Im not sure how to get advice on this forum - how can i stop my post from getting lost?

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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  • August 25th 2017 - Jan 3rd 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2017 - Jan 8th 2017: Attempted RI at 2.5mg- not sure if unsuccessful or just too high a dose to start with
  • Jan 8th 2017 - Present: drug free

I think you may have typed 2017 when you mean 2018 in your signature.

 

You have just reinstated 2.5mg.  If you have only taken 1 or 2 doses you could start taking 0.5mg or 1mg.  It is better to start lower and increase by tiny amounts if necessary.

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Plodding along inch by inch:  12" = 1',  3' =  36 " or 1 yard,  1760 yards  = 63,360" or 1 mile

Current from 17 Apr 2021:  Pristiq 0.2665mg  now holding each dose for 3 weeks

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015 

My tapering program   My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)  My website

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

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Thank you ChessieCat

I appreciate the work of all the mods here. I was just panicked and didnt know what to do.

I have continued on at 2.5mg. I hope that is okay and no one will criticise me for that. I feel marginally better mentally.

My concern however is the sxs. When i started escitalopram in the past (so before i withdrew in august last year) i never had vertigo or funny brain sensations as start up side effects. These symptoms appeared when  I tried to reinstate last time and also again in the last few days with the current reinstatement attempt. Im worried that these side effects mean im damaging my brain beyond repair? I want to continue but am i risking everything by doing this. Is it possible these symtoms will abate?? How long should i give these symtpoms? 

 

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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The vertigo is so bad i feel like im on a boat! and ive only had three doses!! I feel so much better mentally so im torn about what to do. Do you think this might subside? I hate to think i might have to go back to how i was feeling before reinstating. Maybe i just have different start up side effects this time around - its just strange because i cant find weird head sensations (like brain zaps but also not brain zaps) as a side effect from starting anywhere on the internet???

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Hi Hannah,

 

I hope you are feeling a bit better.  I feel better in the afternoon and evenings just about every day.  It will get better.  Healing isn't linear.  You may feel worse for many days and then have a good day or two.  Each person's journey is different.  What (and when) something happens to one person means nothing as to whether that will happen to you.  So, don't let another person's story scare you.  It's all gong to be ok.  Try to believe that.  I think I have suffered more worrying about things that have not happened than from the Withdrawal itself.  

 

Recently on my thread I posted some links to calming techniques.  You should check them out.  They are Chessiecat's favorite links for anxiety and panic.  I'll try to post them here for you. They won't work the first time you try, but don't get discouraged.  You have to practice using the techniques fir a while before you can break the anxiety loop.  Good luck.

 

 

Peace,

Rosetta

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hi hannahg, 

I'm sorry you get the strange head sensation from ri lex. 

 

It happened to me when I updosed lex in 2014, I think it is some type of parenthesis.  Mine started with bugs crawling, then morphed to various different strange sensations including pins needles, numb, silver, picking, squeezing, twisting, all in brain and entire head. They stayed with me all these years very severe.

 

I'm now 5 months off, l I just started feeling some ofvthese sxs lifting here and there but still quite bad sometimes.

Drug free Sep. 23 2017

2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks.

2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg

2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain

2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain;

2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain

2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg,

2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on

2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks.

2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR

2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg,8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg, 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg

2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg,

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Rosetta thank you. That's very kind.

I will make sure to check out the links.

 

Lexanger. 

That scares me a lot. 

 

Maybe a mod can advise me on whether to continue when I'm feeling these side effects.

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Oh sorry that was not my intention. Just want to share my experience. I don't know anyone else had any of these or as bad as mine, so most probably it won't happen to you. Only saw your post asking about these sensations so decided to share.

Drug free Sep. 23 2017

2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks.

2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg

2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain

2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain;

2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain

2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg,

2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on

2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks.

2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR

2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg,8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg, 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg

2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg,

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Hi Hannah,

 

Onset effects are normal during reinstatement. They are often more intense because the nervous system is in a hypersensitive and exhausted state, so the introduction of any new substance is felt as an "impact".

 

I think it's important to be patience here and hold it steady for a month or so at least. I've reinstated several times, and it seemed to take about half as long to stabilize as the time I had worsened. So if you were off 5 months, it might take 2.5 months or so to reach stability. The key is to give your body stability of the dose every day while it's adapting. More symptoms are usually not a sign that you should quickly reduce or increase, but instead are a sign that you should probably hold until they diminish and you stabilize.

 

For me, symptoms immediately after reinstatement also worsened for 3-4 weeks or so, before improving ever since then. So if you have a bit of a rough ride in early reinstatement, it doesn't indicate that it's a bad idea, but may instead just be expected and you will improve. The fact that your sleep has already improved is an extremely good sign, I would say.

 

If you see my intro thread, Ive documented the process or reinstating during severe withdrawals. I was 8 months off the medication and mostly bedridden or confined to a darkened room due to symptoms. I was extremely scared of adding anything to my system, since I was already in a place of extreme fragility and suffering. It did get a little worse to start with, but from then on it definitely improved. Maybe it would give you reassurance to read how the process was for me:

 

 

So overall, I'd advise you to hold steady on 2.5 for a month. I'd say sleep improvement is a very positive sign. I'd also say not to worry about slight changes or waves of symptoms, since this is expected during onset. And lastly, I'd say try some of the alternative therapies or techniques like meditation and tapping. Overall, an attitude that you are healing and stabilizing. And that there may be waves and bad days during this process, but you're on your way. 

 

Take care

  • 2008: Started Citalopram 30mg
  • Sept 2014: Tapered down Citalopram over 6 months and discontinued Feb 2015
  • Severe withdrawals peaked in July/Aug 2015. Totally housebound.
  • Sept 2015: Sertraline started @ 100mg on GP advice.
  • Oct to Dec 2015: Reduced to Sertraline 50mg due to side effects. 
  • Jan 2016 to March 2017: Tapered Sertraline to 2mg @ 10% per month. 
  • Severe withdrawals peaked again June 2017. Totally housebound. 
  • Diazepam: July 2017 5mg // Aug 2017 2.5mg // Sept 2017 1mg // 12th Dec 2017 0.85mg 
  • Sertraline Reinstatement: 23 Oct 2017 5mg // 15 Nov 2017 10mg // 23 Nov 2017 15mg 
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That was extremely informative thank you so much for this. I appreciate it  

 

I do wonder though if I should try a but less to start like was suggested? Maybe 1.5mg? 

 

Thank you again. Trying to speed write this as my phone is dying!

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Because you are feeling some improvement that usually means that reinstatement is working.  However, my personal opinion is that I think you should be lowering your dose.  I think the worst thing you can do at this stage is to stop taking the drug completely.

 

As for the dose, you could try 1.5mg and see how you feel on that dose.  It takes about 4 days for a dose change to get to full state in the blood and a bit longer for it to register in the brain.

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Plodding along inch by inch:  12" = 1',  3' =  36 " or 1 yard,  1760 yards  = 63,360" or 1 mile

Current from 17 Apr 2021:  Pristiq 0.2665mg  now holding each dose for 3 weeks

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015 

My tapering program   My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)  My website

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

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Thank you ChessieCat.

 

I followed you your advice and dropped back to 1.25mg

 

No vertigo today so perhaps this is a more appropriate dose.

 

Is it true it might take months for RI to really work for me in terms of full stabilisation ?

 

 

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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We can't say how long it will take for you to stabilise because it depends on many factors.  You need to listen to your body.  It is best to keep notes either on paper or using the withdrawal spreadsheets in the Glenmullen link below so that you can see the progress you are making.  It is better to hold for longer and ensure that you are stable than to try and reduce again too quickly.  You are possibly looking at holding for about 3 months minimum.  After you reach the time when you feel that you are stable it can be a good idea to hold for at least another month.

 

With my own taper I was going okay but when I got to 50mg (which was a tablet therefore cheaper and convenient) I did a 3 month hold and then again at 20mg I had capsules left so I held for 7 weeks.  Even though things are going well now (I am at 11mg) I am seriously thinking of holding for at least 2 months when I get to 10mg.

 

Keep Notes on Paper

 

Rate Symptoms Daily to Check Patterns and Progress

 

Dr Joseph Glenmullen's Withdrawal Symptoms

 

Stabilising After a Reduction - What Does That Mean?

Withdrawal Normal Description

 

Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

NEW!!!     INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder    NEW!!! 

 

Plodding along inch by inch:  12" = 1',  3' =  36 " or 1 yard,  1760 yards  = 63,360" or 1 mile

Current from 17 Apr 2021:  Pristiq 0.2665mg  now holding each dose for 3 weeks

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015 

My tapering program   My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)  My website

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

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Hi, Hannah, Hang in there!!  It will get better. -- Rosetta

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Thank you so much rosetta 

 

This is such a wonderful, supportive place. I'm so grateful for all the support.

 

I am a few days into my reinstatement and last night I had my first almost normal sleep!!! A couple of times I woke up as it felt like I stop breathing in my sleep and I suddenly needed air. It could just be in my head though. Whatever it is, it's an odd feeling.

 

I actually think in starting to feel a lot better mentally too. I still feel like I've got ways to go - but compared to before RI I am feeling a lot of improvement. I hope it continues.

 

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Those are very encouraging signs the RI is working.

Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.

 

Ativan 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, soon reinstated.  CT 2000. RI 1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept. 2016  0.625mg X 3

Nov.27, 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover + change to one 18.75mg dose, w/1 month hold.

Feb. 9, 2021, begin 10% every 4 weeks taper.  Current dose as of May 18: 11.7mgai.  Taper is 37.6% complete.

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 16mgai (44mgpw).  Aug 2016, discovered SA, holding at 16mg.  Taper is 78% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, zinc, melatonin .3mg.


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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Super news!

 

I had that breathing issue, and sometimes when I was awake, too.  I would suddenly need a deep breath, and I didn't realize it until my body was taking one.  It went away after a while.  

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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I believe i am starting to feel a little better every day. I hope that it continues. 

With that being said, I have a question. The last two months i was getting a lot worse in my withdrawal. My biggest symptom was intrusive memories and feeling like i was a teenager again in every way. I felt like a time traveler. My reactions and feelings were even consistent with that time in my life (btw has anyone else had this?). I am still feeling that way a bit - maybe just not as bad. I am still desperately hoping that this particular symptom improves as i continue my RI. Anyway my question is, if i taper off again more slowly, say in 6 months time, am i likely to face all this again? 

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Is there any place on these forums that deals with RI specifically.  I'm anxious to know if I might keep improving every week with mine.

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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Hi Hannah,

 

Im so glad you are feeling better! 

 

I had a period of time last Fall when I felt that I was a little girl -- about 5-8 years old or so, and I was scared and wanting to have my grandparents who took care of me at that age.  It was really heartbreaking; I tear up just thinking about it.  Other people have related having similar symptoms of "time travel," but I can't remember who.  I would hope that when you taper all your symptoms will be a lot less intense if you are decreasing slowly enough.  I don't have any experience with tapering myself.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Rosetta isnt it strange that we time travel this way? I have found it incredibly distressing. I am stuck at a particular age too -  When I was 18/19 and I was feeling very confused and hurt. It was a painful time in my life, although i wouldnt say necessarily traumatic in the way we usually consider trauma. I also have intrusive memories from all times in my life, however I am definitely predominantly 'stuck' feeling/reliving the time when i was 18/19.

Did this symptom end up just passing on its own for you?

Benzodiazapines:
Clonazepam: 1.5mg daily since 2014. Crossed Over to Diazepam to begin taper off in  August 2016
Diazepam: 30mg since August 2016. Tapered off over one year. Took last dose 18th August 2017

Antidepressant: Escitalopram:

  • February 2016 - May 2016; 10mg of escitalopram; quit cold turkey - no problems.
  •  August 2017: Reinstated escitalopram due to re-emergence of anxiety. Tried various doses from August 2016 - December 2016 settling on 5mg.
  • August 25th 2017: Quit 5mg cold turkey. 
  • August 25th 2017 - Dec 2017: Took a couple of 'one off' doses of 5mg during this time period - unsure specific dates
  • Jan 3rd 2018 - Jan 8 2018: Attempted RI at 2.5mg - got too anxious worrying about possible sxs from RI and discontinued
  • Feb 21st 2018: Second RI attempt 2.5mg 
  • Feb 24th 2018: Changed RI dose to 1.25mg 
  • Feb 28th changed RI dose to 1mg
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